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After (The End sequel)

After you left, I looked for you

Again and again without finding you

You were probably hiding

Where you know I can't go.

Then I found you, walking you in the wind

You watched the nights from your window, hanging.

At the end of a rope I see you, dancing

And I found you and admired you, dying

After you left, I couldn't forget you

Your face was still too familiar to me

On white canvases all my days

I applied myself to be able to recreate you

Thousands of portraits were born

But your perfect face doesn't have an easy contour

I beg you, come back, turn around

You said you loved me and that it was forever

Afterwards, you said you loved me and suffered

So after all this, why leave?

I would have done everything to have a future

But you or rather me, I made you run away...

I was inspired by a satosugu art to write this one

#poems on tumblr #original poem #poetry #poets on tumblr #writers and poets

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The end

Yesterday, I loved you

I don't know if you noticed

I loved you and I will continue

Until death, I will do

But now everything has change

I can't hate you

Although you deserved it

It will have my end

By this love, I condemn myself

By my hand, you won't die

By my flame, you won't go out

By your fault, I condemn myself

I see that you're mad at me

I feel like I'm mad at myself

I didn't love you

I hated myself

I can't take it anymore

I don't want it anymore

This love is too much and doesn't know where to go

Of my soul and heart he is a prisoner

You know I hate you, don't you?

So why continue to love me like that?

I have to go, far away, where you won’t find me

I have to go where you won't follow me

I know that with the pain I feel

I would have no trouble going down here

There will surely be warm

Surrounded by flames and fires

I would think of you even after my death

Premature, but it is better for you.

Today, is the day

My end is here and I have to tell you

I have always loved you

And it hurts me to leave.

#writers and poets #poets on tumblr #poems on tumblr #original poem #poetry #love #death mention tw

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ah yes, my big three…

#the smiths #arctic monkeys #amy jade winehouse #505 arctic monkeys #505 #there is a light that never goes out

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help me

#miraculous lb #miraculous fandom #miraculous ladybug luka #luka mlb

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me, right now.

#the smiths #music #i cant think of anything else #im obsessed #there is a light that never goes out #bigmouth strikes again #heaven knows i'm miserable now

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i would like to thanks Billie Eilish for saying things ‘cause i didn’t know how to when my heart shouted them

especially listen before i go

#billie eilish #vent tag

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sometime i wish i wasn’t shy so i would have more friends, then i remember that people are cruel and terrifying and i hate talking and suddenly im glad im alone

#self love #social anxiety