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prob going to the psych ward today..

keep yall updated.

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shoutout to my thighs, arms, liver and lungs for taking what my heart couldn’t

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i feel different.

not in a way that i am comparing myself to others,

but in a way to myself.

I feel like the past months have changed me more than anything ever has.

I don‘t know anything anymore

I feel so numb yet so fulfilled

I don‘t know whats real or whats fake

nothing feels real

nothing feels right

or maybe everything is just too bright.

maybe nothing changed,

maybe everything is real,

but what i know is

that i don‘t feel

and if i don‘t feel

i won‘t heal.

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How are you?

i wanna die sometimes but i’m fine

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well thats a good meme.

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Life

Life is like a carousel.

Sometimes its a up and sometimes its a down.

Sometimes its a rough ride and sometimes its calm.

Life isnt nice everyday but its also not tiring everyday.

You can choose your passengers yourself.

You choose who stays and who leaves.

You cant hold on to the past.

Dont be too fast on the carousel, or else you wont notice the beautiful things of life.

Making the wrong choices will be something you will regret, BEWARE!!

Enjoy the ride because it could be your last ride. 

                                                                               -Lara Plouschnig

                                                                                    -Khizer Asghari 

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wow

Lonely Days

Days Go By,every single day you think that you will get a Text from that one person.

 That one person who promised to stay forever. 

That one person who made you feel safe. 

That one person who made you feel safe. 

That one person who made you feel better.

As soon as you get ur phone You Go to their Chat… 

You see that ur blocked.

 A Wave of Sadness Hits you and you fall into a deep hole of memories with that person. 

You feel like Crying every possible tear out of your eye… 

But you cant, Your Body is numb and isnt capable of crying anymore because you cried out every possible tear. 

The same process reapeats every single day and makes you fall into a dark hole filled with sadness and loneliness.

Day by day you feel emptier and lonelier.

Everyday goes by like this… Everyday with a empty heart and soul,

#spilled poetry

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“Nothing lasts forever. Forever is a lie. All we have is whats between hello and goodbye.”

— via (quotes and Notes) 

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THIS MESSAGE. THANK U. REBLOG.

This is my best friend. At the moment she’s being kept alive by tubes and needles because her eating disorder is currently stronger than she is.

Does she weigh 90lbs? No, she doesn’t. Does it look like her eating disorder is “less severe” because she’s not “that thin”? Do you think her situation sounds “less severe” because she’s not “that thin”?

Tubes and needles. Constant supervision. Pain, anger, agony. Hunger, thirst, suffering. Dizziness, constipation, freezing cold. Passing out in front of other patients and staff. Painful injections of vitamins and whatnot. Nurses who’re force feeding her, who’re forcing fluids into her body because her eating disorder is currently stronger than she is.

90lbs or not, without treatment - my best friend will die.

Would you have walked past her on the street and thought she even had an eating disorder at all? Probably not, because people keep believing you can measure or estimate a persons physical and mental health state based on the silhouette of someone’s body.

You can’t.

Never underestimate someone’s eating disorder just because they don’t look “that thin” to you. Being “thin” is just one of MANY symptoms of an eating disorder and it’s far, far from the most important one. Anyone can struggle and if someone you know struggles: don’t assume they’re alright just because they don’t look “that thin”.

Eating disorders come in one size; MISERABLE.

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EAT SOMETHING PLS JUST A BITE AFTER THE OTHER

if you are having trouble with eating:

you deserve to eat

you need to eat

food is not the enemy

calories give you the energy to smile

you are worthy

you are loved

i am proud of you for fighting, you can do this!!

5 seconds of insane courage, it’s all you need

your struggles are real, so is your bravery

you are good enough

you are not a mistake

you are one of a kind

every cell in your body needs love

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‘It’s all in your head’

yes which is why it’s called mental illness you incompetent piece of shit

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im still growing up in that house and it really does feel like parts of me are dying

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the pain they‘ve caused me

the pain they‘ve caused me,

hunts me down

hunts me down,

every time I close my eyes

every time I close my eyes,

I flinch

I flinch because...

I see it again

I see how they point the electricity,

towards the artery I hit

the artery I hit,

to feel

to feel another pain,

so I can forget

forget the misery that haunted me,

just like the pain they‘ve caused me,

hunts me now.

It hunts me down,

as I feel the metal clamps

the metal clamps they shot into my bare skin,

after I could barely breathe

barely breathe because,

of the electricity they used to close the artery.

the electricity they struck me with,

even after I screamed in pain,

I screamed no.

looking to lock the eyes of the nurses that surrounded me.

they tried to calm me down,

but as the electricity struck again

I tried to pull away my arm.

now,

I look down at the bruises their hands left on me,

and I flinch.

I flinch because...

I remember the pain they‘ve caused me.

(i had a Cauterization because i hit an artery they basically burned the artery with electricity to close it and stop the bleeding but they didn‘t do local narcosis.)

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how EDs work:

i failed anorexia,

so i slipped into bulimia.

basically i failed not eating,

so i started eating and throwing it up afterwards.

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