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Day 7: Free day

(Tanjiro’s POV)

“No!” Zenitsu screamed, kicking out at me. I jumped back from my littles feet,arms going up in front of me to block it.

“Zenitsu please. You need to eat.” I pleaded, he hasn’t eaten all day! I just want him to try and eat something. But he’s being really difficult right now.

Zenitsu had a meltdown, and I don’t mean one of the loud, fake ones. I mean the quiet crying and sobbing. I didn’t know about it until a few hours ago, when Zenitsu texted me, in little space, asking for “Daddy com hear!” I went over to Zenitsu’s apartment, and for the first thirty minutes it was fine, I noticed the house was a mess (Some places extremely clean, like the kitchen from under use) But I figured it was nothing and it wasn’t until I caught whiff of the sadness seeping from Zenitsu that I realized that had happened. I’ve been struggling with Zenitsu for the past few hours now, He’s really fighting me on everything right now. I get that he’s sad but I don’t understand why that makes him so angry at me. Normally when he throws tantrums I sit him in a room and let him go apeshit but now when I leave he starts crying harder. He also doesn’t want to do anything but keeps telling me he’s bored.

An hour ago, he started dry heaving. I don’t why, but I Know we had been sitting in silence while Zenitsu sulked and he just started to dry heave. I got him over the toilet and nothing but stomach acid came out so I figured I’d give him medicine and feed him, then go from there. The fight to get the medicine in him was bad enough (I mixed it into his bottle of juice, he did not want the juice.) And now he’s being difficult with eating the curry I made for him.

“I no wanna!” Zenitsu screamed, kicking out at me again, I had moved back in to keep trying to feed him. “I’ gon mak yuck again!” He exclaimed, I sighed, frowning at the little as he kept screaming and complaining, kicking and throwing his arms around. I hate seeing him like this but I can’t do much for now. I sat next to him, moving away when kicked at or attacked. Zenitsu was very strong and he couldn’t control his strength while little. I waited for him to calm down, eventually he did wear himself out, throwing himself onto the floor and curling up after almost 30 minutes of attacking me. I put his curry in the microwave, heating it up and making him another bottle of (No drug filled) Juice. I walked out, juice in one hand and bowel in the other, sometimes persistence is key, and kneeled next to him.

“I promise you won’t throw up, lightning bolt.” I assured, Zenitsu looked up from behind his bangs, sniffing softly. “But I need you to eat, you’ll feel better a in an hour if you do.” I continued. “I’ll let you have a cookie after.” I added, seeing he still looked suspicious, Zenitsu frowned, still not happy with that.

“Chicken nuggets.” He declared, I noticed how he eyed the bowel, telling me he was feeling older. He usually doesn’t have the brain capacity to be suspicious before the age of 5. He’s been in a three year old mindset. I nodded and stood, Zenitsu followed me into the kitchen and watched me as I laid out the chicken nuggets. When Zenitsu was growing up, how home life wasn’t the best, a lot of kids liked to.. Sneak drugs into his food. And so, now he’s suspoud of most food, and won’t eat it unless he really trusts you or watches you make it (On bad days, not even then. It’s terrifying when he refuses to eat for days, scared that someone put something in the ingredients even though he lives alone and bought the food himself.)

“Here ya go.” I smiled at Zenitsu as I set the chicken nuggets down in front of Zenitsu who had seemed to deem me trustworthy and sat down sometime in the process of me cooking. I felt bad for putting the medicine in his drink earlier now, but I knew he wouldn’t take it otherwise, and he was at least eating now, taking small bites of the chicken nugget as he sat at the dining table. I let him eat, picking up around the flat and when Zenitsu finished he started to help, letting out little yelps at loud noises (The noises were actually very quiet and half the time I couldn’t even hear what scared him) but I just kept cleaning, assuring Zenitsu it was okay as we worked.

We finished, or Zenitsu did, I kept cleaning for a while longer as Zenitsu sat in his bedroom, curled up on the bed. When I was actually done I went into the bedroom to grab clothes, I needed to shower anyway. “Tanjiro?” Zenitsu uddered, I looked over and found that he had sat up, he was still in a ball but he was looking at me now. It was the first time he had said my name since texting me a few hours ago. I guess he had a nap, he usually doesn’t slip back in times like these until he’s gotten some sleep.

“Yeah Zen?” I replied, turning and looking at him, offering a soft smile. Zenitsu rubbed his eyes.

“What are you doing?” He asked, looking up at me, I could tell by the look in his eyes that he was teetering on the edge of slipping, in that space between the two, when he can’t quite fall into one or the other.

“I’m taking a shower. You want to come with me?” I offered, Zenitsu eyes me, tears welling up in his eyes immediately. “You can wear your swim trunks.” I added, Zenitsu paused before nodding. He stood and I watched him walk to the closet, getting his clothes and swim trunks, we got into the shower after I stripped and he changed, Zenitsu kept a good distance and when we got in the shower he made sure not to touch me, I let him, knowing it was more for him than me.

We got out and changed, and Zenitsu looked at me once he was dressed, I gently grabbed the dryer, looking back at him. Zenitsu nodded and sat on the sink contour, silent as I started to dry his hair off. He closed his eyes, scrunching his face up as I dried his hair. When I was done, I unplugged the dryer and put it away, Zenitsu slid off the counter and stood next to me, I turned to him, offering a smile. “Wanna change your bedsheets?” I asked, I could smell they hadn’t been changed in a while. Zenitsu nodded and helped me. I waited till we were done, the two of us sitting on the bed, surrounded by Zenitsu’s stuffies in his unreasonably cold room to ask about what had happened.

“I..” Zenitsu sighed. “There were a lot of things, I got an answer wrong, someone didn’t agree with my opinion, I guess I just started to spiral. I- I’m sorry for not saying anything sooner.” Zenitsu said. Looking down at the bed. I couldn’t say that didn’t hurt, Zenitsu’s gotten a lot better at talking to me and showing his true emotions but he still struggles and I understand that but since people usually confide in me, rejection to do so hurts a lot more.

“Well, I know now.” I replied, an idea popping up. “If I knew then, what I know now~” I sang, keeping my voice quiet and dipping my head down so I could meet Zenitsu’s eyes. Zenitsu looked up at me and let out a soft giggle, blushing and covering his face.

“Tanjirooooooo!” He whined. I smiled and started to run my hands through his hair gently, Zenitsu tensed for a second before leaning into the touch. He didn’t seem ready for cuddles or anything but he seemed fine with pets. And his mood could switch on the flip of a coin so it was likely he would jump out of it soon.

“So, what's with little space?” I asked, though I already had an idea of why he slipped.

“I wanted to feel better, it usually helps me sort stuff out but uh, it kinda blew up in my face…” He admitted, looking away. I smiled softly.

“It’s okay. Do you think it helped even a little?” I asked gently. He paused.

“Yeah, I feel more relaxed… taken care of.” He said. “I also ate.” He added, I smiled at him.

“See? It did help. It’s not useless.” I assured. Zenitsu smiled softly, leaning into my hand more before looking over at me, I watched him psych himself up before falling against my side. I hummed and happily pulled him closer, ruffling his hair. Zenitsu whined.

“I just brushed it.” He complained, I could still smell that he was sad, anouis, I knew that would linger for the next few days, but for now, I was holding him and he seemed to feel better than he did when I got here.

I counted it as a win.

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Day 6: Northern Lights

(Tanjiro’s POV)

“Tanjiro, I don’t think this is a good idea.” Zenitsu warned, I smiled as I led him to where the lift would pick us up, so we could go to the top of the intermediate mountain.

Zenitsu and I were currently away on our honeymoon. We were going to Canada for five days, then going to Hawaii for 5 days. We didn’t want to get away for too long, we both had jobs to worry about so it’s not like we could go away for a month or anything. I was still happy with this though. Zenisu and I are on our fourth day in Canada, we’re going to be here tonight, tomorrow and then we leave early in the morning for a flight. At the moment we were staying at a ski resort. We’ve been skiing for the past few days now, we ski during the day and then during the night we go to restaurants or have the equivalent of marathon sex at our hotel. It’s nice, and tonight we’re going to see the northern lights.

But that’s tonight, for now we’re going skiing.

“I think we’ll be fine.” I replied, grabbing Zenitsu's arm so he wouldn’t run away or fall as the gondola swooped us up, starting to carry us up the mountain. We’ve been doing this for three days now and Zenitsu is still scared of this thing. I find it funny, annoying and cute all at once. We’ve been on the smaller hills for a while now and Zenitsu and I are both getting very good at going down the smalle hills. So I wanted to try something bigger today. I figured it could be fun. Zenitsu seemed to have some very different ideas though.

“No you don’t get it! Would you take a toddler down this hill?” Zenitsu whined, frowning over at me. I noticed how he fidgeted with our wedding ring though the glove and I couldn't help but blush, mimicking him on instinct.

“I would take an eight year old.” I replied, smirking. Zenitsu had a system. If you wouldn’t take a toddler, don’t take him. It works, he’s as loud as a toddler and can act like one. He underestimates himself and it can lead to some pretty bad things. We’re still working on our self esteem.

“That’s too old!” He exclaimed, immediately freaking out at the idea. I couldn’t help but laugh softly, Zenitsu hasn’t changed a bit since high school. I smiled and gently rubbed Zenitu’s back with one hand. The other hand gently started to massage Zenitsu’s pulse point in order to help calm him. Zenitsu was calm by the time we reached the top of the hill. I jumped off a little early, waddling fast enough so I could catch Zenitsu before he went down the wrong side. Zenitsu still isn’t the best at getting off the gondolas, and next to the intermediate hill was a steep, master’s hill. I’m sure Zenitsu could make it but it’s more to protect his mental health than physical.

“I don’t want to do this.” Zenitsu said, looking over the edge of the mountion, looking fucking petrified as he stared over the edge of the mountain. I knew Zenitsu, I married him. He doesn’t need comfort right now, he needs a push. I’m going to be that push because if there’s something Zenitsu hates more than being scared it’s being left behind. I knew he would follow me as I waddled to the edge of the mountain. Zenitsu was still letting out little scared noises and a part of me felt bad about it but I knew Zenitsu needed me to push him. He always needs someone to push him and sure enough as I let myself start picking up speed, Zenitsu was right with me.

Here is the fun part. Zenitsu is always scared when he starts, he’s crying and arguing and whining but before long, he gets into it, he likes it, and then he shines. It’s never for long, always like a bolt of lighting, so bright, and amazing for a few mere seconds, or minutes, and he smiles and laughs as he does whatever he’s doing, perfectly in his element and perfectly him.

Right now was one of those times, he was shaky at first and then he got excited. I watched as the tears and frowns, the face once twisted in fear, melt into excitement and happiness as he went down, I sped up with him, Zenitsu laughing. We went around trees and when a ramp came up I watched Zenitsu go off it, I followed. We both landed, almost falling but staying up. Zenitsu beamed at me and I almost fell over because of how blinding it felt. I managed to force out a smile back though, watching the light shine in Zenitsu’s eyes as we flew down the hill.

Then there was another ramp and Zenitsu fucking fell.

We had gotten to the bottom but there was another ramp and Zenitsu had been looking at me so he went flying. I froze and watched helplessly as Zenitsu went flying and landed right in a huge pile of snow. I skidded to a stop next to it, several other’s coming over to check and I couldn’t see him, was that his ski? Did he get hurt, was this actually a bad idea?

“Fuck!” Was exclaimed, as a blob of yellow hair suddenly popped out the top of the snow pile. “I’m never skiing with you again, you made me fall!” He accused. I felt relief wash over me because he was fine. Zenitsu never complains when he’s actually hurt, he thinks it's a weakness. I don’t know what it is but actually being hurt’s make’s him shut down. The fact that he raised his voice show’s that; yes he is okay. “Help me!” Zenitsu whined. I laughed and pulled him out, we both tumbld in the snow. “Don’t laugh!”

“But it’s funny! You did a whole flip in the air!” I insisted, the two of us now lying in the snow on our backs, looking up at the sky. Zenitsu gasped.

“I’m not funny! I could’ve been hurt!” He argued, grabbing a clump of snow, he slung his arm around and landed it right on my face, I jumped up and quickly shoved it off.

“I’ll show you hurt.” I replied, quickly scooping up some snow of my own, Zenitsu kicked off the ski’s immediately and broke into a run, screaming loudly as I chased him. I ignored all the looks we got and almost chased him back up the mountain.

“Those are very pretty.” Zenitsu marvaled, head tilted to the sky. I smiled at the amazed look on his face. We were looking at the northern lights, we found someone who had a small cafe close by and got hot chocolate before driving out and settling in the snow. The car was still cooling down a few feet away as me and Zenitsu stood under the stars, sipping our hot chocolate. Zenitsu’s finger tips were red from the cold. I had offered to give him some gloves, Zenitsu said he wanted to have fingers, I offered to get him not mittens and he said he didn’t want fat fingers, we settled on fingerless gloves, Zenitsu seems happy with it. Though I do have to say, not having fingers is very annoying.

“They are.” I agreed, turning my head to look up at the sky again. I smiled wider as I saw all the light’s. This was worth it. Zenitsu sighed softly, shoulders slumping. I couldn’t help but find the moment of peace nice. Zenitsu is always loud, it’s nice that he’s being quiet, it means he’s content.

“Thanks for agreeing to this.” Zenitsu said, still looking up at the sky, I gave him a confused look because this was my idea and Zenitsu must’ve heard it before he quickly corrected himself. “Thanks for making me agree to this! I-I don’t like the cold, or going outside period. I’m happy you decided to talk me into it, I’m happy you’ve decided to talk me into everything. I know I already said it in my vows I rambled about it but you’ve done so much-” I cut Zenitsu off with a kiss, my face now red from more than the cold.

Zenitsu did say all of that in the wedding vows, he started to cry while he was at it too. Nezuko kept him from having a breakdown but he was shaky for a good 30 minutes afterwards. I was just happy everyone there was used to Zenitsu’s breakdowns. Zenitsu’s face was red from the kiss, or the cold, I don’t know which. But it was red and Zenitsu was looking away bashfully with a soft smile and I thought the flush to his face completed it.

“I was going to sing.” Zenitsu admitted, chuckling nervously as he shifted back so that we weren’t about to kiss again. “But I dunno if I want to now. It’s nice just like this.” Zenitsu said, looking around. “There’s a herd of deer that way.” He mumbled after, more to himself than anything as he shuffled closer to me. Zenjitsu really doesn’t like the outdoors.

“Whatever you want to do.” I mumbled, wrapping an arm around Zenitsu and listening to his happy hum of content.

The light’s were beautiful out tonight.

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Day 5: Ice Skating

(Zenitsu’s POV)

This is just unfair. Really it is. I’ve told Tanjieo countless times that I don’t want to go ice skating and he won’t listen to me! I can’t ice skate! I can sing! I can dance! But I can’t skate or even run really.

But, it was Tanjiro’s turn to pick a date and because it was getting to be christmas he wanted to do a christmas themed date. The best thing we could think of was ice skating. So after making sure Tanjiro understood my dislike of the idea I agreed to go ice skating with him. And that's how we got here.

“Tanjiro I’m gonna die.” I said, hands gripping Tanjiro’s arm tightly in fear of falling over. I was wearing my skates. Tanjiro was also wearing skates but was somehow perfectly stable in them. Even with my dumb ass grabbing onto him for dear life.

“You’ll be fine Zenitsu.” Tanjiro laughed softly, grabbing my forearms to keep me upright. I frowned as I looked up at him, flushing when I saw his face, red from the cold that surrounded the rink and eyes still caring as always. “Once we get in the rink it’ll be easier!” He insisted, starting to lead me over to the rink.

“No! The rink is covered in ice! I’m gonna fall Tanjiro please!” I begged, but had no choice but to follow him unless I wanted to risk falling. (I could’ve leaned on a wall, but I also really didn’t want Tanjiro to leave me alone. And I knew Tanjiro would be sad if I stayed behind since this was supposed to be a date.)

“I’ll help you! I’ve done this before.” Tanjiro replied, but I saw his face twist in that way it always does when he lies and I knew I was definitely going to die.

“No you haven't! You’re lying!” I cried, tears actually spilling over. I couldn’t get him to stop though, stuck following him to the rink. Now we were at the entrance of the rink.

“I have! I mean, not on ice but I have skated!” He said. I felt a sob bubble up and had to hold it back, though I couldn’t stop the strangled cry that left as we got onto the ice, my feet immediately slipping. Tanjiro seemed to be trying to get the ropes himself, in turn having let go of me, but he was still standing in one place. I on the other hand was slowly sliding to the middle of the rink, tears making it hard to see.

“Tanjiro!” I cried, ignoring how many people looked over at me. The rink was relatively full and while that meant I wasn’t the only one who was struggling it also meant that everyone could hear and see me and that was just embarrassing. Tanjiro didn’t seem to care, head popping up and looking over at me.

“Oh! Zenitsu!” He exclaimed, I felt more tears pour down my face as I slowed to a stop, totally frozen. What do I do now? I’ve stopped and I’m standing but I can’t move. I heard the scraping of metal against ice all around me and it felt like it was grinding into my skull. I felt tears roll down faster, this was to much, I didn’t want to come I don’t want to be here-

“Hey, calm down.” Tanjiro’s calm voice cut through my thoughts, and suddenly there were earmuffs placed over my ears. It didn’t do much to help with the grinding of all the people skating but it did help me calm down some. “I know it’s a lot. But it’s like roller skating!” He exclaimed, smiling at me as he wrapped an arm around my waist causing me to go redder than I already was (Crying and it being cold were not a good mix)

“I bike! Not skate!” I replied. Tanjiro chuckled nervously.

“Oh, yeah.” He replied with a laugh as he started to move us, pushing off of the ice covered floor and causing us to start moving. “You gotta angle your feet differently.” He said using his own foot to nuge mine into the right spots. “I’ll help you but I think you can be doing this on your own by the time we leave!”

“Really?” I asked, turning to look back at him. Tanjiro knew how to play me perfectly. It should never be “I want you to” It’s always “I think you could” Expectations break me while encouragement builds me.

“Yeah! You totally could!” Tanjiro kissed my cheek and soon, as Tanjiro thought, we were skating around together. Tanjiro was doing way better than me but I could kinda keep up with him and my falling was kept to a minimum.

“Couples on the floor!” Was suddenly exclaimed, then a cheesy romance song started to play, one that I didn’t recognize. People left the dance floor and there were only three couples left, one of them being me and Tanjiro. The other two were straight (From what I could tell) And I felt fear shoot through me. What if they tell us to leave? I didn’t have enough time to panic though as I was grabbed, I looked over to see Tanjiro.

“Let’s try it?” He offered. I paused, I barely knew how to turn! He wanted me to dance?! “You’re good at dancing off ice, this should be similar right?” He asked, smiling at me with this dopey smile that I felt my face heat up at.

“Okay.” I agreed, because I could never say no to that face. The light’s dimmed and Tanjiro’s eyes had this gleam in them that made my stomach flutter as we started to skate around the rink, careful to avoid the other two couples. One of them was like us, seeming inexperienced, while the other couple seemed like they did this profenisally. I felt myself getting embarrassed and looked down only for Tanjiro to raise my chin up and smile at me. I smiled back nervously.

The light’s shone around the room, casting a pretty glow over everything as we skated around the rink. I felt like it was only us for a few minutes, just us skating and laughing with each other. And even though it was only a few minutes and in the grand scheme of things, this was so small. But to me? It was the world. I hoped with all my heart that it was the world to him too. That the small moments like this, that don’t mean much, feel as big as a marriage proposal.

The dance ended, as all things do and we left shortly after. We both walked home, shoulders pressed together as we clutched cups of hot chocolate to our chests. Tanjiro walked me home, since it was his turn. And the next day my feet had blisters and Kaiguke made fun of me after seeing me and Tanjiro kiss each other goodbye on the porch and Gramps said he might have to get me more condoms, but in the end-

I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

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Day 4: Love sick

(Zenitsu’s POV)

“What’s this one from?” Tanjiro asked, I looked down to see what he was talking about, finding that it was a healed over burn that I had gotten from an iron. An ex gave it to me.

Tanjiro and me had woken up this morning and choose sex, to put it simply. We’ve been going at it like rabies all day. I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve cum, we only take break’s to eat or get drinks (Sometimes not even then, we have three empty water bottles in our room) I can’t say I’m unhappy with it. It’s been rather nice actually, fucking Tanjiro all day. It’s been a refreshing mix of slow and soft to fast and rough. It’s dark out, probably around 8pm now. I was sitting on Tanjiros dick, I’ve been cock warming him for almost an hour now.

The reason for this is that Tanjiro is milking the chance to look at me freely. I don’t like how I look, I think I have too many scares, I collect fat in all the wrong places and I’m overall just.. Not good to look at. I know Tanjiro disagrees but I still feel bad about it. Tanjiro is so pretty all the time. I love looking at his body and I do it contant;y when we have sex or when we’re cudling while half alseep I kiss and touch and feel Tanjiro everywhere I can. I love showing him my love and I do it all the time. I don’t feel like it’s hair to keep him from doing it back but I also feel bad because I know he should be doing it to someone else.

But today I feel too raw and open to argue. I feel like he’s already ruined me, there’s nothing else that could make him hate me. If he doesn’t already he’s not going to. So I agreed in a fucked out haze after riding him till we both finished to let him touch and look. We have a lamp next to the couch and that’s been turned on so Tanjiro could see me better. I’ve been lost in thought for the most part, in a sleepy, content haze as Tanjiro’s wandering hands felt and touched all over me, my chest, arms, thighs. Anywhere he could reach. He even touched my back even though I knew he couldn’t see the skin there. I’m pretty sure he still had quite a few scares memorized there.

The room smells like sex, and we’re both covered in sweat. I had enough mind earlier when leaving the bedroom for lunch, to grab my phone and now music plays in the background as we soaked in each other. Tanjiro was a sight as he sat on the couch under me, eyes lit up as they scanned over my skin, muscled chest and shoulders on full display. I wanted to kiss him, start moving again, but whenever I did he would grab my hips and whisper something like ‘A little longer’ and I never have been able to say no to people who I love. So we were quiet and content until Tanjiro spoke up with that question.

“That was from an ex. I was almost 12 and I thought she was the one. I did anything she wanted and I apparently did a bad job cleaning her room while she was ironing our clothes and she burned me. She always burned the same spot.” I explained, running my own fingers over the healed burn scar. I’m surprised it never got badly infected since it was always being reopened “I was too sick to realize she was hurting me.” I finished.

Tanjiro frowned as he rested his hand over my own. “That’s horrible. I can’t believe you had that happen.” He sighed softly. I hummed softly but then Tanjiro was leaning down as far as he could and pressing a gentle kiss to the spot. I frowned and looked away in embarrassment, face going a bright red.

“Hey!” I exclaimed. Tanjio smiled up at me, licking over the scare gently. Sometimes, if I focus hard enough, I can still feel the heat, hear the sizzling of my own skin. But at the moment, I didn’t feel any of that, instead I felt Tanjiro’s hands and his warmth as he kissed at my neck and shoulders, probably targeting scares and I let out soft moans in approval. I loved this feeling, the feeling of Tanjiro’s hand’s and mouth and I was suddenly over aware of the dick in my ass, pressing right against my prostate and Tanjiro was moving lower, kissing as far down as he could bend while still seated in me. I whined and tilted my head back as Tanjiro thrusted into me again.

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“Are you love sick over me?” Tanjiro asked, we were laying in our bed now. We just decided to order pizza and were now cuddling together in bed as we waited for it. We had actually fucked during the phone call so that was fun. I paused hearing the question.

“Yeah? I love you.” I replied, turning on my side to look at Tanjiro who shifted to mimic me. I was surprised to find he seemed saddened by my statement.

“No but are you love sick?” He asked, sound singing with sadness and worry as he looked at me.”Like the kind where you would stay even if I hurt you?” He asked. I paused, not knowing how to reply to that. I glanced away trying to figure out what the right answer was.

“Yeah.” I said, eventually. I don’t honestly know if I could ever leave Tanjiro. This seemed to be the wrong answer, oddly enough, Tanjiro’s sound filling with sadness and worry all over again as he sat up so he was propped up on one of his elbows.

“That’s not good! If I hurt you, you need to break up with me!” Tanjiro insisted. “Or-or you need to tell me if I don’t know.” He frowned at me. “I don’t wanna hurt you!” He insisted, so I sat up quickly and cupped Tanjiros cheeks. I felt tears well and fall over at the hurt and worry in Tanjiro’s sound. I've always been a cry baby, it hasn’t changed now. HOnestly I’m kinda surprised that I can even cry anymore with ow much we’ve fucked, and I’ve cried tofay. I mean we’ve been drinking fluids and all but how fast could my body really work to make new… everything.

“I’ll tell you if you hurt me.” I started, already making a whole explanation in my head. Tanjiro looked away, hands gripping my wrists. “I will.” I insisted, hearing he didn’t believe me. “I’ll tell you, I know you would never want to. Hey, I mean even if I didn’t you could smell i-”

“It’s not about that!” Tanjiro said cutting me off. “It’s about you trusting me! If you can’t even tell me when I’m doing wrong, I could get away with anything around you! I don’t want that to happen because if something happens and I change, then you’ll let me walk all over you! I don’t want that!” Tanjiro rambled. I got what he meant so instead of arguing I just leaned in and kissed him.

“Fine then. I’m not love sick for you.”

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Day 3: Sharing Clothes.

(Tanjiro’s POV)

All of my clothes are missing. I don’t know where they’ve been going, I wish I did but I don’t. I’m rather organized, not as organized as Zenitsu, but I know where my thing’s are. So the fact that my clothes seem to be being eaten by the house is concerning. I couldn’t figure out where they were going.

Until I did.

I was at Zenitsu’s house and I figured there wouldn’t be any harm in taking some of Zenitsu’s clothes for a while. Zenitsu like baggy, or femeine clothes, everything else was only for outside wear and he usually avoided going outside unless he went to school (Zenitsu has an odd hate for nature and people alike) So those were the options. Baggy shirts were nice but I still didn’t fit most of Zenitsu’s pants unless they were sweatpants and I didn’t like sleeping in those when me and Zenitsu cuddled because it got very hot, very quick. So I kept digging and when I opened the last drawer in Zenitsu’s dresser I could see a lot of familiar clothes.

“Tanjiro!?” I turned to find Zenitsu, he looked mortified seeing me hovering over that drawer. His face paling (Yet still somehow flushed, Zenitsu does this nightly routine that involves a lot of skin care items, it always leaves his face looking shiny and flushed) I froze and then Zenitsu was running towards me. “What are you doing!?” He yelled running right into me and knocking us both down. “You can’t just go through my things!” He yelled, slamming his hand’s down on my shoulders and pinning me to the ground. He had tears in his eyes and yet he looked very angry. I felt my own anger well up because those were my clothes! I knew what my clothes looked like!

“Why do you have my clothes? I need those!” I replied, easily flipping us so Zenitsu was under me. He flushed up, I wish I knew how he didn’t get dizzy from the quickness of it. He looked away and a soft strangled noise left his throat. I noticed it as one of his nervous sounds. It was a hum that had several pitches and cracks in it. I felt guilt wash over me, I didn't like making him nervous but I also had to know what he did to my clothes and why he had them. I wasn’t “mad” but I felt a little betrayed. He hadn’t told me? Why? We were dating and I wasn’t going to be mad about him taking my clothes as long as he gave them back!

“I’m sorry!” Zenitsu yelped, covering his face as tears started to flow. I felt guilt pile on and slowly got off Zenitsu, sitting next to him. I waited for him to calm down some, eyes opening again as he looked around, seeming to be trying to process. I grabbed his hand gently and after that it only took a minute for him to come back to earth.

“I didn't mean to scare you like that. I’m sorry.” I apologize, Zenitsu looked over at me and nodded softly, tears still beading at the corner of his eyes, I knew the tears wouldn’t be going away for a while, and the smell of salt felt like it burned my nose.

“It’s okay. I shouldn't have taken your stuff.” Zenitsu mumbled, curling up. I frowned and shuffled closer, hugging Zenitsu as he sat curled up.

“It’s fine. You can take my clothes but I need them back.” I laughed softly. “I need something to wear.” I added. Zenitsu perked up hearing me, looking at me with red, tear stained cheeks and yellow, intent eyes.

“Really?” He asked, sounding amazed at the idea. I nodded and smiled at him.

“Yeah. I was only upset because you took them without asking and weren’t giving them back. Just tell me when you take them. And make sure you give old one’s back before you take new one’s okay?” I offered. Zenitsu gave me a nervous smile before nodding. “Also…” I said before he could stand up. Zenitsu froze in place. “Why are you taking my clothes to begin with?” I asked, watching Zenitsu flush and look away.

“I just- It smelled like you. And it was always big on me and it made me feel… safe… cuss you make me feel, safe.” He mumbled quietly as he looked away from me, voice getting smaller and smaller.

“It’s like I’m always cuddling you.” I said, watching as he squealed and hid his face, blushing a dark red. I took it as a yes and pulled Zenitsu into my arms with a laugh

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“I understand that you like my clothes but I think this is a bit much.” I said, staring at Zenitsu. We had moved in together recently, saving money by sharing a dorm (Zenitsu and I got a lot of scholarships so we could’ve gotten into some dorms, but we just didn’t want to risk being in different dorms, and who doesn’t want to live with their partner?) and I had just gotten home from my job at the coffee shop.

I wanted to lay down and cuddle but when I walked in Zenitsu had gathered all of my stuff on our bed, by my stuff I mean my two favorite blankets and all of my pillows. Our blankets that we shared were on the floor along with all of Zenitsu’s pillows. Zenitsu’s head popped up from the pile, he was in my favorite hoodie, my horia over it. And I’m pretty sure I could see my shirt under all that too. He was probably wearing one of my pair’s of sweatpants. I can’t say I doubt he has on a pair of my boxers.

Zenitsu is sick, otherwise he would be at the coffee shop with me, playing music on the stage as always. But he seems to have caught something. He’s had a runny nose for a few days now and this morning was compiling about being cold, his scent was unpleasant, so I used our thermometer and sure enough Zenitsu has a fever. Zenitsu lost his shit as he always does when he’s sick, working himself into a panic as always. I knew how to handle it and after letting him throw up into the toilet for a few minutes, I gave him some medicine, a xanax and made my to classes.

I had checked on Zenitsu in the middle of the day and he was asleep on our bed in his own clothes but it seems he had gotten loney while I was away. Zenitsu is either complying or he’s whiny and needy. I wish I didn’t love it as much as I did.

“Tan-Ji-Rouuuu.” He whined, tears spilling down his face immediately. I sighed and walked over to him, sitting on the edge of the bed and letting him wrap his arms around one of my arms, starting to sob, getting tears and snot all over my sleeve and arm. I grew up with sibling’s and having known Zenitsu since our second year of middle school, I was surprisingly used to tears and snot and generally fluids all over everything. So I didn't push him away and instead let him cry for two minutes before deciding it was time for a bath. I pressed my head against his forehead, Zenitsu seemed to be calming down at that simple touch, he’s probably feeling extra clingy. I smiled softly at him as I pressed the back of my hand to his forehead, finding that it was still rather hot, but it was hot enough that he could take a warm bath and not overheat. The medicine seemed to be doing something and the idea of making Zenitsu get in a cold bath already had me feeling ready to give up. So I decided I wouldn’t.

I stood and Zenitsu let out one of his yelps that I’ve become accustomed to. I just smiled at him and picked him up. Sometimes, because of Zenitsu’s hearing, it’s best not to talk at all. Just be as quiet as possible. I carried Zenitsu over to the dresser and got out a pair of his boxers, followed by a pair of my shorts and one of my shirts. Zentisu seemed okay with this, staying silent as he held onto me. I was holding him on my hips, using one arm to carry him and the other arm to move around.

I carried him to the bathroom and set the clothes on top of the toilet before starting the water. I set Zenitsu down gently, making sure he was okay with standing on his own (I knew he could, but Zenitsu could be over dramatic and sometimes he convinces himself he can’t stand, it’s happened before. We’re working though the whole anxiety thing but its taking a while)

Once Zenitsu was standing on his own two feet, I started to undress him. I removed my horia, hoodie and then shirt from his sweat soaked skin. He was in my boxers and I just pulled those off with my shorts. Zenitsu started to shiver, I could tell he was holding back complaints. I cupped his cheeks and gently stroked, watching as he relaxed almost immediately at the touch. Zenisu was still unnaturally warm but I didn’t say anything, just helped him into the bath gently. Zenitsu relaxed in the water, eyes closing as he sighed, water helping to relax his tense muscles. I started to wash him off, gently running my hands over his chest legs before doing his hair. I scrubbed gently at the yellow mop. Zenitsu suddenly let out a soft giggle.

“I look like noodles!” He exclaimed with a smile, looking over at me. His face was flushed from the fever and I’m sure the medicine wasn’t helping him become more lucid. I just smiled at him and nodded.

“Yeah. Really yummy noodles. I agreed. Zenitsu giggled and went back to looking at the water, now smiling softly. I got Zenitsu out of the bath before the water could get cold and after drying him off, I dressed him. I picked him up and walked to the kitchen, wanting to make us dinner. Zenitsu didn’t seem too happy, wiggling around in my arms. “N-no.” He whimpered. I was confused, why didn’t Zenitsu want to go into the kitchen? Was he having flashbacks?

“No?” I asked, choosing the kind route. He shook his head at me and pointed to the bedroom,

“Room, please.” He said. I paused, confused but still nodded and then turned, holding Zenitsu on my hip until he wiggled himself so he could stand. I watched as he went right back into the pile, head only popping out to look at me. “Hoodie!” He damned. I was starting to get worried he was between little space and big space. I still listened and walked over to the closet, grabbing one of Zenitsu’s only to hear a teary sounding “No!” From the bed. I put it back and was about to reach for another one when Zenitsu spoke up again. “Yours!” He damned, sounding angry that I couldn’t get it. I paused before catching on, grabbing one of my hoodies and walking over. Zenitsu put his arms up and I had the realization he’s probably been little since I got home and I totally missed it.

Zenitsu seemed happy and smiled, flopping down onto the bed once the hoodie was one him. He grabbed a cover and threw himself around a small bit to get comfortable before relaxing. I heard him let out a soft huff. I knew better than to leave so I got out my phone and ordered out for us. I looked over hearing shuffling a few minutes later only to find Zenitsu looking at me with a childlike smile on his face. I smiled and reached over, tucking a piece of still damp hair behind Zenitsu’s ear. I really should’ve blow dried that. Maybe this is one of the reasons Zenitsu is sick to start. Zenitsu turned his head and licked my finger before looking at me expectantly. I knew he wanted his pacifier and as I gave it to him from our little space box, I realized just how much I actually liked Zenitsu in my clothes. He looked cute as he laid there in my sweats, my shirt, my hoodie. It felt like it satisfied some need deep in me to mark him as mine. I leaned back against the wall and couldn’t help but smile as I thought about it.

Maybe I should let him use my clothes more

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Day 2: Royalty

(Zenitsu’s POV)

I groaned as I tripped over another tree root that had started to emerge from the ground. Really, how many of these could I possibly trip over? I could feel tears welling up again even though I just stopped crying less than 30 minutes ago.

See, I’m the thunder prince. Or, the second thunder prince. This is good and bad. On one hand, I am royal, so I get to live in comfort. On the other hand, it’s a lot of responsibilities that I would rather not handle. I do get exempt from some of theos because Kaiguke is supposed to rule, not me since he’s the “First born” (We’re both adopted) But I also get treated like I’m lesser and have to clean up Kaiguke’s messes. It's a lot of give and take and frankly, I feel like I should’ve stayed on the streets. Especially since I wouldn’t need to be doing what I’m currently doing.

“What am i currently doing?” You may be asking. Well currently I am looking for a princess or a prince to marry. Even though I’m only 16, Kaiguke refused to find a wed and now I need to so we can have a heir to the thron. No, I can’t have kids with a boy but at least then I can have someone to raise our kids with.

The thunder kingdom is very open as you can tell. We are very frowned upon for being so open too. But we’re very powerful and our people are very happy. This makes it so people don’t bother us. So if you were confused, that should clear it up for you.

I’ve been wandering this mountain for a few day’s now. I don’t know where I’m going but I know I’m very far from my kingdom and that scares me. I’m just trying to wait until I find the closest village and from what I can hear it’s on the other side of this damned mountain that is covered in tree root and I’m going to cry again because it’s always me-

“Excuse me? Are you okay?” I acted on reflex, all of gramp’s sword training drilled into my brain and muscle memory. Immediately the boy was on the ground, my sword to this throat. Gramp’s always said I need to use my hearing more, but I was kinda busy sulking. I did hear the crunch though as I shoved him down and his basket broke under his back. I paused, looking down at the boy who seemed oddly calm for the situation. Did his life get threatened like this normally? I hope not, because he was very. Very pretty and was that his sound? It sounded so kind and- I should get off him before I have a heart attack.

I yelped and threw myself off him, sword being tossed onto the floor. The boy sat up, turning and starting to put the coal back in the basket. Wait.. coal? Why is he selling coal? He should be a model or something! He’s too pretty to be selling coal! Or even touching it! I immediately started to help, hoping that he would see I had it and stop touching the dirty rocks. I grimaced as the coal rubbed off onto my hand but didn’t stop putting it away until every piece of coal was back in the basket. I watched as the boy put the basket back on his own back.

“Sorry for scaring you!” He exclaimed, smiling over at me widely. I blushed at the smle, he was so pretty, checkered horia hanging off him perfectly, as he stood wrapped up in a scarf. Even the scare on his forehead looked pretty.

“N-no it’s fine. I-I am sorry, for- for pinning you down.” I stammered, glancing away nervously. The boy laughed and I swear I ascended. For a few moments, I was in heaven, I closed my eyes and sighed softly as I listened to his laugh, so pretty, so light and kind- wait he was talking again-

“- ur name?” I turned back in to catch the very end of the question. Did he already say his name or was he asking mine first? Oh- that was his hand. I reached out and shook the boy's hand, face only getting redder.

“M-my name is Zenitsu.” I replied. The boy smiled and nodded softly, so he did already say his name!? That’s not good! How do I ask again without sounding rude? I fucked it up! As always. Leave it to me to ruin anything good in the world. Including my chances with this gorgeous boy

“That’s a pretty name! I’m Tanjiro!” The boy- Tanjiro replied. I was about to start gushing about how pretty his name is but then he cut me off. “Are you okay!? You’re really red!” He exclaimed as he looked at me worridily. I was going to explain but he grabbed my hands and gasped. “You’re freezing!” He exclaimed, and oh were my fingertips turning purple?

“Am I going to die?” I shrieked, tears welling in my eyes as I looked at Tanjiro. He seemed to make himself calm down, offering a smile.

“No! Of course not! But we need to get you back to my house, I can go into town tomorrow.” He said, starting to lead me in the other direction.

‘Are you sure?” I asked, knowing how pathetic I sounded but not able to help it. I could be dying! Tanjiro nodded, his sound gentle and kind. I knew he wasn't lying so I just nodded and followed him.

“Aren’t you a prince?” It was asked, almost two days later. I’ve been living with the Kamado family, they know I can cook (Gramps thinks that to get respect from our people we need to know how to handle ourselves) I haven’t been able to tell them about the whole “Prince'' Part of me, I’ve only explained what my name was, since that’s all I’ve been asked. I tensed, NEzuko’s tone making me feel like I’ve been caught. She’s been very accusatory and suspicious since I got here and I don’t think finding out I’m a prince is helping her… suspicions of me.

“Yes.” I said, not making eye contact with her as I straightened up somewhere I had been sitting between Tanjiro and a few of his siblings as we all played with little toy carriages that I had made (As a reward to the kids for doing all their chores of course) This really sucked, I was really hoping that I could keep it quiet for a few mores days. Being treated as a person was really nice. The praise was nice but being a person who was more than someone to pamper, being a person who could help as opposed to be helped was really nice. I was an equal, for a few days and I was hoping my term as an equal could last a little longer than two measly days.

“Wh-what?” Tanjiro asked from next to me, I looked down. I felt like I had tricked him oddly enough, the room felt suffocating with how tense everyone was.

“And why didn't you say anything?” Nezuko was walking closer, eyes burning. “Do you have some sort of plan? Kidnap us and take one of us to wed?” She spat, slowly stalking closer to me, like a cat who was about to pounce. She was towering over me now, the urge to run nipping at my legs as I quickly shuffled backward, tears welling up.

“No! I would never!” I exclaimed, Nezuko wasn’t persuaded and seemed like she was about to serve, what I had feeling would be the final blow, I’ll have died in the Kamado household, death by a pretty girl isn’t as nice as I had always expected.

“Nezuko!” Tanjiro yelped as he grabbed Nezukos hand, I jumped and looked over at Tanjiro, Nezuko’s eyes softened seeing her brother. “You’re scaring him. Really badly. Sit down, I’m sure Zenitsu can explain.” Tanjiro suggested. Nezuko shot a glare at me before nodding and moving to sit. I was still frozen, tears shining over my eyes as I looked over at Nezuko, she still looked pissed, and was still glaring but she wasn’t attacking me anymore. Tanjiro grabbed my hand and I looked over at him instead, focusing on his kind sound as opposed to Nezukos disgusted one. “Calm down. You’re safe.” He said voice gentle. Tanjiro’s gotten really good at calming me down. He got me to shuffle back into my seat and I looked at the floor as the room fell silent for a few moments.

“So, you didn’t say anything because…?” Nezuko asked. I looked up at her and felt shame wash over me a new at the glare she was giving me.

“No one asked.” I said looking back down.

“We’re not just going to assume you’re a prince.” Nezuko scoffed.

“Well I’m not going to go around waving it in people’s faces! It’s rude!” I exclaimed, Nezuko scoffed at me.

“What about your mission? You’re supposed to be looking for someone to wed, right?” She asked. I swallowed thickly, looking down. Nezuko waited impainily.

“Yes, I am.” I confirmed, She looked at me expectantly. “I- I’m looking for someone to wed but I haven’t found anyone who is willing to in my kingdom. So I’ve been trying to search further and-” I glanced away with a blush, not wanting to finish.

“And…?” Nezuko asked, voice dagourse.

“I found you guys, and-” I glanced at Tanjiro who seemed to be getting angry. They really think I would hurt them! I couldn’t if I tried! They’d over power me! “And I- I’ve taken interest in Tanjiro.” I admitted, holding eye contact with said boy. “But-but the plan wasn’t to take him! I Just- I get nervous every time I go to ask and give up! I don’t mean any of you harm I swear!” I rambled, feeling tears spill over again as my hands flailed without my control.

“Why should we let that happen?” Nezuko asked, everyone else seemed shocked at the declaration but Nezuko still seemed suspicious. “You said no one in your kingdom wants to wed you. Why is that?” She asked. I deflated.

“I’m not really seen as worthy.” I admitted. “I’m a prince but many see me as ugly and I’m a cry baby and no good in battle like my brother. So I’m not even really worth it for the money.” I explained, managing to stop the tears as I talked, hitting that low point where I feel mostly numb. “I know the answer will probably be no, but I wanted to try and get to know you all before I made any big declarations. I was hoping that if you all got to know me I could be more than a cry baby.” I explained. I felt like I was self-pitying again, Gramp’s said I got like this while numb a lot, and it makes people feel bad for me. I wish I could stop doing it.

“I’ll try it.” The sound of Tanjiro’s voice caught me off guard, and the words were even more of a shock. My head shot over to see Tanjiro after it did process, it took about a minute though.

“Huh? Really?” I asked, not able to keep the excitement out of my voice, Tanjiro was blushing (I want to see more of that) and he had a smile on his face, that held a hit of bashfulness. I loved the image of it all.

“Yeah.” He agreed, nodding a small bit. “I think you’re nice!” He exclaimed and I felt myself flush at the complement.

“No, no, no.” Nezuko said, I looked over at her, feeling nervous now that I was made aware, again, that Tanjiros whole family was here and they were terrifying. Even his dad. “Tanjiro, you're not serious. You know how far away it is?” Nezuko asked.

“Oh….” Tanjiro mumbled, seeming to deflate at the idea. I frowned. That would be an issue wouldn’t it? I didn’t like the sound of sad Tanjiro. I wanted to change that.

“I can.. I can do long distance.” I suggested. “I’ll visit you all, once every week.” I offered. “I could also stay here for a little while or you all could come up and live in Stormur with us. I- I don’t really mind any, as long as I get to keep coming to see you all and all of you are happy.” I offered. Everyone was silent before Nezuko sighed.

“How much would moving to Stomur cost?” She asked. I paused, not actually expecting them to come with me. I couldn’t help but burst into a wide smile.

“Nothing at all! It would take a few days but I could cover the whole move! Gramp’s would be happy to have you all living in the city. You would get your own house with everything! We could also work to get you all your own rooms. Mr.Kamado could get better medical treatment since we know a kingdom who thrives off that and Nezuko could run a bakery!” I rambled, feeling excited at the idea of Tanjiro actually coming to live in Stormur with me, and the idea that his whole family could live a little more comfortably.

“That’s a lot. I’m sure it’s not needed.” Tanjiro’s mom said, seeming nervous. I shook my head to dismiss her worries.

“Not at all! We could handle it all! All I ask is some time to set it up, and then a carriage can come and get you all!” I offered.

“Yeah the city!” Takeo exclaimed. I smiled softly as I heard all of their sound’s lighten.

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“So, Royalty huh?” Tanjio teased, one hand resting on my hip as the other pressed firmly against my palm. We danced around the room together, both of us wearing dopey smiles as we swayed along to the music, my free hand on Tanjiros shoulder as our feet moved together, I was wearing a black suit and Tanjiro was in a white one. The light shone off Tanjiro’s mahogany eyes that I had fallen so deep in love with. I felt so happy, dancing with him. If I told 8 year old me that a man named Tanjiro Kamado would be my husband after three long years of dating I would've hit myself. One because I thought I was straight and two because I could never hold a relationship that long.

But I did, and I’m so happy that I did. Tanjiro really loves me, and now I get to keep that love for the rest of my life. And I get to love Tanjiro for the rest of my life. I can’t say it wasn’t rough, like when we both joined the army and almost had our head’s taken off by the demons, or when Kaiguke set the castle on fire in protest of Tanjiro moving in. Or that one time Tanjiro pushed me into the water that was definitely poisonous on that one date (I don't know how I’m still alive with this man)

But as I looked into his eyes, I felt unseasonably happy. That was all that mattered.

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Day one: Mistletoe

(Zenitsu’s POV)

“Are you sure this will work, Nezuko?” It came out as a plea, my way of asking for comfort or reassurance. She let out a soft laugh, I had to hold her hips so she wouldn’t fall off the ladder as she did. Nezuko steadied herself and finally hooked the last piece of green onto the hook that had just been screwed into the ceiling.

“I know it will.” She replied, voice calm as iI helped her down. We looked around the room, admiring our work. Gramp’s living room was covered in all shades of red and green. We had laid out covers and streamers and snacks all over the place, a few mistletoe’s hanging up with it. I could feel my face heat up just thinking about how risky this was. Nezuko snapped me out of it with a happy sounding hum, turning on her heel to go and get some more snacks, they would be here soon and Inosuke would be inhaling most of the food so we need to have a good amount out.

See, I’ve never thrown a christmas party. Probably in part because I don’t really celebrate Christmas, I don’t really believe in Jesus, or that version. There is probably a god but he’s fucked me over so much I can’t say that I have much faith in him. But that’s not the point. The main reason for the whole “I haven’t thrown a christmas party before.” Could also be due to the fact that I don’t throw parties often, period. I don’t like people that much, they scare me. When it gets too loud I shut down and people are really mean to me so it probably wouldn’t end well. I don’t throw parties but Nezuko suggested throwing a small party that would just be close friends, so Muntra, Tanjiro, Inosuke, Nezuko, Kano , Aoi and Genya. I figured, since I’ve hung out with all of them at the same time before, there wouldn’t be any harm in doing it as a party.

So, the reason I wanted to do the party? No, it wasn’t just me wanting to be a good friend (As bad as that sounds) I wanted to get with Tanjiro. I used to like Nezuko, and we did date for a small amount of time back in freshman year. But, that didn’t last long and after a few long conversations I realized I liked Tanjiro and Nezuko looked like him so to avoid facing my internilized homophobia from years of being called gay I went to Nezuko. It didn’t end badly, and now Nezuko is the best wingman I could’ve asked for. We hang out a lot, and apparently Tanjiro thinks we still have a thing going on, we don’t but it is nice to use as a cover.

So we made a christmas party and put up mistletoe everywhere, so I have to go under one with Tanjiro at some point. I feel nervous, because I could end up kissing Kano, or Genya, or even Inosuke (Inosuke scares me the most, does he brush his teeth? What if he’s a good kisser then I fall for him too? I won’t be able to do anything!) Nezuko is good at assuring me and said that-

“You could always pussy out.” Nezuko said, reading my mind because she’s a goddess like that. I felt myself blush and tense as I looked away. “I can feel your anxiety from all the way over here.” She scoffed when I didn’t move. “Come’er.” She said, opening her arms, I am not a strong man so I walked closer and let myself nuzzle between Nezuko’s breasts. She seemd unbothered, used to this by now. “You'll be fine.” She coo’s, petting my hair, I whined but didn’t argue against it.

I pulled away when there was a knock at the door, Nezuko smiled down at me for a few seconds before hopping off the counter, hand tracing down my arm. I don’t have a crush on Nezuko but I am touch starved. So really, most touches make my knees weak.

“Go set up the snacks.” She called as she walked to the door. I jumped into action, almost dropping the bowls three times as I made my way into the living room, setting all the food down on the table. “Hey Tanjiro!” Nezuko exclaimed, I felt myself blush, quickly rushing to the door, I tripped, because of course I did, the god’s hate me and this whole thing was a horrible idea-

“You need to slow down.” The world felt frozen as I looked up at Tanjiro who had caught me, keeping me from probably dying by slatting on the floor like a bug. He lunged to catch me, strong arms out and holding me up , my chest across his forearms and feet barely holding any of my weight. I felt my face rapidly heat up because holyshitheissostrongandprettyandwow-

Of course, I can’t have nice things, so it didn’t last very long. And because the world hate’s me, I had to fall anyway as Inosuke decided he would be here for only fod, shoving past me and Tanjiro, causing me to fall on my ass becuase stupid Tanjiro is only amazing when it’s convenint for me. (People call me the living contradiction, fuck off)

“Inosuke!” I barked, pushing myself up in anger, I heard Tanjiro try to calm us while Nezuko laughed, and I yelled at Inosuke until Genya got there and I had to stop….

I got so close. So close. I can’t tell you how many times we were both right next to one but not quite under it, and I would freeze up until Tanjiro walked away and after Nezuko would look at me like I was a walking, talking disappointment and I would glare because she shouldn't be trying this hard to get me to hook up with her brother.

I didn’t get a kiss for most of the night actually. I had fun, but the point of the party didn’t make it though. We all ended up falling asleep on eachother while laying on the couch, leaning on each other with our eyes closed as soft snores filled the room.

I sleep walk, my friends know this, and a lot of the time they handle it well during sleepovers (which have become increasingly common over the years) But, sometimes I get up and I know I’m up, I know I’m moving around overly aware of it even. Right now was one of those times. I heard a sound, it was normally happy and full of joy and comfort but right now it sounded sad. I had to go after it.

“Tanjiro?” I asked through a yawn. I heard him jump as I rounded the corner that led outside, shivering as the cold bit at my skin. I had followed the sound, and was only just getting back into full consciousness. I forgot a jacket though. I found him sitting on the front porch, Gramps had a wrap-around one, and the whole thing was full of chairs and places to sit. I loved it, if I’m being totally honest. I liked sitting outside when it was nice and reading, not having to go sit in the dirt to do it. It was also very good for running from Inosuke.

“Zenitsu? Wait- where’s your coat! You’ll get sick!” Tanjiro said immediately, standing up, I could see sadness mixed in along with the worry, I could hear it too, the sounds mixing unpleasantly in my ears. I huffed and grabbed Tanjiros face when he got close, he froze. His cheeks were wet, he’d been crying. I didn’t like that idea at all.

“Then give me your jacket!” I declared. I wasn’t going back inside, but it was cold and I did come out here for Tajiro. This is how he repays me! Tanjiro paused, looking at me with confusion all over his face before taking off his black and green checkered hoodie and handing it over, I pulled it over my head, it swallowed me . Tanjiro ran around at his parent’s bakery, doing most of the heavy lifting and such. His backpack is also huge so his shoulders are very wide and he’s also a few inches taller than me. I went and sat down on the bench where Tanjiro had been. Tanjiro was in a long sleeved shirt but he still looked cold. “You get cold easily.” I noted.

I don’t get cold easily. I spent a lot of my days as a child outside or in house’s without heating, I grew up cold and I guess I got used to it. I’m not sure how it works but I bet being covered in scars also contributes to the amount of cold that I can be, since the skin cells get very badly damaged.

“I don’t.” Tanjiro mumbled, I think he was pouting but I didn’t want to assume anything… But he was probably pouting. A few more moments of total silence went on before Tanjiro spoke, seemingly trying to break the silence. “So, uh, who were you trying to get to kiss you tonight?” Tanjiro asked, I noticed the hurt and jealousy in his sound. I looked down, he probably thinks it was Nezuko or Kano, he’s probably jealous I would go after either so obviously.

“Uh, none?” I replied, it came out as a question. Tanjiro knew I was lying, and I could hear the disappointment in his sound at the lie. It made tears well in my eyes as I looked down. Wasn’t I supposed to be comforting him?

“Who was it? I wouldn’t judge, I know about you and Nezuko so…” Tanjiro shrugged as he trailed off. I could already hear Nezuko yelling at me about pussying out, and then I’d have to wait longer. I thought for a moment, face flushing as I looked away.I stood up silently. “Zenitsu?” Tanjiro asked, I held a hand up before going inside, Tanjiro called after me but in order not to wake our friends he kept it quiet and didn’t follow me inside.

I grabbed one of the lower mistletoe’s before going back outside. I walked over, hiding it in my hand. Tanjiro smelt it though (Yes, I got the real ones. Tanjiro and Nezuko like the smell) I sat next to Tanjiro on the bench, I could hear my heart in my ears and I felt like I could hear it slamming against my ribs as all the blood in my body went to my face. I raised my shaky hand up above Tanjiros head, leaning closer so it was over mine too.

“I was too scared to tell you, me and Nezuko aren’t dating bu-but she helped me plan this..” I explained. Tanjiro’s face was heating up. “I was supposed to do it during the party but I uh, as Nezuko put it uh, pussied out…” I explained. Tanjiro gulped. “So uh, I get if you don’t like me uh, back but I-kinda wanted to kiss you? Just-just this, uh, once.” I stammered out, by now my whole arm was shaking, well most my body actually. Tanjiro paused and then, he smiled. One of his hands went up and grabbed my wrist, lowering the mistletoe, for a second I thought his sweet sound would sour. Those kind eyes would slant and glare at me as he called me filthy before slapping me and running off like everyone else. But he didn’t, Tanjiro’s eyes shone in the moonlight, gentle and peaceful and all the things I was not. Then he leaned in, calloused hand wrapping around the smooth skin of my own before our lips met,

I didnt’ move, scared this was a dream and the second I did his lip’s would vanish into thin air. And then Tanjiro tried to pull back and it was my turn to act as I realized ‘Not a dream’ I pulled him back in, using my free hand to pull Tanjiro back in by cupping the back of his neck, I pressed my lips to his and closed my eyes this tie, soaking in the feel and the bliss that were his soft lips on my own chapped ones. It felt amazing they were warm and soft and when I flicked my tongue over his lips they tasted amazing. I wanted more, craved it, the need carving a place for itself deep in my gut.

And because I don’t get nice thing’s oxygen ruined it.

I pulled away taking desperate gasps for air, Tanjiro doing the same.”I-Zen?” Tanjiro asked, seeming to be shocked as slumped forward so my head was on his chest, tears falling out of my eyes. I just kissed my crush! A boy! My first boy kiss! First Tanjiro kiss!? I felt like I was breaking. So all I did was let out a garbled string of words. Tanjiro seemed to understand though and chuckled warmly, more tears poured out cuss that sounded so nice, could I hear that all the time-

“Let’s get inside before you freeze.” Tanjiro said, standing and picking me up so my legs were wrapped around Tanjiros hips.l squeaked in reply because it’s not everyday that your crush picks you up like you weigh nothing. Tanjiro carried me inside and helped me get the jacket off because he ‘Didn’t want me overheating’ I replied that he was a perv and probably hoped my shirt would slip off with it. Tanjiro took no offense (Which I took offense to) and carried me back into the living room, carrying me to a spot where just the two of us could sleep. We laid down and pulled up a cover.

Of all the places I’ve slept…. This probably wasn’t the best. I love Tanjiro but muscled chests and hard floor’s aren’t as nice as a set of boobs on a warm bed. But I loved it anyway, because it was Tanjiro and I knew I could be happy with that. So, I pressed my face into the crook of Tanjiros neck and nuzzled close before allowing sleep to overtake me, saving how stiff I would be in the morning for future Zenitsu.

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