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The Intruder

I watch through the window

frozen from the snow

peering in on where I thought I belonged

simply alone

the thoughts take over

my vision starts to blur

blocked by a hue

my eyesights gone blue

the anxiety taking over my brain

making me feel insane

making it impossible to talk to you

and I dont know what to do

I've always stood on the sidelines

been the friend who walked behind

the only thoughts on my mind

are the ones that aren't kind

and I don't know what to do

feeling like I intrude

on my own friend group.

- Lunar Poetry

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Unrequited

this is the part where I tell you

that I don't love you anymore

this is where I go to lie

about at least a hundred times

just because I don't want

to have to say goodbye

- Lunar Poetry

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Panic

who knew that all life could cause

was the panic mixed with bile rising

in my heart

when you're alone you're okay

but when there's people the fear won't go away

nothing to stop the hands gripping in your chest

squeezing until there's nothing left

and you act and say you're fine

they don't know you're telling the prettiest of white lies

- Lunar Poetry

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Time Doesn’t Solve Everything

They say time heals even the worst of issues,

solving them like the colourful cubes they’d use to “test” genius.

But not even eternity could fix this.

No amount of time could undo what you did,

undo this betrayal of trust.

This relationship is long gone,

I’ve moved on,

yet you continue to stalk my accounts like prey, 

unable to let go.

You cause this all and I hope one day,

you’ve finally begun to move on 

and change for the better.

- Lunar Poetry

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It Was Real To Me

When I heard what you’d done I felt numb

but also like I was on top of the world,

merely because it wasn’t affecting as much as I thought it would,

but now everything is hitting me like a truck

just over the realization you used me to recreate your obsession.

Was any of it real?

All you did, all of what happened between us,

was it real?

or was it another simple lie you’d tell

like the lies you’d tell about me to them,

or about them to me,

of the projections of you that you spread,

the manipulation tactics used

to try and sell your ruse.

I’m left questioning,

was anything you said to me,

said you felt,

was it real?

Because it was real to me.

You were the first best friend I ever had,

close friends tell me not to call you that,

say you’re not deserving of the title,

and I probably shouldn’t,

and you probably aren’t,

but I still continue to,

all because

it was real to me.

- Lunar Poetry

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Perfectly Ruined End

People used to look at us and think,

how lucky we were to have a best friend like the other.

Some even green over our friendship,

though what they didn’t know and what I would come to find,

everything shared between us a lie.

Used me to replicate your obsession

to get into their headspace.

Used me to have me on your side

when in reality he was a nice guy.

Used me to have one more person 

part of your plot to ruin his life.

They didn’t give you what you wanted,

nor did they feel the same love for you,

so you manipulated us, his friends

all in a plot of revenge.

What was thought of as the perfect friendship,

tarnished with betrayal and hurt.

Now thought of as the perfectly ruined end.

- Lunar Poetry

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Some Things Shatter, Some Bloom

Our friendship was like a glass jar left too close to the edge.

One little gust of wind knocking it,

leaving it shattered into millions of pieces.

You’d think given our situation,

that my heart shattered along with the jar,

though that was simply not the case.

Through this awakening

other friendships have grown stronger,

some grew back after you stomped on it’s flower.

Instead of leaving me hurt and alone,

this has caused friendships blooming galore.

- Lunar Poetry

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