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[lavenderp0ems]

was it real? by me :)

your last name rings through the halls,

although the talk not about you,

my mind still drifts to your smile,

and how i used to be the person who caused it,

then my mind remembers that now i could never be that person again,

i mean was it ever even real?

did you truly ever love me?

or was it all fake?

because now you think our love would end us,

that what we had is a sin.

you used to tell me that i was ur everything,

but now? i’m just one more reason to hate the gays right?

i mean what even was i to you? a joke??

can i count you as my first love if you don’t even believe that it’s love anymore?

and my biggest question,

what do you think of me now?

do you think i should burn?

because of the feelings i had so deeply for you?

do you truly think i’m sick?

even after i stuck around through everything??

and do you hate me because i loved you?

or do you hate me because you loved me.

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[lavenderp0ems]

why do i still miss you? by me :)

i hate the night.

yet i’m up till 2 am every damn day.

it is too much time for my brain to think.

for my brain to miss you.

you still fuck with me everyday.

i deleted every last picture, video, conversation.

but i just can’t seem to escape you.

you make me sad.

i can still feel the pain i felt the night i knew we would forever change.

the moment i knew you would walk away from my life forever.

i still miss you.

only at 2 am though.

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my people by me :)

summer is never easy for me,

too much body,

too much time.

a fresh broken heart didn’t help,

my mind was everywhere,

the world was crashing in on me and i had no way out.

i felt hopeless,

i was ready for the end,

accepting my fate.

however i ended up finding my people,

they taught me my worth,

how to be strong, and love myself.

something i never thought i could do,

who knew all my life all i needed,

was only a few towns away?

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[lavenderp0ems]

I Still Stalk Your Socials -me:)

i am happy now you know,

i don’t feel the aching in my lungs anymore.

the cracking of my heart has been stitched and sewed back together,

from all the damage that you did,

i was broken but i managed to love again,

i love him so much.

but for some fucking reason you linger,

my friends tell me i shouldn’t miss you.

it’s been too long,

i’m too happy now.

and i want to put you behind me and never look back so badly,

but you still carry a piece of my heart.

they say you never forget your first love,

and i never believed them until now.

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[lavenderp0ems]

you should write more poetry

i still write just don’t post it

[lavenderp0ems]

i know it’s over by me

i know it’s over,

but i can still feel your hand in mine even though we haven’t touched in 3 months,

you still have a grasp on my heart,

even though i ended things,

the guilt i carry is heavy,

and it hurts,

the tears that pour down my face are hot,

and each swallow leaves my throat a little more sore,

my lungs achey and burning,

still recovering from when you took my breath away,

the feeling of my heart stopping when you first said “i love you” ,

and now when all day we only have two messages,

one from 7am the other 8pm,

how we said we would be friends,

but it kind of feels like we are strangers,

the tense awkwardness in every text,

and yes- know it’s over,

but that doesn’t mean i don’t wish it wasn’t.

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my first love by me

i hope you know you weren’t just a stepping stone,

you weren’t a pit stop in my life,

you hold meaning,

you hold a piece of me,

my first love, my first relationship,

that’s who you are and who you will forever be,

never my first ex,

never my first heartbreak,

although it’s true,

it’s not how you will be remembered,

i will cherish every moment,

and never forget,

my first love.

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the heartbreak by me

my eyes water when i click on your message,

it’s from over 12 hours ago,

five words,

i reply with two,

yet it took me ages to type them,

my body froze,

and tingled,

my stomach aches,

where butterflies one were was now filled of emptiness,

my heart that once glew now felt shriveled and tight,

my chest crashing in on itself,

making it harder and harder to breathe,

my head pounding from the rainstorms of my eyes,

and my heart breaks,

cracking deeper every time I think of you.

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maybe by me

i wonder if things would’ve been easier if we stayed strangers,

if we never crossed paths,

the heartbreak could’ve been avoided,

but then again,

i feel that somewhere somehow we would have found a way into one another’s lives,

waltzing in unaware of what was to come,

and maybe if it happened later in life,

our story wouldn’t end the way it did,

or as quickly.

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[lavenderp0ems]

untitled by me

i told myself i wouldn’t let this happen,

fall for you.

i wasn’t going to date,

it wasn’t me.

but you somehow found the key to my chest,

and wiggled your way to my soul.

i knew it was a bad idea,

but I let it happen.

i showed you all of me,

my raw core with nothing to hide,

i unlocked yours shortly after,

and found my place.

but of course i should’ve listened to my gut feeling,

because we both squeezed too tight.

cracking one anothers beating heart,

and shattering them to pieces.

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[lavenderp0ems]

shattered by me

your name is ringing through my head,

taking over my mind,

images, memories, everything is all you,

it gets to be too much,

and now i’m shattered,

picking up pieces that are still falling,

the shards of myself that slip through my fingers,

crashing on the floor and cracking even more.

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[lavenderp0ems]

Dear anyone who needs to hear this,

you have a light,

you’re just the only the one who can let it out,

so have faith in yourself,

for you have a purpose and meaning.

love, me :)

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[lavenderp0ems]

“i’ve never felt this shitty in my life” by me :)

my mind wanders in the messy and tangled jungle of my thoughts,

it feels as if my stomach is slowly burning from a fire of hatred,

my heart hangs heavy and low,

i don’t know why it hurts so bad but it does,

I know it shouldn’t and i know i should suck it up,

but the bruising aches more with every breath i take,

and soon the vines have wrapped around my bleeding lungs,

but i’m more than happy to finally close my eyes.

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[lavenderp0ems]

Ode to the dragon fly!! by me :)

I remeber the day i met you so clearly,

the hot sun was creating a warm aura on my back and shoulders,

my 8 year old self goofing off at my grandmothers,

the grass was so green and tickled my feet as i ran,

the trees covered in colorful flowers sweeting the smell of the air,

i placed my finger out patiently waiting,

then i got a glimpse of you,

you swiftly landed on my finger,

our eyes met and my heart glew,

i was so happy to run my legs back to my mother and gush about how someone finally chose me.

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you made me like this by me :)

you ask what’s wrong and you act all sweet,

but i see the eye roll behind the smile,

the concern is so clearly an act,

cuz you know whats wrong and you know it’s you,

you just want to trick me into thinking it’s not.

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[lavenderp0ems]

I’ll cry out the lies i told you by me :)

i regret it,

i regret telling you the lies i did,

but it’s too late now so i’ll suffer in silence,

just like i planned.

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[lavenderp0ems]

The panic that overpowers me by me :)

The tapping of my foot sends the sense of purpose through my body,

Shivering all the way to my heart allowing her to beat a little slower,

My knuckles crack each one popping out a small amount of worry,

Slowly that scary feeling is chipped away at,

Breath sweeping out the alarms in my head,

Clearing and cleansing the space,

Slowly I start to feel normal,

More alive,

But then,

The damn thought that started it all wiggles its way back in.