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I. Am. Unmotivated. As. Fuck.

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I want you to know that I still care about you deeply. You will always have a special place in my heart, no matter how long ago it has been since the last time we talked. I hope you are doing fine and has found happiness. I really wish for your contentment. I had hoped for us to be at least friends but life has other plans for us. I don't regret knowing you and being a part of your life even for just a fraction of it. I just wished we had more time to deepen our connection.

Oh well. Life happens.

#personal #late night random thoughts #late night ramblings #friendship lost #broken relations #relationshit

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Ang walang kamatayang adobo 🍗🍽🍴😀😀😀

#chickenadobo #chickenwings #chickenwingsadobo #adobongmanok #adobo

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Futile Attempt to Update

It's a struggle when you have so much to say but you can't put them into words. Your hands are stuck on your phone trying to type something, anything. But you always come up empty. Thoughts are filling up your brain, squirming and trying to find the exit so that they can be shared to the world. Oh, but they end up just fogging your brain.

Ang ending? Walang kakwenta kwentang update. Hahahaha!

#DayIDontknowOf365 #personal #masabi lang na nagupdate

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Rereading old books and reading some of the ones I haven't read yet.

#books #bookstagram #bookworm #thetimekeepermitchalbom #anotherwomanpennyvincenzi #primitivepeoplefrancineprose #aprilwitchmajgullaxelsson #thetimekeeper #anotherwoman #thememorykeepersdaughter #thememorykeepersdaughterkimedwards #primitivepeople #aprilwitch #mybookshelf #mybookshelves #bookcollection #bibliophile

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Currently vol. 4

Reading

The Time Keeper, Mitch Albom

Listening

Havana, Camilla Cabello

Thinking

Talking while angry/emotional will almost always have bad results. Relationships and friendships will suffer and regrets will come soon after when things have cooled down. Sometimes irreparable damages happen and it will leave one wondering what could've been if they thought about things thoroughly first before opening their mouths to speak.

Hoping

For better blood glucose control. For the determination to exercise. For the strength to continue doing everything that is right for my health.

Wearing

Black boxers and white t shirt.

Loving

This cloudy and raining morning.

Wanting

An oven.

Needing

OVEN.

Feeling

Sleepy but weirdly energized. Wonder why. Must be the coffee. *shrugs

#currently #currently vol.4 #day10of365 #personal

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First book for 2018.

#nickjoaquin #quijanodemanila #books #bookworm #bookstagram #bookaholic #bookaddict #themassofstsylvestre #thesummersolstice #theorderofmelkizedek #filipinobooks #filipinoauthor

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I always have the profoundest thoughts while taking a shower. I kept finding myself contemplating about life, love, friendships and relationship while shampooing my hair or scrubbing my body. I was always so deep into my thoughts that most of the time, I forgot that I was still in the shower and when I look at my hands, they are all shriveled up.

#day8of365 #skippeddays3to7of365 #icantkeepthisdayof365thing

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Tapos na celebrations. Back to regular programming na. 😁😁😁 Diet and daily exercise na ulit. Brown rice, whole wheat bread, veggies and fruits na ulit. More okra! Hahaha! Less sweets, less sodas and juices, green tea instead of coffee (will try). More water. Last chocolate ko na ‘to, promise (INSHALLAH haha).

God, give me strength and determination to achieve all my health goals this year. Hopefully, bumaba na ang A1C ko sa next lab tests ko. 🙏🙏🙏

#diabetesdiaries #dm2 #diabetesmellitus2 #sugargoals #healthgoals #healthykaye2018 #diabetes #day2of365

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Day 1 of 365

Fresh start! Lel. I'm hoping for a fruitful year ahead. Will work on achieving all our goals, kahit paunti unti. Importante makapagumpisa. Importante magkasama kaming dalawa na tutupad sa mga goals namin. 2017 was hard on us, especially on me. But despite the hardships, we persevered. And all our hard work paid off. We ended the year in a much better place. Hopefully, tuloy tuloy na 'to.

Cheers to 2018! May this year be a prosperous one.

#new year #2018 #day1of365 #roadtofulfillment

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Currently vol.3

Reading

Kafka on the Shore, Haruki Murakami

Listening

Coming Out as a Modern Family | Modern Love Podcast

Thinking

I used to think that blood is thicker than water; that family, no matter how many times removed, will always stick together no matter what. But it was proven wrong so many times that I already lost count. I used to think that friendship, no matter how negative, draining or toxic it was, was worth the loyalty, sacrifice and love. But then again, I was proven wrong. There are family and friendship not worth saving. Some relationships are not worth the hurt. I’m better off cutting all ties with them, even if by doing so, it seems that I have lost a lot. In reality, I just released myself from the clutches of people who has not given me any happiness for a long time now. I know I am saving myself from further hurt by these people who call themselves my “family” and “friends”. 

Hoping

For better days to come.

Wearing

Red polo shirt and jeans.

Loving

That Red Gala apples from New Zealand is available again in the hypermarket. They’ve been missing for a few months now. They’re my favorite apples. ^_^ 

Wanting

New bigger bookshelf and a big cupboard to house all my baking tools and other kitchen stuff.

Needing

Exercise. I badly needed to lose weight to lower my blood sugar.

Feeling

Melancholic.

#personal #currently #currently vol. 3

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Remember this, at one point in your life you wanted this. You decided on this. Whatever struggle you are facing now is the consequence of all your past decisions. There was a time you thought that this was the best course of action you could take. So, don't wallow in regret. Nothing good comes out of it. Just go on with your life in the best way you can. Make most out of this shitty situation you're in right now. This too shall pass, right? Take a deep breath. Relax your mind. Think positive thoughts. Chill. Let go. Suck it up. Live.

#suck it up #this too shall pass #personal #the struggle is real #bad decisions lead to shitty situations

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there are numerous people pretending to be your friends, when in reality they're only trying to wheedle their way in to your confidences. then once they have your complete trust, they will stab you in the back to gain the favor of someone they deem worthier of their loyalty. a lesson i learned the hard way? be wary of a wolf in sheep's clothing.

#personal #personal rant #fake friends #wolf in sheep's clothing

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These past few weeks has been really stressful. One after another, difficult situations kept appearing in front of me. They're piling up really high and I'm afraid I can't cope any longer. My mind is filled with jumbled up thoughts, racing so fast I'm having a hard time catching up. I need a good, long cry but the tears refuse to come. I'm constantly thinking of ways to alleviate the situations but all the solutions I can think of are of no use. Should I do this? Should I do that? Will this work? What about that one? I have run out of ideas. I'm tired. My mind's tired. My body's exhausted. I need rest. But I can't allow my self to rest. I need to make everything all right. I need to come up with better solutions. Prayers alone won't work. Batman can't help me either. I am frustrated. I am stressed. I am tempted to just give up and let go. Should I give up and let the problem solve itself? As if that would work. Sigh. I think I should just grit my teeth and get on with all this hardship. As my favorite adage says, this too shall pass.

#personal #struggle #stress #frustrations

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Currently vol.2

Reading

I am Malala, Malala Yousafzai

Listening

Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets Audiobook Narrated by Stephen Fry

Thinking

About a lot of things. Family matters, mostly. I’m so stressed out by what’s happening with my father, health-wise. And now the mothership is feeling neglected. Add to this the fact that my partner recently resigned from her job. So now, we’re also frantically searching for a new job. I’m so tired.

Hoping

For my partner to find a new job within this month.

Wearing

A dress over leggings and my favorite gold flats.

Loving

Our new home. Transferred to a bigger room in the same flat we moved in to last December

Wanting

Neil Gaiman’s complete The Sandman series of graphic novels. A new, bigger L-shaped couch.

Needing

A very loooooooong vacation.

Feeling

Tired. Just really, really tired.

#personal #currently #currently vol.2

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i learned to not let myself get involved in matters that doesn’t directly affect me. i learned the hard way that i should not meddle with other people’s problems. but i still have not learned not to feel guilty when i have accidentally discovered some things that may or may not affect other people’s relationships. my conscience is nagging me but i promised i will not allow my self to get tangled in other people’s affairs anymore. so i should just keep my mouth shut, right? sigh.

#personal

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Nice

nice. adjective. pleasing; agreeable; delightful; amiably pleasant; kind.

nice. noun. a city in france; nissa la bella, nice the beautiful.

nice. noun. a person. pleasant. agreaable. delightful. kind. someone i unexpectedly met the day i had my heart broken. to say that she helped heal my broken heart is an understatement. more than that, she took my torn heart and mended it. put it back together piece by piece. carefully gave it back to me with a huge chunk of her heart mixed in.

nice. noun. a place. my home. her strong arms that hug me tight constantly. her eyes that melted my hardened heart. her sweet, and sometimes mischievous smile that always make my heart skip a beat. she is my beautiful nice, my home.

nice. my pleasant, kind and beautiful love. i will remain forever hers, and she, forever mine.

 -- Kaye

23-03-2016

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