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[introverted-shygirl]

Imagine This . . .

You're not only trying for your entire family and yourself, but your also trying not to give up on life. Everything becomes to much when you try for everyone so hard when all you wanna do is give up. Life becomes exhausting and you get more tired and tired as the days turn into weeks then into months. At this point your not even sure if your gonna make it to next year but your pushing yourself to do it. Imagine having to go to school for 8 hours a day for 5 days of the week and then working 5 days a week right after school from 3:00 to 12:00. It takes so much out of you and no one can see that because you hide it. So, Hi I gave you a little peak into my head and life and what its like and for the past 6 months i'd say I've been trying not to end my life and stay to have a successful life and for my family but its difficult and we all as one have to keep our heads up and get through life till theirs a breakthrough and peace. WE ALL CAN DO THIS BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT ALONE. I'm here trying with you.

#teenage life #life #feeling alone #fyp #fypage #fypシ #alone with my thoughts #being alone #introvert #depressing shit #struggle #trying #growing up

[introverted-shygirl]

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[introverted-shygirl]

#teenage life #life #feeling alone #fyp #fypシ #fypage #alone with my thoughts #being alone #introvert #depressing shit #life quote #late night thoughts #late night #real life #quotes #tw abuse #struggle #fear

[introverted-shygirl]

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[introverted-shygirl]

#teenage life #fypage #feeling alone #fypシ #being alone #fyp #life #alone with my thoughts #introvert #depressing shit #life quote #quotes #late night thoughts #late night #real life #monster

[introverted-shygirl]

#monster #teenage life #fyp #feeling alone #life #fypシ #introvert #being alone #fypage #alone with my thoughts #depressing shit #life quote #quotes #quotations #late night thoughts #late night

[introverted-shygirl]

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[introverted-shygirl]

Alone.

I've been spending a lot of time in school and home alone, which both aren't fun. On top of that I'm sick and feeling like hell right now. I feel so alone and yet I'm comfortable feeling this way and at the same time I'm not, its like I like being alone but I don't want to at the same time and I wish that my brain would just make up it's damn mind already because I'm sick of feeling this way, it's just so shitty!

#teenage life #life #feeling alone #fyp #fypage #fypシ #alone with my thoughts #being alone #introvert #depressing shit

[introverted-shygirl]

School

I just started my trade because usually you start your trade in high school before actual school but I have my first day of actual school tomorrow and I am not hyped about it at all...I don't want to talk to anyone at all (especially the people I've kicked out of my life because they were a bad influence on me and never truly acted like my friend). They would only ever talk to me and whatever when I was in school...never like check up on me like I did with them through like social media or even phone number. I'm not looking forward to it at all but you got to do what you got to do. At some point in my life I just realized that I wanted to get through school, graduate, and then get a job. That's it because I'm done trying to make friends and most of the time now I don't even like meeting/talking to new people, but sometimes I find myself doing so. Wish me luck, I'm gonna need it :(

#teenage life #life #feeling alone #fyp #fypage #fypシ #alone with my thoughts #being alone #introvert #depressing shit #school #high school #fake friends

[introverted-shygirl]

"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside while still alive." ~ Norman Cousins*

#teenage life #life #feeling alone #fyp #fypage #fypシ #life quote #sad night #sad thoughts #depressing shit #late night thoughts #facts #introvert #shy #hits different

[introverted-shygirl]

Always thinking about tomorrow.

So tomorrow I have a therapy session, it'll be my second one and I get super anxious before I even get ready to go and it gets worse as the time progresses closer and closer. I get that way because I never know what she might ask me and I fumble my words a lot because I am such an introvert, that when it comes to talking, I suck at talking. My first session went pretty well and I felt happy that I went but then for the rest of the day I was super anxious and couldn't stop fidgeting and biting my fingers. I guess it must have overwhelmed me since it was my first time doing this. I am feeling a little better about tomorrow though! Wish me luck and hope it goes well. :)

#teenage life #life #feeling alone #fyp #fypage #fypシ #real life #introvert #therapy #mental health #struggle #stress

[introverted-shygirl]

I feel like such a bad person.

Am I truly a bad person for wanting to just talk? I feel like I always am a bad person. Sometimes I wanna talk about current problems and other times I bring up my own past or other people's pasts. I try not to I just find myself doing it out of habit from always being stuck in MY past. I feel like if I ever want to talk to someone about how I feel that I am being to overbearing and putting to much on just one person, so then I just stop talking in general. I always get upset really easily too when something out of nowhere bothers me, like a simple little thought that just happens to pop into my head. I try not to let it out on other people but then I just get so overwhelmed that that I let it out on everyone who cares about me. Then I cry later because I think of sh!tty of a person I am for doing that to the people I love. What makes this all ten times worse it that I have Bipolar and I don't know how to control my emotions fully (I am working on it slowly) and it sucks because then it effects all of the relationships I have with people; whether that's a friendship, family relationship, or an actual relationship. It just sucks feeling like a bad person or the one who causes all the problems all the time.

#being alone #feeling alone #alone with my thoughts #introvert #lonelly #sad night #sad thoughts #depressing shit #reality #real life #tumblr fyp #fypシ #fypage #fyp #teenage life #life

[introverted-shygirl]

"True people cry when you leave, Fake people leave when you cry." ~ Terebinyaara*

#life quote #life #teenage life #fypage #tumblr fyp #fyp #fypシ #sad night #sad thoughts #being alone #alone with my thoughts #feeling alone #depressing shit #facts #reality #introvert

[introverted-shygirl]

Do you think I'm crazy?

Now most people are scared to watch scary movies/shows, especially in the dark and alone, but not me. Not only am I watching a scary show but I am all alone in a house, in the pitch dark and I find it almost comforting in a way. I never used to feel this way about it until right now, so I wanted to write about it. What would scare people even more though is knowing that what I am watching is based on a true event that occurred years and years ago in Japan. It's really late and most nights I try to find something I haven't already watched, because if you're someone like me who has a lot of alone time you tend to watch a lot of stuff. What platforms do you stream on? I prefer Netflix and Max the most, but on Max I have watched almost all the movies they have (that I found interesting of course) and on Netflix I am starting to run out of movies and now am watching a lot of shows! By just trusting what I write and if you truly believe me then you would definitely think that "Wow she really is lonely" or "Dang wish I could do that" but in reality I'm not all that alone. I feel alone a lot but I am never truly alone because there's either a pet or someone near. Also trust me you do not want to live my life, having all this time to watch shows and movies get frustrating because then you never know what to do with your day, and that's what's happening to me. I have no idea what to do anymore half the time and find myself sleeping away my days or falling asleep to shows/movies I've already watched at least 5 times. (That last part is not a joke...) I have watched the same movies/shows more times than I can count and it's very depressing after awhile. I've been living my life like this for about 4 years now, that's back when Covid-19 started till this day, oof. So the main question throughout all of this is, Do you think I am crazy? I guess we will never know.

#life #teenage life #teenagers #time #fypage #tumblr fyp #fypシ #fyp #being alone #alone with my thoughts #feeling alone #lonelly #true self #am i crazy #weirdos #introvert

[introverted-shygirl]

"No one in this world is pure and perfect. If you avoid people for there mistakes, you will be alone in this world. So judge less and love more." ~ Unknown *

#alone together #dont judge pls #move on #life quote #life #no one is perfect #love more #teenage life #struggle #fypage #fyp #fypシ #introvert

[introverted-shygirl]

Sleepless Nights

Do you ever just get this overwhelming feeling when you try to fall asleep? I know I do! It sucks because no matter how comfortable you are you just can't sleep. I just toss and turn and find my mind wondering all night long. Right now it's 4:30 am for me and I still haven't slept yet today. My mind is filled with thought's of what's going to happen the next day, or things that bother me, but mostly negative thoughts. It's always been hard for me to sleep, but I find it getting worse and worse for no reason. I just wish all the time that my mind would would just stop running for a minute, then maybe I could feel peace for just that minute. Most of my thoughts are about life, myself, and my past. I'm still trying to get over my past and all I've been through, it's just hard to at such a young age especially when your trying to figure yourself out to. My thoughts about myself are what most people would think about, insecurities. Lastly life.....I was starting my junior year soon and then only one year left of school before I have to face the real world and get out of my comfort zone. I'm not to physicked about the whole idea but when it comes to getting a job, i'm okay with that. I overthink most at night, just like everyone else, and I know it's hard to try not to when there just is no time to stop your mind from running but your not alone. Find way's to distract yourself whether it be listening to music, typing like I am right now, drawing, watching a show/movie, or anything!

#sleepless #late night #late night thoughts #fypage #fyp #fypシ #teenage life #school #the real world #life #introvert

[introverted-shygirl]

"There are worse things than feeling alone. Things like being with someone and still being alone." ~ Unknown *

#feeling alone #life quote #teenage life #being alone #sad night #alone with my thoughts #fypシ #fyp #tumblr fyp #fypage #introvert