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I forgot what it feels like

feeling ocmfortable with who you are 

#self reflection

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omg again #homo# sex # boobs

#gay

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I didn't send it >~<

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"En eh i'm sorry" doesn't do it

“You never apologized to me for hurting me, but I apologized to you 12 times for being angry about it.”

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Relax, take a breather, make a wave @

#meditation #pussy #cats #pretty cats #my cats #catsuit #white cat #anime cat #kawaii #relaxing sounds #sound #spinning #bpd #mental health #yoga #wave #breath #let go #namaste

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#art #painting #i only know the #painter #van gogh #sorry #soft #pastel and cute #soft pink aesthetic #art aesthetic #kind #aesthetic

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Amsterdam 11.07.20 #MorningConfession

I feel like everything is spiraling out of control. Why? Because I try to flee. I want to hide behind the trees and fall asleep on a bed of grass en get intoxicated by the fragrance of summer.

The perfect coctail for high quality procrastination.

Foggy brain /heavy boddy

Feeling overwhelmed

Getting over a breakup

Low seltesteem /Shit load of anxiety

Stress

To order just ask for the Sem's Usual, mixed and on ice. It Should be served in a long drink glass.. it might take some time.. or not at all

Dear me, whilst I write this. Come eye to eye with yourself and exept that you are running away from your dreams and that you will regret it if you do this.

You still got some time to turn things around.

#MorningConfession #personal #amsterdam #dutchie #self improvement #story #stayhome #mental health #procrastination #procrastinate #tips #student #bpd #borderline diagnosed

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coyotewillow on ig

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A dwarf titan..

#postivevibes #postive quote #quote #sadboy

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Give love and you'll recieve

#warrior cats

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Vincent Van Gogh - Oleanders, 1888  Oil on canvas

vincent van gogh

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Rant A BPD EXLUSIVE

i’ll probably delete this when I see the cringe ...

I want to drown in my sorrow. Do you know that feeling? When all of a sudden everything is just too much but you already know it’s more then you could take but you just want to power through? En then you start to feel everything all at once.

 And when you do you are just like fuck it, this wave is too strong to ride. And you willingfully accept that you have to fall into it and it feels soooo good to just cry but it is suffering at the same time?

At those moments I care for a soul that has seen the dark parts of life that know this feeling and is just willing to hold me kiss my cold lips and Cary the dead weight to bed just to cuddle and warm the soul that has turned to colors I've never known existing in me but are too familiar to ignore its existence?

#bpd diary #sorry for the rant #personal #bpd #feelings #emtional #emotions #emotion regulation #darkness #gray #life #sadness

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“When the day is over, let it go. Don’t dwell on what you could’ve or should’ve done. Tomorrow is another day and another chance.”

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Edgar Lee Masters, Spoon River Anthology