in the winter of 2023 I ran into an old workmate, who told me that one of the kindest and gentlest people in my previous workplace had died quite suddenly. Apparently she had felt poorly on a Friday afternoon and was dead by Monday morning due to an aggressive cancer that wasn't detected until far too late.
We were not close friends; I don't think she would even have considered me a friend. She was just one of those people who is very kind, and very patient, and who it is difficult not to love. She was also, very patiently, very ploddingly, trying to get to retirement. She wouldn't have had an exciting one; no doubt she would've just sat in the garden and painted watercolors and texted with her daughter and watched the cats.
But, unfairly, she didn't get the opportunity to have that simple joy, not even in her final days. She died so quickly she hardly had time to say good bye to her loved ones. Among the many gifts she gave to me, this last one has had a profound impact on my life.
I've stopped chasing promotions and money, and packed in the second job. I've started taking time to go sit and listen to the birds and pet the dog and pull up a weed or two and snuggle my kid in the morning. I've decided never to go back to working in an office because I loathe them. I've decided to stop stressing about the career ladder, the place I'm "supposed" to be, the things I'm "supposed" to be doing.
If we had had the chance to say goodbye, I'm sure she would have told me not to worry about what other people want, and not to wait to do the simple, beautiful things. The watercolours and the cats and the kid are here right now, all I have to do is be present. I wish she could have had them too.
This month is her namesake. Thank you, May.
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Clive Nichols
‘This was a few years ago before 6:00 am. when the rich light washes everything in a soft warm glow.
On the right is Viburnum 'Pink Beauty' the alliums are 'Purple Sensation' and the tree in the background is Corns controversa 'Variegata'.” clivenichols
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