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Really diggin this piece I have been working on. The title of it is "AlienWood, Land before the lost." As you see above at the top. AlienWood, the place where our creator designed and crafted us. Below, Astro-Urgent Care. The place where those who go that face near life death experiences. To the right Space Station 🚉 where we come in and out of.. last but not least, at the bottom right corner, I'm back at my original Pod. Where it all began a long, long time ago. fighting tooth and nail not to be imported back out again.

#aryclic painting #space #land before the lost #astro #art #art work for sale #escape

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Someone posted this on fb. And it was so sad to see so many negative feedbacks. People lashing out and actually so against healing. Talking about how healing could not happen. If so much cruelty is going on in the world. My reply.....

Its sad to see so many laughing and mocking the importance of healing.

Healing would do all of us good. Doesn't mean we should accept and lay down to the ugly truths of the world. It just means we heal unnecessary baggage from our past that we have no control over. Overcome that baggage and learn, grow and become better people in that trauma.

"Healing allows us to see, understand, and accept what has been done. Gives us the inspiration and strength to put it forth into the world and make change with the past in which we can't change. In that brings all change."

#healing #importantance #we must overcome #in order to grow. #no laughing matter. #my thought

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#battles #faith #galaxy #spray paint #art #wall murals #painting #obstacles #strugles of life #lost #astronauts

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"I am trying. Truly. I'm doing my best, I hope that's enough. "

#BPD #battles #Trying #struggling #inner entities #lost

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Don't give a fuck if it's Flat, round, square or on a sea turtle in a ocean. The whole of whatever the fuck it is sucks big ape balls and I'm over it.

#sucks ape balls #over it #battles #don't care

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It's been almost a month now since I left my abusive ex. He still is contacting me and also stalking me while at work. He somehow knew what area I was in. As he knocked at every hotel room in the radius.. He believed we were in a room two doors down and busted the huge glass window out. I tried keeping My dog, peanut silent but he had to say HI and gave us away. At the door, he paced back and forth for what seemed like ever. Noone came for help or called for help. Now though I see that Motel 6 is what you can call a dead zone. Every day all day and through the night echoes of screams and cries. The girl next to me I feel is involved in it. Peanut is probably what has kept my son and I safe. The few times I have found myself without him. Certain parties have approached me. Right now I think they are just trying to get a feel. Dipping their toes before diving type of ordeal.

I am Selling some spray paint art pieces to try and gather up enough to get out. Any donations would be greatly appreciated. I wish I had more time to go in-depth with my life and be more consistent in staying updated on here. As a single mom, working, and being on the road with no stability makes doing what I am passionate for almost impossible. And now I am about to walk into a courtroom. Another trial in life that is all new to me. Things can only get better or 6 feet under.

"I can only say there are things that stand In the way of other things and the ocean murders all of them." -Melissa Broder

#melissa broder #Art #Spray paint #Galaxy #astronaut #6 feet under #trials #motel 6 #dead zone #homeless #why? #battles #faith

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Homeless at the moment and trying to make it to some place warm. If anyone would like to please help my son, Peanut and I out. My cashapp is

$SnapColorCreations

Thanks and God bless.

#homeless #struggling #no one to turn to

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I'm a asshole because I spoke back...

On the clear and obvious.

It’s all my fault

I should of Stayed silent

INSTEAD I confronted you.

With each dish you served

I would serve you back a greater one.

And you hated that.

Thinking you could belittle me

Without a reaction or come back.

Grabbing up whatever it was you pleased…

Demanding me of all that and some.

The world is full of assholes

Last I checked there was no entitlement

Saying it's okay

To choke one to death..

#domestic voilence #strangled #controlling #abuse #never back down #all my fault #obvious #not worth it #fuck love

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Sometimes you just have to stay silent. To just sit back, observe and patiently wait as everything unravels it's self. No effort to be made when those who are wrong will do their own doing.

#spray paint #art #planets #todays thoughts #sometimes #observe #silent #do their own doing

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#horses #nature #American bulldog #ranch #life #scenery

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"In the midst of chaos I discovered that there was an invincible calm within me. No matter how hard the world pushes against me; inside me there is something stronger, something better, pushing back. " - Albert Camus

#surfboard #painting #art #working progress #scenery #landscape #california coast #escape #albert Camus #invincible #stronger #inner world #chaos

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Been working on painting this surfboard. I had it done once and was getting ready to coat it with epoxy. The night before though I had sat a candle on it. The candle cracked and burnt a whole through. So I tried to fiberglass repair just that one spot. However, couldn't get it to blend when painting. So I ended up sanding the entire thing down again. Which created another problem. Ended up fiberglass repairing several spots. So, here now Almost done again. But, I'm thinking of adding a glow in dark effect. Trying to figure out the best and brightest glow paint out there.

#art #surfboard #painting #artist issues #the struggle is real #best glow paint?? #help!!

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"Don't speak to me about loyalty. When I had given you the world; all while mine was falling apart."

#loyalty #just don't #all awhile #falling apart #life #truth

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My son said; I'm like a broken vending machine. I reject your dollar many times. and when I do accept it; You never know what snack your gonna get. 🤣🤣😂

#broken #vending machine #spontaneous #never know #things your kids say

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So much time I waste just spinning in a circle. With a million different ideas and directions; I wish to go.

If only I could multiply myself by a trillion. Then and only then could I take on all my wishes and desires.

But, I am only one-body with a million different dreams.

Here, I remain stuck unable to narrow down to what one is capable of handling.

Even if I decided at this moment, tomorrow it would be different. How and what does one do? Other then take life one day at a time and nourish each motion as they come. Though it doesn't get me far. As a career is a one pathway. Not a thousand paths in one way.

#battles #death of me #struggling #bpd #anxiety #broken fragments #inner battlefield

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There is something I hear a lot from people. Today, I heard it again from a close friend. He said like many have said. I AM a confusing person and hard to read. I guess a hot and cold and in/out back and forth sort of thing. First, I’m a back and forth all around everywhere kind of thing. My mind doesn’t stay in one place for very long. My attention varies on a few things…. AM I interested in what’s being said? And the environment surrounding me. I could very well want to comprehend what is being said. However, the noise and amount of it depicts the rather I’m fully present or the harder it’ll be to draw me in. I’m jumpy and get easily startled a lot. Not because I am doing anything wrong. But, because of something called hypervigilance. Stemming from being around and through a lot. And even though I drift off and tend to isolate. I am still a all in kind of person. Though, If I am into someone. I won’t drown myself in them. I can love and think about someone all day.. yet still go on doing me.. I won’t fight for ones attention or time. Because I shouldn’t have to.. if for whatever reason you don’t like how I come across to you. Then maybe it’ll be a good idea to stand in front of a mirror and reflect on yourself. Because it could just very well be something that’s called mirroring.. I let go just as fast as I fall. But if I let go then it’s more likely because you failed to see my worth. I guess on the outside I come across careless. Inside my emotions are just very well tamed. Allowing those to breath and live how they wish to. And not letting whatever that be influence my path and journey. It's a nonchalant all around kinda thing.

#I AM #confusing #hard to read #hot/cold #hypervigilance #mirroring #ptsd #anxiety #nonchalant #battles #truth #being honest

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Too keep moving forward

Though everything

And everyone keeps pushing back

Too keep moving forward

Even when you just....

Wanna fall into a hole.....

And die.

That's real strength

#moving forward #strength #battles #push ahead