Do you know it when you give up everything to finish reading a book series quickly because you’re so invested in it but you become obsessed with it and then you actually finish it and the void is immediately there. Like what do I do with my life now. Do I reread it? Do I drown myself in fanfiction? Do I draw my babies? Do I lie in bed all sad and miss my babies so much I cant live my life normally? Do I try to move on and start reading something new knowing my mind is still deep in the other series? Clearly it’s impossible. What do I doooo
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I haven't seen new art from you in a while, are you alright? <3
so Yes, no, yes, no, yes??
It's complicated
Yes. I am gainfully employed as a graphic designer. This is good for living, but bad in that I use up all my FOCUS ON ART energy doing that and come home fried and don't do art.
No, I'm not doing.... great. Never at a threat of not being here anymore or completely stopping but just sad and feeling stupid self worth bs. Additionally since all the apps have changed and I was never... big to begin with, I feel like I'm screaming into the void and getting this chasm of silence. My favorite sites have always been the ones where people get to yell with me about their favs or interact w me. The lack of interaction is... stifling. I feel unwanted and it demotivates me to even think of working on my own projects
Yes, I've been kinda consistently commissioned and commissioned to do BIG art pieces, so all my time I set aside for art go into those things. Meaning I don't make little arts
No, I've been busy as hell. Partly w the other commissions, making it so even if a doodle i feel guilty for posting it when i SHOULD have been working on commissions. Partly cause it's the GD holidays and I have to logistically figure out sending presents to my sisters ACROSS THE COUNTRY and getting gifts for loved ones, and making food, and keeping up with life. and I don't do that... well... without neglecting a lot of other things.
Yes, I'm okay. I've been making up stories for my OC Blorbos, and doodling them. But I forget to post them. (also unsure if anyone would want to hear about them)
I have a set schedule of streaming Mondays and Fridays to kinda force myself to work on art. Cause I know I WANT to and I know I will enjoy it once I do, but convincing gremlin ADHD executive dysfunction brain to believe that is hard.
I feel like a failure of an artist, and I know this .... lean art period will give way. But it might take changing a lot of ... mentally unhelpful situations in my life. More than ever I'm feeling disorganized and helpless.
I want to be like the bigger artists with consistent art and merch and content. But like all things in my life, I'm heartbreakingly feeling like I'm so behind and don't even understand how to do it to catch up.
I'm hoping that once I clear the Marvel Trumps Hate Auction Fills I'm working on I'll have a little space to work on things.
Thanks for checking in. It's... reassuringly unexpected to be noticed.
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Girl I should've started working on Part Two of DST two hours ago already WHERE THE FUCK DID MY MOTIVATION GO AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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When you're working on a fanart but suddenly you get the idea for another one, so you either:
1) stop, and go work on the other idea
2) say I'll do it later (but you never do)
So yeah. It's just a cycle of constant suffering.
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⚠️UPDATE⚠️
so, there are some things I’ve said I would be drawing / things I said I would participate in, and while I still intend to, it may be…late. It all depends.
I’m having a bit of a medical emergency at the moment, and MAY not have access to art supplies for at least the next few days.
(sigh doing traditional sucks sometimes FR)
however, I do have some random things I’ve already done, and I’m physically capable of holding a pencil X) I’d be shocked if I couldn’t get my hands on a sketchbook!
so I’m not going anywhere just um.
sorry if I can’t fulfill the projects I mentioned at a satisfactory time :,) probably be sketches and things I took pictures of previously for a hot second <3
that’s all bye bye now ✌️ 🌸
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Autistic artist problems: Struggling to draw a headshot portrait because of my fear of eye contact.
he just keeps staring at me and i don't like it :(
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Why is my brain wired like this???
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Tumblr nuking it’s tag system is really inconvenient when I’m trying to schedule art posts
Like it used to auto populate my timing tags and my artwork reblog tag and make it so nice and easy
Instead now o have to fully type out each tag over and over because it seemingly doesn’t remember
And I’m frustrated
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You ever have this amazing idea for a drawing.
But then when you sketch it, it looks nothing like the idea.
And then you procede to just cry about it.
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i just want to share my failed artworks
please do not reupload‼️
THIS IS NOT MADS MIKKELSEN 🔥🔥
I HATE THE SHADING
HE LOOKS WEIRD WTH
HELP
trying to make pink roses (literally studying how to shade) but it doesn't look like roses
these two are old arts for the roblox drawing competition, but i did not win 🙏🏼
trying to make a vector art but failed
WHAT THE HELL IS THAT POSE
she's cute, pass
WHY IS SHE LOOKS BUFFY 😭😭😭 I'M SO SORRY
bonus: an old sfm made by myself and i was like "oh my god... no."
the end :P
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