Can't remember if I posted this one here. I made it after finding very old colored pencils, and I was actually really surprised how good they still are. It was really fun to draw this.
Tribute to my late grandma who was born in the year of the dragon. Itโs my first Chinese New Year without her and I miss her so much.
When my parents divorced and essentially abandoned me for their new families, it was my grandma and grandpa who made sure I still felt loved. Without their care and guidance I probably wouldn't be here today.ย
All this polemic with AI Art and stuff are making me realize something I've been wondering for a while about my own art. It has been a while I've been very dissatisfied with my work and I wasn't exactly sure what was until now.
It's not that art isn't fun anymore, because still is, or that I'm not proud of what I make. But lately... It all feels pointless. Or even worse actually, it feels worthless.
The more time passes, the more art become less of a valuable thing to society and more of just a product. Not that it never was, artists have been working with art for literally centuries, we all know that. But now, more and more it feels like "fast food" instead of something valuable, unique.
And with all the social media dynamic of posting regularly, prioritizing content versus quality, pushing poor artists to break themselves to post everyday the same thing, in the same style, over and over, fast, easy, just to please the algorithm... It takes all the fun out of it.
I'm not enjoying doing art anymore. Because I feel I don't have a reason to do it. I don't feel like people want to connect with art anymore. The want content, that's it. Easy content. Nothing else. Grab the cellphone, look to a pretty image, like, and done! Let's see what's next! It's fast and pointless and... Boring.
More and more I feel like I'm doing art just for myself. Because I'm the only one that actually cares about it.
And the more AI evolves, the more efficient it becomes in creating things fast, the less value my own work also has to others. So why do it? Why even post it anywhere? Does anyone even care if I suddenly stop showing my art? Of course not. Just roll the page down, there will be another content to fill our attention! Probably fake content too, because with AI we can't even have luxury of originality either.
Anyway... just some ranting about everything, because even that I feel I have no one to talk to. I doubt people will even care to read this anyway.