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He’s back!!!!

TW: mention of insects (bees and wasps)

Last year I sort of befriended a male carpenter bee. For context, I sit on my back steps a lot. He got really comfortable with me and would sometimes sit next to me. He liked to hover in front of my face and bumped into a few times. And generally when he saw me he’d circle my head. He also took to attacking any wasps that got close to me, so that was a bonus. I named him Kevin and despite carpenter bees having a relatively long lifespan, I was afraid I wouldn’t see him again

I’m pleased to announce that Kevin made it through the winter!

#long live kevin #carpenter bee #bee #kevin #tw insects #insects #i’m so happy

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The difference between my lover and I is he wouldn’t love me if I was a worm, and I love worms that aren’t even him

#Homer wishes he had a mind like mine #my headmates were are all mad at me for how long it took me to walk across campus avoiding every worm #we were throughly rained on

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Heya, my darlings! I’m officially back! I had a rough winter and have spent the beginning of spring being violently gay. I’m excited to get back to posting!

As spring is finally here, it’s time to choose our spring theme!

#tumblr polls #poll

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I made a flag for @yamazakura-system’s PMSC& term!!

The teal represents those who identify as plural

The purple represents those who identify as multiple

The orange represents systems

The yellow represents collectives

The black borders represent every other non-singlet variation and all origins

The large number of circles represent a broader spectrum of included experiences than most terms

I really love this term and I am so grateful that its creator let me contribute to it in this way!

#pdid #pmsc& #partial did #p did #actually did #p did system #did #multiplicity #multiple #plural label #plural positivity #plural #plural things #collective #osdd 1a #osdd 1b #osdd #osdd system #endo safe #endogenic safe #pro endogenic #plural system #plural culture #plurality

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If you need it, this is your permission to not feel happy this Christmas.

There’s a lot of pressure to feel overwhelmingly happy and cozy on Christmas. For many people, the fact that we don’t brings up a lot of guilt and disappointment (myself included).

But mental illness doesn’t take a break for the holidays. Usually it gets worse as the days get shorter and sometimes grief and trauma get drudged up. Chronic illness, burnout, oppression, and financial hardships are just the same.

Sometimes Christmas sucks. Sometimes it’s not like it is in hallmark movies. And that’s completely normal.

If you aren’t jolly this year, you’re not alone. For me, Christmas brings up a lot of grief for my very short childhood. I also feel like I’m constantly waiting for that joy and Christmas spirit to hit. Then every year, in the last week before Christmas, I feel some part of me (probably the part of me closest to my childhood self) get panicked. I become acutely aware that I’m running out of time, but the joy never really comes. I now sort of equate Christmas with feeling frustrated and disappointed. I’m willing to bet that a lot of people that see this feel the same way.

It’s beneficial and okay to let go of your expectations. Christmas will come and go, and it will feel however it does.

Christmas being bad, doesn’t mean you won’t feel happy at another time.

So happy holidays, or meh holidays, or awful holidays. Whatever it looks like this year it’s okay. I love you.

#mental health advocate #mental illness #depression #seasonal affective disorder #christmas #holidays #ptsd #pd #avpd

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OP, this really let me down.

Pick a random number using this random number generator.

#reblog

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So you know how every year someone calculates the cost of twelve days Christmas? I feel like they always go for way too high quality of gifts. Would anyone be interested in me calculating the cheapest, most bargain basement twelve days of Christmas?

#christmas #twelve days of christmas #holidays #poll #polls #tumblr polls

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Coining post: PMSC&

PMSC& is shorthand for Plural, Multiple, System, Collective, &

This term was coined both as an all inclusive umbrella term referring to our non-singlet community/s as the existing terms can be reductive of our variety of experiences and origins and exclusive of people who don't use that specific term as well as for non-single people who use multiple or all labels to do with being a non-singlet.

PMSC& is inherently inclusive of all forms of plurality, multiplicity, systemhood, collective identity and non-singlethood and against fakeclaiming of any kind!

Please remember to credit, @ mention or tag me when using this term

FAQ

Can I use it?

Yes! If you identify as any from of non-singlet, partially or fully, and you are supportive of all PMSC& identities this term is for you!

Is there a flag?

As of now no but we are thinking of making one! Redesigns and making your own flag with credit are welcome of course!!

Is it really Inclusive?

Yes! Our term includes all ppl regardless of origins, types, creations, diagnosis status, terms they use, etc!

What does the & stand for?

The & (Ampersand) is a widely used symbol of non-singlethood, just like how the infinity is a symbol for the neurodivergent community, and literally means "and" which is similar to the ”+" at the end of LGBTQIA+ to recognize that not everyone is specifically mentioned by name in the acronym but are still included in the umbrella term!

This term was originally coined on the 14th of August 2022 on our Instagram (@ur_fave_is_plural)

#reblog

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Tw: this is a vent, and this is not a nuanced take, this is just me screaming my feelings into the void. I’m talking about a lot of trauma that I’ve never mentioned here and there’s some triggering stuff. (CSA, cults, child abuse mainly). I just needed to get this out where nobody knows me

I don’t really feel anger, but today I at least feel my version of it. I’m angry. I’m angry that I’m a level II autistic and nobody cared. I hate that instead of accommodating me, people beat the autistic traits out of me (literally and figuratively) until I became a shell. I hate that when I reached the point of not being able to survive at 9 and told my parents I was autistic I was shut down. That I missed my chance to get screened. Nobody would screen me over 15, I’ll probably never get my diagnosis.

I hate that when I spiraled further, I was beaten and traumatized and told to kill myself by my parents. The people that used help as a weapon. I didn’t remember my second CSA for more than a day before my brain buried it.

I hate that I feel like an imposter in my own community. I hate that I feel like I’m appropriating the word semiverbal. Speaking is physically distressing for me 60-40% of the time. But I do it. I had to learn to repress myself to survive, my very mind spilt under the pressure to conform. In order to live, I had to forget myself. I grew up in a cult. My mind got good at being malleable.

But in the end, I don’t appear to be a level II autistic. The guilt of calling myself that is like acid in my throat. In many ways, my trauma is a privilege. I learned how to blend in with neurotypicals and I do it expertly. I got good at hiding my pain. I CAN work, I CAN go to school and do well, and have nightly meltdowns and shutdown and drown.

I’m faced with this constant dichotomy between my true self and who I adopted as myself to survive. DID makes the false identity, the false safety feel so real. But it crumbles and I sink in like quicksand. Some part of me always thinks I’m lying, no matter what I say about myself.

In the end, brains don’t invent pain, or trauma, or anything that isn’t conducive to survival. When I strip away the layers of plaster that my brain used to mold me into what I was “supposed” to be, to protect me, I’m left with broken, traumatized pieces. I wish I could believe their screams. I wish I was believed when their screaming still sounded like my voice.

No wonder people feel like bombs.

I feel anger that the child in me is still screaming

#vent #tags for organization #personality disorder #avpd #pdid #autism #ptsd #tw csa #tw sa #tw cult #tw child abuse

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being disabled has an affect on the social life that not many people are willing to discuss . the reality is, being disabled means missing out on a lot. the queer bar you think everyone should go to isnt accessible. nobody in your towns high school was willing to talk to the only kid with down syndrome there. not all autistic people were accepted enough to be social in the first place, much less doing drugs and having sex.

there are so many experiences to miss out on

#reblog

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My brain (and the other bitchass gatekeeper) is indecisive

Ps, I love the other gatekeeper very much

dissociative amnesia haver: wow i wish i remembered shit

dissociative amnesia havers when they remember:

dissociative amnesia havers when the memories then get taken from them:

#reblog #system stuff #dissociative amnesia #did system #actually pdid #pdid system #pdid #p-did #tw cursing

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I want to make it clear that this blog supports the people of Palestine. They are experiencing a genocide. No matter what you believe, if you think that murdering civilians is ever acceptable, then you need to seriously examine yourself.

I’ve been hesitant to speak about this topic, for multiple reasons, but mostly because when this first began, I was told about it by my parents. I had a concussion and didn’t think to keep my mouth shut about my thoughts, the response I got was very very strong and explosive and reinforced my trauma around speaking about controversial topics.

I am sorry. It should not have taken me so long to speak out. While my trauma and feelings are important, people are losing their lives, families and homes and I should have spoken out about this genocide the moment I found out. It is my responsibility as a person to defend people who cannot protect themselves and I have been failing. I am sorry. If speaking out for the lives of innocent people makes someone mad, then so be it. I have no respect for people like that.

I’m probably not going to post many of my own thoughts about this because I really don’t feel that I have much to contribute. I would rather lift up voices that are more informed.

While I probably (hopefully) don’t have to say this, I do want to make it clear that antisemitism will not be tolerated on this blog. The people of Israel are not responsible for the actions of their government, they are civilians as well.

🇵🇸Free Palastine🇵🇸

#palestine #free palestine

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(Meaning colors and header)

#tumblr polls #polls #poll #blog theme

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Fixed it and added people with ocd because people asked for it

I’m just going to leave this here…

#reblog

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Sorry for the different font

I’m just going to leave this here…

#reblog #disabilties #disability pride #disabled pride #disabled #disability #mobility aid #cane user

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Wow things are shit right now.

Punching a bigot is still assault as of today.

Have a very restrained thanksgiving.

#tw cursing #cursing #cw cursing #thanksgiving

[astrangerthatlovesyou]

“It’s okay to not be okay”

Unless it impacts your work performance…

Or your grades

Or how you act

Or if it causes you to say no

Or if you’re harder to be around

Or if you need time alone

Or if you talk about it

Or show symptoms

“It’s okay to not be okay”

Unless you have trauma

Unless you have one of those “scary” mental illnesses

Unless it inconveniences me

Unless you’re undiagnosed

Unless you cry or scream or make a scene

Unless you don’t keep that shit to yourself

Unless you make me uncomfortable

Unless I can’t infantilize or fetishize you

Unless you have hallucinations

Unless you have psychosis

Unless you get angry

Unless I think you’re cringe

Unless you can’t preform hygiene tasks

Unless you’re disabled, or trans, or gay, or not white, or fat, or AFAB, or intersex, or a man… so I guess anyone

“It’s okay to not be okay”

As long as nobody ever finds out.

Our society has a severe issue with performative activism, and mental health is a huge example of this. Every time someone considers reaching out, they run through this list mentally. This is why true activists and resources need to be loudly supportive of all the things on this list. Take the subtext out of your support.

#repitition #tw repition #second person pov #second person tw #tw cursing #cw cursing #cursing #avpd #avoidant personality disorder #personality disorder #actually avpd #pd #pdid #did #mental illness #mental health advocate #ptsd #cluster c personality disorder #mental illness advocacy