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Neurotypicals really be like "I know you have a disability but why can't you just be normal also stop talking about your disability"

#autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic adults #disability #neurospicy #neurodiversity #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff

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Here we have a plotters professional opinion! My intuitive ass likes to do all my work after the first draft is finished, but for people who actually want to know how their book ends when they start, check out these notes!

"How do I plot a book" You don't. You start writing. You make notes about ideas you have while writing. When you're finished, you bring everything together like a puzzle. You fix potholes, you delete dead scenes, you bring in funky dialogue. You let someone else read it and put some patches on it. Tada! There's your book.

#writblr #writers on tumblr #writing community #writers of tumblr #plotting #story structure #writing #writers #writing tips #writing advice #writing tools #writing reference #writing research

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Coworker: Are you okay?

My autistic ass, having one of the three days a week where I shouldn't be forced to leave my house because I can see the future, every sound is a colour and the muppet in my head is screaming as soon as someone approaches me: *vibrates violently* Yes why do you ask

#autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic things #autistic struggle #autistic adult #autistic experiences #autism experiences #adult autism

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"You have to overcome your disabil-" I actually have to overcome the urge to punch you in the face and I'm losing

#autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic things #disability #disabilties

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When I say something is 'stressful', a lot of neurotypical people assume I have a lot of my plate.

I often don't even mean that. 'Stressful' can mean that I keep getting in trouble for not knowing or misinterpreting social rules. 'Stressful' can mean having to do something that doesn't play into my abilities. 'Stressful' sometimes is just getting 7 hours of sleep instead of 8. It can mean a change in routine, a social conflict, my needs being ignored.

So when people hit me with 'This isn't stressful, you're just dramatic' its very hard to remember that this is their standard, not mine.

#autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic things #autistic struggle #autistic adult #autistic experiences

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Neurotypicals are so unreal like imagine being able to just start watching a random movie or series

#neurotypical #autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic things #autism struggle #autistic struggle

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Me, confidently: I am autistic. So I don't always understand social rules. That is totally okay, it is part of my disability. I shouldn't beat myself up for that.

Also me when I don't understand social rule: I AM ACTUALLY WORTHLESS JUST LET ME ROT IN MY APARTMENT FOREVER WHY DO I EVEN HAVE TO GO OUT AND DO THINGS EVERYBODY HATES ME

#autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic things #autism stuff #autistic struggles

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Literally can't believe I didn't find out that I'm autistic sooner when I literally told a friend that there's a particular way sunlight shines through clouds that make me want to scratch my eyes out for some reason , smh if someone told me properly about autism sooner I would have had so much less trouble in life

#autism #late diagnosed autistic

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Thoughts on autism?

From my point of view, it's both my super powers and it's my kryptonite. Your mileage (as they say sensibly) may vary.

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Everyone I know: You don't seem autistic. How did you even find out?

Literally me:

- "I love informations! Love gathering it! Yes yes I know I'm a nerd."

- "Better don't ask me about Star Wars, I won't shut up."

- "Can I have breakfast alone at my desk? No its not that I don't like you, I just don't like the crowd of people around me."

- "This light is killing me. OUT"

- "Yeah nah I love sitting alone at home and just do my thing. I know it's weird haha."

- "I am just saying I'll be a mess for weeks when you change my workplace. I DONT KNOW WHY OKAY I AM JUST SAD THEN"

- "I can't decide which knife to use. Yeah I know they look all the same but they don't feel the same."

- *starts crying* "no I am not sad something's just not right. DON'T HUG ME"

- *wants do something. Someone interrupts me. Mind goes blank*

- *starts sorting stuff after colour without thinking about it. Loosing sense of time*

#autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic things #adult autism #autistic adult #autism diagnosis

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"How do I plot a book" You don't. You start writing. You make notes about ideas you have while writing. When you're finished, you bring everything together like a puzzle. You fix potholes, you delete dead scenes, you bring in funky dialogue. You let someone else read it and put some patches on it. Tada! There's your book.

#writer #writing #writing advice #author #author advice #writing a book

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When I was 8, I told my mom I wasn't hearing well. She took me to the doctor but the hearing test came back fine. She told me I was probably overreacting.

13 years later I know that because of my autism, I sometimes need longer to process things that are being said to me than allistic people do. That's what I perceived as 'bad hearing' when I was a child. That's why a diagnosis is important. Autism has a lot of traits that can be misleading from a medical perspective if you don't know about it.

#adult autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic things #autistic adult #autism #autism diagnosis

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Autism is funny, one moment your like "I'm fine this is fine I'm actually so great I wonder if I even have autism or if I'm gaslighting myself" and then the tiniest change happens and you're all like askebhdbejsvfbdied

#autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic things #adult autism #high functioning autism

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I'm considered a high functioning autistic person because I can travel alone but have you seen me traveling? On the outside I'm like 'yeah this is cool i actually prefer doing this alone' but then the changes shoot me into a depressive state for 10 days straight and I am overthinking my whole existence.

#autistic #actually autistic #autism #autistic things #adult autism #high functioning autism

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When I see stuff like this and I can’t just comment, babe that wasn’t a dream 🥲🥲

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Since I know I am autistic, I stopped trying to find hidden meanings in the things people say. It was an exhausting process, because more often than not, I would fail even though I tried very hard. Of course stopping this made me seem 'more autistic'. But I am true to myself, and I stopped being stressed all the time.

#either the people clear things up and tell me what they want clearly #or i dont listen #or understand #on purpose #i dont need to adjust to you when you want something from me #autism #adult autism #actually autistic #autistic #autistic things