#you leave in your wake

[insanechayne]

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#you know now that I’m thinking about things more clearly I’ve got more questions than answers #the way you used to talk to me and the conversations we used to have were too elevated and practiced #I was into certain groups and things for years before I eventually got out of that stuff #so I know what it sounds like when someone’s been doing it for a while even if it’s been off and on #and I have to wonder then how many other girls did you do these things with? #how many girls did you say sweet nothings to and make them feel so special and desired just to eventually drop them like you dropped me? #how long exactly have you been doing this kind of shit? #it does kind of hurt to know just how special I’m not and start connecting these dots #it does sting to see that you seem to just be like every other man trying to get what you want without caring what happens to the women #you leave in your wake #and idk maybe that’s not fair of me and maybe you did care for them on some level just like you care for me on some level #I guess I just wish you’d been more honest with me from the very beginning #sometimes wish I’d never met you at all because look how you’ve ruined my life for so many months #now I just feel stuck and angry #you are a very good close friend so I don’t want to just cut you off completely #but at the same time I feel used and like you’ve lied to me this whole time and that’s fucked #so what am I supposed to do now? is it even worth bringing any of this up to you? or will you just lie to me some more? #personal

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

got a worm nibbling my brain. can someone help me find a piece of obscure media?

webcomic/indie comic from the 2010s. basically a sci-fi short story about a young girl (with red hair?) who was being raised by scientists as part of an experiment. she receives a haircut/has her head shaved, in preparation for her annual brain scan/testing. it is revealed that while her body is human, her "brain" is artificial, made of computer implants throughout her skull and spine. at some point her biological mother (also a scientist on the same campus?) encounters her and is repulsed, viewing her as a machine who has murdered her daughter.

it was very poignant and it bruised my heart and i can NOT find it anywhere

#i thought it was made by the creator of 'O Human Star' for some reason but apparently not? #goddammit goddammit goddammit #'i don't have to write down the title of this piece of media i encountered in my formative years bc i'll always remember it' #*cut to ten years later frantic googling* #fun fact 'a.i.' is now a completely useless search term #google in general is useless #and stuff i read 3+ years ago regularly vanishes from the internet #bookmarks are not enough! if you like indie media--download that shit! buy digital/physical copies while you can #save it to the cloud back it up and organize that shit!!! #keep a list of the stuff you read (organized by date/media type and possibly with keywords if you want it to be useful longterm) #(or a spreadsheet even if you're like me and rabidly consume short stories/comics like a pack of amnesiac piranhas on a feeding frenzy) #(that stuff PILES UP over the years ok. if you wanna make sure you'll be able to find it again a decade later--curation is key) #because art WILL touch your soul and then vanish into the void leaving naught but a 404 Error in its wake #i am an old man shaking my fist at the kids on my lawn but the kids on my lawn are me and my longterm digital planning skills circa 2012

[fuck-spock]

okay some of yall are just ignoring natives at this point where is the outcry??? how loud do we have to scream? how many of us have to go missing or be found dead before you start screaming with us?

please sign the petition to let us keep our children! and educate yourself on the true history of turtle island: hint, you gotta talk to real natives to get the true story. history is written by the victors.

#im sick and tired of having to be so loud just tk be ignored #my people are being attacked #our children are being taken #it is legal for us to be killed by whites off the rez. please will you fucjing help us already? #ndn #native #i was stolen from my culture and trust me it leaves such a vacancy in your soul #every day i wake up thinking about how we were nearly killed out #and how our home has been over run and poisoned with chemicals #im gonna smoke some weed and calm down now but just know i am always angry aboit yhis #ughhhhhhh i need some peace

[essektheylyss]

In terms of potential dunamancers for Essek to contact, I do think Uraya is a strong option, and I imagine there are others we aren't aware of since we were a little restricted in access to other dunamancers while in Rosohna (gee, Essek, wonder why that might've been...).

However, I do think it would be fun as a hypothetical to imagine his mother as one of them; she's the head of the den that is suggested to manage if not control the Dynasty's nexus of dunamantic research, the Marble Tomes Conservatory, so it's very possible she is an accomplished dunamancer of the arcane variety herself, especially in light of who she raised. I've previously tended to imagine her as a cleric of the Luxon, given her role as a religious figure, but considering that the Luxon doesn't differentiate much, it could go either way (even to the point of a multiclass, which honestly would be dope).

We have absolutely no basis of understanding her personal willingness to look past her son's transgressions, but given that he seems to think some would, and that the stakes are monumentally high, it's easy to think that his own mother might be among them. I mentioned last week that the information we have would suggest that she did actually live through the Calamity, and potentially was born in the later years of the Age of Arcanun. Even if she was in a position wherein she may have had sympathy for his situation but was not politically able to look past it, that may change if the stakes are, quite literally, apocalyptic.

But also, most importantly, it would be SO funny to me if Essek, epic-level wizard, international political fugitive, estranged from his family and culture at large, has to call in a favor from his mom.

#cr spoilers #essek thelyss #critical role #to be clear i do not expect this but it would be the funniest possible thing for him to do #imagine having to bank on the fact that your mom is sufficiently experienced in surviving the apocalypse that she won't have you executed #everyday essek thelyss wakes up #(i mean. if you call elves leaving their trance 'waking up') #also if you wondered whether 'in light of' as used in this post was written as a pun. the answer is yes 😌

[wave-nine]

which papyrus would be best to nap with?

ALL OF THEM!! Take your pick.

#w9 inbox #UT - peaceful but very short nap おすすめ #SFR - he holds you like a plushie (you can't leave until he wakes up) #US - comfy... for him. sorry about the drool on your head #SF - comfy... for you. when you wake up both he and your wallet will be gone #UF - spiky but nice and safe

[magnusbae]

On the rare occasions when Hob is actually mad at Dream— he refuses to sleep. Coffee, energy drinks and the God forsaken awakeness pills? All fair game. If he has to inject caffeine directly into his vein, he would. Hob doesn't often get mad, but when he does, he likes to make a point. Dream and Hob match in more than one ways, really, they do. And so it is that the Dream Lord must come out of his realm personally to sprinkle sand into his lover's eyes because he'd be damned if Hob refuses his gift for more than two nights in a row. Not speaking for 100 years? Easy. Hob refusing sleep? Unacceptable.

#Dreamling #Fixed tags: #Dream creating Hob an entire GALAXY in the Dreaming to placate him but Hob has none of this— he refuses to enjoy it. #Dream getting offended that his lover does not appreciates his good graces is like— Well I can also give you a nightmare :| #And Hob just: #'Maybe just don't say that I will eventually stop loving you 🙄🙄🙄 Hob about that- huh.' #Dream: I meant not to insult you— it is merely how humans /are/. Most entities cannot stay with me for long. (The will not is unsaid) #Hob: You're such an idiot. #Hob would cross his arms and try to stay mad with him but he simply CANNOT. #Dream is being genuine— perhaps a genuine idiot— but genuine nevertheless. #He would sigh and finally come over to Dream and he'd take his hands into his and pull him close to himself. #He has to stand up taller— because here in the Dreaming his lover is taller than in the waking. #It's nearly at his tiptoes that he lands a soft kiss at Dream's lips. #Hob: Just because you had /shitty/ exes doesn't mean /I/ have to be #For the matter— I rather not be your ex at all. #Dream attempts denying all his exes being bad but Hob just keeps on kissing him insistently #Like hell he's allowing his lover dwell in the feeling that no one stays— EVEN IF HE DID SPIKE HIS ANGER METER LIKE HELLA #Dream: You will leave me because you're human Hob's anger: 📈📈📈📈 #But he's not really mad he just wishes Dream to trust him is all. #I mean Dream is JUST the center of his entire world #but you know #anyways those tags are meant to be read separately I was just having some crack fun #the original tags gotten horribly out of order and were an absolute mess so I had to rewrite it for it to make any sense at all #so some of the chaotic insanity been lost XDDD #anyways yes XD #buns.hc

[autoraton]

having big thoughts about nick-slash-nicholas tonight.

#listen listen i know narcolas is a massive prick. but. dude. #you're thirteen years old and every day you wake up and nothing feels quite right. #and you lead a normal life with a mom and dad who love you for thirteen years and then a bunch of weird shit happens and #and your dad isn't your dad and YOU aren't YOU #and also you're thirteen years old #idk man. idk. #oh god not to leave out fuckin NICK getting erased out of existence #welp! anyways #fanart #my art #nick close #nicholas close #dndads #dndaddies #dungeons and daddies

[suguwu]

diluc + a gentle touch feeling like violence after he returns to mond

#bee chats #i have. so many thoughts about him. #how he's rarely been touched with care since leaving #how it feels like being flayed open when you brush a dandelion seed from his cheek or your pinky nudges against his #how it feels like too much and yet not enough #the way he questions whether or not he deserves it because he still wakes up and sees blood on his hands

[baby-girl-aaron-dessner]

Every time I make a Pro-Palestine post, I get sent death threats and hate mail by alt-right Zionists. As does anyone brave enough to speak out on the genocide that’s currently unfolding. Yet y’all want me to have sympathy for Taylor Swift because she would be risking her “safety” if she spoke out on “political” matters??? Y’all are so out of touch with reality it’s sickening.

Take a minute out of your insular lives to check out the college students risking their education and their safety to protest genocide. Or the long list of celebrities such as SZA, Hozier and The Weeknd who have shown solidarity with the Palestinian cause. Or the millions of people all across the world who show solidarity through protesting, donating or posting.

Please, stop telling me you’re worried for a billionaire’s safety. Specifically a billionaire who used to speak out on issues because she wanted to be “on the right side of history” but abandoned that rhetoric once she rose to the top of the charts again.

#im so sick of this discourse leave me alone #I don’t care about your weird af parasocial relationship that has blinded you into following and worshipping celebrities #you’re being exploited and don’t even know it wake up bitches #I’m tired and I’m deleting all of the hate mail #taylor swift #taylorswift #the tortured poets department #ttpd #free palestine #the eras tour #free gaza #miss americana #lover #colombia university #college protests #ucla #student protests #sza #hozier #the weeknd

[heskynn]

Visual representation of nsfw creators all over the world being subject to USAmerican movements and having to just hold on and hope the US-only petitions make enough noise.

#there's nothing that quite expresses #how exhausting it is #to spend years waking up #no knowing if my income and work and fun #is being shut down #at any moment #and every ounce of that is coming from organisations and politicians #completely unreachable to me #then having to hear USAmericans claim they're gonna #leave to escape it #or how bad it is For Them #like ffs at least you have Some recorse #the rest of us just have to hope there's some way to work around it or it falls thru #“why are you so interested in us politics focus on your own shit” #stop fucking up peoples livelihoods? #(and also ya know #invading and bombing the living shit out of other places #you cant Not be effected by us politics)

[clickbaitcowboy]

Nothing like some good ol’ family bonding! (Repaint of this painting from year)

#jack kline #Archangel Michael #michael!dean #tylernatural #tyart #nothing like your insane uncle possessing your dad and wiping him clean of everything that makes him recognizable to you leaving him a #strange pallid cadaver #poor jack. and you ruined his favorite jacket. #spn #supernatural #get ready to have nightmares but be equally as startled by your normal dad waking you up bc your uncle decided to wear his face

[pathetic-gamer]

I am of the firm belief that Alan absolutely did not have to be trapped for as long as he was or driven insane trying to meet the inscrutable demands of the Dark Place, he's just Like that. literally everyone who tries to help him is like "brother in Christ it does not have to be this difficult" but he's soooo busy being soso sad and tortured.

#alan wake 2 #alan wake #mr door: you made that genre rule up its not real #old gods: hey man stop running from your problems #ahti: literally just leave. you can leave. #alice: alan baby what the fukc

[where-the-water-flows]

thinking about a world where Li xiangyi does actually get murked in the donghai battle / of poison, but through a series of events, ends up kind of... wandering the world as a ghost for a while, which isn't great and gives him so much time to think about everything he fucked up, and then, because his life is a farce, ends up eventually accidentally possessing this brat.

this very familiar brat. this brat who has spent the last several years training and all but breaking himself to get strong enough, healthy enough, based on a dead man's words, this brat who just got his ass kicked out of the baichun court (again) and is already making plans for how he can conceal his identity to get through the exam next time.

this very familiar brat he would fucking like to unposess as fast as possible, actually, only it appears they are fucking stuck with each other, and ok, maybe finishing unfinished business will let him, y'know, move on to his well deserved punishment of the afterlife, and thus: it's time for a weird ghost road trip.

(fang doubing has doubts about the literal fucking ghost in his head, who is very clearly lying about, uh, a lot of things, but on the other hand he is learning like, so much about investigating and also just every topic under the sun it feels like, and it's not exactly being a proper detective, but... he's got a year, anyway, and maybe showing up with a solved case or twelve under his belt will convince them to give him a chance)

#mysterious lotus casebook #fang doubing #li xiangyi #waters words #probably di feisheng wakes up and is like yo who tf is this twunk. why tf is he so familiar. #li lianhua is like hey bestie xiaobao body buddy we need to leave now immediately For Reasons #and fang doubing at this point has been sharing a body with 'li lianhua' for like. the best part of a year #and is like ok. go directly in the direction of the guy you want to avoid. understood! #anyway sometimes a found family polycule situationship can be you your murdered rival and the twunk he's possessing

[kiddokori]

fuck timezones do you know how hard it is to talk to my friends when they have a different sleep schedule than me. i go to bed at 9pm and wake up at 6 to see notifications from my buddy from literally 5 in the morning. thats a one hour overlap of us both sleeping. there is not a time difference between us theres no reason for this shes just sick in the head and im a 75 year old man with a bedtime

#my other friend will be like hey if we’re hanging out tomorrow just call me when youre leaving so i get up #and itll be like. 2 in the afternoon. he’s literally nocturnal #i get a message while im getting all cozy in bed like hey man whats up because i go to bed as hes waking up because its a sick freak. #all my friends are vampires and im an old old man in my nightgown and sleeping cap with my little fuckin candelabra shuffling off to retire #for the evening #we hangout for one (1) hour and i go guys i am so sleepy i cannot do this #and they go nooo olease dont go to bed we miss you stay in the call one more episode pleeease and im already alseep #staying up past midnight is like medieval torture to me. its not ethical its not humane no human being should be forced to face such terrors

[adastra121]

MC: If I died, how much would you miss me? Leander, doing the sus smile with that hand pose: It’s cute that you think death can get you out of this relationship.

#and he means it I bet he’s done necromancy before #the whole ​‘you WON’T leave me. not even death will be your escape.’ narrative fits Leander quite well #can you imagine it? #dying all of a sudden whether it is by Leander’s or someone else’s hand #and then you wake up #you weren’t supposed to wake up but you open your eyes again and you see his glowing green gaze #and his smile #deceptively sweet and puppy-like as he says ‘welcome back.’ #true love transcends death and he took that literally #touchstarved #touchstarved game #touchstarved leander #leander x mc #incorrect quotes #incorrect quote #source: tumblr

[ciervobizarro]

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#i just want my relatives to think i just died and forget about me completely #leave me aloneeeeeee #keep my name out of your mouthhhhhhh #ciervo rambles #this year has been shit i wonder if it will get worse #do you ever wake up and then boom it is night time again lmao #im just screaming into the void #ignore this wwwwww