#yea yea it sure looks cool and all but

[nyaawn]

Smug Cloud.

#FFVII Rebirth #FFVII #Final Fantasy VII #Cloud Strife #ffgraphics #yea yea it sure looks cool and all but #would be funny if the last bullet smack him right on face after that #and that one graze your neck dude it did dont blame it on graphic glitch!

[keeps-ache]

i don't wanna take over the world, it sounds like a lot. but you know, laying siege to a golf course sounds really nice sometimes

#just me hi #i'm giggling thinking about it hfbvhs #you can use the sandbanks for cover and if you plan far enough ahead you can start farming around those little ponds #and you can steal golf balls :D and use them as currency ?? or just collect them :3 #and you could use the tennis ball guns to shoot the balls at people of course!! and you're supplied with sticks when you get there !! free #weaponry !! :D #and if you can hold out for long enough you could start planting rose and blackberry bushes in places they wouldn't look #why? bc roses Always Come Back #and blackberries will take a minute but who can get mad at a blackberry bush !! nature's surprise :D #oh and of course you could have a noble steed too (golf cart) !! :DD #and you could make the building a castle #and make a little gnome town in the fields once the battle is over #OH you could build a miniature golf in and around the town too :D for the funsies #/places are very cool i like places #could some be used better? oh yea for sure #i have dreams for abandoned malls hfvbs - some of my favorite places ever #that's one big odd thing i want. to have a mall to live in hfhs :3 #is it a lot of space ? ye. but it's also SOO much space.. the possibilities !! #//anyway i Need to go for a walk in a city sometime soon lol #i miss the riverwalk aaa #GASP campus martius during the winter. my dearest #i didn't realize the threshold for being a city was so low lmao ?? like man these are just big towns what is this hfvbsh #//but aside from the city pining MAN #i got to drive earlier today ('got to' they put me in the seat and it wasn't very fun hfvbshf) and oooohhh #you know that feeling on a roadtrip when it's all worth it for just a little while.maybe when you broke over the top of a hill or looked up #from whatever you were doing to find a storm ahead and the rear lights of the cars seemed to blink in agreement with how gorgeous it all is #just that hfbsh :3 #i like places a lot. sobs [<- crying candy hearts] #//okey i'm goin to go do my somethings now hfvhs :3 :D #music and caffeine are SO good ehehhehghhg [slinkies away so fast]

[stick-by-me]

A nap in the shade...

New follower sticker for: @wyrmsweven!

(Design likely from here!)

#stickers #sticker collection #New follower sticker! #I have no spinosaurus stickers unfortunately but I have this guy who seems rather polite :] #animals #Dinosaurs #Cool #individuals #From friends! #Ok tangent time I'm mildly baffled by this sticker #Because I got a bunch of dinosaur stickers from a friend in like. One of those packs you'd buy off Amazon. #And they all have the strange 'open' tab #Which sure ok. Why not. Kinda handy ig #But I went to find the original source of the sticker (since most of those packs get the designs elsewhere and repackage them) #And??? The og sticker is like. So much brighter. #And has more patterning. #Did they?? Recolor the sticker??? #Wack imo. But yea look at (what I assume is) the og it's very pretty

[ayyponine]

Same venue. Same-ish crowd. Opposing seasons. Contrasting vibes.

#me #sometimes you have a few beers and yr feeling yrself. sometimes you feel too much like yourself and consider leaving early #for all the talk of yearning and intricate rituals let me tell you. a drunk girl sidled in right in front of me and the sense of rage i- #her and esp the guys she was with got kinda rowdy in the pit later on shoving each other also into the crowd whom did NOT want part of that #its a lot of people in a small room and at this point i was already further back and against a wall let me tell you #i think if someone had touched me i might have snapped fr #still had an ok time though once i got over feeling super embarrassed about my self and dared looking other people in the eye lol ah #one thing i do like abt the culture is the genderneutrality of it all... the most long and luscious locks in the room belong to some guy #and i can show up in sport bra and oversized shirt no typa bag no makeup wearin black laceup boots that could be m or f #my gender is uh. dont worry abt it lets just turn off the lights and vibe #got talking w someone tho who said she recognised me frm a diff event & i didnt much like that idea.. im not in the mood to be Perceived at #the venue IS p cool tho... like oo at a forgotten space on the other side of the tracks. by the water. by the skate park. yea #edit HOW could i forget. the rowdiest of drunk guys got either shamed into stepping out or str8 removed fr a lil while im not sure lol #and another guy wantedto crowdsurf but only 2 of his friends came to the stage to get him so he just kinda. crawled on top of them #and they awkwardly took a few steps carrying him round the vacated front. none of the crowd wanted shit to do w them lmao

[toytulini]

i bet i could keep a fern alive if i was just growing it emersed in a tank, but i cant exactly take cuttings of ferns to root in water, and im Extremely Hesitant to try just Washing Off The Roots bc ive yet to get all the dirt off that way and i Really dont want dirt with god only knows what in it in my fish tank

#toy txt post #can i?????????? grow them from seed????????????????????? #if i get seeds from my parlor palm i might try to get them to germinate in paper towels and if i can get them past the cotyledon stage #maybe i can get them growing emersed!!!!!!! and give some away haha thatd be cool #but yea like. idk i know ppl put dirt in tanks sometimes but like idk what the og nursery that grew it put in there and im sure some of #that og dirt is whats held in the deepest clutches of its roots. id probably be fine since i dont really have any invertebrates? #but like i dont want to risk it u know? #but it sucks bc i bet id actually be able to keep a fern alive cos it would solve my problem of not watering it enough and maybe it would #even be enough humidity all by itself!! idk. i just know my crispy wave bird nest fern uh. well. its crispy #its not dead but its slowly dying and this is like. the second or third one of these ive killed? #the daily misting seemed to be helping for awhile but then it just started dying and even the healthy leaves kinda look like shit so. idk. #ig i just Shouldnt Have Ferns for now

[rapidhighway]

every time I try to make up a scenario with metal i just end up writing surge. But that is not my fault and i will simply ignore that

#i can make him as rabid as i want #i dont really want metal to have like a rebellion arc right at this second #but im pretty sure they're doing all the cool stuff using surge #yea i tired writing organic metal and its just her #we will all simply look away #im just trying to write him going against eggman #but that doesn't mean he doesn't want to kill sonic #and his motivation uust ends up almost identical to surge's #ehhhh

[decompose1]

i. i avoided watching the springy episode for a WHILE because like. the amount everyone was shitting on it was horrible. it like genuinely ruined any passion i had in ii for a while because it was nonstop. you'd think they SHOT Cabby with the reactions. and then i watch it and it's like. eye-rolly at worst. what am i missing

#speaking as someone with brain damage and major memory loss #idk? maybe i'm biased because i came in with the knowledge that they fix it up the next ep?? but i feel lost???? #there IS a difference between ''well-intentioned but missed the mark and looks bad'' vs ''genuine egregious acts of ableism'' #you made it sound like the second. it was the first #anyways it was a cool ep otherwise #it felt very ''mascot horror'' which was kind of funny and i had to take a deep breath and go ''yea ok. i guess'' about it #made some jokes to callie abt springy #but like it was fine #i liked the fake past players #fun play on mephone's insecurities #i literally only didn't like bot lying + cabby rolling over the file #but it just sorta reads as cabby overcorrecting so people won't hate her #re: her overcorrecting BEFORE bc she was told she scares people #which sucks a lot yea and im sure it wouldve been more delicately handled in the hands of a disabled person but like #it really couldve been a lot worse #you all made it SOUND a lot worse #i avoided the episode because i was SCARED of it being worse #i went in expecting it to be awful #i dont rly think bot was wrong for not wanting a personal vent convo written down tbh but thats the only bit they were right for imho #other than that yea it felt weird and im glad they fixed it up next ep. ezpz. #wish they did not lead my dash to be convinced they hate the disabled for several months. that was a fun time for me (disabled) #anyways #im not saying it was handled amazingly but it really couldve been way way way worse. can we simmer down now #meow.txt

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#*problems occur on a project multiple ppl r working on* my boss @ me: what do u wanna do? #me. disastrously burnt out: i couldnt not even to give a fuck abt all this. i dont care i dont care i dont care #but thats not what i say. i say ok ill talk to the ppl and see how i can drop everything to help. and that probably means driving an hour #away to the other uni which is irrationally terrifying to me to the point where it will probably destroy my whole week a prevent me from #sleeping when i already am struggling to sleep. but its fine. ill get it done and itll be fine. for this stupid fucking project i dont #care abt. ay its so weird. ive never been this angry abt things. i mean its not even really anger its more dispair and frustration but it #manifests as just wanting to scream and throw a fit like a toddler. and i mean its my fault. i dont have to live the way that i do. i mean #i do but in an irrational compulsive way that i cant entirely control. but like its Saturday and i sepent 6 and a half hours taking #measurements and then met with my boss for like an hour and she was showing me cool imagines and talking abt cool new collaborators at her #new school and im just sitting there trying to maintain a smile bc my brain is semi disconnected from my body and im so exhausted #ugh. my brain is so fucked rn. i dont want to drive with even lower functioning thsn usual. and i was gonna meet my friend Tuesday morning #for once. and i might have to drive back and forth multiple days. ans what's my reward if were successful? two fucking weeks of watering #and measurement taking and i might have to stand around other ppl in all that time as well. usually im off spinning in circles by myself #amd looking unapproachable. i dont want to have to b a person around the undergrads #god im so weird. its like from the outside perspective if u were looking thru the window at me u would see me using a hammer and assume im #putting something together and i am but im also hammering nails thru my hand which no one asked me to do #so then why do i have to do it? ugh. thats y its a hard thing to complain abt bc ppl r like oh it sounds like ur compulsive habbits make u #productive and successful and yea sure but they're also destroying my life. im laying on the floor doubled over in pain and ppl r like oh #look how useful u r. who gives a fuck everything feels stretched and distorted like im suffering some sort of selfimposed Devin punishment #whatever. fuck this. tomorrow ill try my hardest to relax. literally i cant remember the last time i stayed in bed until at least 7am. ugh #but i also have some bullshit i have to get done tomorrow so well see #uuuuuugh let me leave this place @ schools send me ur official offers pls i wanna plan out my life for the next 5yrs #unrelated

[scalemodelarbysreplica]

Dante Alighieri when figuring out how he wanted to include his mentor, who shaped his ability to write, in his self-insert fanfiction:

#guess what im reading in english lit #dante was like yea sure this man gave me all the tools i needed to be the author i am but he was also Gay #so into the 7th circle of hell he goes #i think its hilarious how he made virgil his guide it was like the one direction fanfic of the 11th century #only its #i got to go look at hell and my favorite author ever was chosen to guide me bc of how cool i am #image described

[unproduciblesmackdown]

also like the one fury road reference in billions seeming so like unspecific to me at first that i was like uh could that have just been Any reference to any media where any character spits in someone’s face. and then at some point in the however many times i’ve reexperienced the scene since being aware of that reference it’s like, well here’s a reminder of everything else going on around that, and i had the half joking thought like nux is going on back there like “he is the one who grabs the sun” and i’m like well axe would be like, wow great employee attitude. it has also then occurred to me like, it might be weird for axe to be like “i am nux in this scenario, who would be that lowest level employee and who everyone’s going like aw he’s pathetic we don’t have to kill him” and the like. But Then wretchedly it’s like well i would bet that looking at this movie as a whole, axe Could relate to the villain / go “wowww too antihero. unsympathetic” about furiosa because he’s going like “uhh fucked up if someone high ranking is entrusted with resources and this exchange task and even gets a shoutout from their boss & then they’re like, bye actually” like What a betrayal. my epic former employee character of all time who just defected will be so pwned if i compare them to this epic protagonist character of all time pwning someone who’s just said that you can’t defy him(tm) like, everyone would understand the perspective that that’s fucked up / you should say you’re like the antagonists in this scenario

#prince would Also relate to the villain; maybe even harder lol. like well my execution would be superior & more Truly benevolent... #everyone wanting to be the sun god around here and boy i hope my ''employees'' never do sm shit like this #can't imagine axe or anyone like him would have the same experience of this film but Hilarious to be like yea ofc im like the villain #just a few minor differences and the rest is actually all like well points were made / i'm sure there's a lot to respect here #prince is dying to make a show of gracing people with his branded water #winston billions #fury road #mmfr #soph tossing me this Noted Ref like here it's your little media....and i'm like i can't believe axe is shit at referencing it. except i can #but then it Is also really something if you presume him pwning himself by going ''you're like the protagonist who's pwning me to hell'' is #like b/c he Is mad abt the entire premise there lol like oof ouch yes i relate to the villain here & s/o to his loyal venerators #the constant fun in that like minute and a half. me pausing every ten seconds like here's another commentary moment abt furiosa from me. #so the ''bizarre to indignantly posit that taylor's the epic hero here'' is still like yep it is. he just might be Indignant abt that entire #perspective though lol like heyyy that's so fucked up. not cool. what a betrayal. etc etc. #totally like axe to have Seen that ever; vs the like inadvertent word of mouth advertising that were the cishet dudes mad bc women; but that #then he'd still like. not get or just not like the Points lol / be like well obviously this protagonist is the antagonist to me #look how slick he's fooled you warboy....

[munamania]

kk i’m torn between am i ever gonna say anything like. fr to her. or just let this go. i don’t think i can let it go ik you don’t need to closure in every situation but like. i do this time. but im in no rush to have the feelings talk. actually i am it’d be nice to just get it out

#would be sort of funny to ruin their one year anniversary. or embarrass myself depending on how u look at it. #idk man im just tired of feeling like my feelings might be put on blast between them and im not even the one acting like a freak. #and then they just get to carry on in their stupid little relationship #just once i'd like to throw it back in her face like i think your bf is pathetic for the way things have been handled #and ive been nothing but kind and respectful to both of u (even if im privately seething). and i dont deserve to be #an ego boost #or to like. have to suffer all this confusion just because their relationship is insecure and stupid. #and also it's pretty dang naive to think you're gonna fucking marry your first love but i wont say that one out loud. #esp yk. given how weak the foundation is. lmfao #yea we got together bc he was obsessed w me from the start #(ofc) and then we’d get wasted and hang out and wake up together and i realized i liked him because i wanted to make a playlist for him #instead of studying for a midterm and then i initiated our first kiss really drunk and he later said it was a bad kiss #makes me sick to think she’d ever simp for him sorry that’s mean to say. like whoops jk totally cool for her #whatever. i’m sure beyond that they’re um… great… #i say the same shit to u guys over and over sorry imagine being up here tho 24/7. #can’t wait to go home so i can just write abt it except i can’t bc i’m so busy today lol #lol o ya i’m like straight but he freaks out when he sees me interact with u. lol

[orcelito]

I love how there r certain kinds of art / fic where u see it and ur like . "Ah. You are Mentally Ill"

#speculation nation #yes im counting my own fic in this. of course im counting my own fic in this. #and i mean ultimately you cant TRULY know bc theres more to ppl than what they put out #but theres just. a certain fascination with the morose that i find is typical for Mentally Ill Creators. #but yes i look at my fics. see the hurt/comfort. and every fic tagged with self harm. #and it's just like. yuuuup. yup yup yup. this sure is a manifestation of Something. #and like yea im just channeling the akechi BUT honestly i feel like majority of goroboys r kinda fucked up like no matter what lmfao #NOT ALWAYS of course. some ppl may just think hes cool or whatever #but it's in the like. recognition through the other. seeing the ugliest parts of yourself reflected in this character. #and feeling the pain. the sympathy. the fascination with it all. #you want to see him given something better because you want something better for yourself too #.....OR you want to see him utterly destroyed bc of Uhhhh totally harmless fascination with destruction obviously. #idk a lot of fandom rly isnt that deep. just people enjoying fiction together. #but when you scrounge around areas of Pain and mental illness like this. it really is kinda a lot. #there's a reason why im still here in this fandom. aside from my dedication to completing discacc and my continued like of p5 #& it's bc i see myself reflected in him. a younger me perhaps. back when i really was as raw and angry and scared as he is #so it's kinda therapeutic. to make him go through hell and then see him come out running. #and thus: this creator is Obviously Mentally Ill. #ive never tried to deny it lol #self harm ment/

[keeps-ache]

blaaaauhhhghhgh [melting into a goop] aohhhghghhshabh

#just me hi #Blahhhaahahaaaaaaaaaaaa #oh BLOO #poo. ploo. bloop #i wanna work on my comic. sniff #'why don't you then' Becausssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssse [wild vague gesturing] #balalaglalgaguauhuglhaslghuhsdgk #Bllllaaaaaaaaaahhhh #//when i speak in quotations that's more my other me talking than you just to be clear hbfvhsf #sometimes being contrary can look like being in full and unwavering support of the same things Lmaooo #me vs. the squaters in my brain (it was mutual for them to move in) (they are trying to be helpful (and are successful mostly (i'm just #being. well. contrary hfbshv))) #//but ye yea ye #my brother helped me set up my emulator and !!! and i can play sky on my puter now :DD #i woulda set it up but. i am always afraid i'll lose track of the directions hfhsh #i could have the instructions etched into my brain and i'm still going to be So sure i imagined them wrong or something lolll #//MAN. i should... [<- staring into the abyss very hard] #!!!!!! #i think i'm in a pocket of hyperness for some reason where did this come from Hfbsvbhf #/hey does being excited hurt sometimes lol #like if i don't throw it out somehow it feels like my chest is constricting and it'll do it to such an extent that i'll become a black hole #bhsf :> #when i was younger i just avoided things that made me too Whee cuz i didn't like it hfvbsh #but now i just sort of put it all into happy handing it so hard i hurt my wrists a lil hfhs :3 #//anyway my computer's getting hot oo #i should turn on my cooling thing #oh and also prolly finish this piece lol #/i might make it a small comic (love short comics sm (i have so many)) out of it but who knows hfh :>> #//duos my beloved <33

[aenthroppe]

Oughhhh I know we talk a lot about reliving the media of your childhood but truly it is just sooo fucking good sometimes

#jaam talks #hello i restarted Dragon Quest 9 for the DS today #it has been over a decade since i played it #and while I retained more than i thought i would #it was truly astonishing experiencing it for the first time again #can't wait to play it more #also my party from back then was fucking iconic #i need to immortalize it #so this is to you my all-female all-girlboss party #eri the gladiator Anna the Sorcereress and Sophie the Cleric #the fourth and final party member was me being a bard lol and haha #I'm sure you would have defeated the evil final boss #if only i haven't been like 11 when I played ad had more thoughts on strategy than just “yea u look cool”

[darkdragon768]

Oh jolly!

Sometimes you just need to go out, look up and watch the stars! So beautiful <3

#dragon's stupid thoughts #my mom asked me to come out cuz they sent out some satellites today and the way they are up there looks like some huge chain of lights #they are moving and flashing and it's insane that you can see that from so far away!! #stars are so cool #yea sure the nasa pics and all are really cool and fascinating but watching them by yourself outside feels way more nice #you feel at peace #calming #chilling #man

[dinodogs]

I think one of the most terrifying moments of my life is when I was standing in place to get the big group photo at a con, in my sweaty fursuit and someone went "[Fursona name???]" From behind me and then tapped my shoulder. It was the first and only time I've been recognized in public and it scared me.

#that specific con was SO much fun tbh #I remember that group photo experience really vividly lol #I somehow ended up with an assembly line of 13 year olds in dino masks following me #They were all really scared since it was their first con/parade and I'd done it a few times #and apparently I looked really trustworthy or somethin cause their parents approached me to ask me if I could watch them #I was like yea sure okay #no idea why I was just taking my head off for a minute to cool down and get a drink while they were putting us all in place