jojo x buttons is underrated, anyways, ANGST.
TW: Nightmares, Past-Abuse
JoJo still remembered his family. Sure, he was dropped off at the convent when he was only 11 years of age, but things said and done to him before that time would stick with him forever.
It always hits him at night. Random nightmares would strike him out of nowhere and in the most inconvenient of times in his opinion.
This night was especially bad.
His brain seemed to have brought him right back to the afternoon it happened. He was only 9 at the time and had been sitting at the kitchen table. His mother and father were fighting in front of him and didn't seem to be stopping anytime soon.
They were screaming at each other, a bottle in his mother's hand that she was swinging around as she fought. Something about finances and taxes, he didn't totally understand at his young age.
It was when his father went to hit his mother when JoJo started to cry, standing up and yelling at them both to stop. This would prove to be a bad idea when suddenly a glass bottle was thrown in his direction.
He narrowly dodged it, the glass shattering behind him, leaving him near enough paralysed with fear.
His father started walking in his direction, but he was unable to run away or fight back, he just stood there.
"Josephino, what'd I say about trying to intervene in grown-up conversations?" His father inquired.
JoJo tried to speak, but no words came out. He couldn't respond to his father no matter how much his brain was yelling at him to.
"Josephino, answer me!" He shouted. "Joseph. Josephino, are you listening?"
"Josephino, listen to me!"
"JoJo?"
"Joseph Andrew De La Guerra, answer me before I make you answer me."
"JoJo, you're okay, just slow down for a second."
JoJo shot up from his side of the bed, grabbing onto the blanket as tight as his hands could. His head was spinning, and his breathing was although he'd just ran a marathon.
When a hand was suddenly placed on his back, he nearly fell off the bed trying to move away.
"Hey, Jo, it's just me. It's Buttons, okay? I'm right here." Buttons whispered, moving in front of him. "It was just a dream honey, it wasn't real."
JoJo crawled into Buttons embrace, wrapping his arms around his shoulders tightly, as if he was his final lifeline.
"No, Buttons, he was- he was right in front of me, and he was gonna- he was gonna hurt me again, the same way he did to mom and- look, I promise I'll behave-" JoJo stuttered, the memory replaying in his mind again.
"It's over now, you're safe, I gotcha now." Buttons hushed, brushing his hands up and down JoJos back. "Take a breath, just slow down for a second, okay?"
JoJo took a deep breath, calming his heart rate as much as he could. Buttons ran his fingers through his hair, spinning a strand around his finger.
"You have these a lot, don't you? Nightmares about your parents?" Buttons asked quietly, not wanting to frighten him more.
"Mm." JoJo whined. "It's the same thing over and over, it's always that same evening again and again."
"But it's over now. And I hope you know that I will be right here anytime it happens to help you afterwards." Buttons said calmly.
JoJo smiled into his shoulder, manoeuvring himself to be a little more comfortable in his arms. Buttons ended up pulling him back down under the blanket again, but still holding a tight grasp around JoJo as he did.
"They can't hurt you now. You got the nuns, you got Jack, you got Race and Albert... you got me. And we won't let them ever touch you again." Buttons uttered, smiling slightly as he did.
"Thank you, Buttons." JoJo replied, grabbing onto his hand.
"Anytime Jo. Now go to bed, it's still 2am."
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yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.
to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!
i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.
also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.
they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.
they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.
i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.
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