Hello it's artemis!!! I haven't spoken to you in months.. what's up hope all is well
heyyy artemis! your ask is the one that awakened me from tumblr slumber. everything is fine, i've just been extremely busy with studies. way to occupied.
how about you how are youuu
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My friends have said that they choose to be around me. My gf has said that she chooses to be with me. I'm going to do the terrifying thing and believe them, and not make decisions as if I have to convince them to stay.
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was doin canine studies for a couple of my characters n ended up drawing gay dogs
i love @canisalbus 's characters theyre so silly :3
my styles already pretty similar to theirs but it did end up being kind of a style study lol i hope they dont mind, ive loved their style and use of tangents n stuff for a while
btw tip: eyesockets r really helpful like holy wowza ‼️‼️
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you were raised in comparison.
it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.
you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.
you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.
what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.
it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.
you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.
you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?
a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.
you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.
it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.
something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.
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obi-wan: aaah, finally. i have time all to myself
anakin and ahsoka, barging into his home: prepare for trouble!
obi-wan, already feeling a headache coming on: well, it can't get worse than you two—
luke and leia: and make it double!
obi-wan: oh great heavens
*meanwhile cody from the kitchen*
cody: cyare, if anyone else walks through those doors, i will get violent
fives and echo: *crawls in through the window*
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Oscar: So…
[Robin sighed dramatically; he could’ve guessed where this was going even if he wasn’t privy to his father’s thoughts]
Oscar: What’re you gonna do, sue me for not believing you?
Robin: [snorts] He’s not bothering me, dad.
Oscar: So, why don’t you talk to him-.. or anyone else at school for that matter.
Robin: People don’t usually care what you’re saying, they’re just waiting for their turn to talk.
Oscar: C’mon, not everyone’s like that.
Robin: Okay.. but what if they don’t like what you say? Like, I say something and they think – oh, that was weird – and then I’m like, wow I wish I hadn’t said that and it’s super awkward and cringe.
[Robin fiddled with his fingers, intent on convincing Oscar that anxiety was the culprit. It was easier than explaining the truth; that he could barely think straight amongst everyone else’s thoughts, that couldn’t be arsed, didn’t see the point, found people boring, yada yada]
Oscar: Y’know people don’t usually think that whilst you’re talking, right? It’s mostly in our own heads.
Robin: Okay, dad.
Oscar: Wow, can’t imagine where you get that sarcasm from…
Robin: ‘Course not… They do though-.. think that, y’know.
Oscar: I think that’s just the social anxiety talking, spud.
Robin: And?
Oscar: And, you’ve gotta work on your fear-…
Robin: It’s not a fear, it’s a fact.
[Oscar rolled his eyes as Robin sloped off; it was like arguing with himself]
Oscar: Robin…
Robin: See, you didn’t like my response so.. point proven, huh?
[Robin hovered by the doorframe, wearing a smirk so similar to his own that Oscar couldn’t help but chuckle fondly]
Oscar: Tch, get outta here!
Robin: Love you, byeeeee.
Oscar: [snort laughs] Love you too, bud.
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