#who never half-asses anything

[yuzu-all-the-way]

Did he ever accidentally inhale water?!

#yuzuru hanyu #who never half-asses anything #faoi 2022 #faoi 2022 nagoya #ice show #video

[ruporas]

kiss the pain away

#vashwood #trigun #trigun stampe #vash the stampede #wolfwood #nicholas d wolfwood #ep 10 was crazy bc vashwood was literally the plot goodbye #i like how the most intimate moment between these two was in the goddamn sewers #i feel like that alone symbolizes so much in their relationship. im half joking BUT ITS JUST LIKE #the SPONTANEITY the PRIVACY they get in such an open Space while being literally chased / hunted after.... #and vash is out here showing his scars.............. and ill always lose my mind that they gave this spotlight to wolfwood instead of #meryl and milly like in the previous versions. i dont know how else to read this other than that wolfwood is the romantic interest of stamp #it makes sense even aside from this scene. u know. wolfwood was technically the damsel in distress in ep 5-6 and vash saved/helped him. #and who stayed in the bedroom with vash................. #who rushed to his side when he got shot...... with that worried ass expression.... #i dont have anything smart to say at all im just gushing over vashwood thru stampede bc its just so blatant. and its great that its blatant #bc it was blatant in trimax too. like so blatant. the romance was written in every chapter they showed up together #god #ive never witnessed a pairing more canon without being spoken as such its soooooo much theyre so much #ruporas art

[foolsocracy]

I can't help but notice you haven't posted any angst in a while and I'm suspicious

whipped this one up just for u anon

#a guy can only post 3 happy artworks before the people get concerned..... #LMAOOO jokes jokes #heres a .. colored sketch? #anyway behold the recurring dream ive given pete where hes ummmmmmmmmmmm inside uncle bens ribcage #i think abt it all the time but ive never actually done anything w it so here we go #blood #gore #not actually i dont think but im straying on the safe side #i messed around w it enough where u cant even see any organs or anything (much) #bones #idk #skeleton #i feel like thats everything maybe #ask to tag #might make a nice finished piece w this who knows #anon #asks #thanks for the ask! #glad to know angst is still my brand #such is life as a noir blog #peter benjamin parker #spiderman noir #spider man noir #spider noir #my art #bOOM thats so many tags #double art night guys who cheered #this and the stupid ass music one LMAOO the range #made this in an hour and a half lets see what i think of it in the morning when i wake up lol

[krispiecake]

tell me why i can hear another tenants fucking music from my flat. HE DOESNT EVEN LIVE IN MY BUILDING. HE LIVES IN A COMPLETELY SEPARATE BUILDING ON THE SECOND FLOOR AND I CAN HEAR HIS MUSIC FROM MY FLAT. MY FLAT WHICH IS IN A DIFFERENT SEPARATE BUILDING.

#and staff just say ‘oh we can’t do anything bc its not 11pm yet.’ #ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS. #i am autistic person who has just spent a full 12hrs in extremely overstimulating public spaces #i am exhausted and i have had to wake up at ass o’clock in the fucking morning #every day for the past like week and a half and will be expected to do so for the forseeable future #i am extremely sensitive to noise and have no ability to zone things out #like everything is always at the same volume for me #all the fucking time no matter what #and they say like oh well in the community there wouldnt be anything to be done so we cant do anything here #BUT WE ARENT IN THE COMMUNITY. ARE WE. WE ARE AT A SUPPORTED LIVING ACCOMMODATION WHERE I HAVE BEEN PLACED #BY MY LOCAL AUTHORITY WHO ARE PAYING TWENTY THREE GRAND A YEAR #AND I AM PAYING FIVE HUNDRED A MONTH #IN ORDER TO RECIEVE SUPPORT FOR MY DISABILITIES. A BIG ONE BEING MY FUCKING AUTISM. #YOU KNOW. THE ONE WHICH IS BEING DIRECTLY IMPACTED BY THE BEHAVIOUR OF ANOTHER TENANT. #WHEN I AM BEING PUSHED TO MY LIMIT ALREADY. LIKE IDK FEELS KINDA CRAZY THAT THIS ISNT SOMETHING THAT CAN BE SORTED. #i fucking hate men there is just literally no fucking respect or consideration like its genuinely disgusting and so fucking infuriating #and like he says that staff (women. btw) are being too naggy about it. but never fucking stops to consider that maybe. #maybe people wouldnt have to ‘nag’ you about it IF YOU JUST. DIDNT DO THE THING THAT IS ACTIVELY CAUSING OTHER PEOPLE STRESS. #IDK FUCKING WILD IDEA JUST THOUGHT OF IT. #literally die i want everyone involved to die like I CANNOT DO THISSSSSSSSSSSS

[junotter]

what i think is the reason I'm Just Ken is a good/as popular as it is is because the way it somehow explores both what its like to be a woman and man just through ken.

like the line "I'm just Ken. Anywhere else I'd be a ten." just feels very hitting as a woman in a social media world, especially if you've seen the truerateme subreddits and the ways they judge women.

and of course the fragility and inability to find meaning/self worth outside of a romantic relationship due to the strict boxes placed on men and male relationships (and even friendships between men and women).

theres more and i know im getting annoying with the barbie posts but i did really like the movie, regardless of how "bland" its feminism is. also just all the chronically online feminists complaining about how basic it is, like oh should we tell everyone? Should we throw a party? should we invite andrea dworkin.

like is it perfect? no. does it lack in intersectionality and have poc characters act as the support to white characters? yes. should ken probably of apologized? yeah. but many things can be true about one movie.

#barbie #barbie spoilers #tiktok feminists hate me cause i dont think this movie is “impossible for men to understand” or “not for men” #once again no gender will be free unless all genders are free #also the way r*dfems are instantly trying to make some gender critical gender essentialist take from this movie #once again i wanna state the movie is not perfect!!!!! but truly women cant do anything without someone barking at their ass #cause you know who was moved by this movie? the mothers who took their daughters because they both grew up playing with barbies #and ended up watching a movie that they saw themselves in more than they expected #also all the people being like “when it was the kendom the barbies were treated like objects but in barbie land the kens were just ignored” #and its like? yeah the kens were also treated like objects? half the kens jobs were just be at the beach #and they were really only there to fill the ken part of barbie and ken #also like either they all dressed the exact same and like half were just shirtless/had open shirts most the time #is it one to one #no #but cmon #r*dfems literally fully believe women are pure beings who can never do bad things while men are inherently evil like women can sexualize me #is the sexualizing of men the exact same as women? no. but barbieland is not the real world #no “you must hate waffles” shit under here you will get blocked

[shoyostar]

r u never gonna update haikyuu dear future husband cause it’s literally been 4 months 💀

no actually it’s never being updated. infact i am deleting dfh in .2 seconds as we speak .

#joking #on a more serious note can yall srsly stop asking me for updates #the series masterlist LITERALLY SAYS ‘updates irregularly’ #like i warned yall abt it #also whenever i do feel like writing for dfh i get anons like this ^^^ who don’t even want to be a little bit nicer #like asking abt the state of the series is fine #i welcome any questions abt dfh if u want more dfh content while waiting for the main series updates!! #but i continuously get anons who are pushy abt updates for a series i put a lot of effort into so it takes much longer to update #i would hate to put out anything that i don’t think is good #and cuz i love dfh i refuse to write smth half assed just to please people. #its my series and i get to decide when it updates. #in conclusion if yall dont stop asking i will literally just never update. like let me live bro #the attitude towards writers on this site is appalling for content we lovingly make for free for yall . . .

[cashmere-caveman]

My Country: The New Age, first and last episodes & Hanif Abdurraqib, For The Dogs Who Barked At Me On The Sidewalks in Connecticut (text/audio) image descriptions in alt

#damn imagine if hui-jae was well written beyond like episode 7 or so. wouldnt that have been something. #just saying but if they had actually leaned into the parallels between these three instead of doing ... whatever weird comphet stuff we got #it couldve been so good!!!! or even if they had just let her keep her fun gender!! but no :( #im so glad hui-jae is busy being the occasional third in hwa-wol and mun-boks marriage while seonhwi raise goats in seo geoms village haha #anyway. enjoy yet another half assed post abt parallels and heartbreak in the parallels and heartbreak show <3 #also do urself a favour and check out the whole poem hanif abdurraqibs writing is insane #my country: the new age #mctna #han hui-jae #nam seon-ho #seo hwi #caveweb #actually no i still have sth to say. like im not even mad that theres comphet im just angry its so bad like??? what was that #that wasnt even half assed that was like quarter assed at best #also the hui-jae / seon-ho axis is so tragically underused #like i respect that they just fully made them both hwisexual but couldnt we have at least gotten more than some crumbs #they went from vaguely friends to bitchy antagonists to i dont even think of u at all and thats honestly so lame #tension of a wet lettuce leaf. seon-ho was the one who made the first step towards friendship in ihwaru and he also warned her abt his dad #and wingmanned hwi (took hui-jae to see hwi kick ass) like in the beginning he was the one w the people skills! #and u are telling me apart from one extremely unbelievable attempt at a love triangle w the 'last drink' scene u never did anything w them? #like so much of my grief w this show hinges on the fact that there shouldve been more Good Times before everything went to shit #to make it hit harder bc imagine the beef if seon-ho and hui-jae had been actually good friends before he betrayed hwi #them seeing each other at court as the king and queens respective confidantes wouldve been so much better like !!! #wait actually i need to stop here i can feel myself getting hangry i need to eat lunch but imagine. imagine #the good timeline where hwi just got to be fully bisexual and there were more divorce flavours than just hwi/seon-ho and hwi/bang-won... #solarpunk_future.jpeg #nam seon ho #han hui jae #<- thats just bc i never fucking know what the consensus on the romanization of everyones names is #i personally go w the hyphenated method but lots of ppl write each syllable separate and ive seen the kpop variant (written tgt) used too

[tardis--dreams]

Some of those doctors make hating oat milk their entire personality. I hate them. Cannot pretend to find them funny or like i give a shit. Fucking pretentious assholes

#also my colleague (the girl i had my shift with) is the exact opposite of me in all aspects. asked me if I'd ever worked in customer service #because i couldn't care less about being fake friendly to assholes and don't care if they like the service or not #like bitch those people don't have any other choice but drink our fucking coffee it's not like I'm competing with anyone #or like they pay us in any way. i get paid for doing the dumb work i have to do not for stroking some dumb ass doctors' egos #they come out of their rooms once an hour to get coffee and we have the cups on the table and i wouldn't even Think of #HANDING them the cups and smiling sweetly at them and asking 'coffee? tea?? :))' #I'll just assume these grown adults will get their stupid coffee or tea when they want some. it's not like they don't know where it is #(and i AM friendly and smile when someone is coming in our direction but why the fuck do you need to get so disgustingly friendly with them #if someone held up a cup asking if i.want some coffee I'd leave immediately even if i came just for coffee. it's creepy) #anyway. she's nice. I'm not. #there's normal people who will get their coffee and maybe ask if the milk in the little jug is cow milk to which I'll happily reply 'yes #:)'. then there's the other people who see the oat milk and make it clear they are the most insufferable people on the planet #(and i pity their patients so much. not much to choose from i guess but if i had that as a doctor I'd happily just die) #like everyone who took oatmilk could do it without making a fuss about the cow milk on the table. the cow milk lovers could never #'the oat milk is in front of the actual milk. this is unacceptable. i hate such healthy bullshit' lol okay #'OAT milk?? I'll leave this to the horses! THANK GOD you have actual milk!' #my favorite was the one who really took personal offense with its sheer presence. as if it had killed half of his patients lmao #'we had 50 patients with xyz problem. ALL of them drink oat milk. they cannot see the connection. it's really unhealthy' #at this point i just said i didn't care and stopped paying attention and he started complaining to his doctor colleague about how #oat milk is advertised to be healthy and how it's actually the opposite and i just find that very funny compared to the first comment #from that one guy who doesn't like such healthy bullshit. you guys need to find a consensus on the oatmilk issue i think. no one takes you #seriously if you contradict yourself like this. also i couldn't care less about the healthiness of the milk alternative of my choice. bitch. #next week I'll end up killing someone. i hope they all die from their cow milk. (but not the ones who took cow milk and didn't say anything #about the oat milk. they can continue living as they didn't annoy me) #void screams #some of these doctors were actually quite nice (most of them even). one even brought an applicant to us telling her to get some coffee #(which we are not allowed to give to applicants. but i don't care. I'd rather they get something than some of the asshole jury members #who hate oat milk (which is not the issue. the issue is them making it everybody else's issue that they don't like oat milk))

[drawnecromancy]

You know what, I'm in a weird spot with that FNAF movie.

I don't think it was very good ! As a horror movie, it made me laugh because especially towards the end the mystery and atmosphere vanished to get Fazbear Franchise Points. Like. Not laugh in the way horror can make you startle-laugh, or laugh so self-soothe. In a way that is "oh god, I see what they wanted to do, and they failed, and this is so endearing, and also so funny".

But...

I enjoyed myself immensely. It had some really cool ideas, and i love love love the visuals. I'd recommend watching it, even.

I like despite how the writing feels flimsy, cardboardy at times, Mike felt real and is very consistent throughout the movie.

I like despite how that movie is trying to tell 4 different stories, not all of them horror, just weirdly breaking up narratively in ways that don't really make sense, it's trying to tell all of them with love and care for the characters.

I love how it's not a soulless cash grab adaptation, and how I can overlook the writing flaws and the one cameo and enjoy it because damn ! It's a whole movie about the giant murder robots ! Those giant murder robots I loved as a kid !

I, genuinely, think that writing wise, you could break it up in 2, maybe even 3 different movies that would all have enough substance to go for an hour and a half. Really, most of this movie's problem isn't the stories it's trying to tell. It's - pick your battles, that's too many battles, put some back.

But it was genuinely fun.

I wouldn't call it a "good movie", by my own standards, but I had 0 expectations and again I enjoyed myself immensely.

Go watch them giant robots. It's so cool. It's so cool.

#fnaf movie #hope it's fine to put in the main tag i genuinely enjoyed it #it's goofy at times #it feels nice #i wouldn't call it horror simply because that part is botched after the first half basically #it is a movie! #and a fun one at that #so yaeh #i watched it with my dad who never played the games or anything #he decided to watch it with me because it's- it's a thing he does it's 'read or watch what my kids like to be able to talk to them about it #he did it for the hunger games when i was in high school #and i think even before that he gave narnia a read when i was a baby ass kid ? #and he watched the eragon movie with me. etc. #he just does that. #anyway #he doesn't know anything about fnaf #and his conclusion was like that you can definitely watch it without knowing any of the context #and while he wasn't too keen on the way they dropped information - the infodump bits aren't super well thought out #he also said it was enjoyable! #he also several times wondered what kid would like these scary ass animatronics #and then i showed him real life chuck e cheese animatronics #and he was like oh okay. i guess it's not unbelievable then #literally for the first half of this movie that was his only gripe with it LMFAO #the first have does a nice job at horror tbh #the second half less because it's 'oh my god we have so many things to tell we're running out of TIME' #pacing is important!

[reachexceedinggrasp]

It is really weird, as you say, that these sorts of characters (Beasts, grotesques, Byronic heroes, etc.) are so emotionally, aesthetically, narratively potent and draw on a rich literary history, yet they're such a contentious archetype, rarely done well now. I personally ascribe that to an obvious modern shift in the direction of storytelling cynicism (and I think you elsewhere have too, so don't mind me repeating your points back at you), but do you see a way out of it?

It's obviously an issue which goes beyond them (I mean even the central idea of redemption, or a complicated soul, is contentious), and so I imagine that the way out is effectively only possible if there are much more broader shifts in discourse. I think it's probably true that we might've peaked with cynicism now (absurdism seems to be more an idea that's being embraced - much as I don't like that, either, it's a gestural attempt at least).

But to circle back away from that, it's so funny how... if you're sincere and if you care and if you're trying hard, you can trip and fall into a complicated, Beastly character. And then they get mad about it.

Off anon because I figured I may as well hee hee.

It's definitely a weird moment in mass pop culture, because cynicism is so ingrained as the default that there's sometimes a lack of self-awareness about it from the writers who are responsible for the most mercilessly cynical takes. Of course, writing extruded movie product by marketing committee, as a lot of them are, is unlikely to produce different results, but I believe some of these people genuinely aren't cognizant of the worldviews they're putting across in these stories.

Romanticism has been deeply out of fashion for a long time and idealism is never in fashion, so it's not like cynicism itself is new as the dominant attitude, but it seems like that cynicism has become ever more juvenile and shallow. People steeped in it try to write optimism to play to the crowd (because generally people want a happy ending) and it comes off as the bleakest, most hopeless nihilism.

I think real idealism is challenging and the more complex the story becomes, the more challenging it is, so that you encounter more resistance writing idealistic narratives for adults, because it's so demanding when we see what it really looks like. It stops being crowd pleasing when uncompromising principles come up against the audience's desire for revenge, spectacle, machismo, etc. And because compassion and forgiveness have been relegated to media for children, people are wont to dismiss them as childish. Cynicism is still seen as cool and grown up and 'just being realistic' and fosters a vast wasteland of boring, lazy stories with characters you don't care about.

It is funny how people trip into Sad Murder Boys/Beasts/grotesques, but I think it sort of makes sense for the same reason they're such a rare character type despite being intensely impactful every time they happen, the same reason they're contentious: these are inherently romantic archetypes. So if you're trying to write passionately about this dark figure and you want him to be a complex character, so you give him pathos, and you want him to be powerful or intimidating because you're using him as a threat but still have big flaws so he can be defeated by the hero, and you want him to be charismatic to show why people would trust or follow him, and you want him to be attractive so you can have your incel message about male allure being dangerous... oops, you've accidentally created a romantic figure.

People accidentally writing tragic heroes when trying to write villains have already made something way more compelling than what they imagined, but then when they play up the pathos in attempt to emphasise free choice and create a tension where the audience sees a desire for healing from the character, a potential for change, they have inserted the most dynamic drama known to man. The hope this represents is so potent that it's going to alter the entire landscape of the narrative whether you want it to or not.

The possibility of redemption is a fundamentally idealistic concept and once we have our rogue romantic character breaking through stolid predictable archetypes and rigid storytelling, there's equal parts terror and intrigue on the part of the audience that they might be challenged with it. Redemption equals death is so popular because it defangs the challenge, it strips it of cost and consequence, allowing a veneer of optimism and admirable morality without needing to deal with what makes being ethical hard.

I think what we need more than anything else is more deliberate writing. People who actually want to tell a story and have something they want to say. No one is going to write anything legitimately challenging when they've been commissioned to make Captain Bland 11 and the story barely matters to anyone involved in production. It's uncool to care and there's a lack of respect for the audience, so the most you get is more 3edgy4me death and cynicism because these manchildren are convinced that's somehow still subversive despite paragon heroes who always say the day having been extinct for about fifty years.

You won't get brave choices out of the mainstream until someone with huge money decides they want to make them, because the entertainment industry has consolidated into the most risk-averse and cynical possible version of itself. Either something escapes containment and shows how profitable actually following through on romanticism can still be (you'd think this would have happened by now given how many chances have come up), or the current hierarchy crashes and burns and the field opens up to variety again.

#I am just babbling here idk if I said anything #but yes you are right I have talked a lot in the past about the climate of cynicism in storytelling we've been in for a long time now #and I think it's happened before but it's never been quite so all-encompassing #people respond to idealism extremely strongly but it has to be genuine you can't half-ass it #half-assed it is just bullshit or schmaltz and everyone sees that #it is very go big or go home you can't be a coward #but yeah there's a lot of the element of people writing these archetypes by accident because they have only one character who legit strives #and that's so much more emotionally engaging than the unchanging unchallenged protagonists we're saturated with

[ljuerlav]

how do you ask your roommate to leave surfaces generally in a clean and working order. not even talking about clutter but like oil and grime and shit

#he is my age. at the throats of parents who dont teach their male children to clean #god knows im not perfect at this but at least i have immense social anxiety about putting my own obstructive messes in front of other peopl #id like to state for the record that im not angry or upset over this . just frustrated that im doing a) more home maintenance work than him #and b) more home maintenance work than i did living on my own #and im like 2-3x as busy. get 2-3x less sleep. developing stress conditions etc etc #he does stuff when i ask him to in a good enough kinda way but also i hate asking 👍👍👍👍👍 i hate asking so fucking bad #this close to asking him to just hire a cleaning service on his weeks to clean despite the fact that he makes like almost half of what i do #augh #anyway im fine . ive been crocheting a project due at the end of the month for 4 hours straight sitting on the living room carpet #id sit on my couch but like i have a thing about touching peoples beds and hes asleep on it half the time 😭 #incidentally. yes thats why im in the living room instead of my room lmaoooo #ugh ok anyway anyway. ''you live like this?'' yes sorry i just need to talk to him but our schedules are really incompatible l #and im always the one pestering him about stuff like hes never asked me to do anything . so i feel bad. this is my own fault. i know this #just need to complain somewhere because my ass is numb lol this isnt a cushiony carpet

[anthurak]

Okay, so it turns out that Blake’s plan is even CRAZIER than we were thinking.

And I kind of love that XD

#rwby #rwby ice queendom #rwby ice queendom spoilers #Blake Belladonna #nightmare blake #about what i'd expect from someone who decided that setting fire to her own house was a great idea to win a fight #blake is so goddamn extra XD #let it never be said that blake half-asses anything

[posallys]

genuinely asking but like. how do you do the whole friend thing. i kind of got fucked over during high school because moving states + covid, so i didn't make any of those long-term highschool friends, and then got depressed but was also focusing on the IB diploma and playing 2 varsity sports so I didn't have time to do anything ever.

and now i'm in college in my only real-life friends are my bestie i've known since first grade but haven't seen in 3 years because I moved and we have a relationship where we text each other and then it takes the other a month to respond and then the cycle repeats, and my boyfriend of 4.5 years.

#and i want to make it very clear that it's not a 'reliance on my boyfriend' issue because people LOVE to tell me that's what it is #it's just like...nobody ever invites me to do anything? #and i got SO sick of asking people to do things and them giving half-assed excuses #like sorry you're literally going to sit there and make plans with the 5 other people sitting with us and then not include me... #i will simply not talk to you that doesn't bother me #but then again i have a lot of people i'd consider friends who just never do anything? so i never get to do anything with them? #idk. is this a me problem lol

[deadtower]

lost a mutual on twt for saying "i can't believe there are people i trusted who are now mask-off spreading rothschild conspiracy theories" so i regret to inform everyone it seems we are at That Level of mask-off unapologetic antisemitism

#like y'all will be like ANTIZIONISM ISN'T ANTISEMITISM and half of the time we're not even fucking talking about antizionism #the tweet they rt'd in question was saying israel is an invention of the rothschilds. like. that's not antizionism that's just antisemitic #but y'all are so adamant that we're using antisemitism as our 'you're not allowed to say anything ever' gotcha #which in itself is antisemitism a la 'To Find Out Who's In Control Look At Who You're Not Allowed To Criticize' #like... this is some scary shit bro it's to the point where i'm getting pushback on asking ppl not to rt stuff about jews controlling the-- #--media and being the puppeteers of the world pulling all the strings of the politicians. like basic-ass nazi ideology #and people are pushing back against that!!!! they're upset we're asking them not to say that shit!!!!! #'i would have hidden a jew' 'i never would have sided with the nazis' etc my ass y'all are literally in bed with them as we speak #anyway to all fellow jews my dms and my askbox are always open and i love you and we will make it through this together #just like always. they want to call us vermin? we'll be fucking vermin we'll be impossible to fucking get rid of <3

[mossible]

I must admit something; I'm currently in the process of reading CSULR(HWMT).

I'm on chapter.. 9? and MY GOLLLY GOSH GOODNESS HOW DO YOU KEEP WRITING THE FIRST CHAPTER WOULD HAVE BEEN ENOUGH FOR A SINGLE FIC BUT NO LIKE...

Thank you for doing a service to the cuttletavio tag.

SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY TO THIS ACK i was (ironically) busy working on the newest chapter LOL

TYSM THOUGH AHHHH

listen the way i work is. if i want to write something i need to make sure it makes sense and has a satisfying conclusion. i could have very well just left the first chapter as a one-shot and let readers fill in the gaps, but at the time (august of last year) i was so incredibly ill over cuttletavio that i just. i had to have it continue.

especially after whatever the hell the rotm ending was bc like. im not saying it was bad! but we deserved more. 1 line of dialogue was vaguely directed at one another. cap'n said one thing about octavio post-final boss. ok man. just let us starve then i see how it is mr nogami

ANYWAYS my point is that. i wanted this to continue. and i want these two to have a happy ending! but to get to there we need to uh. [looks at notes] we need to worldbuild and redeem octavio. ok past me whatever you say! [writes over 100k words about this sad pathetic gay octopus]

#cracked snowglobes #people who know me very well are more than aware of my tendencies #those tendencies being to never half-ass anything if im autistic and hyperfixated enough on it #and well. ive been pretty damn fixated on splatoon ever since i got my switch when i was a sophomore so! #guess thats not changing any time soon!

[sk3l3t0n444]

im good o-O

#who fucking let me eat againnnnnnn #tw ed #cuz imma fuckign rant #i always feel liek shit for eating anything ever #and today was one of those days where i was like oh im not hungry and i dont wanna eat but my stupid ass did anyways #fucking ate enough to make me feel sick #and i wanna purge so badly #like i am fighting every fucking urge to go puke up all this #WHY. AM. I. LIKE. THIS. #if i purge i will feel significantly better but yk purging isnt good #and if i do im just proving to everybody that i cant fucking get better #but if i dont im showing everybody that i have no self control with eating #yk i say im getting better and to a certain extent i am but im not really ever “better” #like im better than i was at the lowest point of my life...thats like the bare minimum #like congrats i havent written a suicide note in over a year! woo or whatever #like congrats me you didnt fucking cut yourself on purpose for a year and a half wowwwww thats the bare minimum: / #most people in fact NEVER cut themselves on purpose #and lately ive been having “trauma” dreams #like its not really trauma but like dreams where i see people i would rather never see again and people who i would do anything to see again #or dreams about relapsing or failing school yk shit like that #and most of the time i wake up and feels like that shit was real #oh yeah lemme add soem more tws #tw suicide #tw sh