#which is almost worse

[glsneeg-enthusiast]

*covered in blood gripping the bathroom sink and staring into the mirror* ok. okay. okay. im normal. im normal again. the demons are gone. i cannot hear the voices. i dont even know what a minecraft is. im normal.

#back to generation loss my brand #which is almost worse

[myriahkamm]

Ugh, can't wait until I have my own place again so I can stop having to hear my sister's not-so-subtle digs at me constantly.

"Oh, I would *never* shop at Walmart."

"Oh, you use *cheap* yarn."

"I know she rarely eats *good* food, kitties."

Bitch, I'm single, my job doesn't pay all that well, and I've been *saving for a house*, so please back off with your nonsense. 😑

#myri speaks #text post #ugh for real my sister can be such a bitch #i don't know if it's on purpose or not #which is almost worse #not sure how to talk about it either #sigh

[keirametzbrassknuckles]

I do think it's funny though that writing isn't really thought of as something that has "sketches" or "warmups". You're either writing a completely fleshed out original story or you're failing at being a writer.

#i have so many thoughts about this actually but its 1am and i need to be up at 7 and ive had a few beers and i am not able to adress them #atm #something something the push for fic to be recognized as a legitimate form of the craft #when even at its most in depth and diligent its basically a sketch #and sometimes its just original fiction with a crutch #which is almost worse #tracing and borrowing gesture is how visual artists learn to model the figures they want #copying and living into those same gestures is how writers learn to write #and idk why that isnt acknowledged or respected #visual arts students have for years suffered through being made to copy ~The Canon~ #and like...isn't that what fic is? just sub blorbo from my shows for Girl With A Pearl Earring #but also i think looking at fic as anything more than either a copy or a practice is a disservice in both directions: #to the fic and to you as the author #idk...

[thebomb-thebird-andtheburntbitch]

we hired one of my coworkers kids for a summer side job and how do i interact with a highschooler

#i forgot #he seems well mannered #which is almost worse #if he was a lil shit i'd be free balling but nOOO

[thatoddboy]

I live in a part of my city that used to be very Jewish. The population moved in the early 2000s and now it's mostly Latino and Cambodian families. It's a great neighborhood, and I love living here, and there there's still signs of a historic Jewish presence. A beautiful facade with the ten commandments above the door of what used to be a synagogue is probably the most prominent instance, tucked into the alcove, across from a park.

Another was the date on the corner stone of a daycare building I pass every day on my way to work. It's roof is lined with roaring lions, and the cornerstone has both the CE building date and the Jewish year right about it. It always made me smile a little to see it - that I might be a half hour bus ride from me shul but there's a little bit of history not even a block from my house.

One day, when I left for work, I noticed they put up a large sign advertising their classes. The sign is big enough it covers the cornerstone, but just the Jewish year. The CE date is perfectly clear, Anno Domini with the serial numbers filed off

Unless you saw before, you'd never know this building was made and dedicated by Jewish people. The synagogue is now a Episcopal church, their big neon sign overshadowing the carefully carved stone tablets above the door.

I feel a little more alone again.

#judaism #jewish #jew ish #I don't think it was on purpose as like a 'we don't like Jews' thing. More 'this information doesn't matter' #Which is almost worse

[nervousbreadpuppy]

why did i start reading the ballad of songbirds and snakes i hate rich people and politics those are like two of my least favorite things

#and i know snow isnt technically rich #but hes upper class #which is almost worse

[klaviergavinwiki]

far be it from me to like expect people on this site to have braincells but i don't think saying "these guys are WEAK and PATHETIC! I mod Karlach to be BEEFIER and add MORE scars because i have TASTE" in response to people like removing her scars and making her skinnier is the exalted read you think it is

#like you are still changing her aesthetic to fit your expectations you're just doing it more performatively #which is almost worse #bc at least the misogynists who hate buff women aren't like trying to be self righteous about it

[shadow-pixelle]

Mmmmm noodle brain says words illegal. 'Tis very rude, I have Things and Stuff to write.

#my life be like #uni stuff #whoops i broke the brain #goddamn coursework #it's not quite burnout admittedly #more just a complete apathy towards getting the words to come out #which is almost worse #i have the ideas. the ideas do not have me

[not-urbabbe]

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#i keep having these dreams that i get in a really bad car accident #like hit by a semi bad #and it’s never my fault #which is almost worse

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

prince and prince friendship. this is my vision

#blood cw //////// #violence cw /////////// #erikar #eridan ampora #dirk strider #karkat vantas #dave strider #im just crazy about the idea that eridan and dirk would get along #theyre both fucked up in the head but in a way where they go ''theyre a freak but theyre basically OK'' about each other #eridan is too stupid/stubborn to manipulate and dirk literally could not give less of a shit about eridan's drama #so they have like a net 0 impact on each other #they do not make each other better. they also do not make each other worse. #they just get really bored and lonely sometimes #''do u want to stave off the ennui and beat the shit out of each other'' ''sure i dont have anything else going on today'' #just super lethargic and almost transactional #since they only hang out when theyre both bored as shit. from the outside it almost looks like a moirallegiance thing #at least until they start trying to murder each other which is when it suddenly looks like a kismesis #but its neither #theyre literally just bored and love violence #eridan <> karkat btw

[biblically-accurate-dca]

@vanweek2024 day 6 - spare

vanny goes bowling !

#my art #vanweek2024 #this was the only prompt i prepared before the week started lol #the perspective might be Bad but idc. the colors might also be Bad but again idc #couldnt think of anything for the other definition of spare so... bowling it is #vanny #vanny fnaf #glamrock bonnie #anyway it's honestly so funny to me how i've been posting all this van stuff and the most popular post for it has like? less than 100 notes? #but i know the second i start posting 🌞🌜 stuff again that number will shoot back up #which just means my 🌞🌜 stuff is too easily consumable and i need to make it even worse ♡ #i do have a lot of complex feelings regarding the 🌞🌜 fandom and the way van and ness are largely ignored despite how intertwined their #stories are. but i feel like if i talk about that i'll get harassed LMAOOO #and also these tags aren't really the place for it anyway #eyestrain #eye strain #<- oh i almost forgot HDKSKF

[kagoutiss]

oot zelda doodle i liked :’-)))

#tloz #ocarina of time #oot #zelda #my handwriting is very very bad so i actually added alt text/image description #which i should already be doing with everything anyway. i wanna go thru and update some old stuff with that too #but yeah anyway. all the stuff this series presents about being Fated To Be Something or Fated To End Up Somewhere #even if that thing or place is ultimately Horrible and the consequences primarily occur off camera or post-canon after the Happy Ending #characters who end the story with pretty much nothing and also you find out later they inadvertently cause a far worse disaster #than even the one they gave up everything to prevent #oot zelda’s infinite number of issues and almost guaranteed lack of happiness or normality for the rest of her life #even after ‘fixing everything’ in literally the best possible way she could figure out how. given everything she knew #and then blaming herself for accidentally allowing everything to go wrong in the first place. by trying to fix it #and she was literally just a kid going insane from prophetic visions while simultaneously being disbelieved by everyone around her #except impa but she’s a whole other situation entirely. with a whole other set of baggage on the other end of the spectrum #i just rambled sos so much oops. anyway yea oot zelda #its fine. i throw up when i think about her. its fine

[langernameohnebedeutung]

since i'm back on my x-men bullshit: One underrated subplot in x-men first class is to me the way Charles, Hank, and Raven are totally fine experimenting on themselves (Cerebro, the serum Hank creates) and Erik - the person who has actually been experimented on in the most horrific circumstances imaginable - frequently going "can you...maybe not???"

#erik lehnsherr #magneto #I think a lot of it gets misconstrued because Erik is often glib about it #for example I've seen a lot of people read the 'what an adorable lab rat you make Charles' comment as flirting #but he literally follows it up with 'I've been a lab rat - I know one when I see one' #also his constant interventions with Hank and Raven which Hank gets jealous about and almost strangles him about in the end #but really once again he was RIGHT. Giving the CIA Cerebro would have had horrible consequences in the long run #and Hank's serum did backfire (and could have backfired way worse honestly)

[milkweedman]

It is interesting how much math comes into even the most basic of like. Making things. Making almost anything. And often not numbers necessarily but proportions and geometry. I think all the time about how castles were built with geometry at the heart of it. And I use the same kind of proportional math to make socks fit. And none of my pieces are ever knit with a prime number of stitches--because you use factors to make neat colorwork and ribbing and different stitches. Idk ! I remember constantly thinking 'how the hell is THIS gonna come in useful ?' But it always does. Math is at the heart of everything, and knowing how to apply it is a tool of critical importance to Thinking Up A Shape And Making It.

#it turns out it is not covid vaccine making me highly fucked up but rather this new med which is fun #um #one of thise 'high but wow. in such a bad way' kinda experience atm #almost fell down the stairs #tripped while just standing #and its like. ok so the thing is i go to pain management to manage my pain right ? makes sense #and then all they have to offer is shit that fucks me up more. the muscle relaxant that seems to have permanently #loosened all my joints so they are WAY WORSE NOW #stupid ssris that make me fall constantly and fuck with my brain #i literally just need a painkiller that works. that is all. we know what was effective from surgery #but they of course will never prescribe opiods. oh the horror. imagine. #i could scream #anyway. uh thinking about the interconnectedness of math in all things is much more fun than screaming #knitting

[seraphsfire]

any other spoonies or people with fibro/chronic fatigue/myalgic encephalomyletis/adhd/etc start just *trying* to think of the steps to a complex mental task have an immediate brain shutdown and get sleepy/fatigued/feel drugg/ed and physically exhausted immediately after doing so bc i feel like im going crazy and googling/duckduckgo-ing yeilded only like, mayo clinic articles defining chronic fatigue so. lol

#pls fuckin help me #chronic fatigue #me/cfs #MECFS #spoonie #autoimmune disorder #text #tbd ........ #myalgic encephalomyelitis #this is the whole reason why most of the time i literally CAN'T draw when im not physically tired its bizarre #and has gotten worse so gradually over time that i didn't notice it really didn't used to happen until recently #it happens with almost anything intricate but especially with anything creative #like taking trazodone or a heavy dose of xanax but nothing actually happened #it gradually fades over the next hour unless i keep trying to do something that takes a lot of brainpower #which is unfortunately most things

[vristrogen]

something about people calling vrisrezi "toxic yuri" always puts me off. i understand the lack of words to really put their dynamic but like you know theyre in a relationship thats largely good for them right. they arent dating because "it sucks but it would be worse without each other" they genuinely really love each other a lot

#just as a baseline understanding here i am outright stating that their moiraillegance is a romantic relationship which includes kissing etc #if u cannot meet me on that level i dont think i really want to discuss vrisrezi with you #anyways its just so weird to me i dont know. i dont have a super great way of articulating it #they do Need each other they are codependent and its not necessarily healthy #but unhealthy does not equal toxic #they dont hurt each other on purpose they make each other so so happy and they do so much for each other and thats what makes them worse #because as much as they are universally destined to be together by the Laws of Paradox Space they are also universally doomed #and i mean straight up like. terezi is vriska's fp i feel like this is a given with the almost unambiguous bpd coding of vriska #and that isnt a type of relationship that vriska serket and terezi pyrope are exactly going to understand or manage well #but i also think that calling a favorite person relationship toxic by the nature of it regardless of who specifically is in it #is really gross? and harmful? and it doesnt make you sound cool when you talk about vrisrezi like that #ok wow this got really really out of hand. vrisrezi isnt really “toxic” if you read the comic thank you good night #vriska #terezi #my posts ::::)