#where exactly did she go after that

[goldensunset]

i don’t actually think ava kingdomhearts is secretly evil nor do i really want her to be but dang if it doesn’t make for a lot of fun ideas and mental blorbo rotation

#she’s just so interesting she’s so cool i love her #ok maybe i do slightly want her to be evil but ONLY as an anti hero #like what exactly did luxu tell her that suddenly made her turn around #and lead her union towards the battlefield insisting that this had to be done #when she had previously been such a pacifist #what’s with that ‘some things aren’t for you to know’ line #where exactly did she go after that #she’s one of the most interesting characters in the series but as a mobile game exclusive charactsr whose true face has never been shown #she’s simply not getting the recognition she deserves #and like. girl power. this is a fascinating woman just look at her #like there is clearly a lot of nuance in play here and i don’t want any of it to be glossed over #kingdom hearts #kh ava #master ava #mine: kh

[enthusiastic-nimrod]

This was meant to be a lazy fanart, but then I started doing the patterns and prints and that added an hour or two of work to this.

#fanart #buddy daddies #kazuki kurusu #rei suwa #miri unasaka #Illustration #I ALMOST didn't add rei #because I didn't want to have to figure out how to place him in #but once I finished coloring miri I realized exactly where he'd fit #and now he's there #miri did rei and kazuki's nails #while kazuki did her's #he made it a point to clean up the paint he got on her fingers before it dried #but uh #yeah good luck getting that nailpolish outu of your arm hair dude #originally I was going to have Miri's overalls be themed after that show she likes #but I didn't want to have to be accurate #so they're their in spirit through that blanket in the back

[disdaidal]

I wanna thank my irl friends who follow me here and also my beloved mutuals as well as followers who still send me kind messages and try to interact with me and my stuff even if I'm bad at doing it myself.

Honestly, things haven't been that great with me lately, so... it means a lot to me. Honestly. <3

#personal #i had to make the tough decision to drop out of school last week #i didn't exactly want it if i'm being completely honest here #but certain stuff was preventing me from getting further so i knew the teachers are gonna ask me to quit over at our teams meeting #i instantly contacted my nurse about my situation. and she got me a doctor's appointment which was yesterday #where i kind of broke down a little. not because she didn't grant me the sick leave i thought i was going to get #after feeling down and sleeping terribly for weeks #but because she actually *got me*. like. she actually listened to me and figured out some stuff and told me that #what i'm going through and what i've been going through for years would make anyone depressed #so i couldn't help but cry a little because yeah. i'm so tired of never being enough no matter how hard i try #because my brain's wired a certain way and it makes me slow and kinda clumsy and inattentive at times #which. you might guess is not ideal at today's work environment. or studying-wise even #so instead of granting me sick leave (she did say we can change that at anytime though) she told me to wait for that phone call #from the unemployment office. which i should be getting tomorrow. or well. later today #and talk to them about this. to see if they can offer some solutions. or if we can figure something out #'cause i'm getting closer to my 40s and not getting anywhere and it's wearing me out and tiring me out #because i clearly can't help myself or change my ways on my own #i managed to get some work last week though. at the local youth house. one shift though but money still #but i haven't been getting those offers a lot during the past few months so it's not enough to support me obviously #so i definitely need something else. and i hope i can get help. that someone could help me #i should finally get tested for adhd next month too. i don't know if i even have it or if it's gonna change anything but #at least i'd know #anyway i needed to get this off my chest. cause i'm kinda crying a little bit even now just thinking about this whole thing #sorry

[meixiaotian]

still thinking about how each animorph's fate is directly related to how much they enjoyed the war

#animorphs #I swear I saw a post about this years ago but I don't know where it is #so I guess I'll say it again #Rachel loves the war. She flourishes in it. She self-actualizes. And it's terrible #She and her friends don't even know what peacetime Rachel would look like. *Can* she even exist outside of the war? #And it turns out #No! She can't! Peacetime Rachel never comes to pass! She dies before the war is over! #While Ax. Ax is relatively unbothered. He did enlist in the Andalite military after all. He's not as haunted as the rest of them #After Rachel dies he's the next. Peace comes but he chases the echoes of the war and it ends him. #In some awful way where he's gone but he's not. Not exactly dead but absorbed into a greater hive mind #And of course Cassie hates the war. Hates fighting hates killing hates it the whole way through #And when it's over she manages to move on. She spends her days saving the environment #And when battle again comes knocking at her door she says no #She says goodbye. She knows she'll never see the rest of them again. #Because the rest. They hate the war but not as much as Cassie. #And they try to move on but unlike Cassie they can't. #So off they go to enter into another war. And maybe they survive but maybe they don't #Leaving only Cassie as the real survivor of the war. Alone on Earth while her friends all went to die in space #goddamn #I hated the last book as a kid #I still wish they had a happier ending #but there's so much to chew over and cry about #it's a really good ending

[rui-drawsbox]

random isekai protagonist that has been in my mind for (1) days

#rui draw smth #rui's oc's #rambling timee #after reading one manwha where the protag says in the first chap that she lived in a random village to hide from ther canon(her death lol) #and never mentioned it again i thought “hey and what happend in that time?” or #“she can just lie saying she found a lover there if she doenst want to be with the ML” #and that's exactly what i did with this oc. she reincarnated and fleed right where no one would recognize her or her last name #then starts a mini school teaching the basics for children and illiterate teens or smth like that #not bc she likes teaching. but because she has way too much free time and decided to use it for smth good #loves peace and cozy spaces. thats one of the main reasons she doenst want to go back to the capital #100% says fuck the canon everytime something goes out of the main story and just goes with the flow

[imperfectcourt]

Me: I hate drawing Neil's hair bc I hc it as very chaotic and that is hard to paint

Also me: what if i made a portrait of based entirely off of something that I want to put in his hair

#i hc that neils hair is exactly like mine #except shorter and auburn #wherein his usual routine is to ruffle it with a towel and then let it air dry #and it is poofy and maybe a little wavy and definitely always looking messy and never pointing in the same direction twice #but if he skips the towel adds the tiniest bit of product and gives it a super quick squeeze with his hands #suddenly it dries in all these big curls #but hell if hes going to do that wvery time he showers he does that too often with so many day and night practices #nobody even knows his hair does that (least of all neil) until the first banquet of sophomore year #where allison is too insulted by him having that hair with the suit she picked out for him #and he wont let her at it right after his shower but he does accept the product and lets andrew run his fingers through his wet hair #and an hour later theyre all like ?????? #you dodnt want to style your hair who did you let curl it??? #neil: ive been sitting in the bean bag eating gold fish while andrew and kevin fought over the bathroom for the past 45 minutes? #anyway he has wild unpredictable ridiculous hair and im going to badly paint it bc i want to draw him in a crown

[shimamitsu]

i'm posting whatever screencaps i have at this point but this arc changed me forever and i still think it's one of the best in the entire manhwa. this moment specifically

#their relationship makes me want to punch walls honestly #like it's exactly as minju said even after all that happened marie couldn't let minju go through the same she did #even after all those chapters where she was like hehe minju you're fucked now *evil marie face* #they're really. augh #homing

[fideidefenswhore]

'AB should have stayed on cromwell's good side and supported his policy, which she believed unduly favoured those of the realm who were already wealthy and would disadvantage the poor'...........you are not serious people.

#cromwell was the servant of the crown; not the other way around. like #the way this conflict is discussed...lmao #i wish she had stayed on his 'bad side' but gained the advantage . we are not the same #also like what exactly is she supposed to have done; like it is all just simply...not ....realistic........ #should she have encouraged henry to promote him and then protested his policies? #because obviously any promotion was going to suggest her tacit approval of said policy #and thus! alienate latimer and all the religious men and scholars she had patronized who were in agreement ; who were her supporters #where cromwell wasn't.... #that is simply not how royal favour worked . #you did not grant the favour and then hope for the best . #it was edward seymour who benefited from the dissolution; like... #i find it admirable that she stood for her principles when remaining silent might have satisifed the nobility who wanted the gains #she warned and censured about the direction it seemed to be going #whereas her successor didn't say boo on the matter until five months into her own queenship #AFTER her family had already directly benefited from the dissolution.

[fiendishartist2]

guys what if i want to make my own apollo justice game.

#i need to write a prequel to aa4 pls pls pls pls pls #okay get this: so phoenix isnt disbarred yet and he doesnt have trucy. hes still taking and winning cases #one day he gets a call from edgeworth and hes all like ''wright i need your assistance'' and hes like what for and edgeworth goes #''ive been given the most ridiculous case and i think youre the only man in law who can take care of it'' #so phoenix bikes his ass to the detention center and boom. child behind bars #and phoenix is like ??? hey kid what are doing here. and this kid is the most surly mfer on the planet like you couldnt get- #-a word out of him if you tried. hes kinda giving phoenix the stink eye too but hes just the littlest guy on earth #and phoenix feels bad for him so he tries to get a rundown of the case (maybe edgeworth gave him an autopsy report or smth beforehand) #but get this. the kid still wont speak. he hasnt even moved a muscle. and after some prodding you find out this little dude- #-doesnt speak english (i dont love aa6 but i think apollos tragic backstory can be interesting so we're going w that but taking it seriousl #anyways so maya is like omg this kid is speaking khurainese but hers is kinda broken bc shes not from the mainland and only knows it- #-from like prayers #so you only get bits and pieces of the kids testimony. plus he still doesnt wanna talk bc ''dhurk told me not to talk to you'' #so you start following the new lead but you ask too many questions and apollos like oh shit i said too much and wont talk to you anymore #but now you have two leads: khur'ain and a man named ''dhurk'' plus the fact that this is kid might be new to america since- #-he cant speak english but is smack dab in the middle of california. its all v curious and phoenix wants to get to the bottom of it #for the rest of the case i feel like it would go in the direction of ''we dont know exactly whats up w this dhurk guy or where this kid- #-came from but we do get him acquitted and phoenix is able to save him from the dark path he was heading towards'' thus steering apollo- #-in the direction of law and giving him a wayyyy better reason than aa6 gave him <3 #i kind of like the interlinked nature of ace attorney's storytelling. like everything leads into smth else and everyone is impacted- #-by another person before they even become properly entangled w each other's lives #like how mia faced dahlia years before she met phoenix but dahlia was the one to connect them #or how trucy gave phoenix the diary paper but she's also the one who ropes apollo into the waa. even before they know they're siblings #or how lamoire left apollo and trucy as children and when they reunite as adults they cant recognise each other but they all find each- #-other anyways #i could go on but i think this could be cool yknow esp bc i think the most interesting thing about apollo's aa6 backstory is his life- #-post dhurk. like where did he stay? was he a foster kid? was he put into the system? how did that affect him? what kind of ppl took him in #i just wanna know how that whole thing would have effected him bc like when yiu think about it how did he even get to america?? his dad's #-considered a terrorist. idk man i think its interesting and apollo and dhurks interactions are one of the only good parts of aa6

[akaikami-cherryblossom]

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How do you tell someone who can’t take constructive criticism they’re a lost cause

#THIS SOUNDS MEAN THIS SOUNDS SO MEAN #but my dance partner for a routine in the musical I’m in can’t do this one dip right and it’s driving me crazy #I have spent SO MUCH time with her and taking so many different approaches to get it to work #and sometimes she’ll do it perfectly after I use a specific approach and then when we try the actual move it’s right back to where we starte #I know I shouldn’t expect someone with less experience to be at my level exactly—and I don’t— but man. this is just bad #and after each run she asks how she did and I have to explain every time that I am only paying attention to where she needs to go #and what I need to do to get her there along with my own steps bc I’m learning this for the first time too!! #if I was teaching that would be a very different story but I’m not so. bleh. #LC screams

[dirt-str1der]

Wrt the previous post i still get so mad about how stupid some people are about that like okay thank you for letting me know you failed basic reading comprehension

#Listen to my problems #yeah sorry this post is going to be about the incest horror game again #like yes of course the game will attract incest loving audiences this is not the games fault. its extremely well written imo #like yeah the game has the incest ending. you mean the ending where external forces literally discourage you from making it happen ? #‘are you sure this is the route you want to go down?’ like you have to purposefully choose to make it happen for it to happen #thats not the story the game is trying to push you towards thats the ending you get because you went out of your way to get it #‘ashley thinks its funny that they had sex in a prophetic dream’ do her previous actions mean nothing to you ? like did you forget that #ashley literally says things that she knows will make her brother really upset specifically because she wants to see him upset #the incest ending is what you get when you let ashley win and she is like ... not exactly the hero #she doesnt even want to sleep with him like she is not even attracted to him. this isnt a ‘my sibling is hot and i want them’ thing. this is #a ‘im terrified of my brother leaving me and i will do anything to make him stay’ thing. its not a happily ever after it was a last resort #im going to look real stupid if the dev turns out to be pro incest

[variousqueerthings]

the thing is there’s bad shows that have fascinating characters and arcs and set-ups and inbuilt lore from the start and interesting good accidents all the way through due to Tensions in gender and sexuality and intersectional politics that naturally occur when the writing challenges the belief systems of the writers (whether or not they allow it to change them is immaterial, the writing is what it is and its potential always supersedes the limitations of those writing it) and even the fact that the writer isn’t really up to the task to be honest about what the writing is asking of them, even the fact that they back down and take the story to incomprehensible places due to not knowing how to react when challenged and so the answer is reactionary and clumsy and even ignorant-

even that is interesting, because seeing the threads that make up the story, seeing how they pull -- sometimes with deliberation and sometimes with fumbling fear of unknown territory -- relates right back to all those things that were put in there, accidentally or on purpose

which brings us, of course, to cobra kai

taking out all the boring stuff about why this or that happened (we know why, the writers are three middle-aged straight white cis dudes who have large blindspots about what they’re delving into and accidentally made the most interesting dynamics same-sex because they believe martial arts should be segregated and don’t know how to write characters who aren’t using their fists to progress their story and they’re afraid of Politics) and then think about why does it happen in the story?

(the alternative of course is to go “I simply erase it from the story,” which is a strong choice, and it also asks the question: what do these key changes do to the trajectory of everything)

why does it happen in the story? Not “why do some other (paid, flipping paid) writers want it to happen,” but what would it take for it to make sense for you?

what gods of that universe, or longform stories, or subversions, or tricks, or missing scenes, or, or, or, do you need to make it work?

the story is still there, the writing is still interesting for knowing concretely what the flaws of the writers are (some people picked up on that early, I’m an optimistic soul I’ve been told) -- so what loose threads need to be picked up on, what questions have gone unanswered or hurried through or answered incorrectly?

what do you need to do to make it work?

#ck #cobra kai #what do you need to do to make it work - me asking johnny this question is EXACTLY one of the unanswered questions that interests me #what is the function of an ouroboros in a story -- that's another one #where did miyagi's ghost go? and another one #how does daniel feel about violence after that violence is enacted? #why did sam return to miguel and did she actually find out what she wanted? #does carmen want a baby? is the baby REAL? #what makes terry silver tragic? #has robby recovered from his past? #what is miguel's function in the story? (is he aware of this?) #a SLEW of questions relating to tory of course and to tory in relation to sam (we know this) #and of course -- what themes are of interest to you the potential writer of fanfic or fanartist or edit-maker or meta-writer etc. #also to be clear when I say 'gender and sexuality' im not necessarily saying trans and not-straight #im saying not-examining masculinity and femininity in a text often leaves a big question-mark especially a text like this #'politics' here encompasses everything from how the show handles vietnam korea japan and okinawa #to how it writes its scant characters of colour #to its (lack of) acknowledgement of the ways that racism impacted miyagi's character #to its unexamined sexism and misogyny and throwaway 'politically incorrect' jokes put in the mouth of johnny #to its examination of violence (when is violence good and when is it bad) #to its stories about addiction and mental health and physical disability #to the way it writes police and law enforcement and criminal punishment and poverty #to of course... its creepy pro-life sentiments #im sure ive missed some there -- but for a show that attempts desperately to avoid any politics it sure decided to write politics #cks5 #cobra kai spoilers #cobra kai s5 #cobra kai season 5

[pepprs]

#to translate this post: someone liked this post i made (on the upper left) on AUGUST 28 having a moment of self awareness that i was running #away from my whole life and not moving or learni ng to drive or anything. it is now march 8. it has been almost 7 months. and i have made #basically zero progress. and there is nothing stopping me but me. i could read the drivers manual and whatever whenever i want. but i am not #doing anything. and i don’t know how to get myself to start. #purrs #i know it’s a cop out excuse but i truly do think it’s covid. i think being in lockdown for a year and a half made me just let go of any #sense of progress. made me scared to take steps forward. and i mean i did bc i lived on campus for a while after that but it’s like.. EVERY #part of my life is stagnant rn it seems. and it’s not just me it’s my siblings too. we’re all getting older but none of us is trying to move #out or gain our independence in any way and my brother isn’t even looking for jobs even though he needs one. we’re all just getting older #but we’ve lost (or maybe had knocked out of us by covid and our mom being so strict) any sense of moving ipward and spreading our wings. #forgotten we have wings at all. and ive done important things like going on a house tour or traveling with my besties (<3). but i have only #made it to page 8 of the drivers manual and i truly do not want to read the rest of it. i have only been on one house tour and im longing to #move out but how much am i really because i can’t bring myself to schedule another tour and start searching for a new home in earnest. #i just come home every day UTTERLY exhausted and spend all my free time trying to process or rest. and im not making room for myself to use #my wings. and it’s truly terrible. why are we all okay with living like this. my younger self would be HORRIFIED if she saw how much i had a #atrophied since graduating and moving back home. my brighton self would be HORRIFIED. i told myself i wouldn’t and then it’s exactly what i #did. and ik im being harsh and ive spread my wings in some important ways during this time but… these are so obvious. such low hanging #fruit in some ways. bc any 16 year old can take this test and pass it so why can’t i at 24? why won’t i let myself? dont i want a nice cozy #home i make my own where i can eat what i want and sleep when i want and have control over sounds? then why am i not running for it? #delete later #i am wasting my youth i am wasting my youth i am wasting my youth 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 my one precious life 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 #also LMFAOOOOO the next tag on that aug 28 post was that i need to get a new campus id card… guess who hasn’t done that either ♥️

[totentnz]

that one gig in dogtown in the dodgy clinic? with the woman just trying to find her brother? the woman that v shot? killed? not because she deserved to die but because v was hired to protect the doctor? the doctor that clearly didnt care for the woman's grief? a kind of grief that v fears the most? one that she understands? help me

#sammy says shit #pl spoilers #listen the whole thing was stinky from the start #and imma be honest with you i wasnt too thourogh with finding out what exactly was going on #which fits because v wouldnt want to know either #sometimes she likes to turn a blind eye to things #and i also like that i fucked up and it stays in my canon #because sometimes you fuck up right #and im pretty sure you only find out that woman was looking for her brother after she's dead #so v is visibly shaking at that point #ears ringing #that stupid doctor is talking about something she doesnt even hear #johnny asks him whats up with her and she doesnt hear him either #goes full on autopilot and walks out of that church #doesnt accept the call from mr hands where he tells her how well she did #or maybe she does accept it #and hearing him praise her is just another knife in her side #bad metaphor but i couldnt think of anything else #man i love it when gigs just fit in so well with my character building #oh right #oc:v

[newlyy]

im closer to my family than i am to any friends just by virtue of shared history and living together. when im doing really badly, i only go to my family, when i need help i go to my family first, my anxiety is lowest around my family, etc etc. family is significant for me, which makes me afraid of getting older and losing it. idk who i’d be without my core four-person family and our home base. im about to cry just thinking about it, i NEED them, I am them, they are me

#one time i straight up bawled listening to cest la mort by the civil wars and thinking about my family #the line 'you can sink to the bottom of the sea but don't go without me' #ive had issues with my dad for my whole life #our personalities just dont mesh together #but he got cancer and i told my friend who knows that i have a rocky relationship with him and she was like 'and how do you feel about that? #girl bad. hes my dad. theres no other way to feel. #theres no like well when i was thirteen i hated him so rip #i feel bad. #oh my god! did any of you ever watch the dr. blake mysteries? #there was one episode where a woman murdered her step father after finding out that he had murdered her father #and i think the cop interrogating her said something like 'that he killed your father doesn't make it ok to kill him' and she was like #'yeah well i miss my dad' in the saddest most childlike voice #girl i know exactly what you mean

[twilightarcade]

Built up a poison resistance to has a ranking of the best tasting poisons pipeline

#wordstag #evieposting #sorry for dead I'm 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 #also had a fun day today and proceeded to get a bad headache #going to sleep after this just wanted to say 50 tginhs before calling it a say #it would also serve like. Logical use #like if you were able to write down all the traits n flavors n such of each poison #I know things like this exist but. It's special ok #I would need to figure out exactly what it extends to but it wouldn't be too much of a stretch to say it covered a large majority #and like you can always. Broaden your horizons. Yk. #'oh boy time to gain another resistance mmmmm' #did I mentioned she specializes mainly in toxicology. I don't think I did but that seems important #somewhat #it's a bit silly too #iris' job is a bit more wishywashy though #generally more scattered. odd jobs mostly involving leaving the facility #I think secretary lady should get a job that's more than just sitting there and keeping up appearances but that's where we're at with her #sort of mean. Sorry secretary lady #you are more than just that in my heart