#what time periods do you have to study?

[kens-puku]

Y'all are gonna think I'm so weird.

But I'm running with this idea I've had for a while for my mcl ocs. Well, other than the actual other mcl ocs I've made.

It's part lazy, part bizarre.

Clones.

Yep, clones.

My MCL NG oc is a clone of the original Puku, but different. I haven't figured out the details yet, but it's like what I did with Pukun, Puku's male clone. It has the idea of a type of clone theory idea of nature vs nurture. The DNA and nature of the puku clones is the same, but the nurture is always a bit different depending on circumstances. Puku "prime" is the parent of all the clones made, but Puku "prime" had a different parentage and upbringing than the clones. Not to mention, the events of each mcl game has different outcomes for clone Puku.

This Puku has -teal- hair and is a zoomer, I guess. Raised by Puku "prime" and has the existential grappling of dealing with being a clone in general.

There's... still a lot of ironing out to do. Like... Where does Kentin fit into all this? How should I incorporate the family given to Puku 2.0 in New Generation?

Why am I giving this plot to an MCL OC!??

lol

#my candy love #my candy love new generation #mcl ng #not that it matters at all. i don't believe I'd really write much lore on all this. it's just what my mind thinks of when regarding thispuk #actually I'm leaning more towards Puku 2.0 being raised by the family in universe. but Puku prime is like the creepy person that pops in #from time to time to make sure teal puku is doing alright #all of the pukus are adopted anyway lol #i have to study zoomers so I can know what zoomers are all about #wait... being a zoomer is all about upbringing during a certain time period.. so technically this Puku should be a gen alpha but JUST GO WI #dw guys I'll program this puku with the memories of a gen zoomer #When the teal puku was “born” from the test tube #puku prime put all the things zoomers grew up with on a crt television and had her watch it for a couple years while the body grows rapidly #it's all good fams we got this #teal puku would be like to peers “what do you mean your parents didn't have you watch your memories before they became memories?” #so like... teal puku will be “raised” by puku prime for about 4 years with programming. Then she'll be dropped off at the door step of the #family in NG with the instructions that she needs them to be her new family #yeah it's perfect! #just... so many of those gen z starter packs that I seen around #like minecraff and fortnite and the wii... yeah it's perfect #i need to remember how much aging happens in one year that I must have decided at one point. like a dog. #i think it was 1 year = about 4 years of growth but I can't member rn #but as per usual that growth cycle only goes on until reaching the age of the dna sampled. then it goes back to normal puku dna human growt #so actually 1 year of zoomer childhood programming #wait... the plot holes... are still.. T__T #I'll workshop it.

[hyacinths-in-a-storm]

Genuinely what was going through Iroh’s mind as he said that fighting the Firelord was the ‘Avatar’s battle’. Yeah I understand that history will see it as a power grab, but I think we have bigger problems than that. Like, I don’t know, THE FACT THAT SOZIN’S COMET IS IN A FEW HOURS AND THE AVATAR IS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND.

#Bro was like I’m going to let this thirteen year old with a year of training fight my brother #who was been training longer then has been conscious for #Instead of me #someone who has dedicated his whole life to the art of bending #Not surprising coming from the guy who let his 17 year old nephew rule a war-torn nation #Just go fight your brother dude please #Iroh is a 100x funnier when you realize he’s literally the epitome of “head empty” #he just gets possessed by the spirit of idioms past every now and then #He’s literally doing what Zuko did in Ba Sing Se (saying everything was great and fine when it was clearly not) #except for a much longer period of time #he is so used to having his way that he just lives in his own world of ‘everything will work out in the end’ #this makes me think Iroh and Zuko are foils honestly #Azula and Iroh on the other hand are cinematic parallels #that’s why they hate each other #to some extent they know how destructive their mindset is but will never admit it #so instead they utterly despise each other #Would this technically make Ozai and Zuko cinematic parallels as well???? #because oh boy that would be ironic and messy #I don’t know why this turned into a character study of Iroh and the fire nation royal family but oh well #iroh #ozai #aang #zuko #azula #atla #avatar the last airbender

[non-un-topo]

Spending hours trying to figure out why I feel so irritable and sensitive today and I’m only realizing now it might have something to do w being invited to a birthday party full of an entire family I’ve never met and like seven very small children and the person inviting me assuming I would love that. I want to support her bc I like her and she’s family now, but I cannot---I will not---go to another family event and be pushed into the kitchen doing dishes with the women or cooing over someone’s baby who just stares at me and whines when I try to mask and say hello.

#my period ended so it ain't that. #maybe i'm a horrible person. i just want to be left alone for seven solid days. and i certainly do not want to be forced- #-to interact with children. they scare me. real bad. #maybe this also has something to do with my readings for this week and the fact that we're going to be discussing 'womanhood'. #like the subject is 'what IS a woman to you?' and i am not really looking forward to listening to 15 cis girls tell me- #-how awful it is and how much pain they themselves endured while entirely not acknowledging the existence of trans women #or gnc women. #why am i so irritable jfc. #every time i talk like this to my partner they give me that look lol. the look that's like 'uh huh. i know a trans person when i see one.' #and i'm like shhhhhhh. no. don't say that. shhhh. i don't want to be. i hate myself okay and my family scared me out of it. #wish i could fucking shapeshift. wish i was just fucking born with a dick and a flat chest. actually i wish i was two people. #so i could decide from day-to-day and not have to worry about irreversible changes. #how much of my alleged transness is just internalized misogyny? <- this is a question i ask very very quietly to myself #because i think it's what my mother thinks. and most of the world. #how do i learn to be comfortable AS a masculine woman? i have no one to look up to who can teach me or show me it's okay. #i have transmasc friends who are elated to go on T. i'm scared that they will make me want to do it again. why tf am i scared of that... #irreversible changes. society. literally everything. fucking hell............ #no one talks about this particular experience of gender. no one talks about the in-between and the immense fear. at least no one to me. #why am i even taking gender studies in university if every class is full of cis women who don't even know the terminology of transness #or of gender-expansiveness... #i think i've become a very sour person in the last few years. #need to vent through writing or something. like through fanfiction.

[firewoodfigs]

Next chapter of a study in reformation probably won’t be up till sometime in August (aka the month of salt air and rust on the door) because past me was dumb enough to sign up for an exam in July on top of working full-time, BUT I’ve created a monstrous playlist which you can listen to here for good vibes :) enjoy!!! I’ll see you guys very soon in the next chapter 💕💕

Feel free to let me know as well if you have a specific song in mind 🥰

#college au #royai #royai fic #royai fanfic #music #spotify #fic playlist #past me really was a dumbass omg I am seriously at risk of failing this exam and squandering £2000 #BUT I HAVE BEEN SO FOCUSED ON SECURING TAYLOR TICKETS LMAO #honestly if I fail my exam but snag tickets to the eras tour it will still be a massive win #not to mention this exam has like close to zero bearings on my life except for a potential move to the UK lol #I used to be so motivated in college (see: I was desperate af) and could literally study for 10-12hours around exam period #on top of tutoring 10 kids and doing moots and pro bono #now I just wither away after flipping through my notes cursorily for 30min lol #my theory is that I was v v desperate to secure scholarships and stuff but now that I have a full time job I just can’t be assed LMAO #also I was rereading what I wrote and I spotted so many typos SCREAMS #if you spot any pls do not hesitate to flag them out LMAO #I promise I won’t be offended it’s literally what I do at my job 😂 #might rewrite this a little before uploading the next chapter <3

[solipseismic]

"the complete lack of sources between beowulf and gawain makes it difficult to ascertain" "some posit that there is a continuous tradition between" "i would like to assert that the prosody of gawain"

JUST TELL ME IF THERE ARE MORE OR LESS MATCHED CONSONANTS IN GAWAIN AND THE GREEN KNIGHT THAN THERE ARE IN BEOWULF YOU PIECE OF SHIT

#WHO UP DOING A PROPER PHONETIC ANALYSIS OF MIDDLE ENGLISH AND OLD ENGLISH METER?? FUCKING NO ONE APPARENTLY #I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING MY FUCKING SELF IN THIS EXTREMELY DATED STUDY AND TIME PERIOD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRHRHRHRHRHRHRHHHHH #croidhe #linguistics #anyways. #everyone out here sucking the dick of the latin scribe who wrote beowulf down i'd just LIKE to KNOW what the APPROXIMATE RATIO. OF MATCHED #SOUNDS. IT DOESN'T EVEN HAVE TO BE EXACT. ARE NONE OF YOU MOTHERFUCKERS DOING DATA-BACKED ANALYSIS???? NOT A SINGLE ONE OF YOU EALD ENGLISC #MOTHERFUCKERS COUNTING LINES AND SYLLABLES??? #I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THIS. #edit: this is somewhat exaggerated to prove my point. if anyone was wondering. there isn't a complete lack of sources. there is always brut

[tobe-sogolden]

is this thing still on......

#wow long time no see #popping on out of nostalgia 🥲 #ive just started studying for my second medical licensing exam #and i was just reminiscing about studying for the first one last year #bc it was at the same time as you are home and as it was release and all the album stuff in general #and i seriously wouldn't have survived that period without harry and everything he was up to #it's so much isolation and weeks upon weeks of just studying from sunrise to sunset and it's mentally draining #so ofc im not excited to do that again 😆 #and feeling stressed that i don't have anything to really look forward to day to day like i did the first time #so i was like aw i should see what people are up to #i still keep up with harry a little like he still comes up on my socials and i see his concert videos and stuff #still rooting for him and still love him to bits tbh but his fandom is unbearable #i gave it an honest try but i didn't even make it 3 years lmao it was hell #maybe it's better now! but better not to risk it lol #i'll find some other way to not off myself these next few weeks #i hope everyone is well!!!!!!

[mrs-bingley]

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#i applied for a Msc in English i don't want to do #and got in #and i spend all evening planning what courses I'd take #but i don't want to do it. I simply don't #i just feel the pressure to study further even if it serves no purpose but my need for reading literature all the time #i just want to study literature. read. discuss it. write about it #And i do it on my own all the time #but sometimes you need someone to explain it to you because it's nice to listen to someone talking with passion about literature #and learning new things #and it's so solipsistic to do it alone all the time #*sigh* i'm this 👌🏼 close to lose it it's just generally a very stressful period #and instead of having fun i spend my time grinding my brain gears further #i'll go reading now #blue speaks #really needed to vent #TBD

[omarfor-orchestra]

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#period's not coming and i could blame the stress but i know it's not it and if it doesn't come at all I'm gonna be in trouble #it didn't happen this fast last time #anyway. one more week till these last exams and I think I'm not gonna pass at least one #and idk what to study anymore bc I've been doing it non stop since october #and i wish i had someone who yk told me like 'we'll study together' or 'i'll give you a hand' or 'let's go for a walk so you can clear your #mind' so to make all this stuff lighter #but I don't so it's just me and my body and my loneliness and this illness that will never leave me #and I'm exhausted #yes thank you doctor i know I'm back there because i don't feel in control in my life so i have to take that control from somewhere #i wish you could tell me how to fix it instead #because right now I can only see myself in an hospital bed I can't stop thinking about it #rant

[welcometogrouchland]

Okay I'm actually going a little insane in my enclosure

#ramblings of a lunatic #I'm a bad studier (piss poor concentration and lack of hard skills on How To Do It) and i have locked myself into. like #it's like Waiting Mode (you guys know what I'm talking about) but I'm waiting for the exam to happen and its bad and scary. I'm scared #don't get me wrong I've got things I'm looking forward too when its all over #(I'm gonna see my friends! we're gonna do stuff! I HAVE TICKETS TO BOYGENIUS WITH MY FRIENDS IN AUGUST FUCK MAN!!!) #but the actual exam period right now when i can't even like. feel productive bc I'm such a poor studier #is uhhhh killing me a teeny bit ngl #i can't even let myself get lost in the hyperfix sauce bc then i know my inability to study will get ten times worse

[dionysus-complex]

if you make it through a humanities PhD still thinking that the methodologies in your field have any sort of epistemic validity then you should get an award

#like. i'm a classical lit person who thinks that most ancient texts are essentially useless for reconstructing any sort of lived experience #which is not to say that i don't believe in the value of studying them as literature! but i've read so many articles that are like #'what can we learn about society in [x ancient time period and place] from [y text]' and my answer is almost always 'basically nothing' #if you want to try to understand any sort of non-elite lived experience in antiquity i think you have to go do archaeology #this particularly applies when dealing with imperial/late antique literature which i'm convinced is utterly inextricable from declamation #it's all rhetorical exercise and elite fantasy all the way down and that can be interesting but only when read on its own terms

[velociheroviridi]

Need y'all to know how absolutely wild this last week has been for me

Monday - spend $30 to get Alhaitham. Fail and cry

Tuesday - find out that a group project that we all thought was due next Friday is actually due that night. Get Prof to extend it to Wednesday night

Wednesday - spend entire day working on said project and finish it around 11:45pm

Thursday - Working on studying for a seemingly hard test that's Friday and an essay that's due. Classmate manages to get said essay moved to Monday, finally a W. Find out that the Japanese speech contest I had entered wasn't NEXT weekend like my brain thought for some reason, it's actually in two days and I haven't finished memorizing said speech. Proceed to spend several hours memorizing it while somewhat studying for my test

Friday - have to give a practice run of the previous group project (did I mention it was a 30 min powerpoint presentation in Japanese? No?) Goes well. Take my test. Goes well, get a 90 (somehow the only one to get a perfect score on the grammar portion which is wild considering how little I ended studying unfortunately) After class, go over speech with prof, then run to the Anime Club (which I'm the president of, not that that's super important to this story) and enjoy the meeting. Get home and spend the rest of the night preparing for the speech contest, even going to sleep while running thru it in my head and listening to my prof's audio recording of it. So non stop work from 9am to like 9-10pm, for the most part

Saturday - wake up at 5:30am, actually get ready a little too quickly but all goes well. End up winning first place at the speech contest. Go home. Am now uber tired and have a persistent headache and end up doing almost none of my hw that's due Monday, but get to hang out at my bff's for a lil while and eat some delicious dinner while watching Buddy Daddies and talking

Sunday - spend the whole day doing said homework, finish up around 10-11pm, while dealing with simultaneously a stomach that is picking picky and a brain that doesn't find anything appetizing. Realize I really need to go shopping

Which I'm about to go do. But that was my week. It was...quite the stressful time, altho we did get some Ws (yay!) Now to just take a freaking breather for the next like two weeks, thx. No more stress for this little guy for a while pls, doctors orders

#viridi posts 2023 #personal post #does this count as a vent? idk i just needed to share all the craziness #this is only like a month into the semester - lets pray this is the most stress i have all semester #anyways now i have to go to the state speech comp but thats in a month so i do have time to breathe #also get to present the project to the class on Wednesday‚ but im sure thatll go well #honestly at this point‚ any worries i would have for the presentation feel like the most miniscule thing compared to what i just went thru #but yeah i think maybe the combined stress may have caused my weird food aversion thing sunday but idk #stress does do weird things to you‚ i know my period has ended up delayed many a time #thankfully my period and this week did NOT line up or OOF #that would not have been fun x2 #viridi speaks #anyways time to go shopping byee #japanese studying #college #college life

[hearties-circus]

Most uncomfortable extra maths support period of my life g-ddammit

#gamer txt. #at max 5 of us show up right #3 of us showed up this time #and those other 2 were called down for the rest of the period #so it was just me and the teacher #being alone with just the teacher doing work as normal is fine being alone with just the teacher who Knows you need help isnt #it doesnt matter if i care or if i know or not. someone telling me im wrong and need help always always makes me tear up #and she decided to fucking sit next to me #listen im fine going to maths support classes #i draw the line at a tutor. i will cry and theres little to nothing i can do about that #and then she started asking me about how i usually did in maths. what did i get on my last test? 8/100? #do i know how id go about getting a better score? #can you fuck off please i dont want to talk about this anymore #do i study at home? NO i dont ok! i hate maths! i dont wanna do it in the comfort of my own home! #and its so embarrassing! doing sometjing im bad at it in school is ok bc we have to. everyone else is doing it too #doing it at home in my free time? to try to get better? and still struggling still failing ? just hit me itd hurt less #and plus my main issue is my memory #i cant even study at home bc i forget everything to do with school the second i leave #it doesn't return to me until sunday night if it even returns me #and if i do remember and go through past paper questions or fucking homeworks i dont understand them #and i dont remember where the lesson for them is #but the lessons dont make sense to me either so finding them wouldnt help me #but no one takes i forgot as a valid answer even if i explain so what does it fucking matter #why dont i ask for help? thats my business! thats personal! im not going to explain my fucking trauma to you #whether or not asking for help makes me feel like im going to be screamed at and cursed out doesnt matter. i cant do it #stop telling me to just do it! thats not possible! #just let me fail it doesnt matter i dont want to be doing maths anyways i dont care and i dont want to be here just let me fail #or kick me out the class! move me down a class! those are options i know they are my friends do nat 4 maths you can move me down #just. stop talking to me about it. i dont want to do maths anymore #it has single handedly gotten me to start making suicide jokes again

[whatdoidowithallthisfaith]

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#just waiting for these feelings to pass #been crying since yesterday non stop #probably bc period but also because it’s heavy af to hear about these things and just be stuck #I want to think about what I can do to make it better for them but I also feel like I don’t have time bc studying but is that just an excuse #am I being too lazy to care #but I do really care so I just need to think and find time #also you know when you feel happy but you don’t deserve it so you feel sad that you feel happy bc you’re like #ummm do I deserve this #and if not then someone else should be able to feel this happiness bc they deserve it #but I’m getting it so I don’t know #and it’s hard to enjoy bc of that guilt that’s shadowing over my heart #and it’s also hard to reciprocate bc of being so angry all the time and protecting my feelings so much that I don’t even know how to be nice #is that even real #idk #I need time to think #I don’t have time to think #I might explode

[feminist-space]

Cat in the Hat:

"The German Health Minister gave an important update on the Covid situation yesterday.

I’ve written up the section of his speech from the video below for easy reading.

It’s immensely refreshing to see a government minister warning of the harms of Covid in such a transparent way."

https://x.com/_catinthehat/status/1732092683508678954

Prof. Karl Lauterbach

Health Minister, Germany

4 December 2023

"This second (long Covid) round table was very interesting, lasting three and a half hours. It serves as a unique forum for dialogue among scientists, researchers and those affected by long Covid, facilitating the exchange of ideas.

There are many new findings about long Covid. Not all of them are good news. One piece of not-so-good news concerns the fact that long Covid is actually still a problem for those who are newly infected. One estimate that has been put forward is that the risk of contracting long Covid now, even after vaccination, is around 3%. Now you may say, "that's not such a big risk" , but there are tens of thousands of people who are repeatedly affected in a short period of time. And so, the long Covid problem has not yet been solved.

We have also established that there really are many subgroups of long Covid and that we do not yet have a cure. And it was clearly pointed out that we are also dealing with problems here that will challenge society as a whole, because vascular diseases often occur after long Covid. Throughout Europe, we are currently seeing an increased incidence of cardiovascular disease in the middle-age group - from 25 to 50. This is associated with the consequences of Covid infections.

We also very often find cognitive impairment in older people. And one participant pointed out that it may well be like the Spanish flu, where 20 years after the Spanish flu there was a significant increase in Parkinson's disease and probably also dementia.

This is something we must pay attention to, as the past infection afiects how the immune system in the brain functions, as well as the brain's blood vessels, potentially increasing the long-term risk of these major neurodegenerative diseases. This is why we need to conduct very intensive research. This research has played a major role.

What is the overall assessment of the situation now?

We have to be careful. Long Covid is not curable at the moment. We also know that over 40% of those who have several manifestations of long Covid, for example, five or more, still have symptoms after 2 years, so it doesn't seem to heal spontaneously. We also know that those whose symptoms are more pronounced at the beginning are less likely to heal.

So some of what we know from the demographics of long Covid has been confirmed, and we now know more precisely which mechanisms in the brain, but also in the blood vessels and the immune system, are responsible for this. Professor Scheibenbogan will explain this briefly later.

At this point, I can only say the following - this is particularly important to me:

First of all, long Covid is a disease that stays with us and that we cannot yet cure. And we are seeing an increasing number of cases as the waves of infection continue to affect us.

Secondly, Covid is not a cold - with a cold, you don't usually see any long-term effects. You don't see any changes in the blood vessels. You don't usually see an autoimmune disease developing. You also don't usually see neurological inflammation - these are all things that we see with long Covid. Therefore, one should not assume that Covid infection is just a common cold. It can affect brain tissue and the vascular system, and we still lack an effective treatment, making these studies crucial.

Significantly, we know that the risk of long Covid decreases when you're infected but have been vaccinated. That's why it's concerning that only 3 million people have been vaccinated with the new, adapted vaccine. That is a very bad result.

Please protect yourself from severe infections.

Please protect yourself from long Covid.

Currently, the danger posed by Covid is indeed being underestimated. Nothing is worse than infecting someone at Christmas who then becomes seriously ill and may not fully recover."

Alt text is included in all images of this post.

#covid #not a cold #please wear a mask #pandemic #pandemic not over #long covid #Karl Lauterbach #Germany #German health minister

[fingertipsmp3]

Actually I’m not sure if the pads/Colleen Hoover book/hot dog sausages trifecta was the worst thing I’ve ever checked out with. There was that time I was buying a tub of ice cream, a giant bottle of cheap vodka and a pregnancy test

#literally only the ice cream was for me but my friend was in a crisis and had forgotten her wallet as well as when her last period was #so i was like ‘okay i’ve got this’ #(the vodka was for my roommate. i asked if they needed anything for the party they were like ‘shit i don’t actually have alcohol’ #i was like ‘that’s why i asked’ they said ‘can you just buy a big cheap bottle of vodka and i’ll give you cash’ i was like ‘fine’) #so i’m there with ben and jerry’s cookie dough ice cream; a pregnancy test kit and idek what brand of vodka. a bad one #and the cashier says in a very jovial tone ��how are you guys doing today…. oh’ #like his enthusiasm drained as he saw the items #he was nice though. he said he hoped my friend got the result she was hoping for whatever that was #and he didn’t ID us which was a relief because this happened in the states and my friend was 20 at the time #and we got back to the dorm and she wasn’t pregnant. just stupid #and i don’t remember if my roommate paid me back for the vodka but it’s okay because tbh i probably drank most of it #and i ate the ice cream in between studying for finals lol #so all’s well that ends well. i guess? #personal

[misskamelie]

One exam done, smiling through gritted teeth and bringing it home

#got a 27 which. okay I can work with that #I asked for an additional question to raise it from 26 to 27 do you understand what pits of despair we're reaching #another one tomorrow (another 6 credits) I need to go home and draw a new strategy plan #I *cannot* reach my best level of preparation this time around I'm quite sure #should I go and retire if things don't seem to go my way? I have another one next week and it's a 12 credits one... #okay okay going back home and reassessing my calendar #anyway I think I did... decently. considering I lost three whole days of studying because of my period