#what a horrible first attempt

[haunted-plush]

Tumblr wouldn't let me finish my ask 😭

It was my wide fucking left me with Stan lol

I don't like how it turned out... whatever. I'm not spending any more time on it. Eat up.

Also you have no idea how funny this is out of context especially with me momentarily forgetting that's the name of one of the pallets

Challenge

#im sure you can figure out the inspiration for this one #not very subtle i know #but i had no other ideas #honestly i shouldve just done a simple little thing of him like standing there or something idk #what a horrible first attempt #salty scribbles #south park #stan marsh #color pallet challenge

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

if you struggle with mental health, one piece of advice i would genuinely give you is learn to knit.

or crochet: something repetitive to do with your hands, assuming you're capable of it. if you're like me and learnt to knit as a kid but let it lie fallow for a long time, it may be that starting a large, simple project (for me it was a cloak, but a blanket could work too) gets you back into it. or maybe doing something smaller, idk. i personally found socks really hard for a while because they felt smaller than my cloak but weren't getting Done quick enough for me. as i've sped up i find it more interesting to knit socks.

regardless, a repetitive task is great for emotional regulation (also see: autistic stimming), and something that you can look at and go hey i've done something, unlike simply using a fidget toy, can also help to pick your mood up when the brain is being cruel.

it's also useful as a conversation starter or distracter if you don't know what to talk about. if you're wanting to talk to older people also you're more likely to reel them in with knitting (i work better with older people, and 99% of people who ask what i'm knitting are older than me). it also gives you the opportunity to not make eye contact because you're busy knitting, even if you're still carrying on a conversation. if you're absolutely stuck for conversation you can count your stitches and people might stop bothering you.

if you have trouble focusing without doing something with your hands, you can knit! i knit a lot in church, and it helps me to focus on what's being said.

i probably have more reasons you should pick up knitting, but i can't recall them right now, so yeah.

#knitting #catkin knits #i remember one specific time back in october where i was sitting in Bible class utterly unable to stop the most horrible thoughts going #through my head. i was knitting as fast as i've ever knitted. no exaggeration to say i was knitting to stop myself from attempting to die. #and afterwards i sat there in the corner knitting for all i was worth. just repeating to myself 'not now. i am not killing myself now.' #and someone saw me in the corner frantically knitting and came to ask if i was ok. and asked how my mental health was. #must've been end of oct bc it was the first wednesday after i was out of psych ward. and i was having lots of thoughts about the method #i'd used for what is still my most recent suicide attempt. which was in october. and i had the means with me. #it would have been a horrible thing to do. to kill oneself at Bible class. with children around. but i wasn't in a particularly hinged stat #of mind at the time. that's approximately the only clear memory i have of that time in fact. #anyway idk why im thinking of that rn when im fine

[vellichorom]

there's a sad little king dying today? who cares here's a FUTCH

COMMISSIONED BY @onceuponymous! a whole bunch of hatoful azamis, with a bit of personal flair added by yours truly! including hiyoko & shuu cameos!

no hate to hato moa, but i just think the " biker chick obsessed with safety " idea could have been reflected a bit more in her design? not that i dislike it any! love every bit of all of the games forever

#uwu art #Hatoful Boyfriend #Hatoful Boyfriend: A School of Hope and White Wings #Azami Koshiba #Shuu Iwamine #Hiyoko Tosaka #MY FIRST ATTEMPT AT MUSCLES! SUCCESS #also i want to point out michelle explicitly asked for shuu getting decimated by azami everything else was just freeballing #i love her very much #ALSO WHAT A HORRIBLE COINCIDENCE I POST THIS ON THE KING'S DEATH DAY. sorry king thot it up in holiday or whatever

[aborealisglfry]

IM SO NORMAL ABOUT THAT FREAK!!!!!!!!! (Lie)

#madness combat #madcom #hank madness combat #mpn #madness project nexus #Hank j Wimbleton #fanart #digital art #can you Tell i had no idea what i was doing. #the Little doodles are supposed to be made by Hank. btw. #fun fact! i did the line art twice! The First attempt came out horribly #hankjeb #slight Hint of it at least #he calls deimos smelly because you KNOW that guy Stinks of AXE and cigarettes #I hope you can read my messed hand writing! :)

[amphibiangeorgerussel]

we need to collectively unsee williams' gentle parenting 'welcome to the family' vibes because that team is sadistic 😭

#i will be the first to admit red bull treats their drivers who arent max horribly but what williams are doing to logan is so cruel #publically shooting your shot at multiple drivers to replace him after this season #having no faith in him and giving alex his car even though alex was the one who binned it #openly admitting you think a 17 year old with barely any experience in single seaters is a better fit than your own driver #my brother in christ YOU resigned him. why even bother if you aren't going to even make an attempt #logan sargeant

[creature-once-removed]

christmas ornament christmas ornament christmas ornament

Since there's no official merch I finished making this yesterday, and today Sandman was renewed :) The ornament is not even 2 inches in diameter and it was my first time working with polymer clay so I'm quite proud of how it came out tbh, even though it might be a bit crude.

#renewal made me want to share #the sandman #dream of the endless #this was actually the second attempt #the first melted horribly. I'm thinking of doing something with it but I don't yet know what

[sonadow4life]

The first one was Violets original design. She was supposed to be 17, light blue with purple markings (like classic sonic), abandoned in the woods by Sonic cause he didn’t know how to parent and that’s what his parents did, Shadow didn’t even know about her until she confronted him looking for Sonic, knowing that Shadow was her dad and thinking he did too and is basically on a revenge quest after Sonic and finds Shadow along the way. Sonic explains himself and while Violet doesn’t forgive him she give him a chance to prove himself and they are very happy. They end up more like best friends than father and daughter tho. Also Sonic is 29 and she was a fusion of him and Shadow from when Sonic was 12. G.U.N basically took his DNA, took Shadows DNA and merged them before they’d even met.

She is now 7 years old with 2 loving (yet kinda shit) parents who are trying their best and a brother named Shock, autistic and overall just a fairly stable kid.

Idk what happened

#sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sth #sonadow #sonadow fankid #sonadow fanchild #original design #vs #new design #the first one had potential but the story had too many loopholes that I couldn’t find a way around #and I really wanted Shadow and Somic to attempt to parent #even though they are horrible at it #Sonic let’s them get away with too much #Shadow let’s them get away with nothing #ok they aren’t horrible #their kids just aren’t very good at regulating their emotions #and I wanted to project cause my parents are like that #and also one of them is autistic (just like me fr fr) #and even though Shadow is also autistic they are both undiagnosed and don’t understand each other #for the most part #like they relate and Shadow is definitely better at handling some of it #but he shuts down #she melts down #it just doesn’t go very well #just like me and my mother :) #they are trying their best and working with what they’ve got #and they aren’t the worst #they could use a bit of improvement though #and I’m tempted to have them get wayyy better at it #and don’t even get me started in Shock lol. I probably won’t make content in them tho

[pepperpixel]

Some art of Tori from @misfitmccoward ‘s Naruto fic Plasticity! Because!! It’s such a good fucking fic…! I had to do fanart for it!! honestly after I first read it I was so fucking hype about it that I was almost like “omg.. I have to do an animatic or something for this. it’s SO GOOD” but. My ability to do animatics has kinda flushed down the drain recently ghghg- But! Still!! I had to at least draw some fanart for it…!

#sorry if I got any details wrong! it’s been a few months since I read the fic! #I mean. I originally drew this right after first reading it. but! I only finished them now so. I might have screwed something up ggh- #but yeah! YEAH! OMG! I FUCKING LOVE THIS FIC!?!?!?!? #ITS SO GOOD!?!? #LIKE. ughghghggh. idk. I read it while still pretty deep in my head about awful life stuff #and just. reading Tori. going thru absolute HELL. was like. cathartic?? like my life. is not even a fraction of the shitshow hers is #but! JUST! STILL! like.. the way she responds to stuff… the delayed reactions. the attempts to just roll w the punches. #the fACT ALL OF HER POSSESSIONS ARE LIKE. MEANINGFUL AND IMPORTANT TO HER. #like that’s! a small detail in the grand scheme of the fic but the fact that sort of thing is commented on at all is like! FUCK. #I GET IT TORI I FUCKING GET IT #AND ITS SO FUN!!! like yeah shit is awful for tori basically ALL THE TIME. but it’s not! a downer to read! its fucking fun as hell to read! #the interactions between all the characters are SO GOOD! and entertaining!! literally EVERYTHING in this fic is a fucking delight!!! #and it’s like! ITS SO GOOD AT GETTING U TO ROOT FOR TORI! like!!! #yea I recognize Tori has slowly crossed all her moral and ethical lines and become. like. pretty fucked up. #but like! seeing that shift. coincide w the slow shift. towards everything in her life becoming NOT completely horrible #it’s just like!!! yes! girl! do what u gotta do! become a monster! get some happiness in ur life! #like it’s like… I love it so much. its such a fucking good fic. it’s sO FUN. I cannot overstate. how fun this fic is. #and Tori’s such an endearing character!! and everyone else is really likeable and well written too! #lIKE. IDK. ITS JUST A GREAT FIC DUDES. ITS GREAT #doodles #plasticity #blood #tori mendoza #also. the song that I was thinking of using for the animatic was gonna be ‘stupid intruders’ #cuz I heard it and immediately was just like. OMG. THIS FITS THE VIBES SO WELL. like. it just felt very fitting ghgh #also also! Srry for misspelling ‘obviously’ in the first pic.. spelling is hard ghg- #but!! yeah!! have some art. of Tori! cuz I love her! and I love this fic!! #featuring 2 diff pics of her absolutely covered in blood from the 1st chapter! cuz. that was iconic… #and also I felt I didn’t properly convey the like. drowned rat energy the first time gGHG- #god ok I’m running out of tags now. U SHOULD READ THIS FIC IF U WANT ITS RLLY GOOD. highly recommend! it’s fucking great!

[ride-a-dromedary]

#The Orville #orvilleedit #theorvilleedit #orville epoilers #my post #Jemi attempts GIF making #okay listen this whole scenario was shit and all parties involved except charly and isaac handled this horribly #(john too but he did prompt this in the first place) #but this was so out of left field condescending i laughed #like is it in character for ed? maybe season 3 ed but??? #like the passive aggression lmao #compared to what gordon ed and kelly did charly and isaac duping a group of bikers and a real estate agent is child's play

[thebluestbluewords]

My brain is doing some NOT VERY GREAT things rn, so I am EXTERNALIZING THE FEELINGS ONTO FICTIONAL MEN because that’s a healthier coping mechanism than the other options. (cw for suicidal ideation)

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Jay’s been to the college library twice. Once because it was part of orientation, and once on his own in an attempt to do homework. He got one chapter into his assigned reading before a group of enthusiastic tennis juniors swept through and picked up anyone they recognized, and he hasn’t been back since. There’d been too many people around to focus on homework anyway. 

“I’m not doing homework.” 

Carlos thwacks his head. “I didn’t say we were doing homework, I said we’re going to the library. I know you don’t focus around other people.” 

Jay rolls onto his back, as far away as he can get in the confines of a twin bed. 

It’s not very far. 

“I don’t focus….anywhere.” 

Carlos winds a hand into his shirt to pull him back.

“Like I said, I know this game. You don’t focus anywhere because your brain thinks you’d be better off dead, and it won’t listen to anything that’s not getting it to that goal. You’re not going to shout over it, so you’re got to sneak around it.”

#this doesn’t get tags or anything #it’s just…..some of the thots I am having about my special little guys #in my heart Jay is the guy who is so so focused on caring about his crew #that he doesn’t know how to exist without them #and this manifests itself in a HORRIBLE attempt at a first semester of college #where he doesn’t know how to function around the void where his people should be #and like. #Evie is off having fun in the city for her own first semester and sending the group chat cute daily selfies and OOTD pics #and Mal is learning magic now that she’s out of high school and enjoying the hell out of herself #and talking about all the stuff her mom never told her #and finding her people now that she’s able to get outside the Auradon Prep bubble #and it’s just…..that relatable college feeling where all of your friends are THERE on the phone #but they’re not really there the same way as they were #and you can’t be the downer who talks about it #but you can’t help but wonder what would happen if you just….. #gave up #anyway!! We love to write our feelings away!!!

[tonguetiedraven]

i can't tell if your anti or pro and it really bothers me

Well that's worrying. Why do you care and why are you letting it bother you?

I do not care what someone reads, writes, draws, ships, head cannons or consumes. Just as long as they're not a dick about it or to other fans (or the characters in aoex) I'll welcome them.

For my part, I read what I like, write what I like, draw what I like, and try to encourage creativity. If you enjoy my stories, yay! If you don't, feel free to ignore them and go on to read something else you do. There's not enough free time in the world to waste time with things that bother you.

Hope that helps.

#asks #i've been around fandom too long to EVER be a fan of censoring #and of telling people what they can and can't write #it also tends to trample on other cultures with a specific breed of american moral correctness that attempts to police thoughts and emotion #and that leads to horrible things #my first ever fandom was star trek #and Captain Picard has a beautiful speech in Drumhead about censorship #“The first time any mans freedom is trodden on we are all damaged” #and i've seen that play out a few times in fandom where entire sites will be taken down over censorship and what is and isn't right #and it always starts with a vocal few who are outraged and end up destroying far more than what they thought was wrong #got a bit wordy there #lol

[scarletspider2the2ndpower]

“Sibling Rivalry: Part 2,” Scarlet Spider (Vol. 2/2012), #20.

Writers: Christopher Yost and Erik Burnham; Pencilers: Pat Olliffe and In-Hyuk Lee; Inker: In-Hyuk Lee; Colorists: Lee Loughridge and In-Hyuk Lee; Letterer: Joe Caramagna

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Scarlet Spider vol. 2 #Scarlet Spider 2012 #Scarlet Spider #Kaine #Kaine Parker #there are So Many things here that haunt me #first just that reminder of no matter how uncountable the Parker clones are who KNOWS what the heck went down with #the Jackal’s undoubtably many attempts to clone Gwen #and yeah they just raise an interesting dynamic here that I wished was explored here #Parker clone and Stacey clone solidarity #not necessarily because of any kind of bond Peter and Gwen had #but as their own people with their own unique(ly horrible) experiences

[thisgodwontforgiveyou]

okay i do have to go back to vaguing that person one more time because i just realized even if you interpret events completely literally they still point to the same exact shit about elster its just a mildly more annoying and complicated path to get there

#like the whole thing about elster is her constantly trying to fix a problem thats only still a problem because she #wont stop trying to fix it #i mean this interpretation unfortunately requires accepting adler as like. a Good Guy but thats because thats how he would be viewed by #anyone attempting to flatten isa's life into a Series Of Events To Consume #which is essentially what trying to make the story a literal chain of events does #but like. theres really no reality where elster doesnt come across as immensely scary and harmful #even if you accept the premise that she HAS to do it because ariane needs to die the fact that adler has the dialogue #referencing previous loops and you almost definitely got the promise ending first makes it very disingenuous to say youre only concerned #with literalism when you literally have to wholesale invent and ignore events to fit them into a mold where its a game about how being #a lesbian is awesome #i mean it is a game about how being a lesbian is awesome but in the drakengard 3 way where its like a secondary thing going on #on top of a story about recovering from horrible trauma

[tama-gucci]

Christmas fucking sucked!!

#attempting a do-over today #anyways I am frustrated by the chains of ‘tradition’ and families downplaying their child’s covid symptoms #and also my fiancé’s sister is just a bitch who won’t stop insulting us and has now targeted our dog #and I’m like ‘why do you just take this? we’re both almosf 30 in a couple of years?’ #and he’s just been like. told to ignore it even if it upsets him even as a kid because SHE loses HER SHIT if he dares say anything #and I’m like this is insane #this is insane person behavior l #how am I supposed to just sit there while she goes ‘remote work is horrible I’d literally die if I had to do that’ knowing full well #I work remotely #and then calling my dog ‘not a real dog’ because she’s a Westie and not some bigger dog??? #first of all my dog’s ancestors were bred to kill so #and it’s just been 5 years of her hating me and my fiancé for no reason #and it’s insane to me #and I’m done I am not attending anymore family events with her there #I WILL start a fight next time #anyways Danny cried and I cried but Winnie had no idea what was happening and she was happy to eat her doggy cookies and fell asleep #on the drive home

[why-even-ask]

I did a full Sander Cohen cosplay with makeup and everything (and it's the first time I did actual makeup) and I can clearly say that this man is my gender. Sander Cohen is my gender.

#My first makeup attempt is of course horrible. #But he is Sander Cohen; he is not afraid of chaos. #How do people learn how to do makeup though? #I mean my cousin can do it perfectly? Did her mother teach her as she grew up? #Is that how people learn it? Learning it from other people? #I mean gender roles are more defined where I live so... #My father videocalled me halfway through and I couldn't pick it up. #How could I? I had half of my eye makeup done and a lipstick on so... #I have no idea what he would say to me. God. Instant kick hajdkdg??? #Wish I could post the photos but ah #I have paranoia so I'll pass. #It's good though.

[soon-palestine]

"I’m personally a Holocaust survivor as an infant, I barely survived.

My grandparents were killed in Aushwitz and most of my extended family were killed.

I became a Zionist; this dream of the Jewish people resurrected in their historical homeland and the barbed wire of Aushwitz being replaced by the boundaries of a Jewish state with a powerful army…and then I found out that it wasn’t exactly like that, that in order to make this Jewish dream a reality we had to visit a nightmare on the local population.

There’s no way you could have ever created a Jewish state without oppressing and expelling the local population. Jewish Israeli historians have shown without a doubt that the expulsion of Palestinians was persistent, pervasive, cruel, murderous and with deliberate intent - that’s what’s called the 'Nakba' in Arabic; the 'disaster' or the 'catastrophe'.

There’s a law that you cannot deny the Holocaust, but in Israel you’re not allowed to mention the Nakba, even though it’s at the very basis of the foundation of Israel.

I visited the Occupied Territories (West Bank) during the first intifada. I cried every day for two weeks at what I saw; the brutality of the occupation, the petty harassment, the murderousness of it, the cutting down of Palestinian olive groves, the denial of water rights, the humiliations...and this went on, and now it’s much worse than it was then. It’s the longest ethnic cleansing operation in the 20th and 21st century.

I could land in Tel Aviv tomorrow and demand citizenship but my Palestinian friend in Vancouver, who was born in Jerusalem, can’t even visit! So then you have these miserable people packed into this, horrible…people call it an 'outdoor prison', which is what it is. You don’t have to support Hamas policies to stand up for Palestinian rights, that’s a complete falsity.

You think the worse thing you can say about Hamas, multiply it by a thousand times, and it still will not meet the Israeli repression and killing and dispossession of Palestinians.

And 'anybody who criticises Israel is an anti-Semite' is simply an egregious attempt to intimidate good non-Jews who are willing to stand up for what is true."

#palestine #gaza #free palestine