i think like. so much would be solved if we normalized the fact that some people do experience delusions and hallucinations. like yes, its something that those people need help with/need more accommodations for, but we could use being more understanding of people with psychotic symptoms in general.
like, i can tell you that at least one person raving about conspiracy theories is someone who experiences delusions, and if we understood that, we wouldn't have such a hard time getting them back to a more grounded perspective.
i am someone who experiences delusions and I do get incredibly triggered by all the unreality bullshit, the simulation theories, all that unreal bullshit, and it is actively negatively impacting people like me.
we could really use a better understanding of those with these symptoms, because acting like having hallucinations/delusions makes you a killer is a take that makes zero sense. Like, genuinely, you have no idea what you're talking about if that's where you immediately go. I can point out a bunch of shit discussing the darkness of humanity and that logic applies to anyone, regardless of mental illness. Delusions and hallucinations don't mean you'll act on anything, it just means that your brain is creating false images or thoughts, and that can get really fucking confusing.
We could use a little more empathy or compassion towards those with these symptoms, because obviously this shit isn't going away for us, just like other disabled people dealing with their disabilities. We are not idiots or monsters, our brain just gives us random false shit sometimes and it really fucking sucks. Be more understanding or I'll telepathically insert false shit into your brain one day, y'all should see the nightmare that some of us have to deal with.
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How evil is arlecchino and what is she cooking
As of 4.2, I’m really curious what they’re planning with Arlecchino as a character, especially as a villain/antagonist/morally dubious character, and how far/which direction they may go with that
Intuitively my impression is we’ll see her do something way more “villainous” than she presents herself as being for majority of Fontaine’s AQ in front of us right—(which isn’t a surprise given that, you know, Arlecchino nor the House of Hearth have never been presented as 110% ethical LOL) but I find myself not being in complete agreement with most analysis or speculation threads I see about Arlecchino’s morality and the like, level of sinister people seem to ascribe to her.
Idk how to put it, especially in regards to her children I do agree they are not a wholesome found family, that Arlecchino is not above pulling strings or using them for her own ulterior motives, but I kind of hesitate on the idea she only cares about the Hearth children as a means to the end/things she can control and there’s nothing else going on with her characterization wise there. I’m not saying that impression seems remotely unreasonable or unfounded, but just that it feels there’s something intentionally missing in how we are supposed to conceptualize her as a person
My main reasoning for this hunch is the fact they have not elaborated on Arlecchino and the previous Knave—who Arlecchino is stated to have taken over the position from by force. The extra tidbits I think about are that 1) Arlecchino was previously an orphan in the Hearth 2) the previous Knave is described as way, way crueler to the children of than Heart than Arlecchino was from when she took control of the House
Often, people’s major indicators that the House of the Hearth is kind of super fucked up are the NPCs we meet in world quests who are part of it and clearly suffering. But one thing I haven’t ever seen people mention w this that i think is a very interesting detail is, in The Very Special Fortune Slip Inazuma worldquest, where we stop this House of Hearth guy (Efim Snezhevich) from manufacturing tension between Watasumi/the Shogunate to restart the war with his other Hearth subordinates, at the end of the quest we get this dialogue that reveals he had been acting under the previous Knave’s directives:
It’s also mentioned he’s employing this plan in an attempt to “rebuild the prestige of the Knave” following Signora’s death, iirc? Now, see, the dialogue itself says that this is “assuming our captive is telling the truth” so who knows what’s really going on, but I find this a really odd/interesting thing to highlight. I’m a bit fuzzy on other world quests with Hearth members, and am not saying none of them were acting and subsequently being treated poorly by our Arlecchino, but like, this gives me a lot of questions especially when paired with implications this previous Knave seemed to be way worse
Like, what drove Arlecchino to take over? How unexpected and controversial was this within the House? Assuming the above information is all true it definitely says something this guy went rogue and acted on what the previous Knave would want and didn’t think our Arlecchino would greenlight it, which does feel consistent with the previous Knave being described as basically worse & crueler than our Arlecchino. It also makes me question how much house of hearth things we’ve seen outside the main story are the work of our Arlecchino or if there’s a bigger divide of loyalty. Heck, I could be wrong but it doesn’t even seem like we know if the previous Knave is dead or not
This isn’t me saying Arlecchino couldn’t possibly be treating hearth children worse than she wants us to know, especially ones who aren’t her “favorites” the way the fontaine trio seem to be, but I really don’t feel sure about making a solid conclusion of her exact level of malice the way ppl r generally understanding it rn when it feels there’s going to be more about her. Just the idea of she, as a Hearth child, clashed with the previous leader who was known for being cruel, overtook their position and took on less harsh methods of leading that made at least some members with more power/possible closer proximity to the previous Knave go rogue and try to commit atrocities in the previous Knave’s name…I feel this leaves a lot of room to suggest there’s more going on with how Arlecchino is as a person
I don’t mind if she’s just very evil and deceptive bc if she totally had me fall for thinking she was less evil than she actually was that’s fun tbh. But I feel people suggest that’s all her character could be with no degree of like, “sympatheticness” or deep grey morality and that if her character did go there it would be automatically poor writing and genshin walking back on making a truly evil woman when IDK. I feel you can claim at this point they have left it open ended and it’s never been completely confirmed she’s pure evil. Also sometimes I just get a hunch and feel cautiously confident in Genshin executing certain characters well. Not all characters, just certain ones. Especially given Fontaine’s character writing being very good and a character like Lyney feeling very solid to me when any development with Arlecchino would likely involve him and his siblings as well, I honestly feel open to the idea of Arlecchino being satisfyingly written to be both villainous/morally dubious but “sympathetic/likable as a person” in ways outside of just her ruthlessness if that makes sense
If I’m wrong/they drop the ball with it more than I anticipate I’ll eat my hat but I am pretty excited about her character and which way they decide to go with it. I will say the only potential impression I have of where they’ll go with her has been wondering if it will go in a “cycles of abuse” direction—I’d be surprised if they ever elaborated on Arlecchino’s character especially in how she feels about things and her also growing up as an exploited child of the hearth wasn’t relevant
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illicit affairs
buddie | E | chapter 5 of 10 | 12k (of 35k and counting) | just a boy helping his boy bestie figure out gay sex, with a side of infidelity
Eddie doesn’t believe in jinxes. But if he did, he would sure think he’d jinxed himself with what he said, and didn’t say, in his therapy session.
Chapter 5: so you leave no trace behind, like you don't even exist
“How are you, Eddie?” Frank asks.
They’re more than halfway through Eddie’s hour-long appointment. Frank has been patient with him, he always is. He’s been Eddie’s therapist for long enough to know when to let Eddie talk about something unrelated as a means of settling in, to know when it’s, in fact, an avoidance technique and he should be pushed.
Their appointments are less frequent than in the immediate aftermath of Eddie’s breakdown. Officially, they meet every two weeks. Oftentimes, with Eddie’s schedule, that’s just not possible. He and Frank occasionally do a phone call, if it’s hard to fit in a face-to-face appointment, but Frank prefers to meet in person. Eddie joked once it’s because over the phone Frank can’t see the fear in his patients’ eyes. Frank hadn’t laughed, but he’d smiled in a way that made Eddie think what he’d said was closer to the truth than is comfortable for said patients, Eddie included.
Eddie has spent the last forty minutes giving Frank an update on Chris’ dating life, his concerns and woes over it. And while that is legitimately something he should be allowed to talk about in therapy, it’s less pressing than a couple of months back when he had just found out about the two-timing — try five-timing — about the Shannon of it all. Now, he probably is using it to delay talking about himself, at least a little bit. And he’s come a long way that he can admit that to himself.
He shifts in his seat, pokes a hand back to prod at the cushion behind him. But he doesn’t need to. As much as everything else about therapy is uncomfortable, the seating in Frank’s office is anything but. And Eddie has been in here often enough to know this is the best cushion for him, works well for when he’s seated ramrod straight or when he’s slumped down. Across the room, Frank waits for Eddie to reply, ever patient.
“I’m good,” Eddie answers, truthfully. He is. Things are, generally, going well. As mentioned, Chris is doing better — he’s more secure and he currently seems to be talking to only one girl in a romantic capacity. Work is going as smoothly as it can for a first responder: Bobby back at the helm, Hen and Chim besties once more, Ravi freed from B-shift, so their core team is stable again. Eddie’s getting on well with his family, his dad consistently trying. He knows there are still sore spots there, and more so with his mom, but it’s the effort that matters to him. He summarizes as much to Frank, who knows all this already.
Frank nods, flips his pen over in his fingers. “And how are things with Marisol?”
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i'll be homnest with you, after the 4th person who got the shit beat out of them by this rogue student (SV) i think it would have been better to just seal off the exit to the tunnel and let him starve rather than continuing to send in every fucking teacher available to also have the shit beat out of them. and probably one at a time was not the best idea
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