#we are both Freaks and that’s okay

[chaoticgoodmermaid]

today i learned that i have the same mbti type as eddie munson

#we are both Freaks and that’s okay #eddie munson #eddie st4 #stranger things 4 #stranger things #meyers briggs #enfp

[booasaur]

Vigil - 2x06

#vigiledit #bbc vigil #amy silva #kirsten longacre #suranne jones #rose leslie #vigil spoilers #vigil 2x06 #amy x kirsten #femslash related stuff #okay so I hadn't been feeling well saturday night so when the eps dropped I literally just watched the last scene on iplayer #just to make sure nobody freaking died #and it was amy saying I'm coming home on the phone #and given the ''come home''/''I can't'' moment in the trailer I thought amy was legit gonna stay in wudyan these whole last 3 eps #which I didn't love the idea of I truly wanted an amy/kirsten reunion but I was like oh maybe rose leslie's pregnancy interfered #as long as they're both alive and we got that lovely scene in ep 2 it's fine #so this was all a COMPLETE surprise even more than usual #I made it a twist to my own self #and then it was like the perfect hurt/comfort scene you'd want for an action detective couple like this! #amy so focused on the job and then dropping everything to rush to kirsten's side #sitting there all night and that classic waking up in the chair next to the hospital bed scene #and they even had their cake and ate it too by having amy *choose* kirsten over the job #only for kirsten to then push her back to it #and going from this soppy soft teary version of amy to a pissed off black suit badass #because they'd hurt her girl #such a good couple to build a series like this around #lol amy really didn't want to leave! #she's just sitting and gazing at kirsten #man those years ago kirsten would never have imagined getting to see amy like this and meaning so much to her

[camels-pen]

the difference between zosopp and sanuso (romantic OR platonic) is that Usopp is Zoro's specialest little guy and Zoro is someone Usopp hangs out with and looks up to and hides behind when things get scary, but Sanji and Usopp are best friends. They horse around, they beat each other up, they confide their worst fears trying to one up each other. Usopp hides behind Sanji sometimes, sure, but idk, Sanji's weaknesses are more obvious (bugs, fighting women, etc) so there are times when Usopp has to stand in front of Sanji too, yknow?

Like, how do I say this, all the crewmates are equal- Usopp and Zoro are equals- but with Sanji it feels like more... comradery? Zoro's a rock in a terrible storm- even rocks tend to get weathered and chipped and worn down, but they overall stay strong and steady. He has trouble being vulnerable and there are times when the burden he's placed on himself to keep the crew safe is crushing his chest. Usopp would help with that and be very understanding, but the point I'm trying to get with that is that those moments are few and far between. So I feel like Usopp, especially after Water 7, would take Zoro's lead on something like that, and keep most of his worries to himself or only talk about them sparingly unless they're really bad and/or he can't hide them.

Sanji is like a tree in a storm; he can be strong, yes, but it feels like he bends and sways with the storm, and has more obvious breaking points. He can relate more to Usopp's struggles rather than resorting to blunt honesty that might border on callous like Zoro. And while, with Zosopp, I tend to think of scenarios with Zoro being blunt like that as a good thing- because sometimes when you're spiraling, it's nice to have someone say exactly what's great about you and shoot down all your worries with straight facts that you can't argue with- I can also see this as being a bad thing. Anxiety can really twist up your brain sometimes, you know? And despite the words, the tone could still mess someone up if they're already feeling like a burden on others in some way.

With Sanuso it's a lot more understanding and thoughtful words. It's distractions and comfort food and patience- the kind reserved for Usopp- until Usopp talks about whatever's troubling him. Compared to Zosopp, it doesn't take as long for Usopp to open up, since he's done the same thing to Sanji at times and it's more familiar to him to talk and commiserate with Sanji about his worries and doubts and such. However, there are times stuff like this has absolutely no effect and Sanji will end up at a loss, no idea what to do or how to help over the course of several days with Usopp being quiet and keeping his distance, and he'll end up working himself up about it which will only serve to make Usopp feel worse and. yeah. bit of a vicious cycle with them.

So it's like. Usopp can be weak with both of them, but since I see Sanji as the type of guy who'd be more open with his worries (at least compared to Zoro), there's less of a need to 'perform' and be his best self around him. He's comfortable around Zoro, yes, but he is constantly wanting to show that he won't be a problem to him. On the other hand, while he's more open with Sanji, and Sanji with him, they tend to relate a bit too much with each other and they both have issues with causing trouble for others and being 'deserving of love' so failed attempts at consoling one hurts the other and creates an unpleasant cycle of misery and avoidance before some other crewmate (Zoro) tells them to quit being stupid and just fucking talk to each other.

#one piece #sanuso #zosopp #long post #nemotime #does this make sense or is this the ramblings of a person who's only got 3 hrs sleep #bc thats me. 3 hrs sleep. ugh #listen okay its like. zosopp has their own growing pains to get through yknow? zoro will eventually get the whole #'oh usopp isnt as open with me bc he wants to seem tough and is also kind of doing the same thing i do. thats bad for him' #and it'll be a whole thing about making a promise between the two of them to try and be more honest with their fears and seeking help #when they need it #the sanuso thing is like. i hope i didnt mean to make it seem like sanuso is 'better' or w/e bc its just a different thing #sanuso got their own problems to sort out. 1. Sanji's everything 2. boundaries on special treatment- #i'm not gonna go seriously into this but both relationships start out not the best and get better over time yknow #also i know usopp's afraid and freaking out a lot but for this post i meant his deeper fears and insecurities #not 'i've got can't-go-on-this-island disease' lmao #the tl;dr of this post is: Usopp is more closed off with Zosopp. Usopp and Sanji have similar issues that cause problems with Sanuso. #also the way i see these ships will probably change at some point. who knows #there was a post i saw recently that was like 'hey sanuso bc romance trio were already chill with each other so sanuso became chill with #each other in an 'alone together' type of way and also they have the same issues' and i thought 'wow so true bestie' and here we are #also. man. usopp taking on / copying the behaviours of his loved ones regardless of his age is just. my jam. in a positive or negative way #maybe i'll make a post about that explaining it more. maybe

[pinacoladamatata]

"if you fancy Astarion, you might want to consider therapy. He's so damaged I must have him! Enjoy the fantasy and then call a therapist. It's a two step thing and it's very important you do both." - Amelia Tyler what do your narrator eyes see? 😂😂😂

#ohohooooohoo the little random tidbits devs and voice actors have dropped about his companion arc is making me NERVOUS #just throwin out some meta thoughts here #in order for astarion to *get rid of* the tadpole; cazador *has* to die first. like i'll bet my left tit this is conditional #since cazzy is apparently a control freak he might be enemies w the mindflayers/absolute cult bc ''bleh bleh my city'' #i think its entirely possible that we could ally w cazador against the absolute; this would like have to result in astarion attacking tav #im just worried it might be like; you have to at least temporarily side w the absolute if you kill cazzy? #idk! idk! #and like i do think there will probably be a 3rd option of like 'i hate both these groups kill them both' but man. #and then there's whatever is going on w his ''this soul is not for sale except in the realm of the undead'' stamp #like are we gonna have to go the there? wherever the fuck that is? #pls amelia i am begging on my knees i need a sign! of hope! #bc now the hug and hand holding in the trailer is making me think larian is trying to trick me into believing he'll be okay #only to hit me with a devastating ending(s) no matter what #idk. man. i read astarion's writer was fanes writer. idk dos2 but like i am aware of what......happened w that 'romance' #pls i need a sign larian #i am so sick of the bioware style romances! the morrigans! the solases ! the unresolved endings of it all! ENOUGH #i want closure from this i am begging #for once in my life i just want closure for a video game romance ending #i JUST THINK LIKE ideally. for me. he'd have at least 1 ending where he's not cured but lives happily ever after* #i am having a hard time picturing him cured of vampirism. tbh. but if it's possible without him immediately dying then. well hats off #its 2 AM here i need to knock it tf off and go to bed #........unless.....yall want to enable me and discuss this further #i am 1 more bad day away from writing a thesis on this in MLA format istg

[lecliss]

I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.

#once again i jest but now i have to actually talk about it #like. okay we have no proof of any actual timeline for the dirge flashbacks other than. it was at least 30 years ago #so who knows how long they were at the manor. could have been weeks before The Incident. or months. or maybe a full year! who knows #but to me a timeline of like. they fucked and like a week later vincent found The Evidence and lucercia had her little breakdown #AND THEN EXTREMELY QUICKLY SHE AGREED TO THE EXPERIMENT AND IT COULD GO ONE OF TWO WAYS #1. she knew she was pregnant and thats why she agreed to the experiment cuz there was already a usable subject #and therefore she must have fucked hojo like a week after she fucked vincent AND THATS STUPID FAST FOR THESE EVENTS #or 2. she didnt know. agreed to the experiment. fucked hojo. and therefore thought seph was hojo's and NOT vincent's #AND BY THE WAY. i dont even actually believe hojo fucked either!!! cuz theyre both scientists so why wouldnt they think IVF was the best way #okay. well.... hojo is canonically a fucked up little freak. so. he might have taken the opportunity to... get in there. #also when did ivf even start being a thing? cuz that may play a factor into this if nomura even considered that #well either way lets just unfortunately assume hojo got in there #ITS STILL AN ODDLY FAST TIMELINE #also. fuck man doesnt lucrecia have a later line in dirge where she actually says shes in love with hojo? or something along those lines #IMPLYING ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE SHE HAD THE FALLING OUT WITH VINCENT. YOU WOULDNT FUCK THE GUY AFTER ALL THAT SHIT #AND WHILE CLAIMING TO LOVE/CURRENTLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH HOJO!!!! LIKE CMON MAN!!!! SHE SUCKS BUT SHES NOT THAT KIND OF A MESS #i dont think vincent would fuck her until they sorted out their issues anyway and that CLEARLY didnt happen. #its VITAL that that did not happen!!!! #its just. if vincent and lucrecia fucked. everything would have had to happen EXTREMELY fast within like a 2 week timespan #and im just talking about up to when vincent learns shes partaking in the experiment. it was probably another week or two until vincent died #SO. logically it must have been like #fall in love->learn about the gimoire incident->refuse to speak to vincent->get obsessed with hojo->fall in love(?) #and then thats where i think its ambiguous on did the experiment become an idea before or after seph started to exist? #like chicken or the egg ya know. experiment idea or sephiroth zygote? #that feels fucked up to say. im so fucking sorry to seph to talk about this. yeah sorry i have to debate who fucked your mom bro #god imagine telling him that. like not even as a reveal thing cuz he knows who his father is. just like as a sick joke. your mom joke. #NO OH M Y GOD I HAVE A QUESTION NOW #in accordance to him having a photo of lucrecia in ever crisis. after he reads that jenova is an ancient (incorrect btw) #does he think that picture is still her? what about when he takes jenova's body from the lab???? #oh my god 30 tag limit. FUCK. i need like a rant blog for all this vincent talk now. my brain is going a mile a minute

[vulturevanity]

I just wanna say. I love that everyone commits to the Explorers' disguise names. Even Liko, who has no reason to, is like "ok you're annoying but I'm not gonna deadname you... Sandwich."

#pokémon #pokemon horizons #pokemon: horizons #honestly jokes aside gen 9 and horizons are surprisingly lgbt-positive #Penny is canonically wlw #you can also argue a bisexual headcanon for both Nemona and Arven. probably Kieran as well #Orla is DEFINITELY a girls' girl also. if the episode with the pokeball maker is any indication #and the amount of likodot mutual blushing is ridiculous lmao #but i think since gen 5 they've been pretty okay with representation #Japan is notoriously conservative about both race and gender/sexuality #so it's so cool that we got many poc as soon as they started basing regions off other countries #in the grand scheme of things it didn't feel like much at first but pokemon is one of the few jp franchises actively giving casual rep #thank you mr. game freak. more please #babbles

[gnfkitten]

any amount of time longer than a few months counts as homeschooled btw

#critblr ASSEMBLE #also if you had a scholarship for private school you are okay ^-^ we are in this together fellow poor people #im so curious because ik cat and i were both homeschooled #how many maladjusted gifted children do we have here 🧐 #i was homeschooled until fourth grade. then dropped out of fifth and came back for seventh ^-^ i was a little freak with no socialization

[brltpop]

Guys, girls, goths and gays please pray for me or wish me good luck because I'm about to EXPLODE

#so back in the day we used to have a family computer on the living room #my dude.... that computer is the chronicle of my teenage years #both the cringe stuff AND music formation #now #yesterday sptfy was acting weird so i decided to play stuff from my old itun3s on desktop #and it was a cool trip down memory lane UNTIL it started to say that the program couldn't locate some files #and so i was like 'oh okay no problem' because those songs were on a pendrive #those songs came from that family computer #BUT that pendrive FREAKING DISAPPEARED #I TURNED MY ENTIRE ROOM UPSIDE DOWN AND I CAN'T FIND IT 😭😭😭 #what's worse is that a couple of days ago i tossed my trashcan" #trash can's content to be disposed ** #and my can is literally next to my bed #WHAT IF I ACCIDENTALLY TOSSED MY PENDRIVE TO THE TRASH???????? 😭😭😭😭 #so guys please pray for me so i can find it 😭 i am genuinely desperate #rambless

[anaalnathrakhs]

i keep looking at posts like "i stopped a binge" "i prevented a binge" and all of them are like. "i waited until the urge went away". buddy. the urge doesn't go away. there's no urge. there's just nothing else to do. i don't have anything else to do. every time i stop eating no matter how long i sit with the feeling or not, i always go for more food because there is genuinely nothing else in my life. nothing is enjoyable anymore. the world sucks. no matter what i force myself to do it's the only positive thing i can ever find.

#like okay cool i let the people around me guilt me into eating whatever they think i should be eating #i get it. i'm so fucking stupid for missing out opportunities to try new food. i should never buy the same food twice. #i should always buy all the variety i can and try everything. #i'm so stupid for having eaten the same stuff in a loop for years and years #i'm a massive fucking weirdo for not eating when other people are eating #i keep stealing food from my parents and the people around me i keep taking way too much of stuff intended for a group #nowhere i go will be free of obligations #i have to keep buying my own poison because everywhere i go there's other people's food waiting for me anyway #my parents keep looking at me like a freak no matter if i eat dinner with them or not #they see me binge and nothing happens #we just ignore it #i just eat until Designated Eating Time is finished #hunger doesnt ever have anything to do with it i just eat when food's in front of me #i need the ritual i need the structure it brings to my life #both meals with other people and my ritual binges #i dont know what to do with myself when i'm not binging #and it's like i'm not allowed to not want food #to other people #it's like i must necessarily want all food and anytime i refuse it's restriction #my friends are always like ooooh you can grab some of my fries if you want #or oooooh do you want the rest of my cookie #or ooooooh and how about you are you ordering something #and i'm like :) yeah sure :) like anybody else would :) #and to myself. to myself i don't know. i think i just want to give up. i want to suffer and i want to fuck up so badly. #so badly that no one can deny i need help #i want to be proven right. i'm just a little weakling and all i'm good for is to haunt the halls of a mental hospital. #no responsabilities no pressure nothing but a pitiable suffering victim #i want somebody or something to swoop in and save me #but nobody will come. it's my job to ask for reasonable help from the relevant authorities. and currently they can't offer that care. #so fuck me i guess

[thevaudevillescene]

Yesterday, while talking about my serving job, my office coworker said, “You ever feel like you’re in a Broadway show, like it’s just the same thing repeating night after night?” I said, “Absolutely. There’s a song in the Beetlejuice musical where he goes, ‘I do this bullshit, like, eight times a week,’ and I swear I think of it every single day on my way to work.”

A couple of weeks ago a woman at one of my tables asked if I’m “in the theater” and I said no, and she was like, “oh, you just seem like you have that personality.” I don’t need to join the local theater, ma’am, I already act for a living at this job. You’re simply seeing through the cracks in my carefully crafted but summer-worn worksona. I said to my coworker, “I was just assigned theater kid by this woman,” and they said, “She probably clocked that you’re gay but she’s too straight to realize it so she was like, ‘She must…do theater.’”

#so don’t be freaked. stay in your seats. i do this bullshit like eight times a week. #so just relax; you’ll be fine. drink your $50 wine and take a breath. #<- truly me whenever customers start getting pissed about fucking anything #my patience is wearing SO thin which is how i know it’s august #last week i let a table know their food was on its way and asked if they needed anything before it came out #and the guy goes ‘yeah when’s our food coming?’ i was like ‘..AS I SAID-’ #last night a woman asked if she could sub out pasta for a vegetable and i said ya the options are blah blah blah #she was like ‘a veggie sauté? what’s that?’ i said ‘it’s a mix of vegetables.’ ‘but what’s in it?’ #i just flipped her menu over while holding eye contact with her and pointed to the description on the menu #my other favorite: can i get you anything else to drink besides water? coke diet coke sprite iced tea lemonade club soda? #‘can i have a root beer?’ ‘do u guys have dr. pepper?’ #…… #COKE. DIET COKE. SPRITE. ICED TEA- #‘oh okay i’ll have a pepsi’ #AND I HOPE YOU DIE. I HOPE WE BOTH DIE.

[istherewifiinhell]

alright one last one for the road. at all times the need to be 'normal' in public is the most crushing one of all. kills the mind kills the body kills whatever word you ascribe the spark of life. me i personally have GOT to get more weird. in public. ig... yeuch.

#some shit #THE CONSTANT discomfort is kinda ahfbgjab fvaj f alas......... #ohhh but i wuv being alone and being a freak and by the quantuam logic of this beautiful place #i am both alone and not in my freakdom. like shrondiners cat....... #HEY OKAY. an actual nice note to share. i was super uncomfty errands day but eventual talking to friend in all the most secluded but public #locations we could find was nice. we ppl watched pride celebration goers (yeah in aug. shrug) in the safety of our. still masking lives. #i forgot to be uncomfty. cut my leg on a log we sat on too. forgot to be bothered by the pain too huh.

[churchydragon]

I think I'll follow Shattered and also block the SAMS tag. I just get kinda annoyed and bitter now when I see it

#churchy talks #sick of seeing the shitty show that kills characters for no reason other then shock value #and has creators are too pussy to tell the fandom “no” #like I'm certain they killed Solar because of poor written shock value (what a shock!) #or becuase they became so uncomfortable with people shipping literal incest they decided to kill one of them #and they can't kill Moon again so Solar has to go #and both of these things could have been avoided #by either better writing #or the actors putting their foot down and telling people to stop shipping incest #and like. back with Moon and Monty. they both said they were uncomfortable with it. they were probably uncomfortable with S*lorm*on too #but the fandom is full of fucking assholes that think it's okay to send death threats to minors #or say they're gonna write 18+ smut to minors #we literally cannot have SHIT in the FNaF fandom without someone being a freak #and it's so fucking frustrating and every time I see anything SAMS related I just get annoyed all over again. like fuck man come on #anyways. I'm done yelling. I go play Morrowind now #vent

[my-thirteenth-reason]

dude i hate this my juniors and seniors in club see me and say hi just to ask me where my best friend is

#some don't even say hi #all i am to them is my best friend's best friend #like i know we are joint at the hip #worst part is that i have social anxiety which is cured when im w a frn and shes my only close frn here #while she would still thrive without me #and nobody cares about me anyway #dude the other time one of my juniors came up to the both of us #and then she looked at my best friend #then she pointed at me and asked if i was [my name] #LIKE OKAY???? YOU COULD'VE ASKED ME????? #BITCH???? #AM I AN INANIMATE OBJECT TO YOU #it was so rude i swear #not to mention that she SHOULD freaking know my name bro we've fenced so many times ITS LITERALLY BEEN A YEAR????? #istg

[ashtonisvibing]

what noooooo i'm not looking at the bad egg website and suddenly panicking that the comic is ONLY going to be in pre order and once the pre order is done it's gone forever

#ashton is talking #it looks like there's just four different covers but it's both stories in one comic #okay tag bonus cuz i took a second to try and rationalize #i think it's just the alt covers that are pre order/limited #while the main one will remain in continuous stock #i dunno the whole pre order thing is just freaking me out dshjkdsfhjdfhj #cuz i've only got the chance of getting this for christmas #so like if all of them stop getting sold before november/december i'm shit out of luck #........ unless i try and ask my memere about it- #i dunno we just wait and see i guess-! #in other news relating to the altrverse comic it is a CRIME- #-that the only posters they're selling are of the marvin/jackie cover- #-or the marvin cover #where's my jackie poster-??? #how deep does the marvin bias go-??? (half joking)

[decamarks]

i'm sorry i'm just never gonna get over this

#like what freak miracle of the world happened to make this occur. it's hilarious #okay wait i think i get it now. the characters i like are ones who are directly defined in relation to a proverbial 'camera' #hear me out. rainer is defined by his recordings; what is captured on camera and the reality it reflects #so rainer's relation to the 'camera' is that he IS the camera. one with a distorted lens but a camera nonetheless. #he's the negative space implied in every recording. the indirect 'eye' that exists to observe #MEANWHILE spamton only actively exists when being observed. that is to say he's actively nonexistent. #(e.g. ''* Spamton begs to the audience. Spamton prays to the audience.'' / ''* There is no audience.'') #he's in front of a camera that isn't recording and an audience that doesn't exist. he can't be made ''real'' without their presence. #both characters can only be indirectly observed: their existence depends entirely on their 'audience'. there we go add that to the diagram #OH WAIT BOTH ALSO HAVE TO DO WITH COMPUTERS LOL

[jewishbarbies]

so apparently the 40yr old man at the coffee shop me and my sister used to go to that made us hella uncomfortable and said I looked 16 while flirting with me is an actual predator that sexually assaulted 2 teen girls that worked with him. I’m actually nauseated rn.

#g talks #he’s made us so fucking uncomfortable #we stopped going like a couple months after we found the place #because of that freak #he’s made gross comments to both of us #apparently his friends in town are covering for him #because the girls made a police report #he didn’t even deny the accusations #which are absolutely insane #he just said no comment #like a fucking predator #my dad voted for that guy for city council #even though we told him how much of a creep he was #I’m so disgusted #mine #/mobile #/okay to reblog