#venting i guess?

[thrawns-babygirl]

I had an anon in my askbox that was rudely asking me something along the lines of "why aren't you posting about Crosshair anymore" and I got mad and deleted it before figuring I should probably explain myself a little because all 860 of you did initially follow me for crosshair content so here goes:

So, like many of us, I am neurodivergent. I have intense, all encompassing hyperfixations that give me that ridiculous dopamine hit that we all know and love. Unfortunately, these hyperfixations have a shelf life (as much as I would prefer to be able to hyperfixate on a single thing for a long time and not worry about the enjoyment waning)

This means that in time, I struggle to connect with certain media the way I used to. If I set certain media to the side and then think about it a little while later, then I can sometimes get that rush back like I did when I first engaged with the media.

A good example of this is actually Hux and the sequel trilogy. Back when the sequels were new and exciting I was a feral Hux stan. I didn't have a blog I used back then so I just read fanfic on Ao3 and info dumped to my friends. (Lmao sorry guys)

But then the interest slowly waned, for star wars all together and I hyperfixated on other things, My Hero Academia, Haikyuu, Star Trek, until eventually my brain had enough of a break from Star Wars and let me get fully invested in it again.

Basically what I'm trying to say is, I would love nothing more than to still be fully invested in the Bad Batch fandom, but my brain will not let me feel the same way about it until I have a small break and think about something else for a while.

And like many of us, it was my comfort show. With my comfort characters. When the season 2 finale aired I was a mess. I'm not even a full time Tech fan but the way he went out broke me. It was hard to think about the show at all without feeling a whole slew of negative emotions, so I started rewatching rebels and the sequels to find a new comfort show and other comfort characters.

Look none of this makes any sense, but basically I'm sorry for the hux spam and lack of TBB content lately. It will return. I will come back to it, but its just really hard at the moment. I'll still finish off the requests once I am settled at my new house, but after that I probably won't turn requests back on for a while until I get over my negative emotions towards the show.

And before you hit me with the "but Hux died too" look i know, it's just easier to talk myself out of that one because it was so negligible in the grand scheme of the movie I can pretend he was helped into a bacta tank or something.

Look, if you got this far, thanks for reading my unmedicated ramblings. I'm sorry that the content you followed me for isn't happening as much anymore, but it will come back one day. When it's less difficult for me to think about.

Until then, enjoy the Thrawn posting and Hux posting. Or don't. I dont make the rules.

#rambling #venting i guess? #just too many words #tldr im neurodivergent and care about fictional characters an unhealthy amount

[dinomite2]

I wanna post something about talking something personal or about my own problems but I feel like people wouldn't really care about it because they wouldn't see it or either they got problems of their own which are probably worse

People will just probably just know me as the person who justs ... idk does stuff and sends people asks to try and make their day...

#venting i guess?

[trans-wojak]

The way people treat autistic women vs autistic men is really weird cause I swear part of it is misogynistic.

Autistic women: awww so cute and quirky!

Autistic men: creepy and annoying

Not to say that autistic women don’t get a ton of crap and heavily misdiagnosed as some other mental health issue but geez the difference in the way some people treat me as an autistic dude vs an autistic girl is odd. I’m creepy when I talk to kids now but I was cute/nice as a girl. The mistakes or awkwardness in my social interactions are seen as indicative of some kind of ulterior motive instead of just being autistic.

me, to my niece after she tells me facts about marine animals: you’re so smart! You must have all the boys at school wanting to be your boyfriend huh.

niece: noooo icky boys you’re silly uncle Mike

me: awww am I icky too then?

niece: yes but it’s okay I still love you even if you’re old and an icky boy (now) cause you play with me

me: thanks I love you too sweetie

I’ve been told being playful like this is inappropriate. But when I made these same silly comments as a girl it was never questioned at all. Now I realise it’s kinda heteronormative but I’m mostly just trying to tease in a silly way. I’m not very knowledgeable about how to interact with children. I struggle to understand what’s appropriate besides the most obvious things. I’m mostly mirroring how adults interacted with me as a kid and I knew they were joking. One thing I don’t do is force physical affection cause I hated that as a kid. When people tell my niece to hug me goodbye and if she ever hesitates I just say it’s okay, high five instead? And she’s always happy to do that. She hugs me when she wants to but I don’t like to force it.

#rant #personal #venting i guess?

[st-dionysus]

We've had strap ons since at least 400 BC, and people still have the nerve to go on gay hook up apps and ask "how can an FTM be a top?"

#Not that you even need a strap to top #But that's a another whole conversation it self #Vent #I guess?

[a-method-in-it]

You know that Chris Fleming line that goes "Call yourself a community organizer even though you're not on speaking terms with your roommates"?

I honestly think every leftist who talks about the "revolution" like Christians talk about the rapture needs to spend a year trying to organize their workplace. Anyone who sincerely talks about building a movement so vast and all-encompassing that it overwhelms all existing power structures needs the dose of humility that comes with realizing they can't even build a movement to get people paid better at a badly run AMC Theaters where everyone already hates the manager.

#method speaks #union stuff #politics #i guess #best case scenario in this plan we get some successful union drives #worst case people realize that movement building is hard #and also explicitly mentioning socialism is counterproductive #mostly i'm just venting #it's only april how is election discourse this unhinged already?

[afrostycatblr]

Having had COVID once (maybe twice, not 1000% sure) I just gotta keep telling myself:

However sick I am right now, I've been sick Worse

I still have a sense of smell and taste (lost a good portion of sense of smell with the ol 'Rona)

While I'm not getting better, I'm also not getting worse and that's good.

#personal #venting i guess? #it's all about perspective

[dat2ndaccount97]

Not having room for dolls is fun. All this mess for just one photo I'm about to take. I hate having to keep all my dolls in bins (which are all pretty much full now).

#doll stuff #life stuff #venting I guess? #i hate it here #no room in my room

[tommy2020]

I’m a boy and I kiss other boys.

I’m a boy and I was not born a boy.

I’m a boy and I use unconventional pronouns.

I’m a boy and I want to live as a boy.

I’m a boy and I want to be free to say that out loud.

I’m a boy and I want to live without fear of being hurt.

Just like the other boys.

My friend is a girl and she likes boys.

My friend is a girl and she was not born a girl.

My friend is a girl and uses she/her.

My friend is a girl and she wants to be called a girl, not a slur.

My friend is a girl and she should be allowed to live as a girl.

My friend is a girl and she shouldn’t be assaulted because she is a girl.

Just like the other girls.

My sibling is nonbinary and they like every gender.

My sibling is nonbinary and they were not born that way.

My sibling is nonbinary and uses whatever pronouns they feel like.

My sibling is nonbinary and wants to be perceived as a person too.

My sibling is nonbinary and should be allowed to choose what they call themselves.

My sibling is nonbinary and shouldn’t be shoved under the rug because their gender identity “doesn’t make sense”.

Just like other people.

WE ARE PEOPLE.

TRANS RIGHTS ARE HUMAN RIGHTS.

#trans rights #poem #i guess #writers on tumblr #poets on tumblr #transgender #transmasc #trans #nonbinary #gnc #gnc positivity #vent #gay #lgbtq+ #queer #genderfluid #queer rights #lgbtq rights #gay rights #queer issues #queer community

[tapeworrmart]

Crush my ribs

#More OC/general stuff #I know this will probs be seen as a trans vent (and I guess it is that too) but this is about that feeling of wanting to be squeezed #Being narrow bodied and small set and feeling easily broken. And maybe wanting to be #art #sketch #character art #OC #OC art #original character #original art #Vent art #Trans #Queer #Gay #Mlm #Gay art #Angel

[kineticallyanywhere]

about anger

#processing some Feelings I guess #i dunno #vent art #? #something something not knowing youre a hot stove until someones hand is red #art #kineticallyart #gonna head to bed early

[emberglowfox]

you ever just

#booooowomp sfx #sparks speaks #vent #i guess #fine to rb it’s intentionally vague and silly #i think i have attachment issues. is all i have to say abt this #no time to think about issues i have class #jesus hell this got notes

[warper-in-training]

[ 1:39 am ] I feel like he's watching me – maybe he's as obsessed with me as I am with him.

#pretty proud of this one . #kizhu #om #om nb #om swd #obey me #obey me nb #obey me swd #obey me shall we date #om! shall we date #shall we date obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me barbatos #om barbatos #barbatos obey me #barbatos om #obey me fanart #obey me art #fanart #art #if you see this I am hallucination badly and I need to sleep but I am terrified for my life. #I swear he's real #the art really isn't done as a vent but happend to be finished while I was trying to distract myself from him.. so uh. #I guess...

[gothwineaunts]

Oofh. The hate in the comments. It's starting to get to me. I've been trying to ignore it for a long time now, but like they literally want one of the romantic leads to disappear. So many people. They just hate her. Like not even "love to hate her." Just despise her enough to call her slurs and pray for her death. In a wlw.

I must have really fucked this up, I think.

#red post #small vent i guess #I'm getting a complex over it lol #the concept of needing to write them in a scene together again #actively freaks me out #I've never seen it worse than in 98 #and most of what she did in that episode was #checks notes #narrowly survive a murder attempt #:')

[phoenixyfriend]

Political ads: My opponent has jacked up taxes every year since he was elected!

Me: Which taxes? Income? Sales? Property? Business?

Political ads: I promise to hold the line on taxes!

Me: Which taxes? What government programs do those taxes contribute to? What gets cut if the lack of taxation causes a deficit?

Political ads: Think about the taxes!

Me: WHICH TAXES. WHICH TAXES ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT. TELL ME WHO'S ACTUALLY GETTING AFFECTED BY THESE TAXES YOU'RE SO CONCERNED WITH.

Reminder to always ask what it is that people aren't saying in these ads.

A lot of them want you to think that it is your personal taxes as a working-class person that they're talking about. But if it's taxes on the rich that they're "holding the line on," then they're using your desire to survive with a greater portion of your own income as fuel to keep the upper classes from paying their fair share.

I keep getting the same three or four political ads (half aren't even for the district I live in) and I'm frustrated that they use these transparent tactics and that there are probably people that don't have the time or background to take that moment to go 'what are they hoping I hear in this? What are they actually going to do?'

#Phoenix Talks #personal #vent post #feel free to reblog #politics #taxes #the last time I got one particular ad I started shouting at the TV while my sister was downstairs grabbing some food #she didn't even blink about it so I guess it's not out of character for me lol #We're alone (except for the dog) and I was hoping to share my frustration by shouting while she's in the next room #so at least one person would Know my feelings on this topic

[obscurism]

It is so weird in the sense that you can be friends with someone and then find out you don't actually think they ever liked you even as a friend to begin with or had issues they never brought up. Which is truthfully really hurtful tbh but it is what it is I guess.

#venting I guess? #it's just something that has been bothering me #i dont understand why people dont just hash out issues if they have them because they'll just fester if not #but maybe confronting issues head on is just more of my personality

[amphibianaday]

day 1522

#amphibian #frog #frogsona #tip: dont become self employed you have to do so much taxes related stuff all. the. time #(in my country. who knows about america based on what ive heard about your taxes its probably worse) #i dont neeed help btw im just complaning because i had to look at The Spreadsheets #didnt do my bookkeeping correctly for 2 months but i fixed it👍 #its not even THAT bad i just needed to draw like. corporate vent art i guess