#until she starts screaming

[hwashitape]

obsessed with the idea that people will seek audience with Laios and he's just:

#danmeshi spoilers #major spoilers #ending spoilers #come tf on get out of here #anyway #Laios visibly deflating while Kabru is crouching uncomfortably #Marcille is there too and she is so beautiful #the picture of elegance #until she starts screaming #steam coming out of her ears like a cartoon #Kui's original panel cracks me up is this mf behind a curtain?? #loser thinks he's the man behind the man #well he is #good for him #hwshln

[wandarogers]

Your eyes the most remarkable shade of blue. And yet somehow they shine brighter when you are kind.

#polinedit #dailypolin #dailybridgerton #bridgertonedit #bridgerton #bridgertonblr #onlyperioddramas #perioddramaedit #tvedit #netflixdit #periodedit #perioddramasource #polin #colin x penelope #not ME making her dress Bridgerton BLUE :) #also it feels like this scene is going to be so important? he’s finally starting to see her for who she really is #boys are stupid #not see a flying fck until u smash it into their face #if i was her I’d smack him in the face and then kiss him just !Because #crying screaming throwing up #$ #mine: gifs

[nevervalentines]

but of course they pushed their mats together. and of course it’s all four of them on the floor together, bc even as ruby fractures and pulls away, they’re still so scared to let one another out of each other’s sight most of the time. and of course yang and blake probably fell asleep holding hands or with their shoulders pressed together or curled against each other’s sides and even if they move apart in the night, when they wake up they can reach for each other again and again

#rwby #rwby spoilers #bumbleby #gAY ass biTCH ass #also weiss's mat tilted toward ruby's?????????? #like she had tried to be close to her before they went to sleep #maybe tried to breach the conversation of 'are you ok?' and 'im starting to get worried' #until ruby pulled away #something something partner dynamics romantic or otherwise make me scream

[juniperleafdelivery]

#my art #trans #side note: following tags are a pretty long thought dump #ugh okay i'm going to be honest #i didn't know anything about predstrogen until she was banned and many people started talking about her #also looked through photomatt's blog very briefly #to me he sounds callous- if that's the right word. he just didn't seem to care about what happened to predstrogen prior to her being banned #also? car with hammers that explodes multiple times feels far from being a serious death threat to me #yes predstrogen explicitly mentioned death wishes #but i don't know. what she said is more cartoonish than serious #also something i noticed from photomatt: where is the evidence that predstrogen threatened other users? #i haven't been looking into all this that deeply #but that photomatt stating that as part of the reason for predstrogen's ban and then not elaborating is. weird. for lack of better words #on a slightly different note: i love tumblr and how i can be my silly queer self and nobody cares #but if we don't stand up for each other — especially those who are constant targets for harrassment and other crappy things #tumblr will eventually die or bear no resemblance to the site i enjoy so much #maybe i'm privileged! being a trans masc guy #or maybe i'm ignorant #but i guess i have a tendency to say a lot. and i hate staying silent when i have the opportunity to speak out #so i'm going to scream #and i hope y'all are going to speak in support of trans women too

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I feel like I'm losing my mind. Like this has to be a thing right? It's a thing I experience at least. Please please please tell me abt ur experience if u do 🙏

#all the literature i find is like yeah pmdd can be mistaken for bipolar but then they dont talk abt mania or hypomania #so im like ??? wtf is happening? #i mean i wasnt looking that hard but its still weird to me bc i tell my mum i possibly had a hypomanic episode and she instantly was like #hm could b hormones and she was 1000% percent right bc it happens mostly in the days before bleeding starts #so like i cant b the only one out there. and it doesnt happen all the time. and usually its not that extreme #like id say its mostly just elevated mood and it mostly just lasts like 3 days or so. so i dont think it counts as hypomania. but thats wha #ill select bc i had one time that felt so fucking crazy it felt like there was something seriously wrong with me. it was fun tho #before i crashed so hard i had to leave work in the middle of the day bc i couldnt stop crying lol #anyway. im curious #menstruation #pmdd #pms #its always depression this depression that. why the fuck do i wanna run around in circles screaming until i die? riddle me that batman

[spiderversegf]

ouuuuugh i love my sister :(

#🥭 #she’s 20 now but she will always be a toddler. 2 me #she used to scream n cry until i picked her up and she would never let anybody else hold her once i had her :’) #like that’s my lil homie forever…. i love her so much im gonna start crying #(she did so well in her 3rd yr of college even tho she was dealing w a lot of personal stuff and im so so proud!!!!)

[reneedenoailles]

never forgiving alice for this.

#disgusting fucking pig of a man #he's literally treating selena like she's a child and acknowledges how young she is and that he's older and shouldn't be dating her #“you lost yourself” she OPENED UP TO YOU #and it's the fact that after that last question -- he goes SILENT. #and then refuses to leave when she tells him to get out until she starts screaming #i hate him. I HATE HIM !!!!! #vampire is so them #rc arcanum #rc selena #rc damon #the fact the narrative treated this as fine and even had selena go back to damon at the end to “talk it out” #fuck you mean talk it out ???? he groomed you & used you

[pinofdnp]

phil is the absolute realest for that first red flag

#dnp #dan and phil #dan and phil games #getting deep at the slumber party #i *had* a crush on a girl for 7 months until i realised she only talked about herself and her own interests #and never asked me a single question #also every time i was trying to talk about things that i love she would shame me for them #let's ignore the fact that she also led me on and used me for 7 months before i start screaming #phan #dip and pip

[mwolf0epsilon]

"Star Wars isn't dead y'all are just haters" "Disney saved Star Wars" "It's the Woke Agenda that ruined Star Wars"

My mans, Disney single-handedly destroyed the Sequel Trilogy despite the Force Awakens being the gateway to something potentially fantastic; MCU'd the Mandalorian (a story which originally had nothing to do with the Prequel and OG Trilogy aside from sharing a universe and exploring a sect of a completely different culture/ideology); ego-boosted both Filoni and Favreau to the point where their OC Verse is not only canon but openly disregarding the Star Wars Universe Bible/Lore; gave us a snippet of what an extremely misunderstood indigenous culture is actually like (instead of portraying them as the savages one of the white leads mislabeled as animals that deserved to be slaughtered) only to then wipe out the tribe we got to know for no reason other than shock value thus alienating indigenous/poc viewers in the most disrespectful way possible; completely threw away the entire message of TCW (that being a clone does not make you incapable of being your own person who has their own thoughts, ideals, moral compass and overall identity) by making TBB (a show that does have it's strong points in set design, soundtrack orchestration and overall sound design, but is extremely weak on both characterization and storytelling because they either make the meaningful plot points stretch too thin or focus on the wrong character completely) their go to show marketed for kids instead of the actual kids programming that people shit on for being for, surprise, kids; constantly disregards valid critique from their consumers (to the point where infighting in the Fandom has gotten extremely ugly) that people either give up on interacting completely or simply vanish and take all their things with them (because no one seems to understand where these critiques come from, or how being unable to admit your special little show is imperfect is actually not a good thing for both you and others).

This isn't even accounting for the fact the Fandom seems to have doubled in it's overall toxicity since Disney took over. Which is par for the course when a mega corporation takes hold of something that started out extremely political in nature anyway. The Cash Cow machine needs feeding after all...

#Eps Talks About: #Funny enough this started as an argument between my sisters #One of which isn't a Star Wars fan and the other who is an OJ and Prequels fan #My mom (who was the one to introduce us to star wars mind you) and I watched from the sidelines #Mom didn't care because she doesn't like Modern Star Wars stuff but I ended up putting an end to the argument #My younger sister is right that Disney put too much emphasis on SELLING Star Wars to newer generations to a detrimental degree #but that doesn't mean they invalidate what came prior to their shitshow or the message SW was created to uphold #in fact Andor and SW Visions S2 made a point of being the best homages to the OJ trilogy thus far by being very political in their messages #But my older sister is also right that the state of Fandoms these days is very much a US vs THEM situation in terms of how people make #themselves heard and how meeting in the middle is virtually impossible which is very much a product of social media and how people conduct #their personal image via either genuinely expressing their feelings on certain topics or simply using them for clout #It is a case of locking yourself in a room with an 'adversary' and trying to see who can scream the loudest until someone loses their voice #I love star wars but that doesn't mean I'm blind to the fact star wars also kinda sucks lmao but oh well these are just my thoughts that #I'm letting loose because I'm already pissed off from something else going wrong today and have no patience for some of the rancid shit #that keeps cropping up in either tags or posts I find in and out of Tumblr Dot Com

[h-doodles]

truly not sorry but once again thinking abt miranda/mc/mia in RL. i need them SO bad. like, 2 of the most morally unsound persons (Mia & Miranda) + their little meow meow. Knowing both are so possessive and destructive (TO OTHERS) when they love and instead of running, fully embracing the chaos of it. Loving them despite their delusions of grandeur, the crimes, the secrets, and the deaths (+ undeaths) caused (or ordered!) by their hands. Acknowledging this is fucked up but you can't help it. Lovingly bitching abt their fights but fully done and gone to do anything else but to soothe and continue loving them, because after all those years of waiting and doing and redoing everything to be perfect was worth it for this.

also did i mention being their little meow meow. sorry Miranda, MC was the original gremlin in the relationship and Mia being the fucked up feral racoon she is now is not solely by her doing, MC was and IS the enabler in both relationships that it bled over sm and OUGHJJJJJHHHHhhhh im being so emo abt three (3) women being utter menaces frfr

#sorry but i truly love it when corruption didnt spread #it was in there all along #ALSO GOD. sorry but RL Miranda/Mia happened once to me in my brain. Dreamt abt one loop that they get so fucked up drunk they slept together #and like. they didnt process it until MC comes back fr and sees the unresolved vibe #miranda's screaming shaking crying throwing up when mia alludes to it in front of mc and mc is like. huh. good for u actually. #mia: so u dont mind? that we fucked once???? #mc: babe did u forget the stint of us fucking drunk before i met miranda. i expected u guys to do it more actually. #miranda: you WHAT. WHAT. WHAT. #mc: dont worry my love i truly do love and adore u!!!! and i wouldnt mind if u wanted to bring mia in really #mc (inside her mind): my god. these bitches gay. #mc (still inside her mind): miranda doesnt know mia's a menace when she's starting to fall and mia doesn't know mira's circling her either. #mc: god i love u both but u need to opem ur eyes really. my god. #then i woke up #and thought. hey. if this was plausible eva gets to have three (3) mommies fr and IM upset its not real ekdbdofjd #anyways dreams were sponsored by cinder's re8 harem fic #thank u cinder <3 #resident lover #mother miranda #mother miranda x reader #mia winters #mia winters x reader #mother miranda x mia winters #mother miranda x mia winters x reader #personal.txt #clown.txt #simp.txt

[idk-what-to-put-here-123]

I've actually had a really good day today for a change

#while me and my friends were walking to the bus stop we found a shopping trolley #and used it to carry our bags the reat of the way there #people were looking at us like we were insane #cant imagine why #moving on #after school the trolley was still at the bus stop 🥳🥳 so we used it to carry our bags again #when i got home my sisters friends were over and i had to go with them to coles (theyre all like 10) #my friend wanted to come so i met up with her and she came to coles with us #my sister + co started running away from me and my friend so we had to chose then around the store (we got yelled at multiple times) #i saw a guy from my primary school there #it was very awkward (he stared at me while i ran past him) #then we went to the store across the road and me and my friend has to chase sister+co around there too #then we went to the park #sister+co started plotting something #then one of my sister's friends started taking photos of me and my friend to make shitty memes #then me+friend started walking away and sister+co went down to the river (the park is directly next to a river) #then when sister+co weren't looking me+friend grabbed their bag of snacks and ran #they saw us tho :( then they chased us #but we got away #until we didn't #my sister started screaming at me so i dropped the bag and ran but she followed me #sister was holding a half full bottle of coke (coca cola not cocaine) and she started walking menacingly towards me and i was backing away #from her #but then she threw the coke all over me :(( #then me+friend walked back home after yelling at sister+co #... #so #that was my day #idkwhattoputhere123

[krikeymate]

How would tara react to finding the sams medicine for her hallucinations?

Tara knows Sam takes medication, prescribed medication, that she takes once a day, always at the same time. Sam tries to hide it from her, but she's seen her taking it before, she's seen Sam sweeping the bottle into a drawer when Tara enters her bedroom.

She doesn't bring it up.

Sam's more herself, more like the girl she used to be, before their father left. But older and wiser and better. That's because of the medication, Tara thinks. When she first came back, she was different. More like the girl who left. Closed off and struggling and acting like it was so hard to feel.

Sam got better after they moved to New York. (Tara got worse.)

One night, soon after 6, Tara can't sleep. Sam is conked out beside her, dead to the world out for the count. Her wounds hurt tonight, there's no position comfortable. She rolls over onto her side, and spots the pills on the dresser across the room. It's like a flashing beacon, she's unable to draw her eyes away.

It feels like a breach of privacy (it is) as she eases herself off the bed and across the room. She holds the bottle in her hand and pauses for a moment, trying to decide if she's really going to do this. With a nervous look back to check her sister is still sleeping, she twitches the bottle around to read the label.

The name seems familiar, but it's not anything she knows. It's not an antidepressant, or anti-anxiety medication like she thought it might be.

She wants to crawl back into bed, cuddle up with her sister, to not think of it anymore. Instead, she puts the bottle back down and heads out the bedroom to find her phone.

She wishes she'd gone back to bed.

She'll suffocate under this knowledge, she thinks. She can't tell Sam. Sam doesn't want her to know. Why doesn't Sam want her to know? Doesn't she trust her? It stings worse that her scars.

#/mp #ask box #Scream #Sam Carpenter #Tara Carpenter #my writing tag #I actually think Sam would hide it all from Tara until she has literally no other choice. I don't think Tara would find out on her own. #My favourite headcanon is Tara doesn't find out until she starts to hallucinate herself and Sam is finally forced to confess #just so that her sister knows she's not alone

[purritobastard]

I am completely Normal about Wall-E and EVE, what are you talking about???

#wall e #Wall-E got crushed and I started violently sobbing #so Normal #I haven’t watched this movie in so long #the beautiful imagery and just. #the entire show is so amazing #Dancing: a series of movements involving two partners where speed and rhythm match harmoniously with music #AND THEN IT SHOWS WALL-E AND EVE FLYING TOGETHER #THEYRE DANCING #WALL-E AND EVE LIKE TO DANCE #Wall-E was all for going back to Earth #until they realized that EVE wasn’t coming back with them #and then they refused to go #EVE’s scream for Wall-E whenever they get hurt gives me life #not to mention the fact that #EVE told Wall-E what she was #Extra-Terrestrial Vegetation Evaluator #and Wall-E gave her a name #her laughs at how they pronounce her name #Eev-ah #so Normal about this movie :D

[tardis--dreams]

You know what? I give up on this paper once and for all. I'm not even ashamed anymore

#okay I'm a little ashamed #it's another 5 points i have to catch up with next semester #but it's making me want to kill myself and i don't even know if the professor would still accept it #(the original deadline was in October. i got an official extension until November. i guess it'd be just rude #to ask if it was still okay to send it #especially since i haven't done any substantial work on it #it's just bad. i hate the topic. i hate the way the professor views the subject 'language and emotion' #so that i cannot write what i want but would have to tailor it towards her views because otherwise I'd fail #and also i cannot write in german. i simply can not do it. ) #it's better to move on and focus on my last paper for last semester (official deadline is end of March #so I'm not behind for once) #and i should do the assignments for a module i should have finished 1 year ago #so i don't have to do that next semester #and i should start studying korean again so i don't make a complete fool of myself next semester #I have my first day of work in 2 weeks so I'll also have to focus on working (for money) from there on #I've been paralyzed by the thought of having to write this paper for way too long #the professor is not my boss anymore (i still have to work off some hours though) and even if she was #I'm so done being ashamed of myself for not being able to do certain things #i wanna give it my best from now on but not for this paper. it's done. #void screams

[dreamlogic]

2024 year of charlie gets a fucking break (hopefully. maybe. tbd.)

#ctxt #i'm on medication that's reduced my post-hysterectomy pain by about 70% #i have an intake appointment with a physical therapist in march & a referral to start trigger point injections #to hopefully finally recover as completely as possible from the nightmarish neuropathy that's plagued me since uuuhhhh #going on 2 years ago. holy shit. genuinely can't believe i've been surviving & functioning as well as i have for this long #while suffering a disabling & extremely painful surgical complication. fuck my original surgeon for brushing me off during that time #but the new provider i'm working with is so responsive & thorough in her approach & seems genuinely committed #to helping me finally get relief after all this time. she listens to my feedback & is flexible in her approach #and her assistant is a great communicator who's been handling most of the logistics of care coordination for me #and what a huge fucking relief that is. to not have to drag my doctors kicking & screaming towards maybe treating me eventually #i wanna cry. i finally feel like i'm being taken seriously and cared for. and i'm not BETTER yet (might never be the same as i was pre-op) #but i actually feel optimistic for the first time in over a year that i won't just have to deal with this agonizing pain on my own forever #i might actually see enough improvement that i can start to get back to living my life instead of just surviving it #money is tighter than it's been since i got laid off during early pandemic and that's stressing me out #but i promised myself that i would put my health first in 2024 and that means only working the bare minimum needed to pay my bills for now #genuinely i so fucking needed a break. i felt like i was trying to swim through a meat grinder last year #and it wasn't until i ended up in the ER about it that i finally was able to take my own pain seriously enough #to put my foot down & make some necessary changes that are now letting me focus on Getting Well With Myself at last #in hindsight it's like. really freaking me out how thoroughly i was able to compartmentalize & dissociate from how miserable i was #bc nobody who had the ability to help me would take me seriously & my shitty boss was like. extremely textbook emotionally abusive #and on one hand that was a survival mechanism that kept me on my feet during one of the worst times of my life. so props to myself there #but it was also very maladaptive how long & unnecessarily it went on before i snapped out of it & escalated things for my own safety #it was the same helpless frustration i often felt as a kid of like 'well nobody is on my side but me so i gotta suck it up & help myself' #and i think the family trauma shit that was going on last year definitely contributed to that. idk sense of doubling across time? #and things had to get Extremely Bad before they were bad enough for me to realize that although i felt like it #i am no longer an isolated & parentified island of a child who is beholden to the whims of ignorant & indifferent adults #i actually can and should take action to advocate for myself bc i am an adult and i CAN now change my circumstances as needed #instead of just enduring them as if i'm stuck there with no agency or chance to change things #and i have a really solid support system who helped me feel like it was possible to stand up for myself to get the help i desperately need #chronic blogging

[centurieslove]

finally had the guts to watch the finale again. takes me months to work up the nerve. the result? destroyed me again

#“just hold me” hits like that fucking blue truck #the FOREHEAD TOUCH #merlin screaming arthur's name bringing him back from the brink for a second #arthur not being able to take his eyes off morgana as she dies #until merlin picks him up and he chuckles and says “brought peace at last” like ?!?!?!?!?!?!?! are you FUCKING KIDDING me #gwen being so filled with pride about merlin protecting arthur and the kingdom all this time #they way her eyes are so bright and full of tears but she's so strong and so proud of her friend #merlin tracking arthur with his eyes so determined to keep him conscious and focussed on him when he jokes around #“wait a second does that mean you're doing to give me a day off?” joking so casual whilst following his gaze and keeping eye contact #the whispered panicked smile “stay with me” as if he didn't just scream arthur back from death #don't even get me STARTED about gwaine. #gaius saying he's going to have merlin's favourite meal waiting for him when he comes back #i don't even have the words to unpack that