#truly my favourite time of year

[neondiamond]

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#and after one last day of work (and a nearly 14 hour one bc people just love to leave things until last minute) #i just shut off my laptop and it’s not getting turned back on again until mid january #almost 7 glorious weeks of vacation to enjoy december and christmas 🥰 #and i’m leaving for my dream trip in 6 days! #i’m so excited! #i’m having a cuddle with noodle (more like he’s kinda crushing me but it still counts lol) #and we’re about to go to bed because i’m sleepy #but i’m so happy i decided to take time off #also i’m so excited for advent season to start tomorrow #truly my favourite time of year #anyways rambling again good night <3

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

At the start of this project all I wanted was to 'learn how to draw' using comics as a medium and the MDZS audio drama as inspiration.

I've come *very* far from making simple, 3 panel black and white comics, and I truly do intend to go even further. Thank you to everyone who cheered me on throughout 2023, it has been an incredible year in so many ways I never could have imagined. I look forwards to drawing throughout 2024 B*)

#poorly drawn mdzs #art summary #It's so interesting looking back at how my style and technique changed throughout the year! #I used PD-wwx as the consistent factor (October is an exception) and you can see so many processes going on. #My little petri dish amoeba (with a little red bow to tell him apart from the other amoeba) <3 #Whether it's getting new markers or trying out a new shading style - it's cool seeing a snapshot of my journey like this B*) #There's certainly been a slower curve to my overt improvement *but* I have become so much faster! #My life outside of drawing has been hectic and at several points extremely stressful this year. For all the work this blog has been- #-It has truly been a life saving anchor when the darkest of times have hit. #Love is hard work. Change is even harder work. Sticking to a goal I set out for myself and striving to keep going was worth it. #And I love drawing. I think there has always been something in me that longed for this. And it is finally tangible! I can draw!!! #I wanted to make a more elaborate year reflection where I looked back at my favourite comics and jokes. #but I'll leave that to the one year anniversary. #I have also been collecting a ton of statistics throughout the year and I am desperate to share them. I'm that kind of nerd B*) #I can never say it enough: Thank you all for the kindness and support. I wish everyone a lovely 2024!!!

[tequilaasquared]

I feel like enough time has now passed to say that I’ll truly never understand anyone who thinks Mickey assaulting Ian and breaking his leg was justified when Ian didn’t sign that marriage license. Like I just can’t imagine being a fan of them and fully absolving Mickey of that truly awful decision. Especially since the same people will berate Ian to the ends of the Earth for getting cold feet.

I’ve seen Gallavich stans over the years unabashedly admit they hold Ian to higher standards than Mickey and I feel like reactions to that scene are a perfect example of this: Instead of trying to empathise and understand both POVs (whether or not they agree with actions taken by either), Ian is villainised for his very valid and heartbreaking worries surrounding long term commitment and his complete lack of self love, and Mickey is praised for physically hurting someone he loves because his feelings were hurt and he was defensive.

Mickey’s feeling were completely valid, but so were Ian’s. And instead of telling him to go fuck himself and walking away, or allowing Ian to explain himself like he was attempting to, he impulsively threw his boyfriend down a flight of stairs. And then on top of that, tried to taunt him outside his house with his one night stand a day later.

Other than the fact that Mickey is favoured over Ian by most fans, my guess is that a big reason for the lack of sympathy extended to Ian in that episode, is that the average viewer relates more to heartbreak and being let down by romantic partners than they do to emotional turmoil and warped perception of self exacerbated by severe mental illness.

Was it unfair of Ian to show Mickey up like that right in front of the notary? Of course it was. Did he dig a hole for himself by not reading the situation and Mickey’s feelings properly? 100%. But it makes no sense to me that people think Ian was somehow deserving of that punishment.

#shameless #ian gallagher #mickey milkovich #Ian Gallagher they could never make me hate you #truly the most misunderstood character in that series after Debbie Fiona and Monica #anyways #Mickey is one of my favourite tv characters of all time #but miss me with that bullshit #growing is empathising with Mickey but acknowledging what a truly shitty thing that was #Ian was dumb for humiliating the love of his life and letting him down #but he didn’t deserve to be injured by his 26 year old grown ass boyfriend #this’ll probably piss off a lot of people but wtv

[adhd-merlin]

I love established relationship fics... getting together stories are great but what about after. let me check in on my friends please I need to know how they are doing

#“established relationship” truly one of my favourite tags #give me the blissful domesticity give me the first couple fights #give me the having to work out how they fit together now they're together #or the ease and fondness that comes from knowing all of someone's little quirks and hopes and fears #anyway I am once again asking you to remember the 3-year time jump between S4-S5 #which can always be filled with more wedding or domestic arwen fics

[xiaoxiongmaos]

happy birthday @itshyuka!

#moasource #moacentral #tubatunet #hueningkai #txt #kamal hueningkai #tomorrow x together #tomorrow by together #mine. #mine:fanart. #f:hueningkai. #siyuantag #useryjunies #ayabestie #userjoanna #useryeonbins #happy birthday lia! i am so so so so so sorry i didn't make it on time <|3 #you're truly my most favourite ningdungie ever and i am really very grateful that i had the fortune to meet you 3+ years ago 💖 #thank you for bearing with me and my bajillion ps + vs related questions back then fjhskladkj #and for being my no.1 supporter since the start of my giffing journey :D #really don't know what i'd be doing here without you; i owe all of my content (especially the gifs) to you and your patience~ #i hope we remain friends for a long time so that i can bother you with my never-ending train of thoughts again the way i did in 2020 HAHA #always remember that you're the bestest teacher ever and you're working hard + doing your best no matter what #and that everyone around is always rooting for you! hope you're well ♡

[allthegothihopgirls]

i want to know how he (a straight man) keeps accidentally doing this (coming out)

#he's well and truly established that he's straight #but every time he says stuff like this i think it just takes him back to square one #every reply is just “is he coming out??” or “this isn't helping the allegations” #and people tagging johnnie #i'd say leave the man alone but he contributes to it the most #given his previous tweet was literally #“if i don't have a new years kiss johnnie is my plan b” #jake webber #johnnie guilbert #america's favourite ladies #. #gothihop speaks

[hella1975]

sometimes i think about the fact my grandparents literally overnight just cut us off and im like. how did u even do that. does it torment you

#eeaao's 'how did you let me go so easily' moment. like i dont let myself even THINK about this too often #bc i immediately beat myself back with the 'if it's hard for you then imagine how hard it is for mum. her PARENTS cut her off' #but like. idk. my nan i couldn't give less of a shit about which is something i always find so interesting #bc even as a child with NO basis for it or any understanding of her behaviour both past and present i still wasn't Comfortable around her #like children are smart actually. i just Knew her vibes were off and i Knew my mum was weird when she was around #like i truly dont think i ever loved my nan even when she was a very frequent part of my life #but my grandad? i ADORED him. id see him multiple times a week and he's the kindest man ive ever met #and hannah what i told you about my mum saying certain people have magnetic auras THAT WAS ABOUT HIM #like i cant actually put into words what it was about him but people just wanted to know him and spend time with him #but he was weak and let my nan walk all over him and when push came to shove he chose her and now ive not spoken to him in 3 years #& i KNOW he loved me. he thought the world of me like it's a bitter unspoken thing between me & my sister that we KNOW i was his favourite #he used to buy me egg butties at agricultural shows when my mum said no and specifically ask for two eggs #he used to sit and eat his soup with me when he came over to do work at the house #he used to play with me. he used to smile all the time. i can so clearly hear the way he'd go ''iya [my name]' with his proper rural accent #or how he'd tell anyone who would listen 'she's tough as old boots that one' #and i could make him laugh like NO ONE else could and he'd light up and go 'give over' and he genuinely enjoyed my company #i KNOW HE DID. and i havent spoken to him in 3 years. he'll be dead soon #and i cant talk to my mum about it bc it's her DAD it is so much worse for her and i cant talk to my sister about it #bc she wasn't close with him like i was and she just shuts the conversation down and those are the only two people #who know my grandad and know what he meant to me so im just here like. he literally stopped speaking to me overnight #i stopped hearing from him i stopped meeting up with him im so so angry with him the love is still there i dont know where to put it now #why couldnt he stay. why did he pick her when she's a loveless void of inhumanity. why werent we enough #hella goes home #my grandparents on my dad's side are also not in the picture funnily enough but idgaf about them. she got that grandparentless swag

[emotinalsupportturtle]

kinda sad that I only really became aware of Michael Sheen after Good Omens and he no longer really works in Hollywood, because I can't imagine how funny it would’ve been when he inevitably pops up in the campiest, most unhinged roles in random blockbusters

#this is about the many truly unhinged roles and he's turned up in #like the amount of times in recent years i have gone “omg THAT was michael sheen!!??” #twilight #aro volturi #passengers #midnight in paris #like hello? #that's like one of my favourite comfort movies!! #tron legacy #underworld #michael sheen

[bubblegum-blackwood]

My Marius de Romanus emotional journey as told by emojis:

😕🤨😟😠😤😶🤔🫠🙃

#if you went back in time and talked to me two years or maybe even a year ago #and you told me i would not only be writing fanfiction but i would be writing shippy fluff about marius of all people #i probably wouldn't have believed you lmao #it's fascinating how quickly my view of him changed once i started allowing myself to take his whole being into consideration #and not let myself get so hung up on his negative aspects that i refused to examine anything else about him #yeah he's an utter asshole and i'd probably slap him in real life but he truly is really fascinating to read about. complex and compelling. #and once i allowed myself to legitimately examine him he became one of my favourite characters in the series to think about #the vampire chronicles #vampire chronicles #tvc #vc #vampire #vampires #marius #marius de romanus

[allisonreader]

This is where I currently am with my rewrite of Tales Of A Frozen Sailor. Just right at the beginning essentially. No one knows who Jesse Hudson actually is, but soon some new information is soon to come to light.

#other than myself and maybe a couple of other people maybe #I don't know that this rewrite is for anyone but myself #this story is such a passion project though. #truly as it's dirived from some of my favourite things. time travel. Titanic. #it has roots in one of my favourite movies due to the fact that many of the characters come from fanfic from one of my closest friends #I don't think that I could ever consider publishing it though because it does have that strong fanfic connection #If I could change some of the names maybe but doing that would feel like it changes the characters too much #so therefore it can never be published into an actual book as much as I love this story #tales of a frozen sailor #musing on tales of a frozen sailor #I just would love to know if anyone else likes this story nearly half as much as I do #though I'm considering that I might sneak it into my Extended Connections fic once I finish the rewrite #not that I think anyone will care for it there either #as I don't get that many comments about my writing in general #my style/voice just probably isn't for everyone #as it certainly hasn't changed in style/voice much over the years #that was never so clear as when a read out loud a little bit of Different Kind of Cinderella in comparison to The Autopsy #never had I realized how distinctive it sounds at very least to me #how even though the writing was at minimum 10 years apart in writing it was so very clearly written by me in my style/voice #it was a bit shocking but I guess not overly surprising all things considered #now I've written much more than I ever intended to in the tags here. you're a champ if you read them all

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

My rendition of @tempo-takoyaki's DTIYS!

Congrats on the milestones! And to everyone else, please go check out their 'Drawing TGCF (except I haven't read the books)' series!

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #svsss #tgcf #wei wuxian #shen qingqiu #xie lian #better drawn mdzs #(Vaguely??? I think SQQ came out handsome enough to put him in my special gallery) #Showing up to submit this less than 3 days before the DTIYS ends is filling me with a bit of anxiety but it is done! #Initially I was going to do a descending level of realism/detail but noses make me nervous still. One day I'll get there. #The irony is that I was planning on drawing something to celebrate tempo finishing season 1 of their series only to find this DTIYS! #*and* it was their birthday recently. I am compelled to lift them into the air and shout their praises. #What a genuinely kind person with an art style I want to bite into like a crunchy apple!!! The *range* is incredible! #Also their xie lian is probably one of my favourite interpretations. So done with everything but not misanthropic. #Remembers everything and lets other's spin in circles with their lies for the sheer chaos of it all. Teases relentlessly. Deeply sad. #Give it a read! They are planning on continuing on so now is a great time to catch up! #Thanks for hosting this fun art challenge Tempo! We all appreciate you deeply B*) #I hope you have a better year in 2024 - you truly deserve the best.

[soundtrack-for-lovers]

Completely losing myself in them again I love them so much this will forever be my favourite live performance of theirs

Theo's vocals are just so perfect

#i don't think anyone truly grasps how much this band is part of my life #going on 13 years now #the tumblr fandom may be nearly nonexistent now thanks to their tendency to take long hiatuses #(and I've certainly let my hurtsblog go in recent times lol) #but you ask me what my favourite band is now - in 10 years - or in 50 years the answer will always be Hurts #ANYWAY I've got nostalgia worms in my brain excuse my rambling #Youtube

[songofwizardry]

All I have is a voice To undo the folded lie, The romantic lie in the brain Of the sensual man-in-the-street And the lie of Authority Whose buildings grope the sky: There is no such thing as the State And no one exists alone; Hunger allows no choice To the citizen or the police; We must love one another or die.

from September 1, 1939 by W. H. Auden

#poetry #i saw an excerpt of the last four lines of this stanza somewhere a few weeks ago #it may have been on tumblr actuallly #and I love Auden but I'd not read this poem in years and I had completely forgotten about it #anyway i googled it and have reread the whole thing a dozen or so times over the last week #it truly is stunning #yes this is one of my 'post my favourite poems so i have them in one place' things #but also. holy hell this poem #i love auden so much #w h auden #i am also thinking of that line from arundel tomb #i know it's not the same but. vibes

[fightingdragonswithwho]

giving myself 5 minutes to cry on this car ride and then it’s lights, action, show

#christmas used to be my favourite time of the year and now it’s just something i have to get through #but we lost so many people these past few years #and this year having such a big loss in the family list truly hit everyone #i don’t think my family will ever be the same really and it’s just sad #anyway hold on to the memories as taylor once said <3 #i’ll post a happier post in like 10 minutes 😭 #ana! shut up #delete later probably #.txt

[quiltedlovers]

foaming at the mouth desperate for school to start again

#I WANT TO MAKE CLOTHBOUND COVERS FOR MY FAVOURITE BOOKS #also being sick finally gave me the time to get a victorian lace edging crochet pattern down and now everything in my apartment is about #to become lace edged #I LOVE TEXTILES I WANT TO MAKE THINGS #i worry a lot but really and truly im glad i waited and saved up and found this specific program #lot a shit has happened the past few years that felt impossible to live through in my personal life but I did baby and im glad im here now

[hobisexually]

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#hello it’s your weekly scheduled trauma dump on tungle dot com! #I never knew how to explain why I don’t like the holidays right #because yes! I’m full of love and warmth and want to celebrate nice times with the people I love! absolutely #and I like the coziness and the everything #but Monday it was Sinterklaas and it used to be my favourite holiday of them all #it truly makes me feel like a kid and I used to hold on to this holiday with my tiny fists SO tightly because it was just. pure joy. #minus the racism re: piet obviously that’s a whole other can of worms I won’t get into rn #but this Monday it all exploded because of my dad and it was truly a throwback to my entire teenage years #and how it was all about appearances and pleasing anyone but me only to sit in a car and think about how fake it all is and how #that love isn’t. felt. not really. it’s always been about unspoken pain hè projects onto everyone else without respecting your boundaries #and I just can’t do it anymore and this time I set a firm hard no and his temper tantrum led to my mum choosing him over me EVEN THOUGH #THEY ARE LITERALLY DIVORCED?????????? #‘amber hes crying it’s heartbreaking you’re coming’ #yeah well I was also crying at WORK by myself where it is of the UTMOST importance to me they don’t know about any of this #but no no this whole grown man who is in a fucked situation with his family OF HIS OWN UNDOING is who we’re choosing instead of your child #I went! I put on my big girl pants and went and said hi to his family and was more than civil and celebrated with the kids #but it cost me so much. and for the first time ever I saw exactly how much it really cost me #I spent three whole days trying to set a boundary and stand up for myself only for it to be discarded because my No doesn’t matter ever #then I was so stressed i broke my own body in an attempt trying to be civil like my entire cheek is swollen from biting it I literally #haven’t been able to eat properly since Tuesday. my stomach hurts. my headache hasn’t gone. and I am so so so tired I fell asleep at 7pm #and I’ve been white as a sheet everyone at work could tell something was wrong but they didn’t know What exactly #and just. the contact with this man. I can’t keep doing it not when it does /this/ to me #I can’t even properly explain what it’s like or what happens. just that I can’t do it anymore because it’s tearing me apart and it actively #holds me back? I spent the past four years in therapy talking about and trying to fix everything he instilled in me but is holding me back #in my life. in my relationships. in my work. in the way I look at /myself/ #I can’t keep surviving I have to start living #and it’s ALWAYS worse around the holidays. the worst fights and nights of my life have been during the holidays #I am thirty years old and I was suddenly a fifteen year old this week who desperately needed help but wasn’t getting it #and I refuse to live like that ever again. I’m done. I’m done! #and it’s deeply sad and upsetting but we can’t fix this. we just can’t.