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therhythmafterthesummer · 9 months

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Since I am the biggest safe haven Stan alive i reread the whole thing and I don’t know if it’s placebo but somehow it’s better than before even tho it already was the best fic ever before you edited it!

awww, plssss.

i don't think it's placebo, i think this version is objectively much MUCH better than the first one. i reworked practically every sentence and imo it just flows so much better now.

i'm really really happy you enjoyed this 💜 and thank you for telling me, it truly means the world to me.

#i also added a couple of small interactions here and there as a treat #truly a much better story now #i hope i never get the urge to rework it again LMAO #it took so much time and energy... i'm drained skjdhfsdkjf #but it was so worth it #so again... thank you for sharing your thoughts on this new version with me (:#anon #ask #safe haven my beloved

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babisawyer · 1 year

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Jackie realizing she’s gonna have to take care of shauna and jeff’s ghost baby

#🐇#yellowjackets #truly it’s so interesting to me how much better this season is than the first that literally never happens for me #the current timeline is finally getting interesting. Jeff is still the best part #love how fast misty took to being a cult that is so her™️#Jackie liking poppies is interesting to me both in the Jackie is gay camp and also you know the whole thing with wizard oz and her death #the ending was so fucking depressing I need a nap now #like I’m so happy they didn’t eat the baby that would have been so incredibly cheap but glad to finally have answers #like do we think shauna was dreaming or had she temporarily crossed over because like where was Jackie and the French dude #I’d say it would make sense that Lottie could be there somehow #idk it reminded me a lot of Jackie’s death of course so I have many questions #I will say the cop story line is pretty stupid like no fucking way is any of this legal and also let’s kill that creep cop shauna #I will help you girl I will drive the get away car #I was also like wondering awhile ago if Lottie’a camp is near where the plane crash was #and my best friend and I were like no there’s no way and then they tell us it’s in New York so like possibly close to the boarder?#I tried looking up cherry hill but I couldn’t find anything idk it’s probably totally unlikely and they just also happen to be in the woods #I didn’t get a preview for next week is there a preview? idk #my complaint this week is where is Jackie lmfao where is her ghost why wasn’t she in sex ed give me something I’m not ready to move on!!!!

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torgawl · 5 months

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i think what hits most about nobara's backstory is everything that's left unsaid and peaks from between the lines. it's the fact you can easily infer that something was wrong without ever having clear answers on what exactly was wrong. but if you can relate to the feeling of wanting to escape a place and the alienation from everyone around you, especially when you're brought up in small communities, then you can certainly understand, if not fully then partially, nobara herself and the struggles she might have had to face all by herself for a very long time; maybe even the importance fumi and saori had in her life and the pain from having to part from them; and, perhaps the selectiveness in letting people in that she later on develops as well.

#the way her story is told from fumi's point of view is quite interesting #nobara's backstory is like a silent whisper without a lot of obvious context and told from someone else's perspective #someone who until the end never really understood her fully despite their obvious close bond #someone who we weren't even aware was part of her life #and nobara's peak emotional moment and the last person she thinks as her life is in danger is her and the promise she didn't accomplish #a promise to reunite with the friends that shaped her and her life #ah.#i find her last line so... powerful?#she definitely struggled growing up and the only two people she kept in her heart from her life before jujutsu were people that #moved to where she lived. saori didn't even stay in that place for long. and then she moves somewhere new and she meets people #and a group that actually feels like home a community where she fits in and suddenly they kind of break through making place in her heart #just for everything to come to a halt. to turn to shit. for her to see that shatter away little by little. and in the end she's put in a #position where she knows she will not be able to hold on to what she cares for the most. that she will hurt people that truly cared for her #for not being able to go back to fumi and rekindle the friendship with saori and for being forced to be another punch in the guts for yuuji #and everyone else that up until that point were forced to go through losses already and traumatic events #and she decides to encourage yuuji to go on a good note and she truly believes the people she met made it worth it #even if it was for a brief moment in her life #i am not being coherent right now but it pains me :')#she deserved so much better #and i will hang on tightly to the line saying that she had a small chance of survival until the end #because she deserves it she deserves to live 😭#i'm taking her from that stupid anime and putting her in a slice of life anime watch me #yuuji too. and everyone else. i'm taking the kaisen out of the jujutsu and you can't stop me #jjk spoilers #nobara kugisaki #jujutsu kaisen #jjk 💭#my post

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ginaporterr · 1 year

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would it be enough if i could never give you peace?

RINA SECRET SANTA 2022 (part three) ❄ happy holidays @laylakeating 💜

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caeslxys · 2 years

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actually I'm gonna make one more post because I am insufferable and also just full of Thoughts that I cannot keep contained but I think the biggest difference between molly and laudna's deaths is that the bells hells all care about each other, at this point.

which is not to say that the mighty nein did not, but rather that to that point I don't believe any of them had really allowed for that care to be loud and known. the mighty nein is made up of characters who were all rejected from the world and who met each other when they were all in a place of beginning to reject the world back (with the caveat of perhaps jester, their throughline heart and soul). it's a massive part of what makes their acceptance and love of each other so moving and believable. the mighty nein did not instantly love and trust one another, they started with what they all knew best—varying levels of rejection and mistrust.

bells hells though. they are not made up of those same rejected, mistrusting people. this is actually the first campaign—to my immediate knowledge—that every character was introduced as a part of a long established pair or trio (with the exception of chetney, whose age and experience make him somewhat of an outlier in this comparison altogether). laudna and imogen have known each other for two and a half years, FCG and Ashton a handful of months, and there's a whole spin-off series for orym, fearne, and dorian.

which is to say, even the characters with histories drenched in rejection (imogen, laudna, ashton, FCG) have found and have been with someone who has, at least somewhat, already affected and changed their view of the world. so when they meet, it's not a bunch of assholes who have learned not to trust anyone and who are still carrying that with them when they meet people, who allow their world to be colored by it. it's a bunch of assholes who have already learned that that is definitively not true.

(which is not to say that there are no secrets kept, that there is no tension or inter-party conflict to be had. but is maybe to say that bells hells is made up of much more internal, pvp-style powder kegs than external, developmental powder kegs a la the mighty nein)

it is because of this difference, because it is not nearly so hard for the hells to latch to each other, because they are not nearly so sharp, that these deaths will serve wildly different purposes for these parties.

the hells already care about each other. loudly.

(i would go so far as to say a big part of this story may actually end up being this: people who love, loudly and deeply and irrevocably and immediately, who maybe don't know how to balance it. who while already having been through the process of forgetting and then learning to love again at all, have not learned how to love at a distance. a handful of people incapable of loving in part, even when it's painful)

laudna's death did not teach them anything they didn't already know. their enemies are powerful. the stakes seem impossible. they love each other. they love each other.

laudna's death was this: a group of assholes remember that the world is cruel, and unjust, and unkind. remember that loving and losing go hand-in-hand. the purpose of laudna's death is this: remember that love is worth it regardless. remember that it is worth fighting tooth and nail to bring back.

molly's death was this: a group of assholes refuse and refuse and refuse to care, until they must. until it is unavoidable. until it is threatened. until it is taken. the purpose of molly's death was this: to force the mighty nein to say it. they love each other. they love each other.

and I think that's very important to remember when talking about these two groups and their approach to character death.

#critical role #mollymauk tealeaf #laudna #bells hells #the mighty nein #is this too much #I can't stop thinking there's smoke coming out of my ears bc of how much I love the hells and the nein and their Differences #this is also very deeply why I hope laudna is resurrected. it truly just think it fits this story so much better #WOOF anyway. Now I sleep. I have Gotten It Out Of My System. For Today At Least #I will probably insert a read more later bc this got so out of hand but I am on Mobile atm so. apologies #thoughts

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sortanonymous · 2 months

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I've watched and adored Encanto, Wolfwalkers, Across the Spider-Verse, Puss in Boots: The Last Wish, and Guillermo del Toro's Pinocchio. All absolutely incredible animated films that I'm sure will be held up as classics even 20 years from now.

With that said, Nimona is frankly a good step above all of them and my choice for animated film of the decade so far (at least for what I've heard of). An absolutely stellar film on every level. Do yourself a favor and watch it all on YouTube these next few days!

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Does it stand a chance at the Oscars? Absolutely not, especially since even the Annies were dominated by Spider-Man. But it would absolutely deserve to. (And again, I adore Spider-Verse and still think it's 100% worthy of the Oscar on its own. It's basically the reverse of the Puss in Boots vs. Pinocchio situation last year. They're both masterpieces, only this time the slightly better masterpiece is almost certainly gonna get left in the cold.)

#nimona #nimona movie #oscars 2024 #i'm not exactly gonna pretend nothing good came out of disney last year #maybe elemental and especially guardians 3 are good #but holy crap the fact that this film they left to rot with blue sky came back to mop the floor with them?#that truly is the ultimate nail in the coffin!#that and you know the draconian capitalist stuff but that's a different story #rip blue sky #now i can no longer call ice age: the meltdown my favorite blue sky movie that i've seen #sorry 4-year-old (and honestly current) me :(#you know this decade's been a rough one for animation in so many ways even in regards to the movies #(though they may be the least of the problems now)#but man has this decade already given us some classics from both the big and small studios #i'm sorry i haven't said much on the movie but i don't even know what to say because it's so amazing #go watch it right now #now just hoping it comes to blu-ray because i have all five of those other movies on blu-ray #and the only one not in 4k being wolfwalkers simply because it doesn't have a 4k (tho at least also having two more movies)#(one of said movies (song of the sea) actually being better than wolfwalkers but that's a different story; cartoon saloon rocks)#Youtube

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orchideae · 5 months

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When I approach Yelan (or anyone else I've written), I don't just look directly at her character, but I also look at her surroundings. Both the ones that she knows by some semblance of necessity, but also those that she chooses. Like here, I talked about the Chasm, and what being 'okay' with existing down there needs to mean for a character, because it's not normal. Someone's surroundings, room, or home say a lot bout who they are and what their mindset, or specifically, their perspective is of the world. And sometimes, I think it says more about people than even the characters realize.

This brings me to the topic of the city of Fontaine. Now, I personally think it's rather obvious that a lot of the nation takes from historical France, and so when looking at it, I think it really adds to remember its monarchy, the view that the 'common folk' had of it, and its inevitable demise to non-existence today in terms of importance as a result. So my first question is, who constructed or decided on its layout? Was it Furina, Neuvillette, Egeria? Whoever it was, there's a lot that can be said about their view of the world and their placement in it when you look at locations of buildings. Look at where Palais Mermonia, its governing body, is located within the city; it sits at a rather astounding elevation in comparison to, well, everything and everyone else in the city. This frequently represents the concept of 'distance' between groups in one way or another, and seeing the consistency in other nations, this is something that is rather intriguing to me, especially keeping Fontaine's characters in mind (and considering this is the nation of 'justice'). Mondstadt has everything almost entirely uniform, with arguably the church on the highest level (but it isn't greatly elevated in comparison to all else), but it's joined with the plaza and statue which are a common gathering site for all people in the city. Liyue had the gods and adepti visibly living among the humans back in the days of the Guili Assembly for reasons of 'integration' (my apologies to numerous from our dear Guizhong!) The fact that numerous adepti now live far outside of the harbor is a different matter entirely, and the one who seems to function within a semblance of separation of sorts is Ningguang with the Jade Chamber (but I'm not one to speak on behalf of her character as I don't bear the knowledge). Inazuma also has the Tenshukaku at a higher elevation in comparison to the rest of Inazuma City. Sumeru is interesting, but ultimately Nahida was kept at the very peak of the city, far out of reach of humanity— but that's exactly the common denominator that has my interest, the distance between the 'governing body' and humanity for one reason or another.

But Fontaine really takes separation to a different level in my opinion (and again, think of this when you think of the person having designed the whole city), not only because of the above which I'll elaborate more on in a moment, but also its separation from the outside world. Now, this is interesting to think about if you keep in mind that it was perhaps done in eventual protection of the city's inhabitants in terms of the prophecy (which means that this would have been constructed anywhere during or after Egeria's reign), but then why is only Palais Mermonia far above the water's reach? If the walls surrounding the city were ever breached during said prophecy, all its inhabitants are pretty much immediately caught in the flood and would drown, which tells me nothing positive of the city's 'architect' or whoever signed off on the designs. But if not done for the prophecy, then why? Stand in the middle of the Court of Fontaine and really look around you, the only sights you really have of the outside world are the sky, and it's obstructed by a fair bit of the waterways and gardens that hang overhead, which you can only properly enjoy when you take the ages long elevator to the upper level where the palace is located (which, credit due, seems freely accessible to everyone in present-time). But if you don't venture up, how much of the outside world do you get to see? It feels very secluded, very much under lock and key. On some level (and this is one of the many reasons why I think that the Meropide is so excessively important in Fontaine and it's likely why we spent so much time there; it's all to show the ever, ever important contrast and nuance between this 'autonomous nation within Fontaine' and, well, 'Fontaine'), it almost feels like a prison, regardless of how pretty it may look or come across (and despite not 'lacking rights'). And considering how people in the Meropide speak of not always wanting to return back to the 'overworld' following their sentence, I think that there's definitely quite a bit of truth in that. But again, stand there and look around for yourself.

Now to return to the original topic, but keeping the last one in mind as well, look at one other thing that I'm unsure how many have really kept an eye on: the massive effect Palais Mermonia's level has on the rest of the area (inside and outside of its walls). Have you ever walked through the city of Fontaine at any given time of day or night, north to south, east to west, clockwise or counter-clockwise circling through it; have you ever seen how it overshadows an immense part of the streets below it either entirely on its own (which to me signifies a very domineering presence), or together with those outer walls that surround the city? I know how I've spoken thoroughly with people before about how much I enjoy Fontaine and how dark it is in its storytelling, but despite how gorgeous this region with its water- and landscapes are; its city bears quite a heavy weight to me. I don't know who designed it, or ordered it to be constructed in this way, but nothing about the city itself truly, rationally, shows a healthy perspective versus its citizens.

Me: /continues on to ramble in tags because I'm me and I'm a nuisance with always more to say than I know how to coherently put into these posts.

#[ meta. ] the chances are if i open this door; there can be no witnesses left alive. is that a sufficient reason for you?#[ i love how i'm writing a liyue-based character and here i am rambling about fontaine. ]#[ listen my little french heart just ached at this. i've been sitting on it for so long and have been wanting to talk about it. ]#[ but every time i hear 'fontaine is so pretty' -- i agree. i truly do. and the city has become my new 'hub' away from liyue harbor... ]#[ which says a ton in itself. ]#[ so trust me when i say i enjoy it and find it gorgeous. but i don't have any real kind words to spare on who designed it. ]#[ and i don't mean that in an insulting/bad kind of way but more so in the sense of-- whichever god likely designed this-- ]#[ how much worth was placed where; you know? ]#[ this is why i find the gods and all of their differing views so inherently interesting. ]#[ but then i also sit here longer and think more of the meropide. ]#[ and how THAT is supposed to be the prison. hmmmm. and yet /that/ is the place many seem to not want to leave anymore. ]#[ the place that is run and made better by the person whose tragic case was entirely missed and neglected by the authorities. ]#[ ah yes; the meropide. aka meropis-- the retelling (was it a parody? i believe so) of plato's story of atlantis. ]#[ which was sunk by the gods as punishment to its people for leading lives they deigned morally unjust and petty and /greedy/. ]#[ ah yes. the references never end. ]#[ granted we know how the meropide came to be-- so if egeria was in charge of that. chances are she likely was for fontaine as well. ]#[ well-- ]#[ well. ]#[ yep. i have more to say but i'm struggling to find my words-- so here we are for now! ]

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mobius-m-mobius · 6 months

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i just have to say on this Loki Finale day that one of my favorite things about Season 2 has been seeing your reblogs, tag ramblings, and fresh gif sets almost every day. your gifs are GORGEOUS and your takes are always 10000% spot on. thanks for being here and for being such a wonderful and positive content creator !! you’ve made this season experience that much better 💙

Oh my god thank you!?? What a message to log in to after a long day and while still reeling from the finale lol, I'm stunned and a bit heartbroken still (though not as much as expected!) so hope you're coping well too 💖

That means the world because the Loki series and Mobius especially ofc have become such a bright surprise in life and truly the most incredible fandom experience I've ever been part of so being able to contribute and share in it brings nothing but happiness. Same right back at you as well, always love seeing what you have to say about each ep and look forward to your blog on my dash in general 🥰

#tysm again for the kindest ask and sending lots of love!!#we all probably need it right now but truly their story feels as if there's so much left to tell??#whether by their own hand or fanfic which is still better than i thought they'd be left even if i don't agree with everything done #can't wait to delve into it more tomorrow and deal with how surreal this all feels #ask

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veromdraws · 2 years

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Thank you for the journey and for the company, I gonna miss you dearly. ❤️

(NOW AHEM.... Something... really personal and long for me . You can ignore all this if you want.... just focus in the drawing haha)

These two years were really intense for me. I already started 2020 with my mental health a disaster (to keep it simple haha) the beginning of high school... a global pandemic.... well you definitely can see where i am going. In 2020, I ended up driving some friends away. And by the fact i stayed all the time at home bc of the quarantine, I lost contact with a lot of people. Dealing with school, dealing with my family, dealing with the end of my friendships and all those changes together, made me become more and more isolated. In resume, I lived these two years with some depressive episodes and anxiety crisis (wow haha this got heavy quick huh!!)

And then in July of 2020, I saw this silly frog show in my timeline. In 2019, I was already interested in the story but unfortunately, couldn't catch up bc it didn't aired in my country and finding links for it was HARD! But then I discovered s2 was airing and thats when it my love for this show began. I started to see myself more and more in the characters, SPECIALLY THE CALAMITY TRIO, and all their personal journeys were so much like mine that I couldn't help but imagine them going through the same things as me. It helped me feel less lonely and cope with everything. It was my safe space when things where too overwhelming.

Now, in 2022, with life going back to normal, while I was watching the last few episodes of s3, I noticed something.

Things changed. It's my final year in high school, it's the year I begin to do uni applications. A cycle in my life is ending at the same time the show is ending and God, I can't be more grateful for having had this amazing cartoon to help me overcome a little of all this, because while things are not good.... or.. TOTALLY good yet.... things are becoming better!!

Seeing these characters that I related so hard to the point I was anxious about their endings, changing and growning up, made me realized I changed and grew up too!

These characters are moving on with their lives and so am i!!

It's hard to accept when a good thing ends, but I am glad for everything it done for me. I met a lot of amazing people in this fandom that kept me company, my art style developed SUPER fast by how much fanart I made and I gained a lot of followers too!

Anyways I am just rambling now because I am an emotional mess... really. So thank you, amphibia, for everything.

#GOD THIS IS SO GAY AND EMBARRASING NOW ONE LOOKS AT MEEEEEE .#BUT ANYWAYS i am really thankful for accompanying such an amazing show that definitely changed my art style #and truly inspired me A LOT while developing some things of my own ocs #i wish i could have done a more meaningful piece of fanart to show just how much this story means to me #but oh well. i am tired haha with life around me yknow #but its okay i am becoming better and good things will come #i just feel it!!#thanks for the amazing cartoon matt #also i liked the finale guys shut up /lh #my art #amphibia #marcy wu #amphibia marcy #marcy amphibia #anne boonchuy #amphibia anne #anne amphibia #sasha waybright #amphibia sasha #sasha amphibia #calamity trio #the hardest thing #amphibia finale #amphibia fanart #also i already posted this on tt but couldn't post here ..#pls click in the picture tumblr ruined the quality once again!!

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tariah23 · 1 month

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Well, I’m still glad that Gojo was always a character who was growing and learning at least. He’s literally one of my favorite characters of all time now. Like, he’s never been as perfect as how the fans would make him out to be despite canonically being viewed as an absolute nuisance to everyone around him (I don’t think his peers necessarily hate him but a lot of them probably hate to see him coming and the ones who’ve dealt with him long enough to consider him a friend, tolerate him and groan whenever he opens his mouth, too 😭… out of love. He’s extremely childish so there is only sm the other adults around him can take and to an extent, his students. I think the only characters in canon who adore him and their eye’s sparkle whenever he’s around, and being a silly teacher was Yuuji and Miwa (she asked him for his autograph (he’s the most famous sorcerer in the jjk world) and when she was alone, she did a little dance in the empty hallway 🥺…) from what we’ve seen even though the others still care about him, too. They just find him rather annoying, which he most definitely is. And he does it on purpose. He plays too much.)

#I’m also not usually one to get annoyed whenever ppl shit on the things I like #like I’m an adult sorry idc 😵‍💫#but it’s always annoying seeing ppl who know nothing about the story complaining about it #even just as recently with the Gojo being racist shit 😭..#like he’s a really great character despite all of that and even though Gege’s #execution of that could’ve been better or didn’t need to happen at all #because idk what gege was doing even though I do strongly believe that he used a moment like this to showcase Gojo’s ignorance and #that how he’s also human and makes mistakes since if you’re familiar with the series Gojo isn’t really treated like person at all #more like a deity and he doesn’t like that #but he’s never been one to voice his personal feelings and talk about his trauma ever #he gets treated like a god and because of this he’s never felt like he could truly connect with other people #so that’s why he puts on that whole act of being overly friendly/ playing with others and even rude to shut others out because of his #aversion to opening his traumatized self To other ppl like he’s so cool #and when he’s friendly he gives the others just enough of his affection so that he wouldn’t be worried about and not have others pry #but he’s incredibly flawed as well #I feel like gege could’ve showed Gojo being ‘humbled’ some other kind of way over the racism tho 😭. But it’s fine lmfao #I’m still so grateful that he had Gojo actually apologize instead of waving Miguel off like he didn’t matter because like I’ve said before #he literally never apologizes (this is probably the first time that I’ve ever seen gojo apologize to anyone in canon I’m so serious 🗿)#that’s literally not part of him #like he feels regret but he never apologies or shows that he actually cares about what others are expressing to him when they’re upset with #him. like this is crazy. but it shows that he did care about the mistake that he made which I appreciate…. like idk how I would’ve felt #about his character if he showed that he could care less when hurting someone like this🗿…..#I adore him so much sorry sorry for taking about anime I’m just 😭…. ❤️❤️❤️#rambling #I’m glad that everyone is fucking with Miguel now because he is a really interesting character even though we haven’t seen much of him #he’s one of the few ppl who Gojo trusted enough to look after someone who he cared about despite the horrors #because he knew that Miguel would protect yuuta and do right by him #it’s very 😭❤️…

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dutybcrne · 6 days

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Thinking abt Taru fresh out of the Abyss, out with his siblings and spotting a rabbit or small animal. Instincts & habit kicking in ( those seldom lasted long in the Abyss, get it while he can, bring it to share with Master- ), him immediately setting to hunt and kill the creature then proudly bringing it back to his family, all smiles and blood-spattered, and being utterly thrown by the fact that he was not met with mildly disinterested praise, but sheer horror instead-

#hc; tartaglia #blood mention tw #animal death mention tw #//Happens only ONCE #//Bc ONCE was enough to really make him realize he can't HAVE what he had in the Abyss anymore #//In some ways; it's a good thing; he supposes. He now won't have to worry about what & when he'll eat next #//Won't have to worry abt being stalked and ambushed by creatures that would give most anyone nightmares (he sure as hell has them)#//But now; he's just been so Altered from how he used to be #//He's restless; body honed to attack and defend from the monstrous threats he's dealt with all that time #//He's got a battlelust no one could ever hope to match; bc those harrowing experiences truly got to the point of THRILLING him #//He MISSES the way his Master looked after him; being treated so softly is just TOO much now #//Prolly had moments where he just had a total disconnect from his family; just couldn't really bond with them again until after he enliste #//Though I like to think maybe he was able to with his younger sibs; bc they were too young to Get the rammifications of what happened #//Lil Teucer always smiling so bright like the sun; when the others look at him with hopelessness or despair; always asking for stories #//Anthon; always trying to get in his arms; whenever he starts dissociating or makes a face bc the elder family members upset him some way #//Tonia; helping fix him up when he comes home after a brawl; her scolding the only he really listens to; him pledging to be her knight #//Him damn near resigning himself that they might be the only ones who love him after everything (he doesn't realize that's not true)#until he gets enlisted & becomes a Harbinger. His more 'behaved' self in their eyes being palatble enough for things to slowly return to #'normal'; even if they can all tell (save maybe the youngest ones) that something is still Off about him. But it's FINE; all FINE; now #//'Better than before'; they would say #//Which is why he would place SUCH value and favor on a partner that GETS that part of him. Who would ENABLE him rather than restrict #//He wouldn't ask for them too; but he will NOT let them go; EVER; once he realizes

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oatbugs · 1 year

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i think i actually owe my life to sony's noise cancelling headphones like quite literally

#its not just them saving me from sensory meltdowns etc #its that when i was like. at the edge of it. like when i was seriously like yeah death means the discontinuation of this suffering and #i want that. like when i was truly like...Wanting To Die. abt to do it. etc. id listen to one song #loudly . w my headphones. and the detail and emotion etc would sink in . and like id just be lost in sound #and then living was worth it again just to hear another song #im convinced if the music quality was any lower and the noise cancelling was any worse i wouldnt be #left alone with the music in the way i was which means i wouldnt be alive #like music saved my life and im sure it saved a lot of peoples lives but specifically the thing that channeled the music to me ..#its an object but i am thankful to it #those were the xm3s and now i have xm4s which r even better but i literally think of those xm3s every day like truly i miss them #im sorry i lost you :( u got me through so much #i took better care of those headphones than i did of any other possession i have ever owned i think #the only imperfection on them after yrs and yrs was a few holes in the fabric from my cat #deciding to make bread In The Headphones once #i stopped her but she still left her mark 😔 but it added charm and a story to the headphones so its ok

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systemrestart · 27 days

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[WARNING: FLASHING LIGHTS]

:^) Lotus Land Story, Lunatic 1cc, with ReimuA!! This is my second ever Lunatic 1cc

This one's been a long time in the making. LLS was my first Hard 1cc ever, way back in 2010. I felt so sure that a Lunatic 1cc was on the horizon….. but, well. LLS is a bit special when it comes to Lunatics ;;

LLS and MS don't just bump up the difficulty of the patterns/enemies. They also have nearly every enemy shoot tiny, white, aimed bullets at you…… constantly. Including the enemies that come up from the bottom of the screen or that surround you. That, combined with LLS's notorious "choke points" (Stage 4 midboss, Rings of Doom, Yuuka's finale), makes LLS Lunatic a lot more frustrating than it should be ;; But, with the extremely generous extra lives and free bombs, it's (thankfully) still doable!!

I'm not gonna lie, this run was Sloppy. But, I'm really glad I decided to record "just in case", and that I managed to pull out a win in the end :) Maybe someday I'll come back for a cleaner run, or try to clear with Marisa instead, but for now, I'm satisfied.

#remi plays touhou #touhou project #lotus land story #lls #video tag #this one's gettin' the actual tags #i love you LLS. even when you frustrate and punish me sometimes LOL #on my english patched file i managed to get all the way to Yuuka's final attack. so i knew i just had to try again #i know i could do better though. Much better. there were some truly stupid/pointless deaths in this run ;;#but for now...... at least i finally did it :)#(also thank you pc-98s here on tumblr for the transparent Reimu in the thumbnail!! i was Not looking forward to cropping her out myself lol #EDIT: OH YEAH forgot to mention. i DID do a 1cc with Slow Mode not too long ago. hence why there's already a star #next to ReimuA on the character select. but since you cant save your score on Slow Mode i dont count that as a ''true'' 1cc

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magnusmodig · 1 month

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rough childhood headcanon qs / @clxscdeyes / no longer accepting !

╰┈➤ 7 . how old was your muse when they realized they had childhood trauma?

||. one whole "today years old" post!ragnarok and hela's reveal. Except, even then, according to the movie, not really because Thor is still in heavy denial about all of it where Odin is concerned. I've spoken a bit (here) about how Thor adores his family; he idolizes them and views them through blinding rose-colored glasses, (especially when they're deceased) and that is especially true of his circumstances.

So, very often times when the truth clashes with the rose-colored view of them (namely: his father), Thor does one of two things: find a way to justify the words or action with the surrounding context of the time to make it make sense (e.g., well he scolded me harshly because i was talking back), or avoid it altogether. (this is his go-to. no talking about it; thor would rather not right now, so he does not.)

Key example being: he would rather focus on how his father changed his ways, and the Odin that he knew and grew up with was a man who had turned away from pursuing war for war's sake, and was instead one who valued peace and life. He would rather focus on that aspect of Odin, and take in the broader picture of Odin's life. REGARDLESS of the fact that what Thor is deeply, personally affected - not with the realization that Odin changed his ways once upon a time - but by the fact that he lied to him, manipulated him, and controlled and shaped every aspect of his being, for Thor's whole life, JUST to avoid another Hela. Someone who Thor is not, could not be farther from, and never knew about, because Odin (apparently) kept the matter of his true first-born a closely-guarded secret and seemingly would have continued to were it not for Odin's death, Hela's escape, and Ragnarok all coinciding at the same moment in time. And this, all because Thor rationalizes it as "well, I wouldn't want to be remembered and judged based on the person that I used to be. I should extend that same kindness to my father, because he too, changed." (x10 because now Odin is dead. And it's in poor-taste to speak ill of a dead man.)

The problem namely being: Thor only talks about things when Thor decides it's time to talk about things ; when he is ready. ...but as this is a topic that ripple effects down to Thor's core, good luck getting him to open up about it, even just with himself.

#(yknow what sucks most about this is that 2011-2015 thor was on a trajectory where)#(while he still wouldn't talk about a lot of things he wasn't as firmly rooted in /absolute denial/ like he is now >>)#(he would lock up and not talk about his personal feelings but he was still /thinking/ about them)#(- and could grow ready to share his thoughts once he processed through all of it.)#(or at least he would broach the broad concepts while still lightly brushing over 'k but how did it make THOR feel')#(dude would rather choke than talk about his own feelings no support system for thor he's so dumb)#(which is also just so funny because he never /denied/ the fact that he's feeling under the weather either)#(he just... won't elaborate on why he is or how to feel better.)#(but anyways)#(to rationalize the trajectory shift away from 'thor being able to talk about deeply upsetting topics for him even if it's uncomfortable')#(i've decided that so much has happened in such a short amount of time and there's /so/ many things eating at him-)#(-that he's subconsciously decided he's not going to talk much about any of them. because there's just too much.)#(the vibe of 'if i talk about this now i'm going to fall and if i fall i don't know if i can get up again because it's finally too heavy)#(-and i can't afford to fall down bc there's too much at stake outside of me so i just will not take the chance')#(he can if he's ever with someone he truly trusts and he can speak about it NORMALLY if that person pushes him enough)#(because you've always had to needle thor to /actually answer your question/ rather than talk half-way around it)#(//stares at thor 2011 where he never opens up to jane even once not even at the fire-side chat)#(but until then it's big denial mode bc ragnarok messed him up something fierce and i'm not even talking about-)#(-the order of in-universe events that happen in the movie orz)#( ooc . ) — stories that leap from the page .#( answered . ) — black feathers fall to a raven's call .#clxscdeyes #( headcanon . ) — glory to the man who toils for his land . may it ever prosper .

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4giorno · 2 months

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i got the cutscene <3

#its actually crazy that there was even more content i missed that impacted the story this much #like this rlly illustrated how even tho my character and astari0n have both become better people astari0n is still so behind in that #(we know why ofc. hes still acting like a feral cat trying to self preservere with teeth and nail and all until the very end; the ritual)#my character had his most obvious 'shifting point' at the transition from act 2 to act 3 #like he fully realized that this is now truly bigger than himself. he has left marks on the lands and he has to go all the way #he has made true friends. one of his best friends is the kindest most compassionate person in the world #and very importantly he loves astari0n and THAT is the reason he now feels this actual compassion towards the other spawn #hes so personally invested in this issue now #and he can say that 'the world can be a wonderful place if you find your home in it astari0n' bc its something he has just recently had #a personal revelation abt #and astari0n deflects it and describes my character as someone who now 'spends their life sorting out other peoples problems'#and it rlly brings it to focus that he just cannot meet him where hes at anymore #just great conflict that feels actually meaningful and perfectly fits into the roleplay storyline ive made for my character #and omg the line 'im doing this for you too you know. to make sure were both safe. forever' from astari0n is just AAAAAAHDJJDJD. CRAZY #bc we know how toxic he becomes towards you if he completes the ritual!!!!!!#HHHHH this character!!!!! hes just MWAH. perfection #i cant wait until i get to doing the szarr palace again bc this added conflict will make the conclusion of this quest even more satisfying #anyway TOTAL tonal shift time. in start of the cutscene astari0n is standing next to the bed my character was sleeping in #so i can now have the hc that some nights they sleep in the same bed <3 #(WELL. you know. my character sleeps while he meditates)

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silverislander · 4 months

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prof said congrats for writing up a proposal so early i am going to get a good grade in. well this is literally going to be graded. but yk the meme

#i really hope its decent proposals are really hard for me to write. i never really understand how much im supposed to say #also i dont plan stuff in advance! i hate drafts and proposals why cant i just jump in and run w my topic #i dont Know exactly what im going to cover just yet can i get back to you once ive covered it #levi.txt #i spent One page just opening the two page proposal so. i know it needs some cleaning up #but the last time i wrote one of these i only got a 75 (not a bad grade but i could do significantly better) bc. and i am not kidding.#i wrote a several page intro abt the themes of a story i was super pumped to write. and forgot the /plot characters and title/#a 75 was honestly generous. that prof already liked me and knew my work so i got very lucky #also i just think the guy im working with for my essay is so cool and i want to impress him bfhshsk #ive taken 2 classes with him before he is so smart and so enthusiastic. i was 1 of only 3 who was there for every class both times #everyone whos helped me has been so cool and very nice to me i want to do a good job and prove that im as capable as they think #and also jesus fucking christ ive worked so hard for this degree PLEASE #if i dont get honours im walking into the forest laying down and letting the fae take me as they will #side note: i have 1.5 movies left (its late and im finishing army of the dead tomorrow + watching evil dead rise)!! thats so exciting #theyve (mostly) been really fun and i feel like i have a really good general idea of where im going w my essay now #the movie eras are starting to kind of organize themselves into coherent themes in my mind #i think its smth along the lines of racism/xenophobia -> social change -> satanic panic -> action and militarism -> prejudice/bias #and i actually think were in smth of a thematic reckoning w zombies rn as a culture that im excited to discuss!!#for so long weve accepted that zombies arent people but weve really been starting to interrogate that since abt the mid 2010s #w tropes like searching for a cure (not just a vaccine) or movies like warm bodies or evil dead where you can truly turn back #and im really excited to see where the future takes the zombie genre!!

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