#too bad half of them are dead

[ballsfartpee]

I love pathetic men 

#kieran duffy #vergil olney #junkrat #john marston #genji shimada #I love them all so much #too bad half of them are dead #I could rant about all of them for hours man

[angelsdean]

seeing a post that gets some things right (interesting complex john thoughts) but other parts dead wrong (bad dean takes) has me like *eye twitch*

#reducing a complicated plot to dean hates all monsters and thinks every monster needs to be killed is um. first of all not even canon #do i need to bring out all the posts abt dean's monster ethics and how he thinks a monster is someone who hurts / kills innocent ppl #and that definition includes humans who do monstrous things too (a theme explored in multiple episodes in s1 !!!!) #but anyways. no he did not think jack should be killed bc he was ~not human~ he thought jack was a Dangerous supernatural being #since ya know. he Was. literally thee most powerful being after god / amara. and they had no idea what he might do. he was not their Baby #or their Kid yet. he was a stranger. a strange new supernatural being that they might have to stop. #s12 finale literally leaves off on a cliffhanger positioning jack to potentially be the new 'Big Bad' #so he's a stranger AND the son of lucifer (they had no idea how that would affect jack yet) AND he seemingly brainwashed cas and kelly #bc remember cas was all about Free Will and Choice and Fuck Heaven / Paradise / Peace #and then suddenly he's going against his core beliefs talking abt paradise on earth and jack needing to fulfill his Destiny like ??? #i'd be sus af too if i were dean #dean had no reason to trust jack right off the bat. 'oh but he should've trusted him bc cas did' ok and cas is dead now so ?? #then there's the soulless jack stuff which is a whole other complicated beast. and dean was not the only one trying to stop jack then eithe #but anyways. no you cannot reduce dean's complex feelings abt jack to simply 'lol dean hates monsters and wants them all dead' #he doesn't. half his family and friends are literally monsters. anyways. #vic.txt

[yazzydream]

I love that Mei Mei is such an off-putting freak. Even if I don't personally like her, I love that she exists. I love that Gege Akutami is not afraid to fuck up, scar up, and kill off his female characters. I love that they're as strange and eccentric and varied as anyone could be.

He doesn't treat them delicately, or with kid gloves. He treats them with the exact same consideration he does his male characters. As vehicles for the story first-- because that's what they are.

#there's a smaller ratio of women so when bad things happen to them it feels lopsided #but im exasperated by these complaints about gege's supposed misogyny #i think it's weirder y'all take exception to his fantastic storytelling #he's not being UNFAIR #men get just as fucked in his storytelling #it's a fucked story!! #anyway needed to get this off my chest #after seeing one too many complaints #lemme complain back #jjk spoilers #my jjk #jujutsu kaisen #the main character is missing a pinky and half his ear #megumi's fate is as up in the air as nobara #i hope they're both dead #i was actually for sure that they were but fandom keeps making me second guess myself #when they die it's not BECAUSE they're women characters #it's because of what's happening in the world #the first character we think might be a gross pervy roshi or jiraiya type is todo #but it turns out his 'what's your type' question is something he picked up from YUKI #that's hilarious #he's a simp for an idol but so what? #the REAL misogynists and sexists are treated with genuine hatred #the narrative is very clear that they're disgusting and not a Good Thing #idk fandom is exhausting sometimes #sometimes i'll look at one thing and fandom will go off in a wildly different direction #and i'm over here like #did we consume the same media????? #let's try to be more bloggy shall we #jjk meta

[paradisecas]

i think it’s so nice that marie included adam in her little play. i haven’t seen the episode in a hot min so i cant remember if she really believes that sam and dean are sam and dean but it’s really funny to think about her accepting and processing that her favorite characters are actually real people and then remembering them being confused about adam in her play. who’s that, they asked, and she’s like damn! he wasn’t even ignored because the series ended! he was Forgotten forgotten!! au in which marie and some teenagers stage a jailbreak because if sam and dean won’t save their brother, someone has to.

#i very desperately need to be reading for class but instead i am thinking of fan fiction. for some reason. #well because it’s an adam mention and i do hold onto those #in her second half. was adam involved w the aliens. i need to know! #not serious about the au i just think it’s soo funny that they’re trying to prove that the books were written about Them #and they still ask. who’s that. #and she has to be the one to explain that it’s their brother they abandoned to gay marry an archangel in hell #i dont think she believes them #maybe i am serious about the au! #if she accepts that they’re Real People and that maybe dean’s story wasn’t just bad fan fiction shes like i heard NO mention of adam. #THEY FORGOT HIM. and she’s a samgirl so mmaybe she has that soft spot for adam too bc mutual cage trauma or whatever #these theater nerds get into The Supernatural and through the power of friendship and chuck’s negligence they scoop adam and michael #who are like HELLO??? WHAT???? #adam especially #imagine. ur dead ur alive! ur possessed. ur in hell. ur out of hell! some teenage girls saved you? YOURE IN A BOOK?? #i dont think ive seen enough discussions about the spn books and adam finding out about them post cage #mine #in the cage like. it’s my father! it’s my brothers! it’s… a teenage girl?

[keeps-ache]

mm i Neeed to go the beach

#just me hi #wauhuhh ! #something about just drifting around in water that i am slightly scared of that really makes my brain whir happily lol :> #i am slightly scared of it for two major reasons: 1) fish. lord the fish why are they so scary 2) sometimes i think i'll drown and they jus #won't find the body. which is less rational than the fish so that's why fish is my number 1 fear at all times lmao #/i think out of all the animals on the planet i am the most scared of ordinary fish. not even the deep sea stuff hfbshv #cuz look they're so far down there you Have to assume they look funked. and also they prolly don't like human meat. so it's cool #but regular fish?? some of them eat birds. they eat birds dude. what would they do to me if they knew how to use harpoons?? #also they for SURE eat corpses so we loop back to fear no. 2 really just being fear no. 1 hbfhs #/see i'm not even that scared of the animals my parents are determined on exploding. like man if i get eaten that was prolly bound #to happen anyway. i Know how that goes. i know what mauling is lol #i am the only person in this house who will walk around outside on a moonless light w/ no flashlight because if i was sposed to be dead i #can guaranteE there are much better opportunities. funnier ones‚ too #/just looked it up bobcats are SHY little guys. they are just shy babies. except for when they have rabies :) #shy rabies babies <3 #/anyway back to the fish. i don't like how there are some that specifically like to eat human skin. mmm no i have never liked that ever not #one little bit. makes my skin crawl hghfsh #i don't care what it does or can do that is NOT cool lil dude ;w; #/hang on i'm googling 'weirdest things fish eat' because i want to scare myself i guess hbfhvbsf :'3 #they're only showing me weird fish!!! no !! tell me about a fish that's living exclusively off of plastics!! or car tires !! come on !!! #these guys are just funky looking. and just Kinda funky looking. though this humphead guy is funny lol :) #he looks scary but with a charm that i can't deny #his forehead. and mouf. this guy is awesome #and of course he's endangered because the world is exploding. but it's so cool he exists :D #//anyway fish are scary. and miss humphead is Huge so goofiness aside he's also scary hhfbvs #also why do some of those motherfunkers swim close to shore and bite at you. those guys suck so bad #that's only happened to me so many times but enough for me to have a fear that has lasted for over half a decade lmao #//and anywho i'm running out of tag space lol :) #we're going ot the park!! i'm going to skate :DD !! #i wanna get good at my old stuff again hfsh - so bye! bye !! toodles !!!

[eye-of-yelough]

everyone shut up i found. the perfect band for aeryn/gortae songs.

#it’s genitorturers by the way #tried listening to a few hypersexual playlists and. goddamn. the songs on those playlists suck #it’s All tiktok songs. which doesn’t make them Bad Songs but like. #bo burnham? lemon demon? half of the songs aren’t even sex related. #keep thinking maybe i’m being too harsh i’m not hypersexual myself sometimes people just put songs on playlists because Vibes #and i get that. BUT ART IS DEAD BY BO BURNHAM⁉️ #ok im done. #your daily dose of idiocy #oc aeryn #aeryn and gortash

[guideaus]

right up until the end, this anime is like they are buddy daddies, lmao

#personal #its so wild like they had to put that line in. yeah these two have been living together for years and raised a child. ew no dont get close #for a pic and u were w a woman yesterday?!? #anyways this was an anime. it was cute but also weird but i feel like its not deep enough to talk abt #the writing for the serious parts were bad tho. one scene i was reminded of an exact thing tr!stamp did right away #and half the women were dead wives/mothers. i was surprised they didnt kill of the daycare lady too somehow lol #sxf is weird abt women. buddy daddies kills them off to be sad abt. buddy daddies is the non nuclear family version of sxf yet they dont #wanna say gay #anywaysss

[reunioninn]

bro some ppl are fucking wild tell me why i argued with a guy who refuses to admit that hes bad at fighting games while continuously blaming the game for his lack of skill. "they should add a block button" are you fucking stupid

or rather, he DOES admit that hes bad, but he still blames the game for the areas he personally struggles with and tries to call the fighters "bad" bc he personally doesnt know how to fight them

respectfully, but also disrespectfully, skill issue. if you know you dont understand and you refuse to practice/learn, you dont get to complain that the game is bad because you dont know how to play it. you can just stop. uninstall. leave. this isnt the game for you.

#bramble rambles #also this guy would ping the matchmaking role but would gatekeep people from playing with him if they mained a character he didnt like #dead serious hed be asking people who they main and if he didnt like it hed be like 'sorry i dont want to play with you' #he deadass ruled out like half of strives roster this way #and so everyone was like. no we dont want to play with YOU because you refuse to play with us #also he admit to purposely picking characters that were too hard to understand for him #so we were like 'ok just pick someone easy' #>refuses to play any of the 'easy' characters #like. theres nothing else i can say except Skill Issue #its not our fault or the games fault that youre a whiny pissbaby who hates losing #another thing he admit to. he hates the characters bc he loses to them. thats literally why #bro tried to say 'sol hits too hard' have you considered blocking? oh wait. #he announced that he blocked me and called me a prick bc i said Skill Issue to him #like what else could i say while you were throwing your tantrum about how much you hate strive bc youre bad at it #just stop playing. leave.

[8bit-mau5]

after 12 days I've finally opened tumblr on the new laptop and i have no idea how to use the New XKit extension anymore

Edit: I remember now but UGH I don’t wanna redo all my settings on the xkit rewritten rrrrgh

#8bit beeps #HI GUYS. IVE SPENT THE PAST 12 DAYS DEALING W/FILES AND LAPTOP ISSUES (prev one) AND THATS WHY #I HAVE BEEN DEAD SILENT FOR SO LONG #well. that and the holidays #but honestly? it was mostly the act of. spending 5 - 9 hours daily exporting every single one of my CSP brushes #individually. right click. save. etc. organizing a folder for it and everything #did you know. it took my prev laptop over 72 consecutive hours backing up my CSP assets to clip's cloud feature #and even then. i couldnt even upload half of my assets cos #after almost 8 yrs of using CSP it had over 11k assets to back up #so right now im FINALLY able to download CSP on the new badboy At All #and am currently restoring said files to here #god. it was such a fucking process. it still IS such a goddamn process #its almost 8am but my face hurts So Bad (just took excedrin tho) and cannot let myself even try to sleep until the pain's subsided #god. i missed being active here. i was super dead throughout december and i think. november too #if you made it this far in the tags feel free to drop a fantroll reference and ill doodle them while i wait for these files to upload

[timeisacephalopod]

I watched this two hour long vid on cannibalism in media and I gotta say it was so refreshing to watch 2 hours of content that at no point whines about """"problematic"""" aspects of media like anyone watches CANNIBALISM on screen and decides to EAT PEOPLE about it and then got treated to a bunch of OTHER taboo subjects being brought up in a thoughtful, media analysis way that was interesting and beautifully written and delivered. They've got some stuff on Lolita that I think would be worth the watch because I won't get a 2 hour lecture on how fucking 12 year olds is bad as if the writer of the novel didn't know that and wrote that guy as a fucked up nasty on purpose and it's not the books fault creeps decided it was a romance because they've got piss poor reading comprehension, or movie comprehension, or idea comprehension depending on what Lolita media they got into or even just heard about.

I gotta say after years of "if you READ INCEST you want to FUCK YOUR SISTER" on Tumblr it was a delight for the creator to skip that bullshit and get into what incest in media REPRESENTS. Also no accusations of "glorifying" anything when the definition of that for those that use that term is "depicts X Bad Thing in Any Way I Don't Like (which is EVERY way)." Finally some good fucking media analysis that doesn't try and hand me a lecture about how Murder Is Bad as if people kill people because they watched it on TV one time and it totally altered their entire morality system because that's how these types think "problematic" shit in media works because they're sad little babies who need moral lessons spelled out for them like media for 6 years olds since adults obviously can't be trusted to think Bad Things in media ARE in fact not good.

#winters ramblings #call me by your name cropped up and i was like if i hear ONE MORE THING about that problematic age gap ill LOSE IT #its not that i disagree but for fucks sakes can you at least analyze the ACTUAL movie and not your thoughts in the characters ages please #and the amount of horror stuff that came up i half expected a lecture on that too and didnt get one like THANK you #we ALL know cannibal Holocaust is an awful racist movie witH ACTUAL animal death but do we seriously need a lecture on “glorifying” death #or murder or whatever the fuck because thats what that movie CLAIMS to criticize by doing the exact shit theyre criticizing #but ACTUALLY killing those animals not fake killing them like normal movies but still horror doesnt glorify murder for fucks sake #and if youre so BRAIN DEAD you cant watch a movie about fucked up subjects without shrieking about Bad Things then #do us ALL a favor and stick with steven universe from what i watched it was good and its for kids so youll get all the moral lessons #you desire. then go watch other kids media if you cant be fucking trusted to read about cannibalism or incest or murder or whatever #without IMMEDIATELY being concerned you or someone else will Do The Bad Movie or TV or Book Things because people dont have brains i guess #you just pour Hannibal in there and now were all professional chefs eating people who were rude to us thats how media works I guess

[welcometoteyvat]

i queued. so many posts. dead

but it's quite funny to go through my likes and see how my fanwork dynamic preferences have changed

#ie i liked xing/yun stuff from ages ago lmao and i have to click open the posts bc its now in my blocked tags DKFSJKF #saw a 'father son dynamic' x and zl fic buried in there too... and surprisingly x/v which i also have blocked now #honestly it's so bad fandom ruined like half the dynamics i was fine/neutral with because theyre fucking goddamn everywhere #ramblings! #the other thing i noticed is that i feel like either genshin fandom is actually dead compared to like 2 yrs ago or people have just moved o #onto new favs and like consolidated into the more popular dynamics #ie i can't find x and ht art anywhere anymore unless it's the ship vers #which im fine with but yk its funny how a lot of random fuckass platonic (or romantic tbh!) pairings just dropped off the face of the earth #scrolled more and found x/kzha posts like i haven't seen them EVER AGAIN after like 2022... #scrolled more and wow i was a zv believer from the beginning that's very real of past me #scrolled more. i kinda forgot abt cy/bennett tbh lol i was kinda crazy abt them for a while lol theyre still quite cute in the hs crush way

[florenceisfalling]

like idk. i miss seeing content from s.igne (though i respect gab wholeheartedly). i miss fanart from my favorite artists. i miss older eras of j.se at times (and yes, there were older eras, the way people pretended he Never Changed is just weird). i miss old anti designs. i miss the old fic trends. i miss having a very active fandom (though i am so happy to see the new arrivals) and i miss seeing him interact with fans the way he did on tumblr back in the day. i miss the way i used to interact with some of the blogs here before i decided to fuckin,,, wage holy war and make enemies out of them (joking, but i have seen sides to some of these people that i wish i could tear out of my memory). i miss feeling confident that i could trust the good intentions of people here and even the big man himself (not god. that makes sean sound like god. you know what i mean). i miss when some of you weren't so fucking bitter which is funny because i'm the bitterest bitch alive. idk. i don't think it's bad to miss any of these things because i'm not going to be an ass and act like it's anybody's fault. i'm not going to be bothered by gab for being happy because i'm glad she is happy, and i'm not going to get bothered by sean taking a reasonable step back from this hellsite when people were cruel to him, and i'm not going to get mad at trends for changing because that is how time works. but i do miss things and i know its cringe and parasocial and perhaps even problematic but i hate having to pretend like i never have Any feelings about the past lest i break a hypothetical rule of what is the Normal level of attachment to an online community. okay. i think i'm done now.

#one of my favorite writers left because they couldn't deal anymore and one of my favorite writers turned out to have shit views and one of #my favorite writers left because of something that was partly my fault and one of my favorite writers stopped writing because of two of the #others and one of my favorite writers hurt someone i love over and over and over and one of my favorite writers left because they were the #someone i love. two of the big names hate queer folk that don't align with their ideals and half the artists left for twitter or for dead. #the man himself left because criticism always becomes cruelty and people lie to make themselves feel good. #the editors all turned their accounts private and my favorite told me on livestream that i was good and starting somewhere but then forgot #my name. and i thought maybe i was the bitter one but then i look at some of the other people who have been here so long and wonder why #they even bother anymore because they care more about complaining with everything j.ack does than anyone who actually enjoys his stuff. #and you know i poked fun at *** for a lot of things. some deserved some not. and one of them was the fact that she compared fandom #to warfare. and yes that's still silly i don't think it's a fair comparison but i do know that she wasn't fully wrong. #when you've been here for a long time and ive Been here for a long time you start to get really used to names and faces #and the change can be like waking up to a new wallpaper in your room. not a bad one just a new one. #i don't want to pretend that this fandom is just a silly little hobby for me when lets be honest i know some of yalls personal lives a #little too dearly for that. ive loved people here ive lost people here the first person who showed me this place fucking DIED and i still #lose it sometimes over the fact that he would have loved jameson so much and we couldve been closer friends had he stayed alive a few more #years. so yeah. sorry for being fucking cringy or whatever but there have been times where i've felt like im on a sinking ship watching #everybody else row away and i refuse to go. so like. cool. cool. im glad things are good again but i never really got to process the bad #things.

[variousqueerthings]

obsessively detailed DNIs and lack of good faith reading of strangers' words and discussing the rights to exclude xyz for being too weird for your (public) space and this person reblogged a post from a person who follows a person who follows a person who's suspect and righteous anger over any and every misstep of performance and waiting to catch people out and complete lack of trust and...

are you guys... happy?

do you have people around you that form a community? people who aren't carbon copies of yourself or online yes men? do you know people who aren't your age/gender/race/ethnicity/body/brain/don't have the same financial background, educational story, etc?

not all of these all at once all at the same time, but do you go outside your head, is what I mean?

do you remember that other people are people? have you had the opportunity to train yourself to have grace for the fact that everyone has faults and blindspots and perspectives that come from a life led differently, and that to hear and take in those differences make you richer, more understanding, less shut off?

are you able to discuss things while understanding that there is a middle ground? do you think anger and despair are the only emotions worth accessing in order to be a "good" person?

do you have people around you that aren't like you?

are you happy?

#happy pride #idk im preaching to the choir here im sure #but over the last year ive been trying to follow people in communities that i am a part of and/or want to support #and it seems like they're 1. online all the time 2. angry in ways that lead nowhere 3. quite young? #and im thinking back to me 10 years ago and i was SO angry and so isolated and so terrified of other people #and it wasnt as bad to be online then as it is now in terms of You Have To Prove Yourself Worthy And Flagellate Constantly #ive had to unfollow practically every one of those blogs and not because i dont feel warm towards the people who run them #but it's not activism and it's not good for you #also i have looked at exactly 2 dnis out of interest and i understood like... half the words/abbreviations #they're really not a useful tool and they don't appear to be for anyone but a small crowd who understand them anyway? #and even then i think they're more for people who understand and DO agree than those who don't who Will Not Care #anyway..... wheres that post about *this pride get out of your head* yes! #also idk if this needs to be said but im not saying *talk to a violent extremist who wants you dead today* #(and if you believe that then see the bit about *lack of good faith reading*) #also tbh i did one time reach out to someone and go *hey this post is deeeeply dogwhistly* but tbh that was more about like #*i think ace people are gonna look at that post and literally read it as hate it's that surface level #and you probably don't want that reaction* #but checking back and back and back on post origins idk... i think we're using dogwhistles a little too liberally sometimes

[magnoliamyrrh]

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#...... i think too its not just that im bony #its all the new cuts too #...this is the first time after uhhh. round 2 of taking things way too far that ive seen myself. alone. naked. in a coldly lit changing #room #like #fuck #we really did a number on this body #ive been joking for a long time that i look like an okapi or a zebra but like... damn #idk they dont bother me. they never have #im not grosses out by them or even ashamed nor do i even think theyre ugly honestly. but #along with all the bones i just had this feeling of like. oh lol this aint normal. again like..... I looked like A Creature #which on one hand kinda sick bc slightly nonhuman looking half dead but still beautiful but kinda scary creature is exactly what i was #going for in my teen years. and w the meds ive achieved it with 0 severe anorexic stress or obsession or even feeling hunger basically at #all. just empty #but im...older now #and. yea idk if that's really the standard i have anymore #.......what i see now is just. wear. i see my pain and trauma and my souls repeted death. in the way this flesh looks #..... i think back then i used to get a lot more enjoyment out of having a physical representation of how bad im doing psychologically #but i just. dont enjoy my own pain and suffering that much anymore lmao. even i managed to get fed up with the masochism past a certain #point #..... and i think its also that. while im definitely not great (i did spend the last weeks to months posting on here abt how i wanna die #every day lmao) ive also been A LOT worse #all the scars are from... a lot worse. all the bones - i usually only saw them like this when i was a lot worse #..... its almost like idk. looking at it (me) with more sober eyes #.....i hate how tired i look too #i really need to quit smokiny #that shits doing me worse than the not eating or the cutting or any other damn thing

[samwisefamgee]

how does this week keep getting worse wtf

#this is. so fucking unbearable #the tinnitus makes me want to blow my fucking brains out i dont know why it got so much violently worse so fast #but i guess its like this forever now! and it only gets worse! #i thought id be able to deal with it but if it gets this much worse at this rate im so fuxking dead lol this is insanity #i cant take it on top of everything everything EVERYTHING else if god wants me dead this fucking bad she'll get it #life hasnt been worth it for 12 fucking years it CERTAINLY isnt worth it now that im blinder balder in more.pain and.crazier than ever #and the tinnitus makes the screaming in my head eternal #girl theres no point it just hurts to be alive #i cant pay to fix a single one of my problems and ill need tens of thousands of dollars to even kind of fix all of them #i never got to start my life #i never will. not as the person i was. or ever wanted to be. or even close. ive physically and mentally lost too much to do what id planned #and now i cant even live in peace normally even if i were able to 'fix' everything so much of this is permanent and degenerative #spent 24 years giving everything to my family and they returned the favor by leaving me in a rotting box to die and i let it work lol #only took abouy a year and a half too #my dad's family killed off their mentally ill youngest of six WAY faster than it took em to get to me so i guess they got rusty #anyway i love when the all consuming despair comes back im gonna go cry for a bit and hopefully fall back to sleep

[asterdeer]

fourteen and a half prompts in and im sick of writing fanfic. i am going to make a big mess of original fiction in the back half of this challenge and no one can stop me

#writing this current one is like pulling teeth one by one #yanking words in twos and threes every five minutes #it’s not just today either it’s been two and a half days and it’s too much effort to start over #i don’t even think it’s BAD it’s just very very difficult to work on for some reason #anyway my actual brain children are getting abandonment complexes if they don’t already have them #so maybe I will actually do some oc prompts. as a treat. #people who take fanfic breaks to relax from their original fiction projects are WILD to me are you okay???? #you have complete creative control over something and no one to judge if your chars are ooc or your lore is inconsistent #because you are the very much not dead author you ARE the word of god #and you relax by. by. confining yourself to someone else’s rules ????? #WILD I like fanfic but it is sooooo much more of a job than original fiction #like the stress of fanfic…………… unheard of