#to changing ur identity

[devotedlystrangewizard]

my progression from "why are all the boys getting taller than me i hate this" to "big man in my arms pretty please" is absolutely baffling i hate it

#i was the tallest of my group And Then I Wasn't #i hated it so much #thought it was so unfair #im by no means SHORT but yk. i wasnt the tallest anymore #i still hate looking up at people btw thats why the big strong man has to be in my arms #sorry i am yearning a little. judt a little. shoutout to xiv for finally letting me notice the pattern btw #i should have REALIZED when shaxx was my main destiny crush for well over a year but. i didnt. so. #i mean i thought i didnt like men for like. 3 years but thats NOT THE POINT #me age 15 wondering why the big buff man with the iconic helmet and booming voice made me Very Happy #'its the helmet if i cant see a face theyre attractive' oh honey #fair's fair the idea of actually dating a boy is still eh to me but thats just me being aromantic #'if you had any advice for your younger se-' dont tell anyone ur a lesbian bc ur not and cishetallos are Very Opposed #to changing ur identity #my mom still thinks i like girls i havent told her #lol!!! #anyway

[milk-ducts]

[Brief] Thoughts on Film Theory's Analysis

I was gonna post this on my priv twt.. but moots convinced me to post it here so here we are.. beware of spoilers, gore, bla bla bla ..

FIRST OFF I'm gonna start by saying, I AM ESL. I may or may not have misinterpreted some of his words, but this is mainly how I thought of his analysis. This is not meant to be ill-guided or rude ! so sorry if it comes off as this way. I will be very repetitive.

Another thing, most if not all of the information matpat gave out i alr discussed with a few mutuals on discord about a few months back so this is not new territory to me 😭😭 I thought most folks would already knew the concept of how the brain deteriorates overtime But honestly, that indisposition shouldn’t even apply to omni man??? matpat tried to compare an immortal Viltrumite's psychology to that of an aging human's, which can be misguided.

Let's start by how he compares Nolan's brain to the average aging human's brain so the audience could understand his psyche more and how empathy declines overtime. First and foremost, Nolan is not a human, second; Nolan wasn't raised with empathy or around an empathetic environment - it was an alien concept to his race. Something frowned upon. He was raised from birth to conquer and destroy without remorse. His brain never developed those neural pathways for empathy in the first place. It's not that they deteriorated over time, they were never even formed.

By the time he came to Earth, all this familial stuff was new to him. Sure, he knew he was gonna outlive them, but He didn't think he'd get attached. HE didn't process that he'd grieve over them when the time came.

Interacting with humanity for the first time ignited unfamiliar emotions in Nolan that he didn’t know how to process.

His time living amongst humans caused conflicting feelings he’d never experienced in his centuries of systematic slaughter. Loving Debbie and Mark went against everything he was taught, but he couldn't help it. For once, the lives he was manipulating to further Viltrum’s goals meant something to him. He developed a [what he presumed, NOT what he felt about them in reality, his love for them is far more profound than he assumed it to be which we later on see in the last ep of s1 and the second season] petty facsimile of love for his ersatz family.

So no, his capacity for empathy didn't decline with age as MatPat claims. His empathy was stunted from the start. An underdeveloped skill, not a deteriorated one. We had characters like Debbie to help him understand those notions, help him grow it. With Mark in the mix? it only amplified that development.

Viltrumites are societally and culturally predisposed to violence and domination. Nolan was never accustomed to forming emotional connections or grieving loss. Those were entirely new experiences for him after arriving on Earth. He was not jaded. he was grown into jamais vu in viltrum.

This is why the whole conflict in s1 happened, he was treading between double lives he wasn't sure of. He was conflicted because his past values were refuting with his new experiences. He found love on Earth, he found himself unable to accept how he'd lose Debbie. Of How jaded Mark might become. Everything he said to Mark till that point was his own self-projections, his own fears, doubts.

While the video did provide some interesting facts about neuroscience and aging, the application of those facts to Nolan's character was inaccurate. IT is educational for those who don't know, but it isn't recent news that the brain begins to deteriorate overtime so this video wasn't that informative which kinda disappointed me. Their analysis lacked alot of information about the Viltrumite race and Nolan's character. Comparing him to humans with normal life experiences just doesn't work. His immortal nature combined with a lack of empathy from birth created a psychology unlike anything seen on Earth.

SORRY FOR RANTING ALOT AND OR IF IT SEEMS LIKE I'M GIVING MATPAT SHIT ... i really liked their analysis on immortal so i'll give them that. Immortal, unlike Nolan, was born human. He has lived among humanity for over 3000 years, inhabiting different identities of public and devoted historians. Because of this, his psyche developed quite differently. Immortal knows how to form connections, experience loss, and adapt to social changes. His perpetual existence didn't harden his heart like Viltrum's brutal culture did to Nolan. Instead, Immortal's immortality allowed his empathy and compassion to blossom.

Humans are social creatures. Our brains have evolved to seek out interpersonal relationships, crave affection, and find meaning in community. For an immortal like Immortal, social interaction is vital to staving off boredom, depression and detachment from humanity.

By inhabiting mortal lives, he stays tethered to the human experience. He continues learning, growing, and developing empathy.

This is why he's devastated when the guardians die.

This is also why he goes fucking mental and tries to kill Omni-man.

If Immortal had lived in isolation all this time, unable to connect with people, his psyche would likely resemble Nolan's more closely. Without social interaction, Immortal's brain would atrophy in ways that preclude complex emotions and moral reasoning. His sense of purpose would fade, achievements would lose meaning, and life itself might feel pointless. By engaging with humanity, Immortal gives his endless existence purpose and direction. He finds value in each temporary life, so loss still impacts him deeply. Socializing keeps his emotions and cognition flexible, which prevents the apathy and hardness of heart seen in Nolan. Nolan never had these opportunities in his early years, this is why it's more difficult for him to stray away from his indoctrination. It's that he's unused to it, underdeveloped.

60 years to Nolan would've been a year and a half, so what's 20 measly years on Earth for him? Yes, he found profound connections in that little speck of time, but Immortal's emotional capacity is far more extensive.

In summary, Comparing Nolan to a human, whether mortal or immortal, is kinda inaccurate. His Viltrumite psyche rules out him from possessing JADED human qualities. You could say he's desensitized to violence sure, but no.. unfortunately.. he does not have [boomer] brain. He has [indoctrinated alien-fascist brain]

Leave your own thoughts down below or through reblogs, I'm really interested on what others may think of this! (URGHHHNN... my hcs r slipping away from my fingers cuz now people r gonna accept what matpat says as truth.. someone gun me down from the hills..)

#ALSO my moots and I had all analyzed this vid and ironically enuff Matpat's analysis makes a hell of a lot more sense when applied to my OC #Aconite !! rather than her father nolan but i will discuss that in a separate post because ykno.. #this may or may not have been the worst take in existence.. i am prepared to be called a dumbass.. (i am not. i am sensitive..) #it is so jover for me.. i will need to change identities.. #invincible #omni man #mark grayson #omni man invincible #milky.txt #milkyrants #milkyrambles #invincible spoilers #nolan grayson #immortal invincible #ur honor omni man is cluster b coded and has ASD.. #IDGAFFFFF !!!!! *i scream aloud in my padded white room rocking back and forth in a straitjacket* #i think alot of people tend to forget nolan is an alien . so let me quickly remind you .! HE IS AN ALIEN.

[johncho]

these are the same scenes. to me

#better call saul #succcession #succession spoilers #screencaps #long post #im supposed to make a big deal about my dead [family figure whose support you've always wanted] at my #[significant event that would irrevocably change the course of ur career and thus ur emotional well-being bc you’ve tied your #self worth and identity to this one thing your family figure was good at and never thought you’d ever become?] how is that sincere

[strawberrybabydog]

one thing i really appreciate about having an identity based in psychosis is that i have unshakeable confidence about my identity and do not seek external validation whatsoever

you agree, im a dog? i know already. you disagree? you're the stupid one here. "shout out to --" sshhhhpt... be quiet... i literally dont care what you think because im a dog and that is a fact of my life. i have better doggy things to do than read the rest of ur note farm but thx [starts daydreaming about getting my rabies vaccine] ahhh ☺️ ..

nothing i or anyone else could ever say or do is going to affect my identity or how my identity interacts with the world because it's sort of its own Thing which controls itself, i guess. thats so cool

#by it controls itself i just mean like #when ur delusional theres not really any space to have an opinion on ur delusions #its a fact of your life. like idk. do nonpsychotics have discourse about the sky being blue? no. its just There #what psychosis i live in is totally up to my brain so. my identity only changes if my brain wants to #maybe thats something interesting and different about psychotic/unstable altHs: #our identities have a bigger capacity to Change (because psychosis changes) or be temporary #idk why i never thought about it that hard cuz thats literally why endel is defined the way it is #endelity covers temporary identity too. why didnt i ever write about this grrrr #woof #alterhuman #personal #endel

[starburstsobsessions]

#this is a wild one! #I tried to compile the most like viable/age and time #most of these have died out though or changed a lot so #BUT #when I and most of this website were kids these were huge #personally mine was #yugioh #pokemon #beyblade #and I kinda liked some of the other but eh #and before ANYBODY says anything obv I mean just. being raised as a girl #society deeming you one and thus telling you “you can't play with that what” #I might make a girl version #you know how it is #regardless of ur current identity!!!! #poll #polls #2000s #toys #bakugan #ninjago #lego #bionicle #guitar hero #nerf #gender #youth #kids #nostalgia

[michaelnotholden]

Sorry if this is a bit personal, you don’t have to answer !

But how did you tell your mum you’re aroace? Or have you not told her?

Because I wanna tell my parents soon I think and I don’t really know how to…lol. I could really use some advice.

:)

Well I came out to her as pan over text and she was supportive and rlly didn’t care so 😭 after that she found out I was aroace as I was telling my psychiatrist about it. (She was in the room with us) ive kinda explained it to her since then but i don’t think she rlly grasps the meaning of it and i rlly don’t know what’s her opinion on it.

I honestly don’t know how to help you.. but in my opinion coming out is so overrated and useless to me. Especially if ur aroace bc plenty of ppl are single for a long time and im assuming ur a teen like me so.. its rlly not that big of a deal🤷‍♀️

#i don’t rlly care what she thinks #and she doesn’t care what I am so #ofc i understand the want to tell her bc it’s a big part of urself but #if it’s gonna end up wrong I wouldn’t say anything until ur older #plus ur identity can change like mine did so you’ll have to come out more than once #aroace #coming out #lgbtq #aromantic #asexual

[marimbles]

the agony of enjoying MULTIPLE THINGS AT ONCE. How do people do it….

#part of me is like. ok is it actually the best move to just have separate sideblogs for every interest #cause I always feel weird and insecure abt being a multifandom blog. For some reason #I’m like aaa I’ll annoy people if I post things they’re not interested in! :( they’ll be disappointed in or frustrated in me! #and then the evil (read:normal) Kermit side of me is like girl it’s not that serious #you are not important enough for ppl to be worked up about your blogging habits lmao #if they’re annoyed they unfollow. swell. neato. #u can trust people to curate their own online experience. It’s not your job to post what they want you just do what you want. on ur own blog #do u follow #Sméagol me: yes ma’am #(I mentally switched to gollum instead of Kermit btw) #gollum me: it’s normal to like more than one thing. good even. and you will go through phases anyway #that’s life silly. You’ll have different moods at different times. and maybe completely different interests in the future #are you gonna make a new blog every time you enjoy something. #your interest are fluid but your identity is rooted in something beyond them. Right #you can just be a person who’s always changing but is also essentially the same. that’s humanity hun. do you understand #Sméagol me: yes #gollum: good #Sméagol: but also what if it’s hard to be friends with someone who has 3–4 interests #gollum: good grief

[craycraybluejay]

are we gonna have to start making fake IDs in the opposite direction (posing as younger rather than older) to get data protections afforded to minors in some countries?????? because actually the state of the internet not only using all your data as it pleases but actively stealing your creative work is abysmal. ok google i am now eternally a teenager STOP TOUCHING MY DATA !!!

#fuck the internet #fuck ai everything #i have only ever heard of fake IDs adjusting age upward for more independence or to change ur identity #but now i think as this ai monster tries to eat everything we're going to have to #either have a professional clean all our data off the net and never touch a computer again and go back to typewriters and paper and pen #or get fake IDs and a bunch of complicated programs trying to protect users from the inevitavle death of the internet #i wonder if i posted fic written with paper and pen as images if ai could datascrape the given text? #i think for the time being i'm going to start trying to move my work to more secure means and maybe organize a protest #is 'stop bludgeoning the internet to death with your robots' a good slogan? #or something simple like 'theft isn't art. you cannot replace us' #idk comment ur thoughts #in truth if i thought i could have a viable career without online advertising right off the bat i'd swear off the internet #but as it stands the quickest way to network and gain clients and recognition is by advertising and being a real person online #i wish i could hire some online security expert or other to protect me :/

[lameow-l]

so wait… furina is the name of the archon role that “furina” had to play

wouldn’t make more sense narrative wise to give her a name of her own?? like scara gets his own epic chapter about him ridding himself of his past and adopting a new name then proceed to ignore said name in favor of “hat guy” but the actress playing “furina” doesn’t get to be known for her own name?

like people of fontain (partly maybe) know the truth so why not let her free? let her enjoy the simple human life she so so longed for? even the other furina wouldn’t want this

#i think her story is a better use of the (give character name) mechanic that wasn’t really needed in scara’s arc imo #like yeah it’s cool and all but we literally saw him throw the actual physical manifestation of his past into the fucking void!!! #i personally think it was kind of wasted on him on top of me thinking that idea was entirely stupid to begin with and hyv keeps proving tha #no one actually refers to him as wanderer or by the name they choose online.. its just scara #thats both bad marketing and confusing burying the character away from new players #and like the amount of shit u have to go through as a new player just to name ur weird huge hat angry little dude is just.. #but imagine how impactful such a mechanic would be for ‘furina’ who spent all her live acting a role she wasn’t #at the end of all that agony do u think she could endure hearing people call her by that name?? #unlike scara she did that for the people every moment of those 500 years knowing that the fate of every person is mere a breakdown away #there was nothing in that for her or for a reward she thought deserved.. just suffering on her own #it just makes more sense for her to want a different name a different identity that has nothing to do with that role #and again i think that mechanic is stupid anyway but if it had to happen i’d loved it more with ‘furina’ #or idk give her like a clueless friend she gets to meet that keeps calling her a different name for reasons and her liking the name or smth #maybe give her a different role she gets to play.. or have neuvillette give her a name #same with scara i think it would have been a lot better if he went by a name he choose when all his previous names were chosen for him #i dont see how the entirety of genshin writers and devs agreed to this mechanic being implemented honestly #like traveler is literally there waiting for a single soul to address them by their actual name (the one we choose) but every time it’s jus #traveler traveler.. even their most beloved companion calls them traveler #like that alone should've changed the writers minds bc such a name would 1. either not ever be used or replaced by a nickname #2. the hell devs had to go through to not allow certain phrases and names and 3. the hell both teams will suffer should they add a new char #tl;dr stupid dumb mechanic but they should still give furina a new name #genshin impact #furina #fontaine archon quest #scaramouche

[yonpote]

This is a really interesting discussion to me personally. (Also, this has nothing to do with dnp anymore, just wanted to share my experience.) I identified as a lesbian for a very long time and I dated my childhood best friend for a good few years until he moved abroad. When we were dating, he identified as a lesbian. After our break-up, he came out to me as a trans man. (We are still good friends) So while him coming out didn't have any impact on our relationship since we were broken up, it got me thinking. I asked myself if I would have broken up with him if he had come out as trans sooner. I thought about it a lot. And the answer is no. Because, he was and is still the same person. Long story short, this made me realize I am actually bi. But anyway, I really don't think Phil would break up with Dan if hypothetically, Dan came out as trans and Phil didn't. Dan coming out as trans doesn't erase the years they have spent together and their companionship. I felt the same way about my friend. (Not trying to compare my bond with my friend with dnp's relationship btw, I could never since well, we're broken up first of all, lol and idk, dnp just have sth special.)

yeah for sure! and of course your experience and your identity is your own forever and i hope what im saying doesnt sound like dismissal of your identity because it will always be yours!!!

i think (imo. hypothetical.) phil wouldn't necessarily start iding as bi if dan were a trans woman. but maybe he would idk! i have a friend who is a gay man who is married to a trans woman but considers himself a gay man, because he is still gay, it's just that she is the exception. and ofc she is also okay with that being the case. whether or not that's semantically correct doesn't really matter yknow? it's more about lived experience and how queer people are viewed in society rather than the particulars of definitions.

#again! i hope it doesnt sound like im dismissing your identity!!! #more just like. identity is kind of a mishy mashy messy thing and it can change whenever and sometimes words dont line up perfectly #but still speak to our hearts #so its abt finding the words that speak to ur heart i think

[chihirolovebot]

How would you feel if you got the “I wish you were a boy” text from the girl you like

ummmmm i would simply block and move on

#genuinely like im not a boy and ur probably not important enough to change any part of my identity for #so . #theres that . #dear venus.

[iztopher]

on that note. a week or two ago i swapped out some info in my about to list my gender as genderqueer as a super low stakes way of feeling it out lol

ive spent pretty much my whole life w/ my gender on a sliding scale from "agender" to "gnc cis girl" and while i definitely still feel more connected to the former than the latter rn i like. really appreciate genderqueer as a term that captures every stage of that

#dear mel #i know its okay to change ur identity but i kind of am tired of feeling like i need a new way to describe my gender every year and a half #i like having a word that feels like its described me at every point in the last fifteen years & will for the forseeable future #if i wanna get more specific and granular at any point in time well i can do that too #and i also feel like the idea of queering gender is like. central to how i relate to it #how else do i describe feeling overall genderless but also such bitter disappointment at the idea of my gnc traits being explained away #as oh im not Really a Girl TM which is why i dont want these things girls want #like no. even if i was a cis woman i would not want to be a mother or a wife and i would want to dress masc and present masc/androgynous #which is i think why i have such issues w applying the idea of dysphoria to myself? #because for me its so much more complicated than (x) trait is associated with (y) gender im assumed to be and am not #and i know dysphoria is more complicated than that too but thats often how i see conceptualized and i dont want it applied that way to me y

[hopeinthebox]

textsfrombangtan -> hopeinthebox

new url, same clown. stream j-hope's solo album Jack In The Box if you get the chance. sound of the century

#(!) containment breach (!) #i'm not saying you have to interact. just that it would be v sexy of you if you did #experienced a prophetic vision and saved this url before the merch release #so i viewed that as a sign from Jung Hoseok himself that it had to be done #timeline's a bit off because how do you people change url's without feeling like ur going through a divorce #anyway i figured i needed an identity change after those texts from tae à paris #speaking of which #texts from last night: jack in the box listening party edition - coming soon #<3

[aesopsbaby]

HELLO IDV FANDOM, HOW WE FEELING ABOUT S25 Essence 3

NORTON MMFMFMFM NORTON!!

#AesopeChats #Identity V #NORTON #BRO NORTONGJF #NORTOYN #but holy shit is he ugly #still love him but please. change ur hair bro

[camptw1nk]

you guys dont understand. when this revamp is done. im gonna be so active

#i say this. i dont actually intend on moving kurt at this moment in time like. 'revamp' and its me just redoing his carrd and graphics #im mostly talking abt he multi revamps when my multi and my pearl ridge blogs r revamped u will see. i will be insane #i fuckin better be do you guys know how absolutely awful it is to make a carrd w identical info pages for over 30 muses #do you realize how much of a bitch it is to have to copy two or three containers into every muses page #carrd is the bane of my existence but unfortunately fits my aesthetic desires better than anything easier #anyway i should just write here #i do wanna. i wanna clear out my drafts and inbox do a sort of soft refresh here but also. no i dont #those are my emotional support 242 unanswered asks #if i delete them what will i write on a rainy day (i do not write them now why would that ever change) #i look at them and go 'oh thats too old to reply to' and move on #staring lovingly at the valentines 2023 ask in my inbox. allie babygirl i love u im sorry kurt never returned ur affections that year #or this year #he did mentally i stare at those asks and desire to reply every day

[the-silli3st-girl-in-the-world]

theres this wlw couple on tiktok thats getting dragged to the 9th layer of hell and back again cause they're in a poly relationship with a man, i was like 🤷🏿‍♀️ abt it cause its their life and if they're happily in a relationship then that is ok, but like the twitter lesbians abhor them greatly.

#entry.txt #like ur acting like they did something heinous or smth #or were harasses they had an identity change over time #ppl discover themselves over and over and ur just gonna have to be mad #like im sorry you couldnt live vicariously through two girls on the internet