#those last 3 are just wild

[reefer-keifer]

okay…Guitarist Hand Measurements!!

so i feel like i need to say that obviously these are not 100% accurate, but from just basic knowledge of male hand size and also perusing some guitarist forums on the topic, i can at least say that these are quite likely.

any additional information about the process can be found here

*also a small note is that even though i included width, it’s not very accurate since most are not stretched to full capacity.

now with that out of the way…

Joe Satriani

L: 7.5”/19cm

W: 8”/20.5cm

Eddie Van Halen

L: 7.7”/19.6cm

W: 8”/20.5cm

Jimmy Page

L: 7.5”/19cm

W: 7.9”/20cm

Slash

L: 7.7”/19.6cm

W: 7”/18cm *

Zakk Wylde

L: 7.5”/19cm

W: 8.4”/21.3cm

Yngwie Malmsteen

L: 8”/20.5cm

W (left): 9”/23cm

W (right): 8.3”/21cm

Steve Vai

L: 8.5”/21.6cm

W: 9”/23cm

also a bonus for me because this one took a lot more work

John Sykes

L: 8.25”/21cm

his middle finger, from knuckle to end alone is 4.5”

#those last 3 are just wild #and in case you’re wondering no i don’t have a life 😂 #also yngwie’s pinkie just sticks straight out on the left side hence the L vs R thing #joe satriani #eddie van halen #jimmy page #slash #zakk wylde #yngwie malmsteen #steve vai #john sykes

[feroluce]

So I'm well aware this is probably a case of "it isn't that deep" but I love looking at all the fiddly little accessories and bits and bobs of Hoyo designs and trying to justify them. Sampo's is particularly funny, because. What even is all that dkkxjdkd

His outfit has so many straps wrapped around him, like they're restraining or holding something in to keep it from bursting at the seams, and not all of them look like they're even connected to anything! But I'd like to think they are useful in certain situations, like if Sampo takes a hit out in the Fragmentum from one of the monsters.

He's hurt, his arm is bleeding, but he is ALMOST done, he just needs a couple more things to fulfill his quota to Natasha and he doesn't want to turn around and go back now. So Sampo frees a strap from his shirt, winds it around his arm above the cut, pulls it tight with his free hand and his teeth. He'll treat it properly in a minute, once he's done scavenging.

There's also the strange chains that resemble snake spines. Given how they're way longer in his splash art and the way they wind around-

I'd like to think they can extend somehow, and Sampo can use them to scale heights. Firefly clocks him as a covert fighter without even being within 20 feet of him, so it would make sense for Sampo to have ways to get around that don't involve usual/obvious methods, like stairs. Think assassin skill sets.

He's also the only one known to be able to get between the Underground and the overworld, and while he's pretty tight-lipped about his method, having some sort of device to help traverse vertical heights is probably insanely helpful there.

And the little metal ornaments across the backs of his wrists! You can see it a bit better in his reference sheet (everyone say thanks @/dragaliareferencearchive!) as opposed to his splash art-

they aren't flat, they stick up a bit off his arms. And so I wonder if Gepard has ever gone to arrest Sampo, and found that they interfere with his handcuffs haha

The ornaments don't match, the one on his right wrist is actually shorter and doesn't extend down to the back of his hand. Which probably doesn't make it nearly as annoying for handcuffs as the left one, but it would make sense for Sampo to have them like that, since he seems to be right-handed! I think a certain proficiency in being ambidextrous is necessary to dual wield daggers like he does, but. Sampo uses his right hand to

hold his blade in his splash art

throw his blade in his skill

play/show off with his dagger in his idle

lob smoke bombs in his technique

cross over his heart when he bows

and to flip his bangs during the cutscene where he saves the trailblazers from Bronya

So a shorter guard on his right hand would help him keep his wrist's flexibility to be able to do all that unimpeded (loving the thought now that Sampo is naturally right-handed and still better with it, but he practiced constantly with his left until he could do things passably ambidextrous).

I also love them because I wonder if they're in the perfect place to help block a hit, along with the chain wrapped around his left forearm.

Like I love the image of a hired killer soundlessly sneaking up behind Sampo in some shady dark alley, knife sloooooowly raising, and then all at once, they strike!

And instead of feeling the blade sink into his back, they get the unpleasant resonating of metal-on-metal shivering up their arm and rattling their bones, because Sampo has turned around at the last second and raised his crossed his arms to let the knife glance off the guards on his wrists.

And the mercenary is left to realize that oh, they are fucked.

#sampo koski #hsr sampo #hsr sampo koski #hsr #honkai star rail #now that I think about it is there literally ANYTHING in canon that says Gepard carries handcuffs or do we all just need to be bonked skzjm #things I lay awake thinking about at 3 AM ☆ #I would actually love to see Sampo use those guards to block a blow from Gepard because hhhhhh #gepo fight scene! gepo fight scene! #Gepard trying to bring Sampo down only to get held off at the last second #adrenaline pumping breath quick faces close together eyes wild and bright breathing right in each other's space #ahem #anyway #but I can't see them like REALLY fighting because Sampo mostly just commits fraud and theft and I don't think Gepard would resort to- #-violence over that. Geppie is a good boy he probably wouldn't get violent with Sampo unless Sampo was putting other people in danger. #looking at his splash art this closely also gave me a really funny revelation which I'll maybe post tomorrow #Sampo is such a little shit I love him NSMKDNDMD

[sluttylittlewaste]

Even if Kristen needed to hear what Tracker said, harassing the girl you dumped MONTHS AGO to see if she'll be okay with you posting your new girlfriend is wild energy???? And then to blow up because she wasn't what? Excited to endorse your cool new girlfriend reveal?? Not, let's be clear, that Kristen said no. In fact she distinctly reminded Tracker that this shit wasn't even necessary. She admitted that she wasn't in the headspace to be happy about it but it ultimately wasn't about her. It's the most mature thing Kristen has said potentially EVER.

Like, I cannot for the life of me figure out how Kristen saying "Hey, do what you want, it's truly not my business or main concern right now" in any way segued into Tracker listing off a bunch of Kristen's flaws and mistakes.

"Kristen needs some tough love!" Maybe not from a person who hasn't even been in the loop for the last several months? Maybe not from her ex who called for completely unrelated, selfish reasons?

#tracker o'shaughnessey #to be clear #i didn't care all that much for Tracker when they were together either #but i also didn't care about Kristen all that much last season so 🤷🏽 #HOW AND EVER #the take of “well Kristen has been avoiding all her responsibilities and thats why Tracker is so mad and deserved to say those things”?? #Tracker dumped her and promptly left the city #Kristen spent the last 3 months SAVING THE WORLD AGAIN #Maybe she didn't want to talk to the girl who broke her heart??? #i will never understand the idea that you have to be fucking besties with your ex and just go back to talking to them #and i know they talked about it in the AP but that conversation left me actively hostile #I know thematically these season is all about fairness and unfairness #and this wild delusion that the things the Bad Kids do are in any way easy #but it was such an unfair conversation to watch #You could tell Kristen was trying really hard to be chill and honest and mature #d20 fhjy #fhjy #let me die #rant #if i die #dimension 20 #thoughts #kristen applebees

[gibbearish]

btw its interesting the way james tries to imply that like. well the videos that have plagiarism are the ones our dumb stupid annoying patrons requested about bad topics that didnt deserve to have the effort put in to covering them well so basically its fine. like obv thats interesting on its own but moreso the fact that he doesnt actually /say/ it, or like. give a list of the videos hes referring to, just says "those videos are very clear on which ones they were" i think as a nod meaning like "yknow the ones everyones talking about". unless what hes meaning is that like they put a note in certain videos saying "this video was requested by a patron, we here at james somertom incorporated do not espouse these views" which seems unlikely to me. idk methinks maybe it's because there is indeed a lot more than people think and with all the buzz he's not sure which ones have been discovered yet or not, so putting down a solid list that missed some would look like he was still hiding things whereas putting down a fully sourced list would be admitting to wayyyy more than anyone's found yet

#which is ironic too bc if he genuinely did want to prove he understood what he did wrong and that hed changed thatd be the way to do it #yknow like a full list of every single source including ones no one has found on their own or /can/ find anymore would a) be taking full #responsibility and b) make people less likely to always be like 'youre still hiding something' #which in turn makes me super think hes still hiding a lot of somethings #also cant go without stating that the 'request a video topic' thing was only for $100/month patrons after 3 months on that tier #like fucker these people gave you THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS AT LEAST and youre trying to blame it on them?????? #no one forced you to make 'let patrons pick video topics' a reward dude like. hello???????? #shit dude even hbombs highest tier ($10 for anyone wondering bc he doesnt see his audience as a money machine lmao) #just says you can vote in polls about future topics #like that makes complete sense to me as a version of this‚ the most dedicated audience members get a say in the future of the #channel while the creator still gets overall control of the direction #also 'patrons who gave me fuckloads of money asked me to make videos on topics i didnt like so i plagiarized those' is i think uhhh #worse than just 'i plagiarize everything without remorse' frankly? #like at least with the second youre just a general shitbag but the first where youre a shitbag specifically to the people #majorly financially supporting you rather than just like. be an adult and say 'hm i dont feel like that topic really works for the channel‚ #do you have any other ideas?' #or dare i say even perhaps yknow. doing what other youtubers do in similar situations and find ways to tie that subject #to what they usually talk about is just. wild #course that last one would take actual creativity and aint that just the crux of the issue #james somerton #or i say cannot go without stating i should say cannot go without restating kwnrkabdkwbrn

[fisheito]

slithering out from under a rock or something to inform you that you DO have followers who are yaku lovers <3 he's been my fave since day one and i would love to accompany him to the farmers market

ah.. i sit corrected... valuable confirmation of intel. *enters it manually into the nucadex* where to find yakufans: farmer's market (they will be farming and/or marketing)

#i also am likely to be found in such an environment #i will be talking to the mushroom people for 20 minutes #my non-browsey friends in the background lingering like bored toddlers for the first 3 mins #until i start gesturing wildly about logs. then they give up and start wandering #oh no they got started on the logs this ain't wrapping up any time soon #that last post definitely brought out more yakufans than i've seen around these parts!! #like the rain brings out the worms (～￣︶￣)～ #hello everyone. thank u for visiting. make sure to grab a soil bag on ur way out (it is moist and finely textured) #gently scooping the wild yakufans back into their habitat so they may resume stealthy slithering #i'm gonna start joking about nucadex collecting now #u raise an eyebrow at me. i sigh. i know i knooooow #just because ppl share similar interests does not mean they are similar creatures #individual differences stronger than group differences yadayada yes we understand this implicitly #and i do so enjoy having a diverse biome of fans around me. FOR EXAMPLE: #YOINKS the wolfboy fans by the scruff of their necks #u can't do this to yakufans. but these guys??! built of sturdier stuff. #uses one of those long distance ball throwers to launch them across the field (they are chuckling mildly mid-flight) #BUT FOR THE JOKES 🙌👌👌 FIND YOUR LOCAL YAKUFAN AT THE PLACE THEY SELL FRESH FRUTAS #asks

[famewolf]

speaking of ocd, I think I'm realizing that I truly don't have anxiety and it's literally just my ocd. im not anxious about anything until it involves me and suddenly I'm spiraling

#[static] #it's hard to describe succinctly but the anxiety I deal with nowadays is directly related to my ocd and autism #some anxiety is so easy to brush off but the ones stemming from my ocd are extremely difficult to get out from under #i'll spiral for weeks about one specific thing and ruminate on it and mentally worry and pick at it forever #it's utterly exhausting jfkdghdf some days are easier than others #and often that one thing I ruminate on becomes multiple things all stemming from the first thing #like recently it's been my car ... the thing is totally fine ... runs fine drives fine but ive been freaked out by it for the last 3 weeks #every time i go into the shop theyre like ... everything is good in fact its in good condition for its age and they'll mention like #one thing that will need to be replaced to keep it in tip top condition and then my brain will fixate on it and imagine all the ways #something horrific will happen if that doesnt get changed and then that leads to all the other things in the car suddenly freaking me out #i defs used to have general anxiety and depression but those went away literally the day i got top surgery #poof instantly gone it was wild and i kept waiting for the other shoe to drop #never did but now my ocd has been really bad the last 6 months cuz of all the extra horrifying things going on #so i thought it was just my anxiety coming back but this week i realized it was my ocd and have been treating it accordingly #and ive seen some relief but i definitely need to go back to therapy once i get my insurance again #its the only way to get a hold on it and my last therapist ended up moving states so we didnt get to work on tools for it very much #im yapping at this point i just needed to vent for a second about how truly yucky ocd makes me feel

[pendraegon]

why is pete wentz important to me?? like him, i was a non white kid who grew up in a very white neighborhood in the chicagoland area and it was exhausting and isolating and so so so lonely it could make your teeth hurt. like him, i’m bipolar and no one has ever quite gotten close to describing what my highs and lows are like, but he’s the only one who has gotten close. (do you know what it's like being so so so manic and you know you're not okay and everything rushes around you and you feel like you're on top of the world but you know it's all a lie? an illusion? do you know what it feels like to plummet down so so so so deep and dark and there's nothing but you and that gaping ache inside of you, reminding you just how hollow and fake you are?) like him, i grew up enthralled and obsessed with rock, punk, the hardcore scene of chicago, and there was nothing and no one there for people like me and people who looked like me in a place and sound that i loved more than anything on earth. i saw him reflected in me and in the most non creepy parasocial way possible, he has been one of the most incredible influences of my life. maybe even one of the possible sunshines of my lifetime for all he is still a stranger to me, and i to him.

#for legal reasons as a joke — we’re also both bi. #but he means the WORLD to me. forever and always. #do NOT try to come at me with pete wentz slander i will kill you. sorry for not shutting up about this. im just incredibly annoyed. #he's not infallible. he's made so many mistakes in his life. and im not excusing any of them but you know #i wonder why pete gets SO much virulent hate and always has. might be the racism and ableism. but who knows. not me! #anyways stream mania by american rock band fall out boy (2018). legit life changing fucking album. also stream #their newest album so much (for) stardust. actually stream all their albums they're all so so so so good. i don't know who i'd be or where #i'd be without em. fall out boy forever and ever<3 fall out boy is for lovers<3 #also one last thing: you don't need to like him! you don't need to like fob either! it's just so so so wild the way misinfo about pete #specifically still exists. in fucking 2023. like get a fucking grip babes i was deep in those fucking forums in 2008 i know what's up. #okay. i hope you guys are ready im going to spam patrick images i think. what can i say. i miss them without a concert to look forward to.

[sysig]

Okay actually, the OG Just Desserts style was onto something (Patreon)

#Doodles #Villainsona #Just Desserts #And also ft. the last little bit of the WOY style attempts #They were what convinced me to look at the original style doodles! Looking for poses #I started just by going back to the early TVAU doodles to give one more proper fair shake to those rejected outfits #Wouldn't you know it they're still rejected lol but! The wings are still very good #And the poses are silly lol #She is always real cute tho <3 #It does feel funny going back to her early doodles and trying to style-match - my style was much looser at the time #Which is part of why her hair looks so good - those swirls are wild! It's very cool! But it's hard to replicate now :0 #You can kinda see it in how hard and dark the lines are in her hair - before it'd basically be a scribble nest haha #Both have their aesthetic placement I just hrmm #I miss it a bit #There's something almost uncanny about trying to go back now - sizing maybe? Proportions? I'm not sure #She was always meant to have that chibi proportion big head and simplified body so maybe it's her neck being so visible that's throwing me?? #I do like the small collar tho! It's gotten a little out of control lately haha ♪ Save that for alt outfits! #The weird shape of her hairline was a bit contributor to her overall hair shape as well - lots of little details! It's neat #That crying one has gotten two redraws now haha ironically not to actually ''improve'' just to dissect what's Up lol #I am happier with this one compared to the first redraw tho :D Her feet and ankles especially they actually make shape-sense! #And I have to admit the big flowery-bubble looking tops of her shoes it's very cute and the larger bonbons - proportions! Who knew lol #Her spinning the Staff was always one of my favourites hehe ♪ Confident and cheeky little Charm #Good for her

[wyllsravengard]

my life is so cyclical. i find a hobby. i write self insert fanfiction for it. the cycle continues. how long? who knows. until i die perhaps!

#my goodness... #before that it was bandom self insert which is also still in the world and some have hundreds of notes. MEGA CRINGE so i just dont look #but good lord i have been participating actively in fandom as a writer for QUITE some time #like specifically as a tumblr self insert writer this place is my asylum #whats like genuinely wild to me was that i used to have mutuals and followers in all of those eras. the writing was so ass like fkdjhgjkdff #i follow my friend from bandom days on insta lol she does graphic design and i love her #I FOLLOW MULTIPLE PEOPLE OF THAT ERA ACTUALLY ? #i know this is fairly common but idk in my head ive only been active in fandom for like 2/3 years. not. however long this was. #like a lot of writers have Years of Experience in fandom esp on here its part of the diagnosis for many LMAO #i think its just my adhd time blindness thing that continuously makes it shocking for me. i didnt know i was alive that long #i literally gained consciousness maybe last year

[archive2394934]

trying to make henry homophobic when hes been abused and oppressed his entire life for being noticeably “different” (Which you know, you could actually read as being metaphorical to someone who is openly queer but what does my gay ass know lol) and that is literally the reason hes trying to fight to change the world so people like him who are “different” dont have to suffer under social constructs & systematic oppression, partic if you also hc him as queer, are still and will always be the worst takes on this character and in this fandom and I cant believe I keep having to see them in real time. 

#henry creel #vecna #001 #peter ballard #being a villain doesnt mean hes homophobic #media has a long and documented history of instead portraying the gay people AS the villains not the homophobes #that honor usually goes to the heroes :^) #bc u know thats society! #but really #u can also have mike or will get vecna'd & have vecna point out their internalized homphobia without VECNA being homophobic #wild concept but its so possible & so easy #actually i dont think either of them have internalized homophobia what wills got is gay kid in the 80s & knowing #if he was open about it he would be literally hate crimed #and mike has if he is queer at all just u know not knowing it lol #none of that is homophobia internalized or otherwise #those are not things 'vecna' would use against them so to speak #signed your resident gay man who is also a vecna fan & suffering every day from these god awful and actually homophobic takes #like if u got the internalized homophobia ok im sorry but project it onto a character #who doesnt represent the abuse suffered by people who are openly 'different' & thus 'wrong' in the eyes of the shitty #oppressive & abusive society we live in that hasnt actually got that much better over the last 3 decades #like idk b*lly & jason are right there ?? #why is it always peek homophobia in the name of shipping with you people we've been dealing with this since the 'yaoi' age smh #from this point on every time i see this shit im complaining about it #fuck that #I don’t want to apologise for Vecna’s murders – I’m not sorry

[needylittlegirl]

now i have not ever been in labor before but i genuinely think im experiencing pains at the same or very close level which is crazy

#mytxt #i mean like #i always see people w endo saying theyd rather go through childbirth again instead of the endo pains #but you don’t really. Think about it like that #like yeah sure anyone can say that but you dont really conceptualize it until you’re experiencing it #like almost every month i have to experience pains that ppl describe as worse than childbirth??? thats crazy #luckily i dont have it every month cause of birth control but its kind of starting to be every other month #its just wild to think about and also awful to experience #and i completely forgot that its a Progressive thing. it gradually gets worse #because scar tissue builds and stuff i didnt even think abt that #til a few weeks ago when i saw my doc and she said yeah this is age is usually when it worsens for awhile #which. Yeah the last like 3 or 4 times have been insanely bad #it also doesnt help that one of those times my iud had screwed me over and tore a little hole but #still #idk #im trying to override my pain but thinking about how medically interesting it is #bc thats what i do with everything else i just go well if i think about it from a medical standpoint its not that bad! #thats how i get through most of my doc appointments #and i think thats why a lot of doctors dont really believe or realize how drastic a lot of things can be #bc theyre thinking about it medically and not like its a real person #sorry for rambljng im having so many thoughts #tbd

[aparticularbandit]

Thanks to all of you and the Banditnanza, I found my writing habit again and wrote over 82k last month, so thank y'all for that.

I'll get into this more, probably, in my Bandit goes over last year's goals and sets new goals for this year post, but like.

My word count for the year was nearly 363k. And I know that sounds like a lot! And that is a lot! And I'm grateful for that much!

....

But my word count in 2022 was over double that, and for every year I've been keeping word count, it's been at least 100k more than that (200k more in 2020, the first year I kept count like this).

I didn't even hit an average of 1k a day this year, and that's...that really says how rough this past year has been for me in terms of writing and everything. Like I just. Wow, I knew it wouldn't be a lot this past year, but that really puts things into perspective.

In terms of stats, this past month is the most I've written in a month in the entire year, and with the exception of March (and those of you who were around in March can guess at why it stands out as different), this past month is double what I've written in every other month for the past year (again, with the exception of March, where I broke 50k).

Some months aren't even a fourth of this month.

Which says a lot about what this past month means for me and how grateful I am that y'all joined me on this thing.

Y'all sent me prompts! Y'all engaged with my stuff! Some of which was not very good! Even when I didn't finish fulfilling the prompts! Even when I didn't actually answer a prompt you sent in!

And look at the month we have to show for it!

So THANK YOU because this wouldn't have been possible without y'all.

I still plan on posting one more thing later today - I've started it and I have plans for it and know roughly what it entails - and then I'll be stopping the daily posting for a while.

But I have something else up my sleeve that might still help in terms of being an encouragement. And since this month has hopefully given me that writing habit back, maybe you'll see more from me more regularly this year.

We'll just have to see what the future holds.

So! Again! Thank you all, and God bless!

(And look out for the thing I plan to post later today! It's actually a 2-for-1 for prompt fulfillment, so if you've been waiting, maybe today's will be it!)

#musings #bandit #december banditnanza 2023 #bandit writes fic #bandit does an update #like - i will say this too - even in those better years #my monthly word count was very rarely this high #(last year i had a 100k+ month and a 90k+ month but last year was...wild) #so - even in the scope of all the things - this past month has been phenomenal #so thank you #thank you all so so much #i started these as an encouragement for y'all #and they were just as much an encouragement to me #<3

[todayisafridaynight]

LIKEWISE I hope you enjoy the upcoming releases too and that the price tag on Gaiden's worth it! I know personally I'll enjoy them regardless lol, the worldwide releases have been Particularly Rough on localization but these have still been some of my favorite games. Sorry in advance for I will be the one saying unnecessary things (as I often am) though </3

Speaking of, I'm glad you're enjoying Kyouen!! Once Again I wish I didn't have Goldfish Memory so I could actually discuss but :) always look forward to your reviews :)

i wouldnt ever say anythin you say is unnecessary when you always have a lot of insight and purpose to what you say ♪(´▽｀)

AND YAYA im really enjoyin kyouen ! you were absolutely right in everyone being petty as hell LMAO im living for it tho (￣y▽￣)

#snap chats #speaking of reviews tho.... i almost forgot bout my small additional notes on super salaryman vjaLKVJAEL #i already said most of what i wanted to say durin the stream but i forgot the major thing that made me upset OOPS #it was so sad that haneko for like. A Second seemed to be the nicest to saenai #like OBVI she was still mean to him too but 1.) she seemed the /least/ mean and was nice to him about the dinner during the bomb ep #2.) she actually stepped in to /try/ to defend him for the whole game fiasco like. :(((((( #i really wish there was A Turning Point for the family and saenai or that theyd start to appreciate him more #like there were SO many small moments where it seemed like Oh Theyre Going To Start Appreciating Him Right and then just. 🧍‍♂️ #ITS A COMEDY SHOW IK I SHOULD TAKE THIS LIGHTLY but i really cant... we know how i get about family dynamics.... #like haneko wasnt perfect that idol ep was WILD but still.... i really like her for those moments ngl LMAO #she was still bratty but hey. ty for the like Three Times you were nice to your dad i really appreciate it #BIG RIP THAT MY LAST NOTE ON THE SHOW WAS LIKE. BITCHING FORGIVE ME #i bitch because i love it. well not THAT but i loved the show i wanted better for my guy.. #esp when that seemed to be The Thesis right with the whole 'you cant even help your family' and whatnot in the first ep #the LOUDEST sigh of my life But I Still Loved The Show Otherwise #the office scenes were so goofy i love section 3's dynamic..... gotta keep em together amrite <- no one is ever getting promoted #my big phat salaryman review......... BUT YEAH im excited to continue kyouen !!!! if i. ever finish this fuckin coMIC #ITS A ME PROBLEMMMMM but i just have to line now. i think. im lying no i wanted to fix a panel.... #im horrible ☠️☠️ OK BYE BYE FOR NOW #or..... as ozono said in her breakup interview... goodbye means we'll meet again.. somethin like that /she was quoting sailor suit right/ #/thats why they called the tape Sailor Suit And Machine Gun/ girl im off topic Point Is I'll Be Back. Bye.

[lit-in-thy-heart]

hit 11k my guys :')

#reached a conclusion at like half eleven last night #knew if i tried uploading it to ao3 and dealing with all those shenanigans i'd get frustrated #so added tags and stuff but left the body of the text unwritten #read over parts of it again at 2am and decided nope i am not done with this #so we're now on day 3 of writing ✌️ #but you know i'm actually enjoying this editing malarkey #usually i just read over the fic once when i'm done and release it into the wild with the sentiment of 'that'll do' #but going back and expanding on parts that move too quickly is fun #anyway i will have this fic posted today #i will. #personal #lit talks #lit writes

[seilon]

sometimes I think about the fact that through the neuropsych evaluation I had when I was 14 i was deemed to have a working memory related possibly-genetic anomalous neurological issue based on how insanely and noticeably bad my immediate recall skills were/are. and i did not learn about this and had just assumed it was adhd related until literally last year at the age of 21. because it was never addressed ever

#I’ve had so many issues in school and shit because of this and it sometimes makes me So anxious #like #like I double and triple check texts I write sometimes just because it’s so common for me to miss something small thatd make me sound stupid #or something along those lines #that and ugh god DATES. due dates. I’ve almost ruined entire final projects because I recalled a date wrong #whenever I have to enter verification codes I have to say it out loud multiple times becuaee if I don’t there’s a good chance I’ll forget #almost immediately #like it’s affected a ton of stuff in my teenage to young adult life and I didn’t know that it was a legit NEUROLOGICAL problem until last #YEAR. in my (sort of) fourth year of college??? #(sort of because i did 3 years community college 1 year of uni) #what do I even DO with that information #other than. I mean. im trying to get reassessed already but that’s primarily for autism reasons #having a hard fucking time with that though but anyway #it’s just wild to think how much of my life I’ve dealt with that without any legit help for it #kibumblabs #personal #sorry this is really out of nowhere I just. remember it sometimes #like oh yeah. i literally have a mystery neurological handicap. right

[sluttyten]

Fucking wild day at work today like what the fuck

#like it wasn’t all that wild until literally the last two minutes of my shift when I walked outside looking for one of the shift managers #because my GM was on a conference call and the other two shift managers that were there plus another one who had just like stopped by were #all nowhere to be seen #any fucking way….. I walked outside because I knew that the one that stopped by was out there talking to the one that opened this morning #and I walk out there like who is in charge right now and they were like idk and then I started to be like oh well I just needed some #questions answered about stuff before I leave (which I ended up saying fuck it and not asking or saying anything about those things) #but then!!!! (also keep in mind these two shift managers are my closest work friends and the one has been working with me since day 1 over 4 #years ago and the other has been around for the past like 2.5 years probably?? but like we worked together every day pretty much) #anyway I say that about having questions and start to tell them and they’re like well it doesn’t matter #or it didn’t matter to the one or something like that BECAUSE SHE IUST GOT FUCKING FIRED #AND I SWESR TO GOd I WAS LIKE DID I HUST MISHEAR THAT WHAT THE FUCJ DO YOU MEAN YOU JUST GOT FIRED #FOR WHAT?!? what could she possibly have done? #and it’s some big long bullshit and I just can’t believe it #so I stood out there for another few minutes on the clock not paying any attention to wtf is going on in the store because literally what #the hell but eventually I was like I’m just gonna walk in and clock out #but we still didn’t know who was in charge and then like 3 of us were leaving but no one new had come in yet so I just had to interrupt the #GM on his call (with our district manager sitting beside him) to be like can I leave? and then I just clocked out and went and stood outside #for like 45 minutes with my friends talking about the absolutely bullshittiness of the entire situation #like I can’t believe it #and I’m sure that she can’t believe it either #it was literally out of nowhere #our GM didn’t even know about it until after she’d been fired like it came from higher up in corporate and I just…. I hate this for her #but at the same time and she said this too that she was comfortable here (same) and if she wasn’t fired she probably wouldn’t have quit for #a long long time and like… same here #but if the other shift manager that I’m friends with quits she better tell me first and we’ll put our two weeks in together #I’m not fucking staying when everyone I like working with is Gina #because days they’re not there o fucking hate it #we went from having a good core group of people every day to it just being the three of us and now it’s just the two of us #plus like another 3/4 people that I usually love working with #though one of them irritates me a lot too but she’s been there since the start for me too (and she’s also on the brink of quitting)