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#this looks like garbage ik ik
anxiously-awaiting · 2 years
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hi new post <3
I had a whole paragraph abt my dental issues + drama at home related to my cats but i'll spare the details.
Anyway. blah blah i reserve the right to refuse commissions if i am uncomfortable with it or feel as though it's outside of my artistic ability. Dm on here or on discord @ anxiouslyawaiting#6734 if you're intersted
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pikslasrce · 4 months
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never look up if ur fav bands were in your country its a quick recipe for depression
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bookishjules · 2 months
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working so hard to hold back screams and tears rn.. fuck you wb
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squishosaur · 10 months
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the gang's all here!!!
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widevibratobitch · 14 days
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#havent really been active on tumblr the last few days but now i came back to post another vent and fuck off again lol hiiiiii#i havent cried in way too long. ngl sobbing hysterically in your bed does hit different lol#anyway. what a great time to remind myself of every single bad thing anyone has ever said about my body and my face <3#anyway i finished the sobbing till i cant breathe session and now my one eye hurts like there's sth stuck in it but there's nothing#but while i was digging in it trying to find sth under my eyelid that could explain the pain i really really looked at it#my friend once said my eyes are the colour of a swamp and by god she was right.#and like damn. i was never insecure about my eyes but maybe i should add that to the list.#but like whatever. like obv im not gonna start being actually insecure about mu stupid eyes but it did hit me that there is really#not a single thing about my body that i can with all confidence say is nice/pretty/whatever. not a single thing that i genuinely like.#like at best case it's 'not as bad as it could be'. like i have nothing lol. cant even honestly say something as silly as 'i like my eyes'#cause no. they look like a swamp.#idk im just so tired of trying my best all the time and still looking like a rotting leaking bag of garbage.#i try to remind myself that i dress funny and do fun make up and that is what people will notice about me but the truth is#everyone will still always see that under all that bs im just plain ugly and just generally unattractive#and ill never be able to distract anyone from that not really#like ik people who like me dont care about that but thats the thing.#im just tired of being one of the people that will always be liked/loved/whatever 'despite' sth.#like there is nothing of value in me that is NATURAL. its all fucking fake.#anyway. wish i were dead same old same old.
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princessithaca · 1 year
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not gonna get over the bastard son & the devil himself cancellation any time soon i fear
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thecolorsfucked · 1 year
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trans-phone-eater · 1 month
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yappacadaver · 4 months
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kinda funny how many people comment on his wrinkly shirt honestly
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slonechnik · 1 year
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#riemblings#pls dont rb or reply i need to rant Somewhere#rly though im trying to write it down but would it be presumptuous to ask to be burried in the same plot as my great gran#it has a pretty headstone and a little garden and theres ivy and anyway they wanted to sell it so honestly#like great gran still gets her grave visited nobody has to waste money on a new place and its a lovely cemetery anyway#i worried that cremation would be too expensive but i feel like it'll be cheaper if they buy either a tin or a wooden urn#tin would be funny bc rly the garbage association just makes it 🤌 but ik parents wouldt want to go for the cheapest#and wood would degrade eventually so#rly v ecological if you think abt it#and i feel itd save up anyway since i dont want a church mass and they always charge a stupid amt of money#i hope nobody will do smth stupid like order a mass for me im including it in the letter anyway but god knows my fam is stubborn#man oh man#i hope theyll listen to me for once and actually cheap out on me#like idk its my deathwish i think they should its probably v selfish of me to say but with the bathroom renovations this year its just#i just dont want to add unnecessary expence im already waiting a little for it to be over and to hopefully get my pay at the job#itd be theirs so they could organize the funeral with it and not waste any of their savings i hope they will do this#i hope ill manage till january#just bc i plan to die doesnt mean i dont care abt what happens after im trying to plan accordingly#i already written down instructions for most stuff internet and where to look for shit#idk i hope theyll be okay#i wish i had energy to save up to make sure theyll be alright when they retire but#i rly dont ive been putting it off for months now#most of my life if were being honest#i hate that i waited I really do i thought i finally could in september but i chickened out again#which is stupid i hate being alive#i hate it so much and yet here i am#man oh man really hope its not for much longer#im so shit at math i rly hope i got the cost down right
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avibingplatypus · 1 year
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I did a sketch on paper recently, and thought i would post it here for some feedback
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arieswritez · 2 months
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glad you and this account exist, I feel like there’s a lack of Mark lovers lmao! but omg I can’t stop thinking about him, I feel feral but for the purpose of discussion I have to ask: what do you think his d!ck would look like?
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cw; scummy bf!mark x gn!reader, abusive relationships (physical & emotional), angst, stalking, spying, harassment, manipulation, gaslighting.
a/n; i am super late but mark would have tHEE prettiest dick ever !! & i'll prove it!!!! in fact, his dick is SO pretty you'd let him do heinous things if it meant having it in your mouth teehee 🫶🏾🫶🏾 (& because i am not normal: i went on a tangent .. ik ik you didn't ask for this.. lemme alone!!! )
bf! mark who you always wanted to give the benefit of the doubt to. who'd always hide his snide comments under a playful half smile and the guise of it being "just a joke".
bf!mark who'd tell you not to worry about his relationships with other people. who'd say you were just being insecure and that he didn't know how to be with someone that like you. bf!mark who'd always make you cry whenever you voiced your opinions because he always made you feel so stupid, didn't he?
bf! mark who soon turns into exbf!mark because one day he just .. loses it. or at least, that was his excuse.
you've lost your temper many times before. with others. with him. but his anger is much more different than your own.
your anger simmers: the first symptoms of a poison muddying your mind with annoyance. the type that renders you silent with a lump in your throat. your tongue swollen with words unsaid because. . you know better. and your parent(s) had warned you time and time again about being cautious of what you say to those you love.
mark's anger is a roaring boil. explosive with scalding steam.
mark's anger is a burning fire caused by popping oil and you're the water who was naively thrown onto it in order to extinguish it. his anger is just as unpredictable as it is brief. and although you were used to the smallest of inconveniences turning into shouting matches, you thought you had mark all figured out.
plead your case. stand your ground.
wither.
apologize.
admit you were wrong.
even if you were sure you weren't.
it was the only way you could end your arguments. and you were good at playing that game. until you weren't. until the eggshells you were walking on cut the soles of your feet. up until that point, you'd never seen mark's ego so hurt.
and the backhand he gives you sends you to the ground with your right ear ringing.
as soon as you hit the floor, he's on his knees before you, cradling your face, so inconsolable anyone would've thought you hit him.
the soft press of his kisses, peppering across your face contrast with the burning sting of your cheek as he murmurs, "i don't know what got into me! i just get so angry - i swear i didn't mean to hit you that hard!"
and as you stared at him with a blank expression, your mind raced, trying to find an excuse as to what could've warranted that reaction. but for the first time, your mind went blank. and although you nodded along with his apologies and allowed him to wipe the tears from your eyes, you knew there was nothing mark could do to fix it.
you let him think everything was ok. you smile at his jokes and let him cuddle you in his sleep. . even if his hands always found themselves wrapped around your throat.
then, one day, you just. . disappear. block him from everything and register to online classes instead of in person. you stuff his 'borrowed' hoodies and expensive gifts in a garbage bag and leave it in front of his dorm.
you even go as far as to donate all the stuffed animals he gave you.
well. .
almost all.
there is one you specifically like. mostly because debbie was the one who picked it out for you. you always had a soft spot for her.
you still do. so much so that, despite the fact that you want nothing to do with mark - and the fact that you're terrified of him - you find yourself missing her.
so you keep it.
and, sure, you know there's a psychology book somewhere stating it hinders your ability to truly move on. and maybe it's right.
maybe looking at it makes your brain revert back to bittersweet memories of mark and debbie. the way she'd made her home a safe space. you're sure she'd be ashamed to find out of everything mark put you through. but you decide to keep your distance. keep the peace, and all. you couldn't bare telling her why the two of you broke up.
but you still have the text message she sent you.
i'm sorry things didn't work out. you were good for mark. we miss you.
little do you know: the stuffed animal was mark's favorite, too.
but not for the same sappy reason.
& yes, it's because he placed a tiny camera into the cute bear :)
it was a risky move but you were far too predictable. his mother was practically a saint to you. he couldn't imagine you throwing her gift away. after all, what had she ever done to you? thank god for debbie.
now, he doesn't have to be with you to watch you cuddle the stuffed toy. he doesn't have to stand underneath your window to hear you sob into its soft fur. and it's addicting, really, watching you just be in the comfort of your room because you've completely exiled him from your life. and really, who do you think you are? you make him angry enough to hit you and you're the victim?
you didn't know how and when to keep your mouth shut. that's something you should learn. and seeing as how your parent(s) hadn't sat you down and talked to you about it. . mark figured he'd be the one to teach you that lesson.
but you're spoiled.
you're sensitive.
and you obviously don't take kindly to discipline.
and as much as he loves to keep his little secret of watching you on his phone screen. . it kills him to know you won't let him anywhere near you.
but don't forget it: you still belong to him <3 and in any moment that he wants you, he could very easily have you.
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one night, with the plushie at the foot of your bed, he watches you squirm. his brows furrow, rolling onto his stomach, getting comfortable as he stares at his phone screen, wondering if you're having a nightmare. the night vision camera captures the way your body moves, every toss and turn. . and then. . every miniscule roll of your hips.
he watches you kick off the blankets and he feels his cock throb in his sweatpants when he sees you aren't wearing any bottoms. . . or underwear. his hands are shaking as he watches you begin to touch yourself. and the sounds you make have him so enraptured that he barely registers when he starts to grind against the bed.
you must feel vulnerable. . watched? . . because you grab the plushie. but you don't just chuck it away. you don't look directly into its eyes and call mark an asshole like he feels you will. no. instead, you hug the stuffed toy to your chest. and even though mark can't see a damn thing anymore - you're covering the camera, fuck - he can hear you perfectly now.
the way your breath hitches and hiccups. your whines, the gasps, the faint whispers he has to strain to listen to. . incoherent whimpers of please and yes, and as he humps his bed. . it's the whisper of his name that throws him over the edge.
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a few days later, you receive a message from a strange number with a video attached to it.
in hindsight, you should know better. you've been on the internet long enough to know not everything is meant to be clicked on. but for some reason, you don't think twice to open it.
on the screen, you only see a white light, before you realize it's a flashlight from a phone.
and then a cock comes into view.
you're far too surprised to turn your phone off.
it's so hard it looks painful.
it's thick, thick enough that the fist that comes into view doesn't completely wrap around it. the head an angry red, a drop of pre beading from the tip.
the fist gives a few experimental strokes, then up to the head, where it squeezes, milking, and the drop of precum smudges and dribbles across knuckles. the hand slides down again, and cups the tan, plump, balls at the base.
you hear a groan. and something about it makes you throb. you can't quite put your finger on why. . but you find yourself too transfixed to look away.
you watch as the stranger strokes their cock with growing fervor and the way their hand moves gives you a familiar feeling in the pit of your stomach. there's a small voice in the back of your mind, whispering could it be. your face scrunches up in disgust but you still can't tear your eyes away from your phone screen. nor can you deny the way as your heart picks up speed.
it's only when you hear his voice that your suspicions are confirmed,
"miss you so bad, baby." mark's voice drawls, the breathy words cut off by a groan. "need you here with me again."
you should block him.
you should change your number. your fucking government name and area code if necessary.
you should delete the message, turn off your phone, and be over the whole situation but you don't. his whines and moans arouse you like some sort of fucked up pavlovian response and before you know it, your hands are working along with his.
you'll regret this. the little voice tells you matter-of-factly when you pick up speed the same time he does.
you'll regret this. it hisses when your breath catches in your throat. when your face burns as you close your eyes and work yourself in a frenzy, hips rolling, imagining . . wishing . . mark was there with you, too.
you'll regret this. when you muffle a cry of his name with the palm of your hand when you hear the soft, expletive filled whispers of his orgasm. he sounds so good. so pitiful it reminds you of the first few times the two of you were intimate. times in which mark pretended he was gentle and sweet. when he pretended the hickies he sucked into your neck were purely accidental.
he sounds like your mark.
you'll regret this. this time, the voice sounds tired. like a disappointed friend at their wits end, trying to talk you down from relapsing from an addiction.
the voice goes silent.
obviously tired of you once you save the unknown number into your contacts.
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tournament-announcer · 2 months
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Hey ik this is not tournament related, but in case you didn't know and want to spread the word, Tumblr is selling everybody's data to AI companies.
Here is the staff post about it https://www.tumblr.com/loki-valeska/743539907313778688
And a post with more information and how to opt out https://www.tumblr.com/khaleesi/743504350780014592/
Hi thanks for the information and sorry for my late reply. I was a bit low on spoons this week and I wanted to form thoughts about this.
Because the thing is, I am doing a PhD at an AI department in real-life. Not in generative AI, in fact I’m partly doing this because I distrust how organisations are currently using AI. But so this is my field of expertise and I wanted to share some insights.
First of all yes do try to opt out. We have no guarantee how useful that’s going to be, but they don’t need to be given your data that easily.
Secondly, I am just so confused as to why? Why would you want to use tumblr posts to train your model? Everyone in the field surely knows about the garbage in, garbage out rule? AI models that need to be trained on data are doing nothing more than making statistical predictions based on the data they’ve seen. Garbage in, garbage out therefore refers to the fact that if your data is shit, your results will also be shit. And like not to be mean but a LOT of tumblr posts are not something I would want to see from a large language model.
Thirdly I’ve seen multiple posts encouraging people to use nightshade and glaze on their art but also posts wondering what exactly it is these programs do to your art. The thing is, generative ai models are kinda stupid, they just learn to associate certain patterns in pictures with certain words. However these patterns are typically not patterns we’d want them to pick up on. An example would be a model that you want to differentiate between pictures of birds and dogs, but instead of learning to look for say wings, it learns that pictures of birds usually have a blue sky as background and so a picture of a bird in the grass will be labelled as ‘dog’.
So what glaze and nightshade are more or less doing is exploiting this stupidness by changing a few pixels in your art that will give it a very different label when an AI looks at it. I can look up papers for people who want to know the details, but this is the essence of it.
To see how much influence this might have on your art, see this meme I made a few years ago based on the paper ”Intriguing properties of neural networks”, Figure 5 by Szegedy et al. (2013)
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Finally, staff said in that post that they gave us the option to opt out because of the maybe upcoming AI act in Europe. I was under the impression that they should give us this opportunity because of the GDPR and that the AI act is supposed to be more about the use of AI and less about the creation and data aspect but nevertheless this shows that the EU has a real ability to influence these kinds of things and the European Parliament elections are coming up this year, so please go vote and also read up on what the parties are saying about AI and other technologies beforehand (next to everything else you care about) (also relevant for other elections of course but the EU has a good track record on this topic).
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Anyway sorry for the long talk, but as I said this is my area and so I felt the need to clarify some things. Feel free to send me more asks if you want to know something specific!
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calypsocolada · 25 days
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VIGILANTE | denji <3
synopsis: you're just the vigilante denji has been searching for... request: "yo! was watching birds of prey and got a thought. sfw, preferably, harley quinn! fem! reader x denji. like denji's out on patrol or something idrk and she's out there causing trouble and fighting and basically like the scene where harley was getting chased by the cop and then throws garbage and a truck driver gets shot and she jumps onto a ladder and stuff. lol ik that's a lot sorry. i dont rlly know where to continue on what else sorry 😭😭" authors note: HI! thanks for the request... this may not be exactly what you requested but I still was inspired by your request to write this. this one goes out to you!! <3 i might write a part two, this one was fun :) cw: nsfw but no smut, potential assault/drink spiking, slightly unhinged reader, blood, gore, severing of body parts, characters aged up to 20's, angst, fluff, touch starved denji, lonely denji, not proofread, (let me know if I missed any!) wc: 4.6k
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You’d been looking to cause trouble. A lot of things led you to this very moment and to say you were ashamed was just plain wrong. You liked the trouble. You liked making people nervous, you liked that power you could hold over someone's head. After going so long without any power of your own it was nice to finally make someone else feel weak once in a while. No it wasn’t healthy and no you didn’t care. Because it felt good. It felt good to terrorize people. To hear their pleads of mercy. 
You never went after actually innocent people. You hunted devils. And you killed a lot of devils that disguised themselves as humans. The news called you the Night killer, they called you a serial murderer. It wasn’t fair… they didn’t know the true personality of the people you ended. Night was the easiest for you to move around in without being detected. You had things to do in the daylight, boring day to day things. But when the night set it was time to let loose a bit.
You had to be a bit more careful recently though. Some celebrity hero had been patrolling the streets recently. Doing good and all. You knew he was looking for you. And you weren’t sure how well you’d fare against chainsaws. 
It was your birthday weekend so your friends decided to take you out. It was some popular club downtown that you all ended up at after dinner. Sweaty bodies and strobing lights you knew only terrible things could come out of unattended drinks and loud music so you kept an eye on all your friends. That’s when you saw him, some guy with a predatory look in his eyes as he stared down your friend. You could tell his intentions right away. You had a knack for it. You could also tell he’d been just the one you were hunting for. The devil that had killed a woman just last week. You’d watch him for a bit and sure enough, after touching and getting slapped away by multiple women, he walked and chatted up your friend for a bit before slipping away to buy her a drink. You watched him non stealthily slip something into it, a grin spreading across his lips, an even bigger one spreading across yours. He really thought he could get away from destiny? You didn’t think this night could get any better but here was a perfect excuse to spill blood on your birthday. You downed your drink and slinked your way through the crowd and when he turned to make his way back to your friend you purposefully bumped into him, spilling the drink all over the front of his tacky white and gold shirt. 
“Oh… shit, I’m so sorry!” You faked an apologetic look and scrambled for some napkins and pressed it to his wet chest.
“Come on-- watch where you're-” The moment he saw you it was like lights filled his eyes. His eyes widened as he looked from your eyes to your cleavage than back up. “No… excuse me, pretty lady.” You giggled, biting your lip as you looked up at him.
“Can I buy you another drink?” You asked innocently, keeping your hands against his chest.
“Don’t you worry about that, dear.” He crooned and it took everything in you not to cringe. Instead you pushed closer to him, talking into his ear so he could hear you over the loud music. “You sure, baby?” You ask, a rasp sliding into your voice. The man nodded his head, his hand sliding against your waist. 
“Wanna dance?” He asks, his lips grazing the shell of your ear. You shiver in disgust but he doesn’t see it that way. 
“Lead the way.” You say and he sure does, his hand sliding just above your ass as he pulls you on the dance floor, turning you around so he can press himself against your behind. The dance was fueling the fire. You couldn’t wait to lure him outside. You wondered how many girls he’d drugged, wondered how many girls he’d touched without permission. The way he touched you now was telling you everything you needed to know, this man took what he wanted. 
And so would you.
After all you could handle of this man, you pushed him back a bit. 
“Wanna get some air?” You asked and he agreed almost instantly. He slid his arms around your waist and hips as you led the way out of the club. There were a few people loitering outside so you led him to the side alleyway. The moment you two were alone he grabbed you rather forcefully and pushed you against the wall, he leaned in to kiss you but your hand shot up and you grabbed him tightly by the chin. He froze, a look forming in his eyes. He was enjoying this.
“Eager one, aren’t you?” You rasped, he nodded his head, trying to lean forwards but unable to, his eyes growing slightly wide.
“You’re strong for a woman.” He says and a devilish smirk grows on your pink lips as you slowly nod your head. You slowly tighten your hold on his chin and watch as his lips part in surprise. “I want to fuck you so bad.” He whispers, obviously liking your rough treatment.
“How would you do that?’ You asked, your free hand sliding to the knife concealed on your thigh. A trusty weapon you acquired after some idiot tried to mug you on your way home from work. It was a trophy you liked to use on your victims.
“I’d yank that little skirt up, rip those tights open and take you right here.” He growled, disgusted chills ran down your spine but your face was as cool as ever. It wasn’t the worst thing you’d ever heard but it was up there.
“Mhm…” You hummed. “Let me see what you’d take me with.” You whispered and the excitement that man felt was on full display as his hands flew to unzip his pants. You waited patiently and the moment you spotted it the smile that fitted to your lips was downright evil. “Small.” You remarked seconds before that trophy knife of yours sliced his member clean off. There was a split second where it didn’t register with him. He inhaled and then his eyes went wide as pain finally made its way to his brain. When he opened his mouth to scream you clamped over his lips hard with your hand and spun him to press him forcefully against the wall. You wiped the blood from your knife on his shirt and pressed it against his neck.
“Mhm wha tha fu,” He grumbled beneath your fingers. 
“What? It’s okay for you to take what you want? To spike women's drinks and touch them without consent? To kill them? I thought you’d probably like being treated the way you treat others.” You growl. He tried to squirm away from you but you were too strong. You held him against that wall like he weighed nothing and the fear that formed in his eyes at the revelation was delicious. 
“Plea-- please.” He pleaded and the sound was like music to your ears. 
“No sense in pleading.” You growled.
“That’s enough.” The voice to your right halted your thoughts. You turned just slightly to see the celebrity himself. Chainsaw Man. 
Fuuuccckkk.
“Let ‘em go.” He directed. Your mouth dried, your knife sweaty in your hands. But you didn’t move back.
“You caught me.” You rasped, it was dark so you knew, unless Chainsaw Man had night vision, that he couldn’t see you very well. He paused at the sound of your voice, slightly tilting his head to try and get a good look at you but they didn’t call you Night Killer for no reason, the night was being very friendly to you right now. 
“You sound… hot.” Chainsaw Man said. Everything halted for a moment. You stared at him quizzically. He’d caught you off guard with that. Even the scumbag beneath your blade seemed surprised before he started squirming again and you had to press your blade harder. “I’ve been tailing your kills for months now… Are you-- blonde? It’s hard to tell.”
“You’ll be tailing another kill if you don’t keep it in your pants,” You growled. “Aren’t you supposed to be a hero?”
“I am a hero. But I’m also a man who has great taste. Now let that man go and step into the light.” Chainsaw Man directed. Something about him made you laugh. This terrifying looking devil had layers. Chainsaw Man cocked his head at your laughter. 
“And what would you do if I slit this piece of shit devil's throat?” You ask and the man you pinned squirmed and whimpered pathetically. Chainsaw Man stepped closer, trying hard to get a look at you. One track mind it seemed. 
“What’d he do?” He asks. It gives you pause.
“You care?”
“Did he try to hurt you? I’ve noticed most of your victims all had charges placed against them for hurting women. Is he just like the others?” Chainsaw Man asked. You wondered if he actually cared or if he was biding time for the police. 
“Uh huh.” You answered, trailing your attention back to the dirt bag. You trailed your knife up his neck to the side of his face. “He touches who he wants and slips things into drinks. Naughty…” You tease, the anger inside you coming out as though it meant nothing. You heard Chainsaw Man walk closer and you shot him a warning look. “Any closer and I’ll spill his blood.”
“Do it.” You hear the hero say. “Kill him. He deserves it.” You stare at him, lips parted. He’d surprised you.
“What?” You asked before you were able to mask that surprise.
“Kill him.” Chainsaw Man shrugs. “I could do it if you want.”
“What kind of hero are you?”
“A hero to those who deserve saving. If this man did as you say then I’ll look the other way.” Chainsaw Man says. You were so shocked that your grip on the man loosened. The dirt bag, sensing your attention elsewhere, shoved hard against you. The hard shove sends your hand with the knife back towards you. He gives another shove and the blade plunged into you just above your chest below your shoulder blade. You land hard, dazed a bit. The dirt bag dives towards the knife, straddling you on the ground.
“You dumb slut!” He growls. “I’m gonna kill-” You heard the revving of chainsaws before you felt the warm splash of blood against your face. You watched in object horror as the man’s head slowly fell off his shoulders and tumbled to the pavement. The body above you slackened and fell to the side in a bloody heap. You wiped at the blood, trying to push away from the body but your shoulder screamed in pain. You’d forgotten the damn knife that had lodged itself in you. You hissed in pain as the Chainsaw’s slowly came to a stop and silence was restored. The commotion had gained the attention of bystanders outside the club as people started poking their heads at the other end of the alleyway.
“Can you walk?” Chainsaw Man asked but when you looked up you saw a regular man, blood on his white button up shirt. When you both saw each other in the dim light of the alleyway you both blushed. You furrowed your brow, momentarily forgetting the throbbing pain in your shoulder. 
“Chainsaw Man?” You said, stunned. The man before you nodded his head, glancing down the alley towards the people. “Come on, we need to get you somewhere safe before they get a good look at us.” You let him wrap his arms around you and pull you to your feet, you’d hurt your leg when you fell so you relied on him heavily to take you somewhere safe.
“Is this okay?” He asked and for the first time in years you didn’t feel disgusted by a man’s touch. It was strange. You nodded your head.
“This way,” You directed once you go to a street you recognized. You led Chainsaw Man towards your house, his hand gently holding you against him. Once there you handed him your keys and he unlocked the door and helped you inside. You grunted in pain as he got you to a chair by the kitchen table. “There’s uh-- supplies in the top drawer… grab everything. And grab the jack from the fridge.” You direct. Chainsaw Man works quickly as you lean your head back, cursing yourself for letting your attention wander. You’d never gotten hurt this bad, just some scrapes and bruises. He was back rather quickly, falling to his knees beside you. 
“How can I help?” He asks as you tilt up, reaching for the jack. You take a big swig of it taking a deep breath. 
“Fuck me.” You sighed at the impending pain. You watched his face go through five different emotions before his cheeks blushed.
“What? Now?” He asks as you furrow your brow before realizing he thought you were giving him an order with those two little words you sighed. You laughed surprisingly, shaking your head.
“No, not what I meant.” 
“Oh… yeah of course.” He blushes, turning away slightly.
“What’s your name?” You ask. He turns back to you, looking up at you from his knees.
“Denji.”
“Denji,” You say and watch his cheeks go even redder. “I need you to pull this knife out of my shoulder.” You say. His lips part in surprise as he blinks. 
“No medicine to dull the pain?”
“I drank jack, no come on before I chicken out.” You say and Denji nods his head. You both lean towards each other and he reaches for the handle. Pain jolts through you at just a small bit of contact. Luckily for you it wasn’t super deep but it would still hurt like a bitch to remove. Denji looks up in your eyes.
“You sure?” He asks as you nod your head, taking another swig. He nods his head and a second later the blade is yanked from your shoulder. You cry out in pain as the blad clangs against the tilt flooring. Denji reaches for your shoulder, pressing his hand against the blood to stop it as he grabs a towel with his other. “It’s okay,” He says soothingly. “It’s out.” He presses the towel against the wound as you catch your breath. 
“Thank you,” You breathe out, tears pricking the corner of your eyes. You share a moment before you know that the wound needs to be stitched. You walk Denji through the steps and he listens well and takes gentle care of stitching you up and wrapping the wound. Once it’s nice and secure you feel your breath slowly coming back to you. You offer Denji a drink as he’s washing his hands. He grabs two cups and sits beside you at the table. You pour two drinks and slide one over to him. 
“I’ve been hunting you for a few months,” He starts, taking a sip before making a face as though he didn’t like it but then takes another sip. “You put yourself in danger a lot.” 
“Someone has to.” You say, leaning back in your chair. 
“You’re skilled, killing those devils can’t have been easy.” He says as you shrug. 
“They don’t put up much of a fight if you trick them early on.” You say. Denji looks at you over his cup. 
“What’s your name? I think you're a little too pretty for Night Killer.” You can’t help but smile at that.
“Am I now?” You ask, cocking your head slightly as Denji nods his head.
“You’re probably one of the prettiest girls I’ve ever seen.” He says truthfully. You find yourself blushing at his honesty. 
“It’s Y/n.” 
“Y/n…” He echoes, looking at you dreamily. “That’s better, a pretty name for a pretty girl.”
“Alright, Chainsaw Man, relax.” You jest, taking a sip of your drink. Denji grins at that.
“Can I take you out? Maybe after you’re feeling better?”
“What? Don’t like girls with scars?” You tease as Denji immediately shakes his head.
“I love scars. If you have any more I’d like to see them.” He implored, gaining another laugh from you. 
“Such a flirt.” You wave off.
“I don’t want you to overexert yourself, that’s all.” He says as you nod your head.
“Why? Do you have something really physical planned?” You tease and watch his cheeks and ears go red. 
“What? N-no!”
“I’m teasing you, Chainsaw Man.” You say.
“Denji,” He says.
“Hmm?”
“I-- I’d like it better if you called me Denji.” He says, barely able to look you in the eye. You’d never seen a man blush this much in your presence. It was adorable.
“Denji…” You say, leaning on your hand. His eyes widen just slightly and you can tell he really likes hearing his name from your lips. 
“So… Can I take you out?”
“Why? You just met me?” You ask amused.
“So? I’d be a fool not to ask a pretty girl like you out.” He says and you laugh.
“I might be pretty but I kill devils for fun, aren’t you part devil?” You ask teasingly.
“I am… but I’m not like the ones you kill.”
“You’re not?”
“No. Those scumbags deserved what you gave them.”
“So why were you tracking me down?” You ask curiously.
“Well… If I’m being honest I… saw you on CCTV. Saw how you protected those women a few months ago. I also saw you were finding bigger devils and got worried that you might get hurt.”
“You were worried for me and you didn’t even know me?” 
“I lost sleep. I was lucky to find you tonight.”
“You’re the reason I got stabbed, you know. That devil was weak.” You say, leaning back as Denji’s eyes widen.
“What? I-- I’m sorry, Y/n.” He implores as you laugh, shaking your head.
“It’s fine, Denji, I’m partly kidding.” 
“But it was my fault… I distracted you.”
“It’s fine.” You smile warmly. He sees that smile and the drink in his hand slips from his grasp, spilling all over the table. He jumps up. 
“Shit! Shit… sorry.” He runs to grab a rag and wipe it up. You watch him curiously. He’s nothing like what you expected Chainsaw Man to be like. He was sort of uncool but… not in a bad way. He was like a dork. It was endearing. It had you smiling in a way you forgot how to do. There was a reason you killed dirty devils for those who couldn’t stand up for themselves. There was a time where you weren’t strong enough to defend yourself. That was the same day you had forgotten what it was like to let someone in. Yet here was Denji, who you’d met mere hours ago, worming his way into your iron shackled heart. Each lock he seemingly had the key too. It was slightly alarming but for some reason it wasn’t scaring you away. 
“I’ll go out with you.” You say when Denji had just finished cleaning up only for the shock of your statement causing him to knock over the rest of his drink. You dissolve in a fit of giggles as Denji profusely apologizes, cleaning it all back up.
“You’re serious? You’ll go out with me?” 
“Are you gonna spill anything if I say yes?” You tease as Denji sits the things in his hands down. You smile. “Then yes. I’d like to go out with you.” He can’t fight the smile that graces his lips. It’s like looking at the sun. “Come here,” You say. Denji is quick to be at your side as you grab a pen, clicking it. You gently grab his arm and write your number on his palm. “My number, I should be healed up within a few weeks.” 
“Can I call you before… just to talk?” He asks and you blush at his innocence. He didn’t seem to want just the one thing most guys wanted.
“I’m a late sleeper and I get off work around five, you can call anytime after that.” You say and watch Denji’s face light up. 
“Can you… promise me something?” Denji asked after a moment. You look up at him.
“Hmm?”
“Please let yourself heal. Don’t go devil hunting alone… in fact if you ever find someone you want to hurt please call me and I’ll be there.”
“You want to be my accomplice?” You joke but Denji’s face is dead serious. How could someone care this much in such little time? It almost seems too good to be true.
“I’ll kill for you. Anyone you want dead.” The absolute honesty and pure sincereness made your heart race. This man wore his heart on his sleeve.
“You mean it?”
“I am deadly serious.” He affirms. For a moment you just look at him, your eyes drinking in his soft features. He was quite handsome, a sort of boyish roundness of the face with mature eyes and lips you could tell might not have smiled a lot. But something about him was sad, like the profound loneliness in you had found that same loneliness in him. Like a reflection on yourself. You reached for him but your hand paused before you could touch him.
“Can I touch you?” You asked.
“Please.” He whispered almost inaudibly. You gently ran your fingers across his cheek, settling just below his jaw. His eyes drifted closed at your touch as he moved into your touch like he was starved of it and wanted as much as you’d give him. “Please,” he pleaded again, slowly falling to his knees in front of you.
“Please what?” You whispered, blushing from his reaction to your touch. 
“Will you kiss me? Just once?” He whimpered softly. You swallowed, biting your lip to keep it from trembling. You’d do just that. Honestly if he asked you anything on his knees you might just give it to him. You slide your other hand against his cheek and gently tilt his face up by his chin. His eyes opened into yours and the intensity building between you two was thick in the air. You answered his question with the gentle press of your lips against his. He must’ve been extremely touch starved because the noises he made from just a simple kiss were downright filthy. He surged up slightly, wanting to be as close as possible. “May I-- touch you?” He whimpered against your lips. 
“Yes.” You answered as his hands flew up to either side of your face, one hand slotting just below your jaw and the other sliding into your hair. The tension builds, the nervous excitement and eager kisses. The slow rise of heat within yours and his body. The quick, shallow breaths Denji was making. The way your and his hearts beat even faster now. Finally, the hesitation is gone, the urge to go through with it so great that it seems like a natural force acting upon Denji’s body itself. HIs hand slides around your hip as he pulls you off the chair and sits back, placing you on his lap like you weighed nothing. Your chests meeting, heartbeats sounding in unison. Your mouths finding each other, and lips coming together in a long, fulfilling kiss. The shyness is all completely and utterly gone. The heat within their bodies rises even further, breaths becoming more erratic. Lips separating for just a moment, just long enough to take a breath. Then they come back together, meeting just as passionately and lovingly. You’d never been kissed like this, never felt the weight of lips against yours that made your heart flutter like this. You felt like a teenager all over again. You couldn’t recall the last time you’d felt this way. It was dangerous and so so alluring. You’d forgotten about your stab wound up until you raised your other arm to tangle your hand in his hair and the pain was strong enough to pull you back to your senses. You inhaled sharply, a gasp of pain that had Denji pulling back, eyes full of concern.
“Y/n?” He mumbled as a question, lips kissed pink. “Are you okay?”
“My arm,” You said through searing pain. That seemed to bring him back to the present.
“Fuck, sorry!” He mumbled, hand flying up to check the bandage and make sure you hadn’t torn your stitches. 
“It’s fine.” You breathe out. Denji reaches to tuck your hair away from your face.
“We should call it a night,” He says but you can tell it’s something he doesn’t really want but wants for you to heal. “I’ll call you tomorrow?” He asks. You’re still sitting in his lap, still wanting much more that he could give you but your arm was aching. You silently cursed that devil for stabbing you and sighed, nodding your head. Denji stands, taking you with him gently. You two are still so close and you almost just want to grab him and ask him not to go. You felt cold when you thought of Denji leaving but you knew you two would need space otherwise your arm would never heal. 
“I’ll be waiting.” You smile up at him and he returns that smile.
“I-- I almost don’t want to leave.”
“I almost want you to stay.” You return. The gaping loneliness seemed to be reaching out between you both. But you had to be smart, you had to think rationally. You’d just met him hours ago… you barely knew him. In fact you didn’t know him at all. But… that really didn’t seem to matter because your hands had barely gripped Denji’s shirt, your body making a conscious decision before your mind could think better of it. “What if you stayed the night? Would that be so crazy?” You’d had one night stands before… it wasn’t crazy…
“I’ll stay with you.” He says. You don’t let your mind talk you out of it, you just gently pull him towards your bedroom. You have no thoughts of furthering your prior make out sesh… you’d rather just sleep with him beside you. You gave Denji some clothes to change into and he helped you change into something comfortable. Once you got into bed, Denji following you inched close to him under the covers. Craving the warmth he provided. You’d never known how cold you were until this very moment. Denji turned to face you and in the dark you saw him flush red. “Can I hold you?” He asked and you didn’t even bother speaking because you were moving closer the moment he ended his sentence as his arms slotted around your hips, your face pressing against his chest. In his arms you felt more safe and secure than you’d ever felt. You closed your eyes against the thoughts that swam around in your mind. You were thinking too heavily. You just needed to shut it off. Denji’s steady heartbeat gave you something to focus on, that and his soft snoring that sounded moments later. Sleep hadn’t evaded you tonight where it had so many other nights. Denji’s arms gently tensed around you as he drew you slightly closer in his sleep. After a few moments your mind had shut off and you were slowly and finally lulled to a peaceful sleep. One of many with Denji in the years to come.                               
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ieatkeyboard · 7 months
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Luxiem boys reacting to a reader with baby fever
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Warnings: Reader is AFAB, suggestive, I think that's it? Characters: Vox X Reader. Luca X Reader. Ike X Reader. I'll do the other 2 boys tomorrow my tumblr is shitting itself rn- VOX: He was cooking dinner when you bust through the bedroom door and took your birth control out of the medicine cabinet, throwing the pills in the garbage. The demon was stunned to say the least. He took the pills out of the garbage and set them on the counter. "We kinda need these, no?" You shoved your phone in his face and he looked at the screen, seeing a toddler in a bear sweater waddle over to it's dad who seems to have just gotten home from work. "Vox, I need one." "Darling.." "Please! Can you imagine how cute they'd be!" You begged, putting your arms around his neck as you looked at him. The more he thought, the more you began to convince him. He'd have his own family, and knowing you'd be their other parent gave him enough reassurance. It wasn't the first time you'd ask for his kids, and not the first time he'd thought about seeing you with his own kid. You giggled and smiled at him, "You're thinking about it." "Well you told me to, didn't you?" He replied, kissing your forehead. "We'll talk after dinner, how does that sound?" He asked, giving you another quick kiss before you let him go. "Fiiiiine" You whined. "I love youuuu" "I love you tooooo, Darling." He chuckled. You two sat together and talked over dinner. Talked about how you both had stable jobs and how you were both good with kids. "Maybe we can start trying for one, hm?" He proposed, a soft smile on his face as he held your hand. "Are you serious?!" You smiled and yelped as he nodded. "Ah! OhmygodohmygodOH MY GOD!" You hugged him and he kissed you. "When? When can we start trying?" You asked, words hurried. "We can start right now if you'd like~" He smirked and you blushed. He kissed you again, slower and deeper this time. He carried you upstairs and set you on the bed, facing towards the mirror. His hands lifted your shirt just enough to expose your stomach. "My Dear..Fuck, you'll look so good carrying my baby" He gently began to suck on your neck and you whimpered. "Lay back, Beautiful. I can't wait anymore." - LUCA: Your continues 'awes' and 'oh my god's caught Luca's attention. He looked over your shoulder. "What are you doing?" He asked, though he didn't need you to answer. He saw a little girl dancing with her mom at what looked like a wedding. The girl was young, maybe 4 or 5? "Ohhh I see." He wrapped his arms around your waist as you continued to scroll, a bunch more parents with kids. From toddlers to new borns, there were hundreds of videos. "Luca Baby?" You asked and he nodded, looking at the baby on the screen. "Can we have a baby?" He looked at you and kissed your cheek before resting his head back on your shoulder. The more he thought about it, it would be cute. It's not like he couldn't protect you and your kid. He knew you'd be good parents. "Yeah..Yeah I think I'd like that." He spoke, his tone serious. He kissed your neck over and over as his hands began to wander. "Do you want one like..Now?" His voice was a soft whisper in your ear and you leaned into him, turning your phone off and setting it on the table next to you. "Yes." You moaned at the feeling of his lips on your skin and he picked you up swiftly. "Please, Luca?" "What kind of dad would I be to deny the parent of my child?" He kissed you and walked quickly to his room, setting you down on your shared bed. The blonde lifted your shirt just above your chest and kissed down your body. "Mmm~ You're so pretty..And soft" -
IKE: You hurried to the bathroom and before he knew it you were now in the living room, on the couch, or should I say on him, an inch away from his face. "Hi, Lovely. " He said with a smile. "What's up?" "It's that tiiiime~" You smiled, your hands resting on his naked chest. "Ahh, I see. So you running like your life depended on it is because you're ovulating." He smiled, kissing your jaw. "Mhmmm." You sighed as he began to trail kisses down your neck and his hands slipped under your shirt, rubbing your back soothingly. "You were looking at baby clothes again, weren't you?" He mumbled and chuckled when you nodded. "Don't worry, Love. You'll see them on a baby of your own soon enough, I promise." You had started trying a month ago, not a whole lot because what you both considered "trying" was to have sex while you were ovulating. "Ike- Ah~" You moaned and began to feel his bulge under you. "I know, Love...I know"
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Omg so ik your lil blurb about reader finding slayer ended with the two of them planning to go on a date, but what if after a few dates slayer's lil ass ended up going missing again, this time ending up straight at reader's door. Maybe reader finds her before heading to work and takes her with her or something just to take her back to sev? these are just thoughts
SCREAMINGGG
men and minors dni
slayer can tell her mom likes you.
sevika's been coming home smelling like you more and more often.
while she only spent one night with you, the little dog is a great judge of character, and she knows you're a good match for her momma.
so, after your third date (and after watching sevika anxiously talk herself out of taking things further with you about five times,) slayer takes things into her own hands.
the next day, as sevika's taking the garbage out, she leaves the door cracked, and slayer takes her opportunity.
she darts out the door and starts her trek to your apartment.
it takes sevika five minutes to realize slayers missing.
she calls you in tears, panicked and cursing her 'stupid little shit' of a dog for always sneaking out.
you stay on the phone with her for hours, trying to calm her down, promising her you'll help her put up missing dog posters tomorrow. you feel so fucking bad for her, that halfway through your call you jump in your car and put her on speaker, slowly driving through town to see if you can catch sight of little slayer.
when you get home (after sevika cried herself to sleep) you slowly trudge back to your apartment, worried about your (maybe?) girlfriend and her puppy.
when you get your door, you burst into laughter.
because there, on your welcome mat, sits little slayer, wagging her tail and yapping happily at the sight of you.
"you little shit!" you say adoringly as you scoop the puppy up into your arms.
slayer wiggles in excitement, licking your cheeks as she kisses you hello.
"you're evil, you know?" you scold the dog as you turn back around to get to your car. "your mom's worried fuckin' sick about you." you say.
slayer doesn't care. she's just happy that her plan's working.
you drive her back to sevika's laughing the entire way at the mischievous puppy.
when you get there, you knock on her door, slayer's tail wagging in your arms as you listen to sevika fumble out of bed and pull a shirt on before she opens the door.
you gulp as her door swings open.
she's just as upset as she was the first time you stood on her doorstep, her eyes bloodshot and puffy, her nose running.
but now, you're a little closer with sevika, and you can appriciate other things about her appearance.
like how she's in just her boxers and a wife pleaser, having just woken up. how her hair's a mess and falling into her eyes. how she absolutely fucking lights up at the sight of you and slayer, just how pretty her smile is, just how sparkly her eyes get when she laughs.
"you've got to be fucking kidding me!" she exclaims. you laugh.
"she was on my welcome mat, waiting for me to get home." you say, passing slayer to sevika.
sevika bursts into laughter, kissing slayer, and the, wiping her lips and pulling you forward for a breathtaking, knee-weakening kiss.
you gasp against her. you've only kissed two or three times, at the end of your dates, little goodbye pecks.
this is different. this is a kiss.
just as sevika starts to pull away, you reach forward and grab her shirt, pulling her back against you. she hums against your lips, and slayer whines at being squished.
when you finally pull away, slayer jumps out of sevika's arms and runs back into her apartment, ready to go to sleep after a successful mission.
sevika clears her throat, then looks at you.
"hi." she says. you giggle.
"hey." you say. sevika smiles.
"do you... maybe want to come inside?" she asks. you grin.
"fuck yeah i do." you say.
afterwards, when you guys are panting and naked and sweaty on sevika's bed, you laugh at the ceiling. sevika squeezes your hand.
"what're you laughing at?" she asks. you shrug.
"i oughta start kidnapping that dog if this is what her return gets me." you say. sevika laughs.
"y'know... you could just be my girlfriend. that way we can do this whenever, without the emotional turmoil beforehand." sevika says.
you grin and flop over to lay ontop of sevika's body, pressing a kiss to her lips.
"that'd be great." you say. "i'm not sneaky enough to get away with dognapping."
outside of the bedroom, slayer settles down on the couch, now that the noise coming from the bedroom has stopped. looks like her plan worked.
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