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transmeds · 2 years

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I saw your blog and felt like explaining my own view on gender and see your own! I’m not trying to debate so pls don’t get upset, I just want to learn more about tucute/transmed discourse since I’ve been out of the loop for a long time!

I personally believe that gender and biological sex are unrelated and although gender was based on sex, it has grown far beyond that. One’s own experience with gender is different from everyone else’s. Yes, people may have similar views, but one’s one gender experience is unique and only they can determine how they identify.

nobody can tell others how to identify or what’s a “valid” identity. Trying to make rules and specific meanings for something that was constructed by people and has such a loose meaning is impossible and there’s no all-inclusive definition.

pronouns ≠ gender, pronouns are a form of self expression/presentation

neopronouns and xenogenders are just highly specific and unusual ways of identifying one’s self. It’s a form of being non binary. They just describe gender experiences. That’s it. People don’t genuinely think they’re a dog or a galaxy or whatever.

being nonbinary isn’t a third gender, it’s not being entirely male or entirely female. You can be male aligned nonbinary and female aligned non binary because you don’t identify with the binary 100%

sorry if that was a lot, I just had a lot to say! Lol.

see when you describe gender as some vague concept that is a rainbow n different from everyone thats immediately bullshit because... what does that even mean?? you didn't give me an explanation you gave me w definition you would give to a kid because theyre not old enough to understand what you actually meant. unless you truly just dont have a further understanding of what you meant past that.

sure i cant tell anyone how to identify or whatever but i can point out that 99% of the time, all of these stupid genders and things are Just Personalities and making it harder for people who just want to be who they are to exist. there's a reason a shit ton of trans people have started to gravitate back towards transsexual over transgender. because there is a fundamental difference between OUR gender and YOUR gender.

pronouns are NOT A FORM OF SELF EXPRESSION THEYRE A TOOL IN SPEECH TO HELP US SPEAK SMOOTHER AND IDENTIFY THE GENDER OF THE SUBJECT WE ARE TALKING ABOUT. "red isnt a word to describe a color its to describe ur self expression and connection to any color!" no, its to describe the color red.

honestly the whole gender experiences shit is so fucking crazy useless. what the hell is a gender experience? to me gender experiences sounds like how you would get treated because of your gender or at the very least something like do you follow gender roles or not? but to some people apparently its a uniquely personal thing thats unable to be described (often because it isnt real/they know if they did describe they would be told that's.. normal and doesn't make them a different gender) anyways. no theyre not a form of describing unusual ways of identifying or whatever. they're just there for people who dont understand the difference between gender and a personality.

if someone is "not entirely male" they're either not male or not nonbinary you cant be in-between.nonbinary is not binary, so it cant be partially binary. asexual is Not asexual, so it can't be Demisexual. any man who is partially a man but doesn't Relate to other men is still just a man. i was gonna bother saying more n shit but honestly ur message is too long and i don't care anymore.

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empty-system-culture-is · 8 months

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just so you all know, this blog isnt dead or anything! and will not be for the foreseeable future. its just theres not a lot of activity lol (and i havent had much to say on here since this is, yk, a system blog. and. yaknow. gestures at the type of system i am / was)

but yeah! like send in an ask on whatever (doesnt even need to be culture related)

also note: ill probably be updating my intro post again so if anyones particularly bored, check it out or whatevers

#mod eli

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thisdreamplace · 1 year

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hi. i wish i had the courage to come off anon but im not comfortable with it. but i just had a good cry while scrolling through your blog. thank you. honestly, life has been so sad for years. in 2020, i found out about the law. life has been rough & i just want softness. all of these rules that have been thrown at me do not make me feel good. i’m even afraid to type this at this point bc it may “mess up my manifestation”. but all this forcing is not worth it. does anyone ever stop and say “is all this worth it”? not about being god but all the rules & methods & techniques. does anyone ever want to live in peace? i feel like all of it isn’t peace. at least for me. in my head, god is stress free. but i can’t even wake up or go to sleep without the constant thought of negativity. i wake up “man, my 3d is still this way ugh, let me ignore & force these affirmations down my throat” and repeat the next day. i haven’t enjoy my life for 2 years. is anyone not tired like me??? 😭 it’s all supposed to be simple. i’m not the type to repeat forced affirmation & analyze every damn thing. i just want to eat ice cream & chill. lol. after scrolling through your blog, i see it’s ok. it’s okay to do whatever feels right for me. i hate that i had to see your blog to understand that. i wish i believed in myself the way i believed in others. i was already thinking i should just do my own thing but i didn’t trust it. i had to see a blog say it. 🥲 no more of that tho. i trust me. if we think about it, someone had to discover this law themselves. who’s to say we can’t just come up with something our self. there is no limit. blogs & loa related people don’t resonate with me anymore (no hate at all, i’ve just evolved in some way). i believe the true feeling is what brings you peace within. what truly resonates with me is creating my own thing. so that’s what i’ll do. so this is my official goodbye to the community.

ty beautiful blog that i just so happened to come across a second ago. 😂💞

hi <3

awe anon. tbh i think a lot of people are tired. i think its morseo frightening to let it all go though. the scary thing is once you learn about this law, there is no turning back. there is always that voice bugging you that says, "you caused this, its your fault, change it ! fix it now !" the sort of peace our past ignorance used to bring is no longer an option. we cant forget everything we know. but how can we move forward from here, branching off with all we know now ? its honestly terrifying when you put so much time and energy and faith into this for so long.

its actually very beautiful that this blog gave you a sense of light ! i love that ! this is literally why i love people and interaction and experiences. because we can move forward and grow in such positive ways thanks to the light of someone else ! thats literally so beautiful to me ! its why we are here together !!! omg

i'm glad that youre finally setting urself free. take it moment by moment n be patient with yourself as you find what feels best, and learn what its like to really listen to yourself. i remember during my break how i went throught this process and i told one of my friends it felt like i was literally recovering from addiction. bc thats essentially what its become for many. logging into whatever platform everyday, getting their daily high from all the motivational content and success stories, just to crash again later when the world just isnt seemingly bending to their will like the top accounts promised. its really an addicting doomloop. so take it easy and be okay with wherever you are at a moment.

if u ever feel comfortable to come off anon, i would love to be friends <3 sending all the love and sunshine to u on ur new journey ! xo

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rarepair-haven · 2 years

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I feel so bad because i have all these cool and detailed aus with interesting sanses and entire stories beyond the multiverse that has lived in my head rent free for almost 5 years but i never posted them or let them see the light of day lol. I wanna make a sans au/undertale art blog exclusively for that but i mostly have rarepairs( i think you guys rbed one of my feverdream/dream x fresh art) and oc x canon and oc x oc so i never get popular cause people only like the common pairs and posting your non-sans au ocs(especially if said oc is human and isnt a selfship related thing) garentees a drop in blog traffic.

It sucks but do you have any advice for someone trying to be more seen as a sans au artist but dosent want to come across as demanding?( like i rly dont want to add a banner of "rbs >likes" cause i know it makes me feel bad when i cant or dont want to be put on the spot.)

Also side note, ive noticed sans aus and undertale is getting alittle bit of a resurgence on tiktok so thats awesome! Hopefully the fandom will get a second wind.

It’s like one am so bear with any incoherence here.

You’re more popular than you think I guarantee it. People for whatever reason don’t tend to interact with art much, they’ll see it Maybe like it and continue to scroll by. But chances are there’s gonna be a group out there who talk about your posts and send them to their friends and chat about the characters. I know this from personal experience albeit with fanfic. Went writing a few fics and abandoned a couple, only to still find people years later who read and loved it, just never commented or if they did leave a kudos it was under a guest account. So yea there’s likely more people seeing your stuff than you think.

Now to get popular popular, like one of those AUs that are known by the vast majority of the fandom? Unfortunately that ship has already sailed. When it comes to a new game or book or even social media site, you gotta jump on it right from the start and be pumping out content frequently. Even then you need some luck, one or two posts going viral, before hitting some big well known level of popularity. My advice? Stick with whatever makes you happy creating, join a server or two to share stuff in and get feedback/praise for it, and thank whatever god you may or may not believe in that you’ve made your own space online without having to deal with the hate that inevitably comes with the popularity

#mod classic #ask #a bit more of a serious topic than usual but

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golbrocklovely · 2 years

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I know you like her but just give me this, if they WERE “flirty like that” wouldn’t we be seeing the same thing coming from Colby? Looks like hes not like that with her at all UNLESS hes face shit drunk. In which case hes like that with everyone. He acts nowhere near the same with her as he does with Amber you can not say he does, he’s goofy with Stas and i have never heard him make an innuendo around her sober but with Amber and even Shea he had no problem doing so.

Yes it is their problem to figure out my thing is that i notice no matter how many asks about it you get you are hard set on “no its not happening because I dont see it”, thats why you keep getting so many asks about the same thing, because you dismiss it. Notice how the Shea asks stopped once you and other blogs noticed what she was up to? And this isnt about having to agree with everything but if you are going to continue making comments like “i never saw it” “this never happened” then of course you’re going to get people who come back with “HOW did you not see it??? Its right there”. Not bashing you just saying thats why people keep pointing out more stuff on her and you keep denying and going around it its not like theyre pointing out so you in particular do something about it, they are venting and adding to what they see because you keep saying you dont see it. And yes posting the same thing after someone does it all the time is weird.

Its all her twitter and tagged on ig btw

full honesty, i kinda regret telling yall that i like her. bc while i tolerate her, i'm not a huge fan of her. the only reason it seems like i "like" her more on here than i actually do is bc if i don't defend her, then this would end up being a free for all to shit on her. at least sometimes. not saying that's what you're doing, just saying some of the asks i've gotten in the past aren't the nicest towards her lol

look, i can agree that her relationship with colby isn't the same as him with any other girl, apart from maybe shea. i don't pretend to not see what yall are pointing out. i can see that sometimes she does things that seem to be egging on the fans, or the shippers. i don't deny that. i think her and shea are similar in that way, somewhat. shea just went way over the line, imo.

but a lot of the stuff yall see, i honest to god don't. and i don't mean that as me pretending not to see it, i mean you guys will say "look at the comments she's made, look at the comments she's liked, look at what she's liked on twitter/insta". i've gone thru her twitter likes multiple times, and every time, i don't see anything outright related to her and colby. i saw one thing today, that was technically from a month or two ago. but if she's liked all this stuff, then she must unlike it by the time i go to look, bc legitimately i don't physically see it.

my main issue is that some of you guys make it seem as if there is some deep motive behind every. single. thing. she. posts. whether it's her posting a tweet, liking one, liking a comment, posting a tiktok, posting a insta pic, a story, a snapchat, whatever, yall immediately make it seem like there is something deeper going on when in reality she's probably just posting bc she wanted to, and that's it. it's probably as simple as that. there isn't some master plan behind every move she makes so that eventually everyone in the fandom will be shipping her and colby. at least i don't believe there is. and if you do, cool. that's great. we're just not in the same boat and that's fine.

the only reason i argue back with some of these asks is bc, again, the motive aspect. some of you guys have a picture in your heads of what she's doing and you're expecting me to be on the same page, when i'm not. which is why i disagree. has she done some questionable things? sure. i can agree to that. has she done some things that egg on shippers? again, i can agree to that.

but if it was a problem with colby, it's up to him to solve it. bc in the end all we're doing is speculating anyway. we don't know the whole picture. neither one of us are 100% right. that's all i'm getting at.

(none of this is directed at you specifically, just the general anons that come thru, so you know)

#ask #personal #stas

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sadisticyouko · 2 years

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honestly i tend to latch onto any characters thatre kinda fucked up and obsessive with their attraction bc yandere stuff is like. a really big vibe for me jfjdjfj and its why i sometimes project a bit of yandere-ism on other chars too jfksjf i be out here kinning himiko toga and shes not a low kin by any means- ACTUALLY i just remembered a song, its one im absolutely obsessed with, cant tell if itd be ur style or not but its Mx Sinster by I Dont Know How But They Found Me and its. very good creepy lover yandere song 👀 (their other song Choke isnt the same vibe but its an upbeat violent song which is really really fun too :3 )

also yeah i dont relate to hiei at all but im absolutely obsessed with him because he hits like. all of my points of Favorite Character. which means basically he checks off all of the points of shadow the hedgehog, who im equally obsessed with HFKSHFK the only difference is that hiei is much more of an asshole and has no problem with murder lmao. but hes SO. hot. cute. handsome. im literally thinking about him constantly daily and its absolutely a key part of my major kurama kin feels hfksjf i just want to hold him so baddd. sits him in my lap and kisses and bites him. edgy lil tsundere who owns my heart

also its no worries !!! i dont mind vents on my dash, hell on the occasion ill vent on my main too lol. its ur blog so do whatever the hell u want with it !! sometimes we just gotta yell shit out of our brain!

ALSO YEA IM VERY INTROVERTED TOO and conversing in asks like this at first is for some reason easier. less daunting. brains r so weird fbsjf BUT sometime. hopefully soon. i will try to dm u. or u can try to dm me first if u want fjdkfj hell if ud wanna talk on discord instead (if u have one) u could lmk bc i tend to be more active on there since im always chattin with my gf there lol. but yeah uve always just gave me a vibe of someone thatd be fun to chill with !!! (so hopefully we both can breach our introversion to actually chat LOL)

Omg I LOVE himiko 🥺 I kin her relationship with her family but I’m not exact enough to say I fully kin her 😂 I don’t really relate to too many ppl in mha (except maaybe todoroki, or ururaka on a good day) I kin so many people in yyh cuz I grew up watching it and reading the manga since I was 9 ! and then proceeded to read very inappropriate fanfiction for the rest of my life apparently 😂 so they’ve all had very strong influences on my personality ! yandere is a favorite vibe of mine, I haven’t heard those songs but I’ll definitely check them out ! i like the aggressive stuff so it sounds like it’d be right up my alley !

and omg that makes so much sense ! hiei is definitely … attractive >\\\\\< it’s the height that makes me conflicted tho ! I’m only 5 feet tall but I still struggle with the idea of it 😂 his personality is perfect tho 👌 definitely simp material, he’s still one of my all time favorite characters and for good reason ! I feel like if I think too hard about him I’ll fall down the rabbit hole of crushing on him and I won’t be able to stop, and kurama wouldn’t like that very much at all ૮⸝⸝> ̫ <⸝⸝ ა

yea idk how but it feels easier like this for first time interactions ! It’s like I’m in a big open field and it makes me feel safer than if I were a bunny in the cardboard chat box or something IDK 😂 we’re just gonna play dm chicken until someone cracks 😂 I don’t have a discord but I’m almost always on here ! don’t be afraid to dm me ! sometimes my social battery runs out BUT I enjoy the interaction !! ૮⸝⸝> ̫ <⸝⸝ ა

#I’m glad u think I’m chill #i try to be good #not too unhinged yanno #bunny girl sadisticyouko confirmed #jkjk I like to think of myself as also a fox or wolf #okay now I’m just rambling #sadisticyouko asks #don’t be afraid to reach out I’m mostly normal !#sadisticyouko rants #not writing

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wendimoorandinglenook · 6 years

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COMPUTER, ENHANCE

SHERLOCK LENT FARAH...HIS OLD VARSITY JACKET, APPARENTLY???

#sherlock hobbs #sheriff sherlock hobbs #farah black #this isnt related to this blog at all but whatever lol

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osmiabee · 4 years

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#i want to make a coherent post on this but also I'm like half asleep lol #but like i really wish there was an ocd solidarity movement the same way theres an adhd solidarity movement #like obviously compating communities isnt helpful and I'm absolutely so so so behind it as a movement but also oh man #like the causes of adhd and ocd are totally different one is overactivity and one is underactivity in a particular part of the brain #but the outcome is the same!! your brain gets really overwhelmed and its really goddamn hard to focus #like I completely relate to all of the ADHD posts especially since being on meds #and so many people improve the adhd symptoms with meds but those meds would make my brain go whacko #like its only just got to the point where my brain has stopped trying to convince me that I'm a predator #like i am finally able to take showers that dont last 40-50 minutes because of random rituals and dissociation!! wild!!#but also im tired and things still scare me and theres invisible hoops and rituals and things I need to do in order and ugH #i just want to take my brain out and give it a little polish!! give it a little dusting and a nice scrub and shine #im very extremely tired and also baby #so theres that!#anyway #delete later lol #but yeah i wish I followed more ocd positivity blogs because it would help a lot i think #but also theres so much romanticisation of ocd and mental illness that its like eh do i want to go there #also so many people post triggering things about intrusive thoughts or compulsions #and like whatever its your own blog but like... i just want positive advice on how to handle symptoms #i just want some little positive advice!!! like a little hug #actually ocd #b l e h #also i ran out of meds and I cant afford the £9 i need to get more until next friday so fuck me i guess!!!!!

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whatevencomesnext · 2 years

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Oh mannn I completely forgot about Tumblr! This was all I was on when I was a teenager. Wow. I’ve been going and deleting all my social medias because I’m sick of them, I’m sick of the culture and the algorithms and how addictive they are. Something something cleaning up my digital footprint so I can actually get a job, but mostly I’ve just decided I don’t like social media anymore. I guess Tumblr is different, it's a lot easier to be anonymous imo. I don’t even know what this is. One last shout into the void.

I'm tired of social media and how unhappy it makes me, and so I've been thinking a lot about the role tech has in my life and the lives of people around me. The first ever art class I took that was more focused on technology, the prof told us right off the bat that we were basically cyborgs. Even if most of us don’t have like, brain implants or a third arm (like that crazy artist guy Kenneth told me about)

But our tech is still more or less attached to us. I mean think about it, person who probably stumbled across this blog by accident, can you remember the last time you didn’t have your phone with you? Or near you? Or close enough to get easily? According to A Cyborg Manifesto by Donna Haraway, a cyborg is someone with both organic and cybernetic parts. A mix of the two. It seems really, like, sci-fi, but isnt it kinda true? And man, I don’t know how to deal with that. That prof told our class that aaaages ago and I still think about it, like especially over the pandemic. We’re way way more dependent on tech than we were even a few years ago and idk, it seems like I’m the only one under 40 that finds that unnatural? Like, we as a species figured out how to survive a million billion years or whatever just fine without smartphones and wifi everywhere. Why is it so essential to our lives now?

It totally freaks me out as well. I get ads on youtube related to stuff I mention out loud. I feel like I should be wearing a tinfoil hat when I say these kinds of things, but its something a lot of people know about AS A FACT- but just dont care. I just started watching an older show with my roommate and okay like I’ve never used facebook aside from uni class group chats but i logged on the other day bc i forgot my aunt’s birthday and like. Facebook was like hey! Wanna join a fan group for this show? :) It made me want to throw my laptop into the wall!!!!

And yeah, there’s a part of me that’s like, woah thats kind of an extreme reaction. But like!!!!! Don’t I have a right to privacy?? Can’t I talk about whatever stupid thing I want without worrying about who’s listening outside the room and selling this info to the corporate overlords at Meta???? I told my dad about that happening and he got creeped out, understandably, and then I told my brother and he was like “yeah? That’s how it is lol” And like!! I don’t know if im alone in this but thats not how it should be????

I’m gonna buy a flip phone and go live in the woods. Contacting my loved ones should not come at the price of being wiretapped.

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marmett · 2 years

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For ur send me a character:

Majima

Fenris

-BisexualKiryu’s main blog

Majima:

My favorite thing about them

ogghghgohgh i dont think i can pick ONE thing so im just gonna talk abt why i like him c:

majima is just a rlly compelling character to me bc he is so dynamic, he changes a lot over the course of the series but he still just has that core majima-ness so hes still recognizably himself despite it all. but i played y0 first so what made me rlly like him outta the gate was his character arc, its just sooo interesting bc in some ways he does develop in positive ways, but in others he gets worse <3

My least favorite thing about them

they made an absolute BANGER of a character with majima but then floundered to do ANYTHING w/ the depth they gave him. this is esp apparent in kiwami when instead of like,,,, capitalizing on anything they set up w/ shimano or his internal struggles they just... tossed majima everywhere in.

My favorite canon relationship

kiryu (oh my god they were narrative foils)

his relationship w/ saejima is also so fun! just bros hanging out, wish majima would get help for his codependency but whatever, theyre still a couple of cute old man besties.

and for these next two i dont mean theyre my favorite relationships in the sense that theyre GOOD but the sense that its interesting

but i do rlly like the relationship dynamic btwn majima and sagawa and what they set up for him w/ shimano in y0.

My favorite non-canon relationship

i think a lot abt how majima and haruka would interact under the circumstances of majima being a trusted person to kiryu. bc i dont think they ever actually interact on screen? but i just think abt it a lot and how messy it would be lol.

The sexuality I headcanon for them

majima is bisexual he told me himself :)

What I’d do if I could spend the day with them

i want him to teach me sick knife tricks so i can b half as cool as he is

Random fact about them I like

smth i rlly love abt any media is when they give the characters little hobbies and fun personal details, so i love that majima is canonically super into zombie movies and baseball. like, thats just such a cute lil detail that makes him seem more real

Fenris

My favorite thing about them

fenris has a pretty monotone way of speaking yeah? so he usually gets mistaken for being serious and brooding all the time, but then when he starts talking its like oh, this guy is a RIOT. its just so funny how in one of the first convos he has w/ varric, varric is surprised when fenris starts cracking jokes. its just a very endearing character trait to have, and also relatable to me, personally, bc i also have a monotone voice but im an absolute CLOWN.

My least favorite thing about them

when hes mean to merrill ;_;

like listen, i love my pack of petty, mean bisexuals, but merrill does not deserve this. go get into another slappy fight w/ anders or something.

My favorite canon relationship

isabela! idk why, but the lil relationship they have if hawke doesnt date either of them means a lot to me? its just the idea of them being together and maybe isabela helping fenris explore his sexuality in a way he was never rlly able to before is just so sweet. from what i remember it seemed like it was a bit more of a casual arrangement? but im glad they had fun...

my other favorite is hawke ofc. fenris and both of my hawkes were just friends, but the friendship route is still very good.

My favorite non-canon relationship

this isnt smth ive rlly thought much abt, but u know what my warden mahariel would def be besties w/ him bc he already likes to befriend/adopt city elves who dont have a family.

The sexuality I headcanon for them

i dont have to HC anything bc hes canonically bisexual uwu

What I’d do if I could spend the day with them

man i dunno. do u think he'd like mario kart?

Random fact about them I like

im obsessed w/ the time he offered to kill javaris for the arishok after he wasted all our time like. you know i was thinkin that too but he really said it. idk if thats rlly a fact tho...

i also like that he invites the lads over for cards, idk who all is invited, but its funny they banned aveline for being a cop a sore loser.

#thanks for the ask uwu

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theunconcernedembalmer · 3 years

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what’s the issue with elisop? is it just bc you hc aesop as ace? im so concerned by seeing ppl adamantly opposed to mlm/wlw ships but im also genuinely curious about why you dislike it and other lgbt ships so much lol

hmm. that is a strong accusation, n i find it just a bit odd. are you new here? or perhaps you are taking personal offense at my dislike towards a favourite ship of yours and using the lgbt argument as moral high ground?

whatever the case may be, i thank you for asking. if u r truly looking for an answer, its below the cut n it is very very long. mind u these are all my personal opinions n i am in no way policing how others enjoy ships. just in case this wasnt clear; i dont wish to start discourse on this blog, especially since my takes are probably... unpopular.

firstly i would like to address the “disliking lgbt ships” bit, because this has very strong implications in itself. i have nothing against lgbt ships. i enjoy them, even. if the two characters have chemistry between each other, i ship it. however, the moment characterization is broken for the sake of romance, i lose interest. this is generally my stance on ships in general, n this applies for both straight n lgbt ships.

the ships themselves are fine. however, i do have issues with the ship dynamics, so ill let u in on that.

i want to touch on mlm ships in particular; i believe u are familiar with the top/bottom dynamic that is rampant in these kinds of ships? (i wont deny that this dynamic can be found in other types of ships, but for arguments sake i will be focusing on gay ships because i feel that this occurs more commonly here) its such a popular dynamic that is prone to stripping the personality from one if not both characters, only for them to be reduced to being dominant/submissive. for a character to be pigeonholed into a stereotypical category based on... preferred sexual positions? its just downright insulting, never mind the larger more problematic implications of it. top/bottom is not indicative of someones personality, by the way. flattening multi dimensional characters into these stereotypes is so so so insulting.

unfortunately this is The Most Popular portrayal of just about any gay ship around. ive seen it being used everywhere in so many fandoms n it just about becomes apparent to me that ppl come to stories looking for a Ship. not the stories, nor the characters, just a ship. while id like to say theres nothing wrong with that, keep in mind not everyone is just looking for 2 characters that look pretty next to each other. if i ship something, i see interesting n meaningful interactions between 2 characters, which is so often not the case once u bring in the top/bottom dynamic. why is it so popular? because somehow this is what ppl like from a gay ship n hence it sells. ppl want the drama, characterizations be damned. ppl want to see the big kiss that happens in the end, n maybe the sexy parts that come after. characterizations be damned.

so u can say im a little wary of gay ships when they cross my feed. hell, as a joseph aesop shipper i see this trope everywhere n im pretty disappointed as well. small tangent but i feel like this is the reason why zh0ngli n ch1lde is so popular in g3nshin. i try to see the appeal, i really do, but after a long while of analyzing their respective characters i dont think they have as much chemistry as ppl think they do. dont even get me started on how incredibly ooc they make either of these very interesting n unique characters in ship portrayals. all because of the top/bottom dynamic that ppl want to see. i say this for that particular ship, but this is pretty much the case for a lot of ships out there, n the latter part is painfully true even when the 2 characters do have potential between each other. ill say it again im disgusted by the blatant disrespect to the characterizations if all ppl ever want is 2 pretty puppets to mush lips together. cos thats what theyre essentially reduced to this way.

n its so obvious to see when an artist subscribes to this rhetoric, because u can so clearly see it in the way they draw their characters. the “top” generally has sharper features to go with their “dominating personality”, while the “bottom” has disturbingly softer, feminine, dare i say sometimes child like features “to submit”. n thats where the uwu soft gay trope comes from, i believe. which, in case u still dont know, i hate with a burning passion.

so again for ppl with impaired reading comprehension, im fine with ships, including lgbt ones, but the moment u break characterization for the sake of the ship, im not that okay with it. u want to do it for a short crack comic? fine. but if thats the only way ur portraying the 2 characters then im immediately wary of ur content. ill still look at it cos usually the art is really good, but im very very wary. so im not “adamantly opposed”, just very critical of how the ships are being portrayed. if other ppl want to enjoy their ships like that, sure. just dont expect me to join in on something i dont agree on.

now id like to address not shipping “because i hc aesop as ace”. for ppl who are new to the blog (hello there), im an ace in a romantic relationship, so thats definitely not the reason i dont ship elisop. its more of being in a relationship has largely shaped my views towards romance as a whole. even before i met my boyfriend, i hated the romance genre in stories n media. most of it comes off as incredibly forced, especially those love triangles they seem to love putting into teen novels. thats one reason why i stopped reading when i was younger, but i digress.

did i partake in shipping when i was younger? i did. for a gay ship too (if anyone really wants to know, its kurotsukki from haikyuu. at least this was one that i can remember, i was mostly working on my 20 odd ocs for the longest time). i also used to write little short romance ficlets that i never posted anywhere cos i hated (n still do hate) my writing. but writing romance when u dont have experience was really just a way of projecting n probably a way of coping for myself, not that i knew at that time. but after i actually started a relationship with my boyfriend (whom i love n cherish a lot thank u very much), i began to see how much all these have skewed my views towards romance n have actually done some harm to our relationship. the bullshit that the general media feeds u constantly doesnt help in the slightest either.

quick topic shift to elisop in particular (about time, right?). i already stated that i only ship characters if i sense chemistry between the two personalities, n if u have seen the part where i dont ship elisop then u must have seen how agonized i am over not being able to have a concrete personality for eli. that is the main problem i have with elisop: eli does not feel like a solid character to me. n that is a huge problem, because if he doesnt have any defining characteristics besides being mild n nice, then he can be whoever i want him to be. (i have done this in my exorcist comics, i will admit this. n the fact that i can just do that... it really does not sit well with me personally.)

n that is dangerous.

back to young me doing lil ship things. i think its also pretty safe to say when u really do ship 2 characters, chances are u kinda really relate very very hard to at least one of them. that very quickly can turn into projecting, n shipping therefore is not “exploring the relationship between 2 characters” n it becomes “my preferred dating simulator 101″. of course this isnt always the case, but at least it was for me, n subconsciously it might be for lots of ppl too. n since this is ur mental playground, u call the shots, n there is no consequences if u slightly (or even entirely) alter one or both personalities to fit ur desired narrative. n u wouldnt even notice or know, cos ur blind to ur own biasness.

we bring our perceived notions into real life, im sure u know that. so when ur partner does not become that perfect knight in shining armour, or when they get upset at things that u do (which is a very normal thing by the way), n u think (very subconsciously), That isnt what my otp would do, something is wrong here (nothing is wrong, actually its just ur skewed perception of a stable romantic relationship). why wouldnt ur otp do this? because u are both halves of ur otps, there is no hidden secrets between them (apart from the pining part but thats irrelevant), n again they have been altered to fit ur preferred narrative.

a real relationship requires a lot of communication between parties, because newsflash, liking someone doesnt mean that u have to like every single thing they do, they will make mistakes n it will hurt u, n guess what, the reverse is also true. if u do go with absoutely anything that they would do with 0 objections whatsoever, ur not crushing on someone, ur idolizing them, n that power imbalance is detrimental to a relationship. these things are not obvious to ppl, especially when the whole climate is hell bent on getting into romantic relationships by a certain age or some bullshit. communication is key n is pretty much the only way to solve relationship issues, because the other person has a lot that u r not seeing n vice versa. as similar as 2 ppl can be, i doubt u can have 100% the same thoughts on all things. i dont make the rules.

so in ur mental playground u focus on the fluffy parts, maybe there is communication, but rarely is there any meaningful conflict. thats unrealistic, n if u bring that mindset to an actual relationship, thats not going to end well. i say meaningful conflict, because yes, generally u shouldnt have conflicts with ur significant other. but inevitably when ur with each other for long enough, u will realize that there are habits that u must change in order to be with the other person. habits that are harmful to the other person directly, or harmful habits towards yourself that indirectly harm the other person. these are meaningful in a sense that if left alone, it will manifest into larger problems that will harm u, the other person n the relationship as a whole. its meaningful to the relationship.

all these is made even worse if ur neurodivergent. maladaptive coping practices, self sabotaging behaviours, inherent disabilities. all these must be adjusted n addressed. im so incredibly thankful for my boyfriend for being incredibly patient with me when working all these out, n it has not been easy for me to work on myself n all my problems, n im still not done working on them. this aspect is often not explored in romance in general (or properly), n there is a very good chance i would have still been stuck in the unhealthy mindset of “this isnt like my otp, maybe we’re not meant to be”. because loving someone is a choice. no one is made for each other, it is a conscious choice made between 2 ppl to make things work. this is how arranged marriages work, i am told, n i do see the appeal, not that it actually does appeal to me culturally.

special mention to the kurotsukki ship, cos from there i found a very, very good fic that explored their relationship before n after getting together, n it actually showed aspects of this problem in the incredibly slow burn of (at that time) 20+ chapters. it was just one fic (n a very good one at that, i believe it was called Leviticus), but it had a lesson i never thought i needed to learn, n learn it i did, with a lot of help from my dear.

this is also probably the reason why i dont really want to delve too much into romance now. i know its a lot of work, n everything (mostly) that the media feeds u is really false advertising, but ppl eat that shit up n so it remains one of the most popular genres to date. im just very wary that if i do start on a romantic story, i want to be able to show it in a way like that fic did, the truths of relationships, because i dont want to make something that sells, i want to make something that meaningful to me, if a little indulgent. n that also includes being very careful in how the respective characterizations will change in a relationship. almost too careful now that i think about it, but its not something that i mind. i was never one for romance from the start, n now im very careful about shipping because of what happened to me persoanlly.

okay enough about me, lets talk about aesop. in any au u put the character in, the essence of the character must remain despite the change in environment. so lets say we have ur typical modern au. dead mom, check. shitty mentor doing illegal stuff? also check. autistic boy with social anxiety? we’re good to go. all these have implications on aesop as a character, n while ppl are aware of this, again the way they go about portraying it can go, in my personal opinion, very wrong. ppl who immediately woobify aesop completely because he has autism annoy me. ppl who reduce him to uwu soft boi cos he has social anxiety do not know how the disorder really works n as someone who has that i hate it to the core. ppl who do all these for the sake of ship have lost my respect. its insulting.

remember the top/bottom dynamic? not that elisop is completely free from that (even if i dont know much about eli, to put him in either one of those stereotypes feels very insulting to his character. i wont even say anything about doing it to aesop its so upsetting), but its not entirely made up of either. but now i want to introduce another trope i am very wary of, which is “i can fix him”. im sure u guys have seen the meme going around poking fun at this trope (for those who havent, its along the lines of “u can fix him? well i can be his worst nightmare”) n no doubt yall would have seen it n gotten sick of it in some forced hetero romantic bullshit. we have one damsel in distress with a saviour that solves all their problems just by existing n being romo with each other.

remember “my preferred dating simulator 101″? this is not mutually exclusive n from my point of view this is dangerously close to this trope. lets be real, if it was actually a thing that all ur deep rooted trauma magically disappears if someone were to waltz into ur life, we would want it. definitely. no painfully dissecting ur own problems n constantly facing them head on. real life states that this is not the case, but it will not stop us from dreaming. n so this trope is born n lives n will go on.

(finally) pulling aesop n eli into this, at least in my mind, u have one severely traumatized boy with lots of issues n u have this. nice mild guy who can be anything u want him to be. i hope u can see where im going with this, n thats the direction i see some elisop heading towards (i dont read a lot of elisop to be fair). if u came from my eli character talk, i mentioned that it is incredibly one sided. this is exactly what im talking about.

putting it all together in case u havent already, aesop is the damsel in distress, whose problems magically disappear because of elis godly kindness n little to no work on improving himself, n they lived happily n gayly ever after.

can u tell how much that does not appeal to me.

never mind the butchering of character that inevitably happens somewhere somehow, the unrealistically perfect themes n implications of this trope makes me so viscerally uncomfortable. this is, of course, due to personal reasons, n i definitely see the appeal of this dynamic because i would probably have been interested in this once upon a time as well. but as i am now, with everything i have explained up there n everything i have been through, i would politely rather not.

n its difficult to think of another dynamic, because of how little i know about eli apart from him being this saint, which easily makes him a candidate for being aesops trauma panacea. never mind aesop rarely, if ever, does anything for eli as a character in return, n its so damaging to buy into this rhetoric, where a person like this who would solve all ur issues no strings attached exists somewhere in the world. they really dont. a relationship has to be mutually benefitting, or it will be draining n disastrous. maybe u say, Oh its nice to imagine it once in a while. n yeah, i agree, except once in a while is a little difficult to keep track of n that is sort of what happened to me. id rather stay as far away as possible from this kind of unrealistic fantasy, i just got this shit sorted out with myself n my boyfriend.

i have some other reasons, but theyre more personally problematic, so i wont go into them here. but this is mostly n generally why i do not ship elisop romantically. if u do, u do u, and have fun, but again dont expect me to join u. thank u for coming to my ted talk, this took a lot longer than expected.

#mun rambles #its me the mun #unconcerned ramblings #posting this now cos this is a question ive been getting #although this has been worded in the most unnecessarily passive aggressive way possible that i do not appreciate #im wary about all u so called social justice warriors championing this n that liberal idea when all u want to do is stir shit #thankfully i dont have much experience with this but just passively seeing all these ppl run their mouths is getting very annoying #but just know that i will not tolerate any of that bullshit here. because if u really do care about ppl as much as u say u do #then why r u attacking ppl period #ur really just hiding behind a righteous excuse to harm people. thats disgusting. i dont want u here

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