#this is why I shame him. not at all bc I’m toxic

[waspgrave]

Desire to play fallen hero and draw characters that aren’t MY character? Bizarre

#truly my biggest woe is I hate drawing facial hair….ortega 😔 #this is why I shame him. not at all bc I’m toxic #prawn posts

[inagetawaycarxo]

I’m Not Him | The Shield Imagine [Separate]

Anon: Ooh could we get fic-one of the shield boys-where gf pushes him to hang out with his friends, doesnt kiss him in front of his friends, tries not to ask him for much. And he gets really angry until he learns her ex accused her of being clingy so she didnt want him to dump her bc shes 'smothering', some agst then fluff. Thanks!

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Summary; Y/n isn’t used to a nontoxic relationship so when The boys pull her up on her odd behaviour of pushing him to hang out with his friends more.

WARNINGS: fluff, angst, crying, breakups, makeups, roman being a sweetheart, Seth being an idiot, errors I missed.

A/N: I know you said one of the boys but I decided to do all three.

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DEAN AMBROSE: [aka Jon Moxley]

He was cool with it at first. He thought you were one of those calm girlfriends who didn’t make a big deal if he hung around his friends a lot.

You never kissed him in front of his friends, you never asked for much.

But it got to the point where it become a habit. Whenever he was with you and he got from one of his friends or a call, you told him to hang out with them.

He started to think maybe you didn’t love him anymore and were cheating on him, which caused him to get pissed off.

Eventually, he confronted you in a fit of rage, which kind of scared you.

The two of you were snuggled on the couch, watching some cheesy cringy movie on Netflix that he wasn’t really invested in when his phone pinged with a text message. It was one of his friends asking if he wanted to hang out. You glanced over at the text message.

“You can go see them,” You spoke. He looked up at you. eyes filled with anger which kind of made you gulp. Having flashbacks to your ex. You thought he was going to say of course I can.

“No, I’m watching this movie with you,” He spoke. Looking back at the screen. But you could sense he was annoyed, and you didn’t want him to think you were clingy.

“I can tell you hate it; you can go I don’t mind,” You spoke again. Voice filled with so much vulnerability.

“That’s bullshit y/n, and you know it,” He snapped, turning his attention away from the screen to look at you. Eyes filled with annoyance. It made you jump, scooting away from him.

“I-what,” You gasped out. Heart pounding so fast.

“You always push me to hang out with my friends, especially when I spend time with you, are you cheating on me? is that why you push me to hang out with your friends so you can bring him around? Or maybe you are using me? Stringing me along?” He growled out. Making tears fall from your eyes.

“No, I’m sorry, I just…I thought you would think I was being clingy if I didn’t let you hang around them, that you would think I am smothering you,” You sobbed.  

“Why would I think that?” He spoke. All his anger had died down. Being placed with sympathy.

You didn’t answer him, hanging your head down in shame. Your silence told him a lot. It obviously had something to do with your asshole ex.

“Did that asshole, call you clingy?” He asked. You nod your head.

“Hey, your not clingy for showing your love, remember that he is an asshole,” He spoke. Grabbing your chin and pulling your head up so you were looking at him.

Your eyes were blurred with tears. He wiped away your tears.

“I think I need to go around to your ex’s house and punch the shit out of him,” He spoke. Making a small smile appear on your lips, which made him happy.

“There’s that smile,” He beamed, letting go of your chin, as he wrapped his arms around you, pulling you closer to his chest as he hugged you tight.

“No more of that toxic thinking,” He spoke. You nodded your head…

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ROMAN REIGNS:

Roman finds it strange you push him to hang out with his friends. Even when they don’t text or call him to make plans.

He finds it even odd that you don’t kiss him in front of them, though he can understand given the fact that the relationship he and you had didn’t start great, you were still in a relationship and he was divorced, so some people might assume that he ruined your relationship or that you are pretty much a whore.

He definitely wasn’t going to force a kiss out of you. He didn’t want to make you uncomfortable.

His friends think you are cool for that, letting him hang out with them a lot, but Roman believes there’s something deep down that is making you push him towards his friends. Maybe trauma.

He knew your ex-boyfriend was the worst to you. He knew because he saved Roman isn’t angry per se he is just sad that you don’t want to spend a lot more time with him, even when his friends don’t ask him to hang out.

He just finds it odd. He thinks maybe something is going on with you.

Especially when you don’t ask a lot out of him. It’s like you don’t want his help. He can see you struggling when you do need help. It’s the insignificant things, like taking the dishes to the sink, struggling to hold the laundry basket full of clothes, etc.

He doesn’t believe you are cheating because he knows you better than you know yourself. He knows you are deeply in love with him, but he can tell you are scared. He does believe it has something to do with your past relationship.

He does think it has something to do with your ex, he thinks maybe you weren’t telling him the whole truth about your past relationship with your ex, the one he saved you from, he believed he was more than physically abusive to you he thinks he was emotionally abusive as well. He doesn’t want to pressure you into telling him if you weren’t ready.

So he took it slowly, canceling his plans to hang with you. which he saw put you on edge, it was only a matter of time till you caved in. He could tell by your behaviour, how on edge you were.

“You should hang out with them, I don’t mind,’ You spoke, as he helped you fold the pile of clothes.

Roman shrugged his shoulders.

“You okay?” He asked, noticing your breathing got uneven.

“Yeah, I just don’t want you to miss out hanging with your friends and regret it,” You answered rather too quickly.

“It’s never boring with you,” He spoke. Sending a wink your way, which seemed to make you cry even harder. Stupid emotions. You scolded yourself.

‘Y/n, hey, what’s wrong?” He asked. Hands cupping the side of your face.

“It’s nothing,” You gasped out. Drying your tears. But they still fell.

‘It’s not nothing if you are crying,” He spoke.

“I-just, I…” Struggling to tell him why you were crying. You didn’t want him to leave you since you were so emotionally damaged by your ex.

“Is this about your ex?” Roman asked, making you look at him in shock.

“How did you know?” You gasped out.

“It’s pretty obvious he did more than just physically abuse you,” Roman spoke. Making you cry even harder.

“You can tell me,” He spoke, as he guided you to sit on the couch. Hands off your face now. His right arm wrapped around your shoulder. He placed his left hand on your thigh. His eyes never left your eyes as you stared at him. when you spoke you looked away.

“He said I was smothering him whenever I asked him to do stuff or asked something from him, he said that I was clingy when I didn’t let him hang out with his friends, and when I kissed him in front of his friends he said I was being a clingy bitch and smothering him,” You confessed.

“He is truly a fucking idiot, he never deserved you,” Roman spoke in a soothing voice. He didn’t want to scare you with an angry voice. He was pissed off at your ex.

“Hey, look at me,” Roman spoke softly. you turned your head to look at him. It broke his heart seeing you crying over what that asshole did to you, the mind games he played on you still affected you.

”I just didn’t want you to think I was clingy and smothering you,” You sniffled out.

“I would never think that about you, I love you too much,” Roman spoke. Seeing you smile softly.

Which made him smile.

“I love you too,” You spoke. Making his eyes sparkle. The pad of his thumb wipes your fallen tears.

Eyes locked on each other.

“Don’t ever think you are being clingy or smothering me for showing your love and affection towards me because you aren’t I love you so much y/n,” Roman spoke in a soft tone, making your heart melt….

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SETH ROLLINS:

Seth really didn’t make a big deal out of it at first, like Dean/Jon he assumed you were the cool girlfriend, the laid-back one, but he started to see it as a red flag, especially when you didn’t kiss him in front of his friends, how you solely pushed him towards hanging out with his friends, how you tried not to ask much from him, even when he knew you wanted to.

It started to piss him off. So, when he rudely confronted you on this, his patience for your explanation ran thin. And it really didn’t go the right way.

“Are you cheating on me? huh, is that why you won't kiss me in front of my friends? You push me to hang out with them so you can bring him around and fuck him? huh?” He snapped out. Which only made you burst into tears.

Seth held no sympathy though. He rolled his eyes.

“Oh don’t cry,” He snapped.

“He can have you, WE ARE DONE,” Seth shouted, before turning around and storming out of the house he shared with you. Leaving you to fall on the floor, and sob harder.

Seth ignored you through the weeks, texting you to get your stuff out of the house, and he didn’t care where you went to. He was ruthless.

Your best friend was pissed off at him, you ended up staying with her. Wallowing in her guest bedroom and crying your eyes out. Heartbroken. She hasn’t seen you this messed up since that asshole ex of yours did a number on you.

She had enough. Seth was being a complete wanker, she had to give him a piece of her mind, so she decided to drive over to his place and yell at him for treating you like shit. If it got to the point she had to get violent she would, she didn’t care, no one treats her best friend like that.

When she got there she parked in the driveway. Putting her car in park and putting the handbrake up. Turned the car off. She took the keys out of the ignition and got out of her car. Slamming the door shut.

She marched over to the front door. Knocking really hard on the door. She didn’t care.

The door opened revealing an annoyed Seth. They both rolled their eyes.

“Hey asshole,” She hissed out.

“Of course, she would get her best friend to pick her shit up, too much of a coward to do it herself,” Seth snarled out. Making y/n’s best friend give him a bitch look.

“She never cheated on you, you fucking moron, if you got your head out of your ass for just one minute and let her explain instead of jumping to a conclusion, then you would know the truth, and your one to talk, you’ve cheated, you are such a hypocrite, she would never cheat, I don’t know what she sees in you but you are a complete douchebag,” She snapped. Her eyes blazed with anger.

“If she didn’t cheat on me then why was she pushing me towards my friends not kissing me, hardly asking me much?” He snapped back.

“Because her ex called her clingy and told her she was smothering him for not letting him hang out with his friends for kissing him in front of them, especially when she asked him for things, so she got it into her head that if she did that shit with you, you wouldn’t like it, you idiot,” She hissed out. God, she wanted to punch him so hard.

Seth looked shocked. Mouth a gap. She took a step back. Rolling her eyes in annoyance. God, he was such an idiot. She only came to him because it broke her heart to see you in so much pain and Seth was an idiot for not letting you explain yourself.

“Are you coming you idiot, I’m not letting my best friend cry another tear for you,” She hissed.

Seth quickly grabbed his keys from the hallway table that was near the front door. Exiting the house. He locked the door, following your best friend. She was already in the car. Looking annoyed.

Seth got in the car. Before he could put his seatbelt on your best friend sped off. Making Seth look at her like she was crazy. He put the seatbelt on.

An awkward silence filled the car. She turned the radio up. But Seth’s thoughts were on you.

She definitely wasn’t going to the speed limit. Going over the speed limit. She really was a rough driver. A couple of times Seth thought they were going to crash into another car.

After fifteen minutes of her horrible driving, they finally arrived at her house. She parked the car in the narrow driveway. Putting the handbrake on and the handbrake up. She turned the car off.

Turning her head to look at Seth.

“I will be in the backyard, if I here uncontrollably sobbing I will end your life,” She spoke, yanking the key out of the ignition, taking her seatbelt off, she opened the door and got out, slamming the door as soon as she got out. she opened the side gate, then slammed that one closed.

Seth collected his thoughts for a second, before he unbuckled the seatbelt, and opened the door. He got out. closing the door softly.

Walking to the front door. He opened the door, gently closing it. Anxiety bubbled up inside of him.

He heard soft sniffling. Making his heart drop. He did that to you, and it broke his heart. Seth followed the sound of soft crying. Standing in front of a door. He knocked softly. When he didn’t hear a reply he opened the door.

His heart ached as he saw you curled in a ball.

“Y/n,” Seth spoke softly, making you stop crying. He walked closer to the bed. Sitting down

“I know why you have been acting the way you have when we were together, I know you didn’t cheat, and I was such an idiot to think that, your best friend told me that your ex said you were clingy and smothering him when you showed PDA towards him to his friends, and that he would say you where clingy when he wanted to hang out with his friends and he claimed you didn’t let him, he was an idiot, and I am a bigger idiot for not letting you explain,” He spoke.

You turned to face him. Making Seth give a heartbroken look as he saw how red your eyes were. Cheeks puffy. Of course, she would go over to his house and give him a piece of her mind, she always cared about you.

“I want to make a mend, I want us to be together again, I’m a fool for letting you go, but I understand if you don’t want to, it is totally up to you?” He asked. Your heart hammered.

Your hand grabbed a hold of his. Making him look down at his and your intertwined fingers, he looked up at you as you looked up at him with pain-filled eyes.

“Baby steps,” You spoke, Making Seth smile. His thumb caresses the back of your hand. You knew it would take a lot of work to trust again, to trust Seth fully, to be able to be comfortable in your relationship with him, to get over your past trauma with your ex-boyfriend, but you believed Seth was worth it….

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[dollsuguru]

i am going feral over this and idk where it even came from but????? this might even be ooc but i HAVE to tell someone about it or i'll go insane!!!!!

imagine? suguru?? in his slump and really sad and just angry and depressed era and idk he's become borderline toxic while dating you [reader] and POTENTIALLY cheats on you oh god i can't imagine that sweet man doing it BUT BARE WITH ME!!

ur ass leaves him of course maybe even ghosts him when u find out and he is devastated and shoko/satoru give him shit and no one wants to indulge him in anything about you

then a few years later ur back? maybe u even unblock him because u've moved on and all and he's trying so hard to win u back but u always say once a cheater always a cheater but over the years he's gotten his shit together and he knows what he did and he's willing to take every precaution possible so that u never have doubts! AND HE's 100% changed! but ur so hurt!!!!!

AND IDK WHERE IT GOES BUT IN SOME SCENARIOS IN MY HEAD! u guys end up sleeping together!!!!!!! but u do not want to go further into anything emotional and he just wants to be so close to u that he doesn't even care if he's just a part of ur roster.

AH! IDK THIS IDEA MIGHT NOT EVEN MAKE ANY SENSE LOL BUT I JUST HAD TO GET IT ALL OUT!

ANOTHER ONE OF MY GUILTY PLEASURE FICS ARE ONES OF SUGURU REGRETTING & WALLOWING IN SHAME/GUILT AFTER CHEATING ON READER AND READER NOT FORGIVING HIM 🤭🤭🤭 women who ARE angry and STAY angry my BELOVEDS!!!!

but omfg… I SEE THE VISION omfg why do i kinda wanna write this now (since it’s your idea i won’t don’t worry! i’m NAWT an idea stealer!)

ALSO! i feel like i can see suguru being somewhat of a cheater just because he in canon is a Betrayer… he’s devoted in certain lights he’s scummy in others and in this case i can see him being a toxic “bf” and cheating on reader and then vomiting with guilt </3 ALSO YESSSSSSSS SHOKO & SATORU BEING ON YOUR SIDE AND NOT ENTERTAINING SUGURU!!!!! i think satoru especially would be disgusted w suguru… maybe satoru used to have a latent crush on you or smthn and now he’s like? i didn’t go after reader bc of THIS fucking fool and THIS is what he does to reader???

AND YES!!!! even if suguru has genuinely changed, i PERSONALLY would never forgive him + would pray on his downfall + would break everything in his house and also his bones in a fit of rage 🩷 but reader is better than me ig 🙄 so them unblocking him in a way of moving on does make sense! it’s like… he’s not even on their radar anymore!

OOOH AND THAT LAST PART… maybe it’s bc i’m a Certified Hater™️ and have extreme pride and it’s informing the way i would see reader but i don’t think i can see reader sleeping w him 😭 but i do see where you’re coming from, it’d be delicious to see that for reader it’s just a physical thing w no emotional attachment and for suguru it’s So Much More… it’s emotional to him! i also think suguru would be like “i’ll take what i can get” but i can’t even grant him that bc he’s gotta suffer hehehehehe

it’d be so fun to see reader get w someone like toji and reader + toji genuinely hit it off and suguru sees them one day and he’s like oh i fucking hate my life… well… DESERVED! SUFFER BITCH!

anyways omg your Mind anon……. Your Mind…. it’s so deliciously evil i’m in love <333

#asks #anon #cheating fics are so good when the cheater wallow in deep sorrow and regret and guilt and shame while reader goes on to better things :3 #*wallows #(anon listen to uncomfortable while wallows while you’re here 😹) #anyways this idea is: #poetic cinema TRULY

[maxemilianverstappen]

as Max Stan, I’m very confused to see some Charles stans getting angry over a paddle game with Max. I even saw one Stan who tagged him and said he lost all his ambitions and shame him for hang out with a guy from competitive team(he/she said practically same things when Charles congratulate Max for 3 WDC). I don’t know why some Charles stans hates Max and wants to believe Charles actually hates Max and Max just pressure him into friendship so much bc everyone is rival on this sport and Max never did anything wrong/petty toward Charles(beside 2019 but Charles took his revenge lol) even if you not a shipper. They can stay mad I guess.

Tho I am ADDICTED to the angstiness of this, even their guy realized he can be friends and can have fun together with the guy, even if they are each other's chosen rivals, without losing anything from his own self worth/respect or from his winning mentality. It is high time his fans too see that Max and Charles don't have to be hateful fucks to each other just because they both want to win against each other more than anything.

I don't understand where this mentality is coming from. I'd say people are reflecting their toxic masculine views about success upon Charles, but most of the fans talking like this are female identifying people... Then again, it can be an ingrained/learned thing.

Like, how can people not celebrate this actually? Here we have two athletes who are considered this generation's best, slowly getting closer and friendlier and having fun together. Isn't it something wonderful?

I know it is easier to talk for me because I am a Max fan and Max is winning. But even if the situation reverses itself in the future and they stay peaceful and nice and happy together while fighting tooth and nails, I would have admired it and cherish whatching it unfold as a fan of the sports, not just as a shipper or shit.

Also, do you see how most of these "Charles has gone soft/lost his competitive self/lost his winning mentality/should show his teeth" people are mainly focusing on his relationship with Max instead of focusing on how he should be more assertive within the team. It is almost like they are using Charles as yet again an instrument to hate on Max. If it wasn't Max, I bet they'd be more than okay about him hanging out with, say, Lewis or Daniel or Lando.

The guy doesn't have the car he needs. His killer instincts are still there. That's why Max says "I hope our dominance lasts as long as possible, because I know Ferrari (Charles) will be there at the first opportunity." He trusts Charles to be there, maybe his fans also should trust their guy, too.

#i answer things

[rinbowaman]

seeing all these asks about heelel is giving me nalstalgia from when I read the series when you first posted it. It’s brining back so many feelings. I also feel bold enuff to ask what was the inspiration for your creation on heelel? Like how did you come up with his character. I know his looks is based off Heeseung’s visual but can you give detail on how you came up with the series? It’s so legendary. I saved it and come back to read it so many times.

Who you telling? I’ve been taking a trip down memory lane with all these asks and I’m loving every second of it. ❤️

So the story behind heelels creation is…well it actually started a few years ago. I remember this girl in my high school was talking to me and my friend, and she was a passionately religious person, but she had a dream that she had sex with the devil and was feeling very shameful and needed church. That’s what kind of gave me this idea of the devil being in love (like obsessively in love) with a human woman. In case it hasn’t become obvious, I am a sucker for sinful and forbidden romance, yandere love, and just overall toxic male leads who are so down bad for their darlings, to the point where they’re even willing to kill for them.

Fast forward three years later, when I started this blog and wrote MGR/MRE/HHP, I reflected back to that idea of the devil being in love with a mortal reader, and originally I was going to make the devil either Jake or Sunghoon bc I already had wrote so many stories with a heelead, but as I was drafting and creating the details of the story, it didn’t feel fitting until I changed it to hs. I’m not an engene and discovered Enhypen a year or a year and a half ago through a friend, but I do like their concept, and their appearance. They are all handsome but Heeseung has this vibe about him (mainly his stage presence) and the way he flirts with the fans, it almost makes it super easy to visualize him as these male leads, which is why he is the one I based the physical appearance off of. Obviously the character is a sole creation of mine that does not reflect the real Heeseung, other than some minor traits like the singing ability and love for sports. But yeah, after I changed the drafts to Heeseung being the devil, the entire story came to life and I was able to think of the plot effectively. As I was drafting the first chapter, that was when I came up with the entire plot of y/n’a creation in the story and her meaning behind the entire storyline.

[kamiversee]

okay, i calmed down a bit. holy shit what a chapter. this chapter is possibly one of the most intense chapters you've posted yet, if not the most. the only other chapters that immediately come to mind in terms of emotional intensity are the ones including Gojo's tearful confession and the chapter with the "last kiss." this chapter devastated me on a completely different level. the drama had me reeling and i loved it so fucking much. well done, Kami. really well done.

i'm going to try to not sound like a broken record since you already know my immediate thoughts based off of my past few anons 😭 it's so interesting that Choso immediately goes to call Geto's brother shitty, yet later on in the chapter Geto refers to them at friends. Choso's denials are believable since he does seem like a major introvert and only really goes out of his way to socialize with the reader, but i wonder if we'll ever meet Kenjaku in this fic. or is this a sneak peak as to who we may meet in a certain sequel...? 👀👀👀 KAMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!! why do i feel like you're going to draw some parallels between Suguru and his brother's relationship to Choso's relationship with Sukuna. i'm not sure how it would go, but if you do choose to do that i feel like it would floor me.

i love that this chapter is unveiling so much of Choso's toxicity holy shit. i know it's all related to his possessive nature, but the anger issues had me taking breaks and walking laps in my room at 1:30 am on a work night. the way he's upset about things we aren't even aware of (how "flirtatious" we come off in a regular conversation) was expected but the way it built up to him exploding was just *chef's kiss*. the way still calls us little pet names, especially after that huge fight, stung me.

not only did this chapter reveal so much about Choso, but it really does solidify how toxic the reader is for him as well. there's no such thing as a perfect character (even though these jjk men get so close) but this was a perfect reminder that despite everything, the reader has her own red flags to work through as well. will she ever? probably not bc holy shit that passage was so perfect and needed. also, who wouldn't act that way in that kind of situation 😭 swatting OUR hand away when HE is the one causing the scene? omfg it got me so mad LMFAOOOO

also the reveal that Sukuna is a physically abusive asshole? omfg. it makes sense for his character but still, the contrast of that info to how we knew him is intense. it's a shame that he's so fucking hot 😭😭😭 with the things he's done, i understand why Choso has the feelings he does. but holy shit dude, the reader didn't know 😭 why tf is he taking it out on her 😭😭😭

Suguru that motherfucker. i hate now smart and intentional he is with every fuckin' action he does in this series. UGH. the way he had me cringing (in a good way) to the point of having to take breathing breaks after practically every line. especially when he said "Go after him, idiot."

KAMI. YOU 🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵 OH MY GODDDDD. IF IT WASN'T OBVIOUS THAT WHAT THE READER IS TO CHOSO, GOJO IS TO THE READER, HOLY SHIT. YOU'RE PRACTICALLY POINTING A NEON-LIGHT ARROW TOWARDS THAT PARALLEL. such a genius way to reuse that line. once i read that, it fucking clicked. the same fucking line Geto says to Gojo in chapter 8 after their first big fight. oh my fucking God Kami. reading that made me have to put down my phone and stare at the ceiling for a bit. so fucking well done. it's lowkey so funny how Geto has been there for so many of the big fights. i'm so fucking excited to see how this develops. my brain is so fried once again.

- ☃️

Smirks. Chat, it’s time for another Kami yap session, LETS GOOOO

1. Gojo’s breakdown chapters & the chapter where Choso leaves (chapter 19 I think) were one of the only chapters that made me tear up while I wrote them😭 Well, aside from the next one I’m abt to drop- ANYWAYS THOUGH, glad you enjoyed it like always ^.^

2. See, here’s the thing about Kenjaku’s mentioning, he was only brought up to show two things; One, Choso has friends and a life outside of the reader, and Two, Choso and Geto have more of a connection/knowledge of each other than what might’ve been expected :)

It’s also another slight anime reference bc like I’ve said previously, I do tend to mirror things such as friend groups or actions to the way things are done in the anime & Choso’s appearance was always made with Kenjaku so, why not make that a factor here yk?🤷‍♀️

3. There actually are already some parallels ^.^

Notice how Choso calls Kenjaku shitty & Suguru snaps back by saying Choso’s brother (Sukuna obv) isn’t any better. Then, you also have Yuki who points out that both men haven’t told the reader anything about these terrible brother’s of theirs, despite both men having connections & intimate moments with her.

It’s kinda meant to show that there is a lot the reader simply doesn’t know. That was honestly somewhat the point of the past few drama chapters! There’s a list of things she learns all in the span of one day, from Gojo’s obsession to Sukuna being abusive— she learned all of that within a single day.

Anywho, the parallel is simply that the men who she claims as her type both have done similar things to her in regards to opening up🤷‍♀️

4. I wanna note that a lot of people are calling Choso’s actions here toxic. Now, I’m not going to disagree of course but, I will just say, his moment of blowing up isn’t unnatural. Choso’s not the best with his feelings, as we can see, and imagine you’re in his shoes for a moment.

How would you react to everything he was just told? Do you think you wouldn’t have blown up as he did? Especially when you consider how passionate he is about his brothers, more specifically, Yuji.

Just wanted to throw that out there! Yes, he shouldn’t have yelled the way he did but this is something that’d been building up & because he’s such an introvert (I am too ngl) it’s not unusual for him to have a sudden outburst as he did seeing as he typically keeps his thoughts and emotions inside rather than wearing them on his sleeve :)

5. Yep, I want people to understand that she herself is not perfect in anyway. The reader just gaslit the hell out of Choso & played on the fact that he believes she knew nothing about Sukuna.

NOW before y’all jump on our mc, while it is toxic & bad, she only does that for the benefit of everyone if you think about it. I said this earlier but she has learned a shitload of info in one day. With that, she’s just as stressed and tensed as Choso is atm so she uses her situation in order to manipulate Choso into telling her the truth about everything.

Think about it, she could never manipulate Gojo into telling her his truth and as said, the last thing she wanted was to go through that again, especially with someone like Choso who typically tells her everything.

Yes, yes it is bad that she did that but in a way, it was for something positive such as forcing Choso to open up to her. Not only that, it also gives her a path to reveal other things to him ^.^

6. Again, Choso didn’t exactly mean to blow up on her but he’s been tense the entire time so it was bound to happen. He’s not blaming her, he’s just upset and is unsure of how to properly express tht as we can see💀

And I think I said this to a few anons so far but, who knows the last time Choso & Sukuna interacted with one another? Given that & based on what the reader experienced, we don’t know how long ago Choso saw Sukuna be abusive to women, now Yuji on the other hand is different ofc because Choso clearly states Yuji’s current age and that kinda shows that tht abuse is ongoing.

7. When I tell you, I WAS SMILING SO HARD AS I WROTE TS. I LOOOOOOOOOOOVE making parallels so I literally went back to the chapter with Gojo & Geto just to recall what Geto said to him and then I was like “Yup, time to reuse this shit😈”

AHH I LOVE DOING THT SM UGHHH

But yesyes;

Gojo —> Reader —> Choso

It’s so perfect too ^.^

Ty for reading, mwah, ily <33

#kamiversee!answers #k!ans: ☃️

[tempenensis]

Hi Lele ! Hope you’re doing good <3 and yeah shippers didn’t get the fact that he have a big platform and mistranslating things ( not the first time ) just to satisfy a ship is kinda harmful when the op didn’t said that, in that context.

Yes he has a second account but he still has a huge number of followers and he continues to mistranslate what a staff or even the mengaka says just for his ship and to please people who love this ship. They don't realize that it changes a context of a lot of things just because it's poorly translated.

and i talked to s-san he had to deleted his tweet bc those fans where attacking him just bc he said that it’s dangerous when you mistranslate things for a ship. which is right.

And the thing that is mind blowing is when for example, if someone says satoru and suguru are besties, they directly say that you are h^mophobic! And says if it were a ship with a female they would never say that! But I remember in SNK half of the fanbase in 2021 was against the relationship of mikasa and eren while isayama-sensei gave more details in the manga about their relationships than gojo and geto. hell even historia and ymir which is f/f were more accepted bc they had more details that they love each other in a romantic way than gojo and geto. for me, who experienced the same with my best friend in the sense that she was my first friend and 15 years later we lost sight of each other bc of an argument. These fans needs to know that there are friendly soulmates and tbh it's a thousand times better than romantics one lol. and if like i want to tweet about it i’m like hell no I don't want to be harassed or insulted.

For me Akutami sensei managed to make their friendship magnificent and I think many recognized themselves in their, myself include.

The worst thing is that these same fans tell you that you don't read the manga or translations ???????? I don't know if Akutami sensei gave them another manga to read but in each panels he wrote best friends clearly ! And when you ask them out of curiosity to show you the translations ? well, it's downright taken out of context and even false and when you tell them that, they insult you too.

i love jjk, love the relation between gojo and geto but i really really hope the manga end this year bc the amount of toxicity is mind blowing.

that’s why i think anon said about changing the whole plot of their relation bc tbh with you i’ll not be chocked if gege change it to satisfy this ship. i really hope japanese fans are not toxic like this. and gege will not change it.

and i’m so sorry if it was long :/ i really hope your have a wonderful day <3

Hshs, hello, anon!

To be honest, that is the same wish I have; for the manga to end quickly. I hope gege stuck in his way and end the manga sooner than later. I'd hate if he drags the story more and more. The longer the story goes, the more my braincells go from all the drama :")

Honestly I really don't have any problem with Gojou and Getou's relationship, as I said before in this ask. I honestly appreciate how gege draws their canonical relationship but precisely because of that, I can't see them as a ship. However, just like you, my vexation over this particular ship comes from the shippers. I know in any fandom there'll be that some ships where the fans are very loud, but at least I hope akutami-sensei doesn't see this... mess. I will be so embarrassed as a fellow fan if he has to see this uncivilized behavior over a ship.

Although the japanese fandom does have their share of toxicity, I can say that it's very rare for ship fans to attack others. Shame them, probably, lol, if they tag things wrongly. But at least I can find solace from the sideline, unlike the other fandom which cause me headache from just watching them.

#le-ask #st//sg #this tag is for blocking please block them for your peace of mind

[writemywaytoyourheart]

Ahh your new post about Tae and Jennie was comforting. I did have a gut reaction of sadness since he is my bias wrecker. I want to rant a little. I do think I am kinda actually in love with him. It feels weird to be attracted to someone who is taken. I know I’m getting too into the parasocial aspect, but my life would be pretty empty without it. It’s kinda embarrassing. I can’t help but compare myself to her and feeling sad too. Insecurities ugh

Sorry for taking so long to answer this, I was typing a response and needed to stop to go help someone, but I'm back now!

First of all, no matter what anyone says (including your brain), there is no reason to feel embarrassed or ashamed about feeling this way.

You will not be judged here, I can promise you that.

I really do think that people need to take a step back and realize that most every reaction is a normal reaction.

Some fans claim to be so "not toxic" that they themselves are in fact being toxic. It isn't fair to say that being sad or upset in any way is overreacting. Not being affected by the news does not equal being "normal" or "non-toxic", it just means that you don't have a reaction, that's it.

Your feelings are valid, nonnie.

Sometimes people fall for someone they've never met. Just bc others don't understand that doesn't mean it's not true.

Sometimes it's the comfort they bring, or the way that person makes them love themselves or want better for themselves, sometimes it's because that person brings the best out in them even if they never know it.

I am so sorry, love.

I am sorry that your heart is hurting right now. I wish I could give you the biggest hug in the world and bring you all the comfort you need to heal. You can hurt, it is okay to hurt. No one can tell you not to hurt.

It really does suck when these feelings are so very real and a very big part of one's life. Because when they are taken away, that heartbreak is also very much real.

People need to realize that.

Yes these fans probably KNOW that they would not have ended up with their idol, but that does not always stop those feelings from being present. People can be in love with someone and it not be that level of for example: saesang. It's not fair to lump them all together.

Some people have all of those strong feelings inside but do nothing about it, it's not right to call them delulu or whatever. That's just causing more unnecessary shame and labeling and embarrassment for something they can't help. You guys, people fall in love with completely fictional characters and it is real and if that character dies or when book ends that heartbreak is real.

Yes, we are fans. Yes, there are millions upon millions of us.

And yes, some fans are very much in love with the artist.

Why do we have to shame them for it? Take a look in the mirror, take a look on the inside and figure out why you're attacking those people. Maybe you should be grateful that you've never had to experience that.

Taehyung deserves love, he deserves to feel safe and unjudged in his relationships. He deserves to have what he wants whether it be a family or a relationship or whatever. He does not deserve to feel guilt and shame for wanting and or having that.

And you deserve to be allowed to grieve because it isn't you.

Jennie is beautiful and kind, yes. She is a lovely person. And so are a lot of people. People love famous people because they know of them. Just because you aren't on the screen in front of millions of people does not mean you are not lovable and deserving. It just means most of the world doesn't know about you, they might be in love with you if they knew you.

You are you, nonnie.

You are so special, because you are you. There is no one else in this world that is you. There will never ever ever be another you in existence.

I don't know your name or what you look like or what you hate or love or enjoy eating or are allergic to. But I know that you're another human being that is struggling with something. I know that I love you, because you are a unique person on this earth that clearly has a beautiful soul.

Anyone that is in love with Kim Taehyung but will silently grieve when they don't end up with him, is a beautiful soul to me.

Feeling insecure and inferior is a normal part of life in today's world. And it shouldn't be.

You are so beautiful. I promise you.

The only person that needs to know that is you.

You should never feel the need to change yourself for anyone. You should never feel lacking because someone you love does not love you the same in return.

It might feel right now like that pain won't stop. Or maybe it's not as painful as I'm making it seem. But it is for someone.

I'm sorry that your heart is sad and that you feel insecure, I want to erase all of that for you. But I suppose that's what will make you who you are meant to be.

Someday, there will be someone that loves you the most. That will drop anything and everything to be there for you. That will make you their first priority. That will believe in you when no one else does.

Someday that person will be you.

You will be that for you.

Until that day comes, I will be here to root for you, to cheer you on if ever you feel lacking. I might just seem like someone on the other side of a screen typing out a response and there's no face or name or whatever to me. But I can assure you that I am a real person that really does care so deeply for every single one of you. Not just because we're all fans of the same group, but because you are real human beings with real struggles and joys in life.

Please let yourself cry. I'll cry with you, okay?

Your pain is real and that pain you're feeling hurts me too. I'm already crying for you 😅, for everyone that has heartbreak right now.

I guess I just feel a lot. And that's okay too.

Let yourself cry when you're in pain. It's okay. You love someone that now has someone else and that fucking hurts. Don't tell yourself you're not allowed to feel that.

Someday. Someday you will put yourself where you belong in your heart, whether or not anyone else does or not. Life is full of so many things and people that you haven't met yet.

I love you, you beautiful soul.

-chip 💕

#asks #anon #kim taehyung #kim jennie #taennie

[alexandrarosa]

Normal People

This is going to be yet another rant and I don’t actually know where my train of thought is going to lead me so let’s go.

I heard a lot about Normal People recently and I finally decided to watch it (bc I already have an hbo max subscription and I didn’t know if it’s worth to buy an actual book). And I didn’t make it past the half of the show. But I did read the spoilers online.

First of all the tile was… quite misleading for me. I was assuming I am going to watch a show about, well, normal people. And I don’t think I did.

Calling them normal and therefore their relationship – normal, seems really hurtful. I’m a psychology major, maybe that’s why it triggers me so much but let me state it clearly: their relationship was not healthy nor normal. They behavior was at times problematic. And romanticizing that kind of relationship can have awful consequences.

It’s a sad story about the lack of communication – at least the half I’ve watched. About mistreatment between two people who claim they love each other. About a deep shame about the person they are dating.

I’ve dated a guy like Connell. And I did think that it was very romantic. I was practically addicted to him. The moments when he would decide we can get back together did feel like a great weight was being lifted from my chest. And let me tell you - that relationship destroyed me. Just like it was destroying Marianne.

But the worst thing about that show is that I was actually rooting for them to get together. Like how f*caked up is that? I was in a relationship like that. I’m a psychology major able to identify the incorrect patterns of behavior. And I was still hoping they’ll stay together. Because the way their relationship is shown in the Normal People makes it really hard not to ship them. And that’s also problematic.

For example because upon being in a relationship like that the best thing to do is to get out of a relationship like that. And the viewers hoping they’ll stay together fundamentally accept the toxic and problematic nature of that relationship.

I feel like calling that show Normal People suggests that this kind of relationship is not only acceptable but also, well, normal. So people watching it can assume that the toxic relationship they are in is not to be avoided but rather appreciated.

Don’t get me wrong – the show shows us flaws of the people involved. We know that they are doing poorly and their behavior is wrong. But at the same time is still feels like we are to accept that it’s all a part of life.

In a world that’s hard on its own making it seem okay for a relationship to be hard too – seems just wrong.

Upon seeing the title I thought I was going to see a show about people struggling with life but having a comfort of being together – and facing the normal life together. I was anticipating some cozy scenes and homely feel. And I’m sad I didn’t get that.

#normal people #normal people hbo #normal people Hulu #psychology rant #marianne sheridan #connell x marianne #marianne x connell #connell waldron

[ahsokatanos-lightsabertechnique]

A Clint Barton Appreciation Essay/Analysis

Disclaimer: Hey! Movie Clint wasn’t great! MCU Hawkeye is a disservice to Jeremy Renner and Clint Barton. Kind of unfortunate casting in my opinion, bc I love Jeremy Renner and I love comics! Hawkeye.

Clint Barton’s life started out normally. And by normally I mean it started out sucky (how much suck-ier it got after that was not normal, and arguably spiraling into increasing levels of suck is Clint Barton’s superpower). He and his older brother, Barney, were regularly beaten by the drunken waste of a human they called a father. Their mother was caught in the same situation, so it’s not really fair to call her out (and I’m not trying to!). However, it’s worth noting that the boys didn’t get much protection from her either (not trying to victim-shame, just saying the dynamics of the situation had an impact on Clint and his brother). One day his father beat him so badly that he lost most of his hearing. Not long after this, his parents died in a car crash (his father was driving drunk, big surprise), and the boys were kicked into the foster system. That was a mess. Enough said. So, at this point, Clint has never known any adults that didn’t let him down somehow. Actually, scratch that, he never lived with an adult that didn’t abuse him in some way or another. Eventually the foster system was so bad that they ran away and joined a nearby circus. They were taken in by two acts called the Swordsman and Trick Shot. The boys were trained by the two men, and for a short period things went well for Clint, since he found something he was really really good at (arrows and throwing knives, yippee) and was praised for it. This didn’t last long though, since Swordsman and Trick Shot were both criminals that were using the boys to make more money in their theft/gambling/racketeering/etc. ventures. Depending on which comics you read, each one tried to kill Clint when he wouldn’t do the crime thing, betrayed him, left him, or some combo thereof. His brother, Barney, did the same. This was particularly devastating to Clint because Barney had been the only real family that had, at any point, loved and protected him. 

That was just his CHILDHOOD. What happens after is long and complicated, and we won’t go into that here. The point is, all of his personal relationships fail (with the exception of Kate Bishop). Why? Well, after all that shit that went down before the age of, like, twelve, Clint doesn’t trust anyone. He doesn’t trust himself. He has a deep-seated case of insecurity and self-hatred. He doesn’t trust other people that get close because, of course, they’ll hurt him and then leave him. The self-hatred, in my opinion, is because all of those people that abused and betrayed him told him that their actions were HIS fault. I think he knows logically that they aren’t, but on some level, he thinks they’re right. He can’t have a meaningful relationship of any kind when every instinct, conscious or not, screams to show the other person how horrible he is before they do any damage. They can’t blame what they do on him if they already know what a piece of shit he is, right? It’s not his fault if they leave. But then they do, and it hurts anyway, because he’s lied to them or cheated on them, and when they leave they blame him. Because this time it actually was his fault. “Burn them before they burn me” only ever works in theory, never in practice. His self-sabotage is an especially toxic defense mechanism. Paired with a spectacular case of commitment-phobia, it means that he has no one. No one. Absolutely nobody. He knows the Avengers from work. He knows some people in passing. But he is alone in the world. If he was dying, the only people that would care would also be just so tired of him, because they love a person that has made himself impossible to love. And, being people trying to make good relationship decisions, they’ve not only left him. They’ve given up on him. He has made himself unlovable, and sees believes that he’s a living disease to anything good. At least, this is how he sees his relationships.

It’s horrible, but also absurdly ironic. He’s not walking trash. He’s a golden retriever of a man that would help a fucking CRICKET cross the street. When a dog gets hit by a car because its owners are assholes, he willingly GETS SHOT to get to the dog, take it to the vet, and save its life. He then proceeds (after being beaten to hell, shot, and bled/dripped on from dragging a soaking wet and bleeding dog for god knows how long through the rain) to kick the ever-loving shit out of the people that owned the dog. Not because they’re mafia. Not because they hit him or hurt him. Because of the DOG. He spends every spare moment of his time and money fighting to keep his neighbors from being forced into homelessness by the crime lords that own their building. He hates himself so intensely, blames himself for every time he fails to help someone so completely, that he is totally blind to the fact that he is beloved. The man is a goddamn saint in every way that matters. He’s painfully flawed and ridiculously kind. 

To top this all off, he deals not only with emotional insecurity but also with physical and professional insecurity. He’s an Avenger. The man is so fucking lame. He shoots stuff with arrows. And then gets whaled on by aliens and gods and science experiments and lands in traction in the hospital AGAIN while everyone else drop-kicks the bad guys into the sun or whatever. That’s how he sees himself. He’s useless, a pity case. Nope. Nope nope nope. He’s so far past olympic-level athlete it isn’t even funny. He’s clever. He really is more accurate with projectile weapons than ANYONE ELSE IN MARVEL COMICS. That’s the most dope thing. It’s a simple thing, and it isn’t spectacular, and any person can shoot a bow and learn gymnastics. It isn’t about WHAT he’s doing. It’s about the LEVEL HE’S DOING IT AT. Sure, he’s no Thor, but he can hold his own against the vast majority of Marvel characters. It isn’t flashy, and he’ll look like he’s gone through a meat tenderizer (with a concussion thrown in for good measure), and he’ll probably look ridiculous doing it, but! The man is human. No super soldier serum. No magic. No super-human abilities. He’s the very personification of humanity in a league of people that aren’t really human anymore (if they ever were). Like, if anyone was ever to be an avenger in real life…they’d be Clint. But maybe not with a bow and arrow (we must allow some whimsy in our comics, after all). He’s amazing because of what he can do, sure. But what makes him truly wonderful is how hard he’s trying. He’s given up on himself, but every day he tries, and tries, and tries. He takes out his hearing aids and closes his eyes every now and then, because he just can’t bring himself to face any consequences that day. Sometimes he just lives off of coffee. There are days where he just lies on the floor and doesn’t move. But he drags himself out of bed, drags himself out the door, drags himself through LIFE simply because he cannot resist the ever-present impulse to make it a better place. And in so many ways, at least all the ways that matter, that is the most deeply human way to be good. I’m not saying he’s the best avenger, but you know what, fuck that, he’s my favorite. 

#I feel really strongly about this okay #Hawkeye #Clint Barton #marvel comics #matt fraction #matt fraction's hawkeye #maybe spoilers? #spoilers if you plan on reading up on clint barton's backhistory from scratch #I think this backstory is pretty established/common knowledge at this point tho #but just in case #clint barton appreciation #minor pizza dog #comics hawkeye #comics #sorry not sorry this is so long #i love him so

[margaetyrell]

honestly i’m so tired of all this gaylor stuff that is going on. look, this is the first time i speak about it and i won’t do it again but i just need to get this off. idk what even started it now, but people seriously need to understand once and for all that it is just as weird to hate an almost non-existent group in the fandom and argue against it to earn coins to be the best fan, while underestimating and prejudging other people you don’t even know, and when you are gonna say hurtful things that you will later on regret, bc there is a 98% chance they will be understood as homophobic even if that wasn’t your intention. that is what it is. 'no but i’m bi and i find gaylors disgusting' that statement is even more damaging tbh, bc once again you are prejudging when you should know better how this hate form has always been harming to the collective you belong to

that’s the main reason ppl are afraid to even joke about it in their own blogs, or analise lyrics under a extremely brilliant, queer lens that is kept to themselves precisely bc the fear of being judged and attacked. i’m a gaylor and i have no shame admitting so, but i don’t talk about it nor write my own connections in terms of her lyrics bc of this, as i felt personally hurt by such judment in the past and talked about it with one only person privately. in fact, if you go to my gaylor tag you aren’t gonna find k*ylor, crazy easter eggs and conspiracy theories, instead it is full of quotes that she herself has said, queer campaigns she has been part of, thoughts ppl have found behind her lyrics and lots of gifs of her wearing lgbt+flag colours - all public. that is all, and i’m even reluctant to rb anything related to her past relationships, just as candids or posts about her current one. which btw does not mean that bc i’m a gaylor i don’t consider it true or that i automatically don’t believe anything she says and think joe is a beard, as most of you simply assume

THIS when that’s all some of you seem to talk about, like every time she releases a rerecording, the memes that circulate are 'well j.jonas will always be mr perfectly fine and all these songs are about him' fact that even his wife got to see and at which they both laugh now, probably to downplay how fucking tired of it they must be. and what about the hate harassment jake has been receiving since red tv came out, which he hasn’t spoken a word about, despite facing even death threats. or the fact that ppl keep saying 'lmao harry you are next, cannot wait for speak now tv so john gets what he deserves.' like ??? but that way of talking about your fave is alright just bc she is straight? is that supposed to make her feel better? isn’t all that just as toxic or even more so?? bc gaylors in general don’t make that much noise or harm to begin with. so to excuse all of this under 'all those relationships have been confirmed by both parties and that is why i have the right to talk about them' sorry but it’s the biggest bullshit i’ve ever heard 1) bc no, most of such relationships have in fact never been confirmed by both parties and by no means have these songs been confirmed by Taylor herself, ever. 2) the fact that a relationship has been public does not give you the right to inspect it and talk about it, once again, as if you were taylor’s bff and not even that !!! as in general friends and real fans don’t talk about her life so frivolously, no matter how much you excuse yourself under this shit that keeps crossing all boundaries

so basically, talk about her private life all you want like i personally dgaf, but i find it quite hypocritical to hate on a minority that happens to be lgbt, casually!! for saying 'hmm wait a sec, wonderland sounds gay and has too many similarities with dianna' 'hmm i wonder what happened there, whether they were friends or not, that was such a weird relationship' which even j.lawrence joked about saying ‘i’d just like to know what’s between kk and ts' - not the best example, but you get where i’m going. frankly, i highly doubt taylor would give a shit if i write a post on a social site she doesn’t even use anymore, that it’s gonna be reblogged by 4 ppl and possibly get 20 hate asks in return, like @13sleepless deals with on a daily basis, which is terrifying and admirable of them. bc who really care about this are those who claim not to be homophobic or have nothing against queer interpretation while continuing to make arguments against it and not only song interpretations, but the very words and actions that taylor herself has done on purpose, under advertising her albums, tours, or whatever and i’m not even talking about easter eggs. i mean, is it not by logic the same to say 'well i’m not declaring anything new if i say that dear john is about j.mayer' as to say 'well i’m not declaring anything new either by saying, hey, taylor made a song/mv full of gay themes, full of ppl from the collective, where she even wears clothing and a bi coloured wig that has been publicly recognized, started a campaign in support and an entire album promo where in the previous mv she said gay pride makes me ME!!!’ like...... isn’t it? sorry weren’t those her literal words?? okay....... then please explain to me how it is for you bc if you really think that doesn’t sound problematic or i’m making it up, it may be time to evalue your own morals and stop questioning those you judge under the same closeted box, without respecting them individually and without wanting to learn a shit about the matter

#i know this is long and a pain to read but guess what!! its my blog and i needed it to let it out so!!! #it has also been said several times but some ppl just refuse to get it #i'm not gonna talk abt this again bc i'm sick of it but that is my position #i just don't like to prejudge ppl nor put them all in the same box without even knowing them but idk maybe thats weird of me #also kathryn i couldn't ask you before but if you'd like me to remove the mention just say so <3 #i do hope no one gets upset by my words... but again if you do i think you should ask yourself why #pt #~!🌈

[deadlysoupy]

I’m curious, what are your unpopular opinions about tmnt 🔥 and writing 🔥

hi dude!!! im surprised to see you in my askbox and honestly very flattered 😳😳😳😳

for tmnt: while i sometimes come out as someone who dislikes rise, i think it's very fun and enjoyable. it explored new ideas, gave a lot of edge to old characters and created new ones who are in my heart forever (Draxum gets too much hate imo)

but i feel like people give it too much credit. it's not my place to criticize it, but i really think it has some major turn-downs (at least for me). when the show aired, i thought of it as a little silly time, when i can just watch a purely fun show about ninja turtles without plot-heavy storylines like we had in the past. i was also delighted when there wasn't a trace of Leo and Raph conflict we had in every iteration. it was like a breath of fresh air, i was enjoying it. but the pacing changed and it became serious. while i don't think it was too weird, it still felt jarring, i didn't know what the show wanted to be anymore. the second season is a doozy, which is understandable and it's a real shame we didn't get those filler episodes that would flesh out the characters more.

and the rise movie. man. it gets some things just right and some things wrong. and again we get that Leo and Raph fight about being a leader. Leo gets too much attention, both in the show and in the movie. it's really getting on my nerves.

one thing i applaud rise for is giving Mikey that edge people need to see more - his personalities, to be precise. i feel like we kinda forget that Mikey should be a bit insane, and rise, thank god, sees it as an opportunity to show him unhinged a lot of times. not enough, in my opinion, and his character got a little too soft when the movie came out, but the effort was there and i'm really grateful for that. it's why i love 2003 Mikey with all of me - he's fucking bonkers, has no filter, and will cause mayhem just to see something explode. i really hope MM Mikey will be like that, too, thought i don't have high hopes. he still looks fun tho

little side-notes: i hate hair on turtles (ew) and most of rise fandom is toxic (can't go into this bc i'm afraid people will shit on me)

for writing: writing is a chore. like, really. writers say a lot of times that they want to see words on their google docs magically appear without them having to write anything, and i completely agree. as a writer who majorly writes in their second language (thus i have difficulty writing in my native one (don't ask me how that works, i don't know either)) i hate actually writing words. i've been doing this as a hobby for about four years and i still have no idea what my style is and how to not sound like a moron or a ten year old. i look back on my writing and see a child, not an adult who studied english for most of their life. hell, i'm getting my eng major (sort of) and getting ready for international english exams and i still sound like a baby with images in head but no words to describe them. it sucks.

i enjoy storytelling a ton, but no matter how much everyone will say to you "you shouldn't worry too much about words, this is a story only you can tell, if you have a story you should share it!" it doesn't work that way. you need to be able to both feel a story and be able to tell it, and if you can't find the right words that punch people in their hearts, it won't do that well. so maybe some people who are full of imagination and stories to tell simply aren't destined to become writers. this is either a harsh truth or me just being a pessimist, idk

and i think that's it! i dunno if these are unpopular or not but they've been on my mind for a while so yeah. thank you sm for this ask!!!!!!

#woof this was hard #hopefully i made sense bc i dont sound sane to myself lmao #tmnt #rottmnt #writing #poopoo answers

[honeybellexox]

Hi honey :) my confession is that I absolutely love the first Shyam reveal scene. Of course it annoys me that Khushi/Nk have literally zero evidence.. But I liked all the cross-examinations and different people offering their side of the story and it’s kind of a whole puzzle piece that fits together. And of course, Shyam is peak villain and played his character so well so that it’s his word against Khushi’s. And I love how Arnav can finally validate that Khushi was telling the truth bc everything that Mami/NK/Payal says checks out with what Khushi was trying to tell him this whole time even if there’s no proof. And Shyam already confessed to Arnav about loving Khushi so he can see how Shyam is openly lying to Anjali. I just hate that Arnav doesn’t admit why he originally married Khushi. He needed to apologize over forcing Khushi to marry him and all that she went through bc of him :/

Hello!! 💕

I love your confession! It certainly was an interesting way to expose his truth and a very tense moment, we also got to see how silver-tongued Shyam is; I completely agree with Arnav not confessing forcing Khushi into marriage.. I’ve always wanted him to do so or for everyone to have eventually learnt the truth … I felt it had been glossed over :(

Arnav wasn’t punished enough for his crimes tbh (I guess this is another one of my confessions) but just saying sorry once doesn’t cut it. I wanted him to grovel and repent further, what he put Khushi through is literal criminal behaviour (it was so bad that she was driven to suicide) so yeah, a verbal sorry and sad puppy eyes don’t make up for it in my books. I wanted both the Gupta family and Raizada family to feel personal shame for being gross towards Khushi after the elopement…by not showing them feeling genuine remorse and calling out toxicity, the writers normalised that kind of behaviour ☹️ so I’m totally with you on this confession!

Thanks for sharing, sweetie! 🥰

Honey 💗✨

#ipkknd #iss pyaar ko kya naam doon #ipkknd confessions

[theharrowing]

People in your Ask box yesterday really got bold when you suggested the toxic ending might not be the happy ending. Like…babes, it’s ok if you want mc to have the toxic man that’s why we read mafia fic. Harrow is writing mafia fic, like they probably also like it. Why are you up their ass lmao it’s so wild.

😅😅😅

it is always very wild, as you say. people do get VERY defensive. like………it’s my story lmao i know he’s a monster I CREATED HIM. i wanted to make him that way. relax. i’m not shaming folks for liking him i just find it silly to call mc marrying him/staying in his mansion a happy ending. how many times do i have to make it clear that she is terrified and not happy??? every chapter???

the anon feature emboldens people to a fault and makes them forget we’re all people who have feelings too, and it drives me fucking crazy. and i feel bad when i, in turn, see the impersonal grey icon and get so defensive, i forget there’s a person behind the comments. we all need to step back and not take fanfic shit so seriously lol like. ??? i am fine with my ideas being challenged too, that’s why i made the poll—i was curious about if others felt the way i did. but to try to argue semantics with me in some weird “gotcha!” moment, dude sit down. it’s literally my story. it’s my toxic man and i love him just as much as, if not more than, you possibly could. i am doctor frankenstein. he is my monster.

ANYWAYYYYYY it won’t matter bc I’ll end it however i want to. 🥰🥰🥰😈 i’ll be running the poll after posting chapter 19 and i can’t wait to see how things may change (or not!)

#lovely anon #fic: collateral #you've got mail 💌

[roseintheclouds97]

Hello, it’s Eris again.

I’ve done a lot of thinking and I wanted to give you a proper apology. The way I left was really shitty. REALLY shitty. And I hate it and felt so guilty and I did it anyway bc well…I don’t want to call myself a shitty person bc I’m not. I just see that I have a lot of things I need to work on when it comes to friendships and running away…

I’m sure you noticed how often I’d try to run from my twin and I even often told you how I hated how I’d make friends online and then they’d leave with no explanation and ghost me despite me getting so attached. And now I went and did the same thing to you. In fact I spent so much time thinking about it I suddenly remembered you are not the first friend I’ve made online that I ran away from and just decided to leave out of nowhere and it sucks bc I’ll never be able to apologize to those girls. Or even comprehend why I do run away so suddenly despite knowing firsthand the pain it causes.

But I can apologize to you. I’m sorry. I don’t ask for forgiveness. But I do want to express my regret because you’re such a lovely girl and you didn’t deserve to just be left out in the cold like that and I AM sorry. Idk there’s some trauma there I need to work on to figure out why I do it. But I just wanted to apologize for it because it’s not your fault and it’s nothing you said or did. I truly did enjoy every one of our conversations and I’m sooo glad we talked as long as we did. You were there for me through my aunt’s cancer when I had no one else to talk to and when I was being dumb about my twin or ranting about life or the universe or whatever the fuck came to our minds. And I know it wasn’t one sided. We both were able to just vent and express ourselves and I’m really truly grateful because you are an amazing friend and a beautiful, intelligent young woman with so much potential.

So despite my shitty exit I wanted to remind you that you are an incredible woman and I hope me leaving hasn’t deterred you in anyway. Do NOT give up or istg- don’t let your father or mother or smelly ass ugly ass pilot or even the loser who couldn’t take a confession from you or shady people who shouldn’t be getting married get in your way.

I know it doesn’t seem like you’ve made any progress but throughout our time talking I watched you become more and more confident and bold and daring and give less and less fucks about the toxic people draining you and I’m so proud of you. You have to give yourself credit. You might be changing slowly but you ARE changing and you are trying and fighting tooth and nail and I hope you can acknowledge that bad bitch part of you that still thrives despite the shitty conditions you’re put in.

I don’t care if you want to be a flight attendant or win a pageant or move to Bora Bora and sell coconuts. You stick to your dreams and you keep fighting, girl. Bc fuck you’re incredible! And it would be a damn shame if you told me all that you have and you did nothing to continue writing your story. This is only chapter one bitch! Get to writing! There’s still so much to tap into.

I’m doing better :) mentally, I mean. I have my bad days but I started taking these stress gummies and they help a LOT which maybe means I need anxiety meds but for now gummies it is. I’m motivated, I’m happy again. I’m relaxed most days. I’m exercising and I bought myself new clothes. I’m going to go to that 5sos concert and have a good ass time. You’ll be happy to know I haven’t fought with my twin at all and I’ve had three dreams of him(wow! New record 🤩) and two of them were about meeting him so who knows 👀 won’t get my hopes up though bc been there done that.

Oh and I put my two weeks notice in today! I’m happy to quit and move on and yeah school will be hard but mentally I’m happier there than clocking in at a shit job that drains me. But we do it bc we have to. Bc it’s a temporary stepping stone so remember that, okay? We need money so we work but it’s not forever!

I’m not on here but I wanted to again apologize and idk I hope you’re doing well and I felt like you deserved another less rushed apology even if it’s still vague and shitty. I’m always rooting for you regardless of my shitty coping mechanisms 🥹

Idk if any of this makes sense or if it makes it worse. I just wanted to say I’m sorry again. Best <3

I know you probably won’t see this, but I hope you have a happy new year. 🎊

There’s a lot I wish I could say to you and tell you about these past few months. I thought I’d give replying to your last message a try.

At first I didn’t know how to feel. I’ve been abandoned too many times to count at this point, so while it hurt, it was kind of expected. I don’t really have any friends right now either and the new ones I tried to make during training ended up being pretty fake.

Still very much alone but I’m learning to be okay with that. I’d rather be alone than surrounded by people who only use me.

Can’t say some of the bad decisions haven’t continued but it’s been a rough couple of months so you can’t completely blame me. Lost my grandma. Hate my job (yeah I’m a flight attendant). Two people disappeared with no notice (one of them being you). But I’m hoping next year is gonna be much better. I do have plans that I hope to follow through with.

I think you’re the last person I could hold a grudge against because we are very similar and I understand why you did what you did because I’ve been in your shoes before. So If you ever decide to reach out again I have a buddy pass with your name on it to take you to Korea or wherever you want to go. I’m literally just one flight away if you decide to open your heart to friends again 🩵

[bucksfucks]

Dilf ex-husband!Steve who you still fuck when the kids are at their grandparents bc nobody makes you cum like him.

⟶ love hate • dilf!steve 

warnings || toxicity, steve is kinda an asshole, mocking, lots of banter/bickering, hate sex, unprotected sex, choking kink, angst with a happy ending, lots of dirty talk — 18+ ONLY//MINORS DNI

word count || 795 words

notes || this gif is hilarious oops

     “Where’s that pretty little new girlfriend of yours, huh?” You spit as you’re pressed between the cold wall and Steve’s warm and muscled chest.

    You can see his jaw tense before a wicked smirk crossed his face, “don’t know. After I fucked her on the kitchen counter I never called her back.”

    He knew how to get a rise out of you, hitting all your buttons as he stuck a familiarly thick thigh between your legs.

    “That’s no surprise, you do only care about yourself.” You bit back, loving the way his nostrils flared and his eyebrows tensed.

    “If you don’t shut up I’ll shove my cock between your lips so you can put that smart mouth to work.” He growls, cock growing harder against your hip.

    You roll your eyes, “you miss my mouth that bad, baby? No one else can suck your dick like I used to?” You mock, fake pouting as you felt his fingers wrap around your neck.

    “Just admit you miss fucking me, Steve,” you whisper as his thumb runs over your bottom lip.

    “I did,” he smirks, “missed usin’ that sweet pussy of yours. Every goddamn night,” he purrs in your ear.

    His words and hot breath against your skin made goosebumps prickle at your skin as your eyes fluttered shut.

    The sex was always good. It never disappointed and it’s probably the only reason you and Steve stayed married for so long.

    Even now, divorced, you couldn’t help fucking once the kids had been dropped off at their grandparents house.

    “Remember that, sweetheart?” His words echoed, “remember the way I had to cover your mouth with my hand or stuff your panties in your mouth so we wouldn’t wake the kids?”

    You did remember, you’d never been able to hold back with Steve.

    A whimper left you, eyes opening to meet his dark ones.

    “Let’s recreate the memory. Pretend we don’t hate each other and just fuck.” Your knees nearly gave out as you nodded.

    It was quick and messy, how you both discarded every article of clothing from your bodies before you were against the wall again.

    “Missed this, jus’ isn’t the same when I’m fuckin’ some chick I met at the bar,” he chuckled darkly before you pinched his nipple.

    “That’s a shame, my vibrator is a wonderful replacement,” you spat back even if it was a lie.

    He growled, fingers toying with your clit as he held you up with your hand wrapped around his aching cock.

    “Gonna fuck you to shut you up, aren’t I?”

    You just giggled, his thick length filling you up second later as he held you up against the wall.

    A soft thud sounded, your head falling against the wall, “fuckin’, shit.”

    You couldn’t form a coherent sentence as Steve’s cock brushed against your spot.

    “Not so mouthy now that I’m stuffin’ you full, huh?” He smirks, thrusting into you as your fingernails dig into his freckled shoulders.

    You don’t care enough to answer him, enjoying the way he’s fucking you as his lips are sucking at the skin of your neck.

    “No,” you swat at him, “no marks,” you swallow but he just nibbles further.

    “Why? Don’t wanna admit you’re still fuckin’ me?” He sounded almost hurt as you shook your head, but your toes started curling.

    “Seems like you like it, gonna fuckin’ cum already, huh?” He taunts further, hips stuttering as you squeeze him before he’s spilling inside of you.

    Your feet touch the ground again, steadying yourself before he’s pulling out.

    It’s silent as you’re both redressing yourself before you face Steve again trying to fix your hair.

    “Are you gonna be there for P’s recital?” You ask and he nods his head “‘course, I booked the day off work.”

    You smile at him, regardless of how toxic you and him might’ve been together, he was an excellent father.

    “Leo has a soccer game this Saturday too, if you wanna come. I’m coaching this year,” he adds and you nod your head.

    “Yeah, it’ll be like we’re a family again,” you joke, but Steve just looks at you before stepping closer and kissing you deeply.

    “We could be a family again,” he whispers against your lips making your breath hitch.

    “No, Steve. We tried, all we did was argue,” you said but he doesn’t let go.

    “Does it matter if we still love each other?” He asks and you feel your heart drop at that word.

    “I was an asshole, I came home late thinking that if I got that huge bonus everything would be fine. But,” he swallows, “I miss you.”

    You have to close your eyes to stop the tears before you’re chuckling, “one more shot?”

    Steve smiles, kissing you again, “one more shot.”

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