#this is my medical transition plan

[goblinbugthing]

hey. hey. btw. if youre trans and dont plan on medically transitioning. i love you

#trans #transgender #trans positivity #transgender positivity #lgbt #lgbtq+ #text #ko’s rambles #youre so valid and pretty or handsome or whatever descriptor you prefer. i love you #and i am one of you! #the most i plan on doing regarding transitioning is getting a hysterectomy #and thats not even because of gender dysphoria or anything like that #the only dysphoria i get is height dysphoria #i just dont like having menstrual cycles. low pain tolerance n all that #also fear of getting pregnant and all that yada yada #anyway back to my original point #if you dont plan on medically transitioning or just cant do that for reasons you are valid and i love you

[shippudens]

trans crossdressers and drag artists and gnc people we literally all have to hold hands and dance and hug forever

#111 #thought about my complex relationship to masculinity and femininity and how many people also have complex relationships #to both of those things in such different and beautiful ways and got a little emotional. cmere guys group hug right now #all my siblings medically transitioning so they can feel more comfortable in their nonconformist expressions… #all my siblings who Aren’t medically transitioning and don’t plan on it because of their nonconformity… or simply because they don’t want to #guys. we are all very beautiful very powerful.

[kabbalicgay]

There's something that drives me a little insane about the way that people who aren't planning on transitioning taking up all the energy and space to talk about transness and trans bans and the medicalised impact of transphobia on trans people... like sis how would you know. You came out and they/them-ed yourself and called it quits how are you qualified to not just contribute to this conversation about trans medical healthcare but proceed to DOMINATE it lol.

#you know I used to be a little annoyed when I say other trans people using the whole ''theyfab'' terminology but I am starting to get to a #point where TME nonbinary people who aren't medically or hormonally transition (nor plan to) are taking up everyone's time & space #CONSTANTLY are also grinding my nerves. How are you going to interrupt a trans woman talking about her fears of losing access to #HRT by comparing it to you maybe having to stop putting your pronouns in your email signature. How. These things are Not the same. #christ. Self-awareness PLEASE I am begging some self-awareness #captain's log #discourse #I guess #darcy don't look

[mitamicah]

Holy Jere I almost got a heartattack (figure of speech) 😱

So you all heard me getting approved for hrt yesterday?

Well, I was told that I now would have two appointments to look forward to one being with a nurse and one with a doctor. Both would be send to me asap.

Having been in this game for almost a year now I have gotten used to things taking at least a week so seeing both appointment arriving today was a surprise - the first is already next wednesday aka tavastia 2.0 day aka september 20

Here's the catch: it is the appointment with the nurse so I have to have my blood tested first. Yet trying to book an appointment myself turned out to be litterally impossible since everywhere I went the first available time was in october

I saw my whole plan go down the drain in this moment so I called up the gender clinic to hopefully get a new nurse appointment. Well fools on me since the nurse could book me a blood test tomorrow 🤣😅

Here's the important dates then;

September 13 - blood test at 11.10 am

September 20 - nurse appointment at 12.30 PM

November 22 - doctor appointment at 10 am

#dont ask me what the gif has to do with it xD #i guess it is me giving the nurse a rose for helping this confused transmasc person out 😅 #i am actually okay with all these appointments #sure the ones in september are very cramped into days i am already busy but at least they will be over soon as well #and not having an appointment in october that risked screwing with my käärijä eu tour plans are so nice #there is long till november but i will take it #hrt #medical transition #personal #micahs thoughts

[whumpacabra]

Halfway

Past trauma, headache, referenced medical treatment, implied past illness and injury, antibiotics mention, neonazi mention

[Directly follows The South]

Easton Howard. That was his name now. It didn’t sit well on his tongue, foreign in his mouth, but that was his name now. Jackson had an awkward smile as he handed over the fresh ID card.

“I’m terrible with names - we can change it later when you’re ready.”

(The Wolf wasn’t sure he would ever be ready. If he would (could?) ever unbury that box of secrets in his skull.)

That had been this morning, as they left the clinic. Dr. Ashford explained things about his injuries he already understood. (It helped that he had been sick long enough for the worst of it to heal.) But he promised her he would keep taking his antibiotics until they were gone.

Jackson’s explanation of his situation was…wanting, but East (the two syllables of Easton didn’t sit right in his mind) wasn’t going to complain. He was healed. He was healthy as he could be. His handler was dead. He didn’t really care what happened next - nothing and no one could be as awful as Smith, and he was gone.

(No one else could break him again, because he was already broken. How Smith loved to laud that over him, that no matter what it was he who had broken the Wolf - )

“I trust Nate with my life, Easton. I want you to trust him too. He won’t let anything happen to you.” Nathan. Right. Jackson’s contact at this…place he was taking East. Something about ex-felons and employment. East was far worse than any of them, but they wouldn’t know that.

“Yessir.”

“Hm, about - did you read the file I faxed over to Nate?”

“My name is Easton Howard. I’ve recently been released from Blackwater County prison. Five years ago I committed assault and burglary. I’m out on parole on account of good behavior. The Holloway House will give me an opportunity to find employment and become a contributing member of society.” East memorized the file before the car ride began. He was so happy to have a script to follow. At least when he was the Wolf for the volunteers, he could pretend he wasn’t hurt or afraid. (He could turn his resentment on the innocent, the weak, the powerless - for once he was the one in control.) “Don’t worry, sir. I’m a good actor.”

“Huh. If you say so.” Jackson looked at East out of the corner of his eye, clearly unconvinced. Somehow, it didn’t look like failure to East, and he was able to crack a smile and relax his brow. He was a good victim, a good monster, and now he had to play the part of a good civilian.

How hard could it be?

—

Hard. It was very hard. He didn’t realize how distressed he was until he was left alone in his room. Introductions had been a blur of nodding, half smiles, and a facade of boredom.

The Wolf - no, no he was East. Don’t break character on set. (He was always on set here.)

East sat with his back to the foot of his bed, staring at the closed door with his knees drawn to his chest. There was a lock on the inside. That was somehow the most unnerving part - that they gave him the illusion of power, of locking someone out instead of him being locked inside.

(Nathan had a set of master keys, for emergencies. The Wolf tried to forget this fact.)

His breathing was shaky as he tried to reign in his thoughts, reviewing the information rattling around his skull.

Nathan was the head ‘supervisor’ in the Holloway House. He was Jackson’s friend. Dark skinned, dark haired, dark eyed - but his presence was undeniably bright.

Nathan had asked East about ‘himself’ and he answered as accurately as possible, both with regard to himself and the man in the file. He didn’t have a gambling or addiction problem. He didn’t smoke, but wouldn’t mind a bit of drink. His employable skills were…lacking, but he was a hard worker.

(He didn’t want to share a room. He didn’t want a shared bathroom. He didn’t like to be touched.)

“It’s a bit unorthodox.” Nathan had said, scratching his bearded chin. “But even though you’re new I think we can squeeze you into one of the singles upstairs.”

The room was tiny - smaller than his room in the bunker. A bed that barely fit his bulky frame, a desk and chair with barely enough room to sit at wedged on the wall opposite the bed. An overhead light and fan. A cramped bathroom - toilet and sink, no shower unfortunately.

(But the Wolf would take whatever scraps he was given and be grateful for them.)

Introductions to the other residents was…fuzzy. Jackson had left at that point, reassuring East that he was in good hands, and as much as he wanted to believe Jackson, his brain could not shut off its hypervigilant paranoia.

Tierney was the youngest - scruffy, 22, and freshly on parole. Drug trafficking charges. Jacob was the oldest - late 60s, weathered by war and time, and evidently uninterested in getting acquainted with East. Nathan had informed him it wasn’t Jacob’s first stint at a halfway house.

There were a smattering of others - Ice had little skin visible beneath a tapestry of tattoos that ran up and down his arms, Mac and Tav had run in the same gang, and Alister…

Alister kept quiet, to the back of the group. Expression open but not smiling. Words gentle but unfriendly. He was tolerating East, or in the best case scenario, humoring him, testing the waters. It was a half whisper from Ice that made East’s blood run cold and stomach sour. Something about Alister being a skinhead prick.

And for some reason that vague knowledge had him mutter halfheartedly about a headache and needing some sleep. (He needed some time alone.) Nathan seemed disappointed for a split second but understanding as he herded East upstairs to his room.

There were only three private rooms in the house - his own, Nathan’s, and Alister’s. East pressed his still tender back against the cool wood of the bedpost, trying to ground himself. He focused on the soft patter of snow outside, January chill letting the flakes fall heavy.

Jackson couldn’t come back soon enough.

[Before Façade]

(Part of my Freelancers: Changing Tides series)

Taglist: @stargeode @sacredwrath

#whump #recovery #past trauma #headache #medical treatment #past illness #past torture #neonazi mention #freelancers #the wolf->east transition is underway! yay! :3 #ive been so busy with the triduum the past few days...the vigil was 7 hours long...its so fulfilling but sooo tiring #now i have time to post about my brain blorbos on the regular again! <- ive had these written for weeks ive just wanted to edit more #I’ve got. Plans for these guys just you wait. there’s character arcs. romance. and tragedy.

[chwejongho-archive]

hellaur °3°

#i’m on a mini hiatus because life is overwhelming!! however i wanted to share some little life updates that have happened hehe :> #🌩️ #so for context i am a trans man #and i handled a full appointment with my GP (family doctor) on my own which is HUGE #because being autistic i usually need someone with me incase i go mute with anxiety or stutter too bad #and it was an extra stressful appointment because i finally told my GP about my plan to medically transition and got put on the notorious #GIC waiting list ;-; #☁️ #and i got her to change my name in the system since this week i also finally completely my legal name change!! #i’ve been socially transitioning for a good few years now so it’s nice for my legal name to match hehe #kaspar!! (kaz for short) #and i’ve got a bunch of legal stuff to do which is why i am overwhelmed and have no time to gif >< #anyways i am proud of myself!!!! #⛅️ #how are my beloved followers and moots doing?? pls send asks i miss interacting with everyone </3 #kaztalks

[aeolids-zenith]

i hate posts that are supposed to be positivity for people who lack friends or that say that social connections are like unexpectedly inevitable/straightforward to make or something, but then like. don't elaborate on how that is possible. it always just makes me feel more hopeless

#space chirrup #idk. i suppose even if there was actually anything theoretically actionable in those posts i still might not feel like it'd work for me #i mean i've tried googling for actual advice but for some reason ''how to make friends as a chronically online socially stunted #possibly autistic barely-transitioned transgender young adult introvert with esoteric interests'' doesn't turn up anything useful #(idk if ''possibly autistic'' is accurate all the self-assessments i've done plus the psychologist i went to said i probably wasn't) #i suspect that i might be unnecessarily limiting myself with all of that #but i have absolutely no idea what is a reasonable amount to step outside of my comfort zone/interests #i don't even have anything that i want out of basic social interactions the thing that compels me is intimacy. #but i don't want that with someone i don't know already. #but how do i get to know people when there's nothing i want to do with them and i have trouble feeling like i want things in general #does that mean i'm depressed. i've had conflicting feedback on whether i am. what is the productive course of action if i am #bc i keep thinking that like medication wouldn't be worth it if i didn't have a plan to actually improve my life but that if i had a #plan i could just do it without medication #but idk maybe medication would allow me to identify an actually viable plan. ggggggg #ALSO does it make a difference that i only feel strongly about this when it's late at night #people always say not to trust how you feel at night but it's not like i feel GOOD about my life in the daytime it's just kinda neutral #like there's enough for me to survive without significant effort and i'm not completely joyless but idk what it's all for #and night is the only time i feel motivated to do anything about it. #though usually that thing is just writing a vent post on tumblr or something equivalently unproductive lolllll

[aprofessionalwithoutstandards]

I hope you can get on t soon and grow the biggest dick ever

THANK U ANON I hope u realize how much this means to me. Like YES I'm going to go on t soon and grow the biggest dick ever and I DESERVE it

#i'm planning to move out in like a year or so and then like i will start more social + medical transition stuff #genuinely encourages me so much to move forward. like knowing that i can have that soon #ask #anon #mick dicks #quite literally! this ask is about my dick

[prettyboyscollection]

this is in reference to a specific post i didnt get a screenshot of but it said something to the effect of “males should get vasectomies as soon as they start puberty and only be allowed to have it reversed if a woman gives her legal written consent to get her pregnant” and. jesus fucking christ. you’re fucking unhinged. go to therapy??? believing that would be a good plan is fucking terrifying

#medical abuse // #ask to tag #doing genital surgery on children to own the misogynists #like literally. cis boys start puberty between like 9 and 14 #you want to give these children vasectomies??? #this is the sort of brainrot you get when you believe that men are inherently predatory #wanting to do surgery like that on fucking 9 year old children #like. a vasectomy involves cutting into the scrotum #and sealing up the passage sperm goes through to get into semen. and then the incision is either cauterized or closed with sutures #you want to do this to 9 year olds??? #trans kids can’t transition whatsoever but you think it’s totally cool and fine to do a surgery like that on a 9 year old boy??? #cool cool i hope you never interact with any children of any sex #go to therapy and work your shit out this is not a normal belief to have #also the person who made the post that prompted this literally said that doing surgery on 9 year old boys isn’t #violating their bodily autonomy #9 year olds of ANY sex and gender should not have procedures like that done unless it’s for their health #‘men violate women’s bodily autonomy all the time and all unplanned pregnancies are their fault so this is a good plan’ again. #go the fuck to therapy #‘im going to take my anger towards men out on actual children’ #how do you expect men to improve and not be awful if you think even little boys are irredeemable #go to therapy or drive off a cliff or something #z.txt #vent post

[dredshirtroberts]

well as it turns out, werewolf transformation is as painful as it looks.

in related news, guess who has memory problems and remembered their hormonal cycle directly impacts their chronic pain issues. (hint: it's meeee)

#like i appreciate the natural alert system i do #i'd like it more if it wasn't like a broken smoke detector going off because you need to change the battery but like that's not relevant rn #it's just like...i'd prefer not to lose half my month to being practically immobile for one week and then also for the next week too #(one for pain the other for Generalized Discomfort and then also sometimes still pain cause fuck me i guess lol) #like i'm not planning on using the eggs though i don't need to be warned that they're not fertilized #like...ninety percent of the reason i'd consider medical transition is because of this shit every month #or in some cases only in some months! i went most of the winter without it! just because! #it kicked back into normal as soon as the weather and lighting changed though and i'm pretty sure this has happened before #it's just like...annoying #like i could be sad about it or feel really bummed out or angry but mostly it's just like #i get one solid week of Being Fine About Everything a month and i just... #like between the pain that has been progressively getting worse beforehand #then the discomfort and such of during AND THEN as if that wasn't enough the DEEP DEPRESSION i can fall into both during and *after* #like it's just come on #come on give me a break here #i am just a little guy i deserve like just *one* win on this health-front please

[skyllion-uwu]

Thinking about the time at Disney World where the waitress called me sir and I instinctively lowered my voice because I thought if I talked normal she would realize I wasn't a man (I wasn't even trying to pass) and I wanted her to keep calling me sir

#this happened about a year ago and my family was like 'wow mica you lowered your voice' and im like 'i did?' #but i knew i did. i just wanted to pretend i hadnt #maybe i should go on t. i keep going 'but i like my voice' but if its deep i could probably voice train to fluctuate between the two #if i even want to at that point #too bad i will never ask my parents to help with medically transitioning since my dad told me he wouldnt pay for any 🙃 #when i get a job. planned parenthood has informed consent. #sky screams into the void

[nicodaws]

having a lil crisis at 1:30 in the am. as is tradition.

#this is such a long tag rant lmao sorry #tonight highlights r oh god i have no idea when im going to be able to medically transition #coz like ! fuck the uk system is designed to make us wait til we're 30 and i could go private but im not fucking loaded and im saving for #a year abroad in a few years and ffs im going fucking abroad for a year if all goes to plan and how does that even work and #idk how im supposed to do anything with no money and a transphobic family #and most the trans ppl ik irl have either been on the waiting list since they were 16 and r abt to get on T which i couldnt get coz my mum #would never #or they have fucking surgery dates scheduled coz their family can fucking afford to go private #and jealousy is an ugly emotion but man im feeling it so much rn #its just . i do not see the path that allows me to get what i need within the next like . 5 years . #its a stupid thing to be upset abt coz i cant change it but man im so upset abt it rn #my degree involves being on camera and podcasts and talking to strangers and i am not going to pass for any of it #anyway . its fine ill just have to save more and see abt private and get things moving ig #just. i want 2 talk to my mum abt it but i cant and it sucks. :] #. #idk i think i had this idea when i was like 12 and first coming out to friends that by the time i was 19 i would be on T getting surgery yk #but :] reality strikes again #delete later

[liminalcathag]

some people with a goal of passing and going stealth will shit all over people who are in a position where they can’t or don’t plan to transition into stealthing as a binary gender

as if, people who can’t stealth aren’t going to have more problems than them anyway, often enough

like get over yourself lmfao

#as a medically transitioning nonbinary person including mixed bottom surgery plans #this shit is sooooo weird #like ok you plan on literally assimilating? and transphobia is my fault somehow

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Hello fellow trans people, who else feels like they're faking :')

#it's like. my dysphoria is mostly social; I'm okay with my body for the most part; i like my body #i also have a disdain for traditional american masculinity bc i think it's ugly #so it's like. here i am; a very feminine looking he/him who doesn't plan on surgery or hrt and it's like #i feel like I'm not trying? i know i won't really pass unless i cut my hair down to a buzz and change some of my wardrobe #and it's like. i call myself a man but make little effort to really look like one you know? I'm mostly secure in it but sometimes I'm like #i feel like a sham bc my transition was so subtle unlike that of most trans people #I'm definitely overthinking it but idk. i see people mention transition goals and hrt and it already took me 7 years #to feel comfortable calling myself a trans man and I'm like. would i actually like those things? am i really fine the way i am? #and i am!!! i know i am!!! this is a different experience for everyone and there's no wrong way to have it but sometimea #i feel like i cheated my way through by not taking the big steps like a Real Trans U_U i dont really know anyone else who doesnt #plan on medical transition like myself so i dont really have anyone to talk to about this #i just think sometimes #transgender #just looking for some reassurance i suppose? #hoatm rants

[fma03envy]

Got my schedule today -_-

#a first block math class.... #like buddy idk how to explain to you that math is not my strong point #& I know from experience that making me do it at the time of day when Im normally nauseous from fatigue Does Not Produce My Best Work #and web design after that which I have 0 interest in but like. my mom's hoping I'll suddenly become interested in it #for future collage/career reasons which is like #I don't think it'll ever be interesting but its not like I have any monetizable interests period so w/e ig #urg. <- has no actual plans for the future (except wanting to go to college+ someday wanting to medically transition) #adrien says stuff

[so-i-did-this-thing]

TRANS OHIOANS - START STOCKPILING YOUR HRT AND PLAN HOW YOU WILL BE ABLE TO CONTINUE YOUR TRANSITION CARE

Ohio has taken a page out of Florida’s book and is proposing to effectively ban adult transition care via the requirements of numerous specialists - a psychiatrist, endocrinologist, and a bioethicist.

Since most trans people get their HRT from nurse practioners via the informed consent model, this will create undue burden on both trans people and the medical system -- the bottlenecks will effectively ban transition care for adults. This is what has happened in Florida, and Ohio's rules look much more draconian and surveiliance-heavy. All trans healthcare will be reported to the state.

These new rules have not taken effect yet. Trans Ohioans should plan for the worst now.

The rules are open to public comment through 5pm Friday, Jan 19, 2024. The full copy of the rules and how to comment are below:

https://mha.ohio.gov/about-us/rules-and-regulations/rules/draft-rules/gender-transition-care

As a Floridian who saw the writing on the wall and fled his state (my clinic hasn't been allowed to fill HRT prescriptions since May 2023 now) -- do not delay on making preparations. If this is approved, the rules will likely catch everyone by surprise. Start talking with your providers now and plan out your options assuming the ban will take place.

Informed folks to follow on Twitter:

Alejandra

Erin

#trans stuff #ohio #transgender #the bioethicist is absolute dystopian nonsense