#they're just glad they have a dad

[frobby]

my feelings about Yukio and his relationship with rin are that I feel like he so desperately wants to communicate with rin, to reconnect with him but he doesn't know how. They live together, they've lived together for years but slowly they've been drifting apart mentally and it's getting harder and harder to communicate. Yukio understands the idea of his brother. His reckless brother who loves him that he wants to protect because he's spent his whole life protecting him. But doesnt actually know that much about his brother personally and neither does rin for Yukio. Years apon years of keeping eachother at arms length it's hard to go back to when they were inseparable as kids and things were easier. At the beginning of the show they're both grieving but Yukio can't confide in rin. He just can't because he's the authority figure, he's the one in charge, he's the one with his life together and if that slips then he's really nobody just like when he was a kid and having his brother protect him but that backfires on him cuz he still after years and years even now when his secret double life as an exorcist has been revealed. He still can't figure out how to communicate with his brother.

#Yukio okumura stans does this pass peer review? #These are just my thoughts #I think it's really interesting that Yukio and rin keep eachother away just in different ways #As you can tell I love Yukio a lot #My favorite Yukio centric fits focus on his communication issues #Girls it took me so long to contextualise how much trauma he must have from not being there when his dad died #The day he leaves his dad dies that's so fucked up #My friend was making fun of me cuz I almost always read rin centric first but all my wips are Yukio centric #Im glad they're trying to communicate now #As brothers should #yukio okumura #ao no exorcist #Blue exorcist

[finncakes]

ep 48 doodle page ^^

#critical role #imogen temult #laudna #fcg #fresh cut grass #orym #orym of the air ashari #ashton greymoore #chetney pock o'pea #fearne calloway #bells hells #i THINK. that's all the tags.... #boy howdy #this is a really fcg-centric doodle page huh. #look man. i love my lil robot. they're just. so silly.... #also imogen babygirl i am so sad abt her #matt didn't need to make her dad say 'me neither' but he did and now i am so so sad cries #anywaaaay glad fcg was checked on. like seriously checked on. #i think orym was projecting a LOT in that conversation though. #fcg was like 'i'm actually ok lol i have a new purpose and i feel good abt things :)'

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[b4kuch1n]

1/ this bout of comms almost done and 2. spawndate in 3 days so I have! been fixin up some stuff for the itch store. that'll go live on the 29th! right now there Is a pack of the lineart stuff I did last year for folks who found that agreeable, still free to grab! for practicing coloring, or if you wanna mess around with colors when ur not feelin like doing lineart, or if you wanna try to figure out colors in a drastically different style than what you usually go for. or if u just wanna look at it that's cool too. small announcement that is all see u in a few

#bakuspeech #update on the situation: is mostly contained. it'll take a fair bit to make up for how much it's kicked us in the nuts #but it's doable. just Very annoying and tedious and sudden and overall it just sucks #esp. like right up close to my birthday lmao. like if it happened earlier this year I'd be like alright. sucks shit but par for the course #this year has already been so fucked up. this might as well happen #but since it's happened in december it really brings on the feeling of like. fr bitch? #right in front of my cake? me the birthday boy? the specialest fucking boy? #but well. theres a Thing around here that's ur birthday usually being the unluckiest day #but also we're the kind of folks who track death dates rather than birthdays. like up until very recently #all four of my grandparents have unspecified birthdays. their birth years aren't even correct. on paper they're like #a few years older than they actually are #and my granddad on my dads side was even from a family of some means so it wasnt even a class thing #man. last year Something was happening around this time too. idr what but it also sucked #mmm. well. what is really just is. and I've already taken a hammer to it anyhows #I'll do the same for the birthday thing. it Will be fucking good. I take a hammer to it #I'm very glad I still get some commissions even tho it was practically right up to noel #you guys are very generous. I don't say it as often as I should I think but I'm very very thankful for the support #glad to hang out around here still. glad to have the folks I have here. thank u for chillin with me #please look forward to the itch store update. got a new thing along with the old things ported over. stay tuned

[rowenabean]

#the wedding was lovely and i am so sad #managed to get most of the sad out of the way Friday and Sunday so i could be glad for them on the actual wedding day #but still. i'm going to miss her. #we always talked about living together and we never did and now we probably never will #i've got a model of married folk living together in community but i don't think they do and it has to be something you choose #her family are lovely and i was really glad to meet her friends and cousins that she talks about so often but they don't really get it #they get to have her!!! she's moving somewhere that's more convenient for literally everyone other than me! (this is not hard to do) #really good to get home and hug my dad and my little sister and have people who are my people around #was actually really good at the reception that there were a few other folk from my current town - i wasn't the only person who was #mixed joy and tears #i said something about us giving her over in my speech and they said yes that's exactly how we're feeling #but it wasn't till her husband responded to that in his speech that i started crying #everyone has been so kind to me but it has been SO good to get home #hoping i can get a bit more sleep as well. emotions are bigger when tired even though they're real still #(her cousins invited me to come stay any time and tbh i can see that living in Auckland could be actually really nice if you live where they #do. but i couldn't live where they do and do the work i want to do it is quite far away from the places in Auckland i could imagine working) #rowena adventures #btw no photos of me currently but probably some later??? not that we took many the groom had been sick the previous week and was #still pretty wiped so they got like two photos with the bridal party and ten with just them and that was it

[red-hemlock]

🦊

Mun Questions n' Stuff!

🦊 What is the ambiance like, where you are? Are there any sounds, or sights that might be distinctive?

(Ehhhh it's pretty quiet and quaint most of the time, just a typical suburban neighborhood. I live right across from a church though, so I get treated to the sounds of the bells going-off at times haha. xD

TOOOONS of bars though, you can do one srs bar-crawl here. Of course it kind-of sucks at the same time too, when you're coming home from the convenience store and 'Drunk Dan' decides to stumble out of a bar, begging for change and cigarettes or some mumbled mess.

My one neighbor's kids need to be thrown in the trash though, they keep leaving bikes and crap on our lawn and tossing their empty cheese-stick wrappers in our bushes. >BT)

#Anonymous #Outof'Lock #(SRSLY THO they're not even that young just spoiled gremlins. They even lock their mom out of their house when they get mad at her. Dx;;;;) #(They started ding-dong ditching our house once but because I work from home they kept getting away before I could catch them. >8T) #(Then they did it when my DAD was home and he caught their asses and put the fear of god in them. And it was absolutely hilarious. xDD) #(So glad I'm never having any though nope!)

[im2tired4usernames]

I hate that I literally just do not trust any of the older folks in my family to do right by anyone

#if i have learned anything from my grandparents parents uncles and aunts it's how not to treat children and spouses #i hope I'm a good wife to my wife and that i never put them through pain I've seen people put their partners through #i hope i never treat any children in my life like they do #i hope my possible children my nephews and nieces and my siblings always know they have a home with me #EVEN if I'm mad or disappointed in them #even if they scream how much they hate me i hope they know i love them I'll still feed them and make sure that's safe #i hope the people in my life never have to question of they're loved or safe with me i hope i can provide for them so they never have to go #with out something they need and then some to spoil them i want these people loved #i don't want my daughter to think because she talked back to me or is dating someone in not super found of that I'm goin to throw her away #i hope all the kids in my life always know I will try to take care of them as best i can no matter what #not trusting your elders to love you sucks ass not trusting your partner to love you through the scary bits of life sucks #i know so many men who just leave their spouses or cheat on them when they're wives get cancer #that's one thing I'm glad my dad did everything he could to try to let my mom know he loved hwr when she was here at least #i didn't understand or like some of the things he did but qt least he stayed with her and loved her then #unlike some people I'm regrettably related to #i hwar people at work talk about their spouses also one lady wants her husband to die #and it makes me sad i hope to God. my wife never has to question how much i love them i hope they feel loved and special forever #i hate how people treat the people they say they love the most i hope i am not like that i hope i never ever get like that

[llycaons]

apartment hunting is making me sick to my stomach with dread and anxiety. not that there's nothing out there, but for the first time since moving to a new state I'll truly be alone. where to live, what to focus on when picking a ppace, time management, what listing to trust, how to handle this all alone while working nearly fulltime - it's a lot, but most worrying of all is how it'll really just be me. and that's great, that's exciting, I've wanted that - but it's also so lonely and frightening. especially since im used to living right in the middle of the city. houses on the outskirts may be cheaper and bigger, but not having a car in a neighborhood with no subway and barely any bus stops really freaks me out. for all I said I wanted greenery, it sounds like I'll need a car to even come close....the isolation and silence is a lot more intimidating than the busyness of the city I've come to expect and even find comfort it. it's great when there's people around!

#MAN. i hate change. I could cry. maybe giving up a great location in a safe and cheap neighborhood with all my needs within walking distance #ISN'T the best idea #but they always have private convos in the living room so I always feel like a third wheel in my own apartment #ugh. there's a few places very similar to the one I'm leaving. they're half as large and three times as expensive #but they're in a good place #im so glad im seeing my dad tomorrow this has just been so intimidating and overwhelming #cor.txt

[cosmic-kaden]

Mom from across the room: What are you doing?

Me in the kitchen: Making pasta???

Mom: It's almost 9:30pm!!

Me: I'm in quarantine, time isn't real!!!!

Mom: ....shouldn't be eating right now

Me: yeah okay you go a week without being able to eat food and then lemme know if you'd eat pasta at 10pm-

Mom: .....

Me: Yeah... Also..... *Grabs empty paper towel tube* GO THE FUCK AWAY ...and I mean that in the nicest way possible.....

Mom: Oh it's fine!

Me hollering through tube: NO you're grounded go to your room for 10 days!

#my mom or my dad in law aren't vaccinated so i regualrly have to tell them to shoo. #I hate to say it but they're anti vaxx hats. So im coping with being scared shitless for them with humor. #glad my mom understands my humor at least. just wish she would take the Rona a little more seriously #food mention #not self ship #ma was the one to chose the bedorom as their safe area and we only got one bedroom sooooooo i told her she can still be in the kitchen so #long as im not in it! because i sanitize everything before i leave it

[nexus-nebulae]

its so funny watching my mom be like "nahhh, we don't need this (relatively cheap) kitchen tool, we can cook fine without it" but then when i finally convince her to buy it every time she's using it shes like "wow im so glad we have this it's so useful" its genuinely so funny

#it's 'dad & the cat he said he didn't want' energy it's so funny #we bought a kitchen scale bc we kept forgetting the weight of the meat we have in the freezer and we need to defrost by weight #every single time we'd pull out a mystery sized meat I'd be like 'we should get a kitchen scale' and It Worked lmao #i grabbed a straw cleaner bc i drink pretty much solely by straw now i just like it more and my mom is obsessed with the thing lmao #like every time she uses the straw cleaner for anything like cleaning funnels or the turkey baster #the entire time she's like 'wow I'm so glad we have this these things are cleaner than ever' its great #or just generally when i convince her to slightly improve the house a bit #we found some super cheap but REALLY nice furniture at goodwill and my mom Will Not stop talking about the new chairs and coffee table #(to be fair the chairs are super fucking nice they're insanely comfy for kitchen table chairs AND they only cost 15$ each)

[13eyond13]

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#things i am excited about at my new job #it's nice to SEE AND INTERACT WITH PEOPLE EVERY DAY #jesus between covid and working from home that was getting seriously hard for me to achieve #i find the subject matter interesting (it's medical stuff and helping patients which is way more interesting to me than the finance shit #i was doing at my last job where i just like helped financial advisors get richer) #my bosses are kinda young and cool which is nice because mostly i have worked for boomer men older than my dad #i get to people watch and learn new things and it's challenging but not TOO overwhelmingly difficult #it's admin stuff which i kinda enjoy in a dorky sim management job sort of way (i do that kind of shit for fun in video games all the time) #the one thing im worried about rn is that the person who's training me that im filling in for is leaving soon and they're my fave part #of coming to work right now because i just like hanging out with them and they have like this hypnotically soothing aura #and sweet kind personality so im afraid once theyre gone (a) i will suck at doing it all without them and #(b) it just wont be nearly as nice but #i must think positive thoughts and hopefully i can use their mentorship as inspiration too #i spent all last year failing at being a self directed online student and juggling random part time shit so i am SO GLAD #to have full time work and work that isnt horribly boring and lonely like the finance work from home one before it #ps the person who is training me worked for 12 years as a 911 emergency phone operator if you want a picture of how calm and nice they are #like they can make anything seem ok and fine and remain calm no matter what and their voice is the gentlest thing on earth lol #i get free asmr all day basically #p

[incorrectinfinity]

I am so scared of the future right now

#🎀.txt #how things are going in America is so fucking scary #i feel like I want to scream #a states I have lived in are trying to kill us off #I have so many friends in these states who I haven't talked to in years that could be afraid right now #afraid to be themselves lest they're arrested or forcefully detransitioned or worse #i am just watching it happen and hoping that somehow somewhere they're going to be ok #I have lived in the south for most of my life and still do #seeing states around me churn out more and more of these laws is fucking TERRIFYING #my state hasn't done anything catastrophic yet but seeing the surrounding states turn more and more dangerous is just so #ugh #I feel trapped and I cannot stand being caged #it sure as hell doesn't help that my dad is STILL transphobic and arophic and acephobic despite lying to me about it #I'm glad he isn't living with us right now it'd be fucking torture #I'm trying to keep my fears hidden but dammit it's so hard it's so FUCKING hard #I just want myself and my friends to be ok #I just want people to learn to accept that the only thing we've ever done as a community is fight for our right to exist #I am so tired I am so so so tired

[gayspock]

my bus on the morning is reliable usually but today it didn't show up + im too fucking autistic for this bc my entire week needs to be rearranged. my delicate fucking balances....

#egg.txt #It's so fucking infuriating bc t #For the past few weeks every single bus gets cancelled on a night now. Every single one. #They're meant to be every 20-30 minutes but sometimes it's gotten down to like one every 3 hours #I'm just so sick of it bro but this one company has a monopoly on the entire fucking area and they just have nothing to keep them in checj #So they up the prices and don't even run the buses half the fucking time #Anyway I'm so glad I showered yesterday while my dad was gone usually I have to shower at the gym but I can't go today any more #I know it's stupid but i need to be able to go tk wash myself since I can't at home

[iridescentoracle]

❤ god they’re so cute

#gg #girl genius liveblog #allie don't look #sarah don't look #character: agatha heterodyne #i meant agatha and gil but also like. zeetha in that second panel. oh my god. adorable #also congrats zeetha on your impending discovery of your secret long-lost twin brother and also long-lost father #have fun spending the next two and a half years not telling him that for some reason #actually my real question is if she's told higgs. can you even imagine that conversation #you're a semi-immortal monster working undercover for your boss's boyfriend #while your real boss is missing and also possessed by her evil mom #(also your boss's boyfriend is currently possessed by his… like‚ less evil dad? but you know‚ low bar) #and at some point your girlfriend decides to mention she's your boss's boyfriend's long-lost twin sister #you know. nice casual conversation over lunch sometime #i just. keep wondering how that will go #would go? did go? WHO KNOWS #to be clear i'm not criticizing her for not telling gil #i'm glad that reveal is still waiting for us and honestly i desperately hope he winds up in skifander with them #but like. it has been TWO AND A HALF YEARS and he STILL DOESN'T KNOW #i love them they're all trainwrecks it's perfect #nyquil don't look

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm already very clumsy normally, but with this vertigo stuff I've just been walking into walls and things all day basically 🙃

I wish my body would stop adding more stuff to the already too long list of things that are very annoying but not serious enough that any doctor takes any of them seriously.

#like. I can't use my hands. can't walk without pain. am slightly dizzy almost every day. abdominal pain all the time basically. close to #daily nosebleeds. whatever the hell is going on with my mental health. #I get that I should be glad I don't have one horrible thing #but all this stuff adds up #I'm constantly tired/exhausted. I have no energy. #I just had a few good weeks where I was mostly pain free and I was shocked how different that was from my daily life. #and all I get from doctors is 'you'll be fine. this won't kill you. no idea what's wrong with you though 🤷' and that's it #I just want to feel okay 😭 #I don't want to be the kind of person who's always just complaining but things keep happening and they're all bad and I'm so fucking #exhausted 😭 I haven't felt okay since like 2015 and it just keeps getting worse and worse and worse #when one thing gets better another new one appears #ugh I just walked to the bathroom and back so now I'm nauseous because walking makes the dizziness worse #seriously fucking over this #also. my dad suddenly went deaf in one ear and had very bad vertigo after that for a long time and I feel really bad for not understanding #how hard that was for him. I mean I was 9/10 and no one ever explained it or anything. but still. #if this doesn't go away very soon I will go insane. #personal

[quietblissxx]

Home from the funeral and feel a lot of mixed emotions. How can I feel so isolated yet so connected at the same time?

#it was more a celebration of life than anything so there was a lot of laughter and joy mingled with the grief #went down a huge nostalgia spiral afterwards. haven't seen most of these people in years. #when did we go from 16 year olds getting drunk and playing rock band in our parents place to adults attending parents funerals #when did we get old? #and it hurts that I'm the only one that never integrated into the group fully. they're all talking about plans I'm not part of #i think I'm arguably closer to t than most of them are but they've known him for longer. #I've always been jealous of how he's had the same friend group since childhood. #what must it be like to have people that have known you your whole life #I've always been an outsider with them even as i became so close to him. i felt so awkward today. but I'm glad i went. i couldn't not. #I'm really in my emotions right now. #me #personal #everything you do in life touches other people. it's just wild. i hope when i die the room is as full as it was today. #how amazing of a dad would you have to be to have all your children's childhood friends coming out to pay their respects