#they felt alone without each other

[tategaminu]

STOP

Yes officer, these shorts right here

#the idiots missed each other too much #they felt alone without each other #like they grew up pretty lonely and then they found each other! #DAMN IT RAYLA #i wish i had a healthier hyperfixation but I always go for angsty couples #i have to listen to phineas and ferb songs now to cure this sorrow #TDP #tdp shorts #the dragon prince #tdp spoilers #tdp callum #tdp rayla #rayllum #rayla x callum #shitpost

[nubimera]

I noticed that in all the ffs Ezra and Reader are already in an established relationship (and that's something I love, don't get me wrong! I'm always soft for the two of them together)

BUT

I can suggest: Ezra and Reader pining for each other?

Ezra and Reader who are emotionally close, giggly and happy whenever they are near each other.

The whole Ghost crew knows there's something between them, but neither Ezra nor Reader want to say something because "they're just friends, and he/they don't see me that way."

Then Ezra disappears, sending Thrawn into exile.

And the relationship between Ezra and Reader remains stuck in what "could have been" and "what will never be"

When Reader, along with Sabine and Ahsoka, finally finds Ezra, the meeting is all tight, endlessly long hugs and radiant smiles.

Obviously not a meeting between "just friends".

But at the same time it's obviously not a meeting between lovers. How could it be, when they didn't have the opportunity to be more than they were?

But at least, for the first time in years, Reader feels completely at peace, despite any imminent threat. They has finally found Ezra, and maybe that's enough.

#I'm not a writer and it's obvious #but I felt I needed to share my favorite trope for Ezra and Reader with someone #first love and pining that becomes slow burn? #Two people who love each other but have never told each other? #and when they are about to do so they find themselves separated due to external causes? #I live for things like that #Sabine and Ahsoka who are in the background betting on how long it will take Reader and Ezra to finally kiss (for the first time😭) #And instead those two imbeciles immediately go back to pinning for each other #walking so close to each other that they can touch their fingertips without having the courage to walk hand in hand #uuuggghhh #i love them #btw at first moment they are alone they end up kissing don't worry #ezra bridger x reader #ezra bridger #mor

[yunwooz]

woosang ♡ for @miinsang

#lunagifs #luna.gifs #*ateez #*wooyoung #*yeosang #the woo to my sang the san to my woo #u tease me a lot... A LOT!!! #but u always take care of me too n ur just like woo in that way... #it's crazy to think of how many years it's been already #i can say without a DOUBT that you are one of the reasons i made it thru the panini and all that #we've been thru lots of friend groups and changes in friends and all that a lot together #and i know we joke about it a lot but really im so happy that we've stayed with each other thru it al :(( #i cant imagine having to go thru that alone esp when it felt like it just kept happening over and over #and when i had to finish uni alone at home i would always be super down bc i didnt get to go out and make friends #but one of the reasons i was still okay was bc i had you and i knew i could always bother you 👹 #we're both pretty quiet when things bother us #and it still amazes me that we've been friends for so long and have never fought i'd never had a friendship like that until i met you :(( #but sometimes you'll come to my dms and know exactly what's bothering me without me saying a WORD!!! #thank you for always being there for me and letting me be there for you in return

[denydestiny-doodles]

@heropartnerweek day 6: alone

without you in the holehills, moments before escape, moments before arrival

#denydestiny draws #pocket monsters mysterious dungeons #sam and peter from paradise #it's a short moment of game and you have hydreigon but. times i felt alone in gates were here and the worldcore #i think it could be possible for munna to talk up her plan to partner. everything's working out for her before the holehills fight #she's got her gang on her side. and on the other side is hydreigon telling hero they're walking into an ambush #but in the attack munna leaves partner unguarded. so partner travels through the caves because they aren't stuck. and hero runs to them #not this moment though. in this moment they're without each other #one more thing i will say is sam the oshawott is not impressed but. and i didn't know how to make this clear. they're not mad at her? just- #sam is just feeling like we could've talked this out. this didn't have to happen. we could be bonding over gardening rn munna

[riftwalker-limbro]

@chronicler-of-narrative a quick recap for you, myself, and anyone else, since it HAS been a while since i worked on this and this became more than a simple reply lmao

so in the beginning there was kelth. and i wanted to write a cute story of the operator and ordis becoming Proper Friends. and along the way because i am a chronic limbo main i shoved a limbo OC in there too. and eventually this limbo oc gave himself a wife, a husband, and main character syndrome, so i wrote out a prologue as to how they all met while they were still human!

the original version is here but i didn't like certain elements of it (i wrote its outline and the whole thing within 24 hours somehow. it was fun!!! but then you have a week and more to think about it and you start going Hm) so i'm rewriting it!! (VINCE DIDN'T EVEN HAVE A HUMAN NAME AT THIS POINT WHICH IS WHY IT'S NEVER EVEN MENTIONED) (jay isn't exactly his warframe-equivalent deadname. it's complicated)

my plan for releasing stuff is to finish Connection (kelth & ordis), then have the Prologue (jay, verica, pule) ready to go and release parts regularly, while i write Collective (merging of the gangs to ordis' great despair about the quarters space aboard the orbiter. therell be so much angst it'll be great) and have the first part of that ready to go by the time the prologue release schedule ends for Maximum Emotional Damage

#rift noises #rift lore #verica's origin story is that i was cooking spaghetti with my wireless headset on and a song came on and i fuckin #literally dropped the spaghetti as she manifested in my head #pule's origin story is that dear friend fashion show got really emotionally attached to him #so i couldn't let him die sad and alone as a human and never come back as a horrible abomination of flesh and metal #(the dynamic between vince and verica also felt off without that third element so now they're a triad) #(pule is the guy in the polycule who isn't dating anyone he's just there) #(they love each other and also have a light case of transference hivemind going on)

[bitchfitch]

For all the teething I've been doing on Pavo and Esti i haven't been able to like, actually write any thing for them recently mostly because I've been Busy.

But also because I'm snapping between like 3 ideas for them at terminal velocity and haven't been able to actually get anything written for them and it's like having pumas bouncing around my skull at mach fuck as though theyre house cats at 2 am when you're trying to sleep,

#idea one is the day after things start changing and they haven't discussed it fully yet. #Pavo is mulling over some things and Esti is too nervous to ask about it. but they're alone out hunting #its such a nice day. and Esti thinks hes going to be saying goodbye soon. and hes making himself sick with anxiety over it #and they're alone together like old times but its Not like old times because Esti remembers how sweetly Pavo had kissed him that #morning after and how good it had felt to spend the whole morning in bed cureld up against him. #and Esti doesnt think he could stomach the idea of leaving without getting another kiss or at least finding out if Pavo regretted it or not #and the story is them being sweet on each other and avoiding the big heavy topic until Esti can verbally ask about it. because like Pavo #knows him well enough to know whats eating him up. but he wants to hear Esti say the words #and then the second idea is Esti waking up from a nightmare after hes been brought home from that hell. he screams for Pavo and #like of course pavo is on his feet and at the door that separates their rooms in an instant. but its locked and Esti is too #scared to navigate to it because hes already wound up and hes still not used to life as a blind man. so the idea of getting out of bed #and crossing an open room with nothing to help him orient himself is Terrifying. #probably more than it should be but the nightmares are still fresh in his head and hes having to make himself focus and ignore them #and just reasure himself that it Actually is Pavo and not one of those monster that had used his voice. and its hard hes crying and Pavo #has to take down part of the fucking door frame to get the sliding door off its tracks without just busting it down since Esti didn't #need that particular audio experience right now and he liked that doors painting and Pavo had already sent for the craftsperson who #made his eyes to commission them to make a set for esti. and he doesn't want to destroy something pretty esti likes when itll only be a few #until esti can enjoy it again. and he gets into the room and esti scooches over in bed to welcome him into it because despite Everything #esti still will always feel safer pinned between a wall and Pavo than anywhere else. and he just needs to feel safe. #and the third thing is because of something deardest said a yesterday i think about Pavo in his old age. and im just Chewing on the image #of him and esti in his carriage. Esti's hair has gone white and hes nearing his end. and thentwo of them are together and happy #and able to reflect on the lives they've had together. and its mostly just the idea of Pavo being glad hes so much older than Esti. because #it means despite Esti only being half demon and having a much shorter life because of it. Pavo isnt going to outlive him by very long. #and All of this. Everything was because of how scared Pavo was to be alone. and hes not going to have to be in his last days. #so Yeah. thats been whats on my mind when im not devoting it to like lame shit like work #wow im bad at reading #their url is derederest #not deardest

[snowyleopardess]

Post current arc Atsushi gets drunk and climbs in akutagawa's window at 3am to bite him back

The bruise doesn't go away for weeks

#akus so damn mad #but even madder that he can't leave a lasting mark in retaliation because of the were tigers fucking regeneration #even though Atsushi actually felt bad enough to only fake fight a little the first time #now if they're alone together he'll just randomly lunge for his neck #quantity if he can't get quality #but then Atsushi gets annoyed and bites him back again #so now they have bite fights #and its their new greeting #once a fight got very heated but cut short in the middle #so the next time they meet they lunge for each other without thinking #in front of their coworkers #dazai thinks its hilarious #he bites chuuya the next time he sees him #and had to go around looking like a raccoon for a month with his double black eyes

[diabolicjoy]

.

#warning there’s too many typos but who cares #i’m always complaining to myself in my head about how me & my best friend have grown apart #we’ve spent all out teenage years doing everything together even though we weren’t from the same school #we’d still find ways to see each other if not every day then at least every month #& since she started college & then a relationship & then work we’ve just grown apart & it was embarrassing for me really because i was alwa #ys the depressed never busy always alone type & i always ended up felt clingy when asking to hang out #feeling* #specially because she’s a social butterfly & i’m the one who has social anxiety lol but it was always reassuring to have her by my side #during these social events #then the pandemic happened & after things went back to normal.. i can actually count on my finger how many times we’ve seen each other irl #also stopped texting each other which is an important detail considering we used to talk every single day #especially because she’s like. literally the only person i feel comfortable opening up abt things i wouldn’t tell anyone #so i just feel isolated & a bit lost in life without her presence in it... but i’m just a very insecure human & always feel like the plans #& little dates & things i come up & plan for us to do is just... super boring to her (or anyone else) #so i stopped trying completely. which is sad because i miss her immensely #but last november i went to a festival with some friends but felt super stressed on the first day but tried to hide it from everyone #because i don’t wanna ruin the whole trip by being moody so i just kept to myself #ended up feeling overwhelmed & on day2 of the festival we txt each other bc she’s gonna be there #so i just spent the entire day2 with her & her partner & we all had such an amazing time... it really revitalized me lol #& everything felt so familiar even though i hadn’t seen her since her bday in may.. #& idk i just missed her. i always felt like this lack of talking & seeing each other just meant that they didnt like me as a friend anymore #or that i wasn’t worth keeping around... idk i’m always expecting the worse which is so unfair to the other person #i know she loves me & that life happens #anyway all that to say that i decided to stop being a pussy & stop mopping around #crying abt how i’m alone & friendless. & like. just text them & invite invite them to see a movie or something #idk if it didn’t work our 2 years ago life happens i am trying again #i won’t find someone like them that easily again in life i think

[lollytea]

Huntlow thought - Hunter and Willow going out of their way to make sure Gus never feels like a third wheel. I really love that all three of them are close, because Willow and Gus’ relationship is clearly very important to them and nothing sucks quite like having a romantic interest get in the way of a friendship. Willow especially, having gone through what she did with Amity and knowing how it feels to have your best friend push you away, would take special care to see that they still did one-on-one hangouts, and that Gus never feels like he’s intruding. (She doesn’t really have have time to worry when it’s the three of them, though, because when Hunter and Gus are in the same room she immediately becomes The Braincell.)

Just, like, the two of them being friends first and dating second.

YEAH YEAH MY GOD YEAH YOURE SO RIGHT

I cannot imagine the three of them ever having a problem like this, it just feels so out of character.

As you said, Willow has had her terrible experience with Amity, and she and Gus were each others' only friend for the longest time. Their bond is so special and completely unbreakable. It would be so unlike Willow to ever neglect that.

And likewise, Gus knows Willow loves him. He has complete faith and confidence in this. He knows how loving she is and he's been through so much with her. This is not the kind of relationship that easily sows insecurity.

Meanwhile, Hunter has never had friends before so now that he does, there is no way in hell he is ever going to take them for granted. I don't think he would ever consider either romance or friendship to be superior to one another. They're both just different forms of love to him and Hunter had been without love for so long, that he needs to cherish all that he currently has in his life.

It's so important how all of the trio have established dynamics with eachother that are all unique and special in their own way. Willow and Gus have this unconditional love and years of history and have been each others only support during their darkest times. Hunter and Willow have this sweet soft friendship that is built on respect and admiration. And Hunter and Gus seem to exist in their own boyish bubble. Hunter looks out for Gus and Gus makes Hunter laugh.

But the three of them TOGETHER is a dynamic in its own right and its just as special. I also love this idea of total comfort in their relationships with eachother that even if Hunter and Willow ARE off having alone time, Gus doesn't feel even remotely weird that they're off doing stuff without him. Like all of the trio are able to hang out as duos without the third person feeling left out because they all understand how deeply they care about each other.

Like sometimes Hunter and Willow WILL be hanging out alone at her place and after a few hours they'll be like "I miss Gus. We should ask Gus to come over."

And then he bursts in like "HELLO LOVEBIRDS YOUR FAVOURITE BOY IN THE WORLD IS HERE." And he's fucking RIGHT he IS their favourite boy in the world

#i dont even think it OCCURS to willow and hunter that he need to like. pay attention to gus #because hes such a constant in their lives that they dont even think about it. #theyre a trio and if theyre without gus for too they start feeling trio withdrawls #also its worth mentioning that luz and amity are also involved in this #usually theyre a squad of five #if luz and amity are having alone time the trio are left with each other #but in the same way willow and gus never felt like luz abandoned them when she started dating amity

[whimsyprinx]

i don’t think I’m like actually allowed to be happy or that I even know how to be anymore

#whimsy whispers #this isn’t me asking for permission to be happy by the way #it doesn’t matter if everyone in the world told me I was allowed to be happy I wouldn’t believe them and it wouldn’t make me like able to #suddenly be happy either #idk this post hasn’t got a point #everything just feels bad and hopeless and sad and idk what to do anymore when existing sucks so much and I know I’m never going to be happy #I just feel like I’m being suffocated or drowning or something #rn is actually a better day because I feel fairly empty which is far preferred for being in tears #like I just don’t know what to do at this point I feel so unhappy and unloved and alone and there’s nothing I can do #I can’t just fix anything I can’t just be happy I can’t make myself be loved I can’t do anything #all I can do is let each day pass by either feeling like it’s the end of the world and wishing that it really were or feeling empty #there’s no relief #it’s not that i want to be like this but I can’t help it #I want to be happy and loved and surrounded by people who love me but as I am I’m unfit for love and I honestly haven’t felt genuinely loved #I’m so long and at this point all I’m doing is making those around me feel worse so isn’t it best if I just stop being in peoples lives #so that’s what I’m up to now #I’ll be unhappy regardless but at least other people will hopefully be happier without me being so sad around them all the time #I make myself tired so I can only imagine how tired everyone else is of me

[rexscanonwife]

Work got me fucked up but know that I'm always ALWAYS on that loving Rex forever and always grind too 🥺🥺💖💖💕💕

#brie babbles #self insert talk #💙 oh captain my captain 💙 #SCREAMING AND CRYING TONIGHT CAUSE THE FEELINGS ARE STRONG #im thinking about how much we GO THROUGH together ; w ; #lately ive been thinking about like...the repercussions tbh #like during the war there were probably lots of times where rex just needed to be held and allowed to cry #and to be the one that he trusts to /break down/ in front of #even though it takes a while for him to accept it #he can finally let out those feelings. that grief. that anger and sadness #he can let me catch it in my hands and help him put it to rest #because he never needed to be tough all the time for me. i always knew that he was the strongest even when he didnt feel it #for continuing to fight and to keep going on and being the best person he could be for his brothers that still lived #there were lots of times where we were all alone in my room and he was allowed to just cry and be held and kissed #until he felt at least a little bit lighter #but then order 66 happens and we BOTH lose everything #and we spend a few months without each other feeling like there was nothing left #and then we FIND EACH OTHER again and suddenly there's hope again #but it still doesnt mean we dont break down and have to lean on each OTHER from time to time and now we can do that #we can be rocks for each other and rebuild everything we lost #and through everything we ALWAYS had the love we shared #ok tag rambling over i gotta sleep ajfjgjf

[dhampir-dyke]

I know it's bad to want a relationship to "fix" you but I genuinely was better off mentally and emotionally when I was in a relationship- and not in the 'listen to all my problems and be my therapist' way but the 'you make me feel like I'm not alone in the world and you make me want to be a better person for both our sakes' way. I wanna be able to share my struggles with another person but also take theirs as well.

#sighs #idk why im talking aloud #i. hooked up w a girl the other night and i just felt even more lonely and not good about myself afterwards. #i just want someone who loves me and is as sweet to me as i am to them #and they dont even have to be as batshit crazy as i am. like. #okay so my ex- when we were dating- i would have ripped the entire sky to shreds if something happened to her. i would help her with her #college assignments and exams n shit- i promised to pay for her college if something were to happen with her scholarship #i would have done literally anything for her. but she started being hateful and wanting me to blow my savings on things i didnt need #eventually i grew a spine and broke it off without her even putting up much resistance. but the point is that if she had just shown me #a little bit of that lobe and support back? instead of being hateful and mean to me? id prolly still be in love with her #im just sick of doing this alone. i want to be apart of a team again (even if at the time it was p one sided). i miss feeling like i could #take on the entire world with someone by my side. that even if we were broke and living in squalor we would have each other

[branchiopod]

can’t sleep. keep making myself mad about shit

#it’s like three things rn #someone from my old college had it out for me and i genuinely have no idea why #like they were always rude as fuck to me and in the first few weeks we knew each other i was being interrogated ab slur and pronoundiscourse #asked how i felt ab he/him lesbians and i was like i’m not a lesbian so…who fucking cares #and we got into slurs somehow and i wish i could’ve been more articulate bc i was like yeah. i think some trans men can say the d slur #and they were like why aren’t you saying it and my response was cuz i don’t feel like it #but the point i wish i had thought well enough to make is like first of all slur discourse is stupid #and the word dyke is central to so many people’s identities not just currently but in the past too #when i was still fem-presenting and pre-any sort of transition i was a dyke. that’s the best word for how i felt then and now looking back #AND you don’t know the intricacies of someone’s identity. are you gonna police this shit? leave me tf alone #also pissing me off lol #is the fact that i dated someone who hated the parts of me that i like #shit spanned from like him saying it about tank tops and sweatpants immediately after i said they’re gender affirming for me #to not being able to deal with me being loud to the point that i re-triggered a depressive episode as soon as i got out of one #when im doing well im loud and excitable but they couldn’t handle that so i just shoved it down #and last thing. did anyone else deal with the predatory gay stereotype bc i never see ppl talk ab it but i was a huge target for it #it’s affected my ability to just. function as person like i can’t compliment people without making myself panic #the few times i’ve seen it talked ab is specifically the predatory lesbian stereotype #which does make me wonder how much of my experience was fueled by that and how much was just generic homophobia

[tokyoteddywolf]

...I'm not as sad as I probably should be.

It hurts, its understandable, but it's resignation too.

I won't cry over it.

I'll just accept what I'm dealt and move on.

That's all I can do.

#vent in tags #it was always going to happen. the degredation was always there and it just crumbled silently away. #losing friends always sucks. it sucks more when you know its both of your faults. #lost a couple of good friends today. not dead but we just couldnt deal with each other anymore. #i cannot forgive or forget and maybe thats just part of why it had to happen. i tried to forgive but i couldnt. #it was always in the back of my mind you know? that i hated it. i hated it so much. i couldnt hate you- but i just couldnt let go either. #and maybe that suppressed spite and rage made it all worse. and maybe i was never going to let go. and maybe i still felt so so alone. #and maybe you did what was best for you but it hurt me so badly that my brain scarred deeply and we couldnt recover. #it was always going to crumble and break. we couldnt handle it. we just held on in desperation until we all broke. #and my resentment spilled to the both of you. and my spite and rage killed us all. and im sorry i dragged you all under. #maybe one day we'll be better people. older. wiser. stronger. #but ive always always always felt so alone in the aftermath and it just didnt help. so i cant forgive it. not yet. maybe not ever. #i love you but you hurt me. you hurt me so so so badly. and maybe i hurt you just as badly back in retaliation without thinking. #we tore each other apart and the sorry's we said were paper bandaids. it was inevitable. it was a doomed narrative and we the players. #i am sorry. i am so sorry. i will grieve you and miss you but i will not reach out to you anymore. ill leave you alone. #just promise me you'll look after each other the way you always have. #at least in that i know you're loved still.

[gyudons]

despicable

updates as of 22 oct

Travis Dermott knew that he would draw attention with his actions in the Coyotes’ home opener against the Anaheim Ducks at Mullett Arena on Saturday. The Arizona defenseman just hoped that the spotlight might shine on the issue that he was addressing, not on him.

“You don’t really want to go against rules that are put in place by your employer, but there’s some people who took some positive things from it,” Dermott said. “That’s kind of what I’m looking to impact.

“You want to have everyone feel included and that’s something that I have felt passionate about for a long time in my career. It’s not like I just just jumped on this train. It’s something that I’ve felt has been lacking in the hockey community for a while. I feel like we need supporters of a movement like this; to have everyone feel included and really to beat home the idea that hockey is for everyone.”

“I won’t lie,” said Dermott, who is playing on a one-year, two-way contract. “From the outside, it’s easy to see that I’m putting my career on the line for something. I definitely went through some emotional ups and downs that night, not regretting anything by any means, but I’d love to have maybe done a couple of steps a little different by making sure that everyone was aware of what was going on before I did it.

“I don’t want to put my teammates or my coaches or my GMs or the equipment managers in any kind of bad light when it’s their job to kind of look out for something like this happening. It was definitely something that I did just by myself and was prepared to kind of deal with whatever repercussions the league decides to push towards that. I’m not going to back off and say that this battle is won, but we’re going to find better ways to do it.”

As Dermott noted, LGBTQ+ inclusion is an issue that he has supported for a long time. Without getting into specifics, Dermott said the issue is personal for him because it impacts people close to him.

“I’d be lying if I said I haven’t shed tears about this on multiple occasions,” he said. “So yeah, it’s something I’m definitely very passionate about.

“I’ve met a lot of people that from the outside, it looks like they have everything going right in their life and they have a smile on their face every time they talk to you. But sometimes when we get closer to people and get comfortable enough for them to open up to you, you can see that there’s some pretty dark stuff happening to some good people. It doesn’t take too many times encountering something like that for it to really change someone.

“I’ve been blessed to have some of those opportunities put in front of me to really change my view of what being a good person means; what being a good father and a good example and role model means going forward. You really see how people are hurting and it’s because of a system that maybe no one’s intentionally trying to be malicious about, but until you’ve really had that first-person experience seeing people hurting from it right in front of you, it’s tough to kind of take steps.”

It would be a surprise if the league handed down any sort of punishment. The optics alone would add to the public relations damage that the original ban created. Even so, Dermott reiterated his desire to bring the entire franchise into the fold before he takes similar actions in the future, but he also made it clear that he will not be silenced on the topic.

“It’s not like I’m shutting up and going away,” he said. “I know more questions are going to be coming. We’re just going to be as prepared as we can be to just spread love. That’s the thing. It’s gay pride that we’re talking about, but it could be men’s health. It could be any war. It’s just wanting world peace. Everyone’s got to love each other a little bit more.

“Like my parents said growing up, ‘How awesome would it be to be the guy that people look up to?’ That’s what really hit home when I was a kid, especially from my mom. You want to grow up and be that guy. You want to be the guy that’s having the impact on kids like NHL players had on you. If they had been racist or bigoted, that’s going to have an effect on you.

“With how many eyes are on us, especially with the young kids coming up in the new generation, you want to put as much positive love into their brain as you can. You want them to see that it’s not just being taught or coming from maybe their parents at home. They need to see it in the public eye for it to really make an effect.”

#nhl #pride #lgbt #gay #queer #hockey

[binoculares]

feel like i'm constantly between the urgent need to conect with everyone and feel loved and needed and the deep deep boredom i have with everyone elses business. good for you or sorry that happended.

#i want to be as close as my two corworker friends are to each other but I don't care about their stuff that much #basically i want to be left alone and adored and wanted but with my space #man i don't know this week i have felt very weird i need to lock myself in a room and have a sincere conversation with my brain #mostly rn i want to be alone in my desk and not talk and for it to be normal. but i wish that didn't make me feel so far away from everyone #i wish i cared more . i wish i knew how act like a human being without feeling like i'm putting on a play and be naturally interesting #but at the same time i don't come to this place. earth and work whatever. to be entertaining for anyone. #i have to find enjoyment in life. i have to do me and be myself and everything else will fall into place #I ALSO HAVE TO HAVE THE COURAGE TO BE DISLIKED #that's my biggest fear i think #gosh i hate it i hate it