#they are both. so old and cringe

[whatthefuxkkk]

AU where everything is the same except Alastor and Lucifer are buddies

#they are both. so old and cringe #Lucifer is just better at hiding it #i was gonna draw this originally but then i got insecure so have a shittily edited png comic thing #i am not an artist as you can tell #why are they speaking in comic sans? idk #hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #alastor hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel lucifer #lucifer morningstar #hazbin lucifer #lucifer magne #where did the name magne come from anyway.. i hope im not tagging a different media's lucifer lmaoo #seen people tag it as lucifer from the Lucifer TV series without knowing what it was 😭😭 #charlie hazbin hotel #charlie morningstar #hazbin charlie #hazbin hotel charlie #lucifer hazbin hotel #forgot that one #erm gonna tag this as radioapple but like. it's not meant to be a ship #could be interpreted that way tho so whatever #radioapple #platonic radioapple #queerplatonic radioapple #qpr radioapple #yeah i fw qpr radioapple as long as it's not just used as an excuse to ship them #that's about it #comment like subscribe 🔥💯

[laniidae-passerine]

I made my post about Dean Highbottom and then as I was writing my tags realised that his Hunger Games counterpart is Haymitch. and now my head is in my hands and I don’t think I’ll ever recover

#IM GOING TO CRY. I am part of the system I never wanted anything to do with it #I killed so many people without laying a hand on them. I never ever asked for this. I tried to say no. my hands are still bloody. #both turned to drugs to cope. both had a mentee who reminded them of someone they hated so much #(snow reminded the dean of his old friend. katniss reminded haymitch of himself) #both knew exactly how the games worked and all of its consequences because one made it and the other lived it #both lived in the shadows of the past and never really got out from it #but in the end one of them chose to be cruel to the children who they were asked to mentor #and the other loved even when it was killing him #god. twenty three years and they never managed to drown the fire out of him. his heart broke again and again #but he held onto those shards even as they made his hands bleed. and then one day two children appeared and pieced it back together #and some of it was missing and always would be. you can’t undo twenty three years of alcoholism and pain and grief and self loathing #but a lot of it was still there. far more than he ever even believed could have survived #Haymitch I love youuuuuuuuu I will always love you #and Dean Highbottom you were kinda cringe and lame. guynobody ass bitch. do better #haymitch abernathy #dean highbottom #thg #the hunger games #a ballad of songbirds and snakes #abosas

[paper-starz]

I drew Rich from Poppy Playtime!

His design is actually @the-friendliest-freak’s! (Go check em out!)

Oh and yes

I did ship him and Gordon together.

Hell yeah old men kissing.

#my friendly neighborhood #poppy playtime #mfn gordon #poppy playtime rich #i may be cringe but i am free #also #there’s so many similarities between these two #both are old grumpy men with a heart of gold #both are in mascot horror games #both have a LOT of angst #AND ALSO ALSO #RICH IS SOOOOOO UNDERRATED #WHERES MY RICH FANART??? #he’s the only man I trust in that game

[non-un-topo]

My Neekeys over the last two-odd years. I was curious to see the changes 🤔

#forgive the low quality dfghfds it was just an experiment #now to do the DRAW ANYONE ELSE challenge #siggy draws #he is my blorbo. my muse. i guess #don't get me wrong. i am CRINGING and SWEATING at just the thought of uploading this. #have i been drawing almost every day my entire life? yes. does my style still change all the time? yes! #and i'm mostly self-taught so i struuuuggle a lot. i'll finally admit that reference pictures help immensely. no shit lol. #i learned a lot in the last 2 years!!! there are some really ugly ones i didn't show but i kept the cringe old ones sdfghfds help. #i mean they're still here on tumblr so i can't exactly hide them #you can kind of see when i actually started to use reference pictures. and when i got more used to using a tablet #idk digital art is so hard. it's a whole other world. but i'm in it now and haven't drawn traditionally in forever #i can also literally see how i used to CRUSH my nibs while drawing. all those really thin lines?? i pressed too hard lol #i've actually kept all my nibs since i started drawing digitally and....... it's too many fghfds #that one slightly more realistic nicky in the bottom right of the first collage lmaooo. i should finish him... maybe... it's haaard. #the top right on the first collage and bottom right on the second one are good comparisons ;_; they're both pirate!nico gifts for lily!! #i'm feeling sentimental now omg

[truth-01001001-liar]

No one’s allowed to look into the Archcanon’s personal journal.. because they’d find thousands of Vivec sketches and heretical scriptures such as this one:

A page about J’uhna’s name, the script reads:

A secret

where both the words JUN (sil) and luhn (LUN) are hidden by way of Khajiiti honorific;

Twilight’s boot in the teeth of the Mother,

telling her she is a divorcee not a widow.

#i apologize for nothing cringe be damned #love his bullshit word play of a name that wraith gave to azura as an apology for severing herself from nerevar’s soul #tes #morrowind #TruthiLiar’s art #tes oc: wraith #tes oc: j’uhna #full name is JUN LUHN AH VAR #jun- dovahzul for king but it also means light #paired with var at the end it is equivalent to silvar #because sil means light in dunmeris #silvar is the word for star #Luhn means moon but shares its pronunciation with the dovahzul LUN which means leech #AH is the word for hunter in dovahzul #Var should mean something close to life #so.. together #it means both #moon and star #and hunter of leech-kings lives #wraith grew up in winterhold and has a love for old language- dovahzul being one of them which is why she uses it #this passage in particular refers to the honorific in J’uhna #which would indicate that he is unmarried to some degree #just to clarify #got this info as far as word meaning from the wiki and such

[nursemimosa]

best friend he never asked for. well, he's stuck with her whether he likes it or not. good luck to them both.

#larry pokemon #pokemon larry #gym leader larry #oc x canon #pokemon oc x canon #pkmn sv #OC fifi #yeah. these are gonna go in some of his tags i'm sorry #their dynamic is 'middle aged ppl who don't realize they're both neurodivergent & ace' & their song is 'being boring' by the pet shop boys #i'm done hiding what i think is cringe!!! i'm old! now let me have fun and analyze my favorite characters (esp ones i relate to!!) #even if the medium of choice for doing that is hand picking and resurrecting old OCs and shipping them with some of my said faves *shrug* #i'm still too much of a pissbaby to write my fics but i will--some day... i wanna take my faves and dissect them they are so interesting #(oc x canon but u project more onto the canon character rather than the OC...) #mine #my art #my ocs

[ganondoodle]

sorry about that last rambling post, i didnt mean to sound like its worse than it may be, but i got no ... lense to view it through but my own, and the main reason i wrote it out anyway was bc i needed to get it out (even if posting it might be not the greatest idea) .. and bc it kinda showcases, i think, how my stories kinda write themselves, involuntarily in a way? its not like im not putting in any effort- but its like .. i cant STOP it always keeps going and even the dumbest idea stays in some form, its very hard to get everything in place bc theres so much going on all the while i am very slow at making anything, writing or drawing anything, especially anythign coherent is very hard bc not only do i get constantly distracted, i get distracted by my own thoughts suddendly skipping to a certain scene and me having to go throguh imagining in detail NO MATTER how many times i have done it before for the same scene that i already decided on how it goes, when theres a new idea it can take over my entire day bc i cant let go of it-

not trying to sound either like im the only that has that sort of problem, but i think its a big part as of why i start tso many projects without being able to finish them, or even start them bc i constantly have to fight my own thoughts from derailing into another daydream session, thinking of too much too fast than i can ever draw or even write about and not knowing what is worthwhile and what isnt (im telling you i have no idea what is good and what isnt, idk why but for all i know all things i do could be trash, or they all could be bad, maybe the one i thinnk is decent is actually worse than the things i deem not good enough and once i start to think no this isnt good enough i stop having fun making or thinking it bc im trying to do better

honestly its kind of impressive that i can get anything out at all, not to pat myself on the back there but even if i hate how long it takes me, considering how much im having to work just to start working on something at all, the fact that i could post stuff coherent enough for some people to understand AND LIKE is something i should be a little more proud of

#ganondoodles talks #personal #sorry today is a bit of a brain fart day #got a headache and have wasted the entire time until now (5pm) with watching old analysis videos i have watched 5 times already #and crying over undertales music #how much could i get done if i didnt have to deal with thought trains going 200 above speed limit #also didnt mean to sound mean to people who like the things i deem cringy #BC I DONT KNOW WHAT IM TALKIGN ABOUT 90% OF THE TIME #I DONT KNOW IF ITS GOOD maybe it is #my judgement of my own stuff is pretty random #.... maybe thats why i can work with fanstuff that adheres to lore better #bc it sets limits for me #it gives me options of rails to derail onto without falling straight into the woods #idk if that made sense either #... i need to start drinking more #(and i guess by calling some of my stuff cringe bc i am entirely unsure of its quality im trying to make myself smaller than i am) #(so if it turns out to be actually bad- im more safe from ridicule since LOOK I AM SELF AWARE) #and there i go letting my thoughts spin further #maybe ill delete both of these posts tomorrow when i realize how dumb this is to say in the first place

[bmpmp3]

fish......

#art #traditional art #watercolour #embroidery thread #oc art #ocs #oc group: unsorted #oc: unnamed #i gotta name him. my guy whos secretly a school of fish pretending to be human #this was another study i made for class along with a few other doodles of this guy. then i got kinda roasted by my TAs lol #wasnt their fault i think they were just tired and stressed. plus theyre like the same age as me. i know what its like being 25 LOL #it did discourage me a lot in the moment because despite the everything about me thats probably apparent both through my blog and irl #i keep my art passions really REALLY closed off irl LOL so at the time i was like just barely stepping my toe out and showing my truth: #that all i do all day is draw dorky oc stuff HDKJSDS i did kinda immediately get called cringe in all but the actual word orz #it was a bummer but i think i feel better about it now. especially because again my TAs are the same age as me or younger than me #and im not gonna let a 25 year old calling me cringe get me in my head HKFSKJFDSd plus again i think they were just stressed and in a mood #because other times theyve been chill even when giving a harsh critiques so it mightve just been like. something in the air #but you know. isnt that a bit of a milestone in its own right. being called cringe in your fine arts class critique <3 #but i still like my funny guy from my dream. hes just a normal ass looking guy. who is made of fish :)

[hanakihan]

man you have no idea the sheer DESIRE to write something about Titanic esque chulwoo AU

The main drill is that Sungs come from a rather wealthy old noble family (courtesy of Ashborn as their predecessor being royal knight or smth), Jin-Woo is a next heir while Jin-Ah studies to become a doctor (or a nurse depending on timeline it happens im not even completely sure with setting but probably og titanic vibe mixed with Korean Idek wheeze) and parents send them on a cruise ship for vacation (and in hopes jinwoo will meet nice noblewoman or any woman since sungs are pretty chill about bloodline)

Then there’s Jin-Chul who’s a ship engineer/captain in training courtesy of navy captain on pension Gun-Hee. Gun-Hee comes from rather humble background but managed to reach rather prestigious position of first navy and then civil ship captain but now he’s on pension, and this man is an example to Jin-Chul that you can reach your dream despite your upbringing. Jin-Chul himself also comes from rather humble background on verge of poverty but money and fame never fascinated him, but ships and sailing did. When Jin-Chul was assigned on Gun-Hee’s ship as a new engineer, Gun-Hee saw talent in boy and unofficially took him under his wing teaching him to be a captain. Then Gun-Hee left (or honestly more likely was forcefully dismissed) and Jin-Chul got assigned as one of engineers/coal workers on this giant ship, but Gun-Hee still sails under his own name as a trader or smth like that.

Cue sailing day and at evening Jin-Woo excused himself since noble parties bore him to death and anyway, evening is beautiful and sea is calm. Wandering around he stumbles upon Jin-Chul doing small repairs and who nearly hit Jin-Woo in nose with his elbow because he came too close without announcement. Jin-Chul stiffly apologizing because he knows how annoying nobles can be but is surprised when Jin-Woo is the one to apologize for being so careless and invites him for an apology tea or coffee since compared to other choices Jin-Chul seems as a perfect company thanks to his sharp tongue, wits and knowledge.

Some day of cruise pass and they become rather close friends, Jin-Woo visits Jin-Chul in lowest decks which surprises everyone here and they have a rather nice drinking and dancing session, while in turn Jin-Woo helps Jin-Chul to sneak in 1st class deck so they can chat and play chess in peace of room (and so he can introduce Jin-Chul to Jin-Ah). Jin-Woo even tries to gift Jin-Chul his sapphire brooch so he can sell it for nice sum of money and get his own ship or even open his own company or smth, but Jin-Chul politely refuses, satisfied with their friendship.

Cue disaster night. Now think about captain being an incompetent prick (maybe even on levels of Costa Concordia captain damn) and fucking up entire probably miss into sure hit (even if Jin-Chul risked it and asked people to follow his instructions despite it being a big ass discipline insubordination but no one really minded because people saw that captain gives shit orders) but since bridge was still under captains command, instructions contradicted, but it still allowed a graze hit rather than direct one. So yea this gets worse, Jin-Chul was in section that suffered from impact and got tore, barely got out of here along with most of his men. Seeing how fast water fills decks he tells people to go higher and himself runs to find Sungs or other people he knows. Apparently he finds panicking Jin-Ah and through dangers of ice cold water and falling construction manages to cross paths with Jin-Woo until they got separated again. They manage to get out of sinking shell that nearly becomes their coffin (because he promised Jin-Woo to take care of and save Jin-Ah no matter what goddamnit), Jin-Chul manages to place Jin-Ah on some drifting wood before starting to sink because of cold water.

Now, I’m a sucker for happy endings despite shit looking really bad, so let’s say Jin-Woo with others on safe boat manages to find shell shocked Jin-Ah wrapped in Jin-Chul’s coat, pointing at water and trying to say something with her teeth chattering and managing to say that he’s drowning, Jin-Woo saying ‘not on my fucking watch’ and jumps after, managing to grab him and drag on surface, man is absolutely freezing with lips blue and not really conscious but still weakly breathing.

ANYWAY they safely get back on shore, they all get medical treatment, Jin-Chul earns himself pneumonia (well fuck his sailing dreams ig), Sungs’ gratitude for saving their children and a fucking trial because captain blamed entire catastrophe on lower deck crew defying his orders and following engineer’s ones and that’s a big ass crime in navy. Things ain’t looking good because they want to prosecute him in shortest time to give people answers who’s the guilty one, Jin-Woo is really ready to throw hands with people, Jin-Chul’s patient explanations through coughs ain’t helping because no one can confirm accuracy of his words and that’s when Gun-Hee himself enters court saying smth like ‘maybe you should interrogate deck staff too to hear what commands captain was giving’ and then our sir proceeds to destroy this captain‘s whole career. Jin-Chul is cleaned of accusations and becomes a sort of a good example semi-legend, but thanks to extreme colds diving he now can’t sail on long distances but fear not Gun-Hee invites him to work for him since Jin-Chul is out of commission and Jin-Woo once again gifts Jin-Chul a sapphire brooch but this time asking if Jin-Chul will share future with him. Jin-Chul honestly having ??? reaction while Jin-Woo with the most deadpan face asks ‘You seriously think I’ll dive into cold waters of ocean at night to drag you on surface and then using my body warmth to keep you alive if i didn’t cared about you???’

#solo leveling #woo jin chul #sung jin woo #titanic au #sort of #okay listen I’m a sucker for good catastrophe stories that have good developing romance #jinchul trying to prevent it by being a badass and MVP #still failing tho but at least ship didnt kiss obstacle directly #jinwoo looking at slightly tipsy smiling jinchul who passionately tells about ships while covered in coal and old repaired clothes: #god I love him so fucking much #jinah staring at these two cringe flirting without realizing it from behind her book #‘man the ultimate form of chess homoerotism mixed with density of idiots’ #she totally approves tho #jinchul smiling and saying dumb things to cheer hysterical jinah on drifting wood even if they both know it’s pointless #it still works and she laughs and slightly calms down so she won’t flip herself in water #jinchul trying his best until his muscles in water give out and he disappears under water when jinah turns away to yell for a boat #imagine her turning back excitedly only to find herself alone #and being a medical student she knows what it means #jinchul having more bonding moments with jinwoo before catastrophe and with jinah in middle of it #ha I got you #now I made myself sad ffs

[blubble-lake]

it's been over 2 weeks and this thing (unfortunately) still has a grip on me

#rant in the tags coming so please do scroll away if you enjoyed the finale 🙏 #you know how with some things you'll be like 'I had some negativity towards this thing but-- #now that it's been some time I feel better towards it'? #my thoughts on the finale have only gotten worse since it released 🥲 #being given more time to think on it made me notice more things I had wrong with it #like I really wanted to give it the benefit of the doubt but it is so difficult #when I tried ranking the episodes from best to least favorite #I'd come to realize that I couldn't put either finale episode above the other for the bottom two #they both gave me the same feeling of being doused in ooze 😭 #I've written a good handful more thoughts on why I disliked it since the last rundown I had posted #though I'm afraid if talking about this is considered cringe or old news now that it's been a minute since the eps came out lol #I've watched the finale in full two times just to take everything in but I don't think I can do it again anytime soon #I think there's about 8-10 mins of the finale that I genuinely enjoyed #the rest making me want to cry in disappointment or was just 'okay' to me #just gotta 'it is what it is' my way through knowing the show ended like That. we stay silly! #however- writing about it does give me a little bit of relief lol #adventure time #at #fionna and cake #petrigrof #simon petrikov #betty grof #my post #my art

[oatbugs]

she's so arrogant and annoying and hot it pisses me off !!!

#like have some shame omg . have some respect #shes soooo certain i will date her she keeps saying shes not worried she doesnt care etc etc bc she knows i want to date her #not even that. she Declared we were dating. like when i was like do u even want this. not just going on dates but acc dating. and she was #like wdym? im already dating you . like ok??? i wasnt informed ig #anyway i said she was arrogant and she said she knows so. #also she did several things when she was drunk that i found cringe/i personally would b embarrassed if i was her but she just found it funn #like genuinely does she have no sense of shame #also her reasoning is that shes too hot to be rejected and since im talking to her instead of... not that makes her certain that #no matter what i say i wont reject her #WHICH MAKES ME WANT TO REJECT HER. DONT TELL ME WHAT I WANT OR WHAT TO DO. UGH. #I WANT TO FIGHT HER FR MEIN GOTT #also i want her to be more romantic i literally told her im not asking her out on the next date lmao #also if we do end up dating properly i have to swear and oath never to argue w her and just communicate slowly and clearly bc imagine #lawyer and philosophy student get into an argument and theyre both scorpios. insane combination imo #INSUFFERABLE. she was also 40 mins late and tbf she did warn me and keep me updated but i was still rly mad at her bc #i was waiting for so long . and i was like . listen im gonna leave. and she walked thru the door. but anyway she apologised but also she #said no ones ever threatened to leave her b4. what do you mean before?? anyway i told her to respect my time more and she was like i cant #believe im being told off by a 21 yr old like bitch ur literally 24 stop acting ancient fuck off #UGH SHES SO IRRITATING. WHY DOESNT SHE CALL ME MORE. #crushposting

[stinkrascal]

hi jaiden. i read your ask and im very sorry about your loss, i've decided to spread some positivity. you are an incredible writer and as much as you cringe at your older posts i find myself rereading it every now and then. its kind of crazy how i'm quite young, and i've been growing up with reading breanna's story - yet i haven't lost interest. there is something so aesthetic about your standstill posts, i dont know if its the colors or the dust, but its so pleasing to the eye. literally everyday after my work i go and i check if standstill has gotten an update. the way your dialogue is written is so natural. like it doesn't feel like this fake poetic or overly descriptive, it sounds like natural realistic dialogue. and ive also been reading your character bios and in my language there's a word called härlig, thats the only way i can describe the little bios. for it being a sim story, its so incredibly clever and i can tell you put effort into it. the poses are always fitting. and your game doesnt even look like sims. i hope you realize that we will always enjoy your story even if it would be with low graphics or vlad would be a 8x8 pixel. so dont ever shy away from taking a break, because u really deserve to take a break. there is so much i could say about standstill,, but i wont for the sake of it already being quite lengthy! i hope your healing, and i hope that you can accept some positivity into your life. <3

wow okay hello anon... i won't lie, this made me cry a lot ;-;. i've been really struggling lately with intense anxiety and honestly just feeling really shitty ha. reading this means so much to me, more than you will ever know. it's silly ik but i put my heart and my soul into my sims, it can be a little embarrassing bc they're literally just sims and here i am pouring every piece of me into them like they're my diary, taking it so seriously. but like........ i do take it seriously.......embarrassed as i am to admit it..... i love them so much. so reading something as kind and reassuring as this makes me feel really appreciated. thank you for your kindness, it's more appreciated than you will ever realize

#jade answers #Anonymous #my grandpa was old. he suffered w dementia it was honestly his time #but his death has brought up stuff within my family that's been difficult to grapple with. it feels like i'm mourning the death of both #my grandpa and my parents. even though they're still alive it will never be the same #i wouldn't want it even if things did stay the same. ig in a way i'm mourning myself too. i'll never be the person i was before #i'm grateful i have my new family with my amazing partner but it hurts to know i can't have that w my birth family i'll never have that #this is silly but like......putting those feelings on vlad and brie has saved my life. ok. lol #they were like me... their family hurt them in unspeakable ways and then they were adults without a family at all... #but through it all through the dysfunction and trauma they made their own family....... they survived and i will too #having emotions is cringe you guys<3 #im gonna be really embarrassed about this in a few hours but im trying to practice this thing where i dont bottle stuff up so its ok #being embarrassed just means i care.......and theres nothing wrong with caring........i say thru gritted teeth

[tommyssupercoolblog]

to be honest? I've never even understood the rationale for fake-claiming in any context. There are millions of people, more dying and being born every day, and you really think we can invent enough genders, identities, disorders, words and categories to cover every possible type of human that's ever been born or will be born in the future???!! of course not, there's gonna be people who fall outside of the boxes we have because there can never be enough boxes. like there physically cannot be enough boxes.

"but they're weird and cringe that's how i know." buddy. buddy come here lean in close i have a secret for you, crazy girlie.

*whispers* everyone who isn't neurotypical, ablebodied, cishet, and fitting the beauty and societal standards for their culture, is considered weird by default. and EVEN people who ARE fitting of those standards can ALSO be weird in other ways. you can't tell me someone isn't lgbt or isn't plural or isn't autistic because they're "weird" when everyone is constantly being called weird anyway. being plural is weird to people. having NPD is weird to people. having skitzohphrenia is weird to people. Being a boy who likes girly stuff is weird to people. being a lesbian is weird to people. having no legs is weird, being fat is weird, there are always going to be people calling other people weird and cringe. you simply CANNOT use "weird" or "cringe" as a basis to judge validity. you just can't???

I literally do not get it like how does that work how do you like...think that you can tell if someone's faking something. what do we have left here, like, tone of voice and body language? autism is a thing and anxiety disorders are a thing so we already know that can vary and be untrustworthy. you literally can never tell as an outsider looking in??!

#i made a textpost #discourse #discource #anti fakeclaiming #fakeclaiming #posting this because my old intro is apparently on a systems cringe subreddit?? saw it on google images and had to do a double take. #it got me thinking about this sort of thing. #I'm from a truamagenic DID system. and I got fakeclaimed for being weird. And endogenics get fakeclaimed for not existing in the- #-boxes people already had set out. #both kinds- the “this doesn't exist” kind and the “this does but you are lying about being/having it” are ridiculous conceptually #so many people out there.....so many lives and experiences.....how are you supposed to KNOW every possibility? you...can't #and knowing that i just don't understand how people become fakeclaimers or think fakeclaiming can even work. #it just doesn't work in my head. it doesn't make sense to me. #we're living creatures not npcs in a video game. there will always be infinite variety. living beings don't WORK like that they aren't.. #..defineable #like that.

[roobylavender]

lrb is an interesting post because although i've been active on tumblr since 2011 (or whenever yj started to air) i didn't actually start talking to people until i started posting sisters grimm fanfiction and some of the people i met through the ffnet forum for the fandom i will have known for ten years now! that's so insane!

#on the other hand whenever i search up my user on ffnet the little fic contest i ran in sg fandom comes up and i cringe #like i was a sixteen year old judging other people's writing and giving them criticism.. i had a really inflated egojdfldksgdhsg #also it's interesting how sg is what i met amy through but i don't really talk to amy as much anymore bc she's very busy in school #but i got to know taylor through amy and i feel like i talk to taylor more often since we're both active on twt #like idk it's so interesting to think about the way friend associations shift #to be deleted

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i was looking through old photos today. they where from wjen i was like 1 and it made me so sad #bc my mum would have been like only a year or 2 older then i am now and she looked so young #and now she has an abdomen full of tumors and blistered hands and feet. theyre prob gonna hsve to remove her bladder #but shes still very pragmatic abt it. but she grew up in a house where no one really cared about her feelings so she made them small #and now her mother calls and doesn't ask how her grandkids are doing and doesn't ask how her daughter is doing. im cursed with terrible #grandparents on both sides but i resent my mothers mother worse. though my dad said i probably wouldnt have survived his upbringing #and hes right. my nana has like zero empathy and cant cook for shit. idk how my parents r so normal but the fact i had a good upbringing is #probably the only reason im still here. and thats the other thing that made me sad abt the old pics. just looking at this little baby with a #fucked up head and thinking: in 25 years that kid is gonna b so broken down their not gonns kno what to do or how to fix it. idk whats wrong #with me. ive always been some stage of miserable but i used to b able to get things done. and now i cant seem to force functionality #and it sucks. bc im home now and i still feel like im cringing around this open wound in my chest. but whatever #as of today ive started taking ab1lify. hopefully it helps in the long term but in the short term it triggers my 0cd. which is not fun #its so frustrating. whatever. i also found out my eyes used to not work together. not enough to have a lazy eye but it was hard for me to #read and apparently my eyes were tracking at like double the speed of a normal person. wtf is wrong with my brain? also also my mum was like #yea i never would have guessed bip0lar but we thought it was something. autism i could see 100% but yea didnt see that coming. ao i guess #i brehave like a bit of an oddball. ans my nana would bother my dad to try to make me participate in church and my dad was like no. she #clearly don't wanna b here lol. ay. they did the best they could which i appreciate #unrelated

[maegalkarven]

Good thing Levi and Gortash become immortals and live for a long ass time, bc with the way these two behave, I have a feeling it would take them at least a century to actually mature enough to have a normal in-depth conversation.

#dark urge: levi #durgetash #family matters #like fr the most emotionally-mature person in this fam is their son #who loves them both to death but gods if they aren't bloody idiots #noah hits his 20s and realizes his parents are two silly gooses with murderous intents and delusions of world domination #they're so cringe it's embarrassing but he loves them anyway #i also have an idea of levi and noah totally deciding to have a crusade against bhaal&bane #bane bc if Gortash dies (emphasis on if) bane gets his soul #bhaal bc noah is a half-blooded bhaalspawn and grandpa Bhaal is annoying as hell #Gortash finds about it when 2/3 of his family is involved in some crazy shenanigans in another plane and has to stop everything at BG #to venture after them and ground both of them indefinitely #you'd think mr tyrant would be the mature one. but then i remember he KICKS the Chosen of Bhaal in the chins at the morphic pool and am lik #“no he is not. he is literally 5 years old”