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frogchiro · 2 years

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That imagine about Pierro teaching his waifu soft spots to his colleagues is just 🥰🥰🥰. Imagine if they’re all yanderes. (My instinct just senses Pierre’s a yandere material. Maybe not your thing so sorry to bother you 🙏🏻)

NAH I'M MORE THAN OKAY WITH THIS my spidey senses are tingling rn bc this is just so delicious, thank you darling!

edit: i'm so sorry for this...monster that came out, it was meant to be a quick lil thirst but my thoughts were thinking and,, yeah ;_;

also i'm very sorry for the possibly terrible grammar, it's very late and my brain juices were draining with every word, i promise i'm gonna edit this as soon as possible

you know the drill; fem!reader, nsfw themes, light breeding kink, belly bulge mentions, yandere stuff, possibly dark content, if you don't like it please don't read it for your own good!

and you're so right! pierro definitely is yandere material! not only that, he has major possessive/obsessive tendencies that bleed out between the cracks everyday but he's also a massive condescending asshole who loves to show off his darling little wife, his possession, since you quite literally belong to him the second you said 'yes' to his question about being his

that being said, he gets off on the whole 'look but don't touch' mindset, meaning that he loves loves loves showing off you and your beautiful body in front of a whole audience in the confines of his large opulent bedroom

i'm imagining that you're laid out in the middle of the large bed, the softest silks and furs tickling your naked skin as you're writhing all helpless and sensitive, a little scared even if you'd say so, but deep down you know that your darling husband would rather take on all the archons himself alone than let harm come your way, you're that precious to him

you're torn out of your thoughts as the looming shadow of pierro enters your vision, his long blond hair in its usual loose fashion, the difference between you two is that where you're stark naked, he's fully clothed, a dominance and power thing you quickly learned that your husband very much enjoyed

pierro was a very patient and very thorough man, not even an inch of your glistening skin left untouched, each and every of your sweetest spots that leave you a shuddering and whimpering mess is a=being touched and abused, the sensitive skin of your neck, you can feel his cool lips on it as he trails a line of kisses, licks and soft bites to your jugular where he carefully but firmly presses his sharp teeth to leave a mark, a very possessive claim rooted deep in his dominant tendencies to show you that you're his and his alone, and to show all the males sprawled on the sidelines who exactly is your master, your owner and to dissipate any stray thoughts of taking you away

speaking of which, in the thick haze of pleasure pierro was raining upon you, you completely forgot about the little audience your husband invited into your shared intimate space, the other harbingers, at least some of them

you lifted your head weakly as pierro made his way down your chest, now focusing on your breasts and the skin around your sensitive nipples, a frustrated little whine left you before taking hold on the back of his head and gently guided him where you needed him the most and the blond man was more than happy to indulge himself in your precious nipples

'a-ah! pierro, love, p-please not so rough~ you'll-ah!'

you tried to speak but your lover gently bit down on your nipple with a evil smirk before moving down to nip and delicately tug on the skin just below your nipple which made you squirm in his iron-like hold

'aw, but you love me playing with you here, don't you my little flower? the way you whimper and move for me so deliciously, how can i not take advantage?'

pierro purrs hotly against your sternum before moving away from you, a quiet whine left your lips before being shushed by your husband as he turns to the onlookers and finally adresess them since the begining of your little session

'see it you gentlemen? see how she squirms and whines like a bitch in heat, begging for more? this is how you make a woman feel good, something you impatient young brats wouldn't achieve even in your dreams'

your husband's teasing remark was met with a chorus of sneers and quiet quips and you finally turned your head to take a good look at the most feared group of men in all of tevyat and good gods, what a sight they were

the men gathered today were the ones that always frequent when your husband decides to present and show you off like a prized little pet

you'd never say this out loud, not even with your lover, but these men always made you feel uneasy, like you were the prized prey they, the hunters, the predators were gonna catch and eat alive, it was a terrible feeling but what could you do or say? you were no fighter, you were the tsaritsa's handmaiden that pierro for some reason took a fancy to and you ended up here, being stripped naked and presented like a fine feast to these beasts with your now husband on top of you

sprawled along the comfy cushy sofas were pantalone, dottore, capitano and to your surprise, tartaglia, and all men looked positively wrecked without a single touch from you or even their own hands, this was one of the two rules their leader set, no touching themselves and absolutely not touching you

so there they were, hot and bothered, heavy sneers were present of the faces of dottore and childe, you could almost swear that you heard dottore hiss and the redhead let out a growl akin to a feral beast as his hips bucked up into empty air

pantalone did look a bit better, or at least tried to look more composed than his two companions but was failing terribly at it, a heavy blush coated his usually deadly pale face, eyes glazed over and a very obvious hard on, precum seeping out and making a glistening wet spot on his black pants

and then there was the mysterious capitano, as always clad from head to toe in black armor completed with his signature helmet. even if you tried, and you wouldn't even dare to get too close to him, you couldn't see anything in the darkness of his mask, just a pure black void that you sometimes wondered if it contained an actual human, yet there he was, his long thick legs spread not even trying to hide the massive erection tenting his pants, quiet growls escaping the void

with a smug look on his face, pierro turned back to you but didn't lean in immediately, no, he wanted to take you in as much as he could, his beautiful, young and very naive wife

you were truly a sight to behold, not only in looks but your personality as well; you had a sharp mind and a clever tongue, what actually made pierro fall so deeply in love with you were the late night talks back in zaploynary palace that gradually grew longer and longer before he finally made his move and asked if he could officially court you

he'd never forget that one evening where he quite literally changed his and your life forever, when he asked you if he could court you, that is after asking for the tsaritsa's permission, he knew his place as the captain of the harbingers and he knew your position as her majesty's favorite handmaiden, even he couldn't just barge in with such an important thing and potentially fuck up everything he's ever worked for and jeopardize your career

he'll never forget that bewildered, full of love and adoration look in your eyes that soon filled with crystal-like tears of happiness as you accepted his courtship, similarly to when he finally popped the big question and then finally on your wedding day

and pierro was, is and knows that he will forever be happy as long as you'll have him, he's ready to collect the starts and moon and lay them at your feet if you even mentioned it, but he still knew about the one thing about you that was admittedly adorable but made you a terribly easy target for the dark shadows that lurked in the corners and crevices; it was your kindness

don't get him wrong, pierro, who was always regarded as a man cut out of stone with a block of ice instead of a heart, could feel his resolve melt dangerously quickly with you and he simply adored your kind nature, but here, in the heart of snezhnaya where they traded in 'blood and tears' kindness was a fatal trait that could lead to your swift demise

but unfortunately for him, you already were known through almost the whole palace for your gentle and friendly character, even though a commoner, you had much more power than you realized, and among the safe admirers you had that pierro didn't like but tolerated, there were also the dark sneering miasma that crawled along the halls and slithered right up against you without you even realizing it

of course with pierro taking a fancy towards you, all the other harbingers were bound to eventually piece the puzzles together and figure him out, but he's still their leader, their elder in every sense and he made is very clear that the rest of them is not to mingle with you as they are literally the symbols of misery and death and he'll make sure that anyone who crosses that line will be swiftly dealt with

and of course only a few actually listened, and just as he suspected some of his colleagues took a weird fascination, or rather obsession with you, especially that little ginger brat, tartaglia

he was brash, bold and boisterous, his lust for bloodshed almost comical in pierro's eyes, but the thing that grated on his nerves the most is his unpredictability and he knew that childe was literally a ticking time bomb and you were the unfortunate trigger

pierro was almost impressed with how you could spend time with the redhead and...seem to enjoy it? if it were possible the boy would have hearts in his eyes when he looked at your form, and don't think he didn't know about the times that little shit spied on you when you were in the throes of pleasure the he, pierro, was providing you with, your little form laid out so deliciously on his massive desk, his thick cock driving into you at a steady pace he knew would drive you crazy, sounds from your wet cunt being overpowered by the loud moans and screams of his name escaping your mouth and begging him for more, more-!

of course there were also his other colleagues, namely pantalone, who was showering you in all the mora in the world, taking you out on expensive outing that propably costed more than what you used to earn in a year which he let happen since he knew how terribly uncomfortable all the opulence made you feel and how you from then on avoided the banker like the plague, dottore, who was admittedly much more stable and calm compared to his various clones, at the end of the day was still a deranged and dangerous scientist which made you afraid of him, sidestepping every proposition of spending time together and capitano, who stood at the impressive height of 7 ft, was like an apparition that haunted the halls of the palace and combined with his seemingly endless mask he always had on made you bow to him and express your respects before quickly staying out of his way as much as possible

unfortunately for him, these three were much more seasoned and refined in their game, they had half the mind and were much more subtle in their little obsession with you, but that made them only much more vicious opponents

perhaps this was the needed push for pierro to finally make the decision to officially court you, to show his subordinates who exactly was still at the very top and for a reason

but that also led him to confront his own dark thoughts and impulses

he loved you, he really did and he'd never regret choosing to court and marry you, but he was a clever man and he knew that it was a dangerous obsession he had with you, dark thoughts whispering in his ear to lock you away under lock and key in his mansion and never let his pure little dove out, he'd provide for you and protect you, give you everything you'd ever need, any whim you'd ever have would be cared for, be it material or in a more...carnal way, either way he'd do everything if it only meant you never leave him

he was not the leader of the harbingers for centuries for nothing, his experience and prowess proved to never let him astray, his position was the living proof of that, a man that never let emotions dictate his way of life, never let it cloud his judgement, but even he was ultimately just a man who fell so deeply in love that he sometimes felt was choking him alive

pierro was well aware of the hateful and omnipresent eyes of his fellow harbingers, full of anger and jealousy just waiting for a crack in his armor, one fuck up and they'd strike him down and take his treasure for themselves, but he wasn't the eldest and most experienced out of them for nothing, and he had just the perfect remedy for it

and so that led to the current situation you find yourself in, completely unaware of the dark monologue in your loving husbands head, your own thoughts clouded with mind-numbing pleasure as your lover thrusted into you, rutting like a beast in heat, and that combined with the little bulge in your underbelly and the burning hot feeling of his cock consistently prodding your deepest, most sensitive spots made you see starts, your hands gripping the sheets under you before arching your back so deliciously and finally letting go, your orgasm earth-shattering to the point where the edges of your vision turned black

when you came back to your senses you could feel your husband emptying his cum into you, last little thrusts of his hips making sure that his seed is nice and deep inside you, before smiling the loving smile he loved so much and pulling him down for a tired but wonderfully warm kiss

and you may not have noticed it, but pierro sure did hear the loud muffled whine that tartaglia let out, the wet spot on his gray pants getting noticeably bigger and wetter

'the boy really came in his pants just from watching? pathetic'

thought pierro before looking over at his colleagues and finding them in a not better shape

a grin almost made its way on his face, before barking at them harshly to get lost and turning back to you, his wife, his love, his tresure

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#oh jeez what a...thing huh #i just hope you guys enjoy it #because my brain is not braining anymore #genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact smut #genshin impact fatui #fatui x reader #pierro x reader #pantalone x reader #tartaglia x reader #dottore x reader #capitano x reader

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hwavsg4ch4n · 2 years

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Release | H.H| drabble

Notes: wow it's been a while guys :((( I've like... depressed LOL. I should've been able to tell when I first started to fall off from writing. I don't wanna say I'm fully back, because I'm still in uni rn. However... I'm going back home in a week!! So hopefully I'll be able to finish the series and get into other stuff that's in my drafts! Thank you for being patient, it's very much appreciated

Warnings: Sub!reader, fem!reader, hard Dom!Hyunjin, Boyfriend!Hyunjin, degrading, praise, mirror sex, choking, creampie, dumbification, drool, squirting, unprotected sex, aftercare Description: He's excited, so happy he finally got to perform again. But there's some leftover excitement he has to let free

“H-yun… my g-od-” you usually took whatever he gave you well, but tonight… he was different.

You noticed him on stage earlier, how he gradually got worked up with every song that passed. The beads of sweat dripped down his neck as he put his all into every number. It was admirable, how he put his all into everything he did.

However, you know when he gets like this… there was always some unreleased tension after, aching to be let out. When this happened, he’d excuse himself for a while to let it loose, or he’d ask you to help out. Your boyfriend was always kind, soft with you in moments like this. But due to not having an in-person concert in the last 2 years, he wasn’t being as soft as before; not that you minded.

So here you are, face down ass up as Hyunjin pounds into you mercilessly. Grunting and gritting his teeth as one large hand holds your wrists behind your back, while the other roughly grabs the soft skin of your ass, spreading so he can observe the mess you're making on his member.

Your moans and pleas for mercy are muffled by your freshly washed sheets. All Hyunjin can hear are the lewd sound of your dripping core and the slapping of skin.

You can’t help but bite into your comforter as he manages to go deeper than he already is, hitting your sweet spots at such force that has your brain going numb, seeing static beads behind your tightly shut eyelids. You let him use you as he wants, fucking into you so hard your arousal springs from your core and lands on his thighs and lower stomach.

“My sweet slut is making such a mess,” the contrast of the praise and degradation has your mind falling into an even deeper haze. “You love this don’t you,” he grunts. “Being pounded into nothing.” You don’t answer, how could you when you can’t even think?

You feel his hand let go of your wrists, grabbing at the base of your neck and bringing your back up to meet his sweaty chest. Your eyes flutter open, only to be met with your fucked out form in your shared wall-length mirror. You let out a pathetic whimper as you meet Hyunjin’s dark eyes, staring back at you as he burrows into your neck. His red hair sticking to his neck as his eyes still -adorned is dark eyeliner- rake your bare form. Observing how your breasts move with every pound, how he can still see the wetness between your thighs just as well as he can see it from the back. But his favorite is watching you drool from leaving your mouth parted for too long, as well as the fucked out gaze in your eyes. Hazy and unfocused, like you knew nothing but him at this moment, drove him crazy.

“Awee look at you,” fat tears form as you feel his fingers slip past your parted lips, your drool soaking them as you don’t have the strength to wrap your lips around the appendages. “So fucking good, you're taking me so well, baby, my favorite little cum slut. You wanna feel me spill in you, huh?” You nod absentmindedly, wanting to feel his warmth paint your walls, feeling him fuck it all into you so you don’t waste a drop. Not that you ever would purposefully.

Hyunjin hums, taking his now practically soaked fingers from out your mouth. “I want you to cum first my love, be a good girl and milk me yeah?” You let out a loud gasp, throwing your head back as the pads of his fingers rub at your abandoned puffy clit.

You feel your thighs shake at the over sensitivity. You place your hand on his forearm, “Take it Y/n, I know you can.” He grunts, still pounding as he rubs with the perfect amount of pressure.

“Oh you’re getting so tight baby, you gonna cum for me?” Surprisingly you responded with words, mumbled, slurred words. “Y-yes… cum I'm… yes yes.” You shiver as he chuckles deeply at your lack of cohesiveness.

“Cum then.” You did just that, shaking and sobbing as he held you close to him. Your juices splashed his thighs and fingers as your warm walls tightened around his length.

You fall forward and he lets you, the aftershocks of your orgasm being prolonged as Hyunjin chases his release. His head falls back, feeling your gummy walls pulse around him violently, hugging him warmly as he finally spills into you.

You feel full as he pumps himself, slowly pulling out. You hear him let out a deep sigh as he watches his cum drip out of you, mixing with your arousal as well as his.

“Baby?” You hum back, too tired to speak. “You okay?” You hum back once more, letting your bottom drop to your mattress and eyelids fall closed.

You hear him chuckle at your actions. “I’ll be right back okay? I'm gonna get some towels.” You feel his full lips kiss your forehead.

As Hyunjin walks back in your shared room, he can’t help but smile fondly. Watching as your chest moves up and down as your take deep tired breaths. He wipes you off gently, careful not to wake you. “Sleep tight.” He whispers.

#skz smut #skz imagines #skz au #skz hard thoughts #hwang hyunjin #stray kids #hyunjin smut #hyunjin x reader #hwang hyunjin smut #hyunjin drabbles #stray kids smut

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askphf · 3 months

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Welcome to Ask Purple Haze Feedback!

Inspired by @ask-team-bucciarati!

First off, some ground rules!

Mod is 18+, so mature asks are allowed BUT only for Murolo. Fugo and Sheila E are both 15/16, so I will not respond to any 18+ questions for them. But also with that said, don't be too weird and gross about Murolo either. If I get an ask that I feel like is too far, it just won't get answered. Plain and simple.

I know a lot of the other ask blogs going around rn use screenshots of the characters either from the anime or manga with each response, however, considering Purple Haze Feedback is a light novel with minimal photos (Like, one or two at most for each character) I will not be including photos! Just text, unless I decide to draw something out for some of the responses! Do not expect that often, though.

You can ask me (the mod) questions, but I will not be answering anything too personal. For example, I'm not going to give out my name. I would prefer to remain mostly anonymous, at least for now. Thank you in advance for respecting my privacy!

Feel free to ask about other characters like the main Golden Wind cast, but know that they will not be answering questions! Any questions about them will be answered by one of the three PHF main cast.

Other than that, go wild! I may add rules as I see fit, but I think that's all for now! All I ask is that you keep in mind that this blog is run by only one person, so please be patient with me! Thank you, and ask away!

In addition, if you want to interact even more there's a discord server I just made to bring together the communites of all my blogs! :)

#jojos bizzare adventure #jojo's bizarre adventure #jjba #purple haze feedback #jojo part 5 #jojo no kimyou na bouken #jojo no kimyō na bōken #jjba part 5 #golden wind #vento aureo #jojo golden wind #jojo vento aureo #jjba golden wind #jjba vento auero #pannacotta fugo #cannolo murolo #sheila e #sheila e jojo #jojo sheila e

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malarkgirlypop · 3 months

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Misc. Tag Game! ✨

thank you for the tags @1waveshortofashipwreck

Made by the amazing @ronald-speirs 💖

Favorite place in the world you’ve visited?

Just went to Japan and Korea and it was so fucking amazing.

Something you’re proud of yourself for?

Finishing my nursing, getting a job. Like go me, get that big girl job!

Favourite books?

Trial by Fire, I will never not brag about it!

Something that makes your heart happy when thinking about it?

This one person I'm getting to know at the moment. Ah they are the best, literally makes me feel so good.

Favorite thing about your culture? About being American?

Um I am not an American. But NZ is so cool, we are super chill, such a vibe. I'm here for bringing back Māori culture into New Zealand!

When did you join the HBO War fandom? What was the first show you watched?

I think it was August 2023. Band of brothers was the first show I watched with my friend.

Have you read any of Easy Company’s books? If so, which ones were your favourite?

No I haven't. I want to, but im so busy rn. Maybe later.

Favorite HBO War character and your favorite moment with them?

Ah all I have to say is Malarkey, and just all Malarkey things ever. Please and thank you.

Do you make content for any fandoms, if so; what sort of content?

A little, only a teeny tiny amount, only small, not much, hardly any, it doesn't fill my whole brain all the time. I don't constantly live in a fictional story i am writing, I don't know what you're talking about.

Favourite actor/actress and your favourite film of theirs?

Sebastian Stan, The Winter Soldier. like why he so hot. He also scared the shit out of me in Fresh, but that was also a good movie.

Favourite quote/s that you wish to share with others?

"I'm tired of this Grandpa!"

"Well that's too damn bad!"

Holes, 2003.

Random fact your mutuals/followers don’t know about you?

I have no filter on here so there is nothing I don't think people know about me.

If you’re a writer, do you need a beta reader (say yes so I can be your beta reader 🤭)?

what's that? I'm confused.

Three things that make you smile?

My friends

BoB

A really special person

Any nicknames you like?

Kate doesn't have any nicknames, but because of my hair my dad calls me Floss, like candy floss!

List some people you love to see around on tumblr!

@panzershrike-pretz @ithinkabouttzu @executethyself35 @ronsparky @venus-haze @joetoyesbrassknuckles101 @footprintsinthesxnd @mutantmanifesto @jump-wings @mads-nixon @blueberry-ovaries @b00ks1ut @next-autopsy @1waveshortofashipwreck @paula-912 @brassknucklespeirs

What would you do during a zombie apocalypse?

Be a zombie

Favourite movie?

All movies, any movie, I'm good at entertaining myself with bad movies.

Do you like horror movies?

I do, but I'm still scared.

No pressure tags:

@georgieluz, @b00ks1ut, @blueberry-ovaries, @next-autopsy @land-sh @grumpy-liebgott @venus-haze @goneandbackagain

#tag game #band of brothers #hbo war

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seth-shitposts · 4 months

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[Making some organization of our WIPs, so might as well do a WIP post while im at it-]

Feel free to ask any questions about ones that poke your interest or if you'd like bits from them or let us know which ones are your fave or that you're pulled toward.

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For the longest of the long AU WIPs, there's

-Defectors AU - AU in which Kallus was assigned to the Bridger Raid and finds Ezra.

-The Aphelion Waltz - AU where the empire never came to be. Trouble in the lower levels of Coruscant sends the entire galaxy into an uproar.

-Sense of Faith, Self, & Valor - AU in which The Grand Inquisitor and Tua lived and Kallus convinces/inspires them to join the rebellion.

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For long fics and multi chaps, we have

-The Renaecense of 264 -Kallus finds a droid abandoned by the empire out in the cold.

-Change In Plans -Prompt fic in which Kallus comes across a young lasat child in imperial custody. (Has been in our docs for MONTHS- I don't think we've spoken much on it)

-Salticidae -prompt fic where Kallus finds a lovely little creature and Zeb has to try and get over a fear before his partner gets home. (Might be a one shot, might be a multichap)

-Eyes of the Ashla -a prompt fic au. Kallus can see specific ghosts

-Insomniac Art Attack - Prompt fic. Sabine putting restless energy into good use.

-Pull You Into Dark Corners - heavy revisions needed. Nsfw. KalluZeb

-All Of Me -secret relationship. Not a slow burn, but something adjacent. This one might be scrapped and fused into other works. We'll see.

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One Shots!

-Baby Its Cold Outside [Defectors AU AU Edition]

-Jealousy Ft. Alexsandr - AU of sorts (mainly because time line doesn't line up with the concept but it makes me giggle). Kanan has a very Oblivious Moment and is jealous of Kallus.

-Bite Me, Love -something that was originally just a silly little thought but then 3 of you within a span of 5 minutes said I should do it. Like damn alright ig (I look forward to it hehe)

-[Unnamed Gift for Lost in Derry] - In the rebellion, Kallus being loyal to Hera. (I'm so excited about this one)

-[Unnamed Gift for GreyGhost] -After a major victory and an even bigger celebration, Kallus cares after a very drunk lasat.

-"Kiss The Girl" fic - Ezra and Kanan do a few shenanigans in attempt to get Kallus and Zeb to confess to each other. Ends in disaster every time. ... or maybe not.

-Morning Haze -nsfw kalluzeb

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Ideas/Prompts we have that we haven't had the chance to start yet. But am eager to get to.

-"I would rather set myself on fire in an attempt to burn them from daring to try and touch me than let them do as they please." - Sabine Wren (We have 2 different ideas for this one. One that's early on in Sabine doing ghost crew, between her and Kanan. And the other is her and Kallus being assigned to a negotiation together, and it's one of the first missions they have together.) (Might make them be in the same timeline, like the second being a reflect to the first and time passing. The first being far more reckless and self destructive while the second is a promise of fight, a continous call to action.)

-so so so many fulcrum trio things. You have no idea how badly HOW BADLY I need these three to be on missions together.

-in addition to the above, Jealousy ft Cassian & Ahsoka.

-sentient glimmer fics

-Sentient Bo-rifles

-Kallus surprising Zeb by making him some of his favourite foods. So much fluff.

-Fulcrum Kallus dealing with the severe isolation of being so deep in the empire.

-Kallus keeping Every Item someone gives him.

-nsfw - service top Kallus & pillow princess Zeb

-6 More Prompts we've been given that we haven't started yet but are waiting for us once we get through a few more wips first.

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These are the ones we have thrown up on Ao3 rn that we are half way through

-Conversationalist - an Ezra Fic

-Jealousy ft Lando - KalluZeb nsfw

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Staying in hiatus until I have the availability to bring it out is

Force User Zeb - this is a long au fic we haven't been able to touch in awhile (😭😭😭)

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bripops · 4 months

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omg I'm so giddy I cannot decide which WIP to ask you about because they all sound flipping amazing but maybe 3 or 6, whichever you feel happiest with rn? (ps first time caller, long time listener -- just wanna say I'm a huge huge fan of all your fics)

AHH OMG I DIDN'T THINK ANYONE WOULD ACTUALLY ASK ME ANYTHING, YOU GET ALL OF THE ABOVE

3. hopeless, breathless, burning slow [horny dirk gently treatise]

So this one is actually published [ao3 link], but I put it in there because it was published recently and I thought the working title was funny lmao. It was honestly a classic example of this post that's like "yeah bro it's a character study. the 2 thousand words of blowjob is vital to the study of the character" where I wanted to write Dirk getting absolutely railed but I also wanted to talk about why getting absolutely railed is a profound, important thing to him. 5,000 words later, that was the result lol

6. it's dangerous (I'm falling) [megstiel fuckfest]

okay so I've been on the megstiel hype squad forever and got the idea a few years back for a s7 canon divergence AU. the basic plot is that after Cas takes on Sam's madness, he ends up giving his grace to the Winchesters to use as a nuke against the Leviathans, and Meg ends up in the same caretaker role for him because he's not quite human but he's also definitely not an angel and needs to be kept out of the way while they figure it all out. the two of them end up in a shitty apartment trying to figure out where Castiel's limits are, which is of course a deeply satisfying experience for Meg that turns sexual REALLY quickly. they bond over shared trauma, daddy issues, teaching Cas how to smoke a joint, and sexually charged sparring scenes. here's a snippet:

“Tell me about the stars, Clarence,” Meg said lazily, looking up at the sky. The city lights washed out a lot of them, but they could still see a few burning above the haze.

“What would you like to know?” Castiel asked.

Meg shrugged. “I dunno,” she said, “weren’t you there when they were created or some shit? Gimme something that’ll come in handy at trivia night.”

“You don’t go to trivia night,” Cas said, “and the stars came before I did. They were part of let there be light. I have no memory of their creation.”

“Make something up then,” Meg said. “What about that one?”

She pointed up, and Castiel was more or less able to follow to the star she was looking at. It was particularly bright, blinking in the night sky and if he focused, he could almost make out the shift in color.

“That’s a binary star,” he explained. “It looks like one point of light, but it’s two stars orbiting around a common center. In a few million years they’ll collide and be destroyed on impact.”

“Well shit,” Meg said, pulling another joint out of her pack of cigarettes. Her lighter flickered in the dark and she inhaled deeply. Wordlessly, not looking away from the sky, she held it out to Cas.

He shook his head first before realizing she wouldn’t see it. “No thank you,” he said, “I think I’ve embarrassed myself enough.” His throat was still raw from coughing his way through the first joint.

“Oh come on,” Meg said, propping herself up on her elbows and looking over at Cas. “I’m sure you have a few more hits in you.”

Castiel shook his head again now that she could see him do it, and enjoyed the way his body hummed with the movement. He was relaxed head to toe, his fingertips tingling and his skin hyper-sensitive to every shift against the blanket, every brush of the breeze on his face.

Meg took another hit, and blew the smoke into Castiel’s face. He grumbled, closing his eyes against the sting, and Meg laughed.

“How about we shotgun it,” she offered.

“I don't see what firearms have to do with this," Cas said, frowning. Now probably wasn't the best time to check if he could still shoot a gun; he hadn't even brought one.

Meg laughed. “Oh my god, you’ve been alive for thousands of years and still act like you were born yesterday. C’mere.”

Cas shifted up so he was propped on his elbows too and looked at Meg curiously.

“When I breathe out, you breathe in, okay?”

“What--” Castiel started to say, but she was already taking a drag.

Cas watched her do it, transfixed by the easy way her lips wrapped around the joint and how her chest rose as she inhaled. When she’d taken enough, Meg leaned in close until she was just a few inches from Castiel’s lips. He wondered, in a fuzzy-minded daze, if he was about to be kissed.

Instead, smoke poured out of her mouth, and remembering to do what he was told, Cas breathed in. He filled his lungs, but it burned less, and he was too distracted by Meg’s closeness to mind much.

“Better?” she asked with a smirk.

Cas exhaled, watching the smoke spiral towards the sky.

“Much,” he said, lying back down. He had a full-body buzz that felt like TV static on his brain, making his limbs heavy and his eyes close. He felt Meg shift next to him, and when Castiel opened his eyes again she was leaning over him, almost nose-to-nose.

It was a testament to the weed that he didn’t startle, just blinked up at her.

“Want another?”

#writing meme #literally you could ask me about all of them and I would tell you about all of them #I'm so stoked someone actually asked lmao

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TW: POSSIBLE TOXIC RELATIONSHIP, ED, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, RELIGION, SPECIES DYSPHORIA, ABUSE AND EXOTRAUMA (ONLY MENTIONED NO DETAILS), BLAMING OURSELF FOR PAST EVENTS, AND VENT

HEY Y'ALL XD. COULD WE GET POSITIVITY TO OUR SYSTEM? WE'RE DEALING WITH A LOT OF SHIT RN AND JUST NEED SOME KIND WORDS TO HELP CHEER US UP AND YOU GUYS ALWAYS HELP A BIT :3. ANYWAYS.

WE GOT BROKEN UP WITH A FEW MONTHS AGO AND JUST CAN'T SEEM TO GET OVER IT AND ALSO WE'VE COME TO THE REALIZATION THAT THE RELATIONSHIP MAY HAVE BEEN TOXIC XD. WE RECENTLY RELAPSED WITH OUR ED AFTER NOT HAVING ISSUES FOR PROBABLY A YEAR. OUR SYSTEM IS UNSTABLE AND KEEPS MAKING US SWITCH HOSTS WHICH IS GETTING VERY TIRING AS WE NORMALLY ONLY SWITCH HOSTS EVERY FEW MONTHS. OUR DEPRESSION HAS GOTTEN A LOT WORSE LATELY AND MAKING US WANNA GIVE UP ON LIFE (WE'RE SEEING A DOCTOR ABOUT OUR DEPRESSION :3). WE'VE BEEN DEALING WITH SEVERE SPECIES DYSPHORIA OVER WINGS AND OTHER THINGS. WE'VE BEEN MISSING OUR PAST LIFE AS AN ANGEL AS IT WAS SIMPLER (WE CONSIDER OURSELVES COLLECTIVELY FALLEN ANGEL KIN NOW SINCE WE WERE THROWN OUT OF HEAVEN). BUT ALSO WE FEEL KINDA BAD FOR MISSING IT AS THE DEITY MIGHT HAVE BEEN ABUSIVE, AND WE SORTA FEEL AT BLAME FOR CERTAIN THINGS AND MAYBE THE ABUSE. AND WE'RE ALSO DEALING WITH A LOT OF CONFUSION AROUND A BUNCH OF OUR SYSTEM LATELY XD.

SORRY THIS IS VERY ALL OVER THE PLACE AND FOR MY TYPING QUIRK AND FOR THE LENGTH AND FOR THE POOR WRITING XD. TY FOR ANY POSITIVITY OR ADVICE OR ANYTHING AT ALL. WE UNDERSTAND IF YOU CAN'T ADDRESS MOST OF THESE ISSUES AS A LOT OF THEM WEREN'T KIN OR SYSTEM THINGS.

-MANGLE🏓 :3 FROM ⛏️🏳️‍🌈 (WE WOULD PREFER IF YOU REFER TO US WITH YOU& OR OTHER PLURAL TERMS) TYTY AGAIN AND SORRY FOR THE VENT.

Hello Mangle🏓 and all else from ⛏️🏳️‍🌈,

I'm very sorry to hear about the loss of your& relationship. That is hard enough to deal with on your& own even without adding on the complexities of possible toxicity in said relationship. I want you& to know that it's okay to be upset, and to take all the time you& may need to heal. You& can't rush the grieving process, and the grief over the loss of a relationship is as real as any other kind of grief.

I can understand how all of this happening would make you& think back to a former life where you& felt happier and more sure of your& place in the universe. Even if the deity who ruled you was toxic, you're& still allowed to yearn for what felt like a safe space at the time. A lot of us here who have alternate and/or past lives feel similarly about them, even if they were in unhealthy situations in these aforementioned lives.

Even under waves of traumatic exomemories, there can still be those jewels; those pockets in time and space where everything, at least for a moment, seemed okay. There's nothing wrong with treasuring those memories.

I'm also sorry to hear you& are struggling with a flare-up of your& eating disorder. Relapsing isn't a moral failing on your& part. Don't blame yourself& or your& body for your& own stress response. Maybe you& could find an online support group to help you& get through this? While my situation is different, I have found support groups to be very helpful when it comes to some of the mental illnesses I have been struggling with, and you& deserve recovery.

Never apologize for being yourself&, btw, because who you& are is a wonderful soul& who is deserving of love and kindness. Your typing quirk doesn't change that, a toxic relationship doesn't change that, and reaching out for support certainly doesn't change that either.

We all wish you& Light and healing,

Mod Haze (☀️Sol)

#system #pluran #otherkin #fallen angel kin #positivity #☀️#mod haze #tw caps #tw toxic relationship #tw eating disorder #tw depression #tw exotrauma #tw breakup #tw religious themes #tw species dysphoria #⛏️🏳️‍🌈 anon

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each midnights song and their doctor who character rn

Oh no I couldn't possibly that would take too long........

Lavender haze: Rose? I think this fits her best, especially with her running off at least partially to escape what her life is, also representative of her relationship with the Doctor

Maroon: this is a Thoschei song through and through (the Master and the Doctor) 'the lips I used to call home' like shut up

Anti-Hero: the Doctor. Yeah

Snow on the Beach: Doomsday /j but also I think this is a Thasmin song (the Doctor and Yaz) from Yaz's point of view

You're on your own, kid: the Doctor. Full stop. No discussion. 'I looked around in a blood soaked gown'. I don't need to say anything. This is their song

Midnight rain: Amy and Rory <3 but in the time before Asylum of the Daleks (Amy pov)

Question...?: you know what I think this is a Martha song

Vigilante shit: the Master or perhaps the Doctor on a bad day

Bejeweled: Clara (my beloved) post the Doctor. She doesn't have a man cause she has Me (and Willa <3)

Labyrinth: the Doctor. 'Oh no I'm falling in love again' need I say more just every lyric is. So them

Karma: Martha :) she deserves everything

Sweet Nothing: the Doctor and River <3 (Doctor pov)

Mastermind: THE DOCTOR AND RIVER (could be either pov)

The Great War: I mean. This could be literally be any character and the Doctor. Alternatively Kate and Osgood my beloveds. Also could be the Doctor and the Master in the actual Time War (or the subsequent time he killed everyone on Gallifrey xx)

Bigger than the whole sky: THE DOCTOR ABOUT ANY COMPANION OR ANYONE THEY LOST (COUGH CASS COUGH ASTRID) NEED I SAY ANYTHING MORE

Paris: this is a companion and Doctor song. Basically any of them. Especially I feel Rose, Yaz, Ace in some ways (platonic)

High infidelity: the Doctor. Yeah

Glitch: this is a Master song xx it is also a River song (haha get it) hope this helps

Would've Could've Should've: this is a hard one but tentatively Martha, I think the bridge/outro is also very the Doctor post timeless child in fact maybe the whole song is the Doctor post timeless child

Dear Reader: the Doctor to themself

#doctor who #no one is allowed to tell me I'm wrong I am RIGHT #this album is a doctor who album #taylor swift #midnights #yes I spent far too long on this shut up #i tried to eliminate any headcanons when making this not sure if I succeeded I never remember what's canon anymore

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horseboneologist · 2 years

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Tag game time!! Thank you @thebloker ! I'm blushing (◠‿◠✿) I've been thinking "the bloker seems super cool" from afar this whole time and here you are being friendly <3 <3

Here are some people I'd love to know better! Feel free to answer or ignore as you please, no pressure whatsoever! @pensivetense @kenanda @eldritchcatpossumamalgam @dathen @saintbleeding @losyanya @saltbright @lasalebete @tired-beholding-bitch

relationship status: Single on purpose tyvm

fave color: Pink. All pink all the time.

fave food: Not exactly a food on its own but I think my favorite has to be Lao Gan Ma (spicy chili crisp style) - it's a chinese sauce/topping that I put on EVERYTHING it's truly incredible

song stuck in head: C'mon Baby, Cry by Orville Peck. He's just. He's taking over my brain rn.

last thing googled: "How to draw water ripples," "hazing synonyms," "orville peck dance gif" (I refuse to be embarrassed about that last one)

dream trip: Japan! Beautiful nature! Amazing food! Huge cool cities!

last book read/currently reading: I'm slowly making my way through a book called Queer Sex by Juno Roche, where she interviews a bunch of trans and non-binary people about their experiences navigating sex and intimacy in the queer community, and talks about her own experiences as well. It's really lovely so far!

last book enjoyed: Probably Thirteen Storeys as well, I was going through TMA withdrawals and picking up another thing in Jonny's style was really delightful

last book hated: Oh boy I don't know if I remember - I'll drop a book pretty quickly if it's bad. Instead I'll give one with mixed feelings - Salem's Lot by Stephen King. The horror elements are very well done, prime King style, but it's an older book and imo there's some totally unaddressed sexism with the female love interest (zero personality aside from "woman," zero role in story aside from "love interest"), and honestly I couldn't stand the main character. Still worth a read though, it's genuinely pretty scary.

fave thing to cook/bake: Crepes. So tasty, so easy, so versatile

most niche dislike: Uy, I'm not sure entirely how to put it all into words, but I suppose something that riles me up on a pretty regular basis is how the course of technology is becoming less usable, more sleek & marketable. I held onto my old ipods and fixed them & used them until about 2 years ago, when they were finally worn down beyond repair (also: fuck apple and their proprietary repair manuals, istg). I now use basically a knockoff Zune 😔. But I think it's worthwhile to have a tool that's *just for its one purpose!* I don't want people calling me when I'm listening to music, I don't need a news feed on my laptop homescreen, I don't need a smart fridge! Gimme headphones with a cord so I don't have to charge them! Gimme a car I can fix myself! Give me a phone that has buttons! Yeesh!

opinion on the circus: I did ride an elephant at a Ringling Bros circus when I was little. It was like doing the splits, sitting on that thing's back. I hope she got to retire somewhere nice 😓

sense of direction: It's all about the cardinal directions baybee! Once I can get those down in a new city, I'm golden.

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sorry i have such a pet peeve when people fight arguments with the wrong points and rn my fyp is full of taylor swift, it's like 40% "all her songs sound the same😡her lyrics are so cringe😡" etc and 40% is "nooo she has different sounding songs" AND THEN THEY CHOOSE THE MOST SIMILAR SOUNDING SONGS AS EXAMPLES or they go "um if she has cringe lyrics then explain this" and the choose the most basic possible lyric out of what like 11 albums of options and it's actually pissing me off so fucking bad

so first off here's some lyrics i think are pretty sick. i color coordinated them so the separate lyrics don't all blend together

from The Archer:

"And I cut off my nose just to spite my face

Then I hate my reflection for years and years"

i love the imagery in this line from Cruel Summer:

"Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes"

from Would've, Could've, Should've:

"God rest my soul, I miss who I used to be

The tomb won't close, stained glass windows in my mind"

for context would've, could've, should've is filled with themes of christianity, god, the devil so i love the line about stained glass windows representing trauma here

from right where you left me:

Help, I'm still at the restaurant

Still sitting in a corner I haunt

Cross-legged in the dim light

They say, "What a sad sight"

I, I swear you could hear a hair pin drop

Right when I felt the moment stop

Glass shattered on the white cloth

Everybody moved on

I, I stayed there

Dust collected on my pinned-up hair

They expected me to find somewhere

Some perspective, but I sat and stared

Right where you left me

the imagery!! it perfectly represents being stuck in a traumatic memory. haunting the space and collecting dust while everyone expects you to move on already. very cool metaphor/analogy

from I Know Places:

You stand with your hand on my waistline

It's a scene, and we're out here in plain sight

I can hear them whisper as we pass by

It's a bad sign, bad sign

Somethin' happens when everybody finds out

See the vultures circling, dark clouds

Love's a fragile little flame, it could burn out

It could burn out

'Cause they got the cages, they got the boxes

And guns

They are the hunters, we are the foxes

And we run

from Dancing With Our Hands Tied:

I could've spent forever with your hands in my pockets

Picture of your face in an invisible locket

You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it

I had a bad feeling

But we were dancing

Dancing with our hands tied, hands tied

both I Know Places and Dancing With Our Hands Tied are about dating while being scrutinized by the public. i just love the metaphor and imagery again

also bonus, the song my tears ricochet. im not even gonna show lyrics (the lyrics have funeral themes tho which i think is cool). just the phrase my tears ricochet for a song discussing someone hurting you and then missing you when you leave is so smart. look how my pain struck right back at you. like damn

next section:

i feel like it would be easy to combat "all her songs sound the same" comments when the artist being talked about literally had the public in outrage when she switched from country to pop. so my question is why are people responding to those comments with songs within the same Genre and Same Album ????????????? pick literally Any Other Song. i am going to lose it.

here's a list of songs you could listen to and hear very different sounding songs. again i coloured the songs and it corresponds to albums

...Ready For It? (these red ones are from the Reputation Album)

Endgame

New Year's day

Don't Blame Me

willow

champagne problems

Lavender Haze (these purple ones up here are from the Midnights album)

Sweet Nothing

Picture To Burn

New Romantics

Slut!

State Of Grace (this red one is from Red)

Better Than Revenge (this purple one is from Speak Now)

analyzing Taylors music is a special interest of mine, so i'm more familiar with the songs than anything about her, and she's not even my fave musician but i'm seeing both diehard swifties and haters misrepresent her music so fucking bad it's bothering me so much. sometimes the music hits sometimes it doesn't. you can't have absolutes after 11 albums and idk at least three genre changes.

pls keep it cordial in the comments and reblogs 💃i've just seen some weird, horrid, and violent comments on taylor swift type content and i need y'all to be normal about this. bc at some point it says Much More about you than taylor

#i wouldn't consider myself a swiftie #i just like to stare at her music like cats stare at carbonated water #i am simply contemplating it like those video essay people #i am staring autism style #she's also one of three artists who's music puts my brain in a songwriting mood #maybe four #taylor swift #lyrical analysis #music #special interest #autism

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diary107

12/29/2023

friday

here's a photo i found in a magazine on internet archive today that feels too apt to not put on tumblr dot com:

anyway i emailed me resume to that kbbq place.. i can't wait to wash dishes and think about killing myself every day. i already do that but it's less, i dunno, meaningful, it's just like, yeah that's something that happens sometimes. maybe it'll just be that when i wash dishes again. it probably will be. i'm just a stupid dramatic bitch.

anyway that picture is really funny, it's too much, it's probably been posted like a million times, it's such perfect fodder for what people put up here usually.

anyway here's some other stuff i was finding from old gyaru fashion mags (looking for references for cover art):

a very young girl thing of me to do, stare at fashion mags to absorb their ways of expressing / presenting reality, graphical means and so on. but i guess everybody is like that in their own ways. guys staring at old mde videos for inspiration are more young girls than me, at least i know these are kind of psycho. this is a vapid way to think but it's funny, which is why i am doing it.

mde is on the mind because my gf started watching fishtank recently. it seems mostly insane and evil, but that's fascinating to see so i get her watching it. it's the next generation of jerry springer, i think, or other shit like that. drama youtube and fishtank, that's the next generation of trashy reality tv. it's scary to me that this stuff just won't disappear, an evil impulse in spectacular societies, to not ever look away from these kinds of systems that make people behave certain ways, and to goad people into being insane to feel like you see the evil parts of culture or whatever. or not just evil, the ugly degenerate stuff, to feel like you can always sense that. fishtank really seems to love that for its 2nd season.

anyway sam hyde is such a piece of shit, too much breath here has been wasted on that freak pedophile.

anyway today, since i got to every song re: mixing finally, i decided to listen to the album as i have it rn, at first i was a little over an hour but i cut songs, now it's 48 minutes. i'll say there's room for +/- 1 min (really like 1 min 30 w/ short songs). but idk. i should see if i can shorten some of the songs here naturally, like if they have parts that repeat too much, take too long to get to their points, whatever. there's one song that's a maybe, it depends on if i can get it to sound right and find the right place for it. i love the song, so i want to keep it in the album. i should see if there's any short song rn that i don't want to keep, but i feel really attached to them all. actually there's another maybe too, both need to be placed right i think. they both kind of stick funny in the album. they need to fit in a bit better, idk how to do that w/ the second one but i like it a lot, there's just a part that's not right yet i think, in terms of how it sounds, it could be a bit crazier, louder, noisier maybe.

when i listened i took notes on some of the songs that needed special attention at the front of the record, i got through 6 of those, the list is of 8, so 2 more tomorrow and then i go through and listen again and try to see what else needs to change.

there's like 33 songs, so there's still a lot to get through but if i can maintain this pace/something like this pace, i'll be very happy.

right now i am just thinking about how my misanthropy comes in waves, but for a long time now, it's been given no reason to recede. something about pessimism is basically addictive but i don't think i'm in some mental-opiate haze, where i am, about people, at least some of them. it feels solidly under my feet, i know something totally pyrrhic, so many people i know, i have to keep asterisks on my relationships with them, because they just say awful things or reveal things. communist friends, even, maybe them especially. it's not about my feeling that i'm better even, it's just this overwhelming being used to finding out someone you know says "i'm glad (x) is transphobic too", to someone you know, a closer friend meeting someone from online. it's like, i knew he felt that way, i knew the person he was talking about felt that way too, my friend probably knew too, he is frustrated because it's stupid that anyone would decide to confide this in you. when pushed on it, this person who i guess is still basically something like a friend said "well it's because of andrea dworkin. it's feminist," which is so stupid and gross. i hate what radical feminism means now, or in the hands of people like that, i also hate that i basically know and expect this kind of thing from people who are close friends w/ this other friend (with asterisks) because she sort of becomes their whole moral/political compass because she's the kind of person who you want to agree w/ you or tell you that you're fine and whatever.

beyond this, other insane social failures that have left my friends, my closer ones who i don't have to put asterisks on, miserable and paranoid. not a terrible sort of paranoid, like this other guy i knew, who believed the satanic panic was real and all kinds of other shit. he also was vaguely transphobic, worried about the biopolitical consequences of hrt. seeing that problem and not questioning the broader circumstance that put us here, and instead accepting the reactionary assumption that this kind of thing is wasteful and dangerous from the jump, and feeding a fantasy or whatever. messing with your body is too far. he accepted people otherwise though, the paranoid guy, he was very catholic and maybe just not sure of things entirely. transphobic is ultimately only half right for these people, he really did accept people, when i told him about diy hrt, he was shocked and it seemed to change his mind on something, i couldn't tell what. but his obsession with child abuse cults and conspiracies broadly made him impossible to really talk to. he was also a communist. i am not complaining about communism, just expressing that these are not fascists.

i don't really know what i'm talking about. a lot of these people are just so frustrating. i don't know why they are like this.

i am getting tired now, so

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!

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Sixteen. 식스틴. 8/10

I would not recommend this show to my friends, but will recommend to all my ONCE's. I would rewatch this show.

Dahyun and JIhyo being my top in Twice rn, I can see that it's still my feeling within this show. They're so themselves, so talented, so hardworking, and so amazing. They're also just younger versions of who they are now, so I like how the same they are. I love seeing different versions of Twice members that I don't really see now like Tzuyu's Sway, Sana's Heartburn, and all of Jeongyeon. I love that SanE felt Jihyo's leader energy. She really talks with more natural ease, and her humor shines as well. Love her. I love how Sana is forever articulate and deep.

I love the intro with Beyonce's 7/11 and all the ladies' intros. Wooyoung, Jun. K, and Fei's advice are helpful, so I like it. Getting any amount of product from Reebok, I want in even though I've never bought from there in my life. I thought all the group live performances were amazing and fun. I liked the variety show episode. I wish I could have a day like that. I love all the celeb guests, espeically Taecyeon. It's funny though because now I see my-aged people (the Sixteen members) standing next to Taecyeon and the age difference is v obvious lol. And I wanted to date him at that age. I loved during the guerilla concert PR, when they were able to speak in different languages to bring in foreign fans. I love that you can actually see progression and improvement over the episodes during their practices. It's nice to watch this now because you can see where everyone ended up years later. And I think it's like more fitting. e.g. Chaeryeong really fits ITZY more. But, it also makes me think how whatever you're going through right now, you really will end up where you need to be. Omg loved the last stage when they did I'm Gonna be a Star and the 7/11 dance because that was just relevant. And the eliminated returning!

God, I hate this take off the necklace thing and also having to announce who is eliminated or who you are switching with. The suspense and editing in this show are killing me. Too good. Keeps me on the edge.

Omg, I almost teared when after the first round, JY Park was like no one is eliminated. God, I'm feely teary at how much everyone supports each other and feels for each other. It's actually really heartbreaking for me to see them cry because it's like working so hard and putting your all out there only to be judged or to fail. I actually teared during Momo's elimination. Why was this so sad?

This is a hazing that I don't like because everyone really is so young, so you can really fuck them up. Especially, because it's hard to know how not serious life or failure is sometimes. And like the mentality of we are being harsh to you now because you'll experience worse later, I just don't vibe with, especially to young girls. But I also know that so many Korean adults have yelled at me thinking it's constructive.

The support that some of them get from their families or from each other, it's kinda amazing to me. To even have people to go to like that is beautiful.

The part where they have to vote for each other based on JYP's ideal characteristics made me think a lot about what are the characteristics that I think are worthy and what do I want to be.

It's kinda hard to see that one of the main criticisms for Jihyo is her weight. The Western view could bring up body positivity, but I feel like that neglects Korean culture. I do like JIhyo's mindset of how she just has to change something and she'll be gucci, but it is hard to see that it's something about appearance.

Can you believe they're performing Twice songs before being Twice?

#sixteen #식스틴 #korean #show #series #review #commentary #rye-views #8

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I still don't feel motivated to write :/ I've got 6 months to write this book for my friends birthday and I'm worried that I'll keep procrastinating and just not do it..

and I have so many wips that are just sitting there, rotting away.

I honestly feel so shitty rn :/ I've been planning for my friends gift and everything is still in a bit of a haze, like there's no clear outline of the plot.. (Ik who I want the main character to be and how I want them to act as well as the love interest but that's it) in the past week it's went through about 5 different plots and I can't pick one I find interesting.

Like I had one plot, the original one, right? But I borrowed this book from my local library yesterday because I liked the sound of it and the plot to it shares SO many similarities to my drafted plot and I'm just so annoyed with everything.

(I did make a cute bookmark though, but that's not important)

Fr all I have for every plot is some version of this

"I'm not dumb, infact I like to believe that I, Mavonnie Hendrix am smarter than those around me. I am smart enough to know that saying things like, "I am smarter than those around me," sounds pretentious and stuck up. Which I am not. I just have realistic views on life, views that most teenagers can not even begin to fathom. I've observed those my age, I've watched them grow up around me, it is obvious I am not like them. "

-🐈⬛

i'm sorry you haven't been feeling great bestie :( i think you have a really great start to a story though!!! i'm very familiar with writer's block and i know it's no fun and i'm sorry you're having to deal with it :( usually watching movies helps me when i'm in a rut!!! do you have anything on your watchlist that might help inspire you??

#i hope you feel better soon bff :(#🐈‍⬛ anon #bunny's mailbox 📬

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bowievanfleet · 2 years

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bowie's recs!!

hello hello!!! while you guys are waiting for me to actually provide content regularly, here's some AMAZING works of art that you can read, approved by me :)) all of these writers are absolutely amazing and i adore them so please go show them and their fics some love <33

(this'll be updated regularly, whenever i find a new fic i'm obsessed with :))

*indicates smut

JAKE

-SERIES-

*LAZARUS (duh)- @garbagevanfleet

no strings attached- @hearts-hunger

*a family affair- @gretavandutchy

bruised (major tw for this one besties!!)- @vetaglanfeet

the dead don't die - @highdefkiszka

-ONESHOTS-

anything @vetaglanfeet has ever written lmao

like your mother- @arcaneblaine

*file corrupted- @aureummel

the garden- @allieboop

oh we're in love, aren't we?- @jacob-gvf

criminal records- @highdefkiszka

all the subliminal things - @stardustbarbarians

giggles (makes me wanna actually die in the best way) - @sparrowofthedawnsworld

*backstabber - @themoreyou-love

*cabin in the woods 1 + 2

*guitar fingers 1 + 2

*alabama song

*call and response

^ all by @gretavanlace <3 ^

oh baby (my guilty pleasure fic) - @jakeytkiszka

JOSH

-SERIES-

*ABADDON- @garbagevanfleet

*brightest blue- @garbagevanfleet

*cabin fever- @hearts-hunger

-ONESHOTS-

sweet josh fluff - @gretasmokerising

bliss - @sinners-go-to-drink-the-wine

*retrograde - @garbagevanfleet

*purple haze - @gretavanlace

*garnet - @gretavanlace

*light my love - @gretavanlace

*i know you are, but what am i? @stardustchordssammy

SAM

-series-

*blue hour- @gretavandutchy

sunshine daydream- @hearts-hunger

*a lover's plight- @gretavandutchy

like friends do - @gretagolden

-oneshots-

*neon moon (literally my fav sam oneshot ever i'm sorry)- @tripthelightfandomtastic

flinch- @vetaglanfeet

shameless plug for my fic, paper rings ;)

DANNY

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that's probably not all but those were the ones my brain could think of rn :))) as i said before, go show these lovely people some love and appreciation for all the hard work they out into these fics, they deserve it!

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miyarii · 3 years

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-deserved-

Pairing: Atsumu Miya x Reader, Kiyoomi Sakusa x Reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: cheating ;-;

Summary: He still remembers it all. How he hurt you. But now that doesn't seem to matter to you. At least not anymore, when you've moved on. And he is left behind to pick up the pieces of his own broken heart. Maybe he deserved it.

Note: i saw that someone requested a part 2, and i immediately read through the fic again and realized holy shit, they were right. this is vague. this is bad. oh gosh, i hope i delivered it somewhat sufficiently. i don't think i did. well, i need to improve more >-< i'm tagging @multi-fandom-fanfic for this since they requested for a part 2. i hope it lives up to your expectations ^o^

part 1 | part 2

He couldn't sleep.

There were bags on his eyes, and his appearance was messy and unkempt. He looked at the clock on his bedside table, watched as it turned 2:13 A.M. 7 months later, and thoughts of you still plagued his mind.

Well, it was only fair. He deserved it.

He stopped seeing her after you left. He remembers it all. Even in his drunken haze, he remembers all of those times he let himself be stupid. Him texting you he wouldn't be coming over for the night. The feeling of her skin on his, her coy giggles as they danced around, soon ending up tangled in each other. Her stupid little kisses that spurred his recklessness on. Him excusing his wrongs, his guilt, by saying he was drunk. And repeat.

He thought he loved her all those times, only to regret it in the mornings. Fucking stupid, and he hates it. How could he even think of loving another, when you were already there?

He missed you. So damn much.

As if his body had a mind of its own, he picked up his phone, already scrolling trhough his contacts to call you. Just when he was about to press call, he stopped. He didn't have the right to do that anymore. Instead, he opted to read your last messages to him. For the nth time.

'Goodmorning, Atsu. Did you sleep well?'

'Hinata-san's texting me. Are you still asleep?'

'If I find out you ended up drinking at some bar and got shitfaced AGAIN, I will kick your ass.'

'I have to go to work. Can't drop over your place rn. I'll just tell Hinata-san you'll be late, ok? See you later <3'

'I love you.'

The last brought him to tears.

I love you too, he meant to text back. But at that time, he was too busy trying to stop her from kissing his face all over. With a heavy heart, he willed himself to at least get enough rest for today.

"My girlfriend's in the shower. I'll just tell her I have people over today. Make yourselves at home."

"Ya' have a girlfriend, Omi-omi? How long?"

"Yes. We're still new, but I can see myself with her for a lifetime. Now shut up." He was in disbelief. Kiyoomi actually had someone. How did he manage to keep it under wraps?

Immediately, Bokuto and Hinata started chatting about random topics, volleyball, food, their favorite matches. He only listened halfheartedly, too engrossed in looking around Kiyoomi's apartment.

And then he saw it. A neat, framed picture of Kiyoomi and his girlfriend, the man sporting a small genuine smile..... and your bright one matching his. His whole world stopped.

Fuck him.

You stepped out of your shared room with Kiyoomi, already smiling and ready to greet your guests. The moment your eyes landed on him, your smile faltered. He only stared at you, hoping that you will see the longing hidden behind his gaze. He missed you so much.

Then it hit him again. You were with Kiyoomi, not him.

Kiyoomi, being the observant person he is, noticed the quiet exhange between you. His brows furrowed, and he leaned over to whisper something in your ear. You froze before whispering back, and he watched as Kiyoomi's brows rose in confusion, and then his face morphed with an expression Atsumu couldn't quite define. Atsumu felt something stir in him, but he quickly tampered it down with another reminder that Kiyoomi was your boyfriend, not him.

You looked back over to the three of them, and smiled. "Hello. My name's Y/N L/N. It's nice to meet you." Hinata looked at you with surprise, him being the only other person to know that you were with Atsumu before. Bokuto only smiled, unknowing of the atmosphere surrounding the group. "Hi, Y/N-san! Nice to meet you too, I'm Kotaro Bokuto."

"Do you guys want anything to eat? I can pull something up." You looked at Kiyoomi, who in turn looked at the others.

"Nah, we're all good! We just came over to discuss tactics for the upcoming match," Bokuto answered, still quite oblivious to the scene unfurling in front of him.

Atsumu blinked.

'I can't tell you to love her more than I did you... because I know there is no one in my life who I will love more than you.'

'You deserved my love, Atsumu. It was me who didn't deserve yours.'

Was that just a lie?

As he watched you laugh with the others, nuzzle up to Kiyoomi every now and then, seemingly oblivious to his eyes burning into the two of you, he knew that you weren't lying. You wouldn't be able to love anyone more than him, but you certainly could learn to love someone just as much. And you didn't deserve his love. Because you deserved the love of someone better.

Well, he thought, it's only fair. I deserve it.

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