#there sure were a lot this go around

[humming-fly]

Inktober Day 31 - Happy Halloween/Last Day of Bat Week!!

#i was reminded it was bat week while attending the Bat Lectures at the wind conference haha #sadly not as fun as it sounds since a lot of the panels are on how turbines do be hitting bats #a lot of good people are concerned about it and working on it though so that's nice to learn about at least #anyways colored most of this with a sharpie because i still don't have my copics ob #inktober #inktober2023 #meta knight #kirby #my art #doodles #DONE #now i have time for other things #like those 20-odd doodle requests for the follower milestone h a #i haven't forgotten them! now that this is wrapped i'll probably start getting to those now and then haha #there sure were a lot this go around

[front-facing-pokemon]

#spinda #AAAHHHH YES!!! our belovèd spinda. from their café!!! probably one of my favorite minor characters from pmd sky #whom i don't even think was in the original explorers games. i think spinda's café was exclusive to sky. if i'm remembering correct #ly. or maybe that was shaymin village. i know shaymin village was for sure but maybe it was just that and not both of them. either way #have a delicious drink and allow the flower of conversation to bloom! i could quote spinda all day. he had “hopes and dreams” before toby #ever did. THAT'S ALSO like i had no idea what spinda's pronouns were. i kept trying to figure it out because i talked about him quite a lot‚ #but no one in game ever talked about him. to mention his pronouns? turns out. there's ONE line of dialogue where the post office fucker in #shaymin village mentions him and calls him a he. i think that's the only time spinda is referred to in the third person with a pronoun #i believe it's when they're talking about like. how you can send gifts or whatever and pick up the characters' responses at spinda's café #which is still a really fucking good feature. of any video game. SEE WHAT I MEAN spinda and their café is just an incredibly good Thing #it's to the point where my home wifi network is named “Spinda's Café Wi-Fi” because i love it so much. so if you're ever runnin around #and you see a wifi network by that name… it might be me! you never know! or… it could be the real deal. the real spinda's café is somewhere #nearby…! ugh. i wish. i would go there immediately #not even to mention all the other shit about this pokémon that's really good. like that they never walk in straight lines or whatever #their little dance. it's just. huUGHKLJKAHJVDHJHDAJSVGD i love spinda. a nice pick-me-up after the underwhelmingness that was grumpig #shake it this way… shake it that way… and stir it all around… and it's done!

[writer-room]

Ahsoka is probably the person everyone means when they say “I know a guy”. Girl knows a bunch of senators, some ragtag rebels, many criminals, a handful of Imperialists, and a couple other random people dotted across the galaxy. If you ever need to find someone, you just call Ahsoka. Chances are high that she knows exactly who they are. Chances are even higher that she knows someone else who knows them. She runs around enough that it’s not that hard for her to just ram into them. Her one exception is Ezra Bridger, because apparently knowing a guy personally means it’s impossible to find him for over a decade.

#star wars #sw #ahsoka tano #ezra bridger #talk #funny #text post #i know a guy #ideas #headcanons #star wars rebels #bail organa is fighting her for title of 'guy who knows a guy' #unfortunately he loses because the imperialists he knows are ones he could not call up and bully on main #would darth vader try to kill ahsoka? probably. but its less likely than bail #also ahsoka knows like 30 more clones than bail does even if like 25 of them are dead #look point is she knows a LOT of clones and thus ANY clone found wandering around would probably know who she is. shes their padawan vod #i was gonna say 'somehow ahsoka doesnt personally know any of the main group from the original trilogy not counting the droids' #but i was wrong i forgot she met chewbacca that time they were being hunted for sport #im sure nobody else knows about that time chewy was hunted for sport so i just really hope he meets ahsoka so han can be told and go insane #and then theres ezra over here. who is one of the people she talks to and likes and unfortunately here you cannot call ahsoka #because she DOES know the guy. however she cannot tell you where when or how he is

[sofarsogoodsowhat]

AUUUUGHHHHH MY HEAD HURTS SO BAD

#face #new stupid hat!!!!! #i had so much fucking fun. my boyfriend ended up going with me and staying the whole time :) he wasn’t sure if he’d be able to #we both got drunk i got really stoned we both talked to the dudes from the second band for a WHILE and got cheap leather from em #cuz their singer makes leather like cuffs and collars n that kinda shit #AND THEIR LEATHER IS SOURCED FROM A FUCKING REZ. ITS FUCKING INSANE ITS SO COOL #but also their singer was looking at my tattoos and was like HOW OLD ARE YOU??? and he looks like he’s around my moms age #so that made me feel really fucking good abt my tattoos . #they’re the band that had the heavy metal parking lot shirt #also!!!! talked to the guitarist from the first band outside (i want him BAD) and he got all excited when i said i loved his solos and their #set was fucking crazy and he gave me a couple stickers and then when me and my bf’s bf were talking to the singer from the second band #the guitarist from the first one comes over and starts talking to me again and says he likes my shirt and then he was like yeah man i saw #you out there and i was like damn this seems like the kinda guy that’ll love this set i fucking hope he does I think i’m in love with him. #listen to takacs (columbus based??) + razorblade (pittsburgh) #apparently ppl at thrash shows like my tattoos! i need 2 look into the local thrash scene more

[aesthetic-uni]

I know I’m late to the party but Oh My God™️

#uni talks about the universe #hbomberguy #james somerton #I’ve been watching the video in increments #so everytime I pause and think ‘it can’t get worse’ #guess what the fuck happens when I come back #I’ve never watch James somerton but I have seen his videos floating around #but now thank god I haven’t #by the way-no hate to anyone who was fooled by them #how the fuck were you suppose to know that their entire life was a life #anyway I cannot wait for how these people try to clamber their way back #don’t even talk about Blair to me cause holy shit that woman has a lot of skeleton in her closet #I’m pretty sure they all do but I’m mentioning Blair specifically because I was keeping up on the story for her ngl #I do think internet historian is going to come out unscathed #mostly because his fans just doesn’t care #but the rest? not so easy I think #and obviously it’s fucking over for James Somerton #that man is dead. we witness a live execution. and then liked and subscribed

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for the day

• paper that has a good feeling texture

• things not feeling like an emergency EVERY second of the day, only part of the time

• the fact that these cheapo stamp ink pads from Walmart a few years ago somehow still have a bit of functioning ink not dried out?

• I’m able to track and retain conversations for longer periods of time again, I’m finally finally finally feeling some progress

• putting on a warm hoodie or coat when feeling chilled

#fivethingsaday #I still can’t believe people LIKE me!! ?! ?! ?! ?! #I’ve accidentally wound up dumbfounded with a delightful number of friends #like. wait. I thought you guys were playing a very long trap or were only liking me because of obligation or worth vs hassle ratio. #I thought I was just enjoying it before it vanished! but yowza!!! #apparently I DID get the chance for it to be real #and I am in the middle of living an adult life I didn’t think I’d see!!! #so anyway holy shit I apparently am not secretly a poison to people #these cool people I’ve been so admiring of and wished I could really have a life with someone like them as a friend #BITCH I DO IT IS ME #what the FUCK. #anyway I’ve got to go keep trying to wrangle my very uncooperative knee #and marvel at the slowly-dawning reality of being liked actually not just kept around #god grade school age social hierarchy lessons sure get roots down in deep #I’m so pleased as punch and totally in skeptical disbelief. I’m also delighted and horrifically embarrassed and feeling stupid and feeling #unbearably grateful and feeling quite particularly like I’m in the Truman show and also won the lottery #I’m going to do a lot of STICKING WITH IMPORTANT ROUTINES FOR MY WELL-BEING about it #add to journal

[archduke-enver-gortash]

mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again. #sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all. #imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs! #so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately. #but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when. #like. imagine that. jesus dude. #like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here. #but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like

[destroyedparadise234]

obsessed with how Star Wars de-canonized Obi-Wan secretly giving Anakin the cheat sheet to speedrun becoming a Force ghost, and instead has made them into a dyad so that even IN DEATH they are cosmically incapable of leaving each other obikins just keep winning

(referencing this article suggesting they’re a dyad)

#obikin #makes me wonder how THAT first interaction went if it wasnt obi wan who actually taught anakin how to force ghost #but instead as obi wan and yoda watched the death star blow up in the distance they just #hear nervous shuffling from behind them and a ‘u-uh… master?’ #and obi wan’s jaw drops bc its a fuckin blue anakin skywalker looking not a day over 22 #and yoda IMMEDIATELY dissolves into thin air for the moment #bc no way in all the sith hells is he going to stick around for this conversation #at least not until those two finally have the heart to heart convo they desperately needed #and yoda expects maybe some shouting #maybe a lot of shouting #maybe a shove or a slap if theyre feeling spicy #he pops back in after like 30 minutes to make sure these two idiots havent found a way to somehow make force ghosts bite the dust #and finds that these two were alot more spicy than he anticipated #bc honestly he didnt realize force ghost clothing could be removed #i cant believe the dyad theory is in mainstream now #they really said even in death where there is a kenobi you’ll find a skywalker not too far behind

[sysig]

I can’t see a damn thing

#DQIX #WPDQIX #WPVG #Where are my glasses! #So anyway I finally beat this save lol #Well - made it to postgame anyhow #Which is long haha #Everyone still sub 50 level-wise! That's remained consistent #Although a lot of extra levels in other vocations to build up points #I cannot BeLieve Goresby-Purrvis TKO'd me on my first attempt back - I was well-leveled! I was fine! #RNG >:( #We beat him the second go around - after I looked up a guide to make sure I wasn't trying to fight him way underleveled lol #No I was actually over by like.......5-8lvs............................ #His OHKO move is way too OP he managed to successfully roll it Twice in his turns >:0 Hate that furry #Anyway the rest were a cake walk lol #Like yeah I went and healed after Barbarus but aside from that I didn't even bother pfft #I didn't realize I had so little of the main campaign left! Like I'm happy to be in postgame now but dang I could've done this way sooner #I'll run around with the Express after a bit ♪ Wanna see if I can unlock some of the other vocations and collect more clothes #Do a full aesthetic run lol - finish out the Mini Medals sidequest #Plenty to do yet! #Then I really wanna look into a recording setup for my 3DS hmnn #I don't really want to send this lad away to get rigged up - and I have been looking to buy a new one but hmmnnn #I dunno #Worst case I just stream with DeSmuMe lol #I'd love a physical copy of Kuzu's adventure <3 But I also can't deny the usefulness of save states #Going back to the church every time is....Mm #I wonder if there are any USB DS controls I could use :0 That's be great I love the way the buttons feel #Still - it being a slower paced game wouldn't make it particularly demanding haha

[keeps-ache]

i don't wanna take over the world, it sounds like a lot. but you know, laying siege to a golf course sounds really nice sometimes

#just me hi #i'm giggling thinking about it hfbvhs #you can use the sandbanks for cover and if you plan far enough ahead you can start farming around those little ponds #and you can steal golf balls :D and use them as currency ?? or just collect them :3 #and you could use the tennis ball guns to shoot the balls at people of course!! and you're supplied with sticks when you get there !! free #weaponry !! :D #and if you can hold out for long enough you could start planting rose and blackberry bushes in places they wouldn't look #why? bc roses Always Come Back #and blackberries will take a minute but who can get mad at a blackberry bush !! nature's surprise :D #oh and of course you could have a noble steed too (golf cart) !! :DD #and you could make the building a castle #and make a little gnome town in the fields once the battle is over #OH you could build a miniature golf in and around the town too :D for the funsies #/places are very cool i like places #could some be used better? oh yea for sure #i have dreams for abandoned malls hfvbs - some of my favorite places ever #that's one big odd thing i want. to have a mall to live in hfhs :3 #is it a lot of space ? ye. but it's also SOO much space.. the possibilities !! #//anyway i Need to go for a walk in a city sometime soon lol #i miss the riverwalk aaa #GASP campus martius during the winter. my dearest #i didn't realize the threshold for being a city was so low lmao ?? like man these are just big towns what is this hfvbsh #//but aside from the city pining MAN #i got to drive earlier today ('got to' they put me in the seat and it wasn't very fun hfvbshf) and oooohhh #you know that feeling on a roadtrip when it's all worth it for just a little while.maybe when you broke over the top of a hill or looked up #from whatever you were doing to find a storm ahead and the rear lights of the cars seemed to blink in agreement with how gorgeous it all is #just that hfbsh :3 #i like places a lot. sobs [<- crying candy hearts] #//okey i'm goin to go do my somethings now hfvhs :3 :D #music and caffeine are SO good ehehhehghhg [slinkies away so fast]

[amoneki-ramblings]

Um. Uh. Hi, Amoneki blog, pinned post let's go (very important please read !!)

This is probably the most important thing by Far: I haven't actually finished the manga yet; I recently got a :re box set but I (at the time of writing this) only just got to :re volume 10 and I don't have a lot of time on my hands to read !! (I've already gotten spoiled a lot cough while trying to look for content cough cough but I'd still like to avoid as many (mostly for major plot points/character deaths especially) as I still can)

Having said that please try to respect that as much as you can !! It's already really tough avoiding spoilers for a series like this (which is why I'm laying pretty low with this fandom, but I'll try to get through the manga when I actually have time)

I'm gonna be honest anything amoneki is pretty much fair game though the tumblr tags have already told me. A lot This mostly applies to. Everything else in the series. If that makes sense? (I hope it does at least orz)

Asks and interaction are greatly appreciated !! (Just a warning that if I get started on these two I can hardly shut up) I love rambling about my silly guys (both individually and as a ship, these two drive me absolutely insane)

If you have headcanons or thoughts you want to discuss or share, please definitely absolutely share !! I want to hear them really really badly trust me !!!! Let's spiral into insanity together :))

Okay that's all I think

Tags for future organization: amoneki doodles/amoneki ramblings / amonhaise CCG AU

Also. 1.5K word amoneki ramble because honestly it sums up a lot of my thoughts about them if you're interested, here

#pinned intro #if i'm completely honest i'm a little intimidated by the fandom #mostly because it's been around for so long and it's small and the people here have likely been here for. a While #meanwhile i'm here standing with my silly guys like “hi” #i'm not even done reading the manga yet orz and a decent amount of the discussion i've seen is at parts i haven't gotten to yet #so. i'm not really sure how this is gonna go? #this is an amoneki blog so it's gonna be focused on that obviously but. y'know- #is it a poor idea to make a blog for a series you haven't finished yet? definitely #am i also too lost in obsession about these two to care? also definitely #praying this doesn't show up in the main tags i will be so embarrassed and die :pray: #there's a lot of amoneki content from like 2015 and beyond-ish so i may fill a queue with a lot of that #we'll see though #i'm really nervous but. i also need to gather the amoneki nation !! whoever is left in it at least :pray: #thank you to the people who encouraged me on one of my other blogs you were all so nice and it really motivated me :)))

[mvshortcut]

hey. hey uh. just wondering what happened to all the children Curtain barged and brainswept. I'm assuming he didn't have a child services worker politely waiting at the dock for them. uh. where did they go.

#the mysterious benedict society #tmbs #ld curtain #sometimes in the Big Things that Curtain's done stuff like this gets overlooked #did the kids get dropped off at the orphanage? would he really waste the time? raise suspicion about where all these kids are coming from? #assuming one student gets barged a week from the leaderboard every Thursday. in all the years the Institute's been running. #that's a lot of kids. #did the kids just get left on the docks. left to wander around Stonetown with no memories and nowhere to go #also. the fact that unlike the books. not all/most of the kids at LIVE were orphans #Martina had parents #now granted the Whisperer's messages 'the missing aren't missing' probably discouraged them from looking for their kid #but like. did the parents ever wonder. after months of not hearing from their kid. #did they go into town one day for some shopping only for their child to stumble out of an alleyway #dirty and alone and scared and with a completely blank expression #and doesn't even blink twice at their own parents? not even a spark of recognition? #thinking about when the Emergency lifted and the Whisperer's messages stopped. #how many parents suddenly remembered their children have been missing #how many parents rushed to the Institute only to find out their child disappeared years ago? #'what happened to them?'not sure. only they never say goodbye to any of their friends before they leave #like they don't even recognize them at all. #how many parents kept searching. kept following that thread. found their child in an orphanage with no memory of how they'd gotten there #anyways. food for thought!

[shit-wcue-players-say]

BREAKING NEWS: canon character banned from own series for being "too problematic" (by the same community that also thinks visibly disabled characters(and likely people in general) need to be censored or otherwise hidden because "some people think that's gross" which is a mixed signal at best. Do we care about their feelings or not)

#basically the moral of the story is wcue players fucking hate disabled people but they won't admit it #and also eventually your “activism” wraps back around into being harm if you keep going long enough #eventually any depiction at all becomes “potentially offensive to someone out there” #i generally try not to “slippery slope” things but they are basically already there in this case so i feel like i'm allowed to this time #wcue #roblox #reports channel #good lord #i'm going to die young #dislike “-kitty” users btw. not as aggravating as “exp” line breaks in bio S/H people #but close #one time me and my friend were hanging around #and someone walked up to my friend unprovoked and suggested he change his bio from “tom” to “hekitty” #because his character had pink on him and they insisted that it “fit better” #anyway that's not related i'm just being reminded of it #no i couldn't tell you why their name is offcenter either #i do know it's on purpose though and i hate it #sorry i have a lot to say about this one lmfao #remember this game is officially endorsed by the warrior cats team. Surely they cant possibly know what kind of shit goes on in there #if they did i think they'd shit their pants

[gobstoppr]

and btw im in my hater arc rn. as time goes on the more i find a lot of 'fandom' stuff insufferable (i like art n stuff. just the way that fandom refits every media to fit a single mold and set of boring archetypes is exhausting.)

i just get really easily annoyed lately. and have been unfollowing people on a whim a lot. its not personal i promise

#fandom culture has made me actively dislike shit i was fixated on a year ago. looking at your ninja turtles #its not even like what they were doing were particularly offensive it was just exhaustingly boring #im sorry i just really dont care about ur 2 million fics about leo being a sadboy. or one million seperated aus. #theres definetly a part of the whole situation in general which has been me coming to terms with my own internalized misogny #actively re-examining my tendencys to gravity towards male characters #idk maybe its making me dislike art more. but idk. ive always analyzed why i react certain ways to certain things. this isnt new for me #anywaays. i had been following a bunch of ninja turtle blogs and they sorta kept messing around with shows like ninjago too #and at some point i was just like. i dont know if these shows are actually that good guys. i think youjust like shows for little boys #and fandoms tend to shaft female chars so it sure helps that their casts are 98% male . #maybe theyre not your blorbo maybe theyre just Guy McAverageMan. thats not inherently bad but you have to consider it. #guys rottmnt is isnt even that good . its not that good ok. its alright/pretty good. and the movie does a few neat things #i feel like ive become one of those people that turn 18 and then immediately go 'minors dni'. im not there yet but i just. #we're watching kids shows. its ok . you can say it. #you may have noticed ive been reblogging a lot of dungeon meshi stuff. i read it all over the past week. #but here's the thing. i thought it was mid/good for like 70% of it. #i think its got some really really cool worldbuilding ideas and stuff #but i think a lot of the writing was sorta. uninteresting to me. #my discord friends have been raving over izutsumi for months. #but i found her presence in the story to be weird and underdeveloped. she felt out of place and her introduction felt clumsy #i felt when the story was ramping up the manga got a lot better. because again theres some rlly cool ideas at play #all the shit with the lion? incredible. the way all the infighting led to more problems bc the elves refuse to explain anything? rlly good. #marcille landing in power? reallly good shit. (i still thought it was a lil undercooked still tho) #i cant stop thinking about laios in that climax scene. i think he shouldve been feral a lot more often #uhh. i got distracted. fandom bad and annoying. #saw a post talking about marcille realizing izutsumi is only 17 and then describing how 'omg shes a mom now' and i wanted to throw up #im done. i swear. im done talking for real. aagh #text

[skitskatdacat63]

Christopher Nolan making movies: I'm gonna make a film that is so confusing and non-linear

#just watched memento :DDDDD #which i think would be his first bigger movie? #but it was so interesting bcs there were a lot of concepts in it that are so visible in his later films #like watching that after watching almost all of his most recent films was such an 'aha!' moment #lthe whole black&white vs in-color to delineate which part of the story we're in #in memento: black and white is the beginning of the story and then in-color is the rest of the story going backwards #and then he uses that concept again in oppenheimer but b&w is the current events and color is everything leading up to that and after #like yeah its really confusing first time around because you dont know that fully yet but then at the end its like OH!!!!! #and then both also have other stuff interspersed btwn those two sections that you only reallly understand by the end #and then with the plot going backwards. that was the same as tenet right? #like starting with the end of the story and them ending with the beginning of the story #i cant remember inception well enough atm but im sure it has traits of memento as well #his movies are like puzzles ig! like you really have to keep track of all the details and what takes place when #i think theyre really fun bcs more and more becomes clear to you #im not sure what the most confusing nolan movie is hmmmm probably tenet or inception right? #oppenheimer: much more clear in general since its following literal historical events but just in a non linear manner #the only real reason i found it a bit confusing is bcs i didnt know a lot of the characters and also was trying to figure out the timeline #and then interstellar is more just confusing in concept bcs it has to do with time in the 4th dimension and all that #but i think the story is pretty understandable its just hard to wrap your head around the different time/dimension concepts #then again....ive watched it probably more than 4 times by now! ITS ONE OF MY FAV MOVIES EVER #cant say much abt the batman movies bcs they have nolan concepts but arent really like his other stuff #haha someones said he did those movies so he could make absolute bank and then have a blank check to do whatever movies he wants #and someone also said that oppenheimer felt like memento and thats so so so true!!! #its cool that he can make the movies he wants. bcs as i said watching memento really outlines very well what concepts he likes #watching it was weird bcs im like oh yeah this is *so* christopher nolan and then realize this is literally only his second film #i need to rewatch inception and dunkirk and see if i can spot inspo from Memento in them #anyways: yay film!!! yay cinema!!!!!! movies are so fun!!!!!! #catie.rambling.txt

[lastoneout]

Warning, Certified Internet Boomer Moment Imminent!

anyway bruh y'all have no idea how bad the baby fever is kicking my ass rn....

#me @ myself like BITCH NOT YET #IT'LL HAPPEN WHEN IT HAPPENS SO JUST STOP FUCKING YELLING AT ME #AHHHHHHHHHHH #anyway I am legit envious of people who don't want kids bcs I assume their brains don't do this to them #and it's always so much worse around the holidays bcs christmas kinda blows when you're an adult #and I'm so excited to get to go all in making halloween and christmas special for a kid #I just have so much love inside of me and I want to share it #christmas was always hit or miss growing up bcs we were really poor #so we got charity gifts a lot #and when you're a teenage girl those gifts SUCK ASS #but I had to sit there and be happy with all the spa kits and make up and shit even though I DID NOT WANT THOSE #while my siblings got really cool shit like video games and art supplies and stuff #and I am so ready to make sure my kid never ever has to go through that #fuck gender I will pay attention to their interests and make sure they get things they love!!!