I think the fact that u can just get prescribed ssris without being told about side effects to watch out for and then have your dose raised and suddenly have your mental health absolutely tank is. So funny. Absolutely incapable of feeling emotions to the point where all of my relationships are fucked (unable to feel affection/love) my academic career is fucked (unable to feel any sense of urgency towards assignments/attendance) my Everything Is Fucked (unable to gauge emotional well-being until things are actually hazardous) but at least I also can’t feel the Consuming Despair. Giving zombie realness. Going through the motions pilled. Apathymaxxing.
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i need go get a scale so i can weigh bart. i feel like he's losing weight really quickly even though he's eating like normal. maybe i'm just accustomed to having big cats but i feel like i can feel his ribs too easily :(
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i hate how everything nowdays has to be digitalised because i went to a doctor's appointment the other day and instead of– i don't know, listening to me when i described which nerves i suspect are causing me trouble when i do certain motions and trying to follow those neural pathways herself to determine whether i have inflammation or carpal tunnel syndrome or whatever, the neurologist was more concerned about typing out a proper report so that she doesn't get fired. barely looked at me when i tried to show what arm positions cause me ache or when i listed off the symptoms i jotted down in my journal. even when she decided to check my reflexes it felt dismissive, like i shouldn't be wasting her time asking for a diagnosis unless my limbs have already started giving up on me
i don't know, i wasn't expecting too much when i came in, but she couldn't be assed to even suggest me temporary treatment, such as using braces or ibuprofen. fortunately I decided to look them up on my own almost immidiately after i started documenting my symptoms otherwise these past few months would have been unbearable
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