#thats why i feel like i cant talk abt this with him

[bennitastisch]

im in my first ever relationship and even tho we’ve been going out for 2 years now i feel like i could lose him every day bc my parents kicked me out even tho they promised me they would never do that and now i dont talk to them anymore and how am i supposed to know he wont do the same

#its pretty unfair to compare him to my parents #cause they r fucking cunts and he is lovely #thats why i feel like i cant talk abt this with him #but i feel like he thinks i should have already moved on frim that stuff but it onoy happened less than a year ago #i always thought my parents would come around if i only give them enough space and time #but now they ruined their chances with me forever #and i just feel like trusting someone can only lead to me getting hirt #and it scares me so fucking much #i need therapy so bad but theres no free spaces no one will take me #and i dont have the money to pay for it privately #and i dont have the energy to send an appeal to my healthcare provider for them to pay for the private therapy #bc im fucking done i feel like im at my limit every day #i cant take any more #whenever im upset i immedie wanna off myself #i cant keep going like this much longer #i also dont wanna go to a clinic cause im so easy to manipulate i would just leave there with a benzo addiction #i just really wish i could be different #someone worth being around and not some fucking mess that upsets everyone and is no use to society in any way #i dont want to work it will wreck me #i also cant not work cause that will wreck me #the only solutions for me as of rn (at least what it feels like) is therpy or death and i cant get therpy but im also really scared whatll #happen to my partner when i off myself #cause hes not really stable either and i have no idea what hell do #ben vents #bennitastisch

[luck-of-the-drawings]

my TWO FAVORITE THINGS IN THE WORLD, VAMPIRES N COWBOYS... deacon keller is SUCH a fun character, hes charming and funny but ALSO formidable and STRONG when he feels he needsta be. i hope him and arthur can get a chance to talk more and be better friends. l ike really good friend s. . like. like really good f. hangon i gotta go i think i hauve rabies.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #deacon keller #arthur bennett #OOUGUGHHAAOGUguguhh i feel so cringe whenever i ship two characters. like theyre not even REAL #why cant i be more 'hyperfixated' on getting bitched or something. CHRIST. anwyay i want em to hold hands or smth. yknow. freak stuff. #SO DEACON KELLER!! HE OVERHEARD ARTHUR TALKIN ABT THIS PLACE GETTING ATTACKED.. WE SAW HIM APPROACHING #AND THEN THE WHOLE FEAST PORTION OF THE PARTY HAPPENED N HE GOT STUCK #BUT HE KNEEEWW HE OVERHEARD ARTHUR SOMEHOW!! i just think thats neat. hes dedicated to protecting his people. hes respectable!! #GOD he doesnt even have that much screen time but i LOVE HIMMM n his silly lil shadow steed named Sunshine.. like cmon.... ugh..... #hes sweet n hes funny and he CAARES about the things hes in charge of on some levels. he certainly does his best to look after his own. #god idk what else to write here other than how much hes been on my MMMIND lately. the doctors are still running diagnostiscs #i just think hes so neat... also i think its funny that hes afraid o snakes. OH YKNOW lemme just talk abt my damn art. first o all this too #SSSOOO LONG. WEEKS EVEN.IVE BEEN WORKIN ON IT SINCE EP 5 WAS ON PATREON.it was sposed to be justa buncha doodles but then it Evolved #idk man...cowboys are just so cool...especially w VAMP POWERS..fastest shot in the west for a REASON BABY...n with the red smoke #n the glowing eyes..CMOn thats so cool i hadta get my visions into reality. the eyes were inspired by the music video for RATTLESNAKE (kglw #that where the IM THE SERPENT lines come from.lyrics from tha song.ooh yeah i love kglw so much...i also have other hidden messages here #i like to hide things...ALSO ALSO. I HAD SO MUCH TROUBLE W SO MUCH O THIS. the two bits with arthur n deacon biting eachother. AGONY #POSES ARE SO HHARRDDD SAME WITH THAT doodle o arthur slammin deacons head into the ground. WEEKS to get that pose RIGHT. I BLED SO MUCH #OHH AND GUNS???COWBOYHATS?? HIS GAY LIL JACKET? W THE DANGLIES?? AGOONYYY IT TOOK SO LONG TO PERFECT IT..especialy guns. OUUUHH #i also dont draw mustaches enough... which sucks bc im weak for a good mustache... BUT i think im doing pretty well on that. #it was hard but yknow what!! i think i did good! i rly like how this all turned out!! EXCEPT FOR THA FUCKIN RIBBON BOW THING I FORGOT TODRA #IN THE TOP RIGHT... THAT I JSUT NOTICED...its fine its fine i dont care that much. this is good enough to FEAST upon so im content n happy. #anyway i gotta leave ina few hours to start TRAINING for my NEW JOB!! CHEER FOR ME!! TRUCK IS A BLACKJACK DEALER NOW!! IEAAAHHH BABYYYY!!!! #thanku for reading my weird lil scrolls i bury beneath my posts. if u leave tags i WILL absorb them. and feel joy.

[guideaus]

im also not a fan of how the dad in hgsn goes from being intimidating and yoshiki not having a positive image of him, to the manga kinda presenting him like an awkward goof or sympathetically pathetic? the narrative seems to be babying this adult man, and ditched the initial depiction of his father being cold. i still think his past actions foreshadow things relating to yoshiki and hikaru, but him as a character felt a little annoying in this chapter, like it was a retcon.

yoshiki's mom is repeatedly fed up with the dad for his inaction and refusal to communicate, where he usually throws a tantrum and leaves the conversation, which happens over and over. yoshiki sides with her, and blames him for being embarrassed by neighbors knowing about their relationship troubles.

Here, she might have heard him praise her when he doesnt know she's there, or that he told yoshiki to make sure to tell her, too, but I don't think he does much that deserves a reward (his favorite meal being made), especially compared to his previous actions. In this scene, he doesn't resolve that he'll try to speak/listen to the mom, nor does he say that he should be acting better, so I don't think there's a reason for the mom to feel any less annoyed. In fact, I think if I was the mom, who repeatedly tried to broach important topics to him, he wouldn't step up, and I heard him having the opposite attitude not around me, i'd feel baffled, or at least annoyed, not subtly wanting to reward him for not even doing the bare minimum.

The main conversation is abt him sharing the past, but him suddenly complimenting her felt a little forced, like to make us believe he actually isnt that bad, even though he's not fixing his behavior. There's also no indication at the end of the scene implying him trying to do something different. Yoshiki gets info that he can't get anywhere else, so he's glad for that, and can relate considering the indoh situation and focuses on that, but also i'm not sure how he gets that info in the first place.

Another weird thing about the dad is that him helping Yoshiki is supposed to raise our opinion of him, but I'm honestly not sure why this happens. His main flaw that creates Yoshiki and his mom's low opinion of him is his failure to connect as part of the family, he struggles to speak to his own son casually and can't speak to his own wife (who he apparently won over to convince her to leave her own hometown) about serious issues. Yoshiki is understandably not interesting in engaging with someone who at best can offer some distant small talk, and I can see the mother also being frustrated that he can now share personal info here, when she's been trying to talk to him forever.

here, Dad does the same thing he always does, ask why the topic is being brought up, yoshiki similarly doesn't attempt to provide a reason, and inexplicably the dad continues on as if he's an NPC in a telltale game where the "..." dialogue choice effects nothing. Normally, I'd say maybe if Yoshiki attempted to be vulnerable, in turn the dad might reciprocate, but clearly at this point, the father is not interested in that. I think if Yoshiki actually pressed, the dad mightve felt threatened and resisted more, and yoshiki saying nothing I think... shouldnt have done anything. The father is mentioned to flee eventually after sitting like a scolded child, silently brewing in anger, so I don't really know what brought him out of his room he apparently hides in and made him talking abt what was needed beyond it being necessary for the plot. This is his first actual appearance, so I'm not sure what couldve worked to make him change his behavior, but I feel like I would've taken anything beyond it happening as easily as Yoshiki finding that Gehenna art (it damn near jumping out at him).

His depiction in ch. 25 just feels unfair to yoshiki and his mom's characters at that point. It gives too much leeway to the dad, as if he's not an adult, and almost makes yoshiki's previous feelings towards him feel silly, like "wow, he hates this guy??" and maybe one could point out the bonus comic is a version of his mother who thought his dad was endearingly silly (instead of anything being signs of a problem), but the dad's flaws just arent seriously acknowledged by the narrative. He comes across as both a victim, and a cold authority, which doesnt make sense.

Honestly, it reminds me of the opposite of this dunmeshi comic w laios' father. The father isn't evil, but his lack of communication hurts laios, and the fandom interpreted this as laios being overdramatic bc they compared him to... his sister who thought her mom's crazy tactics to "cure" her daughter were fun. ryoko kui does a good job of making characters complex, and the dad is portrayed objectively here, but mokumoku len definitely makes yoshiki's dad not seem very serious, like we're supposed to think there's smth serious going on, then no, he's just a poor man baby whose scared of his wife

#personal #hgsn spoilers #hgsn #hikaru ga shinda natsu #im not gonna say men cant get abused but i think canonically she wants to speak with him abt their daughter skipping school #and he doesnt have much to say and that frustrates her and he eventually snaps when pressed then leaves. which solves nothing #hes actually the one who was shown to damage things too which is a red flag u cant exactly cover up. #shes not exactly being a scary evil threatening wife by wanting to talk lol. it might be the translation but the wording of 'its scary' #vs 'im scared' makes it feel different? like i get he's being kinda honest but uhhh. thats your WIFE. why are u married bro #its just a very strange perspective? he's somehow pathetic enough to be intimidated (of normal topics that will occur in a family) #but its kinda presented like smth good happened here when the dad's created an incredibly strange situation. wdym ur avoiding ur wife. #and ur son hates that. theres no mention of his relationship w the daughter. the dad offering yoshiki his books is meant to show #a positive in their relationship but its just for the plot atm not their personal relationship. he doesnt actually change there

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Thoughts on baby sasunaru, like academy days where Sasuke realizes ‘shoot, I like this idiot’ after Naruto is carried into the class room laughing by disheveled ANBU who had to chase him around the town for 3 hours.

Anon I've been thinking abt this all day

#listen. i love sasuke a lot. and i see a lot of hate for him and i cant stand it #im obsessed with how sasuke sees naruto. he looks at naruto and naruto makes the world feel less terrible #that is literally canon. but at the same time their dynamic in the academy is so weird bc like they do not talk but they gaze #longingly at eachother. its so weird. so i think to make sense of this i would say that sasuke thinks naruto is fun #he likes his sort of carefree off the walls nature which is something he feels he cant show. i also dont understand sasuke's intelligence #like were told hes smart but he also struggles with the same stuff as naruto. thus i must assign him auditory processing issues/maybe #dyslexia. bc i like to inflict dyslexia upon my faves. and i like the idea of iruka seating them together so that he can give special #attention to naruto and to sasuke with sasuke having to speak up abt it. but thats just me making stuff up. i also like the idea that #sasuke just like blank faced glares so much to cover the fact that he has no idea wtf is happening. like he's super smart but his brain is #on a delay lmao. anyway i just love the idea of sasuke wanting to be a dumb kid doing dumb kid stuff with naruto to the extent that he #forgets his anger. and being 100% on board for narutos stupid ideas #uzumaki naruto #uchiha sasuke #hatake kakashi #umino iruka #haruno sakura #is this the 1st time ive drawn sakura? maybe. i have complcated feeling abt her for obv reasons. bad writing i mean #naruto #also i say sasuke thinks naru is fun. im looking past the fact that they feel eachothers pain. more why do they vibe together personality #wise. does that make sense? maybe idk. i just love them a lot #oh god i wish i could edit my tags at the start to clarify what i mean. but god i dont wanna rewrite this

[bunnihearted]

🐰🌧️

#so on my way home.. #i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :) #you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :) #you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!! #you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u! #whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️ #god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it. #or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!! #not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭 #my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

[schrodingers-romy]

I feel like the world's most petty little bitch <- blocked someone who had an annoying opinion abt a character I like

#tbf the vibes were just off for me... #...ill delete later but like #it was someone complaining abt ppl making choso a 'soft boy' all the time in fics #and i was like well thats valid like in canon we see he has a wide range of behaviors based on who he is interacting with and #their relationship to him #but the way they were talking abt it felt a bit off to me...like they were saying “why cant you let him be masculine?” #and its like. idk if i appreciate u implying that being caring is inherently unmasculine like idk dude #also they mentioned him having a panic attack like it was evidence of him not being 'a soft boy' which is like what??? does that mean??? #hmmm i dont like vagueposting really and i hate being bitchy but i am just Annoyed #delete later #romy can talk #like i am well aware choso was first a villain and had/has skewed morals; i am aware he is insanely powerful and capable of #inflicting death and destruction #but i write him soft (bc i want to) but also bc he IS soft and protective and caring with his brothers #and his violence was mostly born of his care if that makes sense... #so i feel like in better circumstances he shows even more of that care #idk imma stop now but yeah

[marsbotz]

i had a dream i had a beautiful loving friendship with gus fring to match the one where i was besties with mike. im so broken take me BACK!!!!!

#i could FIX him #alsooooo jesse was there i think he like. helped save gus at some point idk #i was like god damn best episode EVARRRR. heartbroken #i dont rlly remember the details i kinda slept like shit so im a bit scrambled #but ik we were fucking around w like.. game code? to make a pet shop? #so fucking random #we made a starfish and fucked up dog. there was a pool. a guy tried to kill gus. OH #he got shot and i had to stop him from bleeding out until the ambulance arrived #also he called. and cus they were super busy he was like ‘i can provide information aboyt felonies. also i have been shot in the chest’ LOL #wtf mike got shot in my dream abt him too. why thats so random #there was also a separate dream abt ummm. idk some sort of puzzle thing we had to do as a team…? saul was there. he set a fire as a scheme #but the fire ppl wouldnt come until he said there were ppl inside 😭 #idk if i ever talked abt the mike dream here actually. #we were just friends…. besties… and he got SNIPED…….. and i tried to save him but he died #it was so sad the next day i was sad like all morning #feels similar now. miss u gus #^^^ EFFECTS OF ZERO FRIENDS #ummm anyway. more updates #i bought a meta quest like on impulse cus i saw they were cheaper now. the thing fucking sucks but vr is so awesome #ive been mostly playing beat saber cus my room is teeny tiny so i cant rlly safely turn #i started making my own map w a patricia taxxon song. SUPER fun i can see this becoming a new hobby #ive also been fucking around in vrchat a little. that shit is mindblowing #so immersive. its like unbelievable #ive only been playing that solo rn bc im shy and also testinb how well my laptop csn hsndle it LOL…. #but its so awesome. i feel like a little kid #i had to get a better headstrap and face pad bc the stock pne is So bad. like i camt wear it for more thsn like 20 mins at a time #so maybe when that comes i will muster up the courage to go into public worlds #best world i have visted so far. udons bird sanctuary. i think irs called #U CAN FEED DUCKSSSSS. WAAAAGHHHH #one day i want to make my own avatar too. im feeling the inspiration

[silverislander]

people smarter than me have said this before but jesus christ why does every job seem to require at least a year of experience and a degree in some hyperspecific field. where did the entry level positions go? how am i even supposed to get experience if none of yall will give me a job without it?

#theres already almost nothing related to my field being offered but even the unrelated things that i think i could try are out bc of this #most of the stuff id actually care abt doing actually require 3-5+yrs! in a field that i cant get into without experience i cant get! #and people talk abt how 'nobody wants to work' i am BEGGING you for a job. literally begging (cover letters). #im coming to the horrifying realization that its possible Nothing i have done w my entire life matters. i have nothing useful #i really feel like i made a mistake. that cant be the best five years of my life i wasnt even happy during most of them #i applied to six jobs weeks ago and ive heard back from one of them and it was a rejection. and theres nothing else to apply to #my degree isnt helping and all of my hobbies are useless. why am i only good at/passionate abt arts. why not math or smth instead #i should have just done ece like i was planning to instead of my honours. what was even the point #and im watching other people in my year get great jobs right out of university. watching my BROTHER get offered work on a silver platter #hes 19 and got five different offers + didnt apply people just asked him to work for them. second year in a row this has happened #hes never had to work for minimum wage. hes always had a good job in his field lined up anytime he wants to work and it always pays well #and i finished five years and ive had to beg for everything ive ever gotten and its still not enough to count for anything #im proud of him but fuck it stings a little #levi.txt #vent tw #oh right i forgot i should just walk in and shake the managers hand. /right/. and they will simply give me a job on the spot bc of this #if people whove been working the same job since before 1990 dont fucking stop giving me bad advice istfg #and these same people say nepotism isnt real and in the same breath talk abt giving their nephew a summer job at their company #literally all i want is work i can be decent at that i care abt and making a living wage. it doesnt have to be fun i dont want to be rich #i just want to do an ok job feel like my work matters and make enough to start my life. thats all

[dockaspbrak]

what the hell

#ok not to be rude but #i sort of cant handle the depression perhaps anymore like it is unending #i dont understand why god cant just give me theability to reanimate the dead or perhaps just do it himself #i miss the little guy i kind of dont know what to even do #i feel stupid bc i feel like its like....people dont really perhaps i just dont think people are that cool about talking abt grief #esp about pets..like #i feel silly for being so depressed but i also cant perhaps handle it #the self loathing is really hitting a peak this week idk like #where do ie ven go from here is my thought i guess i dont really want to be alive or do anything i just miss him so much #he was so sweet and small #i keep getting served videos about like senior 20 yr old cats being surrendered to shelters and like #im so mad like id do anything to have gotten 2 more years with him wht the fuck are you giving them up for #what the hell #its frustrating because ir eally dont want to be comforted or even spoken to about this im just like mad #mad and bargaining clearly i forget what stages those are #depressed yet pissed off also like what the fuck did he do to deserve this it was so fucking fast #cherish your fucking pets. treasure every fucking day #ugh #maybe ill try a different kind of eating again for awhile tbh lets see what thats like in the new context of living w regan #its hard bc its human nature to criticize and correct i think so its hard to feel like i have the space to do what i want? bc of that.... #idk idk

[everythingsinred]

random midnight ramblings but.... its tragic how difficult it is to effectively pull off a jealous!mikan plot in au fanfics, not bc mikan hasnt been jealous (bc she HAS and HOW) but bc natsume is so devastatingly a one-girl-only kind of guy that its hard to put him in a realistic situation where mikan would be jealous in a meaningful way.

like in the sports fest arc, natsume is forced into pretending to date (?) luna. he holds her hand and spends all his time with her, meaning that mikan HAS to confront her feelings in a way she didnt have to before. its a pretty big deal in terms of her storyline, but natsume had to be forced into that situation for it to actually play out. otherwise, he'd never leave mikan's side.

and that's pretty much the biggest problem for fanfic writers who wanna explore that aspect of jealousy: how to realistically have that storyline play out in a world where natsume is not in the da class/a child soldier. how to get natsume, who is ultimately only interested in mikan when it comes to romance, to even glance at another girl without it being forced.

it's very weird to think about and i think it's part of the reason why i've never really liked the idea of natsume having ex-girlfriends who actually meant something. narratively, i'd honestly rather have natsume be a playboy and y'all know i dislike playboy!natsume so much.... at least if it's some sort of ridiculous serial dating without any real feelings involved it stays true to natsume's unique devotion to mikan. i still don't like it but ig if i had to choose...

so yeah it's a weird and tricky situation and i get it, fellow fic writers.... it's so hard. bc i LOOOOVE mikan's jealousy so much but it's so hard to make it come about in a natural way that stays true to natsume's character.

#ig thats why fics just feature a nm-aged luna who is infatuated w natsume for whatever reason to cling to him #i respect that tbh. its really the closest u can get to the vibe of the sports fest arc so it makes sense #besides luna is so flexible u can really make her play any role as long as its antagonistic to mikan #ive read a LOT of ga fanfic #ive been reading gaffn for more than ten years so i know all the tropes! and i feel sorry for us that jealous!mikan isnt easier to produce #when hsau fics say natsume has never been kissed.... yeah u get it. you GET it #general apathy abt romance and dating and then theres mikan! i rly cant see natsume being romantically interested in anyone else #i get he's 10 in the manga but he's forced to think like an adult so its not like mikans problem of immaturity #i could talk abt this forever but im tired so im gonna try to go to sleep #ga #natsumikan #little anya things #gakuen alice

[filmfactors]

why did u dislike stand by me? other than the art style

While you said aside from art style, I'll say it's worse than I thought it'd be. I hate when the characters open their terrible no tooth mouths, they do it so much it's hard to ignore and it's awful to look at. Aside from the uncanny factor though, the backgrounds and scenery look nice.

As for the movie itself, I feel like it just highlights everything I don't really like about the Doraemon series? From the Nobita and Shizuka """romance""", to the weird perverted jokes at Shizuka's expense. I'm also in general not a fan of the 'Doraemon leaves/April Fools' story they used at the end, so I wasn't happy to see it again and in a movie I could care less about.

It doesn't feel like anything changes or progresses, it doesn't make me believe Nobita ever grows to be his own person that can take care of himself, that they don't set anything up for any of the payoff it gives...

They throw in some dialogue about Nobita being depressed, they use sad lighting, and they use tears but they never are actually saying anything meaningful. It just feels like tools to cheat you into feeling sad but it really had the opposite effect on me, I just felt annoyed because the emotional moments do not feel earned.

When Nobita drinks the juice that makes people hate him and Shizuka fights against it to comfort him, that should be a moment that moves you... a triumph and instead I just sit there and don't feel very moved because it didn't feel like there was any progression in their relationship to earn this? Like the idea I like, it's sweet inherently but it doesn't play out in a way that makes me engaged in the story.

Everyone takes a backseat for Nobita's obsession with Shizuka which I think, is the worst thing you could make the focus. I know it's an important part of the plot but I've never liked it, I've already discussed how Shizuka doesn't feel like her own person but just a prize to be won by Nobita in the end... when movies, episodes, etc focus on it so much- it makes me believe in their relationship less and less.

I'm sorry but putting her in a weird outfit for your benefit, trying to force her to fall in love with you via imprinting, up-skirting her in public.... it doesn't make me root for him. Those things in the series have done the opposite of make me root for them, especially contrasted with how Dekisugi treats her. It makes me wonder why on earth she'd pick Nobita in any universe, but specifically this one?

Also something, something... how marrying Jaiko was not the issue and Nobita's misery is his own fault, but yeah sure let's focus on what wife this ten year old gets in the future.

It's especially horrible hearing her say, during the blizzard in the cave, "You need someone to take care of you." As a reason to marry Nobita, as a reason to say yes to the proposal... SHE'S TOO GOOD FOR HIM IN THIS MOVIE! Sorry to say. That is not a wife, that's a mother- it's not love it just feels like pity.

Nobita needs to learn some actual self love and not betting all his happiness on a marriage years from now. Putting all his points into one person for some distant goal is a bad idea, what about the now? What about building bonds with his friends, his family? What about fixing himself as he is now.

I get the point is that somehow earning Shizuka's love will help him, make him a better person, but it doesn't feel like it. It also just feels.... not good. I would talk about the reliance on gadgets instead of self help in any way, but that's always been a thing.

Anyhow, it's a movie that exists for people who are already a fan of the franchise to trick you into thinking it's emotional because your knowledge and feel for the characters already give you depth for them. It feels like it's trying to get cheap and easy tears out of you and I don't really care for that.

It's also a whirlwind of stories I already know, done a bit worse for some in a bad art style. It was doomed to be a movie I don't like. I just can't think of anything positive I felt from it that I couldn't get better in any other Doraemon movie, chapter or even episode.

#doraemon talk #its not even just about how suneo and gian are barely in the movie and how i feel about their contributions #its that the important central focuses of the plot- shizuka doraemon and nobita all just bother me and i cant enjoy it #i didnt even feel a reason for doraemon and nobitas bond in this bc all the moments just blow right on by its just like okay i mean #i can easily imagine why bc i KNOW the series but it doesnt make for a very good movie ykno? #but the shizuka stuff is what gets me down the most its the pinnacle of what i tend to hate about the series sometimes #and it sucks i was rly hoping i could find anything in this movie i like but i didnt #at the very least i appreciate some bits with suneo and gian but thats more so out of them being my faves then liking the movie #nobita feels so bad abt himself its almost suicidal is like... i could relate if it didnt feel so forced in? just a cheap tearjerker #like not saying that isnt interesting IT COULD BE this movie COULD BE good but it feels so... eh #anyways for my final thoughts adult suneos design is bad also bc it doesnt even feel like him and not just bc of the hair #its in his outfit and energy that isnt my boy... #annnnnd young jaiko looks like carl wheezer that isnt a downside i just laughed a rly long time with the friend i watched this with #when they pointed it out to me

[luffysbasement]

hello, i'm finally distancing myself from mcyt :]

it's been really fun!! i loved drawing for everyone, for my interest and esp just interacting with you all. this fandom brought me my friends and different experiences and emotions that are rly unforgettable but i think it's time. thank you for everything, i appreciate you all! ♡♡ pls do stay safe and take care of yourselves!

(my art will remain here ofc but i will most likely be turning this blog into how it was before, multifandom, personal and just a bunch of whatever!)

#the shorter version is the post #ill be here in the tags to talk more :] #honestly im pretty grey on the situation and im just rly waiting for whats gonna happen #thats not why im leaving (mostly) i think its abt time to accept im getting tired of how the experience is of being a drm stan #i loved the man i rly do hes been with me for the entire pandemic him and his videos helped me get through it #but its kind of a bummer that just by being a fan u get exposed to antis and their nonstop scheme of just starting up shit #and that everytime something new comes up you keep hoping its just an accusation but at the same time u feel terrible and anxious anyway #ive alrdy distanced myself from twt and by extension even tumblr bc i thought if i just keep drawing and not looking at my socials those #dramas wont reach me (they still do and it sucks lol but i did get a peace of mind just being free of social media) #at some point i started losing interest in mcyt in general the only thing keeping me was drm not even mccs nor other ccs rly just drm #but then recent thing happened and yeah :/ idk what to think im lost and honestly just tired of stuff like this #thats the final straw i think i dont rly want my mental health tearing up over whether to worry abt things i alrdy stress over abt (w the #college and family stuff) and freaking minecraft youtubers fandom #i think whatever the outcome is im just over it if drm comes out innocent i dont think i can let go of him yet #so ill prob still be checking up on hm and watching him by myself #if not then thats that. #stilli cant deny the fact that it rly has been an amazing two almost three years #i hope you all stay safe and takecare of yourselves ♡ #if anyone still wants to see my art im just hanging out in my onepiece sideblog lol @/luffysbasement

[strwbrymlkshake]

I feel like there's an obsession in me waiting to burst out, but so many horrible things have happened due to that, it's rotting in there. I'm worried.

#mine #yandere #yandere vent #im not even sure if i WANT to be obsessed. its all clouded up in my head nothing makes sense #like my immediate obsessions have migrated from all of them being romance to all of them being plain admiration #which is way way way way WAY better because then no one will think its as creepy. im not a creep. for the love of god #he was such a fucking liar. made me feel safe and then ripped everything out from under me. #OK ANYWAYS thats not the point of this post . i literally cannot tell what my feelings for anyone are anymore. i cant differentiate them #im just waiting for someone to ask me if i Like Him because ive been acting so attached to him but i couldnt give a straight answer. #i dont even know ! yes this vent is caused by a minor inconvenience. ok well its technically bc i wouldnt be able to hang out w him #i dont fucking want to be dependent on him i dont want him to influence my emotions this shit has happened so often it has to be over #still thinking abt the 'you think hes in love with you?? he doesnt even like you' post 💀 #i dont know what my feelings ARE but i know theyre bad ausuaufjfjf i dont wanna be overbearing #im 'less annoying' in the sense i try to barely message him at all. like he doesnt care lol. he probably values me as a friend ig #not sure why im so torn up over this. i doubt we are compatible in the first place but i have the horrible obsession again #i dont feel a particularly strong emotional connection to him ig. like he is nice he is fine but im not insane yandere abt it #more just distressed dere about it –_– i mainly just want him to talk to me and tell me about stuff like thats IT #just respond to my annoying questions. its so sad that im desperate for the bare minimum :/ #genuinely dont know if its a romantic attachment? i feel wrong if i imagine stuff like that. i dont want to be thought of as a freak again #i just want everyone to feel sorry for me!? but no one is gonna wanna hang out with me if im begging for sympathy all the time !!! #i just like his voice and his vocabulary etc a funny guy . but hes my friend so i feel fuckin dirty imagining even mildly romantic things #last time i did that i got called a creep <3 im physically unable to think of that anymore! it feels so disgusting! #im happy because i wont have delusional one sided romances anymore but also upset at the fact i cant imagine situations to make me happy #thats what regular teenagers do. they daydream abt crushes they have. but i cant do that. it feels so horrible #i wanna be like 'omg i love him<3' but i dont know if i do. i really dont know. i cant distinguish love #all my 'crushes' feel like broken watered down messes. they dont make any sense. i want clarity. i want to be healthy for once #i dont know if any of my feelings are real or long lasting ^_^ and if they were they have a 0.0000001 chance of being reciprocated #im not going to lose my mind over this strange feeling again. its happened so many times w so many different people #i ought to be used to it by now! i dont know if i will ever be able to truly be IN LOVE again. im not sure i ever was #💿

[ropemp3]

im like such an idiot highkey like damn

#3.txt #like my dumb ass cought feelings for my situationship and like he doesnt want me obviously #and like im so confused where i stand w him and like everyone keeps asking abt it and like its just so humiliating #cuz like i was talking to one of his friends and he was like so whats gong on between u 2 #and i was pike oh you know jist like fwb nothing serious #and hes like oh why so #and its like im not gonna say its bcs he doesnt fucking like me or want me so i had to just pathetically mumble something out #like fuck me #its like im so stupid and desperate for attention like why did i do this to myslef #and like im so into him it crazy and hes not a bad guy in any way #hes really amaizng its just that im that dumb bitch that cought feelings like fuck meee #i need to find like an actual bf or somwthing and end this shit cuz i cant go on like this #like i dont ever know where i stand w that guy and like #somethimes well be chilling and it will be like were just friends like nothing extra and when we leave ill go in for a hug and hell go for #a handshake but other times ill leave and hell go in for a fucking kiss so like how am i supposed to keep up #like sometimes well hang out and heel be all love dovey other times its like im not even there #like if he just wants to be firends thats fine w me i just wish i had some clarity #cuz like i never know how to act around him #whatever fuck all life i should just kms

[shingogf]

i truly do feel that no one will ever know the real me

#i mean this in a way thats like. yea im usually very much content with this and i actively keep people away cuz of the fear of being known #at the same time i cant help but think how neither my ex or any of the men i ever spoke to or who i'll speak to in the future will get me #and i dont mean this in a im not like the other girls way. i mean this in a theres smth profoundly and deeply and truly wrong with me #and the majority of ppl wont ever care or have enough patience to understand the inner workings of why i am who i am. men specifically #i just have this same thought every single time i talk to a man and he shows somewhat of an interest in me like its either pure carnal want #or hes just interested in making convo and *getting to know me* but in fact they never ever stick around or actively try to know me #my ex included and him especially tbh #.txt #this train of thought has been spurred on by me making an active effort in the last days to talk to more men as if that ever helped me #technically it SHOULD help me cuz i meet new ppl. it doesnt. it never did. i just feel like they all act the same and im stuck in a loop #maybe 1 or 2 friends of mine acc know me other than that none of my family not even my own mom ever knows or cares abt what i really feel #or think or act like etc. let alone potential dates its such a mundane existence #the process of being known is long and heinous and the people required to kickstart it never show enough implication #and most of the times its ok. other times once in a blue moon at nearly 12 am it just feels deeply wrong

[vancilart]

if not your love, at least i have your hate

#the final advent just has a banger song after banger song #god my back HURTS #or my shoulders bc im hunched like a gargoyle #thats a big art piece oof ouch #there should be treats downstairs i should get some #oc stuff #stuff in space #i have a lot of thoughts abt them #they just need a good talk instead of just. vikas rolling over to expose his vulnerable stomach so raven doesnt feel so threatened #man feels threatened about everything #he just cant move past what happened but he really should #but vikas doesnt feel like its his position to tell him to move past it when hes the one who caused it #how do you encourage someone to move on from something you did #but one thing is certain is that they cant keep up with what they have #vikas wants to date and he wants to stay overnight at raven's and make him coffee in the morning and be like it was in the old times #as it is now he cant even talk to herah about his love life and he talks to herah about everything #and if raven isnt comfortable with dating and love and such then why keep trying #let the man heal in peace #vikas would just want to be a support if he cant be the boyfriend but neither is sure if thats possible #and raven is just dealing with all the emotions he never managed properly coupled with the abandonment trauma hes had since childhood #ALSO his health issues which include anxiety and paranoia #vikas is like well if i turned myself in would that bring you closure?? and raven's like noooooo dont do that youd go to prison nooo #he needs and wants support but the only person he can get support from is his ex who betrayed him most brutally of all #and he loves vikas he really does but he wants his love but he also hasnt moved on and doesnt know what to do #its a problem. they need to work on it