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ketchup-monthly · 3 years

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Sanders Sides D&D 2

Ooh fresh take: Jan is virge’s patron and that’s why there’s beef

Also: Jan is some sort of fae related being

Jan: i need you to do something for me Virgil: no Janus: that's not how this works!! Virgil: watch me :P

Okay so I was thinking of Patton as a cleric cuz ooh healer however, Patton as a Druid makes me so happy

I want logan to have Rage

(Also that could tie nicely in an arc about Logan learning to accept feelings)

but barbarian logan is going to be a scholar again and is gonna be smort

bc hes logan. he cant be not smart

Oh I figured he’d be the bbeg that eventually joins the party (hurt/comfort baybee!)(Remus)

he was the bbeg but then joined the party as a bardbarian or just a bard

plus, actual bard who accidentally casts vicious mockery instead of bardic inspiration

Side note: please include a scene where Remus attempts to seduce the dragon

also with this second au, i can start them at like level 5 so people can multiclass

Pat as cleric/druid

gasp logan as artificer/barbarian

janus sorcerer/rogue

because basically everything but alchemist would work well with barbarian, but alchemist feels very Logan

bc mad scientist being actually mad

alchemist logan making an experimental potion and going "here im not sure what this does but im sure its fine! someone drink it"

Remus does it voluntarily, but Logan usually tries to get Roman to drink it

Virgil will occasionally drink it when he's on his last legs and is just like.....100% done with the party

remus as a wild magic path barbarian and just fucking teleporting or doing something equally ridiculous whenever he rages

Oh my god Remus with rage would be a force to be reckoned with

You gotta describe the first time he goes into a rage really dramatically

obviously virgil is trying to "escape" his patron, Janus (really just do whatever he says to not do out of spite)

Eldritch knight roman

Feywild warlock virgil

hey so in the second d&d au, should roman and remus be actual full siblings but like remus went darkside and like romans just trying to get back at him for putting a dark stain on the family name

hey hey hey what about warforged Logan? (essentially a robot)(so like "i dont feel anything" becoming real)

okay hear me out. elf roman and elf base simic hybrid remus. so like maybe the reason remus went darkside was experimentation? so like. hes elf but special

FALLEN AASIMAR VIRGIL

virgil just transforming in the middle of a combat scenario and like his eyes turn into black pits and flightless skeletal wings appear on his back and like everyone near him has to make a charisma check and like he deals extra necrotic damage

Pat is the one human stuck in a band of misfits

so with it, roman would be a full elf, and remus would be an elf that has tentacles bc octopus

So robot logan

i meant literally he doesnt feel anything

like he has all the emotions, but he doesnt physically feel the need to like eat or sleep or stuff like that

he just.....he pretend he don't have the feelings.....but he do.....he feel so much and he hides it all in his littol mechanical heart <3

plus......if he warforged, then like.....AC huge

he stands in front of friends.....he protecc...."no, i don't have feelings, i am physically incapable of affection" but he do!! he do! he take hits for them because he do!! he care so much

Bro he spouts all this and then he uses a reaction to dive in front of someone and everyone’s just like oh

LIKE ROMAN STILL BEING MEAN TO LO BC HE THINKS HE DOESNT HAVE FEELINGS BECAUSE HE DOESNT HAVE A HEART BUT HE DOES

hey hey everyone needs to grow

and logan standing up for himself and other people stepping in and saying no stop thats not right

plus if canon wont give me roman facing the consequences of his actions towards Logan......

but also Roman learning how to properly handle his own emotions and how he interacts with others

logan who doesn't view himself as anything more than a machine to be useful to others

the party giving logan love and affection until he slowly learns his own worth as a person

Roman and Logan not getting along (maybe Roman has a Lore reason to distrust Warforged, maybe not) and slowly learning to trust each other

when Logan is feeling real down or having some issue, Roman actually comes through to help him, showing how far both characters have come

Okay yes but also can we please give Roman more confidence than canon? Like I’m sooooo sick of low self esteem being played for laughs or just being really really sad

this boy is going on a mission and will slap his brother upside the head and tell him to shut tf up remus youre not a monster just come back home and he will do it alone if need be

OKAY SO WHAT IF HE ORIGINALLY WENT ON THE QUEST JUST TO STOP REMUS ONCE AND FOR ALL BC ROMAN THOUGHT HE WAS A MONSTER, BUT ALONG THE WAY, AND AFTER LOGAN, HE CAME TO REALIZE THAT NO, JUST BECAUSE REMUS (AND LOGAN) ARE DIFFERENT, THEY ARENT MONSTERS, JUST DIFFERENT

AND LIKE IN THE FINAL PUSH TO MAKE REMUS JOIN BACK WITH HIS BROTHER, ROMAN IS PROJECTING HIS OWN FEELINGS ONTO REMUS AND EVERYONE IS LIKE WOW BRO YOU GOOD THERE, BUT ITS A BIG MOMENT FOR LOGAN, ROMAN, AND REMUS

im unsure as to how, but it happened when he was an older teen/young adult. a simic scientist either picked him (read: kidnapped), or remus volunteered (potentially to escape court life, unaware what exactly the experiment was going to do to him physically

bc also, remus and roman are royalty

so like. how best to get at the nobes/royalty/rich famous people than by turning their kid into a monster

wait, wait, wait, because i'm lowkey a sucker for this trope, but i'm not sure if it fits Remus: the experiments left him with some fairly significant physical pain/uncontrolled magical reactions. through some combo of trying to deal with that and trying find a cure for his pain, he keeps like....absolutely wrecking random towns on accident but also deliberately wrecking certain places looking for either a) vengeance on the guy(s) responsible or b) someone who can make the pain stop

SO LIKE. WILD MAGIC BARBARIAN DOING WEIRD SHIT TO HIM WHENEVER HE RAGES

AND LOGAN COULD MAYBE HELP WITH THE PAIN AND SHIT

BC ALCHEMY

Yknow, for simplification purposes, we could say the True Bbeg just gave Remus lycanthropy and Remus hasn’t managed to control it yet

lycanthropy but simic shit?

Mr. I-Don't-Have-Feelings sees the poor dude in pain and also Roman in emotional pain from seeing his brother in pain and is absolutely like "i must resolve this like right now, immediately" because he definitely doesn't hate seeing his friend suffering, or his friend's brother whom he's just met

he definitely doesn't relate at all to the idea of someone else shaping your body and absolutely does not sympathize with Remus's plight

i was thinking the grappling thing and either manta glide or the ability to breathe underwater for the simic stuff, but like he doesnt have control over the tentacles yet?

Manta glide seems like we could have fun battle scenes

he just jumps off a cliff to avoid mushy talk/dealing with his actions/roman

Roman: Remus just because you're a monster and though i wish i was an only child-- Remus, jumping off a cliff: byyeeeeee Patton: Roman, look what you did! Virgil: dammit jan what did you do? Janus: why do you think i had anything to do with that? im a fae, not a genie Logan, thinking: what an asshole. i wish i could do that

oh my god Logan always being tired mentally bc he cant sleep

Oh my gosh I love that. So Remus got kidnapped super young, (from royal family) they never found him, as a result Roman had to grow up super fast (side effect: lowkey inconsiderate and forgets to ask for others input). Meanwhile, Remus was experimented on by True Bbeg and came out with some trauma and super cool additives

yep! chronic pain and ptsd and all sorts of other shit!

so like, simic hybrids are usually created when they're adults. but what if the true bbeg decided to go younger to see what would happen, and thats why remus has chronic pain and stuff

he was still growing when his genes were spliced, so hes dealing with growth plates shifting and his body maturing and puberty and body changes and stuff

Pat is going to have a lighthearted story. Im saying that now. Hes the one without all the baggage

Sure, but his parents have to lowkey be the really kind people who are surprisingly always down for violence

everyone: multiple crises Pat: y'all need help Pat: love and affection in spades for his little band of misfits

Patton (which I think would be pretty simple, honestly he might just see danger and jump in and suddenly everyone in the party has Feelings)

Logan

Mhm. So how did he grow up? Was he just poof created? Wait

What if he was created by the king?

To make up for remuss disappearance

wait, wait....angst......he was created to fight (hence the barbarian stuff) but alchemy is his real passion

wait so like. a second son???

hes there to replace remus?

Yea! (But like in a sympathetic grief way) But that causes a bit of a complex in Roman and ergo Roman and Logan have a bit of a beef

okay so like. hes there to be a companion for roman, and like take remus' place, even though hes not actually in line for the throne?

LOGAN AS A KNIGHT

and just......the conflict of being created for a specific purpose (plus being, you know, robot and technically incapable of deviated from said purpose) vs the fact that he actually does have independent consciousness and like....wants to live life for himself

the parents made Logan a barbarian in hopes that him and Roman would be safe

okay. so logan was created by the king with the sole purpose to take remus' place as romans brother/companion, and to be his like guard? protector? and fight, but logan wants to be an alchemist and study shit

wait, wait, wait.....thinks about Asimov's Laws

he.....his first operative is protect (specifically protect Roman)

oh man. so hes literally just a shield

his second level operative is just like.....care for Roman's emotional well-being, but he doesn't really know emotions because he was kinda just spawned and nobody told him how

and he just....kind of....lets Roman treat him like garbage and take all his grief out on him because he's staunchly in denial of both having feelings or knowing how they work

Anyway Yea so Logan created by royal family in place of Remus which created angst between the two “brothers” and identity issues in Logan. Their arcs are learning how to healthily process emotions plus Roman apology and Logan commits to alchemy

So big question: why did virge make a deal?

Tricked

he gave janus his name

and instead of janus like killing him or whatever the fae do to people who break the rules of dealing with the fae, jan was like. hey. i'll give you magic, but do what i say

Janus is lawful neutral, but leans towards being selfish

hes self serving, but he has a strong set of morals and rules he follows

Tho I want to Virgil to also not be pushover so let’s say loophole happened and Jan has to stay with virge (hence why Jan is a part of the party)

okay so a couple of the rules are dont give a fae your true name and don't try to figure out their true name

what if virgil accidentally gave up part of his true name, and got stuck in the deal, but then figured out janus' true name

so in the same vein that janus had control over virgil, virgil now has more control over janus

he still gets his magic from janus, so he cant break free completely, but virgil has more freedom and can occasionally tell janus what to do or when to shove it

there should a running gag where virge can explain how he learned Jan’s true name but Jan can make something loudly censor him every time

(he learned his name bc once he heard janus practicing his evil genius voice and talking to himself in the mirror and janus said his true name)

so maybe janus sent virgil on the quest to protect a town or stop something related to remus, but virgil dragged him along

he might just be trying to protect a town thats close to a ley line, or something fae-related, and they just happen upon the whole thing

janus is selfish. but lawful vs chaotic is where he comes through, in morals vs doing whatever. janus has a strong set of loyalties to the fae, and to himself

so like....Remus is just too close to Jan's stuff and he wants to take him down

Virgil is just like....exhausted and said "fine, but if i gotta do this, you're coming, too"

or at least figure out a way to protect his place, even if it doesnt mean fully taking out remus. just moving him would work for jan

Janus: virgilllllllllll hes going to mess up my magic storage locker Virgil: Jan, its empty Janus: but its mine

Yea. Remus attacks a city away from the fae: Jan: Yknow I’m gonna sit this one out Virge: oh no you don’t, get up

Janus vs Janice

so his real name is Janus, but Virgil calls him Janice

Virgil: This is Janice Janice: with a “U-S” Virgil: mhm, sure Jan

I'm a big fan of just like any of the old theory name being various aliases for Jan

Damien, Dante, Ethan, Declan, etc, etc

#ss d&d 2

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torinofushi · 3 years

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So typically I don't write down my opinions to things because I wish to keep my analytical thoughts to myself....however I feel compelled to comment on Yashahime.

Now I grew up with Inuyasha and it was a cornerstone of anime, like it was to many people, growing up. Though to be fair it had some issues of its own....the amount of filler episodes and flashbacks were a bit on the heavy side, but it also had characters that we wanted to know more of. To this day Inuyasha himself has always had a special place in my heart because of how complex he is emotionally.

Now as an adult and a writer...we had Yashahime. Where when I saw the first title card I wanted to know who the children's parents were. I honestly thought at first Towa and Moroha were InuKag daughters and Setsuna may have been a Miroku/Sango or hell even Kohaku daughter........ thaaaaat wasn't the case.

To where will get to the elephant in a room here in a moment but some thoughts on the girls themselves.

Towa: She does in her earnest seem to be a sweet character, however muddled a bit where at first she is this rough and tough "human" that can't stick to schools and then suddenly mellows out when she finds her sister? She didn't even super respond to the fact she's half demon....like I would have thought she'd be more shocked since in her new home there are no demons. She just seems a little too focused on her sister....to the point her own character writing seems diminished to me, but she has potential! First episode where she is talking about keeping the future secret was a cool angle......then idea gets scrapped with her handing out candy and whipping out her smart phone??

Setsuna: I am a bit more intrigued by her because she does have some mystery, but more importantly she has her own character and personality compared to her sister. She actually has had some development which feels minimal at 15 episodes in for the series right now. She seems to have traits of her father where I can hardly see any of that with her sister, but she genuinely grows and adapts to caring about Moroha and Towa.

Moroha: I will admit I've stayed this long watching it solely because of this child. She has both her parents traits, I love it when she talks like her father once did. She's something entirely new, I don't think we ever had a quarter demon in the original series. However I HATE how they use her like an exposition bomb. I HATE they don't show all of her emotions! Hell she doesn't even show sadness in not knowing her parents after meeting her uncle or realizing that her two new friends are actually her cousins?! She's focused on the bounties which we still don't know why completely, but we do know why she was separated from her parents now. I wish they'd make her the focus more than the twins because yes the twins are older, let's face it Moroha is keeping the fans in. I think she has great potential and her and Setsuna are by far the most interesting to me...

ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM.......SESSRIN

Okay so folks won't lie when I was a wee weeb with the original series I thought that when Rin was grown up (18-20 because in the US thats the fictitious maturity cutoff) she would fall for Sesshomaru as Izayoi did for InuTaisho/Toga. That was when I was younger and thought honestly more likely than that Rin would become an ally to Sesshomaru or perhaps the one to soften his heart and he found a DIFFERENT lady love that was human because of Rin's past kindness. That didn't happen.

Everyone on the internet is commenting and doing math in regards to Rin being the twins mother to which as an almost 30 year old woman I got some thoughts here.

1) With the math, previously the internet said she would be 11 with Inuyasha Final act....however because of people frantically editing I don't know if this is at the beginning or END of Inuyasha where there was a 3 year time skip. So I will give her a range of possibly being 11-13 at the end. Now fast forward to Yashahime episode 15 and she's having twins...Sango's son Hisui is who we are using as a yard stick to the passage of time. I thought he looked young maybe 2-3 however according to his wiki he's 4 years older to the Yashahime girls. So with wiki number it would make Rin 15-18 when she had the twins........

2) People this is a lose lose situation writing wise because if they show her childlike infatuation with Sesshomaru never stopped before she had these girls then that's grooming/groomed behavior or even victim blaming. If they show Sesshomaru showing interest with her in that sense as she got older that's pedophilia. Yes, I know this was back in Japanese feudal era where it was common to marry at 16-25, yes I know that my culture has its own perspective on predatory behavior and these are two individuals that aren't American or even human, and yes I know that this development hasn't even been fully explained in the series but gods the writing has been atrocious so far and I doubt this will save them.

3) the original series has Kagome age 15 have to deal with propositions and proposals and such where she, as a catalyst for the audience with views closer to our own than a feudal Japanese citizen, was appalled and typically played for laughs. Here in Yashahime they actually DID THAT. Which I don't blame people for being wigged out and disgusted...like what the.... the show itself had a tendency to overexplain EVERYTHING but can't explain the dynamics or progression of what the hell happened here? Because from our/audience perspective it's basically written as "Well she's having kids now." Even Sango, Kagome, and Kaede aren't reacting to anything with this.....not when they had news she was giving birth, not when Sesshomaru shows up, or hell TAKING the girls?!?! The hell is going on???

In short to this rant, Yashahime I think your writing has you in a chokehold. You keep going from explain things only for the audience to know to explain things only for the girls would know which is confusing what your goal/pacing is. Either trust your audience or go full hold our hands, make up your mind. You go into retcons and writing new backstory to important items for the sake of the plot....its a mess.

Old characters used for publicity rather than letting the new characters capture the audience. Honestly if you rearranged your episodes it would have seem more authentic though again good luck with that elephant in the room, its going to turn many fans away.

I don't know guys. I'm not too hopeful they can save themselves at this point. Thanks for reading.

#yashahime #yashahime spoilers #potentially triggering #review #moroha #sesshomaru #setsuna #yashahime towa #inuyasha #writing issues

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littlebigafterdark · 3 years

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I'm feeling in a particular mood for some more Logan stuff, (totally not my comfort character who unfortunately is a medium for a lot of angst /s) so maybe the almost-relapse?

the littles accidentally trigger logan's ED (janus and patton help him thru it)

This is a copy pastd from a really long message i sent to liv a few weeks ago, just in case the grammar is weird or somethin!

oOo

context: whenever roman is a brat and refuses to eat dinner, logan gets noticeably more frustrated than with any other bratty behaviour because it hits too close to home to his eating disorder

so...

one day when patton is out somewhere, maybe at his carpentry class ((thats actually slightly spoilers for a big concept for the main blog lol)), logan has both the littles

and roman is bratty and refuses to eat dinner and logan breathes evenly and tries not to worry abt it bc he KNOWS roman always eats, hes just doing it to be annoying, breathe, he isnt actually restricting its ok

and logan was literally holding the baby fork up to vees mouth and suddenly she giggles and pushes it away

"come on baby, yummy time" logan coos and smiles a little but he doesnt feel it, and with his other hand he tickles lightly under vees chin and she giggles and logan smiles and goes to feed her again

but she pushes the fork away and babbles "mo bima!"

and roman laughs "yeah, no dinner! no dinner!" and bounces

and logan is feeling rlly shaky and hot suddenly and swallows thickly and ignores roman, and keeps looking at vee "princess, please open up," trying not to pay attention to how shaky his voice is. "its papa's spaghetti remember? yummy" he nods enthusiastically and goes to feed her again

but again vee just giggles all squeaky and pushes the fork away and looks at roman with a big smile for his approval. and roman is like "yeah vee! rebellion!!!" still so playful

but he hasnt noticed logans chest is heaving a little and hes staring at where vee pushed the fork away and logan was too shaky not to drop it on the floor.

and he looks up at vee and how small she is and how shes genuinely on the lower end of average weight and they need to make sure she doesnt dip down into underweight and thinks about how terrified he is of the idea that if she did develop an ED like he did it would be so dangerous and he cant see his baby go through that and-

it just hits him so so so harshly and hes suddenly crying and roman and vee freeze and look at him. and he hurriedly wipes away his tears and breathes shakily and tries to say again

"vee pl-please just ea--" and his throat closes up, he cant even say the word 'eat' and he gags on his tears and jumps up from his chair to run out to the downstairs bathroom and locks himself in trying to calm down and stop gagging.

and he can hear vee crying and roman - adult now - promising her its okay, mama feels a bit sicky but everythings okay, lets phone nana, its ok baby

and logan is breathing too fast and shaking and crying with his back against the bathroom door, not gagging anymore, but unable to take himself outside

. he hears roman feeding vee, and vee giggling and clearly enjoying the food, but no matter how comforting that is to hear he cant get over that genuine terror he felt when vee refused to eat, its his worst nightmare for vee to develop disordered eating - for any of them, but vee is already very thin and it could be critical, and logan cant get over that

when janus arrives (barely ten minutes later, he must have jumped in the car straight away which is only used for emergencies bc of janus' partial blindness) he speaks quietly to roman, and of course theyre trying to be subtle

but the kitchen is only across the hall from the bathroom and logan hears every word of roman explaining what happened and how confusing it was and how patton wont be home for another forty five minutes and roman didnt want either vee or logan to be alone but they probably shouldnt be around each other right now since vee gets so upset when the others arent happy

roman tries to talk to logan first through the bathroom door, apologising for misbehaving and promising he wont do that again. but can logan tell him what exactly was so bad about it this time? so roman can not do whatever it is in future.

but logan cant bring himself to say anything. he cant tell roman about this at least not yet he hasnt felt ready yet even if its been years and he doesnt know if he ever will be ready to tell roman about his ED

so after realising logan wont talk to him, roman swaps with janus. janus doesnt know the details but he knows theres something about logan and eating and hes made an educated guess from all the fibs hes heard over the years.

"hey, dic" (janus' unsavoury nickname for logan that he insists is just short for dictionary) "do you need a glass of water?"

logans throat is actually dry from hyperventilating and he says with a quiet scratchy voice through the door "yes please"

and when janus brings it to the door he just knocks gently and when logan opens the door to accept it janus doesnt make any comment on logans messy hair where hes run his hand through it or on his glassy red rimmed eyes or on the tremble of his fingers. but he does say "i know it must be so cozy in there" he nods to the cramped cold bathroom "but you might just prefer it in your room"

logan flushes a little and nods, comes out of the bathroom and heads to the stairs, but he pauses at the bottom of the stairs thinking... he doesnt know if he can be trusted alone upstairs. theres another bathroom up there and the gagging has made his stomach churn and he feels FULL from dinner and if only he emptied it then maybe he would feel better right? .... no

so he rasps without turning back to janus "i... i cant be alone"

"look behind you, idiot" janus says and its far closer than logan remembered him being.

he whips his head round to see janus was following closely behind him. janus raises a pierced eyebrow "well, are we going to stand in the stairway all night?" and of course its snarky but its soft too

so logan breathes deeply and they go upstairs to his room. janus makes himself at home, immediately grabbing a book from logans book case and collapsing sideways in logans armchair as soon as they stepped in the room. logan reclines on his bed and sips his water and does breathing exercises and tries to not feel humiliated about this breakdown

every time logan tries to apologise for disturbing janus' evening (he didnt) or asks if janus is sure roman is grownup enough to look after vee appropriately (he is) or insists that he is okay to be left alone now (he's not) janus just murmurs "shut up im reading"

when patton gets back roman just tells him logan isnt feeling good and patton hurries up to see him - and upon seeing his husband logan is overcome by shame that he almost relapsed and relief that his best friend is here and a wave of tears that he tries and fails to blink away

and janus just quietly bids them good night and promises he'll stay a couple hours to keep roman and vee company, but patton insists he stays the night in pattons room (its not safe for him to drive in thr dark) and janus is used to this routine by now that he knows where the spare pillows are

so janus leaves quietly and logan croaks "thanks, old man" trying to sound casual but regretting it when his voice shakes. janus just holds up a peace sign and closes logans door behind him on the way out.

as soon as the door closes logans face crumples and he hides his eyes behind his arm and patton practically bounds over to logan and climbs onto bed next to him and cradles logans head to his shoulder as he cries

they stay like that, cuddling in bed, patton cradling logans head and kissing the nape of his neck and wrapping his arm around logans waist to spoon him and whisper about what happened and how they can avoid it in future

but mainly they just breathe and cry together and patton fills the hours with soft affirmations of love and getting logan a tea and promising its okay if logan wants a cookie with it but logan says maybe later (later turns out to be 2:30 in the morning but at least it really was later)

they barely sleep that night but its all comfort and talking and by morning despite being exhausted, logan feels safer and breakfast goes by without a hitch

oOo

just some notes me and liv made that i think highlights some main points:

logan struggling so much even when he knows that the kids are just playing around and they don't really mean that they don't want to eat, but it's just one of those things that inevitably hits too close to home

it just suddenly hit him! like any other day he can cope with roman doing that, its a small blip usually, but the fact that VEE started refusing food freaked logan out so much bc they genuinely have to keep an eye on her weight just bc shes naturally so small

his emotions about his history with an ED plus his overprotective mama cg space making him nearly go into a panic attack from the thought that vee could develop an ED is very sad and very true

and janus coming right away!! and he and roman handle the siatuation so well, like roman was so smart knowing not to leave logan alone, and janus calling him dic and taking him to his room and staying there until patton gets back

and him crying from just seeing patton because he's his best friend and he can be vulnerable around him is very :'c <3

hes so so relieved to see patton but theres also the slightests "ive let my husband down" bc he thinks bc patton helped him so much he owes it to patton to not relapse - but of course pat reassures him its natural to relapse but he didnt! he caught it in the early stages and asked for help and patton is never disappointed in him

he caught it!!! he caught it and he stopped himself and he let himself be helped by both roman and janus and patton and he didn't even relapse!! and this whole thing is really a sign of how far he's come that he was able to accept their help in his vulnerable state, even if roman and janus didn't have the full story, they still wanted to help him through whatever he was experiencing

#mama logan #little big eating disorder #do not reblog #long post #asks #adorable undead queen #little big after dark concepts

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moistmailman · 5 years

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House Wife AU part 4

Roman, on the phone: Okay Cindie, you need to learn how to relax and trust us. Just enjoy your anniversary with Pyrrha, and stop calling me non stop to check up on your kids. They’re safe.

Cinder, growling: Well I’m sorry for being worried about my kids being with one of the dumbest people I’ve known.

Roman: Now that’s just offensive. Mercury’s not that bad. He has his smart moments, and he’s honestly pretty good with kids. He’s playing patty cake with Tro-

Cinder: I meant you, dipshit!

Roman: What!? How can you even say that!? I am a master con artist! I’m a genius.

Cinder: I once saw you get swindle out of 60 dollars from a Girl Scout.

Roman, offended: Okay you know those Girl Scouts are persistent! Nobody can win with Girl Scouts! They are on a whole new level than anyone!

Cinder, groaning: Oh my god. I can’t believe this is the man whose watching my kids. What was I thinking!? I need to get home right now!

Roman: What!? No! Don’t! For god sake, enjoy your damn anniversary like a normal woman would! We have everything under control! Spend time with Pyrrha alone with no kids to distract you for the weekend. It’s literally just you, Pyrrha and a bed. This weekend should be amazing for you two, unless you keep interrupting it by calling me non stop! So at least TRY to be calm.

Cinder, sighing:.......okay, fine. I’ll try.

Roman: Great! Proud of you, you’re acting like an actual human being right now.

Cinder: But so help me god, if anything happens to my angels; ANYTHING! There will be no place on earth where you can hide from my wrath. I will literally raise the deepest and darkest depth of hell on to you, and I will flare you alive! Do you understand?

Roman, unfazed: Yep, pain, death, and suffering. Got it loud and clear. Have fun. *hangs up*

Mercury, playing patty cake with Troy: Who was that?

Roman: Who do you think? Mama bear wanted to make sure her cubs were alright is all.

Mercury: Really? What did you tell her?

Roman: I told her to relax and that we have everything under control. There’s absolutely no problem here. *looks at Achilles* Isnt that right, little man?

Achilles: Uncle Roman? I have a question.

Roman, fake tearing up: *sniff* You see that. Called me uncle Roman. I’m so happy. This weekend is going to be a breeze. What’s your question, squirt?

Achilles, looking up at Roman: Is my Mama a criminal?

Mercury, wide eyed:...........

Roman, wide eyed:...........Uh...Mercury, word in private please?

*Roman and Mercury walk into the kitchen*

Roman, Whispering: Okay, we have a giant problem.

Mercury, whispering: What do we do!?

Roman, panicking: I-I don’t know! I didn’t anticipate this! Things went south SO fast. That was like a throat punch to me! I’m panicking!

Mercury: I know! What kinda kid ask a question like that anyway!? They’re supposed to ask stupid questions, like why is the sky blue, where do babies come from, what’s your favorite Pokémon, how do mermaids pee? This isn’t a kid question!!! This is an interrogation question!!! I wasn’t prepared for this! This was NOT in the baby sitter handbook I read! Nothing in that book told me what to do in this situation!

Roman: Okay one, the Pokémon question isn’t a dumb question, mine is Greninja. Two, there’s a baby sitter handbook? And three, what the hell are we going to do!? How much does that boy know in there!? What if he has follow up questions!? If we mess this up then Cinder is going to butcher us!! I don’t want to get butchered! I’m too handsome and charming! I’m not supposed to die like that!! I’m supposed to die surrounded by beautiful women!!!

Mercury, pacing: Okay Okay Okay. Stop freaking out! We aren’t going to get butchered. Maybe it’s not so bad? I mean, maybe they already know? That’s a possibility, right? I m-mean, Cinder’s a straight forward gal, so is it really unlikely that her kids know about their mother’s *ahem* ‘occupations’? A-and maybe he asked that question in the first place because he’s a d-dumb kid who asks dumb questions.

Roman: Are you really suggesting that Cinder, a woman who we didn’t even know was married and has kids until 4 months ago, despite knowing her for 2 years, would tell her children that she’s a god damn criminal!? Did you REALLY suggested that!?

Mercury: DONT JUDGE ME! I’M GRASPING FOR STRAWS MAN! IM DESPRRATE! I FEEL AS IF IM ABOUT TO HAVE A PANIC ATTACK! I DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW! MY MIND IS IN A PANIC! I FEEL LIKE IM FALLING OUT OF REALITY! *starts shaking Roman* YOU GOTTA PULL ME BACK IN, MAN! PULL ME BACK IN!

Roman, slapping Mercury: PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER MAN! FREAKING OUT WONT HELP ANYONE!

Mercury, rubbing his chin: Ow, What!? *slaps Roman*

Roman, rubbing his cheek: Ow you little- *slaps Mercury* Don’t slap me!

Mercury, slapping Roman: You slapped me first!

Roman, slapping Mercury: I slapped you because you were freaking out! Be a bigger person!

Mercury, slapping Roman: No! I don’t want to!

Roman: *slaps Mercury*

Mercury: *slaps Roman*

Roman, going for a slap but stops abruptly: Wait, what the hell are we doing!? We are in a crisis and are turning on each other! We need to figure something out right now! We are all we have at the moment!

Mercury: Okay, you’re right. We need to stop this. Let’s put our heads together and think of something. We’re two mature adult that can settle this. *starts thinking*

Roman:..........*slaps Mercury*

Mercury: You little piece of....

*meanwhile*

Troy/Achilles, listening to the constant slapping noises from the kitchen: ???????????????

*Both Roman and Mercury walk into the room with red cheeks, one of them whispering “I won that fight.” While the other saying “You did NOT.”*

Roman, crouching down: Okay kiddo, uh......can you explain to us why you think your mama is a criminal?

Mercury: Yeah, because we really need to know so we can tell your mother about it. So please tell us.

Athena, innocently: Because I once saw Mommy putting Mama in handcuffs one time in their room.

Mercury:..........

Roman:...........come again?

Athena: I once walked into Mommy and Mama’s room, and Mommy was putting Mama into handcuffs in bed. Mommy was saying something about how mama was a bad girl and needed to punished, but I didn’t know what mama did to upset mommy.

Roman:...........

Mercury:.........

Athena: Is my mama a criminal? Did she do something wrong?

Roman:...........*bursts out laughing* YOU SAW WHAT!? OH MY GOD! I CANT BELIEVE THIS!

Athena: What? What’s funny?

Mercury, awkwardly: N-nothing. A-and Uh...dont worry about your parents either. None of them are criminals, especially your mama.

Athena: Really?

Mercury: Yes.

Athena: Oh. Okay then. *starts playing with his toys again*

Mercury, sighing in relief: Oh my god. That was much easier than I expected. I was freaking out there for a second. I was absolutely terrified. How are you doing over there, Roman? Are you okay.......Roman? Are you listening?

Roman, on the phone: *laughing* WELL HEY THERE, CINDIE! IM SURPRISE THAT YOU COULD ANSWER THIS! I THOUGHT YOUR HANDS MIGHT BE CUFFED ON THE BED AT THE MOMENT!

*Mercury hears very loud and angry shouting on the other line*

Roman: THATS RIGHT! I KNOW! WHO WOULDVE THOUGHT THAT YOU’D BE INTO THAT STUFF, YOU ‘BAD GIRL’!? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

*Mercury hears even more angry and loud shouting on the other line*

Roman: OOOOOOOH, IM SO SCARED! HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO KILL ME WHEN YOURE HANDCUFFED, HUH!?

Mercury:........kids, this might be the last weekend you will see uncle Roman alive.

#rwby #pyrrha nikos #cinder fall #pyrrha x cinder #pompeii rwby #destiny #rwby destiny #mercury black #roman torchwick #rwby house wife au #just in case its not obvious #mama is cinder and mommy is pyrrha

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warmau · 7 years

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heey first of i just wanted to say that you're like literally my favorite blog no joke i love love your writing like i cannot stop smiling whenever im reading your stuff and as your friends to lovers thingy is one of my favorites i was wondering if you could do one with taehyung?? thaanks 💙

find: jin | jimin | namjoon | jungkook | yoongi

you and taehyung have always been messes,,,,but cute messes together

you technically became friends in detention ,,,,,,

taehyung had been sitting at the back of the classroom with silly string all over his hair and shirt ,,,, he’d brought a can to school and accidentally sprayed himself and the gym teacher

and you,,,,well you had gotten into an argument that had ended in a food fight and there was probably still some cold cheese from a pizza that was flung at you in your hair

but,,,,,,with mutual understanding you and taehyung had just grinned and gone “that’s what you’re in here for? cool!”

the teacher who was supposed to be guarding you and making sure you were doing homework had flaked in the middle to go gossip in the hall so you and taehyung had moved closer discussing if it would be good to make a break for it or not

you thought maybe using the silly string as a distraction could work but also taehyung wasn’t looking to get expelled so you’d decided instead that peeking out the door till the teachers backs were both turned you two would dash down the hall for freedom

and you did,,,,,,,,you were just a tad slower and taehyung had grabbed your hand and pulled you along through the doors as the sound of the teacher drowned out behind you

after that,,,,you two became inseparable

and sure it had a lot to do with you both loving practical jokes and being free-spirited but it also had to do with just,,,,,how you got each other without words

just looks and smiles and inside jokes,,,, and you never making fun of taehyung in anyway because no matter how people saw him

taehyun is smart and caring and you knew that,,,just like he knew that about you

and growing up you guys got out of pranks and skipping class and just became more into going to live concerts late at night and staying up past 4 am to set of fireworks on the beach with other friends you’d made as you got older

and ,,,, it stayed nice and carefree but you were also adults now so,,,,you had to be there for each other not just for laughs but for serious things as well

and one day taehyung confides that he’d like to be a singer and you support him one hundred percent but before an audition he decides he wants to dye his hair to stand out

“what color are you thinking?”

“,,,,,,,you’re going to laugh but,,,,,,,orange”

you look at taehyung like are you being serious but you can see the twinkle in his eye and you’re like ok orange it is let’s make you into a walking flaming dorito

and it was ur first time,,,,bleaching and dying someones hair,,,,but taehyung for some reason trusted you

even though you were the two kids who thought itd be smart to throw water balloons over a huge spiked fence in highschool ,,,,, but hey friends trust friends,,,,,,,,right?

and so with paper towels everywhere and you standing behind taehyung in your tiny bathroom,,,you managed to get him in an old t-shirt with gloves on your hands and spreading bleach over his hair

and every minute or so he’d whine that it stings and you’d be like suck it up kim we have another half your head to go

and taehyung would mumble that you should at least try to distract him and you would go do u want me to focus so i dont get bleach in ur eye or what

taehyung: point taken

and when you’d finally got him blonde,,,you could start on getting him orange

and tbh taehyung was like “you should dye your hair too,,,let’s be matching!” and you were like if i ever am feeling the baby carrot hair look ill tell u and taehyung rolls his eyes and ur like hey i can see u in the mirror dude

and he sticks his tongue out and ur like im holding the life of ur scalp in my hands do not test me

,,,,,but when you were done,,,,, taehyung closing the door to wait before taking a shower you’d spread out on your couch tired of standing

and half an hour later your friend walked out, after you hear the dryer turn of,,,,,,his orange hair as bright as possible,,,,,and you cannot help it

walking over and ruffling your hands through his hair

smiling and going “i did a good job,,,,its so cute!!” and somehow you cant stop yourself from adding “your hair is so soft too,,,,”

and taehyung,,, letting you run your hands through his hair,,,,brings his fingers up to wrap around your wrist and he gently pulls them so you look at him

and,,,,,,even with a hair color not many can pull off,,,,,,you see how it falls into taehyungs eyes

makes your friends naturally gorgeous skin shine,,,,,,eyes slightly hooded and lips parted

and you are used to being this close to taehyung,,,,but in the quiet moment in your living room with his body so close to yours you can feel the warmth of his presence

your heart cant calm down

and taehyung seems to feel it too,,,,,,u didn’t know just dying someones hair could mean getting so intimate but thinking on it

the whole thing,,,,,seemed like such a couple thing to do,,,,the standing behind taehyung and fixing the back of his shirt so it wont get dirty,,,, wiping sweat from his forehead and stray dye,,,,giggling and joking and having taehyung threaten to tickle you if anything

like sure friends could do all of this too,,,,,but taehyungs grip on you ,,,, his eyes,,,,,,, something now was different

and just one more inch and you can feel his cheek brush yours,,,, the long bangs tickling you and then his lips,,,,,

settle just at the corner of your mouth,,, like the almighty funny and carefree taehyung is nervous to kiss his bestfriend on the lips

and when you pull back the two of you are silent but taehyung walks you back against the sofa and it’s like,,,,natural for you two to fall back in each others arms

your hand coming up again to run through his hair and taehyung whispers

“i think we’ve always been a couple,,,,neither of us just said anything,,,”

you nod,,, pressing a bit closer and going “but to be a singer,,, we’re gonna have to keep pretending it’s just friends”

taehyung leans down pressing his forehead to yours and grinning “well we’ve convinced everyone thats just what it is but for now - we’re alone and im going to kiss you some more”

“ok carrotcake kim”

“don’t spoil the moment”

#bts scenario #bangtan scenario #taehyung scenario #v scenarios #member: v #sfw #bangtan scenarios #bts imagines #Bangtan imagines #bts au #bangtan au #taehyung au #taehyung imagine #bangtan #taehyung #kim taehyung scenario #v imagines #ive had this idea for a while actually 0:

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xelere · 6 years

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tw long rant cus i need to breathe

wow the fight i had with dad that made me depressed af.... i had it now with my white brother and his wife and partly with my mom too

they talked abt having their kids kidnapped would be the worst and i jokingly said ”haha thats me” cus i need to deal with it

and my brother starts to lecture me and then just completely insensitive says ”but werent you abandoned on the streets i dont think china-” oh here we go again

my kind but weak mom goes; ”no actually a police station” as if that was any better??? she has NEVER stood up for me, no one has. maybe she wants to and agrees with me cus shes the smartast in our family but she never had the GUTS to and the same for my other brother they be agreeing or at least UNDERSTANDING and maybe RESPECT me a little but nor enough to ever have mt back those fkn pussies

then we start to fight and i start to cry again cus im so FRUSTRATED AND ANGRY of having a white family and i CANT EVER REST I CANT REST ANYWHERE WHERE IS MY FUCKING SAFE SPACE CAN I BREATHE

and then his wife goes ”but linn.... now im getting angry you cant just accuse him of being subtle racist!!” and shes always quiet an i always thought she was lile smarter than my stupid brother but obviously.... not

and i just give up.... im a fcking minority in my own family. not to get too personal but my little sister would never have the guts to do this cus shes afraid of conflicts. i ALWAYS have to shut the fuck up in family reuinions. and just because i came with trauma, i was an angry and anxious baby, always screaming and thanks to that being labelled as ”problematic and annoying and angry” by everyone who didnt know how to handle me - thanks to that people STILL think they have the right to silence me. im a grown ass woman, im fucking 19 years old and everyone in my family still rolls their eyes at me and goes ”but linn....”

im so fucking tired. im so fucking tired. and i say that. i tell them im tired and that this is why i want to die cus thats exactly why and my brother starts to laugh and like.... accuse me and shit for not ving grateful cus he wants ro defend mom or smth like.... excuse me youre her fucking biolocigal son you have your own fkn mother right here and everyone in this ugly country looks and thinks wxacrly like you

honestly im too tired to write all this shit down cus i could go on for ages in literalky gonna WRITE A FUCKING BIOGRAPHY ONE DAY IM JUST SO FRUSTRATED I GOT NO FUCKING WHERE TO VENT GOD I HATW MY FAMILY I GET IT HAVING AN ASIAN ANTIBLACK CLASSIST HOMOPHPBIC FAMILY WOULD BE BAD TOO BUT LIKE....... at least it would be my family at least they would look like me and not be racist against me?

and what makes me the most sad is that my adoptive family is still better than like 90% the only difference eis that most adoptees dont dare to ”come out” like this, criticizing their own adoption bc ffs we’re terrified of being abandoned. its just....... theyre so fucing dumb. they dont know shit about racism or adoption and like.... thats kinda essential. no one repsects me in this family except for my mom but shes a fucking coward, always in the middle. everyone else talks down on me and i didnt notice like YESTERDAY DURING MY LAST BREAKDOWN THAT WASNT ABT ADOPTION BUT WAS ABT MY EMOTIONALLY ABUSIVE DAD AND HOW I REALIZED HE ALWAYS TREATED ME AND MY SISTER LILE SHIT AND BLAMES MY TRAUMA ON ME SO NOW MY WHOLE FAMILY TREATS MW LIKE A PROBLEMATIC WEIRD KID

i want to leave this family so sad but i dont have any friends cus im too mentally unstable to keep friends and i also have a little sister i need to protest but FOR FUCKSS SAKE TOURE RUCKING 15 AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT BISEXUAL IS like im so done with her too, ive proteced her so much, just because i WAS the angry problematic kid i ALWAYS took the fights for thet cus shes a scared rabbit but she never give me a thank you, never says she appreciates it, always throwing me under the bus when dad accuse us of something and i used to accept it cus i know she was too scared of him BUT AGTER ALL THIS TIME AFTER EVERYTHING IVE DONE FOR HER SHES FUCKING 15 SHE KNOWS I HAVE HER BACK IVE BEEN PRTOEVTING HER EVER SINCE THEIR DIVORCE WHEB OUR GROWN ASS ADULT 21+ BROTHERS LEFT US AND I WAS LIKE FUCKING 11 YEARS OLD I PROTECETED HER AND I NEVER GET ANYTHING AND IF I STOP TALKING TO HER SHE WONT EVWR TALK TO ME BECAUSE THATS HOW ALL MY RELATIONSHIPS WORK

i lost all respect for my brother. i knew he was a racist dumbass but like.... he really sig there and laugh and accuse me and guilt trips me when i tell him his dumb ignorant ass is the reason i want o die. this is why i wanna fake my suicide so i can revenge them but i also dont cus then i’d just give in and be one of all those adoptees who commoted suicide and whos gonna fight for them IF NOT ME CUS I ALWAYS DO FKN EVERYTHING. this is also why i low key think i got bpd or smth cus i always want to kill ppl like my family or myself or why not BOTH

cant wait for tomorrow where i have to face everyone and were gonna pretend like NOTHING happened. you know why i came here with my mom and visited??? BECAUSE I WANTED TO TAKE A PAUSE FROM MY DAD AFTER THE SIMILAR SUICIDE THREATENING PANOC ATTACK FIGHT I HAD LIKE YESTERDAY

i just gotta accept tjat my family is totally shit right? i just gotta live through it? this is why i never wanna have kids in sweden. like yeah i’ll probably still be in contact cus im only human, i love my parents and my family ofc.... but like........ I AM NOT TRUSTING THEM. MY REAL FAMILY IS HONESTLY OTHER WOC ONLINE AND OTHER TRANSRACIAL ADOPTEES (the smart oens not the whitewashed ones i try not to blame them but im really fkn tired lf having to protest them and clean up and defend them)

i remember when i was like this every single day....... i DONT WANT IT TO COME BACK IM SO TIRED HOW MANY TIMES WILL I HAVE TO THREATEN WITH SUICIDE AND SHIT FOR MY FAMILY TO LIEK..... TAKE ME SERIOSULY NO ONE EVER HELPS ME I EVEN GAVE UP ON MY PARENTS I WANTED THEM TO READ ON RACISM BUT THEY REFUSED AT ELAST MY DAD, SO I KNOW I ONLY GO WITH STOP TRIGGERING ME BUT LIEK...... IVE THOUGHT SO MICH FOR MY MOM TO BE QHERE SHW IS TODAY WHOCH IS LIKE THIS COWARD BUT AT LEAST SHE CLMFLRTS ME AFTERWARDS AND IM TOO TIRED TO HAVE TO CONVERT AND EDUCATED MY WHOLE FKN FAMILY WHEN THEY DONT DO SHIT TO LEARN FOR ME

i just gotta smile and wave and pretend to love my brother when he didnt do shit when they divorced, mom got ptsd and i went through AT LEAST A THIRD ABANDONMENT, and he doesnt do shit now all he thinks about is how i accuse him of being racist cus he doesnt understand systems and structures which i blamed it on but tbh he’s the famiöy’s racist he really is hems always been cus hes so fkn stupid he’s joked abt muslims and chinese and black ppl and everything im only pretending its the systematic so my mom doesnt get angry lmao but he.... IS..... not ONLY like all the other white people..... but he IS...... for real

and giys..... i left so much of my anger out in this post cus im too tired and mt phone is gonna die but that vreqkdown i had recently....... i wrote like 50+ posts and theyre SOOOOO LONG and also more wellwritten im just saying to give you a perspektivet of how ISOLATED AND DESPERATE I AM IM DESPERATE BITCHES I HINESTLY THINK IM GONNA DIE IF I KEEP STAYONG HERE I WANT TO ASIA I WANT TO SOMEWEHRE MULTICULTURAL I WANT FRIENDS I AM GOING TO DIE IM GOING TO DIE IM DYING IM DYING AND IF IM DYING IM GONNA BRING DOWN MY WHOLE FAMILY AND EVERY WHITE PERSON AND EVERY NON ADOPTEE WITH ME

#kms #kmf #= killing my family #pp

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holycrabsauce · 6 years

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(warning: super duper messed up english, i wrote this at 2 am in 24th January so i was sleepy af when i wrote this so it’s a mess and i saved it in my draft and now y’all can see it, so i hope you don’t mind with whatever english words and sentences that i typed in this post)

so. guess who turned 20 today ? this bitch.

here i am eating some chicken and fries alone in my apartment billion miles away from home

20 years i’ve been through some weird ass crazy stuff but hey guess what ? i’m still here so maybe the world is not as shitty as i thought i guess

ain’t gonna lie, life hasn’t been pretty nice to me in this past 20 years lmaooo but hey, i do learned something from it tho so, it’s a win win situation right ?

when i was 4 i learned that you can’t actually fly and how do i know this ? well it’s stupid and hilarious at the same time, i was in kindergarten and i was just hanging out at the swings and my friend pushed it for me, so the swings were getting high and my smart ass 4 year old self thinks that ‘oh, maybe if i let my hand go from the swings, i can fly’ and yup there she goes! Nothing serious happens beside a bruised back and chin and i’m pretty sure i sort of dislocated my jaw but in some weird ass way i fixed it back (ain’t gonna lie tho i think it’s still effect me till now because if i sleep in the wrong position my jaw kinda hurts a bit which is kinda fucked up but hey at least i learned something right ? lol)

when i was 7 i learned that you can’t always expect your parents to be there for you everytime. I’m a pretty shy kid at school and i always want my parents to be there with me (god that’s embarrassing) and thats the moment that i realized that ‘holy shit is this what being an adult feels like ?’ Lol it doesn’t even make sense now that i read it but my stupid ass 7 year old self think that it all makes sense.

When i was 10 i learned that boys can like boys and girls can like girls too. Okay, this topic is gonna be batshit serious real quick. when i saw a gay kissing scene in a movie for the first time it was actually kinda hilarious, you know when some people watched a gay couple in movies or tv shows for the first time their reaction was probably either shocked or feel kinda weirded out about it. Well my first thought was ‘wait ? Guys can like guys too ? Does that mean girls can like girls too ? That’s interesting’

12, the age that i realized that not all people died a happy ending. So i was watching the news and there’s this guy who got death sentence and i thought ‘wow, you can die like that ?’ Honestly, sometimes i always wondered if some people just destined to die in a sad/tragic way no matter how happy they are with their lives, which i think is fuckin sad, like whats the point of living if you die anyway ? Ok now this just took a dark turn real quick so let’s change the subject while we’re at it.

14… probably one of the saddest years of my life. My parents officially got divorced, i was actually expect it to happen at one point, so it doesn’t really affect me that much, which i know that’s kinda fucked up. It does affect my brother more though, now looking back, i wish i could’ve done something you know ? Like always be there for him and actually act like an older sister. I’m pretty surprised that my brother feels sad about the divorce, i mean i feel sad too but at the same time i feel kinda relieved too you know ? What’s the point of marriage if you never gave a shit about each other in the first place ?

ain’t gonna lie when i was 17 it was probably the most useless year in my life, basically i just graduated from high school and i decided to take a gap year before going to college and man oh man what a ride. It was a pretty sweet year because i slept a lot and it’s probably the only great thing that i’ve done lmao.

it’s also the age where i realized that its okay to leave someone who’s bringing toxic into your life, even though it’s hard to let it go but you gotta do what you gotta do you know ?

18, the age where i cried while showering for 30 straight minutes because i’m scared of becoming an adult but also really starting to questions everything about love ? ok this is gonna be fuckin hilarious because love is the one conversation that i rarely have with anyone. if my friends asks me stuff like ‘hey sonia ? have you ever had a boyfriend ?’ or ‘are you liking someone ?’ i just kinda laughed it off because let’s be real i can’t even take care of my own shit let alone have a boyfriend ? and honestly if there’s an actual dude that wants to be with me i would laugh so hard and be like ‘haha that’s hilarious buddy’. But let me just tell you why this is kinda one of the reason why this topic kinda affected 18 year old me back then.

so basically my aunt is desperately looking for a husband and it’s not that easy to find the ‘perfect’ man for her, my mom told me that she knows someone, but she told me that my aunt is pretty picky about choosing a dude, and my mom was like ’she will never find a husband if she’s always so picky’ but the point of this story for me is basically ‘do people nowadays get married not because they loved each other ?’ like seriously, everytime i have this kind of conversation with my mom she always made it like true love doesn’t really exist anymore. And honestly it kinda makes me sad, you know what ? nope, it makes me sad, like a shit ton of sad lmao that doesn’t even make any sense. So my true love out there ? are you even exist ?????? AHAHAHA yup this is the part where i need to stop, see ? this is why i never speak about love because random shit just came out of my mind

19…….. bloody hell, where do i even begin with 19 years old sonia ? this is probably the age where a shit ton of stuff happens. like i could legit make a post about 19 year old me alone, but trust me, that won’t be necessary. Let me just give you a recap

It’s the age where i graduated from college, unemployed for a couple of months, considering on owning a strip club at my hometown (don’t ask why), almost hiring a private investigator to follow my brother, considering on selling my kidney because i’m broke as fuck, so yeah… it’s pretty fuckin wild ain’t gonna lie. But also the year where i got the chance to visit Japan for the first time so… worth it!! lmao

okay Sonia, is there anything you want to do now that you’re 20 ?

well, tbh, it would be kinda nice to study again, which is wild considering how much i hate school but i want to travel, i want to learn, and to be honest it would be nice to actually go to school in other countries like becoming an exchange student, learning new culture, meeting new friends, but let’s be real, it’s not easy and i really desperately kinda want to learn again, my last college wasn’t really a college ? and everytime my friends told me about their college experiences sometimes kinda makes me wonder if maybe i just missed being young again… LMAO now i sound like a woman in her 40s who just got divorced and wishing she could have a younger boyfriend (so basically my mom ? lmao jk love you madre)

well sonia, what did you learn at 20 ?

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