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#that i dont want in other friendships yk. like i wanna not be scared to be myslef around people just be myself and not care what they say
caruliaa · 4 months
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consuming media your mutuals like is so scary bc what if im a misunderstander what if my mutuals think all my takes r wrong and cringe and im not even an understander of the media and im wrong about it thats so scary. what if im wrong abt man from the podcast . even worse what if being worried abt being wrong about man from the podcast means i dont let myself enjoy it and talk with people about it and ruins the whole thing for me bc thats what im more scared abt tbh . agh .
#AGGH !!! so stupidd i told myself i was gonna stop carring what toher people thinkkk#its so dumb bc okay. the issue is that this has happened before. getting into smth my friends/mutuals have liked but being so scared#of having the “wrong” take tht i never rly engaged in it outside of just saying whatthey think on it. not that i didnt often agree with the#but like i was scared to say i associated songs with characters bc i was like what if they think its cringe and a bad take onthe character#and like. idk that whole fear messed with the friendship i think and made it very hard for me to enjoy the interest#and even tho i tihnk it was like. idk resolved in a way where its def not a major enough factor in the friendship ending#but i do think like idk. a part of it that was bad (where ithink not to get into it but like. a lot of the time i was worried i wasnt good#enough for her and i thought it was bc of me being anxious bc its someone i rly cared abt but i think part of it was like.her maybe being#not the root root cause of those feelings but perpertuating them in a way i never had in other close friendships . maybe it was smth else#but i do think it was her in some major part. for reasons tht i dont wanna get into rn rly lol)#that i dont want in other friendships yk. like i wanna not be scared to be myslef around people just be myself and not care what they say#bc if they like me they like me if they dont they dont !! but its hard and im scared to care about what people think and be in that place#again of being so worried about it thinking my relationships with people depend on whether or not i say smth they agree with abt a made up#guy yk. and i honestly like. trust most ppl in friends with now to not give a shit i just still have the fear which is so stupidd uhh !!!#the solution is just to grow up and not give a shit. but thats hard. but im gonna try !!!#bc this is literalllyyyy ridiculous okayyy#flappy rambles
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7vvch · 2 years
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Hoodie/Brian Thomas headcanons
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First off without his mask he is handsome, hazel eyes, light brown hair and pretty tall around 6'0
As Hoodie he tends to be serious, and actually really smart and manipulative
Hoodie always makes the plans for missions and how to do them and then he and Masky manage to finish the mission
Brian seems to be "nice" and "sweet" guy so people wouldnt assume that he is doing some shady stuff *cough cough* being Slendermans proxy and killing for entity
But as Hoodie he is just cold and rarely takes bs from others
He can be scary when he is like that especially with his height (I'm 5'6 and his height is actually scaring me-)
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Especially in fights, he is probably most sadistic from all of them, he wouldnt mind to have some fun with his victims before they yk die
So dont mess around with this dude unless you want your nose broken or have bruises basically all over yourself
Toby learned his lession on the hard way :,)
As Brian he actually has his own home, and even a car and "nice" personallity so its easy for him to fit in normal people too just like Toby
You wouldnt even suspect a thing is wrong with him until you would saw gun and mask in his car :)
He does hang out with Masky/Tim when he can, friendship what can I say
He doesnt smoke, but he tends to drink sometimes
And he takes Masky's pills
Well steals them
While Masky listens to grungy songs I see both Hoodie and Brian to listen to phonk and sometimes old songs
I just imagine him driving car while listening to phonk songs
Something like Harakiri, Afterlife, NGT..
(Change my mind these big dudes on that song cover are Masky, Hoodie and Toby, ngl its actually scary how big they are lmao)
Just like Masky I dont really see him reaching out for relationship unless you just want to have fun and be friends with benefits then sure thing
Though its hard for him to fully trust anyone its almost impossible to become his friend
BUT if you do seem to catch his eye, good luck you will need it
While Toby and Masky are fighting about the leader of the group thing we all know the leader is Hoodie
They just refuse to belive so
But the reason is Hoodie is smart, intelligent and doesnt fight over such thing like that, he is just there like *poker face*
And what makes him leader is that he doesnt take bs from no one not even Masky, if youre on mission do it right or dont do it at all
That is why he has beaten Toby too many times
Okayyyy so here are another one of my headcanons, hope u like them, and if u want send requests :,)
Also my dms are opend for everyone so if you wanna be friends we can talk :)
~Tina~
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guessnyshel · 6 months
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Hi bro, i can't believe im writing this to you . Haha, feeling ko ang cringe ko pag nabasa mo to soo uhm describe muna kita uhmm you are the most caring and lovable person ik hahahahaha the prettiest din hehe enebe even though we haven't known each other for a long time part kana ng life ko kase y not diba? Thank you din sa pag listen sa mga chika ko buti natitiis mo kadaldalan ko ehe very sweet of you pero minsan ik na naiinis kana sakin i can feel it haha by your chats professional nako sa mga ganyan e charot pero im very sorry if na aannoy nakita sometimes i just need someone to talk to and sorry din sa mga jokes ko na sumusobra na im really sorryyyyy ulit and sorry din if im too friendly FOR YOU gulat din ako nung bigla ko nilabas clingy side ko haha hiyang hiya na talaga ako sayo minsan haha be pero i wanted you to know that you are the most caring friend you have it all na hehe like diba pretty, smart, caring, cool, nice, happy, understanding marami pa iba and thank you so matsss sa paunawa mo sakin and sa comforts mo it really helps me din pero can i you smthing bro why did you said in yo chat na you didn't want to hurt me so you kept talking to me diba you said all goods naman and you love talking to me fls i really need a answer on that it keeps bothering me ih baka dimo ma gets letter ko :) halo halo e
And srry if dikita kinakausap sa school naninibago ako sa ugali mo tsaka sa boses huhuhu and pag ni rrole mo eyes mo sakin i feel sad bro haha i don't want that pa naman hihi pero sana may lakas nako kausapin ka kase astig ako e pero anyways sana lalo ka tumalino so you can make your parents proud!!!! Ih idk what to say na soooo minsan nadin ako nagalit sayo sinabi mo n-word pero i believe you na iba sinabi mo kase i trust you nga enebe so thankful ako na may friend ako katulad mo sinesave mo sa pagiging sad cuz part ka na happiness koooo ui happiness pero sana tama hinala ko dimoko pinag tritripan huhu pero i believe naman in you nung sinabi mo dika nan tritrip tao pero bro imma be fr pero mas gusto ko ugali mo nung una tayo nag usap kesa ngayong kaso parang so cold mune e sumabay ba naman sa December huhuhu even though di na tayo masyado nag uusap and nanghihingi karin time chaka space i will give you that bro kase sabi mo eh sooo yuhhhh and im kinda getting sad na kase we don't talk a lot anddd i really miss talking na talaga sayo pero titiisin ko dika guluhin kasee yk hehe pero promise bro i really miss talking to you kasee you are my second friend na naka kita ng ugali ko ganto hui kase i never showed it only you and maria kase im super shy talaga😭 and sana we can talk again like we used to talk when ready kana makipag usap talaga sa MAKULIT na katulad ko
And na shock din ako sa sinabi ni brent sa discord kase na aannoy kana pala sakin dmo sinasabi so saddening ng konti and it made me cry my eyes out din pero oks lang ikaw yan e charot ih pero lahat na sinabi ko ay truths lang and that's what i feel when i talk to you i guess that's all and sana mag last to friendship natin i also miss our old chats haha pero that's okay para ka climate change nag babago joke lang hoi wag seryosohin please hehe okay that all i guess and again aela take care alagaan mo sarili mo eat on time din baka magkasakit kana anakkhu,, andddddd stay safe bro i don't want you getting hurt pa naman anak and focus on yo studies and dont pressure yourself too much cus its really bad for you and do yor best in school aela ik that you can do it cus i believe in you anakkkkkk andddd so very lastly i hope you achieve everything you want kase you deserve it nga e thanks brooo that's all na talagaaaaa.
Sincerely, the zombies
Second letter, haha bro imma be fr to you here even though i haven't known you very very much. i still don't really wanna lose you cause im scared letting go someone, and idk why bro why i have that kind of ugali, and that's the main reason i kept talking to you talaga i can't ignore or forget you💀 kase you saw all of my sides na hindi pa nakita nina aikee and chas and bro trust me i really didn't mean to chat you that time kase yk im so shy get to knowing someone that idk that much pero chinat pa din kita idk why bru sama ko na sorry letter ko i never got to send it to you that night when you said that long letter kase i was so tired that night din Im sorry for making you feel that way, aela. im really sorry kung nilabas ko clingy side ko nang wala warning. I apologize for annoying you and making those ram jokes i made. That really annoys you
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domjaehyun · 2 years
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Omg if you're chatty would you mind sending me some friendship help too😭😭
Tbh i figured this out to my best ability now but i think its always nice to get a second opinion, i had a friend since kindergarten and we were really close until high-school when we had a break off freshman year, for a short story, i told another friend something critical in a way about her which she told someone else and it got back to her, tbh its not as bad as you may think but early minds yk, i apologized alot and never said more about her but she talked mad shit behind my back to more people when i kept quiet and kept it between us anyways, later on we got it fixed ig, 10th grade for us was casually talking knowing we were still important to each other but i got really reserved i was finding myself out so i distanced myself from her and others who i felt didnt approve or support my way of coping, junior year we got better but because of our different interests we got a bit more cold, senior year, i think we got back in a way to how we were, could be maturing on both sides and finding comfort in each other but it was finally a chance to see ourselves good again, casual talks here and there have always been the norm but we really stopped doing that and when we did it was good until it was basically just me seeking her out, she had personal things going on majorly her becoming a mom, which i had to find through her sister, but i think this really ridged us because i knew she'd have a different chapter in her life which is fine but i dont want to feel bad for always seeking her out when she can do the same, sure i know its heavy to become a mom at a early stage of her life i completely understand, but should i feel like bad friend for not trying to help her more or should i leave as is because there's no hard feelings for letting ourselves kinda fall
omg *cracks knuckles* lets do this thing (under a read more in case this gets long / ppl just dont wanna see it djfgjksdf)
okay so right off the bat: finding out someone’s talking abt you behind your back, esp a close friend, really sucks so i feel for you :( i know technically you did it first but like. weighing it out, what you did doesnt sound as bad as what she did :( oof okay that’s a loaded question i think and there are diff answers i could give :///// lemme see
if she just became a mom and she wasnt expecting it—hell, even if she was—she could probably use a lot of patience and understanding right now. parenting is NOT easy and if she’s got other personal stuff going on, it sounds like she’s probably struggling and might not be as forthcoming about needing/wanting help as she should be. this is from my personal opinion, but i think that it would be a very kind thing of you to stick by her side rn esp w the baby !! she’s probably scared/stressed and losing a friend is a lot to handle esp bc you guys have such an entangled history together :(
when you say “trying to help her more,” what do you mean exactly? you can be a helpful friend, but don’t bite off more than you can chew!! when you say help, do you mean w the baby or with her personal issues? either way, it is valid to be concerned about her situation and even to voice your concerns to her (but in an “i care about you and want to make sure you’re doing alright with all of this going on” way…. tone and delivery are super important in a conversation like this) !!! however, if YOU’RE not in the state where you can handle being that kind of support, then i def don’t think you should feel like a bad friend. there’s this metaphor/quote i rly like that’s basically like “you can’t fill other people’s glass if yours is cracked” (i botched it but i hope you get the drift) and i like. try to live by that tbh!! like on airplanes when they say to secure your own mask first before helping others; you’re no good of a help if you don’t even have all YOUR ducks in a row !! so if you don’t think you feel up to helping (no one should be forcing you to, btw.. i hope u know that) her through the stuff w the baby and other personal stuff, i would maybe communicate that to her!! try smth like “i know you’re going through a lot right now and i don’t want to downplay that, but i just need you to know that i’m also having a hard time (you can say w what if you want or not! up to you) and i wish i could help out more but i just dont have it in me right now. i will be here for you as much as i can.”
but this goes both ways; miss girl is busy busy busy trying to keep a human baby alive and happy and post-partum depression is a bitch if she has it. either way the hormones go crazy dfjgskl but my point is that just like you might not be in the right place to help her out, she probably doesn’t have a lot of mental energy left to help you out either :( but yeah i think that becoming a parent (i mostly mean moms but there are other parents who struggle obvi…but im gonna assume she’s a single mom,,, if i’m wrong then whoops my b fjdgdfjkdfgs) or namely a single mom is a very sudden and scary thing if you don’t feel ready and sometimes even when you do !! if i were to imagine myself in her place, i’d be feeling very scared, stressed, worried, and lonely right about now. as much as you can help it, try to help her not feel so lonely? i wouldnt be saying this if i thought this was a doomed friendship btw like . i think you guys have been through a lot together and that she could really use a shoulder to lean on rn if you can manage it!!
when it comes to the reaching out thing, this part is tricky to me. sometimes in friendships, ppl fall into roles naturally. some people are more proactive and reach out more, whereas others, for whatever reason, don’t reach out as much. i’ll be real? i don’t reach out often … or like . ever really dfjgkgjkdf (i have my reasons !! don’t judge !!) but i really appreciate when people reach out to me bc i’m worried im annoying/burdening them so. if she’s anything like me, she might not want to burden you w her issues? so it could really mean a lot to her if you reached out every once in a while to let her know you’re thinking of her and you care about her !! maybe tell her you guys can skip the formalities when you catch up and stuff? i find that when my friends are really drained and i want to be helpful, i say smth along the lines of like “you don’t have to explain anything to me if you dont wanna; if you wanna text me at 4am to ask me my favorite noodle, i’ll just answer you, no questions asked.” i even tell some friends we can skip the “hi, how are you” stuff (i hate small talk like that anyway) bc they shouldn’t have to lie and say they’re good but they also shouldn’t feel pressured to dump their issues on you yknow?
this is so long dfgjksdfj sorry i rly do feel chatty rn :’) but i hope this helps even a little bit???? if you wanna send her a text saying smth similar to smth i said here, i wouldnt mind looking at it before you send it! GOOD LUCK I RLY DO HOPE THIS HELPED
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rinstars · 3 years
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hello risa! i'm coming off anon to share a fanart i did for cry for me ;-; i was going to wait until the end of the series, but i couldn't LOL. before i share it though, i just wanted to get these off my chest:
one. whatever you guys do, please do not read this in public if you cannot contain your emotions (i was going to wait until i got home, but anticipation got the best of me) 😭. i slammed my phone on the table so hard after reading this line: "unlike you, i respect the feelings i have for yura, y/n," OOOOOOOOOOOO I WAS SO HURT LMAO. my tears were hanging by the thread.
two. i know suna didn't mean any of the things he said to hurt y/n, but i can understand his reaction. he was simply frustrated and i'm assuming that he is confused with this whole situation now. i think it was also stated towards the end that he couldn't handle situations like this well enough.
three. everyone needs an osamu in their life :') i love his platonic friendship with y/n so much!! it's so heartwarming to see him worry about her. he's such a good friend and deserves the best.
four. there is so much miscommunication between suna and y/n which truly breaks my heart :( i kind of wish suna would've just told her that he was trying to push that woman away. but then again, there would be lack of action and angst.
five (connected with four). i love love LOVE how you made the plot and characters realistic. in real life, there is miscommunication and assumptions in relationships. nobody is perfect and everybody has their own flaws. i just hope they learn to forgive and communicate with each other after this argument.
six (last one i promise 😭). so.... suna does care about y/n. i've been wondering for the longest if y/n meant anything at all to him. interesting.... this should be a good sign, right :') ?
out of all the chapters so far, this one broke my heart into pieces. my throat was choked up with tears, ready to spill an entire ocean. you never fail to make my heart flutter and shatter. your writings are amazing and i would PAY for your works. don't forget to take your time and always make time for yourself 💕.
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OH MY GODHEOGEOEHEI WAIT OMFGGEJGE IM ACTUALLY GONNA CRY WAIT 😭😭 OKAY LET ME ANSWER EVERY NUMBER FIRST
one, right omg that part was literally double blow from him it’s like admitting he still has feelings for yura and also insulting yn on how she doesn't even seem that serious with omi with how much she was "throwing" herself at others 😭
two, yeah exactly :( suna is very bad at this. going into cfm, the image i had of suna had been set as someone who wouldn't be able to handle heavy emotional confrontations well—much like his canon self and i wanted it to be the root of misunderstandings. he's very frustrated and very confused how what they considered as a little game has turned out like this yk?
three, OSAMU YAAASSS no hes actually perfect and thats the reason i want him to remain platonic with yn. she could use a guy she wouldn't fall in love with yk? just a genuine friend.
four & five, just like what i said at three, i really really want there to be stupid and frustrating flaws that make you wanna pull your hair cause how can suna be this dense and how can yn be this stupid but yk? thats their personality. i dont feel like switching it so we can read a "flawless" plot 😭
six, he does! and like he said he cares about her more than he'd like to admit which means, it's probably a type of care that scares him because admitting it both to her and himself means there's no turning back.
LASTLY THANK U SO MUCH OH MY GOD u dont get how happy this made me I'm actually baffled that someone would love cfm enough to make a fanart out of it :(( thank u so so so much babe ilysm and i really appreciate it it literally made me so happy 😭💗
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bussyfruit · 2 years
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I desperately need friends
Ive always been shy n distant from most ppl bc I get depressed and isolate like crazy. But I literally have no friends anymore. I only ever spark up brief friendships w guys who i usually end up getting w but the joke is i dont really like men i just need the validation. Im lonely. Im depressed. And i get clingy, im scared of everyone leaving bc everyone left.
Im still waiting for a savior, someone to show up out of the blue and just cling to me like i cling to others. Im posting this hoping someone responds and maybe I’ll finally make a friend again? Idk im not a bad person, i was a bad friend to some people before but ive changed, i put in the effort to be the better person but now im too insecure. Im scared. Im tipsy. I want to get back into getting high or drunk everynight bc im genuinely just so alone.
So i let my ex keep hurting and using me. Bc i have no one. I have my sibling, theyre 2 years younger and have helped w so much and love hanging out w them but a sibling is still different from friends yk.
What do i do? I try and be really nice and chill at work, someone ppl wanna hang out w but no one wants to. At least no one asks. Im tired.
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cocona · 4 years
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hi ! theres a girl ive been interacting alot w/ on twitter n she even made me a playllst but we've never dm'd. I really want us to but im scared of alot of things.. like that im shy n i dont wanna mess anything up.. and that im questioning my sexuality ( im a girl btw!) and i dont wanna drag her into it... and that she lives far away and it may not even seem worth it? i feel really torn but i really like her as well and i just dont know how to sort out these feelings? im just really scared..
hi ! this is gonna get pretty lengthy.. but . dont be afraid to message her.. i cant rlly make an in depth reading abt someone uve never talked to ya feel? theres a lot to unwind here.. and whats more, u cld make a friend ! even if u like her,, theres no reason why u wouldnt text her and start a friendship w her. then youd know. maybe eventually u can let her know abt ur concerns... anyway, onto the reading.
the cards i pulled were: the devil (15), the two of cups, the two of wands
i can already say tht. this is rlly a you problem, bcos u guys have a lot lot in common and have similar ideas abt life. u guys might live far away from each other but there is certainly sth to be explored between u two. now the devil card shows tht theres sth in u ure feeding into tht is highly negative and thts bad for u n everyone involved in there. i think it’s the way u approach ur sexuality. yk. u wont be a bad person if u allow urself to feel things. ud be a bad person if u used others to do things u wldnt do otherwise. it’s not bcos u crush on someone n are still figuring out ur sexuality tht it makes u necessarily someone worth avoiding. when the devil shows up in a reading, it’s reminding u to look into ur negative mechanisms n to obliterate them ! this shows a viscious n unhealthy bond w sth or someone,, here it’s ur approach to sexuality fr... a bond isnt negative as long as u dnt feed it anything. as for the rest... u guys have a lot of potential tbh just go for it !! moonology card: new moon, “it’s a fresh start!”
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