#thankfully I had a mask on

[ohslenderaphrodite]

dealing with work sucking significantly more than usual by listening to monster erotica audiobooks while on the clock

#text #mine #monsters #but actually i almost had to stop immediately bc the particular book i started jumped right into it #and i was not prepared lmao #thankfully i still wear masks in public which helps my poker face significantly

[bisexual-horror-fan]

Awe, what's the matter? You look like you've seen a Ghost.

#BHF cosplay #DBD Ghostface cosplay #I bought the mask and I knew I had to do a whole fit for it! #I fucking love it #I wanted to match the leathery kinda wet look of the mask's hood and thankfully own a LOT of clothing with that kinda look to it

[charulein]

Curse my coworker who refused to mask even tho she had a nasty cough

#I masked but alas #I caught whatever she had #Quicktest said negative thankfully #But my sinuses are fucking killing me #Blease mask and stay at home if you're sick #Shout out to my boss who sent me back home and told me to take of myself #Thank u

[wraenata]

Hey! BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you’re supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you’re beautiful inside and out.

Aw thank you so much! You are just the sweetest! This is so nice to receive today because I definitely don't feel beautiful right now.

Thank you again love you! /platonic <3

Hope you are having a lovely day! You deserve it!

#wren askbox #thank you so much #❤️💙💜🧡💚 #i had to go get a paper bag just for all these kleenex oof #i tried to schedule a pcr test with my doctor #but they want me to drive at least 30 miles away in a big city heck no im not doing that #thats way too much anxiety and i already dont feel good #so i scheduled through walgreens #its going to be $164 bucks yayyyyy #i wonder if my insurance will reimburse me somehow #my work did have a policy where if you got covid #they gave you five days so i dont need to burn my limited pto on this #i actually have no idea if that policy is still in place #they never overtly canceled it #i hope so #thankfully i have all my shots and boosters so im not dying #just pretty sick #considering brides mom tested positive and i was around her a lot i think this is probably what it is #well i made it 3+ years #this is what i get for taking my mask off in may #cause i was wearing masks daily until then #sorry i got sidetracked im just bummed over this sickness #thank you again so much mighty anxiety you are a true gem <3

[perlucidula]

masks for fairies

#artists on tumblr #sculptors on tumblr #sculpture #masks #maskmaking #venetian masks #jester #jesters #body horror #eye horror #blood #scars #demon mask #wounds #these are very small! they fit on a fingertip #they had some really problematic issues when adding the shiny lacquer which was so disappointing #i loved the sculpting of the right one SO much and now I can't make what i want out of it #because all I can see are all the bubbles and the ways it didn't dry right ugh #oh well #it's not too visible in this photo thankfully #/// organization

[cheekblush]

i might just fall in love with my physiotherapist..... 😳

#just had my first session & i've never had a man touch me like this ansnsjmsms #he's also my age which makes this whole ordeal even worse like i've only seen him with a mask but he looks very attractive.... #he's tall and has dark hair and he has a nice voice and his hands were so warm.... this is not good.... #actually thankful we both were wearing masks otherwise this whole thing would've been even more awkward #like i knew i would get a young male therapist that's why i was so scared of this appointment bc idk it's kinda uncomfortable as a young.. #woman to have a young man a STRANGER touch your body & of course it's his profession but still.. #he didn't make me feel uncomfortable thankfully but i was just so embarrassed & shy throughout the whole session zhananka #i hope he didn't notice i think i acted normal but in my mind i was going crazy ahhabsnsna #like when i was laying down & he was doing wonders on my back i had to hold back a laugh the whole time & i was just smiling.. #i'm glad he couldn't see bc my face nc it was inside this hole thingy idk how to call it shabwjwjnw #he made my back crack 3 times that was so sexy of him...... i need to calm down #actually my neck/shoulder hurt even more now after this session but he was so fine i forgive him shahnsnsn #☁️

[siover]

Talk to me about autistic Shiv bestie

im so terribly self indulgent when it comes to autistic shiv but just in the way of prattling.. to me (one of) the core tenets of shiv's character is that she is necessarily fundamentally alienated from emotional sincerity and honesty and this in part comes from 1) the very hostile sexist environment she was raised in that insisted on reducing her to a trophy, logan's trophy, at a very young age 2) logan's involvement 3) caroline's lack thereof, despite shiv's repeated attempts to connect with her into adulthood and 4) her only path to success (read: survival) being to prove them all wrong.

so she constantly plays a part all through s1--the part of the distinguished professional who just happens to be the daughter of Logan Roy--as well as s2 and s3--but this time the prodigal daughter returning to emblazon a new path beyond her father's footsteps--in a way that she becomes what she Wants. not in that she achieves her goals, but in that she grows to define herself and her relationships by how well they fit into the persona of whom it would most benefit her to become, if that makes sense.

and tom is such a key part of this--the secret sauce, even, if you will. i don't even think she realizes just how much she grows to genuinely love him and depend on him until the beach scene in s2--it's so easy to read her response to him asking "is this real" before their wedding as cruel but to her it's genuinely baffling, because the validity and significance of that as a factor that has never occurred to her. like maybe this is projection dialed up to a 110 but i do think shiv assumed tom knew it was more about being A Couple than about love, if that makes sense. (which is probably why autistic shiv is so closely tied to lesbian shiv in my head--it's about choosing the assigned roles so you can pretend you had agency in conforming, that it works for you because you let it, it's about faking and masking to make it in a space that's inherently hostile to you and your needs and after being forced to playact at "normalcy" for so long you've lost sight of if there's ever a real person waiting underneath or if you're just an onion all the way down. anyway!)

also shiv's relationship with perceiving and being perceived--how she offers to share her struggles with marcia if marcia can reciprocate, the few bathroom scenes she has scarcely involving mirrors--is SO interesting to me. she uses perception as a weapon and is hyperaware of how the same can be done to her..something something the rejection of being Seen and hence being Loved at the cost of a shot at being respected!! when sarah snook said shiv is uncomfortable with vulnerability and flexibility bc she isnt secure in herself!! the invisible and visible barriers of being a girl and knowing you don't fit in the boxes you should + the invisible and visible barriers of being a woman and having to figure out the boxes or risk ridicule

this is getting SO long and increasingly incoherent but i couldnt end without adding autistic shiv makes even more sense in the context of autistic kendall. for one thing, the mirrors--shiv desperately rejecting a parental figure and being the only person she needs while kendall desperately needing to feel, well, needed--but also kendall is everything shiv has learned not to be and his failure to mask is an integral part of that! it's not a coincidence that logan asks shiv for affirmation when rava says iverson needs time to adjust before he comes to dinner, and the unsaid relief of "at least it wasn't me," when logan tears kendall down for things shiv contends with herself only grows louder each time imo

#autistic shiv is something that can be SO personal #i mean none of this is new and #idk if any of this makes sense #and i had a whole spiel abt the iverson scene which tumblr (thankfully) deleted lmao but yeah its abt masking denial HOPE (that its enough) #and all the bells say being abt shiv (and the others) learning that it will never be enough ......... shrimp emotions #shiv roy #ily for asking this <3 #char tag

[stephanidftba]

I love you children

I hate you parents who don't talk to their children I hate you parents who don't pay attention to their children I hate you parents who don't tell their children 'no' I hate you parents who don't set boundaries with your children I hate you parents who encourage their children to break strangers' boundaries

#vent post #there's a developmentally delayed kid at my library and his mom rarely tells him 'no' because half the time she's on her phone #yesterday I left open art time for a few minutes because nobody was in there and when i returned I found that #the kid had played with a tool i was using to cut paper #(thankfully kid was unharmed) #and kid had also painted on a whiteboard #he then took some empty paint water cups and threw them down the stairs #i should have put the tool where kids couldn't get it but I expected parents to say 'don't touch that's not yours' #also at the mom who encouraged her kid to hug me during the pandemic when the most i was comfortable with was a high five #ma'am I am wearing two masks for a reason and kids under 12 weren't eligible for the vaccine at that point

[pepprs]

awesome so today we (my colleague besties and me) were potentially exposed to covid by two different people we spent the morning with because nobody gives a fuck anymore and we’re all going to get sick and die. awesome! i love being alive in fall 2023 when nobody gives a single shit about covid anymore and this nightmare country has apparently decided to move on even though the danger has not subsided and arguably has increased and we no longer have access to resources or information to keep ourselves and each other safe. fuck the world

#purrs #covid19 #delete later #one person (who thankfully was wearing a mask) was recently exposed to ppl who have now tested positive and wasn’t showing symptoms but #decided to show up anyway and not tell us about it until we were already unmasking to eat lunch 3 hours into the program. didn’t have the #decency to say it beforehand. and the other person who was not wearing a mask has apparently been testing positive for a WEEK asymptomatic #ally and it’s unclear if they are still testing positive so 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 luckily i had to leave early bc my cramps are destroying me mind body #and soul but i am so fucking angry and despondent rn. there is apparently a huge spike on campus and in my state and there is NOTHING from #the campus about it and so few news articles about what’s going on. i cannot get covid and i cannot see the people closest to me get covid. #my anxiety about covid which is already through the roof will be INFINITE and exponentially worse if i or anyone i seee on a daily basis #gets covid. when we still don’t know what long covid even is or when you get it or how you get it. i am so miserable. FUCK THIS PANDEMIC!!!! #also the second person didn’t share this information until THE LAST FEW MINUTES OF THE PROGRAM after everyone had been together in a room #for like 6 hours 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 again i left early but i am fucking terrified and furious 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 #like the way there is a massive spike and instead of using the tools and resources available to us to track and predict the spread and #protect people we decided to fucking chop off all of it because awww boohoo everyone’s tired nobody wants to think about it anymore 🥺 SHUT #YHE FUCK UP PEOPLE ARE DISABLED PEOPLE ARE DYING THE DANGER IS NOT OVER AND NOW WE ARE FIGHTING IT IN THE DARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!

[dearmrsawyer]

I have lived through the most wonderful exquisitely joyful weekend and got to see Louis twice at long last!!! I didn't want to express my excitement in the lead up because i was so petrified that i would catch covid like a week before and be unable to go, but god really had his hand on me and delivered me from 2 VERY close calls in the 2 weeks leading up to the shows lol. 2 weekends prior my brother's girlfriend caught covid the day he was with her, but the infection was obviously so fresh that she didn't transfer it to him. and then the following Wednesday our boss at work sent an email saying she was happy for us to join meetings virtually since cases were on the rise, and it was just in time because on Thursday we had a staff meeting, and on Saturday someone who was in the meeting room tested positive LIKE. god was really like if this girl does not get to go to these concerts she is going to unravel like a ball of frayed yarn lol

but ANYWAY it was the most amazing, amazing weekend, both nights were so fulfilling and just.. i felt pure happiness. louis was so BRIGHT and i got to share a room with him and lots of other very excited people, i just had the best best time. highlights from memory:

i've said before that i think it was so galaxy brain of him to open the show with 'we made it', especially in the context of all the rescheduling, and i was so excited to finally get to scream it out when he came on stage and the moment lived up to it!! i couldn't even hear louis for the first few lines of the song because the crowd was singing SO loud lol, it felt like a moment of such release for everyone there, it was really cool

on night 1 he walked out in that bright yellow shirt like a BEACON!! i always call him my sunshine and he is!! he was literally the louis that lives in my mind right there on stage. and on night 2 it was a very classic louis look in one of his 4000 burberry shirts lol, a comforting and familiar presence <3

can't express... just cannot express how happy i was during through the dark, i felt like it was visibly radiating out of me. its one of my favourite songs ever and my fav 1d song. it captures a specifically positive energy that i am so drawn to, and that i've coincidentally always associated with louis. i can't even explain how the room felt during that song, it was joy! i took a moment on night one to capture a snippet of it for myself to hold onto forever. the absolute respect louis has for me specifically to tour this song and let ME watch HIM sing it, that song both nights was genuinely one of the highlights of my entire life

don't let it break your heart was another one of the standout songs for me, one of my favourite louis songs!! maybe for me the one that i feel most represents louis, and i felt like it was a favourite for a lot of other people there as well, which took me by surprise! but i love that song soo much and it was so good live :)

wow seeing his smile in person...... sunshine

his stage presence!! he's become such a playful presence on stage, its so him, he is so interactive while he's singing. he doesn't do a lot of chatting between songs and i realised he likes to do the bulk of his playing as he sings lol. he's been like that all tour but i didn't realise it until my shows, i wonder if that's a comfort he built during 1d that he's deliberately exercised as a solo artist and made a key part of his performance

coacoa was soooo amazing live, and he sang changes which i LOVE. got lt2 is going to be so good

getting to point at louis with 5000 other people and shout "you were my because" 10/10 experience could not have enjoyed that more if i tried

oh the snuts were really good! i hadn't investigated them at all and wanted to hear them for the first time live (i feel like that's such a great way to be introduced to music) and their set was literally just jam after jam, i'm excited to dig into their music properly

i didn't even realise until i was on the way to the show on night 2 that it was the 1d anniversary! the crowd sang happy bday to 1d during the break before the encore 😂 honestly singing the 1d songs on night 2 felt so celebratory, what a cool experience to get to sing them with louis on such an important day

omg also on night 2 i was toward the side of the pit and saw little bentley with his sign ready for the show 😭 pre show our whole side of the crowd was cheering every time he lifted his sign, i found a short video here of it, we did this for like 30 minutes dskjlgkdfl it was v cute. i didn't even know they were from australia!

i completely lost my voice by the end of night 1 and couldn't speak the whole way home rofl, thankfully it came back the next morning ready for night 2. ugh it was just!!!!!! 🎇🎇🎇 this year has been.. quite horrible and this was so refilling. I have a week off work now because i was originally going to go to the Melbourne shows, but decided it was best not to take the extra risk, so instead this week is all mine to reminisce.

#it wasn't the perfect weekend because i was supposed to share it with silv #a bit crushed it couldn't work out!!! #this also means i have still met 0 tumblr friends :/ #silv is still going to get her louis dose tho thankfully! we'll have to share niall instead when he eventually comes #now just need to wait and see if the larries gave me covid 😂 #i have been a bit stressed the last couple of months about the chances of catching covid at the shows #this was briefly overridden by my fear of catching covid before the shows and not being able to go LOL #but once i was there i was just so happy there wasn't even room in me to be worried #im a fairy one feeling at a time #i also felt like i had done everything i could to protect myself #flu + booster shots in june #and i wore 2 masks and a filter #so i did all i could \o/

[theartofimagining13]

Give me random advice

Wear one of these to sleep at night or to take naps whether your room is dark or not and I swear to God you'll sleep so deliciously.

~A.Wölf.

#I've thankfully never had sleeping issues but these sleep masks make me an even better sleeper #So if i used to sleep 9-10 hours after i started wearing them I sleep all day #LOL #Random #Sleep #sleep advice #Advice

[galaxywhale-moved]

coworker just tested positive to Covid and I am Stressed ;-;

#i can’t get Covid again rn ;-; #OR alternatively if I’m gonna get it #i need to get it like. right now so it’s gone (hopefully) in 2 weeks bc I am Leaving The Country 😬 #but not loving this new Covid wave 😬 #just to note: he tested positive like.. 20 minutes after being in the same room as me (w a mask on thankfully) #where we had a conversation about how his hayfever was awful rn… #spoiler: wasn’t hayfever lol

[slam-dunkrai]

sad to announce my covidless streak has finally ended :(

#i did not know i had been in contact a few days ago with someone who tested positive until after the concert which is very unfortunate #i was masked the whole time thankfully but. still very irksome!

[wickedhawtwexler]

ugghhhh ya girl is sick AGAIN!!! it's been like two weeks, my immune system was really not made for living in a large city y'all

#thankfully it's (once again) not covid #i woke up with a sore throat saturday and thought it was bc i spent several hours screaming abba lyrics on friday night #but it's WORSE today and my body is achy and blahhhh 😪 #and i've been masking almost everywhere i go this is bananas #i don't even know if this is ''living in a large city'' this might be just ''moving to a new location with new germs'' #my freshman year of undergrad (in a literal farming town) i got sick sooo much #fuck you immune system i thought you had my back 😔 #m.txt

[annoyinglibra]

What does this genius in the notes think caused the “bladerunner sky”

#honestly I really hate people joking about this topic #we lose wilderness firefighters to this every damn year. people die. lose their houses and their loved ones #climate change is destroying California and each year it’s getting worse #of course we talk about lightning! I’m pretty sure the picture in particular they’re referencing #was from the fires sparked by dry lightning. #will you people shut up and show some sympathy for something devastating here? #also it was trending because a lady and her dog died. #blah blah make fun of the fucking ‘60° is cold’ I don’t give a shit. #mine and many other peoples lungs are weak to smoke. and so even those of us who aren’t near the fires fucking struggle for MONTHS on end #during fire season. #ugh sorry this is just too personal for me bc my brothers job makes him close to the fires. he’s not a wildland firefighter himself #but it was stressful enough for me as is before this became his fuckin career #current events #thankfully I have an n95 mask this year so I might be a bit better off than the past couple years #in 2020 I donated all of the ones I had saved for myself to some local ER nurses #2020 fire season was a fucking nightmare