#thank u for this ask!!!

[canongf]

happy birthday liv!! youre like the big sister of the selfship community, such a vital and bright presence. yours was one of the first blogs i ever found in the community back in like 2019 or so, and ive been following you ever since! i hope you have a great birthday, do you have any plans (with your f/os or otherwise if you wanna share)? 💓

thank you, anon!!!!!

it is wild to me to think that there are people that have been hanging out with me for that long!!! this blog and this community are my favorite places to be and it is the coolest thing in the world to me that i get to be here. that i get to have this and be this, and have people like you around. and the thought that i can bring big sister energy along with me makes me so so so happy!!! thank you for being here!!!

i have had such a great day, i have felt so accepted and so loved!!! i spent my night with some of my closest friends in our comfy clothes, eating food and playing board games. we laughed until we couldn't breathe. it was so happy!!! i'm so happy!!!

leading up to it, a part of me was nervous to turn 26... but after tonight, i've got a real good feeling about it!!! :)

#I'M HAPPY :) #thank u thank u thank u!!! #for everything!!! #thank u for this ask!!! #thank u for being here!!! #ask liv #birthday wishes #anon

[haet-sal]

what are some of your fics that you believe to be underrated and definitely deserve more hype? feel free to recommend them to us!

Hello!!! First of all have some photos

Purple Hyacinths which is THE best Jun fic !!from me!!, and the fic that revamped this blog! It only has somewhere under 200 notes I think, it really is a good piece of angst so I'd reccomend it

Maniac with Jiung which is my babbbyyy thankfully despite inital lethargy it’s getting more notes probably bc jiung doesn’t have much written about him hehe

MY FAVE IS AAD, Avenging Angel Dystopia which is an ateez fic, a favorite bc I get to write for ateez AND about my own situation in a military-controlled country!! Plus writing angel hwa was sooooo fun for me I loved it!!!!

An Attic Affair is fun I think!! To me it was fun and also really exciting to write!! It got sniped by tumblr at around 300 notes so pkfksksksk if you haven’t read it pls read!!! Has all my favorite tropes: stepbrother, sweet guy/bad guy, all that hehehheh

#xwon #thank u for this ask!!! #ur so niiiice😙😙😙

[zorkaya-moved]

❝  i have never seen anyone fight the way you do.  ❞

@dilucisms

song of achilles. ( accepting. )

Within the lands of snow and winter, where survival of the fittest works to your advantage if you are strong and to your disadvantage if you are weak, Zarina learned the way to ascend. The feminine appearance hid a beast, a huntress who had once been claimed as the best in her generation alongside her brother. They were the devils within the snowy lands, they were the hunters of the ancient, and they were feared and respected at the same time. Fighting outside of Snezhnaya was a piece of cake, even the Wolf Lord would look away and refuse to fight someone like her, but it was all fine - not that she needed to fight someone ancient yet forgotten.

"Haha, Diluc, you're such a flatterer," she approaches the tree where her spear was thrown at. The blade of the spear was gone within the wood, but Sokolova only needed one tug to take the weapon out. The clean and strong throw was certainly something that no one expected out of the 'feeble scholar' that Sokolova would jokingly call himself. She was a Snezhnayan and Snezhnayans had to know how to survive in places where snow and ice was their best and worst friend. If anything, living outside those gorgeous white lands was quite boring as no one was strong enough to last for longer than thirty seconds when it came to Abyss Order or the likes. There were those who could last with her for longer, but she did not wish to fight with them as it would blow up her semi-cover. She isn't there to fully hide what she's capable of, but to keep others guessing how far that potential extends.

"I simply wanted to ensure that we won't have anyone interrupt our sightseeing! I admit I wanted to show off a bit... But I actually hurt my shoulder doing it. It's going to be so sore tomorrow." It's a lie, but she'll also make sure he believes that lie tomorrow. As an Amurta scholar, she knew human anatomy all too well and knew how people acted upon having an injury inflicted on them. That's why she took the spear out with her non-dominant hand instead of the one she threw her spear with. "Are you alright? Did you get hurt? I didn't expect the Abyss Order to create an ambush."

#THANK U FOR THIS ASK!!! #dilucisms #❄ ― IN CHARACTER. ╱ you breathe by the sun，i breathe by the moon.

[dragmuses]

Your she/her muses are having a girl's day. Who's doing what and going where?

Anaïs and Céleste are most likely going to bond at a cafe and visit an art museum! They’d probably take silly pictures with the paintings and statues they see.

Satine and Gabriela are going to go on a shopping spree and get something sweet as a treat! Gabriela will probably introduce Satine to boba or something equally as delicious and fun.

#( ooc. ) #thank u for this ask!!! #it was very cute

[skiploom]

tumblr ate the ask before i could publish it 😭

#thank u for the cute ask!!! #columbo #peanuts #snoopy #my art

[limpfisted]

you are destined for greater things.

“I hope so.” He grins, cocksure, the right side of his face lighting up with his crooked half-smile. “And I hope you’ll be at my side, Lady Madeline. Heroes, the both of us. Legends. More than human.” A promise, his hands pump across his chest. “Adventure has always called to me—and the greater adventure, waiting in the wings?—has just heard its cue.”

#celestieu #thank u for this ask!!!

[hiraeix]

to hold me like water,

or christ, hold me like a knife

#IS THIS TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR #PLS I JUST NEED THEM TO HUG LIKE THIS #anyways #good omens #good omens fanart #aziracrow #crowley #aziraphale #crowley fanart #aziraphale fanart #good omens spoilers #art #my art #SO MANY PEOPLE LIKE THIS OH MY GOD THANK U I DIDNT EXPECT THIS

[disgustinggf]

Is everything ok

nothing has been ok since i turned 12 but thank u for asking!

#nah genuinely thank u for asking i'm just going insane #novembers r always especially shitty for me #i'll get over it #i think #asks #°

[inkskinned]

so while i was writing the book, i became violently suicidal.

this was mostly due to the fact that i had a very bad reaction to some meds and my brain stopped producing any serotonin. also i was in the last semester of grad school where it's actually illegal to feel anything but dread. so it wasn't going well.

somewhere in the fog of it i became aware i needed help. nobody was taking clients or my insurance. i didn't want to do inpatient care - it wasn't right for my needs. there's not really an "in between" stage between "inpatient" and "no care," but i was trying to do the right thing. i was trying to activate the chain of command that was my emergency plan. i knew i needed help now.

i used betterhelp.

i know, i know. i'm a straight-A student and so smart and so clever, how could i ever use something so blatantly bad. to be honest with you, i didn't feel particularly keen on it from the getgo - things that seem too good to be true usually are. also, if something online is free, the price is usually your privacy.

the thing is that there was kind of a global pandemic happening at the time and i worked 5 jobs alongside of being a fulltime student and also like writing a book on the side. it is a miracle that i even thought about getting help. i would love to tell you i had the mental wherewithal to like, process whether this was the right choice for me. mostly i was desperate. i was so suicidal that i was trying to find a reason to stay inside of fortune cookies. i was the kind of suicidal that looks like splatterpaint. i hadn't been that bad in an entire decade.

they took my data. i gave them it freely. somewhere out there, they have a dossier on me. on everything i survived. my story in little datapoints, scattergraphed beautifully.

the first woman told me that really i should be grateful, because (and this is a direct quote): "at least you're not anne frank." i said that i felt that statement was antisemitic, as anne frank's life and experience shouldn't be compared to like, a nonbinary lesbian in western massachusetts. the therapist said that i should try to use lucid dreaming to try to picture myself in an actually scary situation, like running from nazis.

i applied for another therapist. i was willing to accept the possibility that there was a bad apple in the bunch. the next therapist and i even laughed about how inappropriate that statement was. and then, in our next session: the new therapist said if i was struggling with body image issues, i should just work harder on my appearance. she spent 3 sessions in a row talking about how she was grieving, and made me memorize facts about her grandmother so "she can live on through my clients."

i am a three's-a-charm kind of person. okay, so what if the last person made me uncomfortable. i figured it was just a misunderstanding of priorities - she had felt she was sharing with me, i had felt like i had to take care of her. i applied for another therapist.

the last woman asked me to help her pray. she bowed her head. i stared at her, frozen, while she said: lord, i beg you: cure her. take the pain of being gay away from her.

i spent somewhere between 2.5 and 3 months on betterhelp. in that whole time, i was not getting the professional help i so desperately needed, even though i was fucking trying.

in the end, i survived this because i finally could get off the meds that were literally killing me. a request for a real therapist finally went through. i survived because my friends saved my life. because nick let me sob myself dry in his arms. because maddie took the razors out of my room when i asked them to. because grace slept over in my bed for like 3 weeks in a row since nobody trusted me not to hurt myself when i was alone. i survived because i got fucking lucky. because even when i was desperately suicidal, i was too old and too self-aware to take "you need to be prettier" as good advice.

the thing is that there's a 19 year old me who isn't like that. who would have heard "just think about how grateful you should be" and said - oh, i see. i would have assumed that is what it means to be in therapy: the same thing my abusers used to tell me. that i am just pretending and lazy. that i am ugly and unworthy.

betterhelp positioned itself to take advantage of an incredibly vulnerable community. it preys on desperation. it knows it is serving people who are not doing well mentally. it saw that there is a huge need for real, immediate, compassionate mental health care: and then it fucking takes your money and privacy.

i still get their ads on instagram. last night i watched as a woman in a pool pretends to talk to a different woman. they discuss her anxiety.

there's a 19 year old version of me, and she didn't survive this. she was too tired, and drowning. i almost fucking died. this thing almost fucking killed me.

in the ad, the woman playing the therapist takes a note on a clipboard and then nods once, sagely.

i have to admit it's a pretty scene. the steam and light coming off the pool water lands on the actresses. like this, it almost looks baptismal, holy.

#writeblr #the book.... #coming soon #hey so if ur someone who has ever said “you need to write a book” #i wrote the book #it's ... probably the best thing ive ever written #this is maybe too honest lol #okay to reblog thank you for asking i love u i am in love with u our wedding will be in may

[smthaboutuss]

Some V doodls, they make me feel fuzzy like an electrically charged balloon..

First pic was for u anon, I imagine Vel is kinda protective of him lol!

#I love them guys #thank u for the ask<3 #vox hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin vox #vox hazbin #hazbin art #velvette hazbin hotel #velvette hazbin #valentino hazbin #valentino hazbin hotel #staticmoth #voxval #doodlez

[beescake]

ik ur the sollux and karkat blog but would you ever draws a nepeta ? if not thats perfectly fine :)) (also!!! ur probably in my top ten favorite artists ever. you just . do em so good!!!!!)

🫴 a nepeta

#👋 thanks mate i recognize u in my notes i rlly appreciate it :} #ask #cautionszz #homestuck #nepeta leijon #2024 #vioart #babbling no no nep listen its the fault of the system.. the infrastructure.... the society...... #overreliance of network and electricity for everyday life..... expensive fees for adult playgrounds..... loss of third places etcetc.......

[doginacafe]

There's something deeply fucking wrong with you for having a gay character turn bi, especially after all the shit you wrote earlier. I hope you die screaming and alone, you fucking miserable, worthless, degenerate piece of shit. Absolutely nauseating. People like you are the worst possible part of the queer community and I wish I could kill you myself.

Fuck off.

first tumblr hatemail!! does this mean ive officially made it you guys

#ask #im fine also u guys but thank you to everyone who sent very sweet messages #this is not my first run in with people bein rude which is shocking because of how tame my comic is

[star-wrld]

gorgug had to drop the Jock identity so they could pick up Mean Girl

he saw that fig decided to drop off the social scene and said well SOMEONE has to serve cunt around here

#d20 #dimension 20 #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high #fhjy #fantasy high junior year #fantasy high junior year spoilers #gorgug thistlespring #ask #this was my first ask thank u whoever sent this

[bovineblogger]

Hi Barley!

So apparently people have bred mini micro cows? As house pets? This seems insane to me and I was wondering if you knew anything about that/ had any thoughts on it?

not good!!! very very not good!!

ahhh i try really hard to keep this blog as a positive space but this is a really really important thing to me that i feel really strongly about, and i think id be silly if i didnt at least try to warn people, so here goes!!

cattle are not dogs! please do not keep them as house pets!

cattle have very specific needs and if you're not knowledgeable about those needs and not equipped to raise cattle, please do not keep them. i understand that "micro minis" look cute, i completely understand seeing one and wanting one as a house pet if you're not super knowledgeable about them but i really have to warn you guys that cattle can not be happy and healthy under those conditions!

im going to pass it over to my good friend @horse-reviews for the writeup because im not very good at expressing myself when im frustrated and also he is literally an agriculture science guy so watch this space!

photos from here and here

#asks #cattle #thank u for this ask ive been meanign to talk abt tthis

[mrghostrat]

after reading ATWS I have this vision of Crowley checking his watch and it’s the heart rate notif but all it says is:

u down bad

(great updates, btw!!!)

get smitten, idiot

#this made me laugh RLY hard #thank u i desperately needed this fun lil thing to focus on after my uni rejection <33333333 #ask a rat #good omens #gomens #aziracrow #aziraphale #crowley #rat draws

[araneapeixes]

rare bg3 Tav moment coming from me to you with a doodle assortment. with a goth gf cameo of course

#this was rly fun thank u for asking abt Ren.... please ask me anything abt them if you'd like <333 #it was fun thinking abt headcanons for her and shadowheart as well #her calf and hip tattoos are BOTH shadowhear related...simp alert #ALSO YEAH i had to crop shad from that top pic bc she didnt come out right. sorry #bg3 #bg3 fanart #bg3 art #bg3 tav #bg3 oc #shadowheart #shadowtav #shadowheart x tav #art #fanart #ALO LMAO this is my third post today?? bruh i havent moved form the couch all day ive just been going ham #ren