This is gonna sound so weird but I kinda miss having a tc ;-;
I guess a better way of describing it is that I miss being really comfortable around a teacher/professor. I've always had good relations with my teachers but those three were so easy to talk to
Also, I miss being able to mess with them. Not really flirting but, as I said in a previous post, I like to dance on that line of plausible deniability
So.. I haven't been okay lately.. People literally call me a psycho for my illness and then go to support other ppl w more "basic" illnesses, when other people sh it's like "oh is everything okay baby? 🥺" but when I do it and search for help the only reaction I get is "get over it psycho, you probably do it to taste bl00d" LIKE I'M ILL TOO WDYM? IT'S NOT MY FAULT THAT I'M MENTAL I'M STILL A HUMAN, I HAVE FEELINGS, I CAN FEEL SAD, HAPPY, I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM LIKE THAT, I DON'T KNOW, probably bcz of trauma but thats not my fault, why are some people like that, I don't even feel like a human sometimes and idk what to do anymore, I take tons of pills every day cuz idk how to Cope anymore... I don't want to be the way I am but for some reason I am and I can't do anything about it..
my school found out about my TC and there’s a like 90% chance that C has also found out it’s her (she read something about how i feel about her, but i never mentioned her by name, but it’s rather obvious)
my mom said im "getting too obsessed with columbine" and i should "stop watching that stuff"
she also said she wants me to go back to therapy (i didnt like it for a bunch of different reasons)
M came up to my desk during class today and said that i could come visit him in his office tomorrow since i'm missing one of his classes! How scary but exiting!
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have to make ANOTHER intro bc of my account getting t worded😒
i was previously st4rvvinngz, st4vvinngz, st4vvinngz4(?), etc (i mightve misspelled my old users WHOOOPS)
I'm Kody, M15 (turning 16 soon)
I'm bisexual
DNI: ANTIS, ANYONE UNDER 13, REPUBLICANS, HOMOPHOBES, RACISTS, ETC
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IDGAF IF U CONDONE OR DONT CONDONE!!!!
I'm into TCC, $HEDBLR, alternative music such as grunge and metal blahblahblah and more stuff..
I love zero day and archies final project / my suicide
I love piercings, tattoos, music, movies, drawing and other stuff (pretty much repeating what ive said before but.. more dumbed down idk)
I type in caps a LOT bc i get excited over stuff or energetic easily.. im not yelling at u😞
I'm kinda dry at first just because ive got horrible social anxiety and im very socially inept
I have a discord account if anyone wants to be my friend or wtvr but im very cautious about who I add because I don't trust a lot of people so if I don't add you back I think ur suspicious SORRY!!!
If u want my discord u can dm me for it!! And if u dont have discord... uuuhmmhh.. just dm me and ill follow u back if i get t worded again :3
she brought it up at the most random time, it was a whole school event and i had won an award so i was stood up in front of everyone and she was handing me the award she whispered in my ear ‘i got your email- chill out’ LIKE WHY NOW?!?!!
so then i whispered back ‘can i talk to you about it??’ and she nodded, so i waited until we were all dismissed and i went to go and find her and she told me that she completely understood everything i told her and that ‘you know i’m just going to treat you like how a mum would’ :,)
and then she loudly sang christmas songs at me until i left sooo she definitely was not as bad as i thought and i live another day!!