tc-love

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Was there ever a single, quiet, unrecallable thought for even a split second you pictured me the same way I do you?

[tc-love]

I imagine my tc finding this blog and reading through my posts before realizing their about him 💀

#g #manifesting

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#r #I’m wearing his class ring from 14 years ago #age gap relationship

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Remembering how he brought donuts for my class, and my class only, during the exam week when every period was 3 hours long.

And he told me before how much he disliked the rest of my class. Like…why? And anyway I didn’t even eat a donut because I was too shy to eat in front of people. Sorry, g.

#g #tcc #tc #teacher crush #teacher crush community

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#March 2022 #excerpt #g

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The fact I filled up almost an entire journal full of letters that I can’t ever give to him. Thinking of posting some excerpts if they mean anything

#g #tcc #tc #teacher crush

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I mean, sometimes remembering can really destroy you

Benjamin Alire Sáenz, He Forgot to Say Goodbye

#g

[tc-love]

One day I will stop falling in love with you. Until I do, I'll be thinking of you.

k.b. // laufey, philharmonia orchestra - let you break my heart again

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read up a bit on limerance and oh my god there's something so validating and invalidating about finding out what you're feeling isn't real love but also that you're not crazy

[tc-love]

I advanced to the interview step of the 3yr biomedical research program I applied for and I’m so excited guys!

My interview is tomorrow plz wish me luck! This is like the most amazing opportunity I’ve ever had in my entire life and I’m in LOVE with my major I really want to get myself in a lab

[tc-love]

I’m serious guys does that sound open-ended or am I being delusional? 💀

Am I reading too much into this? I did say happy birthday but I kept it simple. He did too; I just feel put off by why he mentioned it’s been a quiet weekend, if that means good or bad. I don’t know, I think I’m just thinking too hard. I’m lucky he responded, really. now I’m going to leave all of this behind me until next year.

#g #tc #tcc #teacher crush community #teacher crush

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I’m gonna be honest I emailed the birthday thing on a whim. I was thinking about it the whole week before and debating on schedule-sending something the night before but I just didn’t. Then I realized what day it was, on the day of, and sent it as soon as I realized. (after some more debating.) I don’t know, but this time his response didn’t make my bones feel like jelly so I guess that’s progress. Even though I’m moving on I still hope he’s doing ok and gets the birthday time he deserves.

#g

[tc-love]

Am I reading too much into this? I did say happy birthday but I kept it simple. He did too; I just feel put off by why he mentioned it’s been a quiet weekend, if that means good or bad. I don’t know, I think I’m just thinking too hard. I’m lucky he responded, really. now I’m going to leave all of this behind me until next year.

#g #tcc #tc #teacher crush community

[tc-love]

It’s all fun and games until you calculate how old they would be at age 18 of your hypothetical child 😢 I’m crying

#r #age gap relationship

[tc-love]

is it a universal thing in the tcc that you're constantly wondering if you're their absolute favorite or the worst thing that has ever happened to them? (or if they don't care about you at all) I've been wondering for almost three years now

#always always #g

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I had a dream about him last night and when I woke up I felt so strange.

Like it was comforting and I do miss that way it felt before but I’m just so sick of him coming back to my thoughts

I wish he would just leave my head forever sometimes

#g #he invited me to stay in the dream like it was casual #as though it was something we did often and he just kept looking at me #just stay out of my head

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Ugh it’s coming up and I’m not gonna. Things are fine as is and I’d rather put this off.

I want to reach out to him eventually but I honestly want to wait a long long time so it actually means something. Like years.

I guess I’m still bitter and I do care about him and hope he thinks of me sometimes but mostly we are living separate lives and I don’t want to be a nuisance. I’m not going to send anything but honestly I can see myself typing the date in my class assignments, notes and being constantly reminded of what day it is already

I hate that there’s so many meaningless days I find important because of him.

Since I DID say I would go in peace (he didn’t ask me to, but still),

I’m not going to email him or interact for a while, but I’m going to reprise somewhere. Maybe his birthday, something small

#g #tc moving on