#tbh ive been worse

[luvsickdog]

been smoking so much recently and i feel so bad ab it👎👎

#tbh ive been worse #feraldogbite yaps #im seventeen and i alr feel like ive wasted ny life idk

[brother-emperors]

ANTONY cry 'havoc,' and let slip the dogs of war

earlier in my script (which is not Shakespeare’s Julius Caesar), Antony refers to Dolabella as one of his ‘dogs of war’ when talking to Cassius (which IS a reference to Shakespeare’s JC), and it comes back around after Cicero writes to Cassius and informs him of Trebonius’ fate

While these things were taking place at Rome, Cassius and Brutus were collecting troops and money, and Trebonius, governor of the province of Asia, was fortifying his towns for them. [...] Trebonius, who was captured in bed, told his captors to lead the way to Dolabella, saying that he was willing to follow them. One of the centurions answered him facetiously, "Go where you please, but you must leave your head behind here, for we are ordered to bring your head, not yourself." With these words the centurion immediately cut off his head, and early in the morning Dolabella ordered it to be displayed on the praetor's chair where Trebonius was accustomed to transact public business. Since Trebonius had participated in the murder of Caesar by detaining Antony in conversation at the door of the Senate-house while the others killed him, the soldiers and camp-followers fell upon the rest of his body with fury and treated it with every kind of indignity. They rolled his head from one to another in sport along the city pavements like a ball till it was completely crushed. This was the first of the murderers who received the meed of his crime, and thus vengeance overtook him.

App. Civil Wars III. 26

For Dolabella is in Syria, and, as you have foreseen in your prophetic soul and have foretold, Cassius will crush him while they are on their way. For Dolabella has had the gates of Antioch shut in his face and got a good beating in trying to storm it. Not trusting in any other city, he has betaken himself to Laodicea, on the sea-coast of Syria. There I hope he will speedily pay the penalty of his crime: for he has no place of refuge, nor will he much longer be able there to stand out against an army as large as that of Cassius. I even hope that Dolabella has by this time been overpowered and crushed.

Cic. Fam. 12.14

Place then before your eyes, O conscript fathers, that spectacle, miserable indeed, and tearful, but still indispensable to rouse your minds properly: the nocturnal attack upon the most beautiful city in Asia; the irruption of armed men into Trebonius’s house, when that unhappy man saw the swords of the robbers before he heard what was the matter; the entrance of Dolabella, raging,—his ill-omened voice, and infamous countenance,—the chains, the scourges, the rack, the armourer who was both torturer and executioner; all which they say that the unhappy Trebonius endured with great fortitude. A great praise, and in my opinion indeed the greatest of all, for it is the part of a wise man to resolve beforehand that whatever can happen to a brave man is to be endured with patience if it should happen.

Cicero, Philippic 11

Philippi and Perusia, Ronald Syme

ko-fi⭐ bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost ⭐ cara.app

#the actual line cassius has here is 'tell mark antony im going to kill his fucking dog' but it doesn't work without the context #of antony earlier calling dolabella one of his dogs. so. i have edited it slightly to provide that context #this is also the one thing that cassius doesn't forgive brutus for because it's brutus who wanted antony left alive #and the dots are simply that if antony was dead then trebonius would not be #brutus can get away with everything else in the name of love. but not that one #(i'll do anything for love but i wont do that etc) #you might say. hey. it doesn't seem like you like brutcass very much. incorrect! i love it a lot! i just want to make them worse #also one of the most romantic scenes ive ever watched in my life in a show was a breakup scene and ive been chasing that high #ever since. but mostly i think theres a tragedy to brutus’ decision making and there should be narrative consequences #roman republic tag #komiks tag #drawing tag #gaius cassius longinus #marcus junius brutus #gore cw #In appian’s text. it’s pretty gnarly tbh

[kenmaiii]

after two years i finally draw the favorite

#my art #still learning honestly. idk how to explain it but some medias youre so fixated on and obsessed with u instantly want to draw everyone #for me dunmeshi has always been the opposite. series and characters i enjoy sm i cannot bring myself to pick up a pencil #for some reason. it got a lot worse once the anime started airing idk. simply forcing myself to get some of my energy out. in a way #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #thistle #dunmeshi thistle #thistle dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #>_< series i was into since late 2021. yet u wouldnt know that unless u follow my side twitter account. sowwy ig #i do this with a lot of franchises honestly. cannot bring myself to draw even if i think abt the characters constantly. ie skip to loafer #u will nvr catch me calling this guy sissel sorry. save that name for Mr. Ghost Trick. another thing i. also. dnt talk abt. which i adore #i need to get better at talking abt and expressing myself for the things that i enjoy. ive been wanting to draw laios for a good #while too but im scared. for some reason. u-u should nvr let a white man do that to me honestly. #for now i'll thistle tho. maybe we will get kabru namari or mithrun next from me >_< i have to talk myself into it #i think the closest way i can explain why i cannot bring myself to draw for some series is that i dnt want to mess up somehow #like 'ilu so much [character] what if i cnt draw u the way u deserve even tho i love u sm what if its not enough.' <- leaves it to sm1 else #tbh [scratches head] i prefer the version with less coloring ^-^ but i realize the one thats more colored would get more eyes on it... hm

[23meteorstreet]

charlie kelly - season 16

#iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #charlie kelly #charlie day #my gifs #s16 spoilers #sorry if this sucks photoshop keeps deleting all my settings :( #gonna be real... i know they were prob trying to balance things out bc s15 had a bunch of charlie stuff #but man there werent enough good charlie moments this season :( #(or at least not stuff i really enjoyed) #i have a dee one coming up tomorrow (not even gonna get into how much worse this season was for her) #& then i think after that im taking a sunny gifmaking break for a bit #i love making these (and im planning on coming to them eventually) but theyre a lot of work #and tbh ive been thinking i need to spend less time on tumblr/sunny stuff bc im just not having as much fun as i used to #& i know i'll enjoy it again eventually tho bc my brain likes to cycle thru the same 5 interests year after year (lol) #just have 2 get there again!!! which might take a bit of time #might still be on all the time. might not. #might be a little more multifandom might make gifs or fanart for other stuff (dont wanna scare everyone off tho) #idk at this point but i felt like i needed to get it out there ya kno #kinda gotta figure out some things. like how to have an actual social life & finding time to make art & not feel overwhelmed all the time. #speaking of art maybe i'll start updating my art blog lol #anyway... gonna be fun when i do come back to these to try to find them to add the links

[soul-of-rei]

smth smth reblog for larger sample size

#botw #breath of the wild #botw link #botw koroks #totk #<- already automatically assuming koroks will still be there and Even Worse #made this poll bc ive been playing through it again for permadeath and i am reminded of how much i Hate Basketball #but tbh #half expecting everybody to vote the rock cult puzzle just bc of that one lurelin korok . #ANYWAYS YES tumblr let us edit poll posts . the amount of time i have to take down a poll then reupload bc i fucked up the duration #is so many and has wasted so many poll posts bc i got lazy to type it all down again QJSJAJJAJA

[smute]

i found a single slice of cheesecake in the basement freezer and since no one here remembers freezing any leftover cheesecake ive been able to carbon date it to 2021 or maybe 2020 thereabouts i honestly have no idea and anyway it is simultaneously the wettest and the driest cake i have ever eaten

#wet bits arent wet enough #the dry bits are SOPPING #it tastes like slightly sweetened magerquark #which is just what german cheesecake is tbh womp womp #but it has the consistency of a spülschwamm that is way past its prime #like you can tell its been used its all stained from the tomato sauce and doesnt really hold its shape anymore #yeah #so its like that #anyway ive put worse things in my mouth #&

[atthebell]

sorry if you’ve already posted something like this but with the shitty news about duolingo I was wondering if you knew of any other resources for studying Brazilian Portuguese? thank you!

i know of a few options! first thing, if you want a pretty close replacement for duolingo, i downloaded busuu from some posts recommending it today and it's pretty similar but better structured imo, and there seems to be some social features that allow you to communicate with native speakers, which is pretty neat!

otherwise, there are various programs out there that i haven't myself used-- i know babbel exists, but i think it involves paying for most of the services. this video from languagejones covers some good things to do alongside duolingo, so you could seek those out as well. and there's various ways of doing directed self-study without an app or anything, which takes a lot of dedication to keep yourself accountable but if you're able to do so that's a really solid options-- you want to probably find some resources to help you know how to progress and maintain an amount of structure.

on that point, for more traditional resources, @/salvadorbonaparte has a megafolder of languages resources with some great stuff for portuguese, including a textbook on learning portuguese as a spanish speaker that's written in english (incredibly helpful for a few of us on here lmao) as well as a few other textbooks and guides (folder from this post), and i'm sure there are plenty of ways to find other textbooks and guides for free in various places. if you're in college or anything like that, taking a class is also a good option if you can, especially if your school has a good portuguese program.

personally i'm planning to use busuu for the time being alongside poking through textbooks above and my usual watching/listening/reading cultural stuff, which seems to be working pretty well. i think the daily prompting aspect is what's most important for me personally, and because busuu has that that'll be most helpful for me as a replacement. hope that helps!

#asks #anons #im also planning to delete the duolingo app and leave a review talking about why and my pre-existing issues with the app #which ive meant to do for months tbh #the app has really gotten so much worse in the last few years unfortunately #language talking #idr what tfucking tags ive been using sorry #language learning #<- i think it was that one actually

[yoggybloggy]

new low for the youtuber adblocker

#ive already added those filters for the new adblocker popup that have been going around but they havent been working tbh #and it just got Worse

[kaseyskat]

my Thoughts on like, normals character and where he's going btw are highly based on his own flaws and like. idk ive kinda seen both sides (normal is a baby and must be protected versus normal needed this ego blow because he was getting too into his head) and I think it's maybe more nuanced than that? cause the thing is. normal is RIGHT to think that his side of things are the morally correct side. he's the one whose seen what the doodler wants and fears and where it came from, he had more perspective on the quest than any of the other teens and I'm not arguing otherwise because it'd be silly. it's HOW he's going about it that puts him firmly into the, "teen character is going to fuck up because they're a teenager" category: as much as he does genuinely try, he's not good at connecting to other people and he does put himself on this pedestal of "i know better and therefore im the best" that isn't exactly the MOST healthy mindset, as a self-proclaimed leader.

that being said, I absolutely understand where he's coming from in this episode in a very. he is hurting and lashing out kind of way? we know why scary is acting the way she is (her own past with her dad + willy trauma=she's still looking for the trauma that justifies her inner darkness) and we know why link is acting the way he is (he's hurt and scared and he never asked for this and he just wants to ensure that he's not the one actively hurting people, he never forgave himself for the casualties of ep2 and the last thing he wants is to add more) and one of normals flaws is his pride, the way he's so sure of what he's doing, he's the best for this and of COURSE it's the right way, he knows that!!!

but he can't empathize with scary right now. very specifically he cannot empathise with her because he can't trust her. and if he can't trust link he can't empathize with him either. normal does view himself as the reason the team is together, and I think that's why he was suddenly on board with kicking scary out when before he was so deadset on helping her: if he personally can't trust anyone, does he really have a team he can lead?

that being said, the shots taken on him recently have been sooo low in comparison. scary has done nothing but bully normal since they reunited. link has been sassy and snippy with normal even since ep26 and it's only gotten worse. normal and taylor don't really have much of a relationship outside the teen friendship circle in general. hermie is angry at normal- and I kinda agree with will that it should NOT solely be up to the players to remember anthony's fucking npc, as funny as it is. as much as I want normal to listen and understand and empathize with scary and link both, it IS a little frustrating when in comparison normals been fucking tanked at every opportunity by the other players- and link's line to normal after he found out about hero actually made me so upset on normal's behalf like dude.

I'm still on the boat that normal should get and deserves a mild villain arc. I desperately want him to team up with hermie and go to the goofs realm alone. I think it might be good for him- both to have a solo adventure with hermie and to have a solo adventure in general, so he can find out why he loves having friends so much. and I think him going through a villain arc would be so narratively compelling, because again, he's not WRONG about the path they should be taking: it isn't underestimating links personal trauma to admit that normal is actually right and he's just so bad at following through. it's just kinda a little tiring sometimes when normal actually does his best to keep the group together and it doesn't work (looking at episode 27 in particular) or when he tries to bury that oak family generational anger the way sparrow and henry do. let him be angry!!!

#kasey rambles #dndads #dndads spoilers #normal oak #THIS ISNT ME HATING ON THE OTHER TEENS BTW #like the whole point of this season imo? is to show that despite having the same goal #they all have such vastly different ideas on how to get there #its such a stark difference from s1 and i love it so bad #that they all have motivations and reasons and they've all been done a little dirty #but sjfjkgkflgb id be lying if i said that normal isnt a point of contention in the fandom from what ive seen #he kinda reminds me of marcy wu in that regards #itd be wrong to say that normals anger and sass in this ep wasnt justified just like #itd be wrong to say that links actions in breaking the pic and spying on scary werent justified #its a part of who they are! theyre fundamentally so different and thats okay!!! #link is angry with how normal's plans have only seemed to hurt more people and he is VALID for that anger like it makes sense! #but that doesnt mean normal isnt justified in being hurt that link broke the pic #also link snipping at normal about him being unwanted right after the reveal... i would've reacted so much worse than normal tbh #but idk idk im just rambling. a little drunk. drunk nyx having big feelings

[pacifymebby]

If you can be arsed with all those tags and fancy giving me brutal advice read away haha

#something is definitely going wrong for me because I want to go out tomorrow night with my mate who is thinking about getting a bag in and #and that lowkey sounds like a lot of fun to me and i wanna chip in but like i think B wants to come out and if he does i cant join in with #my pal because B would very much be against me doing that and like ugh #he doesnt even drink at the moment and i feel like out of nowhere hes matured but in all the wrong ways #like in none of the ways ive been wanting him to for the last few years #but in the ways which mean our nights out arent compatible anymore #and i know im the problem for wanting to be nihilistic hedonistic whatever #but i feel like im getting back the bit of my early 20s covid and working in care robbed me of #and hes already had his phase of that sort of stuff but like would be annoyed with me if i was doing coke around him and stuff #im definitely being selfish and should just say no to the drugs and like be a good girlfriend but #ahhhhhh idk if i cant have christmas like and i didn't get christmas eve at the pub then i kinda want boxing day at the pub with my mates #ugh #a tiny part of me is considering changing my plans with b and being borderline dishonest but also i know that #doing that is going to make whatever problem there is between us worse? #ultimately i know that im morally in the wrong here tbh and also like a bit of a loser

[fooltofancy]

cats for my parents, this year. they're gonna be late but theyre gonna happen.

#im even more scared to paint them tbh the colors are a lot more complicated than the last one #idk what im doing and also im a coward #wanted to be done by friday but i think im gonna have to paint them at home #workspace anxiety worse for whatever reason #should draw cats more though they are made of such nice shapes #perry (right) has been dead for about three years iirc but they lost stella very suddenly last year and that was v hard on my mom #insane little cat but she was mom's insane little cat #hi im a dead cat portrait artist #apparently. #actually. all of the like. people or animals ive painted traditionally have all been dead. #...... #hm. #vindraws #wip

[khattikeri]

I'm on some gender theory nonsense again wondering exactly how much of the tragedy in mdzs would've been avoided if Wei Wuxian was a woman.

the dysfunctional Jiang family drama itself would've taken on a different form bc of the change in gender roles. Jiang Cheng's relationship to her would've also been very, very different. I honestly think he wouldn't have hated her nearly to the same degree as his canon counterpart, and that's almost sadder than the canon tragedy of their falling out and remaining strangers.

#mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #keri chats #ancient chinese gender roles + misogyny couldve easily made things worse too tbh but. ive been thinking abt this

[the-kipsabian]

#ive had. extremely hard time already processing this year tbh #both old grief and new grief. its just a lot #i know i dont have to do everything immediately. things dont have to get better overnight and most likely they wont #i mean. they havent #just. saw this and it made me think. probably too much but im an emotional mess at all times either way #i would just like things to be different. i know its a lot to ask and its mostly in my hands for myself but.. yeah #its just not easy. and im not dealing with it very well. i dont know #been trying to tell myself the usual. time doesnt heal it changes you. im going through difficult things and thats okay #i just.. i guess i just hoped this year would be different. so far it hasnt been its been worse #i dont know what the point of me posting this is. i just need to vent a little i guess #this is not gonna be an easy week for me and im not looking forward to it. like said grief is a very difficult thing for me #difficult and new. im trying but its hard. i dont know how im gonna make it this year #anyways. sorry #night is an absolute mess on main

[nibblelinephym]

just sat in the bathroom for probably over half an hour in nauseating back pain im actually the bravest man ever #we stay silly

#achilles vents #ive been hesitant to call what ive got chronic pain bc it has times when it gets worse and times i barely notice it but god. tbh. im not so #hesitatant right now #this shit SUCKS !!

[luvrbunni]

ik ive not been active at all anyways sort of explanation/me complaining in tags

#i have gotten progressively worse lately in terms of physical health and its just taken a lot out of me tbh #over the past few months ive developed chronic pain and fatigue drs still arent sure if its fibromyalgia or chronic fatigue but whatev #in any case ive been in tremendous pain everywhere it's not been fun at all #i also have this new thing where i get a tremor if i hold things too hard and while it is relatively painless it still is making life harde #esp since i am an art student so im kind of stuck not rly knowing what to do atp #ive just not been in the best mindset and while i recognise that disability is not ugly in any way i do just feel harder to love now #like i dont think my personality is fun enough to make up for all this idk if that makes any real sense #ive also been temporarily put on birth control its a long story but it's only until i get scheduled for a minor surgery most probably #but yanno birth control has unfun side effects and i feel like im going crazy most days #ik this all probably sounds pretty silly but idk. its been hard to feel genuinely attractive lately. #forgot to add this but there was some other stuff that happened thats definitely effecting just my self image and libido and stuff lately #long story short someone i trusted ended up crossing multiple physical boundaries and passed uncomfortable comments abt me and similar shit #its not been fun to deal with in any way yk?

[bunnakit]

"you can't solve all your problems by rewatching your favorite BLs all day"

that's where you're wrong buckaroo 👉🏻👉🏻

#no actually its making them worse tbh #didnt work today bc ive been dizzy all day #but then i feel guilty for not working and just watching bls #also feeling really insecure about my writing and fics #just bad mental health days i guess